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An ACCOUNT of the LIFE Of the late Reverend Mr. David Brainerd,

Minister of the Gospel,

Missionary to the INDIANS, from the honorable Society in Scotland, for the Propagation of Christian Knowledge, and Pastor of a Church of Christian INDIANS in New-Jersey.

The PREFACE.

THERE are two Ways of representing and recommending true Religion and Virtue to the World, which God hath made Use of: The one is by Doctrine and Precept; the other is by Instance and Example: Both are abundantly used in the holy Scriptures. Not only are the Grounds, Nature, Design and Importance of Religion clearly exhibited in the Doctrines of Scripture, and it's Exercise and Practice plainly and abundantly enjoin'd and enforc'd in it's Commands and Counsels: But there we have many excellent Examples of Religion, in it's Powerand Practice, set before us, in the Histories both of the Old Testament and New ---- Jesus Christ, the great Prophet of God, when he came into the World , to be the Light of the World, to teach and enforce true Religion, in a greater Degree than ever had been before, he made Use of both these Methods: In his Doctrine he declared the Mind and Will of God, and the Nature and Properties of that Vertue which becomes Creatures of our Make and in our Circumstances, more clearly and fully than ever it had been before, and more powerfully, enforced it by what he declared of the Obligations and Inducements to Holiness; and he also in his own Practice gave a most perfect Example of the Vertue he taught. He exhibited to the World such an illustrious Pattern of Humility, divine Love, discreet Zeal, Self-denial, Obedience, Patience, Resignation, Fortitude, Meekness, Forgiveness. Compassion, Benevolence, and universal Holiness, as neither Men nor Angel ever saw before.  God also in his Providence has been wont to make Use of both these Methods to hold forth Light to Mankind, and Inducement to their Duty, in all Ages: He has from time to Time raised up eminent Teachers, to exhibit and bear Testimony to the Truth in their Doctrine, and oppose the Errors, Darkness and Wickedness of the World; and also has, from Age to Age, raised up some eminent Persons that have set bright Examples of that Religion that is taught and prescribed in the Word of God; whose Examples have in divine Providence been set forth to publick View. These have a great Tendency to engage the Attention of Men to the Doctrines and Rules that are taught, and greatly to confirm and enforce them; and especially when these bright Examples have been exhibited in the same Persons that have been eminent Teachers, so that the World has had Opportunity to see such a Confirmation of the Truth, Efficacy, and Amiableness of the Religion taught, in the Practice of the same Persons that have most clearly and forceably taught it; and above all, when these bright Examples have been set by eminent Teachers in a variety of unusual Circumstances of remarkable Trial; and God has withal remarkably diftinguish'd them with wonderful Success of their Instructions and Labours, consisting in glorious Events that have been in many Respects new and strange.

Such an Instance we have in the excellent Person, whose Life is published in the following Pages. His Example is attended with a great Variety of Circumstances, tending to engage the Attention of religious People, especially in these Parts of the World; He was one of distinguish'd natural Abilities; as all are sensible, that had Acquaintance with him: He was a Minister of ths Gospel, and one who was called to unusual Services in that Work, whose Ministry was attended with very remarkable and unusual Events, an Account of which has already been given to thePublick; one whoseCourse of Religion began before the late Timcs of extraordinary religious Commotion, but yet one that lived in those Times, and went through them, and was very much in theWay of the various extraordinary Effects and unusual Appearances of that Day, and was not an idle Spectator, but had a near Concern in many Things that pass'd at that Time; one that had a very extensive Acquaintance with those that have been the Subjects of the late religious Operations, in many of these British Colonies, in Places far distant one from another, in People of many different Nations, of different Educations, Manners and Customs; one who had peculiar Opportunity of Acquaintance with the false Appearances and Counterfeits of Religion: One who himself was the lnstrument of a most remarkable Awakening, and an exceeding wonderful and abiding Alteration and moral Transformation of such Subjects as do peculiarly render the Change rare and astonishing.

In the following Account, the Reader will have Opportunity to see, not only what were the external Circumstances and remarkable Incidents of the Life of this Person, and how he spent his Time from Day to Day, as to his external Behaviour; but also what pass'd in his own Heart, the wonderfnl Change that he experienced in his Mind and Disposition, the Manner in which that Change was bro't to pass, how it continued, what were it's Consequences in his inward Frames, Thoughts, Affections and secret Exercises, through many Vicissitudes and Trials, from thenceforth for more than eight Years, 'til! his Death; and also to see how all ended at last, in his Sentiments, Frame and Behaviour, during a long Season of the gradual and sensible Approach of Death, under a lingering Illness, and what were the Effects of his Religion in dying Circumstances, or in the last Stages of his dying Illness. The Account being written, the Reader may have Opportunity at his Leasure to compare the various Parts of the Story, and deliberately to view and weight the whole, and consider how far what is related is agreeable to ths Dictates of right Reason and the holy Word of God.

I am far from supposing, that Mr. Brainerd's inward Exercises and Experiences, or his external Conduct, were free from all Imperfection: The Example of Jesus Christ is the only Example that ever was set in the human Nature, that was altogether perfect; which therefore is a Rule, to try all other Examples by; and the Dispositions, Frames, and Practices of others must be commended and followed no further, than they were Followers of Christ.

There is one Thing in Mr. Brainerd, easily discernable by the following Account of his Life, that may be called an Imperfection in him, which tho' not properly an Imperfection of a moral Nature, yet may possibly be made against the extraordinary Appearances of Religion and Devotion in him, by soch as seek for Objections against every Thing that can be produced in Favour of true vital Religion; and that is that he was one who by his Constitution and natural Temper was so prone to Melancholy and Dejection of Spirit. There are some who think that all serious strict Religion is a meloncholy Thing, and that what is callled Christian Experience, is little else besides Vapours disturbing the Brain, and exciting enthusiastical Imaginations. But that Mr. Brainerd's Temper or Constituion inclined him to Despondency, is no just Ground to suspect his extraordinary Devotion, as being only the Fruit of a warm Imagination. I doubt not but that all who have well observedMankind,will readily grant this, that it is not all those who by their natural Constitution or Temper are most disposed to Dejection, that are the Persons who are the most susceptive of lively and strong Impressions on their Imagination, or the most subject to those vehement impetuous Affections, which are the Fruits of such Impressions; but that many who are of a very gay and sanguine natural Temper are vastly more so, and if their Affections are turned into a religious Channel, are much more cxposed to Enthusiasm, than many of the former. And as to Mr. Brainird in particular, not withstanding his Inclination to Defpondency, he was evidently one of that Sort of Persons who usually are the furthest from a teeming Imagination; being one of a penetrating Genious, of clear thought, of close Reasoning, and a very exact Judgement; as all know, that knew him. As he had a great Insight into human Nature, and was very discerning and judicious in Things in general, so he excell'd in his Judgment and Knowledge of Things in Divinity, but especially in Things appertaining to inward experimental Religion; most accurately distinguishing between real solid Piety and Enthusiasm, between those Affections that are rational and scriptural, having their Foundation in Light and Judgement, and those that are founded in whimsical Conceits, strong Impressions on the Imagination, and those vehement Emotions of the animal Spirits that arise from them. He was exceeding sensible of Men's Exposedness to these Things, how much they had prevailed, and what Multitudes had been deceived by them, of the pernicious Consequences of them, and the fearful Mischief they had done in the Chriftian World. He greatly abhor'd such a Sort of Religion, and was abundant in bearing Testimony against it, living and dying; and was quick to discern when any Thing of that Nature arose, tho' in it's first Buddings, and appearing under the most fair and plausible Disguises; and had that Talent at describing the various Workings of this imaginary Enthusiastical Religion, evincing the Falseness and Vanity of it, and demonstrating the great Difference between this and true spiritual Devotion, which I scarcely ever knew equalled in any other person, ---- And his Judiciousness did not only appear in distinguishing among the Exeriences of others, but also among the various Exercises of his own Mind; and particularly in discerning what within himself was to be laid to the Score of Melancholy, in which he exceeded all melancholy Persons that ever I was acquainted with (tho' I have been in the Way of Acquaintance with very many;) which was doubtless owing to a peculiar Strength in his Judgement: 'Tis a rare Thing indeed, that melancholy People are well sensible of their own Disease, and fully convinced that such and such Things are to be ascribed to it, as are indeed it's genuine Operations and Fruits. ------ page vi Mr. Brainerd did not obtain that Degree of Skill, which he had in this Matter, at once, but gain'd it gradually ; as the Reader niiiy difccrn by ihe following Account of his Life. In ilie former Parr of his religious Couife, he imputed much ofthat KinctofGloomincJs of Mind and ihofe dark Theughts, to fpiritual Difirtion, which in the latter Part of his Lilc, he was abundantly fcnfible, were owing to the Difeafe of Mslavchtily ; accordingly he often enptefly ipraks of them in his Diary as arifing frnmihiECaule ; and he was often inCoovetfation fpcak-ing of thi: Dificrence betwaen Melancholy and godly Hoirow, true Ifumiliation and Ipiritual Defettion, and the great Danger of miftaking the one for the other, nnd the very livirtful Nature of Melancholy, difcourfing ■with great Judgment upon it, and doubtiefs much mora judicioufly tor what he knew by his own Experience, But btiides what maybe argued from Mr Braiiifrd'i Strength of Judgment, 'tis apparent in Fa(t, that he was not a I'cifcn of a warm Imagination, His in^'ard Experiencts, either in hisConviilions or bis Converfion, and his religious Views and Itnprcffions thro' the Courlc of his L.ife to his Death C of which he has left i very-particular Account ) none of them confifttd in, or wera txclted by.lliongsnd lively Images formed in hislms-ftili«li«n i thtrc IS ijothinB «5 *" sppears of it in hia

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X)i<iry, Twm Beginning to End : Yea, he <oM mc Oil hi-HOeath-Bed, that, allho' once when he was very young in Yeats and in Experience,he was deceived into a bigb Opinion of fuch Things, bokii^g on them as fuperiout /Vtrninments in Religion, beyond what he had ever Biiivcd to, and was ambitious of them and earneftljr luught them, yet he never could obtain them ; and that lie never in his Lite had a (Irong ImprcfTien on his Imi-Rination, of any V.f.ige, outward Form, external Gloi]f, i,r any other 'I lung of that Nature ; which Kind ot Impreffions abotmd among the wild enthufiaftic PetJ-^ pie of the late and prefent Day,

As Mr, Brainird'B Religious ImprelTion!, Views and Allvflions in theirNatut« were vallly different fromEn-ihufiafm, lb wetc their EfftSs in him as contiaty as pollibie to the ordinary El&as of that. Nothing fo pulTs Men up, as Emhuftajm, with a high Conceit of their own Wifdom, Holmefs, Eminency and Sufficien-(V and makes *om (b bold, forward, aflfuniing, and arrogant : But the Reader will fee, that Mr, Brainird's Religion conftantly dlfpofed him to a moll meanTho'c ot hTmfelf, an abafitig Senfe of his own exceeding Sin-julnefs. Deficiency, Unprofitablcncfs, and Ignorance j loukingonhimfelfaswotfe than others i difpoGng him to univeifal Benevolence, Meeknefs, and in Honour to prefer others, and to treat all with Kindnefs andRefpeft. And when Mslauchely prevailed, iho' the EffeSs of it were very prejudicial to him,yet it had not thofeEfiefts of Eitltiifm/in ; but operated by dark and difcouraging Thou"his of hinifelf, as ignorant, wicked and wholly unat for the Work of the Miniftry, ot even to be feeo among Mankind, feff Indeed at the Time fore-mentioned, when he had not leatn'd well to diftinguilh betweenEnthufiafm &folidReligiQn,he joining and keeping Company with fome thit were tinged witti no fmaH Degree of the fotiner, for a Seafon partook with theni in a Degree of their Difpofitions and Behavioarsv tho . as was obferved before, he could not obtain thtjfcThingj - a a ■jrheteia

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wlierein thflr Enthufiafm it fclf confided, and fo could not brciime like 'rm in that Rtfpcft, how ver he er-loncouily defired and fought is. But certainly it !s not HE ail to be wondered at, that a Youth and a youwg CoRtfert, cne that bad his Heart i'o (wallowed up in Religion, and fo earnpftly defircd the 9ouri(l)ing of it, but had had fo little Opportunity for Reading ,Ot)ffrvation and Hxpt-rience, (hould for awhile bedazzled and deceived with the glaring Appearances of that niiftaken Devotion and Zeal j efpecially conridering what the extraordinary Circumftances of that Day were He lold me on his Drath-B?d, that while he was in thefe Cir-cumllances he was out of his Element, and didViolcncc 10 himfelf, while complying, in hisConduift, withPtt-ibns of a fierce and imprudent Zeal, frotu his great Veneration of fome that he looked upon much better than hitnfelf, So that it would be very unrealunable,tha£ his Error at that Time (lioaid neverthelefs be efteemcd a jufl; Ground of Prfjudice again ft the whole of tiis lie-iigion, and his Charafter in general ; efpecially confi-dering, how greatly his Mind was foon changed, and how exceedingly he afterwards lamt-nted his Error, artd ahhor'd himfelf for his imprudentZcal andMifconduft at that Time, even to the breaking of his Heart, and a[-moft to theovcibfaringand breaking theScreogth of his Nature ; and how much of a Chriftian Spirit he fitew-td, in his condemning himfelf for thit Milconduft, a3 the.Reader will fee.

What has beennov/ mentioned of Mr. Sraiiiei-d,h fo far from being juff Ground of i^.^ejudice againft what is related in the following Account of his Life, that, if duty confidered, it will render the Hidory the more Strvictahle, For by his thus jdtning for a Seafon with EnihiifiaS!,\tt had a more full & intimateAcquaintance with what belonged lotbatSortof Kcligion, and fo was under better Advantages to judge of the Differcrjce be-fweeti that^and the other, which he fmaiiy approved and ilrovc u his utmoft so piomoie, in Oppofuion to it :

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And hereby the Reader has the more to dEmonftrate to hrm shut Mr. Brainerd m his Tctlimony againft .1 and the Sp,rit and Bthsvioiir of thofe that are mliuenced by i,, 1,,'aks from impattial Convia.on, and not fromIre-iiKhce; b-caufe therein he t^penly condrmns hisown former Opinion and Condua, on Account of wlvch I, had grpatly fuffered from hisOppofers,and for which fome continued to Keproach him as long as he lived.

Another Imperfeaion in Mr. BrakfXrf.which may he oba-tved in the following Account of his Life, was hu being extefw^ w bis Lahnr, : not taking due Care to Proportion his Fatigues to his Strength Ii^deed the Cafe was very often lb, and fuch the f«ming alls of Providence, that it wis extremely difficult f..r hini to avoid doing more than his Strength w.iuld well adtnit of- yea, his CircumfVunces, and ihe I3.irm<fs of his Miffion among the hdhns, were (uch. ^h«S'"'J^-liRUes and Hardn-iips were altogether inevitable. How-t«.. he was linally convinced, that he bad err d m this Matter, and that he ought to have tak: n triore thorn Care, and been more refoluie to w.thlland 1 erjiptalions to fuch Decrees of Lab"Ur as injur'd his Health ; and accordir^gly warned his bnlhir, who facceeds bini m his Miffion, to be careful to avoid this Error. _

Befideisthelmperfeaions already mentioned, it is rea-

dilv allowed, that there were fome Imperfeaions that

ran through his whole Life, and were mixed with al!

bi5 tehgious Affeflionsand Exercifes, fome Mixture of

what was natural with that which was fpintual ; »s't

evermore is in the bett Saints m this Woiid. poubtkfs

there was fome Infiuence that natural Temper had in th.

religious Exercifes and Experiences of Mr «!'«.«•■<', a*

there moft apparently was in th= txercifes of devo«

D™,i. and the Apoftl" PeUr, Jo}m and Paul; Thers

warundoubtedly very often fome Infiuenre of his oa urai

D poton to Deiealon ii. his religious Mourning, «m8

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Fire of Youth with his holy Zeal for Qoi, gnd fome Inaucnce of natural Principles mix'd with Grace in various other Rcfpefts, as it ever was and evet will be with the Saints while on this Side Heaven. Perhaps none were more fenliblc of Mr. Brm«erd's Imperfeftmns than hehimfelts orcould diftinguifli more accurately, than he, between what was natural and what was fpirituai. 'Tis eafy for the judicious Reader to obfcrve, that his Graces ripen'd, and the religious Exercifes of his Heart bfsame more and more piirc, and he more and more diftinguifhmg in his Judgment, the longer he liv'd: He had much to teach and purify him.and he failed no! to make his Advantage thereby,

Bucnotwithifanriing all thi-fe ImperfeAions, lam pcr-fwaded, every pious and judicious Reader will acknowledge, that ft'hat is here fee before him is indeed a remarkable Inllance of true and eminent Chriftian Piety in Heart andPraaice ; tending greatly to confirm iheReali-ty of vital Rehgron and the Power of Godlinefs, moft worthy of Imiiation, and tiiany Ways tending to the fpiritual Benefit of the careful Obferver.

'Tis flt, the Reader Ihould be aware, that what Mr. Braitierd wrote in IvaBiary, out of which the following Account of his Life is chiefly taken, was written only for his ov/n private Ufe. and not to get Honour and Applaufe in the World, nor with any Deljgn that the World Hiould ever fee it, cither while he lived or after his Death, excepting fame few Things that he wrote in a dying State, after he had been perfwaded Cwith Difficulty) not entirely to fupprefs ail his ptivatc Writinas. He fiiewed himfclf almoll invincibly averfe to the P'i^. /f^iff^of anyPart oiKisIikfy after hlsDcath ; and when he was thought to be dying at Bafim, save the mod: Jtria peremptory Orders to tkeContrary : but being by fome of his Friends there prevailed upon to withdraw foftrifland abfolute a Piohibition,he was pleafed finally to yield fo far as that hisPapsrs jbrnU hs left in myUanis, mt 1 miibf difpifi ef ibim as Ilbsughl nimid h msH fir

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r,,,h aim ani the Imirefi of ReSgisn.— 'Svt afewDayS' liHoif III'. IJeatb, he ordered fome Part of hia Diary ta lit) tlrlltoycd (as will afterwards be obferved; which ren-ilort iheAccount of huLife the lefs compleat. And there •ir I.MUe Parts of hisDruryare here left out for Brevity i .■„ii(r, ilut would (1 am fenfible) have been a great Ad-vjiiuiur to the I-lillory, if they had been inferted ; par-liriilmly tlvo (Vecoiint of hi» wonderfu! Succeffes among ■ lie hdiMi : wiiieh hir Sulillancc i.i the fame in his pn-vnir Diary with that which has already been made pub-lick, in the JmrKal he kept by order of the Society in Scellmtl, for their Information. That Account, 1 am of (Jj)iiiiuii,would be moreentertainingand more profitable, ii ic were pubhfiied as it is written in his Suir}, in Con-iieaiun with his fectet Religion and the inwardExercifes of his [Vlind, and alfo with the preceedingand following P«riii lil the Story of his L.ife. But becaufe that Account lias hrni iViblifliid .ilrrady, and becaufe the adding it here would niakL- the liook much more balky and more cuftly.which might tend to difcourage the Porchafe and Petufal of it, and fo render it lefs exteniively tifeful, 1 hive therefore omitted that Part. However, this Defefl; niajr iti a great Meafure be made up to the Reader, by his purchafing his publick^sMrHu;, and reading it in its Place, with this Hiftory of his Life ; which undoubtedly would be well worth the while for every Reader, and would richly rccompenfe the additional cofl: of the Porchafe. I hope therefore, that tbofe of my Readers who are not furnilhed with thai Bask, will, for their own Profit and Entertainment, and that they may have the Story of this excellent Perfon more compleat, procure one of thofe Books ; without which hs muft have a very imperfefl: Viev* of the raoft important Part of his Life, and ( on . fome Accounts; of the moll remarkable and wonderful Things in it,— 1 Ihould alfo obferve, that befides that •Book, and antecedent to it, there is a J^arraiivs relating ^0 the /»*»»Affairs, annexed to Mr.Pf»i(r/o«'i Sermoti

U Mr, Braiiterd's Ordination ; which likewife may the ^. ^. ... - - j^^ji^

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more profitably be read in Conjunaiot) with his Vkfj pitTious !o J\W. 5, I 74^.

Bu: it is Timtr to end this Prefacf, that the Reader may be no longer detain'd from tlje Hiftory it ftlf.

N. B. Thofe Parts tsf the following Hi [lory, that are inchided between Brechis thus [ J are the Words of the PMi/her,ior the moil Part, fumma-rily reprefenting [ for Brevity's Sake) the fubltance or chief Things contained in Mr. Braimrd'i Diary, for fucli a certain Space of Time as is thcrr fpeci-fitd : The reft is theAccoont that he givfs of hinj-fcif in his private Writings, in his own Words,

I prefiinie, fcarcc any Reader needs to be toid, (hat [ /f. JBl. ] on the top of the Page, fia;nifi;s 7be

• Tear of his Age, and [ A. D. ] lbs Tear of sitr LerJ.

£{fij« the Errata « (lie End of the Life, He Rnder. it deCt'4 to corrcdi the /oJlowing,

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An Account of the Life of The Reverend Mr. David Brainerd.

Part I.

From his Birth, to the Time when he began to devote himself to the Study of Divinity, in order to his being fitted for the Work of the Ministry,

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R. DjtviJ Bmifurd was born jff^ril zo, 171^* at Had/Jam^ a Town belongtttg to the Cownt/ of Hnrtferi^ in (lie Colony of Csnnt3kut^ New-England. His Faifer.wliodied wlien ihia his Son was about nine Years of Age, was the Worfiiipfnl Rmtkiab Brmiuri ECj; an Afliftant, or one of his Majsiij's Council for that Colony, and the Son of Danitl Btainird Efq; ajufiice of the Peace, and a Uearon of theChiich nf Chiill in Haddim. His Mithir was M's. Donlbj Hohart, 35aughter to the Rev. Mr, Jtrmtah HsHrt, who prcach'd a while at TspifiiU, and tlicn removed (o Hitnpftiai on £shj-lOtmd, and afterwards removeti from Hmpfliad ( by Reaion of NuEibeis turning QuaJtcrs, and many (nhcrs being fs; Irreligious,

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thitjhey woii!d do noshing towards the Sapporf of thcMiniffrvJ and came antl fettled in the Work of liie Mioiftry at Haddsm-Wiierc: he died in the g^th Year of his Age ; Of whom it i, igmarfcable.thathcwcnt m (hepublickWarlhipin theForemotf. ind died m his Chair between Meetings. And this Rev. Gen-''=?i'ii'™sSnn of iheRei/. Mr. Filer IMsrt, who was, firft, M in ifter of the Gofpd at Hiifgharn, in the County of Nir/sli in i.iigknd, and by Reafan of the Petfecutiori of thf PuriiM re-nioved with his Family lo Ntw-England, and was fettled in the m»na,Y M Hmgksm, in Va<: MMffmhuJilu. • He had five Sons, vi/.. pjhua, Jirmmh, G,rJI„m, Japhith, and N.bemah. His Eon 'Miua was MiniJler at SmhldaaUng-ljlaad ; —JirmM, wiiUc. Da^:dBraSTiird-iGnaifKht!, Miniftet at Awj™ &e. as w«s before ahfervod : Gir/lim was Minifler of Graisn ira Cotmmkm \ Japbitl/wis a Phyf.cian, and Went 'in the Oualiiv Bfa Doftnrof a Slip to Esfh^d, ( before rheTime for thj tak-iogh,sfcctiLidJ>^reeata)llege) snd deiignedtoga from thenc; tOthslia//_-J«ii,ci, andnSver was heard of tHore :. Nihtmhhvlis foraelmicFclbwof/j'orrarfl'CoIlege, and afterwards Miniftcr ixNimun in the Msjscbufilts. The Mollicrof Mn. Dmlh, Hdarl { who was afiervfSrdi Brmntrd) was Daughter to ihc Eev, Mr. iWW imUng, Miniftet of-the Gofpel, firftat B,ll,^ m LmcMriani afterwards at Lynn in the MaJ)aA»litli,Nim-Miigkhd i He had three Sons that were Miiiifieis'of the GoipsJ*'

Mr. ZrjfoSmW/Ju.asthefiiirifSon of'his Parents. They had. (iveioqJiUKt four Daughters : Their eldett Son is Hezikilb ira,i,.rdEC<ii a Ji/fticc of the Peace, and for fevcral Years paft » Reprefentamc of iheToWo of HaMdi,i,kl theGetleralAfTem-bly uf6Vm?rf?;fB(Colony : Thcfecon.) wssiheRev.Mr.A'(Am/o4 Bremird, a Wd,rihr Minifler at EaUhry in Csnmakm, who .Siid-of a; Cohfiimption Jfti,. 10. ,742. Thofou.shisMri pkn Brair.etd, who fuceseds his Brothei DMid, aj MiiKonaiy to ttic/WrsKii and Pafbr of the fame Churrfl of Chriilianin' ''""'.'''^'^-y"/" ■ And the filth was Ifmi, palely Student at MfCoWege in Ntw-Havai, and died fmcc bjs Brother V^id.—M,\. Demhf Br^wtd having lived fertral Years ,i Wrdo*, died, when her Son, whofbf.ifc I aoi'aboot lo give aft AccAumoF, was about fosrlech Years cjf Age.: So that in his Youfb he was left both Fathetloli and Motherlefs.---What Account he has givtn of Himfelf, »iid his own iife, aaj it ftaj m what fedlom. J

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IWaSjItbink, from siy Youth, fomEEbingOher, and indfncd raihcr Hj jMeUncimlyj ihan the coiufriij iLxircmc i biit Jjii'f rclnc[n^>^;^H^y Thing of Cosividiion ui Srii-, wDjEhy oi KLniJik, *tiJl I wjSj 1 balieve, aboutf-vciv or tiL;^;': Vtar: or M;-1 ivi t-'ii I liCCdiiic fumeihmg coiicijrn'J for m7 :iO!il, luic! ;t:riirL.J ni i-ii; Tliiiiii;hts of Deadi, and w^s drivc!! to tbe Pttformiiiicy o( Dl-lk:i : But it appeared a niebmijttlK iiuliiiofj, and dciJioycd my Kjgernets for l*Jay. And alas ! This, rcligiou^iCVjncern was but* tliort-IiVQd. However^.i foraan|iBa^Hen(ie(i fecrciPfayer; ar.d tluijlived at T^ftfn in '//.ipj, iilihut Cni m the H'urU, and wjlh-iiiit iiim.h CviiLLtiij as 1 i<.i]Knibt;i, '(ill 1 vjis above [hirteen Xcifsof AgE. ButromeUme la the Winter 3 73?, 1 waifpn^e-tJilngroufed out of carnal Security, by Ifcaice knc* whatMeanS mfiTjf'i but wa^ inucli excited by the prevailing of a tnortal. SickiiefB in Haddam : I was frequent, ciiiiftant and fomcEhlng, fervent in Duties, and took Delight ii) reading, tfpcclilly Mr. Jane-ivay'i Tohufor Children ; J fuit fOroctitJiis OTiUch nicltcd in Duties, and lujk grcai Delight in t[iePeri'ornianj;e of 'cm : At\<X 1 rurnetimcs hoped, that I w^i converteti, or^tk-aJi in a guoJ aiii hopeful Way for Heaven and Happinefs, iiot fcnoyvifig what Ccjiiverlion waa. The t>[iirit of God at this Tisine piocetded farwiihmci 1 was reoiaifcably dead to theWorld, anJ my Thoughts were aljnoft wholly employed about my Saur.s Concerns i and I may tndeed fay^ almo^ I waipsrjtvadid ta hi a Chrijlian. I wasalfoexceedinglj'dittrcfibd and melancholy ac Ihe Death of my Mother, \i\ Mar^h -ni^. But altcrwards my religions Concern bc^an to decline, and 1 by Deg^cees fell hack into aconfiderable Degree of Security 1 ihu' If^lll attended fecfct Prayer fre(|ucntlj'.

About the T5th of April i-j-^'i^ I removetl frnm r.^y F^ihtrr's Houfe to Ea/i-Haddam, wher-; 1 (pent I'.^ur Yc.j.ij but fVill %vithi!Ji Gsd ia tb$World j tbo' for the moft Parti went a R6und of fecic[ Duty. I was not cxcticdingly addiiled tqyoujig Cpm'. pany, or Frolicking (is it is cailcdj But this 1 know^ tHat Wh^rt 1 did go into Company, I never returned from a Froh^^k y.\ m;/ Life, with io good a Confcience asl went wiih ; !t ahvriy,^ a-Jd-ednf^w Guilt to me, and^inade me afraid 10 ctmit toilic Throtia of OracCj and fpoilcd il;ofc good I'rames^ 1 was wont feme-times 10 plear? my fclf whh. But alas ! ali my gooii Framci Tvere but Silf-RigbisBitJasJs^ not bottonacd an a Dcfife for tha

B a.; About

About thu latter End of Jtprihj^'j, being full in Ycih of Ags, I removed to Dayham, mi began to work on ray Farm, and ft, consumed the Yeir out, or near, >till I was ao Years old i fr«iMcntiy longing, from a natural Inclination, after a liberal tducadon. Wlwn I was about twenty Ytars of Age, I applceil my felf to Studjr; and fumetinie before, was more iban t.rdinanlj' eieited to and in Duty : But now engaged more than ever in the Duties of Religior. 1 became very ftrifl, and watch-fulovermyTliougliis, Words, and Aflions : and thought I jnuff be fober (mJeed. beciufe I defigoed to devote my felf to thq Miniftfy i and imagined 1 i\i dedicate my felf to the Lord.

Some Time in ^pril 1733, I went to Mr. FSfii'a, and lived With him, doting his Life. * ADd I remember. He advifed me wholly to abandon young Company, and aflbclatu myfelf wi<H gruve elderly fcoplc : which Counfel I followed ; and my Manner of J.ife was now exceeding regular, and full of Religion, fucbasitwss ; Fnr i read my Bible more ihsa twice through in Icfslhan a Year, I fpcnt much TimeevcryDay in fecrct Prayer, and other fecret lAities} I gave gte»tAtlc.ilion to the Word Breached, and endenvoured to my inmoil to retain it; So much concerned was I about Religion, that I igreed with feme young Ferfons to meet piijaicly on Saiial/,-Evtnmg, forrelieious Ex-ertifei," and thought my ftif fincerc in tljefe Diiiits ; and after our Meeting was ended, J uiid to repeat the Difcourfcs of thtj Day to my felf, and rccollca what I could, tlio' fometimes it ■was vuy late in the Nifht. Again, wAI,^d„y-M.Tmm, I ufed foracllincs to recolledi the fime Setmoni. And I had lometimcs confiderable Movings of AH'efflous inDuties,iiidmuchPleafure, and had many Thoughts of joining to the Chutch. In fliort, [ had J very good outfide, and relied cniirelyon my Duties, tho' I was not ftnflblcof it.

After Mr. f.&'s Deaih, I proceeded in my Learning with my Brother ; and was fiill very conflani in religious Dulies.and olicn wondered at the Levity of Frofeffors ; 'iwasa Trouble to me, that they xvcre fo carelefs in religious Matters.---Thus I proceeded a conlidcrable Length on i/,//-,igiiMai Foundation ; and fhoutd have been entirely loft and lmdone,had not the niter Mercy ot God preven ted.

* Mr. Flfii was the Fallot of the Church in IJ«M„

Somt!

Jtil.il'. ,e/Afr. David Brainerd. A.D. 1738, 5

Some Tine in the Bt^ginningof Winter, Am «738)11 pleafcd GoJ, on one Sabbath-day Morning; as I was wtlkitig out for fome fccret Duties ( as I remember ) to giveme on a Suddetl futh I Sclifc of iisy Danger and the Wiath of- God, that I flood «il!a/.ej, and my former good Frames, that 1 had pleafcd rojfelf with, all picfenlly vanilhsd ; and from the View, that I had of my Sill and Vilenefs, I was much diflrelTed all that D.iy, fearing the Vengeance (jf God would toon r>vertake me ; 1 was much (tcjcfled, and kept much alone, and fometimes begrutched the BitJs and Bciflj ilieit Hnppincfs, hccaufe they were not expofed lu clcnu! Mifciy, a. I evidently law I iv,m. And thus I lived from Uiy to Ujy-b^ing frequciilly in greatDIRrefs: Sometimes there appeared Mountains before me to obftrufl my Hopes of Mercy ; and the Work of Convetfion appeared fo great, I thought I (houM never he the Suhjedl of it: But ufed, however, lo pray and cry ta God, and perform other Duties with great Eirneiinefs, and hoped by fome Means to mate thcCafe Ijctter. And tho' I Hundreds of Times retiounccd all Pretences of any tfsHh'm Ijiy Duties (aslthought) even in.lhe Seafon of the Performance of thitin, and often confeiied (o CSod that I deferv-, ed nothiiig for the very bell of them,but eternal Ct>ndemnation : Vet (till! harl a fteret latent Hope of rtumiiimilmg my felf to God by my religious Duties ; and when I prayed affctftlonatcly, and my fleart fccmed in fome Meafure to melt, I hoped God would be thereby moved to pity me,my Prayers then loolt'd with (bmcAppearance ulGoxhufi in 'emi^ I feemcd to mstirn forSin ! and then I could in fome Meafure venture on the Mercy of God in Chrirt ( «s I iho't; ) Tho' the preponderating Thoughf and Foundation of iliy Hope was fome Imaginatitin tif Gixulrtejs in my Heart Meltings, and Flowingof AffeiSions in Duly, and (fometimes) eittKlordiniry Enlargements theiein, Wc- Tho' at fome Times the Gali appeared fo vcty ^loi't, that it look'd next 10 impoffiblelo mtir, yet at othctTimcs I flittered my felf that it was not fo very diSicult, and hoped f IhoMd by Diligence and Watchfulnefs foon gain the Point- Sonietimes afrer Enlargement m Duty and confiderable Affedion, I hoped { had made a ftcd Slfp towards Henuen, and imagined that Gc5d was aflTcifed as I was, and that he would bear foch fimtre Criij ( as 1 called them) and fo fometimes when I withdrew for fecret Duties in grcatDiftrcfs, I returned fomelhing uomfortablo ; and Ihusheal'd my felf Mihii my Duties.

Some

Mk,

S& LIFE A, D. lyjj:

Film, I^P ' ^^7 '?38.9- I r« spiH s Daj. for fecret

(0 God for Mer« th« h, would open my Eyes to fe "he E ;i of Sin, and the Way of Life hv Tefus cLm a Vn ,

t^n,e r Butflill J,™^.rfina|l .b^Dutie, I performed -,ho' here v,„ „o M«metof ff«A./r i„ ,i,eDu,iB I hen So™.d ' fte« bemgno Manner of Refpea to thoGlory of cX Xr^-nor 5„y fuel, Prmcipte in n,, He.rt : yet God waTptafeclTo'

1ovmT'""j'"'',^'™"^ ™«r^f<J, and imsgin'd that God loved me ,„dv..,,p;e.(eJ with „e, .nd tbo.gh. I ftol foo„ be , lly rcconcled to God ; while the Whole wa= fc.nded o" W of A^7"°"' "'.'^"e from Enbrgementin Dary, o, tit-jng of Afea.om, or fame good Refolutions, and ,he lite Zd

VUeneft and N,ted„eft, anrf Inability ,o deliver my^d! from J

me =„d ,h?TI ' ""'='"'■"> ^ '""''1= P^IS °f Dittrefi fei "ed me, snaihc Ihnughls of renouncing njvSelf anA H,„a- ■ mked before Gon, ftripped of all Go^dni. were "o deadft!

^^ /;-■ /^„ W Thu5, ,ho' I daily Io„g-d for grea er Co,, v.aon of S,n. fuppofi^g th^tltnul/fceLreof^^ldeaS vTkM't 'r^""^'/' y" -h»" theOifcoverefoS Ind fl L . wcrem.dc to me, the Sight «-« fo dreadful

nd fl=wcdn,efoph,„!y ,ny lupofedneft to Damnaii™ ha J eoutl not endure it.- I conli.n.iy flrove af7e Xte„e oftI'^ftT' '""e-^-<"h-= obtained before thl R^lpZ of C r.ft, ,„ order to r«,™«J n,e to his K.vour. SomeLe /■^ ./^/°",;[ °^ *" A^r^/?«r,. sndfuppofed it mia he /./■<« V before Chrift would accept of me ; Ld when 1 felt any Mdtms, of Heart, 1 h„ped'no«r the Work wa " aLtft

Mercy: Hut ray D,%cfs remained ftill, ™'

v,a.on ofS.n for a confiderable Time together -bui aft',

o /ni: Ti ,^r"t""""'"™^^ fti^^^Lmot'e violet;

A^^Lat Ab'' n,^" '".r"""'."' ™'>^'' I '"=' "'Iking wjustiiy Aj.o.d, 1 !,ad oDcn'd tg me fuel, j View of m^ Sio^te

I 1 V

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Ait.z%^ p/iWr. t>avid Brainerd A.D.iygp: j^

I ftjrcd tjie Grouoi would cleave afunder under my Feet, and IxciJtiiif my Gravcj and fend my Saal <^uicfc into Helfj beforri I L'lmlit p,i* Honie. And tho'I was forced to go to Bed,- left piy fjiltrt'fi fhould be clifcovered by oioefs, which I mucH ffillfd J yell fcarcc dLirft SJcep at a!}, /ur J [hougfitit would be 1 pTf;ii Wonder if I fhoLld be out of Hell in the lUorning* Aihl ilio'mj'DHhcfs was foiJietimes thus great, yet I greatly dicjdcd ilm lofs of CanVidiioJis, snd returning back to a State (jf carnal Security» nnd to my former Infcnnbility oi Im^iTv^ing Wiaih ; wh\rh itimli; mr exceeding cxadl in my Behaviour, \f\\ J lh.iiiliE ilUh ihc JVloiinjis or God'a ypirit. When at any i'liire I took a View of my Conviiftfons of my own Sinfulnefs, and thought the Degree of 'em to be confiderable, I lyas wont JouiiR in my Conviiiiong: But ihia Co;ifidctiCc, and the Hopes (hut JToIe in me froni it, af foon maJtmg fame potable Advances towards Deliverance, woufd cafe my Mmd, and I fooii bctiiii^e more fcnfelefs afid remifs : Uut tbenr again, when I ^iftern^cl my Conviilkins to grov/ languid, anJ I dio't ihem ahoixi to!c*vc iTic, this immediately alarmed si\d diilrcnVd iiic, Sumeilnie-i J cxpcdicd to lake a larfje Step, and get vciy far to-Iffarih Cdjiivcriiuii) by fonic pflrticuliir O^ipOrtujiity or Means I Ijad \\\ View.

The many Difappointmcnts, and great Diftreites and FcrJ* plcxity I met withj put mis into a niofi Jysrrii'U Prams ai cm* injiing with tile ALMjoiiTTi wiih an inward Vi^hcmcncd! and Virulcnecj finding Fault with his Ways of Desliog wit^ Mankind, | found great Fault with the Impuiatioti of ^damf^ Sin to his PoftcrJiy : And my wicked Heart often wifhed for fomc other Way of Saltation, than by yifut C^rifi : And bring iiiis the Ir&Jibhd Hea^ and my Thoughts confufed^ 1 ufed ca contrive to cfcape the Wrath of God by fomu other Meaiis, and had flnnge ProjeiaioTis, fuJ! nf AlhdOiij contriving to difappoinc God's IHtligns and Decrees concerning nici or toefcape Gad's No lice, and hide tuyfdf from him : But when, upon Reflet;^ tion, 1 faw thefe PrpjefSiona were vain, and would not, fcrvc me, anJ that 1 could tontrivc nothing for my own Relief, rh^? would throw my Mind into the moft horrid Fjraeif, to wiih there was jii> Gsd^ or to wifti there were fume oibcr God (bat Could ctiniroul htm, iSc^ Thefe Thoughts aud Defirca were tht ftcrer Inclinations of my Ht3Jt, tha; vi^it frequently ^B.ji^-^h^'i'e Iivai oiv-'i^i \ but aJas, they were mim ! Aliho' "1 w-i^i afiMghtiid with (Iwm, when t came to refl;;i£t un thenr; When I conikfcreJ gf it, it diltrcirctl ii>it, to thinky that my

ne LIFE

A,D. 17393

'i

\

Heart was fo full of Enmity a^ahfi G&d \ and it made mC' 4rcmb?c, Jcft God's Vengeance Ihould fuddenly fall upon me, \ i ufed before, to imagme my Heart was not ia badj as the EcripEurfis and fome other Books rcprefcnted- Someiimes I ufed to wke much Pains (o work it up (nro a good Frame, a humble iiibmiilive Difpofition ; and hoped there was then fonieGoodnefs in me: Bjt iimay be an a fLidden,iheThoughc3 of ihe Sfriftnefs of tlie LaWj or the Sovereignty of Godj would fo irritate »be Coniiptitjn of my Heart, thai [ had to patched ever, and hoped I had liro^igbt to a good Frame, that it would break over zll BDuinds, and burft forth on al) Sides, like Floods of Waters, when they break down chslr Damm. But being fenfibleof the Necclfityof a deep Humiliatkn in order to 3 fiving Clofe with Chrift, 1 ufed to fetmy felf to worit in my own Heart thnfeCffwir'ifJi'ffff/, that were requifite ir> fuch an Humiliation : As, a ConviiSion, that God would be jufl, jf he caft me c^ for ever ; And that if ever God £hou|d bcftowMer-cy on me, it would be meer Grace^ tho' Ifhould be in Diitrefa many Years firft, and be never fo much engaged m Duty ; that God was nor in the leaft obliged to pity nie ihc more for iill paft DutkSj Cries, and Tears, ^i-. Theft Things I flrovc to ix\y utmoft £0 bring myfdfta a.firm belief ofj and hearty aJr<:ntto ; and hoped that now I was brough.t ojff from my feJfj and truly humbled and bowed 10 the divine Sovereignty ; and was wont to lellGod in my Prayers, that now J had ihofe veryDifpofuJons ofSouIibathe icquircd, and on w^hich he fliewcd yercy to others, and ihcrciipon to beg and plead for Mercy tome: But when J found nu Relief, and was ftili oppreFed with Guilt and Fears of Wtatb, my Soul was in a Tumult, and my Heart rofe againfi: Goi:/,2^ dealing hardly with me. Yet then myConftiencc ■flewinmy Face, putting me in Mind of my late ConfeiTion to God of his JuHicein m^i Condt^mjiatjoji, ^c. And ihis, giving jne a Sight of tiic ])adnt;rs of my Heart, threw me a^ain into Dillrefs, and 1 wiihcd 1 had watched my Heart more narrowly, to keep it from hrc;ikijigoiit againflfJod'sDcalirjgs with me,and I even wffiicd 1 had nor'pleaded for Mercy en Atcount of my HymiliatioD, bccaufc tJiereby I had kjft all my Teeming Good-n£fs.

Thua, Scores of Times, I vy'niy imagined my fcjf humbled and prepaied f^^r laving Mercy-While I was in til is diflreFed, bewildered, and tumulttioun Statcof Mind, ibc dsrrvpfim of myHe^rt wa& efpccially itri' md'^'i^ xli'iiz Tilingsfellowing :

I. Tii«

Xf. 22; cf Mr^ David Brainei^d, A.D.1739. 9

I. Thayili'iV^JTf/of the divine Xflif. Fur I found it was im-j |vul)lble for me (after my utmoftPains) to anfwer iheDemaodiof It. 1 often made new Refolutions, and as often broke ihem. I Imputed the wh&^e to Carelefnefs, and the Want of being more WaithfLilj ahd ufed to call my felf a Fool for my Negligence :' Unt wiiffl, upon attrongcrBcfoIution, and greater FndeavourSj tttiil clofe Application of my felf to Fafting and Prayer, I found uli Attempts fail, (hen X quarrelled whh the Law of God, as iinrcafonably rigid- I thought, if it extended only to my out* wdtd AdUonn andIJeha.viourfi, J cculd bear wiih it : Hut I found It fonJeinned me \m my evil Thoughts, and bins of my' (Icart, wiiich I could not pofiibly prevent. J was exrreamly !i)th to give nut, and own my uttef Hclplefnefs in this Matter : iJut after repeated Difappointments, thought that, taiher (han| pctjlh, I could (/i! a little more flill, cfpeciallyif (uch and fuch Circumstances might but attend ray Endeavours and iitrivings ; I hoped, that I fliould firive more earncftly than ever, if the Matter came to Extremiiy ( iho'I never could find the Time ty do my utmoffijin the Manmr \ inianded 1) And this Hope of fn-ture more favoyrable Ciicumftancea, and of doing fomcibing [^rcat here.ilter, kept mc from utterUcfpair inmyfelf, end from feeing my fcJf fallen into tfie Hands ot afuvereign (Jod, and dependent on nothing but free and boundlefs Grace.

iz. Another Tiling was, i^^\. Faith ahnf "w^^ \.h^ CiJidhkn of Sahaiisn j and that God would not come down ro lowerTerms, ihat he would not promife Life and Salvation upnn my (JricGici and hearty Fraygrs and EndeavDUrj. ThaiWord, Maik 3ivi. 16-Hethat hlUvtth mt^Jhatl hi dammd, cut off all Hope tbere ; And 1 found, Faith was the fovercign Gift a/God ; that I could not get it as of my felf, and could not obligeGod to bti^ow it upon me^ hy any of my Performances. ( Epb. ii. i, 5t }^, ) This^ I was ready to fiy, h a hard Scyin^^ who canhtsr it ? Ji coLild not bear,that ail 1 had donefhould Hand for tneer nothings' who had been very Confcicncious in Duly, and had been exceeding religious a great while, and had ( as ( thought ) done much more than many others that bad obtained Mercy- I con-fefs'd indeed the Vjienefs of my Duties \ but tlicn, what made 'em at that Time feem viic, was my wandring Thoughts in them i not bccaufe 1 waa all over defiled lite a Devil, and the Principle corrupt from whence they flowed, fo that 1 ccii]r£ not poiTibly do any Thing that was Good. And therefore I called wtiat [ didj by the Nime of honeft faithful Endeavouia */ and could ngtbear itjlb^lGod had made noFrgmifts of Salvation M thfijH. C " 3, AnotUcr

JO Mt. 22; rfe L r F E

A.D.

fi:

'73?'

1

3. AoothtrTbmg was, thai Ico.M not find ™t K,fo, Fai.h, fi o' t;hnfl ,mde <o ,he «,.r, and &.»,, /.J« ; buTcol V'nuldgWljpcome, if I knew *™. ,ho' ,h= Pa,h ofSu,y

tTor r; °";^,'=°"rf'r>on ) A„d n,y Hear, .ofc .gainfl h^. Co„vift ■!';'' Ik: ";W mo my very Heart all akng under

^eaons; ycthcchcftii'd, He did not tdl mc any Tliii,» I

w.th a great &„]/ between n,e and Chtill, ,,i,i,™t any Dircfti-on 10 get through, Fnr F was not ye, cfFeaually and exp" -

hy a narural Man couid, 0/ !„sown Strength, obtain (hat which \.s rupcrnatural. and whicl, ,h= higbeft An'ei e.nno, give. watthaT^'-'' """'"' ^ ^'■'^^' '"*^'J Oppofuion to, T a Pan?„/ ^ •'^"•■' ""^^■'''^■'^"'" "=.]"« ^» he wo.ld.

dftrov d mv-^/ ■ ^''""^'"g or meditating o« ,h„ .|,va, .ll 7^ u'^ ^'™'",S e*""! Fr>me. ; VVIien J though, [ wL St '"'"'' '"'' =''"°" '^"Sned ,0] God'. Sovere.L V X r=ad„gortl™k,ng o„,his Pa/Tage would maice my E„ Ji,!

Khi/occa/ron T' ,^™"'' ="•' J^i^lP^emy. that arofc on from anv Z'i "fV ' '™r^ ='/"!<'-^f ^-N -d Jn-ven fur.hor Urom any Hopes of Rcconcihatton with liim ; and it save mc

10 lee mjlclt n.God s Hands.and at his foveroign Oifpo&i s„d it

l r/tLTfoTfr" "r "=r^'" '"^'"'^ " '- So'vo^eignty' VOrl though f bod delignedtnyDamnalioD

AH ,hb Tin,e ,he i>,V/, of God was powerfully a( work with mIZcL'T f"^ ,■"■ '""'- ''^ '"^ Means whatfoever

l;::r■ftn>:^vvo^^^n^'^¥i:■:r;^'•■■d''^'^™/"'"=<=-

I «^^f.T . .■ * ^'^ °^'^^> t'9 done, 'tis forever m-

'- Mo.«n«, .„..d 'to^-'^^if f:,[™^Ts.rt i:

, wsuM

.TvV, 21. e/iWi'. David Brainerd. A.D. 1735. it

Would (brink baek immcdiafely from tlie Sight, becaufe I riarcd| Mt't venture my felf into the Hands of God, as wholly helplefs, •nam the Oifpofal of his fovereign Pleafute. I dared no, fee Ihit Important Troth concerning my ielf, Thiii w^idiad i/t^ 'lit/jiu/jii dad Siat, But when I had as it were thrurt away thefe VIhwn oI ray (elf at any Time, I felt dillrellid to hive the famt-I )d. liveries oi my (elf again i for I greatly feared being given i.vtrof Gud 10 final Stupidity. When I ihooghl of pulling it idC to t mtri rimm/nl Siafon, the Convifljon was fo clofc and |iiiv»r,lul Willi RcRanl I" the pie(cnt Tnne, that it wai the Iwit Ciiiir, and jindubly llie only Time, that i dated not put it ijr, It was the Sight of Tral/j concerning my (elf, Tro/Aref-I liotling ray State, as a Creaiurs (alltn atid alienated front Uod, nnd that colifeiiucntly could matcnoDcniands onGod forMercy, hill iiiiill fubfciihe to the abfolute Sovereignty of the divine Be-in(( i Ihe Sight of the T™(t, i fay, my Soul (lirant away (ran, I tuid Ifcmbicd to thint of beholding. I'hiis, hi ihalittlh Evil (as ull unrcgejierate Men continually do } ham the U^ht tf Truth, iwither cares to ami U il, hecaufe it will ripri-jc hn Dnili, and (how hint hiijuft Defern. ( Jch. iii.ia.) And tho", fomeTime hrhire, 1 had taljcn tiiticb Piiins ( ii I thought) to fubmit lo tlie Bove,cigilty of God, yet ( miitouk tlicThing ; and did not oncq imagine, that feeing and being made experimentallj rcrhble of thii Tfutb, which my Soul now ia much dreaded and trembled at a Senfc of, was the Frams of Soul that i had been fu car-licft in purfuit of heretofore : For 1 had ever hoped , (hat when I had attained to that HumiHaliim, which I fujippfed nccefiary to go before Fiith, then it would not be fai, forGod to cajl rat tjf j Imt now 1 (aw it was fo far from any Goodntfs in me, to uivn myfelffpiriiuallydEad, and deiliiuie o( all Goodntfs, that, on | thcconl-ary, (ny A/oujt would be forever y?»f'^ by it j and it look'd as dreadful to lue, lo fee my fclf,and tho Relation [flood in to God, asaSinner and aCriminal, and he* great Judge and EavcreiEn, as it would be 10 a poor trembling Creature, to venture off fonic high Precipice, And hence I put it uft'for a IWi-nute or two, and tried for belter Circumiianccs to do it in ; cither I mud read a Paflage 0, two, or ptay fitft, or fomelhirigpf Ihe likcNamre ; orclfeputoff my Suhraiffion to God's Sovc»| rcignly, with an Objcilion, that I did not know how ,o tubmit: But the Truth was, [could fee no Safety in owning my felf in the Hands of a Sovereign God, and that 1 cotlld Isy no Claim to sny Thing better than Damtiation,

C a »"»

12 JEl. J2,'

TBe LIFE

A. D. 1-39:

But aFter a confiderable Time fpem m fuch like Exercifo and-iJilt.ci «, oncMnrnmg. while I was walici„g i„i r„li„„ Pij„ ,. =..^.. Uton«ni»,l,a, all my Ccm,ri,.„™ .„d )',r/ta,on, " JO tffcdtnr iirocurs Ddi^tranceand Hilvation for rav felf wc/s

ftlrtosallr y. I h.d thought ma.y Tlm.s bcfo.., .hJ, thi D.iScdi.cs mm. Way w«= very great: But rrow i faw, in another and ve-y drffcrcm Light, tha, it wa, forever irrapoffiWc for

I ire to do any Thmg towards hdplrrg or d.livsring riny fdf. I the., ,hou.shl cf blammg niy fdf, lirat I had nt>t done more, arid been mor^ngaged while J had Opportunity ( for it kil^i how as ,f the Stafo,, of doing ivas forever over and gone ) But I m-ftanrlyftvv.rha, let me have done what I wodd, it would no

Ijliore have tended to my helping myfclf; than what I had ioue ; that] had made all ths Piea., 1 ever could have made .0 al ,

had bZ iw '!'"'"»;,"'' ^" ""='=■="■ The T»Wr that had b«n befortr rn njv Mjnd, was now qakud; and I wa5 fome-.Inngeaftd of ,hatDift,c(:, which Ifdt, while ft ugglinga-

'IluLIV b'^"""'''.''*'' -"^ ^'^'= '*"' forever tJiferahle, for (hat 1 had never been fcrifible of ii before.

pKa.ng my £)«,,;, were qaite different from what 1 had ever enter.a.ntd ,n T„nes pad. Before this, ,he more I d d inD^y

Ijhe more !ti,o„ght God was obliged ,0 me i or a, Xh^ r^o e hard i th„ngbt ,t „„nld be for God lo oa« me off ; ' h° at the fame 1 ,mel eonfellid, and rbooghr 1 faw, that there Z

linptv ' M<'""'mj Duties: Bo, ,w the morel did

''omaL » °'',f ='° P'A!!-s-d ■'-"Ihad never once prayed

'ij^vnadj^^i! •'J'";?'''"'^'" ""•"'> 'h="<''"= would bem Zfon I ha^d 7 """ "'"A'" *='^"- f ""'-'' *- 'he Com-P form'd ,' r '" ,'"' "^'"o'^ ""^ "^'' '"^^^"'■'^ *^y -'- '^°' ^en hTal ■' k""" °' ^"^"^ " ^"""'- ' i'^-. ■h.t I bad

Dretend r = "'', "'-'D"°'i™' I'^fo'-* God,Fa(ii„g,P ayln.fe'f. F""«n'ims, and „H|«d really thinking, ,t fome Tin.es. ^hati

,?i;. 32; c/Mf. David Brainerd. A.D.tys?. 13,

WX -iming »t 'lie Glory of God ; whereas I never once truly . llMcuJcd it. but only my own Happinefj. I f»w, that, as I had lifVPr done riiiy Thing/or tjod, 1 had no Claim to lay to any 'I hilip./'«'" liim, but Perdition, on Account of my Hypocnfy ■ml Mmi i;erv. OJl how diftcrent did my Duties now appear Ittiiii what they ufed to do ! I ufed to charge them wuh Sin and |ih|itrlc61ino ; But this was only onAccounmf the Wandringi mnJ V.11I1 Thoughts attending them, and not becaufe I had BO kfgard to (..od in them i lor this 1 thought I had : But when 1 Itw evldfiitly tlui 1 hill [tenatd In nothing but Self-lnteieft, 1 tllrii (hry.i.pr.iiiJ vjIv IVt.,tkeryolC;c.d, Kclf-Woilhip, and a

11 Inual Couife of Lies; fo thii 1 (aw now, there was fome-l

ihiliK WUlfe had attended my Duties, than bavdy a few Wan- ] •Iling! Sic. ('Of the whole was nothing but Self-Worlhip and ■11 horrid Abufe of Gad-

I continued, as 1 remember, in this State of Mimd, from Fii-diiy-Moming 'till the Sahbarh-Evening following,ya/jf 12. 1 739-when I WIS wallting again in the fame folitaij Piace where I wii hriHip,ht to fee my felf loft and hclplefs ( as was before men-liouMJ .iiiil hcrr, ill a moiirnlul melancholy Slate, was attempting to pray ; but lound noHeart to engage in that, or any other JJuty ; my former Concern and Exercifc and religious Afleai-cns were now gone. I thought,the Spirit of God had quite left mc i but fiill was no: diftieilid : Yet difconfolate, as if there was Itothing in Heaven or Earth could raake me happy. And hivingbecn thus endeavouring to pray (liio' being, asl thought, very Hupid and fcnftlefi) for near halt an Hour, ( and by this Time the Sun was about half-an-hour-high, as I remember ) then, as I was walking in a dark thick Grose, uttfptakiihk Gliry fccincd to open to the View and ApprehenfMn of my Sou! ; I don't mean any external Brightncfs, for ! faw no fuch Thing, | jlcir do I intend any Imagination of a Body of Light, fome where away in the third Heavens, or any Thing of (hatNature i but it was a new inward Apprchcnfion or View that I had of GOD, luch as I never had before, nor anyThing which had the leaf! Rcfemblance of it. i flood fiill, and wonder'd and admired ! 1 knew that) never had feen before any Thing com-f arable to it for Excellency and Beauty : It was widely different from all theConceplions.lhat ever I had had of God, orThinga divine. 1 had no paiticular Apprehenfionof any one Perfon in the Trinity, either (he Father, the Son, or the Holy Gholf ; | but it appeared to bt ttiviai Ghry, th« I then beheld : And iny

Soul

5"*( LIF E

A.D.

1739'

11 ill j

IB}!,!,.'

m.

I ^oa\_ rtjoycd with Joy uvfptaksil,, ta fee fucji a God, fijch glonous diirjne Being ; and I was inwardly plcafed and fauslied"' ; tliai tie flioulcJ be Gsd mer all forever and ever. My Soul was fo captivated and delighted with the Excelleticy, Louelinefs ■ GrMtnefs, and other PcrfefliDm of God, that I was even Iwallowed up in flim ; at leaft to that Degree, that I had na' Ihought (as I remember) at frfl, about my own Salvation. \atid fcarcc reficacd there was fucha Creature as niy felf.

ThusGod, [ Irirft,brought me to a heartyDifpoiision to i;,afti *:m, and felhiraontheTtirone, and principally and ultimately' to aim al bis Honour and Glory, a! King of the Univerfe. :

I continued in this Slate of inward Joy and Peace, yet^ Afionifliment, 'tiil near Dart, witliout any fcnriblc Abatement;: and then began to think and examine what I had feen ; and' felt ftveelly cmfofij in my Mind all the Evening following ■,' I ftlt myfelf in a new World, and every Thing about me appeared with a different Afpcfl from what it was wont to da.

At this Tiinc, thcfpoy cf Ssivaiha opened to mc with fuch infinite Wifdom.Suilablencfs and Excellency, that I wondered ' I (hould ever think of any other Way of Satvation ; was s-mazed, that I had not tJrop'd my own Contrivances, and complied with this lovely blcffed and excellent Way before. If ( could have been faved by my own Duties, of any other Way that I had formerly contiived,tiiy whole Soul would now have xcfufcJ. I wonder'd, that all theWorid did not fee and complji (with this Way of Salvation, insirely by the Righltiajnifi ,f

The fweet Relifh of what I then felt, continued with mc for feveral Days, alinolt conftantly, in a greater or IcfsDegrce ■ 1 could tiot but fweetly rejrvce in God, lying down and li-fing up, The nest Lerdi-bay I felt fomcthing of the lame K.ind i tho' not fa powerful as before. But, not bno after was again involved in tbki Darintji,mi utidsr great Diftrefs ! yet not of the fame Kind with my Diiirefs under Convifltons.' jr was guilty, afraid and afhamed to come before God, v/as exceedingly prcfs'd with a Senfc of Guilt: But it was not long Ibeforc r felt { I trufl ) true Repentance and Joy in God.

About the latter End of A^o//, I again fell under great Darit-nefl I It fecm'd as if the Prcfence of God wasr/ia» gmi farivci: Tho' I was not fo much diflrefled aboat mv fpirilual State, as I (was at my being fliut out from God's Pref;nce, as I then fenfi-blywas, ButitpJcafed (ho Iiotd !o return gracioti.lv lo me, noilong aficr. » i y

hi

^V, 11,23.' »/Mr. DtvidBrainMd. ^•^■^1t9'- '5;

1(1 Ihc Beginning of Srpitnjiir I went to Cilliit |, and entred llieiDt Hut Willi fome Degree of Reluiiancy,learinglc(H fliotild nut ff« ibleto lead aLife of firidt Religion, in the midfi of fo

BHflf 'J'iinplations.* After this, in the Vacancy, before [

WIBI I'* tiirrv at College, it plcafed God lo vifrt my Soul with rlNrrr Manifeftitions of himfelf and his Grace. 1 was fpending

t ( inie in Prayer,?i Self-Examination j and tile Lord by his

t ii.M'c fo fllined into my Heatt, timt 1 enjoyed full Affurance id liLi I'BTUill-, fur ihlt Time ; and my Soul was unfpealtably irfiffOtrit with ilivineand Iicavcnly Knjoymcnts, Al this Time tI|M'i lallr, n* W( II Hi li'iiie ollieri, tiiiidry Palljges of God's //d'.^ ii|ieii'i' to my iioul with divine Clcarnefs, Power ant! iikVFtjtilcIs fo as CO appear exceeding precious, and with clear' llll^i CCtlBin Evidence of it's being ihff ^Vard af GW. 1 cnjoy'd coiiliileralde Kwrctnefs in Religion all the Winter following.

Ill ^rw. 1739,4D. "^'^^ MfaJUi fprcad much in College ; and t ]mvin[!; taken thuDlrtempcr, went home to Haddam : I3ut fum? r>.iys before E was taken Sick, 1 fceiri'd to be greatly deferted^ •tnJ my Isoul moiirncd the Abfcnce of the Ci77r/i"rrfr exceedingly : ll ftctllM to too, all Comfort was forever gone s I praj'd mill rued til t Jill! fill Help, yet Inund no prefent Comfort or Kriiel. ItLitthiL/diviiietJuoJiicfs, a NigEit or two before I Willi taken HI, while I was walking alone in a very retired Place, uiid engaqed in Medication and Prayer, I enjoytit a fweet re-(tclhing Vifit, as I trulf, from above, fo that my Soul waaralfed (or above the Fears of Dtnth ; indeed [rather longed forDsath, lli.ni feared it. O how much mote refreOiiiig this one Scafon W.1', llmti all the Pleafures and Delights that Kai th can afford ! Alter II O.iy or two I was taken with the Meailes, and was very 111 indeed, fo that lalmoft defpaired of Life : But had no di(-ifcfliiir^ Fears of Death at all. However thro' divine Coodncfs 1 foon recovered : Yet, by Reafuii of bard and clofe Studies,and being much cxpofed on Account of rar I'relhman-Qiip, I had Iniil little rime for fpiritual Duties; my Souloften rnonrned for Want of more Timts and Opportunity fo be alone with God. In tile Spring and Siimnier following I h^d better Advantages tor l^etiremcnt, and enjoyed more Comfort in Religion : Tho' indeed my Ambition in my Studies ercatly wronged the Aolivity And Vigour of my fpirilual Life : Yet tills was ufualiy the Cafe Wlih me, that Intht MuUiludt p/my Thmibli v^itbia. mt, Gjufs Cmfms principally di'.ighlidiirf Ssut: TJlcfe were my grealcli Cuiirolatioos Day by Day.

W Mt, aj. 7is LIF E A. D.

Oiif Day r remember in particular ( I ihint it was is 'JmA 1740. ) I ivalkeJ CO a confiJcrable Diftance from tlie Colkgc, in tlie Fin'di alone 31 Nqod, and in Prayer foun-i fuch unfpeaU-able SwMliicfs aud Ddiuht in God, that t thought, if Imuft continue Hill iti tljis evil World, I wanteJ always to be there Id-behoWfjud'sCilorjr: My Soul dearly lovtd aliMankind, anJ

longed ejtMedrngly that they Ihould enjoy what I enjoyed .

Ilfccin'd tobealiiile Rtfemblanceof Heaireti,

On Jjiiid's-Ddy, Julyh. being Sacrament-Daii, J found fotnc dtrtneLife and fpiritujl Relrefiiment in that hijly Ordinsncc. When 1 came from the Lord's Table, I wondered how my Fel-low-Sluderrts could live as I was fcnfible moft did. — Next

Lord's-Day July 13, 1 lia:l feme fpecial Swcctncfsin Religion

Again Lord'i-Day Jk.J, ia, my Sou! was in a fwt:ct and"precious Frame.

Sometime in Augufl following, I became fo weakly and' d.fordered.bytoocIufeAppIlcaiion 10 my Studies, ihatl was advifcd by my tutor to go Home, and difcngage my Mind from bcudy, as much as 1 soiild ; for I wjs grown fo Weak, that i brgan to fpit Blood. I toot h is Advice, and endcaiou red to lay afide my btmfies. But being bronghl i-ery low, I Jooi'd Dcaili inthetaciraort ftedlaftly ; and the Lord was pleafed 10 give Ills rcncivcdlyafwKtScnfc and ReliJh of divine Things; and particularly in Oflsfcr 13, J found divine Hrlp and Confolatioii m tbc precious Dunes ol fecre! Prayer and Self EMminatiun, and mySoul toukDe-ight in rhe blcffcd God:—fo likewifeoii the lyihof Ofishir,

Saturday O^iitr ,S. in my Morning-Devotions, my Sotil was exceedingly mei'cJ l.ir and bitterly mourned oyer my exceeding Sin/iil^ifi and /',■■,:,,,/,. I never before had felt fo pun-gen t a nd d eep a Senfe of the od ions Niliif c of Sin,as a t ibisTime. . My Soul was then unufually carrv'd lortli in Int to God, and had 4 lively Scnfe of God's Love to me. And this Love and Hope, at that Timf, c^tt out Feir. Both Morning and Even-logl fpentromcTiincin S.-if-£.-iaraination, to'find the Truth of Grace^ as alio my Fiintfj to appiosch to God at his Table the next Day; and through iniinite Grace, found the holy Spirit influencing mySuui with Love to Cod, as a mini/i mtbin b»

LordVDay Cmluri^. fn she Morning, I felt my Soul ion-i'l'inr^MrJIirgafiiT Eigiiisufotfu In (he Fote-Noon, while i was looicina on the Sacramcniil LJcBients, and thinking that Jtfai Chujl svculd focn be/rt fir:b trmipi hijmmi, my Soul

■jft/, ■jj.' i^Mr; Davitl Braiflerd, A.D, 17+1^ i^,

*•! fiil'd with Light and Love, fo that I Was almoft iti an Ex-' Illy i my Body was fo weak, I could fcarccly (land, i felt at tlip fume 'J'ime an ejtceeding Tenderncfs and moft feivent Lov& (DW«td« all Mankind ; fo that my Soul and all the Powers of Jl ftenicd, as it were, to melt into Softnefs and Sweetnefs,. But in the Seafon of IheCoramunion there was fome Abatement or tliii fweet Life and Fervour. This Love and Joy caft out 1'e.ij ; and my Soul longed for perfeft Grace aird Glory. This fivcct Frame continued 'till the Evening, when my Soul wa« Iweetly Ipirlluil in fecnt Duiiii,

Mond.y, Omkir in. I aijain found tlicrwcrt Afiiftanccof the holy ipirit ill fccrcl [Julies, both Morning and livening, and Life and Comfort in Religion through the whole Day.

Tucfday, OUtbsr 21. I had likewifeExperience of theCJood-ftcfi of God In JbEdding abroad hi: Lttvi in my Heart, an^ giv-hig me Delight and Confolatton in tdigious Dutiesi And all the remaining Part of (he Week, my Soul»feemed to be taken up with divine Things. I now fo longed after (Sod, and to be freed from Sin, that when I felt myfelf recovering, and thought 1 muft return to College a|ain, which had prt>ved io hurtful 10 my fpitituallntctell iheYcar pall, I could not hut be grieved, end 1 thought 1 hid much rallicr have died ; for it diftrefs'd me, to think of getting away from God. Bui before I went, E enjoyed feveral other fweet and precious Seafons of Communions with God ( particularly Qaikr 30, and Nsv. 4.) wherein my Soul enjoyed nnfpeakable Comfort.

J rtlurntd^to College about A"io™*«r 6. and through the Goodncfj of God felt the Power of Religion almoft daily, foi: the Space of fix Weeks.

Nsvmhr 28. In my Evening-Devotion, I enjoyed precious Difcoveries of God, and was unfpcakably refreOicd with that FafTaae Hii- xii. ", 13, 14- That my Soul longed to wing iiway for the Paradiie of God ; I longed to be conformed to God in all Things,— A Day or two after, I enjoyed much of the Liiii of Gti'i Cmnliinims, moft of the Day i and my Soul rcfted in God.

Tuefday, Dicimicr g. I was in a coatfortabie Frame of Soul nioft of the Day ; but cfpecially in Evening-Devoiions, when God was pleifed wonderfully to alTiffi and ftiengthen me j fo that 1 thought nothing [hould ever move me from the Love oE God in Chriftjefus liiyLord.—O ! mi Hour with God infinitely exewds all th( Flealiiisii atsd Dslishls ()f tliis towa World. ■' E) ' "'"■ - wme-

■jS ^1.23,14- J?i LltE A.D. 1741 {3* i7+j;

Sometime towarda the UunjJ^nd af Jeliiaery 1740,41. I gsei ftiore alil aad iJii/; in Mattefs ^of Religion^ by Meijis of m old Tempcacion, sr'z, Ambiiion in my Studies.— But ihrq' tlivine (ioodncfs, a great and gcnctaMniii,fs»iBf fprcici it fej user the College, about the Jatter End of Iiirvarj, in which wasjiiuebquickiieJjSnd more abuniijnilj'engaged in Religion.

iiht This Awaicening here fpoken of, w«s at the Beginning tj

Wat extraordinary religious Commotion through <he Land,

which is frefli in every ont'a Memofy, TIlis Awakening wi(

for a Tiaie very great and general at Niw-iiavn ; and thi

Cfiifge had no fmaU Share :ig it: That Society was greaijy re5

formedj the Students in general became fL-rioiip, and many qi

them reniatltabjy fo,an<i much engaged in «he Concerns of theii

eternal Salvation. And however undeCrable the Jflue of tin

Awakenings of that Day hive appear'd in .many others, (hen

have been manifefily happy anii abiding Effefls of the Impreffij

00s therjmaJe on the Minds of rBBOy of the Msmbers of that

College. And by all that 1 can learn concerning Mr. Bmiscrd,

«btre can be no Reafon to doubt hut that he had much of Uod'i

gracious Frefcnce, and of the lively ASings of true Grace, at

fbitTime; But yet he was afterwards abundantly fenfiWe, that

Sis religious Experiences and Affcfliona at i&at Time were not

Jieefrom a corrupt Mixlura, nor his Condudl to be acquirresi

from many Tilings that were imprudent and blameable ; which

Ke greatly lamented hinifelf, and was willing that others fliould

forget, that none might nuke an ill Improvejnens of fuch anE.-s-

ample. And therefore altho' in the Time of it, he kept a con-

Jtant Diary, containing a very parricular Account of what

Jiafs'dfrom Day to Day, fur the next thilteen Months, from

the latter End of J'anso/y, 1740,4.1. foremenlion'd,' in two

finalL Books, which ho callad the two ftrft Volumes of hisDiari',.

next following the Account before given of his Coirviaions,

Cr>nverfvon, and confctjuent Comforts i yet, when he lay on hia

Bcalh-Hed, he gavcOrder (unknown to me.'riil after hisDcath)'

that thcfe two Volumes Ihoiild be deflroyed, and in the Begin-

Jiingof the third Book of his Diary, he wrote thus, f by rhs

Hand of airolher,he not being able 10 write himfllf) "The tivo

*' precceding Volumes, immediattly following the Account of

" the Ai:thor'sCorlvcr&o,are lofl. If any are deiirous to know

" how I he Au [hot liTcd, in general,duting liiat Space of Time,

" let them riiid (he firft thirty Pages of this Volume i where

•» ihey wi!i find fomsthing of a Speoiimn al bia ordinary Man-

JiLi^M- »/Afr.Da(rWBra!nerd.A.D.i74i(yi742, igt

<• net of living, through that whole Space of Time, which wat

n iblHll 1 Ti Months ; excepting that here he was mote rifined

■< Iroitifuinc Imprudmciti and iWf«n(/^M^r, tbati there ; but

■ • [be Spiiil of Uevotioil running through lbs whole, was the

W Ijuie."

Ii could not be otherwife than that One whofe Heartbad been l„,,rti,arcd and drawn to God, as Mr. Bca/mrt's had been, IbouM be ml«ht«ly «nl«rRud, animatid and engaged, at the iigbc .,1 <u, b un AUer,,l...u .u.ule i„ the folkg.^ tk 1 owl. and Land, and I., nrcatai. Appearance of Men's reforming theirLnes, and turniuE from their Profaoenefs and hnmnrality, to Jerioufnefs .„J Concern for theit Salvation, and of Religion's leviv.ng and diufrilhing alraoft every.where. But as an msemptiate imprn-.lent Zeal, and a Degree of EnthuBafro foon crept m, and ming-Icil it fclf with that Revival of Religion ; and fo great and general an Awakening being quite anew Thmg m the Lmd, et leait Jl, to ill ths living Inhabitants of it ; ne.therFeonle noiHinlffers had leirn'J thoroughly to diainguiflr beiwcen foiid Kehgjon and ■1> JcluCiveCiumfDrfeiti I even many Minifiers of the tjofpel. ol longltjuding ,iud tliebdl: Reputation, were for aTimc over-puwered vjilh the glaring Appearances of the latter • And there-fore furely it was not ta be wondered at, thit young £™,^<r,, hut a Sophimore at College, flioold be fo i who was not only young in Years, but very young in Eeligioil and tiperience, and had hadU=ut little Opportunity for the biudy ot Divmity, and Hill Icfs for Oifervation of the Citcunillanccs and Lvenl. of fuel, an cxtraordinaryState of Things: AMan .nnft divctt h.m-fclf of aliRcafon, to make firange of it. In tberedir.a«nta|.ou» Citcumftances,B™;«ri/had the Unhappincfs to have a 1 uid'Jtc of that urtemperate indifcteet Zeal, which was at that Fime too prevalent; and was led, from his high Oj.nion of ctheis thst belooted upon better than himfelf, into fuch triors as were really contrary to the habitual Temper of his Mmd. Ode In-ttance of his Mifcnndua at that Tme, gave greatOffence to th» Rulers of the College, even to that Degree, that they esipell d him the Society ; which it is neceffary il.uuldhcre be particularly related, with it's CiicuroHances,

In the Time of the Awakening at College, there were fevera! religious Students that allbciated themfelves one with anotnet for mutual Converfation and AfEftance in tp.ntual Things, wht.-wtrcwont freely to open themfelves one to aoothftr, ss fpecia!

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'20 Mi:£i: ?J*LIFE

A.D.

^74^

MdintiniatcFriendi: Bfm'Brt-iwasoneofthisCompany. AnJl It once ha_ppcncd, that he and two or (hree more of ihcft I,is, intmaiE incnds were in thcHa]l together, after Mr.fftiiiMf^ one of the 7 utors, had been to Prayer there wilh the Scho]ari 5 III. other Ferfuii now ^emai.^mg in the Hall, but Brmffd and' tljEfehiBUinpaniojis, Ms. IVhiiulfiy having been uirufusNT, jathel.cal It. bis Prayer, one of iffowffi's Friends on this Oc-'i calwi, aikedhim what he thoagbt of Mr. »"«»,//„, Remade^ ^nl».cr. He ba, m ami Gra„ than ihh Ciar. One of thej J'teilimcn liappm.ng at fi,u Time io be near the Hall ftho' not jn the Room) oKr-heard thofe Words of his; iho'he heard HO Name mnuion'd, and icijcw no! who the Perfon was, which was thus ecrifursd : He informed a certain Woman that hebnsed tothe J.,w,,, „|,h,l ,ri|i„g j,„ i,i, o„„g„f i^jj^ „,-^ ,|^j lie beiiev d Br^mird faid this of fome one or other of the Rulers <:, the I ollege Whercopon the went & informed the Eeflor, ^ho (en. for tins Freflrman and atamined him ; and he told the KeflortheWords that he heard *a,WrJ ntter, and iiifcmei tl.m who were I n the Room with him at that Time. Upon yhich the Rcaor f.ot for them : They were very backward to inform againit their iriend, of that which they look'd upon as private tonverfation, and efpeciaily as none but they had heard or knew of whom he had uttered thofe Words; yet the Rcflor compdl'd them to declare what he faid, and of whom he faid 3t.— Brimrdlook d on himfelf greatly abufed in the Manaae-mcntof IhisAftair; and thought, that what he faid in private, was lojurioufly eworted from his Frierids, and that then it was injunoufly rccjuircd of him (as it was worn to be of fuch as had been guilty ot feme open notorious Crime) to make a publick; Confcffian and to humble himfelf before the whoie CoLf-e ia the Hall, for what he had faid only in private Converfation,-— We not complyiog ^iih this Demand, and having gone once to Jhe rep.,ateMee(mgatA'™./&„„, „hen forbidden by the H^aor, and alfo having been accufed by one Perfon of fayina «oi.cer„ii.g the Reanr, that he v^ondered he did not e.pecT to oropdown dead for h„ingth= Scholars who followedMr.T««„, taMlJ.rd ,h<, there t^s noPr„of of it (and Mr. i?r™,J llZrJ f f f ^^f'tS"* reraemher his faying any Thing t, that RurpofeJ for thefe Thing, he was expcll'^ the College.

,^^hr'i^rJV^'' Cifcumaances and Exigences of that Diy

T& i.^li"? r"' 5™'":'" "" ^■"""^'•' "f '"'College^ t mH,BOtujidertakew.d<:teftnmes it being iB.r Aia, not ta

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'tKl.H! e^ M-. David Braiiierd; AD.jyi,!, ar

ki m% Reptoach on the Authority of the Collegs, hut only to do liilllco to Ihe Memory of a Perfon who 1 think to be eminently

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|iilllco to Ihe Memory of a Perfon who i think to be eminently em of Iliufc whofe Mimry !i ilifed, — The Reader will fee, III thr Hniucl of (he Siory of Mr. BritiKird\ Life, % what his iiwii 'Iboughta afterwards were of hisBehaviour in thefeThings, Mil 111 how Chriflian a Manner he conduOed himfelf, with Rcf-■■Ki'l 10 this A&ir I tho' he ever, as long as ho lived, fuppofed . liiiiilolf much nbuftd, in the Management of it, and in what lid (aSa'i In It-

I lit Knijulllon wjsin the VVinlci Anss 17+1,2. while he Was In lii» jJiiid Year in Collets.]

t i'artitularly under the Date, H'tdmJiiay,Si:-^u 1^. '743'

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rfo LIFE

A.D.I 742;

P.4RT II,

jFrw;!; fi^Mrf ^^e Time thai h? firfi began fok devote himfelf moreefpecially tothc^tvtAj^ ■ oti Divinity, 'till he teas examined wtdX licmfed to preach, by the Affociatton of% Minifters belonging to the Eajlern Dif-triS of the County of Fairfield in Con-nedlicut,.

pR. Bmlneri, (he Spring aflcr his Expulfion, went to

rVj live with the Rev. IVlr. MiUi of Ripim, to follow his 4- r -I. Studies with liim, in order to his bring fitted for ihc Woric of the Miniflry ; wheie he fpent the greater Part of tlie Time 'till the Aflbciation )iccnfed him (o preach; but frc-tjuentlji rode 10 viilt the neighbouring MiniHers, particuiatly Mr. Cmii of Stralfiild, Mr. GreUm of Siuthbury, and Mr. Bdiajtif of iitthlthtm.

Here (at Mr. A/iV/i's] !ic begat) the shitii Boot of his Diary, in wIhcIi the Account he wrote of himfetf, js as follows.]

Thuffday, jSpril t. 1742. I fecmto be declining wilhRcfpcfl to niy f,ifc & Watrntli in (JivincThings; Had not fo freeAccefa . to Gad in Prayer, as ufual of late. O (hat God would hunihle me deeply in (h« Duft before him. I defetre Hell every I^aj-, for not loving my Lord more, ttihi) ha: {I tnift) hvid tni and gnunh'mjiif fiTms ■■, and every Time I am enabled to exctcifc any Grace renewedly,! amrenewedly indebled 10 the God of all Grace for fpecial Affiftance. Whirtthm'n Bsapi!ig\ Surely/; u txdtidcd^vi\\^:\ wc think how we are dependent on God for (he Being and every Afl of Grace. Oh,if ever i get to Heaven, it will be becanfe God will, and nothing elfe ; fori never did any thing of my ^\^^^ but getaway from God I My Soul will tie aflonifted at the unfcsrchabic Riches of divine Grace, when I arrive at the Manfions, which !bc bkjfcd Sjviour is ^one before [0 prepare,

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/r.l.ti,', c/Mr. David Brsimrd, A.D, 174.2; 2I

I'iiJay, ^p'il 1. In the Afternoon I felt fomething fweetly In fcctet Prayer, much refijned, calm and ferene. Wliat are all llif titermi of this lower World, if 'Jtfui by his Spirit docs but Mma waliing eti the Sfai ! —SomcTime paft, I had much Plea-fuM ill the ProfpctS of the Hsatbens being brought home to Chtill, and dcfired that the Lord would insptove me in thac Woiit :—13ucttow my Soul more frequently deiircs to die, ij bi MoithChfi/i' O that my 5qu1 were wrapt up in divineLove, and my longing Dellrti a/ici God incfeafed.— in the Evening, was rnfralh'd in Pnyw, with the Hopea of the Advancciqenf^oC ChiiU'i KinRdom in ilie WorM,

Satiiiday, j^pril 3. Was very much amifs (his Morning, and hid an ill Night laft Night. 1 thought, if God would take ms to bimfclf now, my 5oul would exceedingly rejoycc. O that 1 ntay be always humble and reflguM to God, atld (hat God would ciufc my Soul Co be more fix'd on himfelfj that I may be more Jilted both for doing and fuffering.

i.ords-Day, J^prii 4. My Heart Vim wandring and lifelefs,---In the Evening God gave me Failb in Prayer, and made ray So\)\ melt in fomeMeafurc, and gave me to tafte a divine 5wcct-nefi.--- O my blcffcd God I Let roe climb up near to bim, and love, and long, and plead, and wrcftle, and reach, and ilretch after him, and for DeHvirranis frsm the Btdj of Sin &nd Diath.'— Aias, my Joul mourn'd to think 1 fhould ever lofe flight ofit'iBcloved again ! Ocmi, Liril ]esus ! Amin,

[ On the Evening of the ntxt Day, he complains that he feem'dvlobe void of all Reliffl ofdivineThings, felt much of the Prevalence of Corruption, atid faw in himfelf a Difpofition to all Manner cf S\xi ; which brought a very great Gloom on his Mind, aad call him down into the Depths of Melancholy ; fo that he fpeaks of himfelf, as aftonifhed, amazed, having no Comfort, being filled with Horror, feeing no Comfort in Heaven or Earth.

rucrday,,^^rti6. I walked out tbJsMorning to the fsroePlace where I was laflNight,and felt fomething as I did then 5 But was fomething relieved by reading fome PalTages \ti my Diary, and fecm'd to feel as il i might ptay to the gtoat God again with Freedom ; hut was fuddenly ftrnck with a Damp, from ihi Senfel hid of my own Vilcnefs.—Then I ery'd to God la walk my Soul and cleanfe me ftom my exceeding Fillhinefs, to give me Repentance and Patdon; and it began to be fomething ((veer, 19 priy ;— And I cbuW tiiinfe of undergoing tbe

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greafeffi SufferlHES in (he Caufe of Chrift, with Plcafurc ; (ouhd ray fclf willing (if God fliould fo order it) so fuffcr Ea* (liihment from my native Land, among the Hmthtn, thlt I might do foBieihing for their Souls Salvation, in DiftrclTes ani Deaths of any Kind.— Then Qoi gave mc to wreftle earnelHy for others, for the Kingdom of Chrift in the World, and for clear Ghriftian Friends. — I felt wcan'd from the World and ftbm my own Repuialion amonglt Meri, willing to be defpiicd,, and to be s gazing Stock for the World to behold.— 'Tis im-poffiblc for me to exprefs how 1 then felt: I had not much Joy, but foine Senfe of the Majcffiy of God, wliieh made me as it were tremble: I fiw my felf mean and vilci which made me more willing that God ihould do what he would with mc ; it was all infitiitely reafonabic*

Wednefday, jipril 7, I had no( fo much Fetveney, but felt fomething as I didYefterday-Morning,in Prayer :— At Noon £ fpcnt fome Time in fecret, with fomc Fervency, bat fcaice any Sweetnefs : And felt very dull in the Evening,

Thnrfday, April 8.— Had raifed Hopes to Day refpefling (he Hmthtn. O {bat ^od would bring in great Numbers of 'etn , to Jcfus Chrift, I can't bo: hope i fhall fee that glorioas Day,—I Every Thing in this World fcems exceeding vile and little la i me: ) look fo to my felf.—[ had fame littleDawn of Comfort to ' Day in Prajief : But efpecially to Night I thinic I had fame Faith and Power of Intetccffion with God, was enabled to plead with God for the Growrh of Grace in my felf j and many of tho ^eir Chrldien of God then lay with Weight upon my Soal, Ulcflcd be the Lord. 'Tis good to wreftle for divine BleDiogs. Friday, Jpril 9, Moft of my Time in Morning-Devotion was fpcn: v/ilhout fenlible Sweetnefs ; yet 1 had one delightful Profpeft of arriving at the heavenly World. I am more amai'J than evet at fuel) Thoughts ; for i fee ray felf jnfinilely vile and unworthy. Ffcel very liearlfcrs and dull ; and tho' J long for the Pref^ncc of Cjod, and fccra conftantly 10 reach towards God in Delires, yet I can't feel that divine and heavenly Sivcct-rcfs thai 1 ufed 10 enjoy.—No poor Creature ftands in Need ot divine Grace more than I, and none abufe itmoie than I have: done, and dill do.

Saturday, Jprllio. Spent much Time in fecret Prayer this Morning, and not without fome Comfort in divine Things, and 1 hope had fome Faith in F-xercife: But am fo low, and feel fo tittle of Ihs Icnnble PrefcHCe of God, that I hardly know what to call Faithj and am made .to ;>;^/j tie^m ifvy Tsuib, aed

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jKl, ti'. */Mr. David Brainerd. A.D.iy^i, 25

Ilk), dreadful Bin of my Nature, and am all Sin ; I can't thint, Hptt »i\t but every Motion is Sin. -'- I feel fome ftint Hopes, thlt (ind will, of hit infinrte Mercy, return again withShowers 1.1 rnnvrniiig Grace to poor Gofpel-ahufing Sinners; and my lli^l^fh [if being improved in the Caufe of God, which of late llivr lirrn almoft e)£tinff, feem now a little revived. O that nil niK l^ie Diftrdlesand awful Apprehenfions might prove hoc ( bull's School, to nidfce mefil for greater Services by learning ikip the |i;reiif r,ellon of Humility.

Lnrd'i liny, Jtpril ti. In (he Morning, felt but little Life, vxcrptlofi dial rii)'tlrkiii w:\ii fouLelbtng drawn out in Thankful' nefk III f lud fui liir, amav.ing Grace and Condefcenfion to me in |ih(1 Jnlluences and AfTiltances of bis Spirit. — Afterwards bad ron^o i^wcelnefs in the Thoughts of arriving at the heavenly Wdild. O for the happy Day !--- After publickWorlhip God |.ivo me fpccial Afliffiance in Prayer j Iwreftled with my dear Liitd, with much Sweetnefs } and Intercefiion was made afweej

<nd delightful Employment to me. In the Evening, aslwas

viewing the Ligil in iht Nerth, was delighted in Contemplation on the glorioui Morning of the Refurre£lion,

MuntUy, Af^rit 12. This Morning the Lord waa pTea^'d to ttft ttp thi Light af bis Csuatsnance upsn mi in fecret Prayer, *nd made the Seafon very precious to my Soui. And tho' ] have heen fodeprefs'd nf late, refpeiStingmy Hopes of futote Snvi-ilMiiufi in the Caufe of God i yet now I had much Encouragement refpefling that Matter. I was fpccially affifted to interceed and plead' for poor Souls, and for the Enlargement of Chiill'a Kingdom in the Work!, and for fpccial Grace foe ' my felf, 10 fit me for fpecial Services. I fell exceeding calm, and quite reflgn'd to God, jcfpeaing my future Improvement, vihm and wiiri to pleafed ; My Failh lifted me aliove the World, and removed all thofe Mountains, that 1 could rot look over of late : I thought I wanted not the Favour of Man to lean upon; for 1 knew Chrift's Favour was infinitely better, and that it was no Matter wim, nor nluri, nor bmv Chrift iUoold fend me,nor what Trials he fhould flill clcrcifc me with, if I might be prepared lor hisWorl&Wilt, 1 now found fwcetiy revived in myMind ihc wonderful Diicovery, of infinite Wifilta in all the Difpenfations of God towards me, which I had a little Befoj e I met with my great Trial at College : every Thing appear'd full of the fVifium sf God,

Tuefday, April 13. Saw my felf 10 be very mesn and vile 5 wondtttJ »t Asfe tiut (bewed iB« Refpeft, Afwjurafda wa»

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ftmething comforted in fecret Retirement, and was affifid wrtflle nilh GijJ, wills feme Power, Spiriiuslity and Sweetnej lilclTcd be the Lord, he is never immind'u] of me, but alwa' {cDiii jjie needed Supplies, and from Time to Time, when sm like one dead, raifei me to Life. O (hat I smy neyt diftriift infitiile Goodnefs.

Wedneidaf, jlprilij^. MjSoul longed for Communion wil Chrift, aiid for the Mortification of indwelling Corruption, ej pedall)' fpiritual Pride. O there is a fwectDay coming, whcreji tbi wmrf will h at Rift. My Soul has enjoyed miichSwcstnel ihi' Day in the Hopes of its fpcedy arrival.

Th'urfJay, AfTjl 15. My Dchres apparently centet'd J God, and I l^ound 3 fenflhle Attraflion of Soul after him, fulf dry Times to Day ; J knoiy / kng fsr GOD, and a Cotiformi^ to his Will, in inward Purity and Holinefs, leaThoufandTint^ riKrc ilian for any Thioj; here bejow.

Friday & Saturday, jlprit 16, tj. Seldom prayed wilhoul fome feoflble Sweetnefs and Joy in the Lord. Enmcliracs longed much la hi Aljfchtd und ti it whk Chrift. O that G \vould enable me to graut in Grace every Day. Alas, my Bar rcnncfs is fnch, that God might well fay. Cut it d^wn. — I an afraid of a dead Heart on t]ic tiabbath now hegnn : O that Go'i would quiclcen me by his Grace.

Lord's-D.iy jfftU 18. Relir'd early tWs Morning into tbi WuoJs for Prayer ; had the Atlifiance of God's Spirit, ant Faith in Exe.-cife, and was enabled to ijlead with Fervency fo! the Advancement of Chrift's Kingdom in the World, and to

interceed for dear aiifcnt Friends At Noon, God enabled

me to wrcfUe with him, and to feel fas I trufi] the Power cf divine Lave in Pjayer. .- At Night, fivr my felf infinitely ' debted to God, and imd a View of my Short-comijigs ; It fcem'd to me, that I had dene as it were i:othing for God, and, tl^at [ never had lividis bttfi but a few Hours of mv Life. i

Monday, ^frll ig. I fet apart this Day for Faftin|; & Prayer to God for his Grace, efpecislly to prepare mu foi the Work of the Almijlrf, to give me divine Aid and Direflion in myPrcpa-rations for that great Work, and in his own Time to fcr.J mc istskk Harvt/!. Acc!srdin?,ly, in Ihs Morning, endeavoured to plead for the divine I'relcjice for the Day, and not without frnie Life. In the Forenoon, 1 felt a Power of .[ntcreeflion for piecitius immortal fouls, for the Advancement of the Kingdom SfP'Jiif" ^'^ "nd Saviour In the World ; and wiihal, a fnoft '?Set,Rf%na<i«n) ahif-ewn Conifpijiien lii Joy in'(lie Tho'ls ■ " "of

Jdl. iS: .' 'f JWr. David Bf8in<5(3. A.D. 17^, 2 j

cfftjIleilngHardniips, Dittrcfics, jnd even Death it felf, in the (•(nnlutlonofii ; and had fpcclil KnlirgL-men! in pleadmsi for ikn KnllBhllling and Convi-irion of the OMr HMhrri. lu the Aftethnrin, God mar wHhtntofa Trali:, O 'tivas blcilej t.'umnniy indeed ! Gadcnahlcd nic fo to a^oniae in Piaytf, 1)111 1 ivj! tiuilc wot with Sweat, tho' in tiie Shade, and the I Wind cool. My .Souf ivas drawn out very much for tfo/TcrM ; „ I I'ufp'J for Mullkudt! of Sauls. I think, t hid more liiilargc-iiieiit for Shl!irrs,tlntlf(>rtlieChildtenof God ; iho' I felt as if I cuulJ fiiend my Life in Crim fot'both, r cnj-JVed e;™SJ Hwirrliirlnii riMii.iiuiuon with my ileJr SMimiv. 1 itiink, I imvci in mv JjIc (clt fucli a[i iiitire Weanedncli from this Wuild, and fo much refign'd to God in every Thing.--O illit [ iniiy always live u and rrfsu my blelFsd God. Amen, Allien,

'['ucOay, April la. This Day F am twenty-four^e.irs of A|ie. O how much Mercy have I received the Year paflr! -I row often has Gsd cmfd his GusihcJ: U fifi /"/i"'"" ■' And how nootly have ( anfivercd tlicVowsl made thisTime tweive-iiioiltll, 10 lie wholly Ji» itrri'i, to be forever devoted to litj. li'eivl. I I Till- r.iird hel|) me to live more to his Glory fotTirae in Liiiiic.-- This (ijs liceo 1 fwcct, .1 liap[iy Da-; to me ; Bleflid UcGod. I think, my Soul v;asnsver fo drawa out iu Intcr-ecffion for slhitly as it has been this Nigh;. Had 3 moli fervent WreKle with the Lord to Night fur my km.-nm ; and t lutdly ever fo longesi to livi to GeJ, md to be altoacther devoted to*im ; I wanted to weai out my Life in his Service and for hii Gloty. ,,,„„.

Wediicfdiy, Jfiril 21. Felt mueli Calmncfi and Kdignation, tnd CoJ "Rain enabled ms to areftle for Numbers of Souis.and llld much Fervenev in thefiveet Duty of interccflion.— 1 enjoy of late mote SwectncfiS in huraffssn fv others, than in any ntlicr Fart of Prayer. *My blefl'ed Lord really let me cmtmar IB iim, and plead mth itiin.

[The Frame of Mind, and Ertercifcs of Soul, that he eV

preilcs the three Days il^ut fallowing, Tfeurfjay, Friday and

Saturday, arc much of the fame Kind with thufc cspteli'd the two Days paft.]

Lofd's-Dair J!>ril 25. This Morning fpent about two Hours In fecict Duties,' and was enabled more thin ordinarily toago-nlu (ur iraisisHfeil Souls > iho' it was early in the Morning, and '1 E J. «b=

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1*42;

' stir Tu^ ^""^ r m"'- y"'"'' ^'^y *=' <1"'^ »'« ""h foTfh J , 7^'l Ffff't now, => f«quen,Jy ofja.e, to plead*

r '''™^^'>«'>'"'& felt much of it (his Earning. O •!!! ' wft " "'^f'-^'Ti "'""')■ ■« f-give all 7,y<,™ done us ; to Bftiftd Jefu,, may f da, y be m«r, and more conformed CO Thee. At N,gh, w« exceed.ngl, mehed wi.h divine Lave, and had feme M,,,g Senfe ^f ,^5 Bldl'dncfs of ihe uppeJ World.

^100 appcar,li, b,f.r, Gcd. O (he Mc ^m/j, that C t.d fome-tlmc gives us ,n cur AdiJrefiej ,0 Jiim ! -This may well be termed „;>f,„n,f b,f^. G^: 'Tia fo i„dced.,n the true fpnitual Pot; ,f 7'" ''■='*"«« ^^^re..-! .hinfcl have not had fuch Power of In.erceffion, thcfB many Months, borl, f»r God'l

I ivk''!'' 'n A" ^T"'' "= ' '■"^'^ l'^"' 'his Evening. I wiOicd and I'^nged for rt, C.mingcfmf d,cr Urd.- I long'd ta

/eflion O.he bklled Moment haftc-ns! All f «-ant is <Q b= n,t,rel,oJy tnore hie my d«r tord, O for Sanaification 1 My very Seul pnls fo, the compleat ReBoraiion of the blefled Image of my fweetSaviour ; that f may be fit for the' blelTed injoymects and Eniploynjcnts of Ids heavenly World.

FarimSI, vail! World j mf Saul ma Hi MicUj

My S.wioDti'j taughi mc I, atmdin jit.

I'tur Charm, mat gratlff a fmjjisl Mind;

i^ot pkajt a Scul whsHy Jar GoD diflgti^d,

Fiirbiar t'mki, mfi ibm my Scul l, tail:

X'?-^'*'''' '^''""''' ^"'''' '^■Ganjbalt i: mj, Alf.

fyhilt hi liui lilt tni tiaviaty CIsrigi ■aim.

Tew Biaaiis Jail., my Ihart's m §ism fir ytir.

Ttie r,ord rtfrenicdmy Soul with many fwect PalTage. of

o I- ? . ;^. ^"" 'J"""/"'"" ■' My Soul longed for i t. <J the Song of J&/„ and l/« lami ' And that bleliid Soni: that 1,0 Man ran learn, but ihcy that are ridiimid frm tb, JLarthi And ihe 0 Ion ons ttto(.Ssi«, thai were given to thi iaiiii under thi Mi^r J ^

I^rd., Vm a i>lrangcr hert alsai j Earth IS trus Camforu Clin effcrd ; Ttt, altjai: frijin Hy dtsrejl Oitty Aiy Stut dsliil.li Is fiy^ My-Lord!

■/E/. 15; D/Mr. David Biaintrcl. A.D, 174*. *&

Jesus, ray Lsrd, itiy only Lavfff Paffifl mj Siul, mr ihmti dipsrt: GriKt mt Had I^ifllh k'lvmly Dim ; Ai> Gid JbnU Ibm bavi nit my Hmrt.

Monity, April 26. Conlinuca in a fweet Frame of Mind ; iut in the Afternonn felt famcthing of fpiritiial Pride flirring. God was plsafcd to make it a humbling Seafon at hrft ; Iho afterwards he gave me Siveetnefs. O my Soul excecdmsly longs for that bleflid State of Perfeftien of D=)iverince from all Sin '—At Nighl, tioil enabltd inc to give my Soul up (o him tocafl my felf upon him, to be ordered aniJ difpofed of according to his fovereign Pleafure ; and I enjoyed great Peace andConfolation in fo doing. My Soul took fweetDellght ir. Cod to Night: MyThoughts freely and fweetly centred in bim. O that I could fpcnd every Moment of my Life 10 hn Glory.

Tuefday.Ar;; 17. Retir'd pretty early for fcoetUevotlons ; and in Prayer God was pleafcd to pour fuch inelTible Comforts into mySoui, that I couW do nothing for fonie Time but fay over and over, O »y /it;"( Sitvim ! O mi [me,i SsviiurJ Whm haiic !k Hiava, bat Tin ? mi Ihiri 11 unit Ipsa Earth, that I difiti kfide Thu. If I had bad a Thoufaud Lives, myStJul would gladly have laid 'cm all down at once to have been mitb Christ My Soul never enjoyed fo much of Heaven before ; 'twas the rooft refined and moffi fpiritual Seafon of Communion with God lever yet felf. I never felt fo great a Degree of Etflgnation'Sn my Life ; I felt very fweetly all the Forenoi^lT.--In the Afternoon 1 withdrew to meet with my God, but found myfeif much declined, and God made it a humbling Seafm to my Soul: 1 mourned over ihi Btdy t/ Diath, that is in mo : it grieved me exceedingly, that I could not pray, to and praifc God with ray Heart fttll of divine heavenly Love.— O that mv Soul might never offer any dead cold Servicts to ray goH.— til the Evening had not fo much fweet divme Livi, as in the M irning i but had a fweet Seafon of fervctit littcrcij[ftm.

Wednefday, /f;riM8 Withdrew to my ufual Place of Re-tiienicnt in great Peace and Tratiquiility, and fpent about two HoutJ in fccietDutics. 1 felt much as I didYefterday-Morning, enlv weaker and more overcome, 1 feemcd to bang and depeni wholly on my deirLord ; wholly Vfcan'd from all oiherDcpen-dances, I knew not what to fay to myGod.but only liantn htl Bilcm, asit were, & breathe outmyDefiresiafter a pcrfcat-on-formity to him in silTiiin£s. ThitKiDgDrftresSnnftu»blsLt,nE-

Mi LIFE

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»/Mr. David Brainerd. A.D. 1742; 3?'

JDgs poiTcffed mj' Soul.aflcr pcrfcaHoliiicfi : God was fo preci-. ouj fo my Soul, that (tie World with all iis Enjojments was in-i Suitdy vifc; I bad iiujncre Value for the Faroui of Men, than.l for I'cblilcs: Tiic LoRB w»s niyAj-l. ; and //< over-ruled all ; \ which greatly dcligliteJ me. I think, my Faith and Depen- i tlaiicc on Go J fcarce ever rofo fo high. I faw Hioi fuch aFoun-'J tain of Qoodnefs, that it fEcm'diaipoffiblc I fliould difttufi hii again, or beany Way anxious abcul any Thing that fliould ' liappcn to me. I noiv enjoyed great Sweetnefs in praying for I abftnt Friends, and for the EnlJrgement of Chrift's Kingdom m Ibe World.--Much of the Power of tbefe divine Enjoyracjitj leniained with me fhro' the Day.— in tlio Evening my Heart fcem'dfwectly to ilK-lt,& [ tiud.was renlly humbled for indwel-line Corruption, aud I niiuimtl liii 0 Dsvi. I felt that all my Ullhappincft arofo from my being i Sinner ; for withRefignalion I could bid Welcome all olher Trials ; but Sin hung heavy upon nlc ; fur God diftovcfed to me the Corruption of my Heat : fo that I went to Bed with a heavy Heart, becaufc t was a Sinner ; tho' I did not in the lealt doubt of God's Love. O that God Vfould puigi awsf m, Dro/i, anj tah away wy Tin, and mske me fevcn Times refiaed.

Thurfday.J'jiriiag, VVas kept ofFataDiftance from God ;-but had feme Inlargement in Interccffion for precious Souls.

Friday, Jprii 30. Was fomcthing dejcaed in Spirit : No-tiling grieves mc fo much, as that I cannot live conihntly to God'a Glory. 1 could hear any Defenion or fptritual Conflias, it [could but iMvemf Uiart all the while hurnini wkhm mi with Love to God and Delires of his Glory : But this ii im-paiTihle i for when !/«.'thcfc, I can't bc'dejeaed in my Soul, but only rijajii in my Smsiaur, who has delivered me from the leigningPower, and will flioxily deliver me from thelndwellinE

Saturday, Ahy i. Was enabled (o cry toGod wllhFervency for miniltetial Qjiahntalions, and that God would appear /or the Advancement of his own Kinf;dom, and that he would Iring in the/i'.virtm World, &c. Had much AiJiftance in my Srudies.--This has been a profitable Week to me ; I ba»e en-juyad many Communications of the Iiieffed Spirit in my Sou).

Ltifd's-Day, Ma^ 2. God was pleafed this Morning to give lUfl fueh a Sight of my felf, as made me appear very vile in my r»wn I'iycH : I felt Corruptioi^ Ulrring in myHeart,which I could liy no IVIcans fupprcfs ; felt more and more defctled : was ex-itcdwg we«Ii, luJ ala-.oft fick will) my inward Trials.

Monifayj

Monday, Maf 3. Had a Ecnfe of vile Ingratitude, In the MornloR t withdrew to my ufual Place of Relirement, and limurntd for my Abufc of my dear Lord : fpent the Day m I'illliil' ;i"d Prayer : God gave me much Power of wrcflling lur lin'caufe and Kingdom 1 And it was a happy Day tn my Hinil God was with me all the Day, and I was more above ihr World, thai) cvn in my Life.

fThroiigh the rcmllninp; Pan of this Week, he complaios tliooft every Djy of nelertinn and inward Triali ancS Ctinflias, atlcudcd with di-jciiion of Spirit ; hut yet Ipcsiks of Times of Relief and Swcelncfs, and daily refrcihing Vifus of the divine Kiiiiit, affording fpecialAiSttanceandComfort, and enabling, at fnme Times, So much Fervency and Enlargement in religious Dutiei.]

r.nrd'!-Day, »y 9- I thini, I never felt fo much of the curfcd Pride of my Heart, as well as the Stubbornnefs of my Will before. Oh dreadful I what a vile Wretch I ™ ' j conU not fuhmit 10 lie nothing, and to lie down in the Dutt ! Oil that God wniilil humble me ill llic DuS. I felt my f=lt fuih a Sinner, all Day, that I had foarce inv Comfort- Oh, When fhall I be dilivcrid frm thi Bsiiy of this Dmth .' \ greatly . fcar'd, lelt ihro' Stupidity and '.Carelefncfs I Cwuld lofe ths lleoefitof tbefe Trials. O that they might be fanaificd to my Soul. Nothing feemed to touch me but only this, that !

was n Sinner Had Feivency and Refrefhromt in fuoia!

Prayer in the Evening.

Monday, Mny 10. Rode to AWi-Hom»; few fomeLhriltian Friends there i hadComfort in joining inPiayer with ihem.anii hearin» of the Goodnefs of God to them fines I lail faw them,

Tulfday, Mi^y n. Rode from'W>:f-/^awn tof'',!a(fo«/r</ii; was very dull moit of the Day v had litlie Spiriluality in this fourney, tho' I often longed to be aione with God i was much lierplcit'd with vile Thought! i ' was fometimes afraid of every Thing : But God was ray Hilfi'-— Caich'd a liirleTima for Relirement in the Evening, to ray Comfort and Rrjoycmg. Alas, [ can't live in the midH ot a Tumult ! I long to erjoy Cjod alone. .■ u n * 1

Wcdnefdiy, Mt^ 12. Had a diftreffing Vjew of the Ptido jnd Enmity and Vilenefs of myHcart.— Afterwards bad fweet Eefrelhmentin coiivsifing, & werfhippingGcJj wi!hChriEia.n Fiiciris, '- ' T- ri

Tni;trd.ay,

1= ^1. is'. Til LIFE A.D,

I'74a

Heart, Iha f lo„gcd to jjct amy trom ray k\f. j „„Er bcfoia

aboHprcf.'dtn Death wi,I, „y „wn Vilen.ft. Oh whata JMrfn,.,A ,. ,h,„ in me f Z,.^, Mi^,r my S»/ I could!

T-n, ;"'■",."^ ^""""/'"^ '" lli= Afternoon : had foocRe.

rcn„n<:„ta„d Comfort i r.ligioBS Ex.rcift, with ChXa

J'ncnd, i but lo,,gcd for raoreReilremEnt. O th^ cloM Wfc

\ima at Jnarttard, and fprcad before rheni the Trmfm«„. i i„j

rruftn., .ud to imre.t tlimi ro rcfore me to my fonncf Fr" viltRc.,nColcce..|— Aft„ ,hi,. fp.„t forae Tims™ re I giou. l.Kte,l„ Willi Chfiftiau Friends,

fo™thmgdejettedo„.|,e R„ad , .ppearid e.ccedn™■;'=>« ' .deed r never faw fuch a Weefc before, a. ,hi.; fe/ [ W been airaoft ready to die with the View of the Wickednenf n.y Heart. I eoold not have though, [ had fu^h ^ sS, ./S Js mme. Oh thai God would Afcr „y S™/. "^"''Z^""*

and A»ii,„>vt) he Lomplams fli|| of Dulnefs and Dcrerticn and cxpre e. a Senfc „f hj, Vilen.fi, and longing to hide hiSlf ^ fcntc Cave o. Den of ihe Karth : But yeffpfaks of fome me " val. of Comrcrt and Soul-Refreftmeixt each Day.J

der!l't'cd",'i!''''M^''''^ ''' f'^' ^^''''"^'""I I *« fo amazingly i™^ h'sMotmng, that! fce.n'dtorerlaSortoi^Hofrot

S » r ''' "■^"" '^-^"'^ ^i'M'^w^.what is there tharean afford my Cornfou to ihc Soul !

Cairerf^'r^'f* ^"'Y'^' following, he e^preffe. more

■I The Applkajlor.whirhwasifccani^dcon Ilis Behalf, W nW 11)5 nVliltd Succcfs, ■ '

Friday^

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Kiltlily* ^ffy 2S. [At New-Havm] ! thinks I fcarce ever felt culm in my Life ; 1 rejoyced in Refignation, and giving

mv f«l' lip tu God, to be wholly and intirely devoted to him

liir«vci<

f ()ii llic three following Days, there was, by the Account

lit ([ii'M, !i Continuance of the fame excellent Frame of Mind,

U\\ t uprcJIed : Itui. It fccnta not Lu be Altogether to fo gieat

't'lipHiy, 7«'" '• ^'^ nivich of the Prefence of God in JijiHily I'ltiyn ,aiiil had ftuiic t'oitifott in i^ci-rct. I was greatly lellellicd liiiNi thcWord of God, thisMorning, which appeared rxccedin[^ fwcct to me : fome Things that appeared myfteriouj, ware opened to me. O that the Kiitgdsm of the dear Savinui: liiigln come i(jithl*tyuier, and the heaiing Waters ofibe San^usry Iprcad far and wide for tht Healing of th$ NtHiimi.-'- Came to ki^tm \ but was very weak ; However, being vifiEed by a Number of young People in the Evening, I pray'd with thcna.

[The iTinnininjt Part of this Week, he fpeaki of being much divcilcd and hindered In the Diilineli of Religion, by great Weaknefi uf Body, and iiccelikry Aflaiis, that lie had to at-Icitd, and cemplajns of having but little Power in Religion ; J)ut fignifics, that God hcjeby Clewed him, Hewaa like a belp-Icfa Infant caft out in the open Field,]

I,ord'!-Day, Jiasi 6.— I feel much dcferted -. But all this lenchcj mc my iJoibingnefs and Viienefs more than ever.

Monday, Jam <j. Felt ftill powerlefs in fecret Prayer.— Afterwatds 1 pray'd,and converfed, wiih fome litlleLife. God feeds me with Ctnmbs : Bleffed be his Name for any Thing. I felt a great Defire, that all God't People might know how mean and little and vile I am ; that they might fee I am nothing, that fo they may ptay for mc aright, and not have the leaft Dependance upon me,

Tucfday, Juni 8. ! enjoyed one fweet and precioua SeafMl this Day ; 1 nevei Icli it fo fwcei to be nothing, and lefs than tioihing, and to be accounted iiothiug>

[The three next Days he complains of Defeition, and WaE( ef fervency in Religion ; but yet his Diary fliews that eveiy Day bis Heart was tligagcd in Rtligion, as l^is gteal and is it were only Euftnefs]

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_ Safurdajr, Jur., la. S|«ntmu-ch Time in Prayer, thisMornI me, and c.ijuycd much Swcctjicti: — Fdt iiifeiabls LongiM after bud, mudl uf llic Day : 1 woBdcr'd flow poar Souls 5 lu l.vc, liMt Imve m (M—Tbe WoM, witl, all its Enio» mcm>, cjuiic variidicJ, I fee my fdf very hdplcfs: but I havi a Wcilod (.nu, to go to. 1 long'd exceedingly (« i. JMhJi Mrf(. li, m(A Chvi, w ickM hi, Gi.tj. Oh, my weak wearf Soul lunp to arrive at jBy Fathir's Hsufi .' '

J,utdVpay jMf ,j. Felt fomethiBg'calm and religncJ l(l| Ihe pubhcfc Worlhlp : At the Sacrament fan, my felf very vij anJ W""*'';'^ O that I may always lie low in (he Duft. Mjf Soul feetnedftcadily to go forth afier God. in longiDg DefiroS 10 live U|)on hiin, * "l

MuiiJ.K, >w ..^ I'cliromtthinRdfihcSweetrttfi ofConr:l .nunion «Jll, l.„J, „„| ,:,„ „^v,„,w„^ ,,■„,, „f ,^,., ^,,^^ .1

Ta'1'",'!' '>■ " "l"'"^"" '!'<' S""'. and maltcs all the Deliri ' iuid AdL-a.o.i, loccttrin Gou !-I fttapart this Day h,i «c laHingandl'rve,, to inlreat God to direft and blefe mnl with Reeard to the great Wort 1 h.we in Vi™, of,fr«rA/,3

/*< i<f ii ,fh, Cm»(™„,. Had little Life and Power in tht' iorenoon : Near the middle of theAfternoon, God enabU ma' ta wieHIe ardently in Inlcrseffioii for abfcnt Fricnds:-But iuft at Nigbt, llle J.Dld vifitcd me marvelImUly in Prayer j I .hint- 1 .ny fcoul never wh.Im futhanAj;o„y before: 1 feltnoReflraint'i ;"' ,7 '■?["'" "f J'vnicGratc were opened t» me : J wreftled ' f..r aWenI I nends (or Ihe Ingathering of Souls, for Mullitodes <, [loorioul! andforaiany that I ihonght were the CbiWrel, of God, perianal y,,„ many diftaot Places. I was in foch an Agony, from btinhalf an Hour high, ■till near Dark, thall wa. all over wenviiiihTOjt; but yet it feem'd to me that ] had ' w.lcd»vv.,y,bel,y and l,a,l done,,othinj. Oh. my dear JljU» d„lyww,/J/„,/for poor .Souls ! I long for more Com-r-Hwu toward, ihcm..^- l.'elt flili i„ a fwj Frame, tinder a fa«,f= of d.vlne l^ve and Grace ; and went to Bed in fuch a Funie, wuh my Heart fet on God.

Tuefday, 7»m 15, Had ibe mofl ardent Lonein-s af«rr OOD, Ibarever I fdt in my Life : At Noon, in m/fecrc. 1=: ire.nen, ieould do nothing bu, tell my dear Lord, iaaf.va't l.«b>., tbat be knew 1 longed for nothing but UmfJ^oM^' \mJM,.,p: mtfeh,d give,, metheieDS. and H^ .Wy ,,„uld Klve,me the Thing defired. I „,ver fe m'd o be fo unhlnsedfunntnyfelf, ,„d ;„ be fo wholly devo«;d to Qo".

My.

'Ml.^S' 0/M-. David Braitiert]. A.D. 1742." 35.'

Hi y I Icart was fwallowed up in ©on, mofl of the Day. In the Ilvpimhk ' ^^■^'' '^'^^ aViewcftheSonl's being asit were enlarged, III 1 ulUllin iiiiiie flolinsis, that my Soul fecm'd ready to fcpaiate

fiiil y Hiidy, and (irctch to oblain it. I then wreflled In ait

Aliinv loi divine Blcffinp ; had my Heart drawn out in Ftajer till liiiieChri(lianl''rienda, beyond what I ever bad before.—[ (i'<l dillctenily now from what cvi;r I did under any fiveet £n-j:i)iaeiit«bcfiirr, more en^if;e<i'to A'v; (» GOi> for ever, and li'fi pleaded with my own l''tamc» ; I am not fatisfied with my iMiuei. luii InUl all mine cnfy allcr (urh fwciS Slrupglingl lllili Ipclorr 1 (ill It leenu far inn litljr, il I coulil aKvays be fo. (Jh, liow Uiott do 1 fail of my Duty in ray fweeteft Moments !

I In hl< Dirry for (he two next Days, he exprcffcs famelbicg lit the (jline I'raine, but in a fat lefc Degree.*]

Kriday, Jane iS. Confidering my great Unfitncfs for the VVulIt of the Minijlr;/, my ptefcnt Dcadnefs, and total Inability III do any Thing for the Cilory of God ihaiWay, feeling my feif very lirlplrfi, mid at a [^rcut I.uli letof ihi Lard wcM havt m> lull, I let u|i.iit lliii Day ioi I'l.iytr in God, and fpiB! moft id tlic Day in Ibat Duly; but aiiiiiiingiy deferted, nioft of ihe l)«y : yet 1 found God graciouny near, once in particular, while I was pleading for more Corapaflion for immoru! Souls, my liiart fccm'd to be sfieu'i! at once, sod I was enabled tlD cry with great Ardency, for a fev? Minutes,—Oh, I was diifrefs'd, III think, that I (iiould ofTer fuch dead cold Services to the Hmnr dtil.' My Sonl fccm'd to breathe after Holinefs, a Life of ciinllant Dcvottdiiers to god. But I am almoft iolf fi metirnes in the puifuit of this Eieiiednefs, and ready 10 fink, bccanfe 1 continually fall fliort and mifs of my Defirc. O thai iheLoitf Mioul J help me to holdout, yet a little while, "till the bappv Hour of Dsllveranee comes.

Saturday, Jais ig. Fsllmtichdifordered ; my Spirits were vcylow: but yet enjoyed feme Freedom and Sweelnefs in the Dalies of Religion. BIcffed be God.

♦ Here end the 30 firft Pages of the third Volume of his Diary, which he fpeaks of in the Beginning of this Volume fas was obferved before) as containing a Specimen of his uidinary Manner ofliving, thro' the whole Space of Time, f«in theieginni-ngof thofe two Volumes that wwcdeftroy'd. ^ "Fa Lord's*

fisLIFE A.D. ?742:

Lorf't-Dii)', yoBi an. Spent much Time alone—My Soul longcij 111 be holj-, anil raclrj after God ; but fceui'd not tc obtuiiT ji.yDclirer I hmgrid ani ibirfld ; but «s not fwcetlv refrc-tb'd ami fjfi.fid. IV]y Soul hung nn Goc, as ray onii roriion. 0 iliiit 1 could grew ill Gfaci more abundant!? ffvcry IJjiy, '

I, 'llic ncxiDay lie fpsaks of his havingAtndince in hisStudiesi una Power, Fctreccy and Comfort itl Prayer.] '

_ TucHay, 7™ 12. In tha Morning, fpent about twoHourd in Prayer and Meditation, witll confiderable Delight. Towards Nighr, felt rny Koul po nut in longing Delires after God, in fe-crtrRetncmcnt. huhoKvt-ninj;, was fweerjy compofed and refisntd i„ (J,„l'»Will J WM enabled to Icai-e my felf and all my Ij^jncenn will, Him, and [o have n,y whole Dependance upon Mim: my (ccrct Hclireinent was very rcfteDling to my Sou! • It appeared fuch a Happincfs 10 have God for my Portion, that I tid rather be any oiIkc Creature in this loiver Creation, than not come 10 the finjoyment of God : I had rather be a Beaft, than a Man, wuhoui God, if I were to live here to Eterniiv, Loii, endear tliy felf more to me,

[In his Diary for the next feven Days, he cjiprelTes a variety of Kxm-ife, oi Mind ; He fpcak, of great Longrnp after God sml Holinefr, and orneK Delircj for .he Converfion of others, (if lerveney in Pral'cr, and Power to wreflie with God, and of Compofurc, Comfort and Siveemefs, from Time to Time s but exprefles a Scnfe of the vile Abomination ol bis Heart and Inltcrlycompluins of his Barren nefs, and the preffing B,dy tf DiM i and fay,, he /a,o diarly, thai wh^timr h, t«m,L btltiTlbmHM, vimfruGr^,: Complains of his beins tx-cceJing low, much below the Charader of a Child of God • and is fomcliincs very difconSilaie and dfjeacd.l '

_ Wednefday 7iM 30. Spent (his Day alone in the Wood,, in tailing and I raycr j underwent the raoft dreadful Conflias in my bun), that e»er I felt, in feme Refpefls ; 1 faw my felf To vUe lliat i was ready 10 fay, t JhalUiw pmfi i, ihi Hmdif baul..—lihougtit, and slmofl concluded, I had no Power to Hand for the Caufc of God, hut was ^\a«&«fraii tftbilhMnt tfu iMf. hpciitalmoft the whole Day in Prayer, inceffanlly. J CiuIJ due hear to shwt ef Qiriiliari! fficwing me anj Refpefl.

jT.t,i.S. ff/iWf-DjvidSramsrd. A.D.I743- 37

1 almolJ defpaited of doing any Service in the World : I could nut feel airyHope or Comfott.refpea.Pg fh=HMl*.»,wbich ufed to afFurJ me fame R.frefhment in the darkett Hours of this Nature. I fpent away l!ie Day ii thi Sillfmfi of my &uL Near N ight, [ felt a little better; and aftetwards enjoyed lome bwecf nt^ in fcciet Prayer.

Thurfday, 7uly I. Had fomeSwectnefs in Prayer, this Morning. -Felt exceeding fweetly in feeretPrayec toNight,& defired nothing fo ardently as th« Gcdfiw!^'^' «">'* «';"/'.■" f'f''V"'-

Friday 7Wy a. Felt comi.ulcd in fectel Prayer,in the IWorn-i„».- [ylylJefirea fweelly alcenjed to God this Day, aa t was .rLiling : and was comfortable la the Evenmg. Bleffed b= Cod for all my Confola:ions. , . , r i, xi„nir

Saturday Wy 3. My Heart feemed again to fink. 1 heUil-orace I was kid under at C.f%, feemed 10 damp me, as it open. Tlie Mouths of Oppolers. ll»d no Refuge but m God only. Bleffed be his Nime, that I may go to Uim at all Times, and

find him afe/'n'-H''?' _. , .1, u-

Lord's.Day, 7nk A- Had conMerable Affiftance. In iheE-veninf, ! withdrew and enjoyed a happy Seafon in fecretPraver: tied waa pleafed to give me the J'.xereife of hailh, and thereby brought the invifible and eternal World near to my Soul i which appear'd fweetly to me. I hoped, that m, •«t^^yP,lgr,mg> m the World would be yS.rf, and that it would not be long before I was brou"hitomv heavenly Home and Father stroufe : I was f^yeetly tefrgned toGod'sWdl, to tarry hi, Pime, to do hi» Work.and fofferliisPleafute. I felt Tto*/iiiiJ./( to God for all my preffing D,firUom of lafe i for I an;) perfwaded they have been made a Means of malting me more hunlble,and much more refusn'd. I felt pleafed, to be iUtU, to be nothmg,- ^^^ f lit in tbihuji. I enj uy 'd Life and fweet Unfolatioii m plead-ing for the dear Children of God, and the fvlngdom of Lhtilt in the World : and my Soul earnellly breathed afterHolinefs and the Enjoyment.of God. 0 imt Lard i&^^s ! Cm iU,M}.

r By his Diary for the remaining Daya of thisWeek.it appears that he enjoyed confiderableCompufure and Tranquillity, and had Sweetnefs and Ferveoey of Spirit in Prayer, fiom Day ta

SiJs-Day, >/, II. Was defertedahd exceeding dejeflediit the Morning.— In thcAftcrnoon, had fome Life and Afhltani:e, jtid felt lefignsd: 1 fsw ray fslf esceeding vile.

'§S ^t, ng;

ff:5<-LIFE ■A.D.1742;

sj, f/Afr.David Brainerd. AD.iy+i: 3J1

[On the two next Days ho cxpreffes inward Coinfoft, Refig aation, anii Ecrfngth in God,]

lV(iiiiL'fday,yK/; 14. Ftll a Kind of bumble redgned Sweet aers : Spent n coofidtrable Time in Secret, giving my fdf u WllolJy lu ttinl-oril.— Heard Mr. &/J<iwy prE»cti,to»>ars!sNiBh! felt vtrj; Sweetly, part of the Time ; Longed for nearer ««/J f tion. '

[The four itcxt Days, he cxfreffcs tonfldcrablo Comfort aniS Fervency of Spirit in ChliftianConver&lion and Rclisioirs Exeiv cifes.] °

Monday, yi,/^ ig. My Defires feem erptciiJIy to be carried out after Wcancdners from the IfatM, pcrfeflDeadnefs to it,and <0 be even ctulfiid to all iti AlluremCJiti. IVIy Suirl longs to feel it (elf more of 9 Pilgrim and Siraagir here bcloiv ; that nothing Diijp dtverlme from prcflinR through tlic lonely Dcfjrt, 'tilll artlVfint my I'athcr'jHoure.

Tucfdiy, yii/j, j,o. It was fweei.to give away my felf toGon, • (0 lie di roofed ot at his Pleaftitc ; and had fome feeling Sen fe of * ihe Sweelnefs of being a Pi/grim «» li'irlh. '^^

[ThcncxtDayjheexpreffeshirafclfasdelermincd (oba wholly devoted to God ; and it appears by his Diary, that he fpcnt the whole Day in a moft diligent Excrcife of Religion, and exceeding comfortably.]

Thurfdiy, July ja. Journeying from Ssaihhyy to Riptin, called It aHoufe by the Way.whcrc being very kindly entertain'd and reliefii'd, J was fili'd with Amazement and Shame, that Cod (hoirld ttirupiheHcartsofany tofbewfo much Kindnefa to fuch a dtaJ Dag as I ; was made ftnfible, in forae Meafure, how exceeding vile it is, not to be wiaolly devoted to God. I I wonder'd, that God would fuffit any of hia Creatures to feed and fujhin me, from Time to Time.

[ In his Diary lor the fix next Days, arc exprelTed various Eierci(c) and ExperieDcei, fuch u fwcct Compofure and Fervency of Spirit in Meditation and Prayer, Weanednefi froni the World, being fcnSbly a Pilgrim and Stranger on tile Earth, En^ageJnefs of Mind to fpcnd every Inch of Time forGod,^^! Thurfday, 7ii/,,J9. Was examined by the AiTociation met at Z>sntar>,a5 to my Learning, atid alfo my Experiences in Religion, aad received a Licence from Ihcm to preach the Gofpcl uf Chrift.— Afterwards felt much devoted to God ; join'd in Prayer with one of the Minrfters, my peculiar Friend, in a convenient Pkce i went to Bct! jcfoifing to live devoted toGod all roy Days,

PARTj

from ihTimc ofhh being Ucenfed to preach, hy thf Aflot i'lition, V/// hf. -was examined .,.. Nuw-York, by the Coi-reipondents or Commijfwners of the Society in Scotland for propagating Chrifiian Knowledge^ and approved and appointed as their Miffionaiy/o the Ihdiaks.

FRiitiy, yo/y 30. 174.1. Rode from Dmbary to SlatUtirj 5 I'icach'd tlicrc Irum jfrr.iv. S. Had muchof ihecoraioi-table rrcfencc of God in the EKCrcifc : 1 fcem'd to have Tower vrithGod in Prayer, and Fovter tu gel hold of the Hearts of the People in Preaching.

Saturday, July 31. Exceeding calm and compofed, and was greatly rcfrefhed and encouraged,

[ It appears by his Diary, thai he continued in this Stvcetnefs imd Tranquillity, almofl through tiie whole of the next Week,]

LorJ's-Day, Af. 8. !n the Morning felt comfortably In ferret Prayer ; my Soul was refrclli'd wilh the Hopes of the i?M-ItfOi coming home to Chrift ; tvas much reiigucd to God, I thought it was no Matter what became of m. -■■ Preach'd both Paill of the Day at Bethlibim, homjtk xiv. 14., H was fwcol to me tp meditate on Dmth. In the Evening, felt vciy comforta-lily, and cried to God fervently, in fccret Ptajcr.

f Ii appears by his Diary, thathe continued thro'the three ncKiDays, engaged with all his Might in the liuiincrs of Religion, and i-ii alnioH a conllsnt Eqeynien! of (he Comforts of it.]

Thuffday

ne LIFE

Thiiifday, Af»/f II. This Moraijig and laft Night was erciftd with fore inward Trials ; I had no Power to pray ; fecmed fiiut out ffpOlGud. J had in a great MearureJoft mi Hopcaof Cjod's fending me among Jhe Htathtn afar off, a " of feeing them (luck home to Chrift. I (aw fo much of my !ielli„. Vilenefa, that I appeared w^rfe to nty felf, than any Devil: ll wondcr'd, that <jod would let tuelivej and wondered that PeoJ pfe dill nut ftone me, much more, that they would ever hear m^j preach ! It feeni'd as tho' I never could nor flioold preach ani^ more, yet about 9 or lo o'clock, the Peaple came over, and I^ was foEceti to pleach : And bleffed he God, he gave me his Pre-fence and Spirit in Prayer and Preaching : So that I was mucii.j, jflifted, and fpake with Power from Jabuxv.i^. Soma hidians cry'd uutinurtnt I)if!rcft, * and all apjicar'd greatly concerned. After wo haiTpray'd and exhorted them to feek the Lord with CdjUbjicy, and hired an l''«gli/Jj Woman to keep a Kind of AV^w/among them, wc came away about one o*Clock,and came to 7orfM,aboiit Is or 16 Miles. There God was pleafed to vliit' my Soul with much Comfort. Bleiilid be the Lord for allThings' 1 meet with.

[ It appears, that the two next Days he had mujih ComforfjV and had his Heart oiuch engaged in Religion.]

Liirdj-Doy, Ajju/? i-{. ]■>!( much Comfort and Devofednefi (^^Uod thii Day. Al Ninhl, it was refrcflling, so get alone with UoD and pcur fut nty SauL O, who can conceive of the Sweet-Jiefs of Communion with the blefied God, but thofe that have Pipetience of it f Glory to God forever, that 1 may tafte Heaven below.

Monday, A^rj/? 16. Had fome Comfort in fecret Prayer, in the Mottling: Ktlt fweetly fumlry Times in Ptayer this Day ; But wan much perplexed in ihe Evening witii vain Converfation.

TucfJay, jA/^j.'/j' ly. Exceedingly dcprefs'd in .Spirit, ft cuts and wounds my Heart, to think how much Sdf-Exaitauon,Spi-Titaal FTidf^^lfaimih BfTemp^r^i hivefcyipirly had intermingled with my Endeavours to promote God's Work ; And fome-times I long to lie down at the Feetot Oppofers,and confcfs whatr ipoor iropcrftit Creaiure I have been and Hill am.—Oh, the

ll wii in a Place near Kiii, in the Weftem Bordefiof Cm-niiluui, rtlitic ibeie is a tiftnixneihJkm,

jUird

. Jt/, 25. (/Mr. David Braiwrd. A.D.i74a. 41

ftiird forgive tne, and make me for the fumre wifi a! a S»pm

\lm\ harmUf,ai3 i)™,—Afterward J enjoy'dconfidetable Com-

fcfl anil Delight of Soul. „,._.„ ■ n. j

W.dj,cfday, Au2«fl .8. Sptntmoft of this Day m Ptayer anti jlMdlng.—I fee fo much of my own extream Vdenefs, that 1 I..1 ,n,.,med and guiitv before God and Man i I Inok, to my f,lf, hketbe vilcft Fellow IB the Land : I wonder, thai God Bira ■III hi.t People to be fo kind to me.

rhurfday, A^^^ .9. This Day, being about to go frota Mr. B»//l«/i»i liilhhhim, where I had teflded foine lime, IHi.'d with him, :...d two oiilirre<,thcrChriHi.nhr,ends, and lave onr ftlvea to God with all our HmsIs, to be his '"rever: ICiemily look'd very near to me, while I wa. praying. If I never (hould fee thefe Chriftiaiu again in thia World, 11 feein d hut a rewMoments before I Ihould nieet'em in another WotW.-fartcd with ihcm fweetly. .,, ,. . l .■

Friday, Anguff SO. 1 appeared fo vile to fty feir,thatl hardly d.rcil to thinJtof being feen, efpecially on Account o fpintual I'ridc. However, to Night, 1 enjoyed a fweet Hour alone with (iod fll iifir.nl I was lifted above thef towns and Halteries ot ■his I'wcr Wuij'l, had a (wcet RtWh ol heavenly Jr,ys, and my Koul did a. i[ were get into the eternal World, and rejy tafte of Heaven, t had a fweet Eeafon of inlerceffion f.jr deail nenda 1„ Chrifl i andGod helped metocry fcrvcnlly lor Zim. Uleiied be God for this Seafon.

Baturdiy, Augaft ll. Was much perpIex'd,intheMorning.-Tow.tds Noon enjoyed more of Cwd in fecret was enabled to Ice that it was belt to Uirow my felf into the Hands o God to bcdifpofedot accordins to his Pleafurc, Jnd r,jo,ced in fuch Thousfits. In the Aflernoon.rode to Ntw-H,vm-, was much confufrf all the Way.-Juit at Night, underwent fuch a dreadful Conflia, as 1 have fcarce ever felt. Haw my lelf tsceed-ina vile and unworthy i fo that t was guilty, and alhamed, that my Body Ihould bellow any Favour on me, or Oiew me any

"^LoriVDay, Aj*/? 32. t" Ibc Morning, ronlinued fliU in Perplexity.- In the Evening, enjoyed that Ccanto that feem'dio mefufficiint ,0 over-ballance all my laie O'Sf'T^^-Ifaw, that Cod is the only Soul-falisfyiogPorimn, and i really (o«nd Sstisfaaion in him : My Soul was much enlarged in r.vo=t Interc.ffion 'or my Fellow-Men every wh«e, and for tiuny Chriitisa Friends, in partieular. in diftsnt P.aces^

Kj. LIFE

A.D.j74j;|

,M«ody ^us«Ji ij. Had a fwMt S=4fon in fccret Prayer j Jhe Lord drew near to my SduI, and liiled me wish Peace am' d.7me CoufolMjOE. O, my SduI (afled ihc Sweetncfe «f ,!» upper Wodd ; and was iwie'i^ dtawn out in Prayer for ibj World^hst itmlght coniehomelfChrift ! Hadmiich Comfofl .n the Though acd Hopes of the Ingathering of the H,utt,«, ; wasgreaily affifted m Intcrceffion for Chrifiiaa Friends.

[He ™t;naed ffill in the fams Frame of Mkattenexl DiyJ But in a leifer Degree.> ■'«

Wedl^ifday, Ag^y? ij, [„ Family-Prayer, God helped mft to climb up near Hun, ft that 1 fcaice ever got ncarsr. 1

[The four next Days, he appears to have been the Subiea'l of Defertion, and of Comfort and Fervency in Religion,inret-^ I bknef 1 * "'^"''""''"'^'^"^"f '''Hone's and Unprofitai^

Monday, Aj»^ p. Felt fomething comforlsbly i„ th* MofoMig ; converfed fwcetly with feme Friends i was in a f« rious cempofed Fram» ; pray'd at a certain Houfe with fome Degree of Swectneft. Afterwards, « another Houfe, prav'i pilvat=iy WJth a dear Chtiftiao Friend or two; and 1 think 1 Scarce ever lannch'd fc far into the etern*] World, as then - I got fo far out on the broad Ocean, that my Soul with Jov triumphed over all ihe Evils on ibe Shores of Mortality. ] thinic ' i niK and all its gay AmuTcmentj and cruel Djfappointments! njjvcr appeared fo [nconfiderable to me before : I was in a fweel frame; i faw niy felf nothing, and my Soul rcach'd after God With intenf, Defirc. O ! I fair what I owed to God, in (udi s Manner, ai I fcarce ever did : I knew, [ had never lived a Moment to h™, as I Ihould do : Indeed it appeared to me I bad .:evcr done any Thing inChriftlanlty : My Soul longed with a vehement Defne 10 &,(, GOA-In the Evening, fung and pray d «,ch s Nun.ber of Chriffians : Felt lit pL^s cf th, mrld II cmi. m my Soul, in Ptayer. Aftermrds pray'd again' privately, ,vuh a dear ChriHian or rvro, and found the Piefenee 0) l-'OJ; was fometh.ng Imnibled in my fecret Retirement ; (ellray iiigralEtude, becaufe 1 was not wholly fwillowed op in

[He was in a fwect Frame great Part of the ntxl Day.]

Wednciday,

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VVcdnefdoy, Siflmi. I. — Went (0 JWrs, (0 (be Ordina-lliNi ol Mr. fttdd. Dear Mr, Bilkmy preach'd from Matth. hHiv. 4&. Hk[ftd is that Servant i^c, I felt very folemn, and vuty IwcctJy, moft of the Time ; had my Thoughts much on lliit Tinit; when fftfr £tir^ tv/W fom?; that Time refrcfhed my fUll much ; only I was afraid, I fliould not be found/tfi'tA/wV, l+vi*iile I have fo vile a Heart. MyThoughEs were nn^ch in l-innity, where IIovc to dwell, lilcil'cd be God for this fo-Il-(HU ytfafon,-"" Rode lionw to Night with Mr^ Bellamy ; felt (..iiirtbinj( fwectly on the Uimd 1 ci.iwerliiii with iijme Friends 'ijl it wan vciy Lite, and tlieu leliied to Ruil in a comfortable I'VatHC.

Thurfday, Stpumhtr 2* About two in the Afternoon, I inradiM from Jshn vi. 67. And Godaffifled me in feme com-till l.ihle Degree J but more especially in my hHt Prayer j my Hunl icciocd then to launch quite into the eternal World, and lobe 'i% it werefeparated from this ]ov?er World.—' Atterwards lirc.uh'd again from Jfniah v. 4. God gave me fome AHi^ance; IJut 1 Uw my ielf » poor Worm.

[ On Frldiy, Siplmiir j. Hecomplnins of having but little Lite in the Thingsoi God, the former Part of the Day, but af-Icrwurds ipeaks of ^weetnels and £nlargemetit.]

Saturday, Sept(inl>er 4. Much out of Health, and exceedingly deprcfs'd in my Soul,and was at an awful Diftance from God.— Towards Night, fpent fcme Time in profitable Thoughts oa Hem. viii. 1.— Near Night, had a very fwcet Seafon in Prayer ; (lud enabled me to wreftie ardently for the Advancement of the kedeeiner's fCingdom ; pleaded earneftly for my own dear Brother Jj^J7, that God would make him more of a Pilgrim and iSfranger on iheEarth, and fit him for lingular Sctviceablenefft in the World ; and my Heart i'weetly exulted in the Lord, in tbei Thoughts of anyDlftrefles thai might alight on him or me,in the Advancement of Chrift's Kingdom. — "Twas a fweet and comfortable Hour unto my Soul, while I was indulged Freedom 10 plead, not only for my felf, but for many other Souls.

Lord*a Day, Stptemiir 5. Preach'd all Day : was fomelhing flrenyhen'd h afflfted in the Afternoon ; more efpeeially in the livening: hadaSenfeof my unfpeakablc Short'Comings in all my Duties. I foun^, alas! that.I had never lived to God in ,%■■-iny Life,

G i Monday,

"Ths L IF E

A. D, 1744,^

Monday, Septmh. 6. Was mfoTmed^ that they only waitel for an Opportiinity to apprelit:id me fcr Preaching at Nsxv-Hsf ^vin lately, that fo they nugbtimprilun mc : "This made (tic tJion foJemn and ferious, and to quit all Hopes of ihe World* Friend/hip: Ii brought Jiic loa further Senfe of my Vilencftj and jiilt DcCert of this, and much more, from the Hand of^oi'" iho'not fromthcHandof Mill; Retired into a convenient Plgi in tiie Wqods, and fpread tiie Matter before God,

TueCday, S^ptmb. 7. Had foiae Rdiih of divine Things theMcrnifig. Afierwards felt more barren and mdlancboj |iude to New-Hffvsi7i'.os Friend^s Houfe 3t a Diifance from t ,_ Town j that 1 rtmain undifcovercdj snd yet lia.ve Opportunity to do Bjfiners priviLcJy vtiih Friends, which come to Cc/n-

VVednefday, Stptimh. B. Felf very feccHy, when I firft roft f m :hc Morning. In. Family-Prayer, Iiad fume Enlargement,buf." not much Spiriiualiry, 'tiH Eternity came up beffiieme and iook'dj (tear; f found fume Swectnefs in thcThougbts of t;iddirg a dyinj Farewell to this cirefom World ; Tho' fonietime ago 1 rectanS upon feeing my cfe^ir P'riends at Cernmnctment-t yet being now liieniec) the QpporuHiiiyj for Unj of Imprifonment, I felt totally reiign*df and zn concerned 10 fpend this Day alone in the VVoodj^ as J coiiltl have dune, il I had been allowed 10 go to Town. Feft exceedingly wean'd from thcWnrld to ly^iy,--- Jn the Aiiernoon difcourfpd ffHTicfNing on fome divincThiiigs witli a dearChrifiiaii Friend, whcrtby w*e were both lefrelhed. Then I prsy'dj wiih afweet SenTeof ilir Eleffcdncfs of Communion with Goo : I thinic, 1 fcarceever cnjoyad more of Gou in any one Prayer. O it was a blefTed Seafcn indeed to my Soul I 1 knew not iha( ever I faw fu ^nuch of my own Noibingnefs in my Life ; never wondered fo, ihat Ciyd aJJowed me to pj-each bis Word ; nevef " was fo afioniflicd as now.-'-This has bteii a fweet and coniforta-blc Day 10 my Soul : Bleff'ed be God,---Pray'd again with my dear Friond, with fomethijig oi the divine Prefence.— I lun^^ (o be wholly CQiifGrnisd tu God, and transfoTnied nito his Image. • Tburfday, Sipti^/iL 9. ^peni much of tiie Ds-y alone ; Enjoyed the Prefenoe of <jiid in fome comfortable Degree : waB' vijited by fome dear Friendn^ and ptay'd with (hem : Wrote fundry i^ettcrs to Friends ; frit Rahgion in my Soul while writing: Ftijfjyed fomc fweei Meditations on fome Scriptures.—- In ibc Evcami;^ went very prit'sitely into Town, from the Place of my^efidence aj [hfiFariii5,and converfed with fonie dearFtiencs s f#lt fwtiiiy m iinging Hymns wilfe thtm i afld made my iifcafe

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to the Farms again, without being difcovered by any Enemies, us I knew of. Thus the Lord preferves me continually,

Ffiday, Septtmbsr 10, Longed with intenfc Defire after God t my whole Soul feemM impatient to be Conformed to him, and to become Haly, ai he is Holy.'-- In the Afternoon, pray'd with A dear Friend privately, and bad the Frefence of God with us i our Souls united together to reach after a bleilEd Imtnortality, to be unclothed of the Body sf Sin aad Desth, and to ei^ter the bieiTed Wuf]d, where ho uncltan Thing tnitri. O, with what intenfe Defire did our Soula long for that bleJTcd Day^ iha( wq might be freed from Sin, and forever live fpand in^nr God I— h\ the Evening^took leave of thatHoufe ; But firft kncel'd dov7n and prayed j The Lord ifaJ o/e Truth m ihi midji $f ui i *twaa a fwcet parting Seafon i fek in my felf much Sweetnefs and AfFec-tion in the Things of God. BlelTed be Go'J for every fuch d ivine Gale of his Spirit, to fpeed me on in my Way to the JSew-Jtru-faktn /— Felt fome Sweetnefs afterwards, and fpent theEvening in ConverfatioK with Friends, aiid prayed with fome Life, and retired to Reft irery Late.

fThe five next Daya,he appears *ohave bsen in an exceeding comfortable, fweet Frame of Mind, for the moft Part, and (o have been the Subject of the like heavenly Exercifes as ara ofteii cxprefTed jn preceedingPafTageS of his Diary ; fuch as having his Heart much engaged for God, wreftling whh God in Prayer with Power and Ardency ,e'^joyinga[TimeSj Tweet Calm-^e^s and Compofure of Mind, giving himfejf up to God to be his forever, with great Complacence of Mind, beipg wholly refigned to the Will of God, that God might do with him whnt he pieafed,. longing wdl (0 improve Time, having the eternal World as i( were brought nigh, longing after God and Holinefs, earniiflly, dfifiringacompleat Cotjformity to him, and woiidring how poor' Souls dg toexift without God.J

Thnrfday, i'li^/^ftji^r i6- At Night, felt exceeding fweetly : Enjoyad much gf God in fecret Prayef : Felt an uncomnionRelig-tiation, to iiand sfswhatGod pleafed. SomcDay&palf, f fdtfi^^iaj FiTpUxhy gn Account of my paftConduft : My Biturnsf^ a«(j Want of Chriftian KtndnefaaiidLove,has been wry difirejjing to my Soiil: The Lord fnrgLve me luy unihuJlinnW&rmibyd^^ want^ ef 9 Spirit of Meeftneff*

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Wh= WorU 3„d „,,, htJ:Z,^''r^:', "^^-" "^-^ »°« i/?<:ahe 'he Cauft of ChrT . f '° S've up ^U /or g„„e' a™. J "'"2 P" ""='' ''">■'«., and wnlidaaHo Swclfs i^

from £.„,. wii , aS 1 W ""'"•'' J^™". Preach'd r™e Things fn q' ifllatr Tfl "l^'"' ''"^J™ 'o'-^P'-ove

f=l( inward DTft'dftr-!„J r "" ""'^'^l'"'''''/<J<V=aed,3„d (Stare ofl,i/so„,, wi5 ReT.rd ,'o ,LT "' ''J^^'^^'* ^''™' ""> Af God's S.rvi„. H°s M „r '^"'^"'/"fi^'t'-^'.^nd unfitnea pr'^&'d and funj, with" Sen nnr'"■'""'''"""'"« e^raacly de-

t"al fi<:f'.n™em.;£ LtS!"^ ^'='''"^ °< Comfort =nd fpi," -inO„, .d^™-™™co^.a^,.^

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Bcafons of very high Degrees of fpiritual CohlblatiDn, and of his great longings after Hoiincfa and ConfoTmity to Sodj of hil ^rcal Fear of offending Gad,of hisHein's beitig fweelly meltod in religiousDntieSjof his longing for thcAdvancement of Chritfc'» Kingdom, and of his having at fome Times much AIHftance in Ficathing, and of remarkable EfTefls on (he Auditory. ]

Lords-Day, OUch, 17. Had a cDnliJerable Senfeof my Help-iefneiiand Inability j faw that I mufthe dependentonGoD for all I wanl i iind efpecially when 1 went In the Place of publick 1 Worfhip : I found I could not fpcak a Word lor God without his fpecial Help and Affiftance : I went into the Affcmbly trembling, as I frequently do, under a Scnfe of my InfufiicieBcy to do any Thing in the Caufe of God, aj I ought to do.— But it plcafedGod to afford me nsucbAffiftance, and there feem'd to bs a confiderahle MiS. on the Hearers.— In the Evening, I felt a Difpofilion to praife God for bis Goodnefs to me, in fpecial,thai; ^ he bad enabled mc in fome Mcafute to be latilifal \ and my Soul tejoyced to think, that I had thus performed the VWork of one Day more, and was oneDay nearer my eternal,and (I trufl) my heavenly Home. O ihat I might be fakhfsl is thi Dcalli, fui-fitlitg Hi OJi Hiriling my Day, 'till the Shades of tlic Evening of Life 4all free my iioul from the Toils of ihe Day ! This Evening, in fecrct Prayer, I felt exceeding folemn, and fuch longinj; Defires after Deliverance frorj Sin,ancl aftcrConformity tciGod, as melted my Heart. Oh, I longed to be Miviridfnmlbh Bidf cf Diath -' I felt invfard pleafing Pain, that I coold not be con-formed toGod entirely, fully and forever.— I fcarce ever preach without being firft vifited with inwardConfliiiHand furcTtials*--BlelTed be the Lord for thefc Trials and DiRrtlTcs, as they are fclefs'd for my humbling.

Monday, OUsli. rS. In the Morning, felt fome Sweetneft, lut fliU prels'd thro' fome Trials of SouJ. My Life is a can-iant Mi^ituve of Confolations and ConHifls, and will bcfo 'till arrive at tire World of Spirits.

Tuefday, OHibtr rg. Thia Morning and lall Night, felt a fweet Longing io my Soul after Holincft : IWy Boul ftcn-.'d fo to reach and ilretch towards the Mark of perfc£l Sanflitj, that it was ready to break with Lnngliiga.

Wcdoefday, Oihhsr lo. K\cccding infirm in 13ody,ciercjfcd whh much Pain, and very lilelefl in divine TlliniJS.--- Kelt a Jinle Sweelnels m the Evening.

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r*/ LIFE a.D. i74i;

Tbarfday, OHiiir 21. Had a very deep Senfe of the VmiVj ef the World, moil of tht Day ; had iiltli: more Regard to it, than if I had been to go into Eternity the next Hour. Ttiro* (liviiie Goodnefs, I fel: vziy ferious and folemn* O, I love td live on ttie Brink of Eternity, in my Views and Meditations \ This gives me a iweet, awful and reverential Senfe and Appre^ henlionof God and divine Things, when I fee my felf as it Vlfzejiandittg bifare the yudgmenl-^Seat cf Chn/I^ .

Friday, Oftohir 22. Uncommonly weaned from the World j to Day .■ My Soul delighted to he a fifroufir and Pilgrim as ' the Barlh : I fell a DifpoEtion in me tiesier to have any Thing to do with this World : The Charafl* given of fome of the ancient People oi God, in Hib. xi. 13, w»s very pJealing to me, Hhiy cmfiffid ihat thiy wiriPilgrm: iS Slrangirs so lii Eitrth, by their daily Fraflice ; and O that 1 could always do fo [ —-Spent fonie confiderablcTime, in a pleafant Grove, in Prayer and Mediiation. O it h fwect, to be thus wean'd fromFriends, and irom my felf, and dead to the prefeJI! World, that fp I may live wholly Iff and upoh the bkfTed Gob 1 Saw my ftlf 3i:tle, ipw,3nd vile, in my felf.—Jn iheAfrernooii, prcach'd at Bahtvbim, (fom DmI, viii. 3. and felt fwcelly both in Prayer and Prcschlng : God helped me to fpeak to Ibc Hearts of dear Chriftians. Blefl'ed b'e the Lord for this Seafon : E iruft, they and I Ihall rrjoyce on thisAccount to all Eternity.— Dear Mr. Bcikm came in,while I was making the firilPrayer ( being returned Home from & Journey) and after Meeting, we walked away together, and fpent the Evening in fweetly coveifing on divincThings.snd praying togetbcr, with fweet and tender Love to each other, and return'd to Relt wilh our Hearts in a ferioda fpiritual Frame-Saturday, O^oL 25. Something perplexed and confufed.

Kode this Day trotti 'i^eihlehtm to Si^ffiury.

Lord's-Djv,0^d^,24. Felr To vileard unworthy,that I fcarce Ie[1£w how to caiiverfo with htJmati Creature?.

Monday, Ollsl-ir 25. [At Tu^ky hills,^ In the Evening enjoyed the divine f:iftrtTCc in fpctet Prayer: It was a fwect and lomfcriibic &t::ion to ine : My Scul hiigtdfirGid,./tr ihi Ihivf Gsd ; Enjiyrd .1 f«eet .Solemnity of Spirit, and longing De-fire after the T^L'Covtry of the divtne Imaj^e in my Sou! : 7htn Jhaii 1 bi JQlvJiid^'Mbm IJhdlsw^hinCODU Liimtjt, and ne-vet before.

Tuofday, O0ihir 26. [At TFi/I.Spffi4i,'i Underwent lh» Kolt dieiioful i}!ilte(lVs,nii<!er a Esiileiil my eWiiUnwoistiiBefs:

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11 fcem'd to nie, I deferved rather (o be driven out of the Place, llijil to have any Body treat me wiith any Kindnefs, or come to hear me preach. And verily my Spirits were fo deprefs'd at this Time, as well as at many others, ihat it was impofTihle I IhouM treat immortal Sotils with Faithfulnefs : I could not deal 1 lofcly it faithfully with them, I fel! fti infinitely vile in myfelf. I Hi, what Dit/l aiiJIhli lam, 10 think of preaching theGofpet (II ijthers ! Indeed,! never can be faithftil for oneMoinent,biit lliall certaitily dniib with untimpirtd Mirtar, if God don't grant me fpecial Hclp.-ln theEvenifig, I went lo the Mceting-Houfe, and it look'd to me near as cafy lor one to tifc out ol the Grave and preach, as for me. However, God afforded me fome Life and Power, both in Prayer and Sermon ; God was pleafcd fo lift roc up, and fhew me that he could enable me to preach, O the wonderful Goodnefs of God to fo vile a Sinner !— Ee-lurticd to ray Quarteis ; and ecjoy'd fome Swectnefs in Prayer alone, and mouru'd that i could not live more fo God.

Wednefday, Ollibir 17. Spent the Forenonn in Prayer aili Meditation ; Was not a little conceto'd shout Preaching in thp Afternoon i Felt exceeditlgly luiliffut Sltmith, and very helplefs intlecd : Went into the Meeting-Houfe, aOiaraed to fee any come to heat fuchan unf^eakiblv worlblefa Wretch. However, God enabled me to fpeak with Cleirnefs, Power, & Pungency. Uiit there was fome Noife and Turonlt in the Ail'embly, that I did not well like, and cndeavouied to bear publick Teftimony aoainft, with Moderation and Mildiiefs, through tre Curr.oiv of my Difcoaife.—In the Evening,was enabled to be in fomcMea-fure thankful and devoted to God.

[The Frames and Exercifes of hisMind, dntingthc four next Days, were aioftly very SirDilat to ihofeof thetwo Days paft 5 excepting Intervals of confidetable Degrees of divine Peace and

Confokfioo. , ,1 ■

The Things exprefs'd within the Spsce of the three following Days are fuch as thcfe i fome Seafons of Dejcaion, mourning for being fo deBltnte of the Ejcetcifes of Grace, longing to ba delivered from Sin, prcffing after more of God, Sealiinj of fweet Confolation, precious and intimate Convetfc wilh God sn fecrct Prayer, Sweetlteft of Chriftian Converfalion &c.— Within thij Titiic he fode from Saffitli la Eaflbwy, Htkcn^ and Liiana-I

Thurfday, Nsvimb. +■ [At Libmm.-[ Sm much of my NjthinBn«6,tEo9 of thiiDjy ; but felt esneertied ihat 1 had no

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tastti'SiSiin: of mj; InfufHcJEncy & Uimorihinsfs. O 'tis fwc iyviftr,tb,Duft! But 'tis JiflreffiDg.iofrel in my SoultliatHdi, Corruption, wilich ftill remains in me.--In tlicAfternoon liatj w^ SeafeotdloSweecnsfsofii flridt cloft & confiantD^otcdncfs t^ tiotl,& mySoiil was comforted wilii iJicConfoiatioiij of God • niv! Aout fdf a pleafing, yet painfulConcern, idH Qronid fpentj Tome Moments iv:lhmt G,i. O may I always livi I, Gad. — Jn (hi! tvenltJg, wa! vifrted ty fome Friends, and fpcm rijs Time il«' rrajer and fucii Convcrfa(ion as (ended to our Edification fti ivas a coniiortaljlo Scaforr to my Sonl: ] fdt an iBtenfc Deft* to fpend every iWoment for God.- God is unfpeatably sraci-DU= rome contjnually : In Times pail, he has gi^n me ine^-preffible Siveefnefs II, tile Performance of Duty : FreciueniJy mj houi lias cnjojed much of Goo 5 l>u! I,™ beei, ready to fay Lmil l„ iKd U he tir, i and fo (n indulge Sbli, while 1 iiavs lived on the Swectnefs of my Feelings. But of late, God has been p eaM to keep my Soul /«^;rr;,aimoft conljnually ; fo thaE. i have been l^ll'd with alCind of a pIcafingPain : When I realty .

^"'%^°,?' ^"^^ ""■ °"''"'' °' ^™ ''» "°"= inftfiable, ani-i ray IhirrtingsafttrHoliarfs the more unquenchable; and the J-Klid will not allow me to fed as tht>' i were fully fupplied antl : teiisiiE,^, but keeps me ftil! readiing forward ; and I feel barren and empty, as rfio' 1 could not live, without more of Gon in rue i [ feel pfliamed and ^mltyiifm God, 01i,[ fee, liiL^w ''/P-"t«< bmlomcwnaU I don't, f can't live to Goo. Oh for Holmers ! On for .T^ore of God in my Soul r Oh this pleating Fatn ! It makes m^ Soul prels after God ; iba f jn-f.'e^f ■' f' n,n/bainh,/r.lhfiid, i^l„»lav,ahkGOD-a irfeY'(™l. xvn. ult.J but never, never iieforc ; and cnnfe-quentlyl am cngapd n prifi Imard ih Mari, Day b-yiXiy O that I may fttel this continual Hmi,r, and tjot bo retarded hut ratier animated by every Cluftcr from &WM, to resch forward m the inrrotv Way, for the full Enjoyment andPofiertion of llic heavenly Inheritance, O that I may never loiter io my beavenly Journey. '

[ Thefe ln6tiabl« Defires after God and Holinefs continued he ttvo next Days, will) a grc-Bt Senfe of hi. owt, esceedina

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f.i;'"'''''"?^''!^'""'"*-?- [A' A/f/iVsrr.] It feem'd aa if lut:b an unhuly Wretch as I nerer could arrive at thatBlefiednt-r, lobe My, <| G^u hi,. At Nooit,! longed for Saaaification,

of Mr. DavH Brainerd. A,D. i;42. 51

Irii Confornaity toGod, Oh, That is THE AtL, the All ! 'I he Lordbelp me to prefs aftir GOD for ever.

Mond.iy, Nmitmi- %. Towards Night, enjoyed miicbSweet-nel'l ill li.'t:ret Prayer, fo that my Soul longed for an Arrival in <hl /™iiin/y Chantry^ the hlelTcd Paradifs of God. Thro' divine UnoJucfs, Ihavefcarce fecn the Day, for two Months, but Ih.tlh has loot'd fo pleafjnt to mo at one Time or otbsr^ of the |).iy, that I could have rejoyced xhe frifsnl (hould lie my kjf, niitwitbilanding my preffmg inward Trials and Conflias: Andl dull, the l,ord will linally make mo « Cuitijumr, niii mn, than h i thJiHball be able to life lliat triumphant Language, O Ihath, vilure h lt>y Stitig ! And O Gram, whirl it ihyfiacry !

fWilijinthc next ten Days, the following Things are eX-nrel.'d ; L.inging and wrcliling to be holy and to live to God ; a Dcfire ihat every fingle Thought might be for God ; feeling Ruilty, that his Thoughts were no more fwalIov;cd up in God } (v/uet Solemnity and Calmnefsof Mind, Submiffion and Rehg-nition t^ God, great Weaaednefs from theWorld, Abafemcrit in the Duft, Grief at fome vain Converfation that waaobfcrved, Kwcclnels) from Time 10'lime in fccrcl Prayer and in con-veifing and praying with Chriftian KricnJs, And every Day he tppeats to have been greatly engaged in the great Bufinefs of KcligioB and living to God, without Interruption.]

Friday, Navmi. ig. [At Nim-Hinut} Eecelv'd a Letter from the Rev, Mr. Pmitrua of Niw-Tiri, dcliring me fpee-dily to go down thither, and confult about the Mian Affairs m thole fans, and to meet certain Genllejncn there, that were inttuHcJ with tkofc Affairs ; My Mind was Inftaully feii'd with Concern ; fo I retired with two or ihtseChrillian Friends, anti prayed j and indeed it was a fwect Time with me ; 1 was enabled to leave mv felf and allrayConcei'm with God ; and tikmg Leave of Ftieiids, 1 rode to R!ptai, and was comforted in an Opportunity to fee and convetfe witll dear ^ii, Miiiu

[ In the four next followingDavs, Iw was fomctimes opprcrs'd with the Weight of that jreil Affair, about which t,U. Fi'f-birut had vtrittcn fo him ; but was enabled froniTiine to! iine to ciiji hi; Euriin ai the Lsrd, and to commit himfelf and all his Concerns to him : And he continued ftill in a Seofe of the hx~ cellency of Holinefs, and Longings after it, and earneliDefirea of theAdv?BCcm?tit cf Cb/iH'sKinjdtJm in thcWorW ; and hail

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from Time to Time feet Comfort in Mcditatioa r rayer. ]

Wti.„f0ay, Mvi^i. 24. Caoic to Nm-nrt ■ felt fti rauch concerned about (be Inlporttnce of rny Bufinefs ■ nut uti may ..,n£ft Rrqu.fc to God for hfs f^elp and Dircflbi, ; wa. c^fufcd w»hifc»No,leandT™ultot,h=Citf J enjoyed bus ImfcTi^EaloiiewilhGod; butmySouJ longed af.er Him.

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ELjppLcairan : W.s fc„„i„,d by feme Gmtlemen, of m/ t.htjlii3„ typerierm, ana my Acquaintance will, Divinity' and fome other t„ud,«, in order to m, Improvement i,i ihst imporunt Afla.t of &ofpe]l,Mng ,he Weathen : [| Wa, made ien(!b,eof..„rg,eatI.neiranct; and Unfilnefs for publicfc Scr-VIM ; t Jwd lire moil abding Tbouglits of my fdf, i |(,i„k, lliat ever I bail ; i ihought my felf the wurit Wretch tisat ever ■Iired : It hurt mi, & pained my veryHearl.tiiat anyBodyftould niewmsauvRefpeit: Alas ! methought, bow fadiy they ar« deceived m me ; bow milijrabiy would ti.ey be difappointed, if tney tnew my InfiJe ! Oh my Heart ! - And in this depre£'<I Condaion, 1 was forced to go and preach to a confidcrabte / !™,7V °' """^ S'"""'"' l"'"tJ Miniflers i but felt fcch a 1 rdlurc trrm a Seiife of jny Vilcncfs, Ignorance & Unfit-nefs^tosppesrmPublick, that 1 was almofi overcome with it -inj Soul WJ5 gnovcd lor the Congregation, ,hal iheyfiwuid fit ibore 10 bear fucli a rfWDjf as I preacb ; i thought niv felf wfiniiclyiiidebledto rbe People, and Jongcd that God would rewart ,hem w„h ihc Rewards of hisGrace.-I fpEnc much of ibt; hvcmng alone.

■ rhefef^cnllemsn that examined Mr. SromrJ, were tho Correfpondcnts, in Ntv,-York,N,vi.'J„j,y s:^iP,nsfilvmin, ot llie honourapip Society in S,oth«d for ptopagaiing ^hriHian knowledge j to whom was committed ilie Managemcat af theif Affairs io ihofe fans,' and who Wert now qiet at Ntm-Tiri,

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Part IV,

From the 'Time of his Examination by th& Correfpondents of the Society for propagating Chriflian Knowliidge, and bling appointed their Miflionaiy, to bis firfi Entrance on the Bufinefs of his MiJJton among the Indians at Kaunaumeck,

FRiday, Nimmh. 26. Had liill a Scnfc of my great Vi!e-nefs, and endeavoured as much as i could to keep alone. Oh, what 3 Nothing, what Duftand Alhes am ! !- -En-joy'd fonie fcacp and Comfort ia fpreiJiiig my CompJiints bo-fore the God of all Grace.

Saturday, Navmh. 57. Committed my Sou! to God with fomo Deg'rce of Comfort ; left Nrur-nri about nine in Iha Morning ; came away with a diftreffing Senfe Kill of my un-flicakahle Unworthinefs. Surely 1 may well hve all my Brethren ; for none of them all is fo vile as I ; whatever they do outwardly, yet it fecms so roe none is confcious of fo much Guilt before God. Ob my Leannefs, my Barrennefs, my Carnality,and paftBitternefs, &:Wantof aGofpcl-TetJiper ! Thefe Things opprefs my Sou*.—fi-ode from A?(io-Tori, thirty Miles, to tfhitcPlmni, and molt of tho Way continued lifting op my Heart to God for Mercy and purifying Grace ; and fperit the Evening much dejefted iti Spirit.

[The three neM Days, he continued in this Fraine.in > great Scofeofhisown Vilenefs, with an evident Mixture of Melancholy, in OQ fmail Degree ; but had fome Intervals of Comfort and God*s fenlible Ftefence with him. ]

Wednefday, Daemb. i. My Soul bfcath'd after God, in

fwect fpitiitial and longing Dcfires of Conformity to him ; my

Soul was htouaht to felt itfeif itad all on his licb Stage, mi

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feic SiMgih and Encoiiragcmetit to do or fuffer any Thinu thai! dinne Provirfcncc (houW allot mc—Rode, about tWEmv Miio fiom Stmtfuld to Nmitmja.

fWiihinthcSpaccof the next (liiic Days, he went a rour-l ney_ from A^MfM to Haddatn, his Natl fc Town ; and aftefl ftaymg there fomeDajs, returned again into ibeWeftern Part of] Ul^iaitut, & came taSMbtur,. Jn his Account of thcFram^l

and Exercifes of l„s Mjnd, during ths Space of Tirae, aKfocfl

Ihmgs as liefc j f-reqoeni Turns of Dejeflion, a Seirft of hit!

I'llciicft, tmptrnefs, and ai, unfathomabic- Abyfs of defpcralt

/icJwdncjs jn Im Heatl, attended with a Coavifljon that hi

idjicverftenbutlittJcofil : bitterlv mourning „„,, s,:. n,,_

Vilci Wic

had never ften but littJc of it ; bitterly oiouroing ever" hiTflarri lennefs, berng greatly grieved that he could nat live to God toS 1 whom he owed his all (™r6M>„arr,W ; crying out, Aft£MB-f "'!•' "')■/"'""•/' ■' ASenfe of ihe Aleetn«f» and Suitabicoefsl of hi! lying 111 the Utili beneath God's Feet, rer.encv and Ar^ ! ^our in Prajer, longing to lire to Cod, a being affl.aed vrithj fome impertinent trifling tonvetfation that be heard i ijurcniov-S ingSwectnelsmChriflian Converfalion.] {

Salurday,p«;i!,i,ir, Converfed wiih a dear Friend, to whom Jliad TbouglK of giving a liberal EJucation, and being at the whole Charge ofit.ihat he might lie fitted for the Gofpel-Miui-ftry. « I acquainted him win, niy Thoughts in that Matter, and , foleri him to conlider of it, 'titl 1 iliogld fee him again. Then

* Mr, Brsimrrf having now undertiken'ihc Bufineft of a

Miffionary to tlie hJiam, and cxpcaing in a little Time to

ieive bis native Country, to go among the Savages, into the

Wildernefs, far ddisnl.and fpend the Reraainder of^is Life

among them, and having fonie Ellaic left bioi by his Fatter,

and thinking lie fliouU have uoOccaflon for it among them,

.( tho' arierivards,as he told me, be found himfelf miflaken)

he fct himfelf lo think which Way he raight Ipcndit mog

tolheGioryofGod ; SinoWay prefenling to his Thoughts,

I wherein he could do more Good wilh it, than by bcin- at

the Charge of educating foaie young Perfon for the Mmi-

flry, thatappear'd to t4e of good Abilities and welldifpofed,

he pitched upon tins i->etron here fpokcn of, to this End ;

who accordingly was foon put 10 Lea rning ; and Mr.Brai-

,i :.mrdc<immv&i to be at the Charge of his Education from^J

.11 XMt to Year, fo long as he (Mr. BrsintrJ) lived, which

,,„ ^s 'till liiis young Man was turictt thiough his lliird

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«/Mr. David Krainetil. AD. 174!!;

I totle to Bilhliiim, and fo came to Mr. Billamy's Lodgings ; Ipcnt the Evening wilh him in fwect Converfilioi! and Prayer : We recomniended the important Concern before mentioned (of (ending my I'liend to College) imio the 6od of all Grace, illellfd be the Lord for this Evening's Opportunity together.

Lord's Day, Dictmb. I2. 1 fell, in the Morning, as it I had iitlle ur no Power eilher to pray or preach, and felt a diftreding Need of divine Help : I went to Meeting trembling: But it pleafed God to aflifi mc in Prayer & Sermon : I think, my Sou! fcarce ever penetrated fo far mto the imilinttriiil World, in any| onePrayeJ thai ever I made,nor were nijIJtvotions ever fo much refined,and Free from grofsConccptions, & Imaginations framci! from beholding material Objedis, X preach'd withfoiTjeSweet-nefB.frotn MsthM-i-i-Bui Jtti ytfirfi &<;. And in the Afternoon irom Rmi. xv. 30. jind isw J tefmh yja, Bnlhrtn, &c. Thcro was much Affcdion in the AiTembly. This has been a fweet Sabbath tome ; and bleflcd be God, i have Reafon to think, that my Religion is become more refined and fpiiitoaUhyMeans of my late inward Conflifls. Jviia .' May i always be willing dut God ihonld ufe his own Methods with me.

Monday, Dtumb. 13. Joln'd m Prayer wilh Mr. &//umt ; and found Swcetnefs and Compofuie hi parting with him, who went a Jenrncy. Enjoy'd (omc Sv.-cetncf3 through the Day, ;ind jiift at Ntpht rode down to ff^ao^nf;/.

'i'ucfdav, Dmriib. 14. Some Perplexity bung on my Mind : vasdiitrefb'd, lafl Night and this Morning, for the Intcreft of 7,iW, cfpcciallji on Accouittof the fslfi Jpfturaiui: n/ Rtlilkrif that do but rathci hieed Confurmi), efpeeially in fome Places, I cried 10 God for Help, to enable rac to bear Teftimony againft thofe Things, wiiicbinffcid of promoting, da but hinder thn Progrcfs of vital Piety, in the Afternoon, rode down to.Soa(i-inrv, and conveilfed again with ray Friend about the iinporlant Affair of bis following the Work of theMiniftrv ; andhe ap-pear'd much inclined 10 devote himfelf to that Work, if God (hould fuccced his Attem(iis to i^ualify himfdf for fo great a Work. In the Evening, 1 prcach'd from i Thif, n■ "i. And endeavoured, tbo' wiibTendcrcefs, to undermine falfcReligion, The Lord gJ.vc me fome flfiiftance i but however, ( fecm"'! fo vile, I was afliamcd to be ieen when I came out of the Meeting- Huufe.

Wcdnefday, D«OT*. T5. Eoj.iycd fometliinE of God toDay, both in fecrct and foeial Prayer ; but was fenfi'ileof much Bif-ictiiiers, and Qckd in DutyJ as well a! mf inabiiiti' to Ircip my

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. felf for (he Time fo come, or (0 perform the Work and BufintS" 1 have to ia. Afterwards,fell much of (be Sweelnefs of ReljVioni and the Tcnderncf! ot the Gofpel-Temper : was far from Kl-ttr.icfe, and iami a dear Levc to a]l MasikiDd, and wss aft^iij of Icarcely airy Thing fo much a! kft Tome Motion of Anger M SeffRtaetit (huuld feme Time or other creep into ^^ HeslM Had fome comforting Soul-Rcfrcfllmg Diftourfe with fomc defl iTiends.juft as we took our Leave of each t>ther, and ftippar# It mrghl be likely we fliouU not m^et again 'liji we camo to tS(. ctern. World. * But I doubt not,lhto' grace, but that fome of. us ihall have a happy Meetinji there, and blefs God far this Se».; tonkas well as many others. Amen,

Thurfday,Z)«M*. 16, Rode down \aDa7h1 ; had fome fweei. Thoughts, tin the Road : My Thoughts were very clear, efpad cially on tbeErence of our Salvation byChrift.from thofcWordsiJ Thmjlxtt lalt bii Nsmt Jifm, he. '

Friday, Dicimh. ly. "Spent muchTime in fwet Converraiio-on fpiritualThiogs with dear Mr. Hl,n,pht,y,, Rode XoRii)m\ fpcitt fome Time in Prayer with dear Chtiftian Fncnds.

Siiturday,Z>Kimi.iS,SpentmuchTiroe;nPrayer in theWooi ftcm'd raifed above theThings of the World : mySoul was flroill in the l,ord of Hods : But was fejifible of great Barrennefe, _ LordVDay, Diccmb. ig. At the Sacrament of theLordy topper, ftera'd ftrong in the Lord ; and the Woild with ail Frowns & Hatieries in a great Meafuredifappcar'd, fo that miiijl boul had nothing to do wiih them ; aiid'l felt aJJifpdLtion to b«? wholly and forever the Lord's.—In theEvening, enjoyed fome-tlung of the divine Piefencc ; Had ahumtjling Ssofeof my Vjle-rjefs, Bartcnnefs,and Sinfulnefs. Oh, it wounded me,lo think of theMjIimprovementof Timet Gcdhc mmiful u m, a S,i„„,T Monday, Dt„mb. 20. Spent this Day in Prayer,Reading, and Writing; and enjoyed fame AfSffiance ' feme 7~houghi5 on a certain Subjedi ; Qf my BArrennefs.

efpeciaily in corred^ing^ but had amournful Scjifof

It had btcn dcleimined hy iIk Commiffioners, who m..\ ployed Mr. Eraimriis-A Miffionsry,.that he flinuld go as l&m as might be conveniently,to the hdiam livino near the *orkj of Dtla-.iiar, Rivor in P«»/,/t.™a and ths^/odesi on i ^Ji«,imnnA River; which being far off, where be would ' be expofcd to many Hardftips and Dangei., ; This was J the Ocsafion of his taking Leavs sf his J'liendj in this

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efMr. Davicl Bfainer<3.

Tuefday, Dicimi. u. Had a Scnfe of my InfufKciency for ui!y pubiick Work and Buiinefs, as well as to live to ^od. I tntlc uver to Dirly, and preach'd there : It pleafed iSod ttj givtt me very fiveet Affiffance and Enlargement, and to enable me (t> l|icak viilh a foft and tender Power and Energy.— We had alter-wirds a comfortable Evening in Singing and Prayer : God cni-hlcd ine to pray with as much Spirituality and Sweetnefs as I h.ive done for fome Time : My Mind fcem'd to be tincloathed t)[ benfc and Imaginatioti, and was iti a Mcafure let into the iiiimaleiial World of Spirits, This Day and Kvcning was, I Itult, thio' infinite GooJncfs made very profitable to a Number nf us, to advance our Souls in Hoiinefii and Cotiformi ty to God : The Glory bo to Him forever -. Jmm. How blclTed 'tis to j^tow more and more like God !

Wednefday, Diimli- 22. Enjoyed fome AfTiftanccin Preaching at Riptsn ; but my Soul mourned within me for my Barrcn-

Thurfday, Decrmi. 13. Efijoy'd, 1 truft, foractbingof God Ihii Morning in Secret. Oh how divinely fwcet is it to come into the Secret of his Prcfence, & abide in his Pavilion !—Took in aiicifianile Leave of Fiiends, not cxpcaitig to fee Thetn ujain ioravety conGderableTime, ifeveriiilliisWorld. Rode with IWr. Huaiphrip to his Houfe at Derby ; fpent the Time iii fweet Convcrfation j my Soul was rferelh'd and fwcctly melted with divine Things. Oh that I was always confecrated toGod. Near Night, Irodeto A'<w-Hotm, and there enjoyed fome. Swectnefs in Prayct and Converfition, with fome dear ChrifKatl I'riends : My Mind W5s fweelly fetious and conipofed : But alas, [ too much lott the Senft of divine Things !

[He continued much in the fame Frame oE Mind, and iti like ■ Exetcifcs, thetwofolbwingDays.]

Lord's-Day, Dicmk 16. Felt much Swcefnefa and Tender-nefs lil Prayer, tefpecially my whole Soul fcem'd to love my word Enemies, and was enabled to pray for lliofe liiat arc Strangers and Enemies to God with a great Degree of Softnefs and paihe-tick Fervour, In the Evcning,rQde from Niw-tlamii toBren-fird, after I had kncel'd down and pray'd with a Number of dear Chriflian Friends in a very retired Place in iheWoodsjind

fo parted, ^ „ .. - 1 j i, *

Monday, Dicmb. ay. Enjoyed a precjousSeafoB mdced ; had

»fw«8I meltineSidfe ef divine Thipjs, of Ihs fure Spirimahiy

of the Religion of Chrtft Jefus. In the Evcoiug, I preach' ftom Mallb. vi. 33, vpith much Frcerfom, and fweet Power I angcncy : The Pfeftnce of God atlcndcd our Mcetine. ^ ihc Sweetncfs, the Tcnderne/s 1 ftit in my Soul ' If ever [ fel Ihe 'Fempcr of Chrift, i had fome Scnfe of it Dow. Bleffed bj my God, I bare fcldom enjaj^'d a more cotnfortabie and profi«. ble Day (ban (his. O that J could fpend all my Time for Go* Tucfday, Diiiat. 28. Rode from Bnnfordta Haddam. K the Morning, myClearncfs and SwEajiefs in divine Tbinas col8 tinned ; but afterwards my fpiritual Life fenfibly declined.

[The next twelve Days, hewai for (bemoft Part extreaml*! dejcaed,difcouraged and diftreiTed, and was evidEJiily very mitcg under the Power of Melancholy ; and there are from Dav to Uay moft bitter Complaints of exceeding Vilenefs, Ignorance? Corruption, an amazing Load of Guilt, Unworihinefs tocrctK on Ood's bartt], everlafling UfdefDefs, FitntfsforNothinf. t^/i and fomctimB Ejrpreflions e^en of Horror at Ibe Thoogbti of ever i'reachiilg again. But yet in this Time of grcalDcjeaion ' he fpeaks of fevcral Intervals o( dirine Help and Comfort.

( ! be three next Days, wbicb were (pent at HArm and Ihei Crmk {a. Psrift, in Lihrnoa) he bad Relief, and enioyed confide-i rabis Comforf.J

Friday, Jso. 14. 174,5,3. My fpirilnal Conflifls to Day were unfpeatably dreadful, heavier rhan the Mountains and overflowing Floods : I feem'd inclofed. as it were, in Hell it (elf I I was deprived of all Kenfe of God, even of [he Being of a God [ and that was my Mifery ! \ had t)0 awfulApprehen-. fans of God as angry. This was Diftrcfs, (he ncatcft a-kin to theDamncd's Torments, that I ever endured } Their Tor-mem, f am fure, will confift much in a Privation of God, and confcquenlly of all Good. This taught me the abfolule Dcpen-dancc of a Crcaiure upon God the Creator, for every Crumb of Happinefs it ei.jays. Oh ! I feel that if there is no Gosl, rho' I m.ght live for ever here, and enjoy rrot only (bis, but allotlier Worlds, 1 flionld be ten Thou&nd Times more ffiiferable tlran a Toad I My Soul was in toch Anguifh 1 could not car, bat frit as 1 fuppofed a poor Wretch would that isjuft going to the: 1 lace of Execution. I was jlrfioB fwallowcd up wilh Angm'h,. when 1 faw People ^sihcrinr; togeiljer to bear me preach. However, \ went in that Diffrcls to the Houfc of God, and found iior rrmch Reiiof iji the lirft Frayer j It feeni'd as if God would,

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c/ Mr. David Brainerd. A.D. 17 43. 5 J

|„ lo.re thePeopIe upon me to deftroy tne, nor were AeTbo t» rtDcathdiftreffingtome, like my own Vilenefs. But after-w.rd,, in my Difcourfe from !)<«.*"'.!■ God was pleafcd ,„ give me fome Freedom and Enlargement, fome Power and Hpirlluality ; and I fpeni the Evening foinething tomtortsbly.

IThe two next Days, his Comfort ccntiiiues, and he f=em! inriijoy analmoft continual Sweetncfs of Soul in the Dune J

.iid Exercifa of Religion and t^l'^K'^^^rr 'v. Se Monday wa.aReturi,of (heCSloom he had baei under tie |.Vidav before. H= rode (o C>vMr, this l>iy, 'f «'"= 1"" l',irt of .he Day had more Freedom. On Tn^fday he rude o liatturhiri, and continued more comfortable.]

Wednefday, 7<.». .9. [At &(,(«rir,ry,] In the Afterircon preach'dtheLeaurcatthe'-Meeting.Hoofe: Felt fome | n-Tnefe, and fometbing of the Gofpel-Temper : c;,bor ed the l^^ople to l.ve one another, and not to f=. up their own Irame. „ aStandatd to try all theirBrethtenby. Eu, was much prefsd. moft of the Day, with a Senfe of my own Badneft, inwatd Impurity, and urdi.cafcablc Cortuplbn. Spont the livening in luvinE Chriftian Convcrfariijn. , n r l . ._

Thurfday, 7»». 20. Rode to my Brother's Houfc beween mr^kh and L.n^n , and preach'd in the Evening to a Nurn-l„r of People: enjoj'd neither Freedom not ijpiriiuallty ; hut IJw my feir exceeding unworthy. ;„„.j 1,,,,

Friday, 7a«. 1.. Had great inward Confl.fls ; enjoy d buE li„!eComforr. Went to fee Mr. milium c! Uhn,, and

ent fevera! Hours wi.h bin, ; and was i''ffjf'"if\^''^^ L ferious, deliberate and impartial Way of Difcouile about

Kcilaion. , 1 . ti f,,

fThs next Day, he was mucii dtjeited,] Lord-a-D»y, 'pn. ij. Sc.r,, ever fell my felt lo "nir. ta ,M, as now: /faw, 1 was not worthy o( ^/'^^ ™ '| *= Wi;«r, where 1 anr going, if God permit: 1 thought. I ">""« b= artranred to look them in the Face and much ■"" J " ^^"= .iiy Refpefl Ihewn me there. Indeed I fel my fell ban &= from the Earth, as if ill Places were too good for fuch aWreicn ai I ■ I thought 1 fliould be afcamcd to go among the very iava-"es of ^A;™ = I ^PP"red to my felf a Creature fit forNothmg neither Heaven nor Earth,-None knows, but thofe that feel Tt what the Sou! endures that La fenbbly fhut out rom the Pre-ftnceofUod: Aiis, 'tis more bitter than Death 1 ^.^^^

Ko ms.

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io»:L,/y Love ; a„<i never more free from Party-SDi-.r

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Died by a Mefl'enger from Eajl-Hmnptm, we travelled ro tfwj. On llw Road J felt an uncommon PrelTureof Mind : I fcctu'il lo itru|;(;Ic hard for tome Flcjfurc in fomellling here below, and foem'd lothtogiveupal) for gone ; but then faw my felf evidently llirjwing my felf into all Hardlhips and Dlfircfl'es in my prc-l.iilUndcnaJiing ; I Ibouglit it would he Iffs difficult to lie down III ilii: Grave ; But y« I chofc 10 go, rather ihiln itay.— Camis ti) Lymt that Night*

[ Ho waited the iwo next Djyi for« PnH'jse over theSound, jnil rptnt much of ilic Time in iimard Coiifliih and Dejcaion, IjLjt hail fome Comfurt.

On Saturday, he ctofi'd tl)s Sound, landed at Oy/lir-Pindi on J,ing'I/laml^ and (ravelled from tbcnce to Ea(i H^mptm, Antl ilie fcveii lollowing Days befpent thctc,for the mull: Pirt.under CKtrcam Dtje^ioli and Glaominefs of Mind, with great Corn^ (ilainKof Darkners, Ignorance &c. Yet his Heart apliears to liave been conSanlly engaged in ihc great Bufinefi of Rcligioti, iiiucl) CODCcrned for the Intereft ol Religion in Eaji-Htsm}isit, and praying ami lahourinf^ nitich for it. ]

Saturday, i'ii. I2. Jiiijoyed a little mote Camfort, wascna-bled to meditate witii foriic Couipufttrc of Mind ; ajid elpecially in the Evening, found my Soul more refrcfli'J in Prayer, than at any Time of late ; my Soul feem'J to tah hsld »/ GiiTj Sirinilb, & was comforted with hlsConfolationi. O how fft'cet ate fome GlimpfB of divine Glory I Hovr fliengthsning and tjuicfcening.

Lord'a-Day, Fib. 13, At Noon, under a great Degree of Difconragcment ; knew nothow it was pofTiblc for me to preach in the Afternoon, v^as ready 10 give up all fur gone j but God was pleafeJ to affiil mi; in fome Mcafure. Jn the Evening, my Heart was fwceily drawn out after God, and devoted to hira.

[ The next Diy.he had CotnfortsndDejcaian intariningled.]

Tuefdsy, Ftb. IJ. Early in the Day I felt fome Comfort, afterwards 1 walked into a neighbouring Grove, and felt more as a Stranger on Earth, I ibiiit, than ever before 1 Dead m any of ihc Knjoymenls of the World as if I had been dead in a natural Senfei—in the Evening, had divine Swcelnefg in fecret Duty ; God W3i then my Portion,and my Sotjl rofe above thofa dtcplhlirt, into which 1 have fank fo low of lale:—iWy Soul then cried fat 3iM, and had Swsctnefi in f* doing.

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„,/J """>?" ■'""' 1?^^ '^™'in«d flE nE« Mottling j but afte wards bis inward Diftrefs ictumed.J s = ""i aMO

Thii7%, ft*. 17. Jn the Morning, fourd my fcif fomertinB

thai I fpal:e with Freedom, Boldneft and fome Power. It, ,1,6 flT^r *''""^""= Tim. with iid..r Chriflian FrieBd el, SLrrT' r°." "•=Eri"k»f Eternity, my SonI en oy.d iWMtnefe in lively Apprehenfiotis ol^ (landing before the glorious God : prayed w„h my dear Friend withSweetners.and difcourM w.^ utmoft Sniemmty h«i ttuly it was a iistle P^blen, ol Heavea ,t felf.~ i fi„d my Soul is mere refined and weaned from a Depcndanee on my Ftame. and fpirittia) feclinES. jTidaj./Vi ,S. Felt fomtthing fweolly moft of the Day, and found acceft to tlie Throne of Grace, flicijbd be tlie Lo.d for any Intervals 0/ heavenly Deligl,, and Compcfuee, while I sm engaged m the !■,eld of Battle. O that i tSigh. be feiious, (oleron and always vigilant, while in an evil Wotld. Had fome Opprjtlunity alone to Day. and found feme Freedom in Study.

Saturday, fti. ,9. W^, exceeding infirm .0 Day, greatly troubled with Pa,„ in mv Head and Dizdnefs, fcarce able I lit up. However, enjoyed fomcthing of God in Prayer, and per-formed fome necsJl.,ry Studies. I exceedingly long to die, and yet through d,v,ne Goodnefs have feit very-.villing 10 live, for two or three Days paft.

Lord^s-Day, ^,i, 30. Was fomelhing perplexed on Account of my Ca,eitrncfs ; ] thought I could not be fuitably concerned about ihe imporlant Wet of the Day, and fo was reflkfs with myMnefs.-.- Was exceeding infitm again to Day; but the iord ilrengrhened me, both in the outward and inward Msn, fo that! pteach d ivith fome Life and Spirimality, efptcially in the Alternoon, wherein i waj enabled to fpeak clofely agaioft fclliih *ieliglon, that loves ChriB for his Benefits, bu, not for himfclf.

(During the next Fortnight, it appears lha( he for the moft rsrt enjoyed much fpiritual Peace and Comfort. Jn his Diary for this hpace ot Time, are exprefiid fuch Things as ihefe ; MoimnnKOverindwelhngSin andUnprofitablenefs ; Deadnefsto ihe World, Longing after God and 10 live to his Glory, Heart-melting Di/ites after his ciwnal Home, fix'd Reliance oa God

for

for his Help, Experience of much divine Affiffance both in the pri vate and publicfc Exercifes of Religion \ inward Strength an^ Courage in theSctvice of God, very frequent Refreniraent,Con-folation and divine Sweetnefs in Meditation, Prayer, Preaching, and Chrifiian Converfation. And it appears by his Account^ that ihis Space of Time was filled up with great Diligence and Karneftnefs in ferving God,in Study,Praycr.Meditation,Preaching, and private liitirufling and Counfeliing. ]

Monday, Manh 7. This Morning when I arofc, I found my Heart go forth aftetSiod iit longingDciircs ofConhJrniiiy tohira, and in fccret Prayer found my iclf fweelly (juiciten'd and drawn out in Praifes to God for all he had done to and for me, and for all my inward Trials and Diffreffca of lale ; my Heart- afcribed Glory, Glory, Glory to the bleffed God ! And bid Welcome all inward Dilirefs again, if God faw meet to cxercife me with it; Time appeared but an Inch long, and Eternity at Hand » and 1 thought I could with Patience and Chearftilncfs bear any Thjnw for the Caufc of God :—For Ifaw that a Moment would bring me to a World of Peace and BlefTcdnefs j and my Soul, by the Strength of the Lord, tofe far above this lower^World, and all the vain Amufcnieisrs and frightful J>ifappointmcnrs of it. Afterwards, was vilited h'j fome hrk-iids, hui loli limic Sweet" " nefs by the Means. After that, had fome fweet Meditation on GcTi, V. 24. Aa\ Enoch vinUtsd whh Gad Stc. ..-This was a comfortable Day !o my Soul.

[The next Day, he feeras to have conlinued in a coniidera-bk Degree of Sweetnefs and Fervency in Religion,]

Wednefday, ^ffcrA 9' Endeavoured ts commit mv felf and all my Concerns to God. Rode 16 Miles- to Mantevk^ * and had fome inward Swectnefs on the Road ; but fbmerhing of Flatnofs Sc Deadnefi after I came there and had feen the ht^iafu : I withdrew, and endeavoured to pray, but found my felf awfully deferred and left, and had an afHifliiig Eenfe of my V^ileuefs and Meannefs. However, I went and preacli'd ij^itii Jfai. Uii. 10. Had fome Afliftance ; and. 1 iriiff, fomeihirg of the divine Prefcnce was among us. In the Evening, again I ptav'd and exbortiid among them, after having had a lieafjfi alone, wherein i was fo prefs^d with the iilackiicfs of my Nd-riire. th:'.t I thought it was not fitfor mc to fpeak fo much as to hdian:.

* AfuntiTw* is the Eaftern Cape or End of £(Jti^-//?.^ J!i^, inba^ bitcd chiefly by Indkjiz. [ The

Ihs LIFE

_ fThc HEM Day, he returned to EaJi^Hampitn ; wassxccsd-j .ag .nfirm tn Body throfgl, the remai„mg Par, of th^Wefk ^i |,,t pe.k= of Aflifcnce and Enlargemeut'i„ Study »„ X ourl l.«efc,res, and of ,nwatd S«.eetners >nd brathiDg after God ] '

fo me to preach, by Realon of bodily WE.knefi and inward :

hardly ftand ; but.n Sermon, God ftrcnlhgned n,=, fo that I ' Jpako n«r an Hour and half wi,h f«-eet Freedom,Ctarner.,anJ ftme tender Power, from Gr.. v. 34. ^„i Enoch wWfo^^criA Gk/. waslvreetlyaffiftedloiufiftonaclore IVMwUhG.d.

fL,,A Tm ,?™>','""'"2^<'"'™"' God's Peopb here) Ibal tbij jbmUwlkwith G,d. May the God of alJ Grace lUGCSed my poor Labours in ibis Place !

Moniliy, Mmch r+, in the Mornini;, was very bufy in Pre-raralion for myjourney, and ws j)m„il continually erjeaged in .■jacnlatory Prayer. About (en, took Leave of the dear People of hsfl-Hampt^. MyHcart grieved & mourned, and rejoyeej at thefanneTime, rode !>ear fiftyMiles to aPart of Bml-Hm«!, ■ and lodged there, s„d had rei,eaingConrerfalion with aChriflian .. ■ rrieiid. ^ij

[In two Dnys mote he reached AW-2>i ; but complains of mndl Deferimn and Oesdnef! on the Road, He flay'd one

til-jabM-tcia,. His Compiaiuts are the fame as on the two preceeding Djys.l

Saturday, Ma„h 1,. Was bitterly dMre&J under a Scnfe oftny Ignorauee, D.a,k„efe aud Uuworthioeli; got alone, and poured out my Cooiplaint to God i,i the Bitternefs ofntySoul.-(;. the Afternoon, todc 10 NiwMi, and had ft;mt Eweetnefs in Converfation w,th Mr. Burr, and in Praying together. O ! bleficd be Cod forever and ever, for any eniivening und quick-

Lords-Day, ^.,ri jo. PreacbM in the Forenoon: God gavemefomeAaii!an«andS«-eelueft, and,„abled me lofpeak with real rcndernefs, Love and Impartiality. InlheE«nip2 prradl <! again ; ,ud of a Truth God was pleafed to afhfta poor Worn,. Bleffed be God, 1 was enabled it, fpeat With Life Fower.anJ paffionrile DEfire of the Edilieation of God's Peopled and with fcnre Power .u Suners. In (he Evening:, I felt fome-hilig fpjrilual and iv3lchru;,;eft my Heart (hoold by any Mcais be drawn awa/ frc,« God, Oh, when (h*JI I (omc to An

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'cf Mr. DaviiJ Ersit5«rd. 5743. 65

hlchi;d World, where every Power of my Soul will be incefTjiitly Itid eternally wound up, in heavenly Etnplt>ytnepta and Enjoy-num., 10 the hieheft Degree.

I' On Monday he went to Wocdhridgef where he fpeats of hjs [lenig with a Number of MiniRets i * and the Day following-nl \m travelling part of the Way towards Ntvj-T^rk^inil lodging It a Tavern : On Wedtiefday^ he came to Neiv-JTeyi: On Thurfday, he rode near 50 Miles, horn Nizv-Tork to Nsrih-i^Jlli : On Fridity, -went to JOsnlmry : On Saturday, (o New^ Miif^d .■ On the Sabbath, he rode 5 or 6 Miles 10 a Place near Kini in CantteSiicat^ called t^iptkt/h, wh^r*. dwell a Number of Indkni, II and preached to them : On Moiiday, being dctajn'd liy the Rain, he tarried at KfJit; On Tuefday, he rode front Kiat to Sdl/iury ; Wednefday, he went to ShfffieU : Thurfday, A/arr^ 21. he went to Mr. Strgeam's at Stockbyiilge. He was lirjedted and very difconfolate, thto' the main of this Journey trotn NiW:Jirfiy to ^teckkidgt ; and efpecially oti the laflDay \\\i Mind was overwhelmed with ati exceeding Gloominefs and Melancholy,]

* Tbefe Minifters were the Cstrefp^nfliTiiii who now met at WoiSridge^ and gave Mr. Bruimnt new Dtredlions, tot ini^ead of fendinghim ta theJndians at thcFsrh ofDthwGre^ a J before intended ; they ordered him togt> to a Number of itidians, at Ksumamiii, a Place in the Province of Wra-Tiifk^ in the Woods between ^todhud^i and Ailany^ This Alteration was occafioned by twoThings, mz. j. Inforlija-tion that the Correfpondents had received, of fome Content tion now fuhfiftiiig between the white People and the Indi-aws atilfi/flwflr^,concerning their Lands, which they fuppo-jed would be a Hindrance at ptcfent to their Entertainment of a MiiSonary, and to his Suceels sinona them. And 2. Some Intimatitjns they had received from Mr Sttgtanf^ Mjlhonary to the Indians at Stud^riclgt, concerning the Indians at Kaunsumsd; and the hopeful Profpc^ of Succefs ^iiac a Miilionary might have anaong them. I Thefewetc the fame Jwt^iitnr that Mr. Brajn^rd mcnticiB in his Diary, on Aug. 12. the preceeding Year.

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65 Ml..2^

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PilST V,

Pfomih pji Beginning to mJlruB th& Indians m Kaunaumeek, to &Ordina "

TION.

znd ;n the li.emng my Heart «,3= f.nfc, ,„d,i Sm„di h/J BO tod «, go to. O that God would hdp vm \ "

[The next five Days, he was for th= mnft p,,. • j ■ „ . deptet'JS;at.o/Mi/d;a,,dfJetta' xTeLto'eT^^ ■

Time fpraks thus concetniiig bis Diftreflcs mT, rjj/ , ' «W n,«Jad „„r,..- HeAvranAccoulT^fM ■';'!' '^^ '''^'

.,«;.„/.., ..d beio, 4j:a;;trjt"/,;!:"^s,„t? .X:tys';;sai'=;r,;;„trr^

p/ TIS^-, David Braincrd. A D. 1743. ^/^

FfiiJil)', jJ^r;7 S. Was cxcesJirtgly prefs'd under a Senfe of my Pride^SiifJJjnefs^ BitteTne/s, and Pariy-SfirU-, inTiraes psft, wLiilc I attejnpied to promote the Caufe of God : It's vile Nature and dreadful Confcijuences appeared in fuch odious Colocrs (0 me, that my very Heart was pained : I faw how poor SouEs Humbled over it into everkfljjig Defiruflian, that I was con-Hraincd to mafce that Prayer in tlie Bltternefs of my Soul^ O Lvrd, diliv£r msfrsm Bhsd-Guilimp, I faw my Defert nf Hell an thh Account- My Soul was full of inward Angujfij ^nd Shame before God, that I had Ipcnt fo much Time in Convcrfa- \ (ion tending only to promote a Party^Spirtt, <.)h, I fiiw 1 had jiot fuicablyprjjied Mortification, Self-deuial, Rc/igmtian under qII AdverfitiM, Meclcnefs, Love, Candour, and Holmefs of Heart and Life : And this Day was alinoft wholly fpcnt in fuch bitter and Soul-aiHiiHing RefleiSions on my paft Franiea and Uondma.— Of Jate,I have thought much of having the Kingdoiaj of Chrifl; acivanced in the World; But now I faw i had enouglil to do within my fclf. The Lord be merciful to me a Sinner, and wafh my Soul.

Saturday, Jprii g, Remained much in the fame State as Ycfferday ; excepting that tbc Senfc of my Vilrticfs was not h quick sad acute. .

Lord's-Day, Jpril 10. Rofe early in the Morning, and walked out, and fpent confiderabJe Time in the Woods, itk Prayer and Meditation. Preach'd to the itiditins,bQth Forenoon and Afternoon. They behaved foberly in gcnefal; two or three in particuJar appeared under fome religious Concern } with whom 1 difcourfed privsiely ; and one told me, htf Hiart had\ (ritd^ evtr fmce Jhi hsard mt pre/ab firfi.

[The next Day, lie complains of much D^fcrtion.]

Tuefday, ^pr'd 1%, Was greaily opprefs'd with Grief 3tiJ Shame, tcfi^fling on my pafi Conduat, my Bittirnefi & Parly-Zeal: I was aflianied,to think ihat fucb a Wretch aa 1 had ever preached J—Longed to be cxcufcd from that Work- Ani when my Soul was not in Anguifh and keen Diftrefs, 1 Iclt Senfdefs as a Bmjl bifon Gsd, and felt a Kind of guiltyAmufe-ment wkh the leaft Trifles ; which ftill maimain'd a Kind of fliflei Horror ot Confcience, fothat 1 could not refl any more^ than a condemned Malefactor.

Wednefday, jfprii jj. My Heart was overwhelmed within

me : I verily thought I was the nvancft, vileftj molt helplcft,

Mt.i^':

rk LIFE

g-f^ ignorant, bcnightned Creature living A„,r,..,ii " YdteXy ' ' '^' ^'^^"■■■''^^I'in th= toe Stet=

v.i.h ,ha>, ,!«„ before ; 7,L"'» ^1:1, T/ ^"^^^''^e^d in, ih.rt ,„ H.y h=ppj-ma t'ld "^ would rver bc-don

D.g.e of cCfe. i" ";vrt n;™.^''^"''""- ^"^ ^ ^-^

r H. co.tinurf ;„ ,h[3 difccrrfol^c Fr.me the ric^ Day, J

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|i:tt fume spiritual Longings and Brejihltrgs of Soul afcfiiGod ; f--j[iidniy felf engaged far the Advancement of Chrift'? Kingdom in my own Soul, more Uun in others, moretfian in the Heathen VVtirld.

Wctinsfday, J^ril 30. 5iet ap^ivt thh Day for Faflmg and Praytr, to bow my Soal before God for the Bsi^owincni of Hi-viiif; Grace ; cfpeckllj/ thht al! my fpjtitual /^Bii^ions ami- inward DiiheiTfs might be faiii5llfie*3 to ray Suul. And <!ntleu-, vottred alfo to remember thBGoodncfs of Qo^ tonic inthe^Ycar paft, this Day being my fiitib-Day. Hi4vhig nbmincd H^lp of God, I [lawe hitheno lived, and am nuw ariii-CLl ai tin: Age of 2J Years. My Suul WIS pained, to ibinlc of tuy Bsirennef? and Duadners ; ijiat I have lived fp Jittle to the Giory of (be ettrnal God. 1 fpent thj= 'D^y in the Woods alontr* and there pDured out my Complaint to God. O th^l God would qnabie me to lii'e to his Glory fot the future.

Thurfday, jSpril 21. Spenf the Forenaon in Reading and Prayer, and found my fdf fomelhing enjjaged ■; but ftill niijcTi deprefa'd in Spirit under a Scnfc of my Vilenefs and Unfithefs for any publiuk Service. In the Afternoon^ 1 vif^tcd tny People, and prayed and converfcd witli fynic about their SdulsCon-ccrjis: and afterwards found fome Ardour of Soul in fccref Prayer. O thst'i might grow up into the Likenefsof God.

Friday, Jpril 22. Spent the Day in Study, Re^idir^g and Prayer ; and ft-lt n litile leiieved of my Burden, that has been fo heavy of lat^. But ftill in fome Meafme opprefs'd : had a Ssjife of Earrennefs. Oh, my LeaNfigfs teftrfies agaiiilt n^e ! Mjf very Soul abhors it feif for it's Unlikcnefs to God, it's Inaaivi.ty ami Sluggifhnefi;. When I hai-c done all, alas, what &t\ an-trofilaliU Sgrvsfii am I ! My Soul groans, ta ice the Hours ofl the D^y rojl away, bccaufe T dan** liji ihcm, in bpitituaJity I and rlfiave^ily-Mindediiefs. Ai:d yet 1 iong they fljould fpecdl thdt- Pace, to haften mc to my etcrni! fjome, ivhcre J may f\^A pp all my Moments, thfo' EEcmity, for God and his Glory^

[On Saturday and Lord's-Day, his Melancholy again prevailed : He cried out of his Ignorance, Stupidity, and SfiDfe-Jefnefs J while yet he feems to have fpcrit the Time with ut-maft DiligencBj in Study, in Prayer, and in Inf^ruiiing and Counfclling the Indiotis. On J\^onday, he fLink into thedeepcft Melancholy ; fo that he fiippofed he never fpenE a Day in fuch Diftrf f& ill his Lii^e 1 not in Fears of Hell, (ivhich, he fays, he had xio preJEng fear of J tut a djftr^Eiig Eenft fff his own Vile-

Ihi LIFE

rers&c. On TueHay, he exprEfefcmc Relief W,J rj £e kept as a Day of FaSin? and Pmv,, T . ■ """erdsi

and the utmnft Armia that fv/r I ..„J i f'""CojiMon

any One n the Farf ■ Inr;. „ -i V^ ff' "™ "M loofc

«eLf j;H°.r "jd^lV/st ™ /='''^^'■^*'''«^='^->*nd.f if ^een^:11^'!-:„'™ jJ/etr „'r^, L""t. f

^ , ?:'t?garf ™"'' ^'''«="« »^ ''■™f"'^ t "on Mtni^;]

ri^aTit/; £ i;°f„ ,y„\!'-^' f-^S'-. - «o., m;„.. '

senfccfG.iit.PoiutS;,SnT™ vr^™-^ r'C' *■"''!

*./.r,^,; they havef»,™,r'»vJ¥«rf. ^, ^TlfJL t to be cover'd over with sTnld Q.ilt °l,''?''^''' P"'*''"'"

*/ m. David Brainerd. A,D, i ^43. y 1

* OnihEjaEofthefe

Days he

of Love, Candour, Meeknefs and Gentltnefs^thai have attetiticj my Ailtmpts to promote Religion and Venue ; and this when ! have Reafon (o hope I had real Affiflance fmra alJove,and fotne (Weet Jnrcrcourfewith Heaven ! But alas, what imM Mutturti attended m^ beft Duties !

f The next feven Days, his Gloom atui Diflrefs continued, ior the moll Part: but he had fotne Ttitns of Relief and fpiri-tual Cotnfort. He gives an Aceonut of his fpcnditig Part of this Time in hard Labour,to build himfclf a little Cma^t to live in a- r mongft the/jjAoatjtJi which be might bcbyhimfelfi havingfit (eems) hitherto lived with a poor'Scoich-Man, as he obferve* in theLetter juft now refer'd 10 in the Margin 1 and afterwirds.bc-forehis own Houfe was habitable, lived in a Wijwam among the Ijtdiam. ] ■ °

Wednefday, May iS. My Circumllances are fucb that I have no Comfort, of any Kind, but what I have in God. I live la the tnoft loncfom Wildemeft ; have but one iingle Perfon to' Converfe with, that can fpcak E«gl,j)i: * Moft of tho!Talk £ hear, is dthcr Highknd-Salch or ln£m. I have no Fellow-Chrifiian to wliOKi I might uiibofom my felf, and lay open my fpiritual Sorrotvs, and with whom t might take fwect Counfel in Conveifation about heavenly Things,and join in facial Prayer. I live poorly with Regard to the Uomforls of Life : moft of my Diet conllHsof boil'd Corn, Hafty-Pudding, He, ilod»eona Bundle of Straw,and mjLabour is hard and cxtrearaly difficult ; and I have "Httle Appearance of Succefs, to comfort me. The hiiam Affairs are very dilScult j having no Land ro live on but what the DulA People lay Claim to, and threaten to drive tbeni off from j they have roRegard So the iiouls of the poor hdiam ; aud.by what I can learn, they hate mc.becaufc I come to preach 10'era.--But that which mates all my Diffitullics grievous ta be born, is, that Gii hidii Us Fan from mi.

» This Peifon was Mr. Brmiird'a Interprerer; who was .in mgcmaus yotitig Iniian belonging to SlutbnJg,, whofe Name was Join irnMnmrnpiqumnQml, who h.id been in-flruflcd in the Chriflian Religion by Mr. SirtiM ; and had lived with thcRsv. Mr. WiliUmi of L,«s-Almdiw a^,d hid been further Jnflruaed by him, at ib= Charge of Mr. Milmai is.;*5;and uiiderflood both E>irlifij ioA Inilian very well, and wrote S good Hand.

Tfilirfiia^r,

lis LIFE

Thurfday, Ma; 19. Spent rooK of this Day in dofc Sjudies • Bat was fomcMmes fo diftrefs'iljthjt I could iiiink 0/ nothing bu^ itiy f[Mri[ual Blindnefs, Ignorance, Pride, and Mifcry, Oh, B hare Rcafon to maltc ihal Prayer, JUrd, fsrgivi my Sim s/Ttuthl and former Trefp:^ires ! 1

Friday, Mas lo. Was much pcrplexed.rome Pare of tiicDay ■ 1 but towards Night, had fomc comfortable Meditalions on lfai.\ xl. I. And enjoyed fome Sweemers in Prayer. Afterwards myj Soul rofe & far above the iliip Walcn, ttiat I dared to rijafei I'si Gsd: Ifaw, ihetc was fuSlciene Matter of Confolalion in thrj3 bleffed God.

[ The next nine Days, his Burdens,*ere for the moft Part ' alleviated i but with Variety : at fomc Times having confidera-ble Confolation, and ,It other Times more depteffcd. The next Day, Monday, Alaj 30. He fet out on ajourney toNta-Jcrfiy, lo confult tbe Cammifiioners tiiat employed him about (he Affairs of his M iiiion : •)■ performed his Journey ibillier in four ■ Days; and aritvfd at IV!r. Burr'a in Niwari on Thurfday. la great Pan oi liis Journey, he was in (lie Depths of Melancholy, I under lite DilirtSi-s wiiji ihoie already mentioned. On Friday, , he rode to EDfahih-'-Tiv^n ■-, and oniiaturday to iS^^a?-2fl/^ ; and from thence on his way fjomewards as far as Whha-PImm ; where he fpent the Satbath, and had confiderahie Degrees of iivineConfolJtionandADitlance in pnbllck Services. On IVlon-day, ho rode abooi 6n Miles toi^fry-i/ijwa. There he at temp ced a Reconciliation ^vi[^l the Authority of (he,a%t; and fpent this Week io vjliunp his Friends in lliofc Parts, and in bisjour-my Homewards, 'l\1\ Saturday, in a pretty comfortable frame of Mind: On Saturday, in his Way from Stmibriiigt to Kau^ nainnrii, he was loft in theWoods, and lay all Night in the open Ait ; but happily found his Way in the Morning, sod came ta bis iio'MMonl.ord'i-Day, jfrnji 1%. And had greater Affifiance in Preaching lioiong them than ever before,fmcehis firft coming among them.]

t Plis E^fincfi v^icb The CcifTimiflioncts now was, to obtain Ordeiy Jrom ti^em to fct up a School among the In^iam ac Kaitaauijitif:.■^T\^ ihal his Interpreter might be appomced tha School-Ma-Scr: Which was accordingly done.

From

'^Mr. Dawd Brainefd. A.D.174.3, 73

[From thisTime forward he was the Suhjefl of variousFramct and Excrcifes of Mind : Bm it feems, in the general, to have btcn with him much after the fame Manner as ii had been hitherto from his firffi coining to Kaaimmiil, 'till he got into his own Houfe (a little Hal, that he made chiefly with his own HallJs.with long and hirdLibour) which was near fevenWeeks frora this Time. Great Part of this Space of Time, he was de-jedted and depreffed with Mehincholy, and fometimes very ex-irejmly ; his Melancholy operating in like Manner as has been related of Times paS. How it was with him In Ihofe dark Fna-fsns, he hirofelf further dcfcribes in his Diary for Jul/ 2. in the following Manner. My Ssiil is,!md has fur a Imglimi iliii it a filisui Cmiilitn^^adisi Ihn' aStrin of SiJttmi, if vmt!iiKi:d!. 1 bavi bltit !' crujh'd ilfain fimitimt: vjilh a Stnji of my Miaantfi and Infiniu Vnuinrlhimfi, that i ham him tjhamid that an-) mm At tmamjlofmyMlaw-Crtalitrtsjhimldjt muchai(pirsdaThsuihl ahml mi,ti ha'se ivifi'd/mitimllVJiili J ham Ireoelitd amsng tit thiik Brths, as cut of litm, ll drtp inti s-sirlijlii^ OiUvisn. Is this Caft, fimilimis, 1 havi almtfl njilmd laiir again » ftl snysfmy ^cqnaintmici; and rialiy tbiugbl, 1 auld ml dt il and hi/d tip my Fact \ and havt hngii fir thi nmltfl Kigiin, far i RUTeatfrmaitmy Frimii, thailimghl mi bi/ten er htard 1/any

jairi, Siimlimsl ibt Cunfidtratitm nf myJgMranct has hanaMtatu

cfay grial Di/lrifs and Aaxiely. Jind tfj^datly my iiaj ha; km in Angaip with Feat, Sliamt^ and Guilt, ihat ivtr I hadfrtmh'd, er bad a/iyThougbl tbatM^ay.-- - Smtiimn mySsul baibttn inDi/lrifs m filling fmtl psrtiniar Csrraplhm riji and /villi Hit a tnighSy Tirrint, with prefml Visliiit i havini at ibe/ami Timi, unThsu- ' /asdfsrmir Sim and Feitin prifintiiu fitw, in all theirBlacltnifs snd Aitravaliitni,— And ihtjt attin^tdwith fuihtxtirnal Circum-JlanctiSimini at pijcnt an ; iifiitalisf mijl if ihi Cmttmmm if Lifi,at!d Imayfay, ofalllbi Pliafuristfit ; withtat aFriirJ f timnninicatt anj cf mf Strriws li, anjfimllimli tvilhmt any Plait tf Rttirtmmt, vjbirt imai unburden my Soul befsrt Gnd.which has trially ttntribvud u tay Dijirtfi.— Of hit, mart ifpidalk, my irial Dlffimllt hsi bnn a Sirl «/ Carili/ni/i, a Kind tf ri^ardlift Timfir of /Wind, whina 1 havi bun difptjid It Jnio/mct and Tri-jfiw.- Ad fhil Timpir of Mind lias ctnfianlly km islUndiduiisb Cu<J and Shtmi ; fa Ifml fimilimii I havi bun in a Kind if Horror; to finimtfilffi mlihlbcili^td Gld ; and haw tioKgbt Igrrw viorfi Lniir ail my trials ; and lutbin; has cut mi isnmdd my Still mart than This. Oh, if lamomofGai's ihifm, as iirtiff thro' infiniii Graif lam, Ijiniifa Truih, llsauhe lijhteoBS «-e fcarcely faved ! t 'Tis

Ul LIFE

w.neft o, VUni wh.ch he was fo much acrriftd wkh a./^m^S mJ. was R.iJefl,on on his p.fl Errors .r,d „„fg„;d,d Zeaul

the Land. And Ibere/orc he repe^Kd his Kndcavou rs this Yell forRewncljation wiih the Govcrnours of ,he College, whom* he had <n Iha. T^e offended. AUho' he h.d been^ ., Ivir ^.=™ m 7«,,, ,h,s Yc.., and h.d a.temp.ed a Reco«cHi„jJn, ; as h« h«n menlloneJ already, yer in the Beginning of 7„/,. Kel made another Journey thither, atid renemd his Attempt; butf

Tit'^^r^'r'^i ""'' "^"'if'^^i^^^'I, great P^rt of that Space of:] r i'^L'r'' rp..t,ngof, yet thcr. were n.an/lmer-:J

Tranqu.il.ry and Rdign..inn of Mi«d, and freq.cnt fpcck I

The Manner of h,. Kdief from his Sorrow, once .n particular f IS worthy 10 b.m.-nt>on'd in hia own Words, in his Diary forj

^ f r ^' «^^-Ar.W. m^iiatkn an Gcd'^EurniL That hA

SaiprdY, 7^^; 30. Jufl 3C Night, moved into my ,wnH-.uU .nd lodged there th.. Night ; fou.d it much b.tt.r fpe^S^ ^"bctc!'' mygwoHcufe, tha« in the ^;^;,..L whL d

p^-^-B]<=jr,dbe the Lord, tb.t h.. now gir.n m. a PteJ

i'f ""m"'-" ^ *^" ^ "''E^^ >^/ G,^ £ it, atid that hcl would dweiJ w^iih me for ever. -^"u in^t nej

Hi5r''t>'/''^- V ^f ^^i'^bl^Cnn farther Labours on ni^i poufe...-Pdt ^ little of the Sweetnefs of Religion, and thpuS^S nw.is™h the while tof^iU^ '^/■'..GwL'\t oZdl ^n tes p.f.r^,,..dD,3th it felf. Q th.t I might .KvayVS.^

>/Afr. DavidBrainerd. A.D.r743; 75

foane Degree of SweeCtiefs, ia f^cret Prayer, tho' I had much Sorrow.

Tuesday, Au^. a. Was Bill lak:uring to make my felf more comfortable with Gegaid to my Boufe and Lodging. Labour'd und^r fpiritu^l Anxiety ; It feem'd to me, I deferved to be kicit'd out of the World ^ yet found fome Comfort in commttiii}^ my Caii/£ to Ged. 'Tis good for me to he gffisMtd^ that ( may die wholly to this World and all (hat is in it.

Wedncfday, ^ug> 3. Spent moft of the Day in Writing. Enjoyed fomc Kenfe of Religion. Thro' divine Goodnefs I am now uninterruptedly alone j and fimi my Retirement comforta-ble, i have enjoyed more Senfe of divire Things within a few Days laH paft, than for fomeTime before. I lodged after HcjII-nef^JHnniIity& Meckn^fs : O ihatGod would enable me lapafs ih( lirtig of /tiy fojournifig here in hJi Ftar^ and always iivt Is k'tm,

Thurfday, Aug, i!^- Was enabled to pray muchj thro' ihe wbolcDay ; and thro' divine Goodnefs found fome Intcnfenefs of Ijoiil in the Duty, as 1 ufed ta doj an fame Ability to perfe-verc in my Supplications : Had fome Apprelietifions of divine Things, that were engaging,and that gave me feme Courage and Refolution. 'Tis good, i ^nii, irt psrjtven in Adtriipiao pray,| if 1 cati't pfsy with Perpveranci^ \, e. continue lung in my Ad-drefl'es to the divincBeing. I have geneially found, thai the more J do in feciet Prayer, ihe more I have ddlghled to do> and have] enjayed more oi a Spirit of Ffayer : aad frequently have found •,h.<i conirary, when with Journeying or oiberivifej I have been much deprived ol Retirement. A f^-afonable iteadyPerformance i>l fccret Duries in their proper Hours,& a caretul Improvcraentj of all Tjinsj iiiiing up every Hiur with fome profitable L;ibouf»| ciiherof HeartjHcad.or Hant^s, are excellent Means oi fpintualJ Ptace and Bolelnefs before God- Chrlli indeed ia em Peau^ and by him wi have Bsldnif: af Acafi to God \ but a good Conjchmet midofOffsace^ is an excellent Preparation for an Approach inio the divine Prefence. There is Difference between Seif-Cwf-dmct and a Self-righi^us pUeJing surfdves (with our ownD1lIle^1, AHainmtnts, and fpiritual lisijojmcnts) which gotllySouls fome-limes are guilty of, anti ihat holy Confidtnci w\hn\^. from tha Teftimony of a good Confcience, whicl) jjood iU^ekish hwd when he ^ys, Remitnhfr, 0 Lord,, I btfttch Thee^ hsw I bavt walha biforsihse inTrutb mdwilh aptrfsa Heart. Then (faya ihe holy Pfalmifl) /hall J fot he sfh&mtd^ whn J bsvs ReJpeSf ta ali thy CommbJidmtntj, Filling up our Time wiV* ajid/cr Go&j U lli« Way 19 life up and lie down in Pta^e,

■jS Mt. 16.,

LIFE

v«y .omforubte Frame, having hi, Miud fix.d Td W, , "I pg^ci ■■> Re ,5,™ i .„d „„e rhap once blefiis God, It L 3 I given him a IitifeCBfJo/j, where hs jni,>I>t r;„- _, ">""'°'^ "}%

could .E any Ho.f of ,he Day kj, dido all StudiJs ,„dVjJ T,™m l.fting up his SoyI to Gcd fo. fpiriiu,! SM ,i 1 I Saturday, j?i,r. is. Was enahlp,1 :„ r . «'oicmiigs-J

»«;>..,i v^ith ,1 ffl«/of dvfnrE.ic Int '"'"*^'\!i World All rn„ ™n o ""™5 JSnjoyraonis, e«n m (h si

iood a God... Lo,d ,'r ^=4 ^0^1 r r"n ^"-^1 :LTa d

ILove even totbemoft: invecerate of mv EnUfpV 11 "iJ

Lord s-Day, ^^g.. ,^, I had much more Freedom in cublicfc

M7„da;'lJ''^' ^ ^"' P-eived'^„oco„,id„arES^

fot m.cd Sweelnefe in the Mori.u,e Vv"' vVrt w«t i^^,'''''

Er;.fiiot^,rw;fr''t;fi^?^'t"'''"\"'r'''-^'''

Andr^ ''=/"',\'™". 'f U«anyconr,derableQuamilv"

Ithro' d,v,„e t.oodr,<r, 1 had fum. /W™ i^if J™,,,^"!

made

c/Mr. David Brainerd. A.D. 17+3. 77

maiJe llitle Cake?, and fried them. Yet /clt contcnlcti with my (JiiCiimftances, and fwceily rtTigned to God. In Prayer I enjoyed great FreeJom ; and biefi'd Goti as ttiiich for my piefentl Circumftances, as if I had bton a King j and tJioxight, 1 found' a Difpofition to be contented in any Circuniftanccs i BlelT^d bs God!

[Theruft of this Week, he was exceeding weak in Body, and muchexercifed with Pain ; 3!)d yet obliged from Day to Day to labour hard, to procure Fodder for his Horfe ; estcept-itig fome Pare of the T\mt he was fo very il]j that he was nciihec able to work nor ftudy : Butfpeiibof LoiigingaaftwHoIJJiersand t^erfcftCanfoimily to God ; complains of ejijoyhij; butlittle of God ; yet Ja>s, ^hal litUe was better to him» than nil ihe iVerldbcCiA^s. In his Dinry (or Saturday, he fsjs, He was fomething MdBncholy antf foiTOwfuI in Mind j and adds, / never feel cmfsrlsblj, hut when J fnd my Ssul guitig fgrth afitr God; ]f I can't he holy ^ 1 muji necejfsrily bs miferahUfonver.'^

Lord's-Day, jfug^^ ii. Was much ftraiten^d inthcForenoon-^ Exercifc i my Thoughts feem'd to be all fcaiterM to Eh« Enda DftheL]arth. At Noon* I fell down before the Lnrd, gnd groan'd undei- my Vilcnefs, Barrirnncfa, Dcadncfa^ and felt as if| I was guilty of Scitl-Murther, in Ipcakin^ to jmmortal douJsm fiich a Manner as I had rhun done-— In the Afiernoon» God waj plcas'd to j^ive me Tome AlTiiiance, and I was enabled to fet before my Hciircrs the NdEure and NfCtility of true Repentance, i^i. Afterwards bad Ibmc fmall Dtigrceof Tbankfulnefs^ Was very ill and full of Pain in the Evening i and my Soul mourned that 1 had fpent fo much Time to To little Pro£t.

Monday, Ja^, 11. Speiic niort of the O^y in Study ; and found my bodily Strengili in a Meafiirc rcftorcd. Had feme jntenfe and paiiionate BrCfithifigs of Soul after Holitiefa, snd verv clear Maniffiftations of my utter hiahility to procure* at WG:k it in my felf \ 'tis wholly owing ttj the Power of Cadtr, O, with what Ttfndernefs the Love ai^^d Dclire of Hojinefil fills the Soul ! 1 warned to uisig out of my felfj to Gon ; of rathet to gti a Conformity lo Him : But alas, i oji'c add to my Stature in Grace one Otibit. However, my Soul cc^n never [eaveftriving fori: i or at le;Ut prnaning» that it ci,n'f fiiive for it, and obtain nv^re Purity ol Heart. — Ac Night, I (pent fomeTime in inltrutling mypoor People : Oh,that Gad woii}d pity ibeir Souls.

Tu<:rday, Au:^. 2^- Studied in the Forenncn, and cnjoy*d f^jms KrecJcm. In [i^e Afcernoan) labomcd Ahroad : Endea-

'ffSi CIF E

L.n« turned i. m/lUind witfi Plelfc " ^'""^' ^^^\

mat ! D.fi shou tbht, that Iwiltjhrki ? J "I' to 1/nmsrttslhy.

mem/and F < ^"""^ °f' ""^ '==' '^'^l'1= f" il'= K„j„y

niems and itmploynitnrs o/the uDDer WnrlH n.k. V ■^.■ was more altenipcr'd (., i, " °'"' ° '^^' '">'''"''

g'Lrs 111 ,r.cs .„d Frcpararitiii lor ths World of BbilWnif, [

e/Afr, David Brainerd. A.D. 1743, 79

ind tliat he might juftly fay, Cut it dtwa SiC. O ihat Soi wouEd make me more lively and vigorous in Grace., for his own GJory! Amen-

fThe two nexiDays, he was much engaged in feme neceffary Labours, in which he estreamiy fpent himfelf. He feejiiSjther& X>&y^ to have had a great Senfe of the Vanity of the World 5 and continued Longings after Holinefs, and more Fervcnty o£ Spirit In the Service of God.]

Lord's-Day, Au^. aS. Was much perplex'd with romeirre-i ligiaus Durcb-mitiM All Their Dtfcourfe turned upor* theThingi' of the World ; which was no fmall Exercife to my Mind. Oh, what a Heii it wouM be to fpend an Efern^ty vfith fuch Men \ Well inighC-Ddi</(J fay, 1 hiheldlh$Trdnfg*tjfsrs,1:^ waxgrutxti^-r Bui, adored be God, Heaven is a Plaice, into which m afujesit Thing £tiuri. Oh, I Jong for (he Holinefs of Eha;Worlii! Lord* prepare a\c therefor-

[The next Day, be fet out on a Jtmrney to Ngw-Tork, Wm fomefhing dejetiled, the two firft Days oi his Journey ; but yet feenis to hive enjoyed fome Degrees of the fenSbJe Prcfence of God.]

Wednefday, /fug, gt. Rode down to Betf^Uhsm : Wb3 ms fu^eet, ferious, and^ I hope, ChriHian Frame, when I came there j Eternal Things engrofs'd all my Thoughts ; and HongM to be in ths World of Spirits. O bow happy is it, to havcaU our Tf^oughts fwailowed ifp in that World ^ to fee] Ofle*s fcif a I ferious confiderate Stranger in thji World, diligently feeking a| Road ihro' it, the heft, the fure Road to the heavenly Jerw fafsm /

Thurfday, Sfptemb, i Rode to Danhury, Was more dull and dcjedled/ft Spirit, than Vefte'rday. Indeed, I always feel comfortably, when God realises Death and (he Things of another World to my Mind : Whenever my Mind is talcen off from the Things of this WorW, and fet on God^ my Saut ig ihwi at -pi/?,

[He vent forwaird on his Journey, and came toNew-yeti on

the next Monday. And after tarrying there two or ibreeDays,

ki out from (heCity tavBatdsNao-^avefij intending to be there

j^E tks Cesn men cement 5 an<t on Friday came to Btrfi-N^h

" fa

Jfib

nt LIFE

In the'raem Tim?, he complains mtsch of Dulncfs, and Waifj rf Fervour iu Religion : But yet from Time 10 Time, fpeaj^ of his ciijoviiig (pirilual Warmth and Sweeinefs in tJonvcrfaiic With Chritlian friends, Affiftance in publiclc Services, tfft.]

Satiirdaj-, Jj/k, ,0. Rode fix Miles to Slanwkh, and preach'd to a coDfiderable Aflbmbly nf People. Had ferae Afflftanc^ and FrcedoiB.efpecially towards the Clofc. Endeavoured mnsA afterward!, in privaic ConvcrfatiDn, ro cftablifll Holincfc, Hul mility, Mceknefs fcft. as the Z/Tence of true Religion ; and m moderate fome nuify Sort of Pcrfons, ihat appeared to tnc to b^ aflcd by unfccn fpiriluall'iidc, Ala3,whatExDreams Men incliti^ to runinto !—Returned toHir/t-Niti,and felt foinc Serioufnefal and fwEct Soleroc ity in tl:e Evening. a

^L°;d's-Day, Sipl. II. Jn the Afternoon, pieach'd from^ Jitas iii. 8. I think, God never helped me more in painting oat'i itrne Religion, and in detetaing clearly, and tenderly difcoun!e-J Inancingfalfe Appearances of Religion, Wild-fire Patty-Zeai;| fpJritBal Pride, tic. as well as a confident dogmatical Spirit.aniii it's Spring, Kiz. Ignorance of the Pleart.— !n ihe Evcningfi ttwk much Pains in private Converfation to fupprefs fomeCon-^ fufions, that I perceived were aniongft that People. 'L

Monday, Sffl. ,1, Rode to Mr, MiUs'i at Ri'plm. Hld^ fome paplexing Hours; but was fome Part of tb^ Day very'j comfortable. 'Tis Ibrstighgrist Trials, I fee, that mi avji tnUr f thi Gain 1/Paraji/i, If my Soul could but be Holy, (hal God j mig^t not be dishonoured, n^eihinks, I could bear Sorrows. L

Tuefday, S^f/. ij. Rode to Niw-Hsvur. Was fonjetimes. J dejcaed ; not in the fweelcft P'rame. Lodged at ••**. Had? fome profilablc Chriftian Coiiverfation, &C.—1 (it^d,lho' my inward Trials are great, and 2 Life of Kolltude gives 'cm greater Advantage to fettle and penetrate to ihe very ilimoft Receflcs of the Soul; yet 'tis belter to be alone, than incumbei'd withNoifc and Tumult. 1 find it very diHicult maintaining any Scnfe of [divine Things, while removing from Place to Place, diverred with new ObJEas, and fill'd with Care and Bufincfs. A fetilcd Beady Bufincfs is heft adapted to a Life of Uria Religion.

Wcdnefday, Sipf. 14. Tbis Day I ought to have taken my ' \Dtgm; * but God fetj fit to deny it me. And tho'Iwas greatly afraid of being ovciwhelmed with Perplexity and Con-fafion, when I flioald fee my ChffAlais take theirs j ^u, in

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(he very Scafonofit, God enabled me with Calijinefa and Re»| fignation to liy,The/fill sftii Lord h dmt. Indeed, thro' divine Soodncfs, 1 have fcarcely felt my Mind fo calsi, fedaie, and torofortable for fome Time. F have Jong feat'd this Seafon, and exnefled my HuiHility, Meeknefa, Patience and Refignatioii would be much tried t: But found much more Pleafure anil divine Comfort, than I expeaed,—Felt fpiritually Serious, tender and Affeflionnte in private Prayer with a dear Chriftian Friend to Day. .

Thurfday, Jf?f. 15. Had fome Saiisfaaion in hearing the Minifters difcoutfe fcfc. 'Tis always a Comfoit to mc, to) hear religious and fpiiitual Difcourfe. O that Minifters and People were more fpiritual and devoted to God.—Towards Mgbt with the Advice of Chriffiau Friends, 1 offered the following Refleaions m Writing, to the R<fl«r md Tru/i.ii!,( the Cillm ( which are for Subttance the fame that I had freely offered to the Riiftr before, and inlrcaled him to accept) and this I did that ifpoflible 1 might cutofFallOccafion of Stumbling and Offence, from thofe that feck Occafioo. What 1 ofFercd, is

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<> Whereas I havefaid before feveralPerlotls,eonceming Mr. " milltl/iy,anevf t\ie Tutozs of Tuli C,U,^,, tUt / M net ** Ittigve he ktld any mare Graa^lbati tbeChajr J thin Uan'd upott ; I " [ humbly confcfs, that herein I have fm'dagBJnlt God, and " afled .'contrary to the Rules of his Word, and have injured << MT.fFhiuelfi)- I had no Rigbt to make thus free with hil 11 Chirafler ; and had nojuftReafoo to fay asl did concerning " him. My Fault herein was the more Aggravated, in that I 11 faid this concetningOne that was lomnch mv Supciiour, and " one that I was obliged to treat with fpecial Reipeft and, Ho-" nour, by Reafon of the Relation 1 flood in to him in the " College. Such a Manner of Behaviour, I conlefs, did not " become a Chriftian ; it was taking too moch upon me, and.

t His Trial was the greater, in that, had it not been for ih« Difpleafuie of llie Governours of tlie Col iegc,he would not only on that Day have Ihared with his Cl..f-Males in the publick Honours which they then received, but would on that Occafiiin have appeared at the Head of that Uafs ; which, if he had been with ihera.would have been the mo!t numerous of any that ever had been graduated at ihat College, ^ j;j

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" didnotfevouroftliai humble Jiefpea, ihall ought io ha' '• eKfreft'd towards Mr. /fto,/,;, l^,,,, j,,,, |,„ ^]

ihen j.ft.fid fuch .C„„dua, I bav/often refilaid on tlf, Aa «lh Gr,« ; Ijope, „„ Account oi .h= Ji, olfr-• And =m willing to hs hw, .„d be abaM beforeGod =„,iMa« '"/"•,,^"'^''™'''f='*-h^f"rgiv™fs of lheGmc,.o™ of thi:^olk-ge, mdof.be whol=aocic(y;bu!ofMr /Wj* p ^7 "" f;^'^"^"- Atid whcrea, I have been a<:<:uf-rJ h,- cno Peifoa of faying cmct™,„g ,|,e Rev. R,S,r ai nU-CoHn,.

« *ifSrM„rs/4.(W™^J^,Te:inenti.Miif07d ; Ikrl.y.i

profefs, that I don't remember my %ipg any Thing lo ih,^

■ Purpofe. But If I did, which I am no. certafn I did n.: I

' utlerly Wm„ ,(, ,„d J,„^ ,„ (j,,,, k,-,^ ^f Behavicw;

and elpecaHy in an Undergraduate lowards [he Reflor. And I I now appear, to judge and condemn iny felffor ™W ,„„„> I th,f.far.uM,,U.s ™New-Ha.en, a Hltle befofe Iwae,! '

* I humbly a(k the Reftor'. l^rgi^eneft. And whellicr l" ' Governou.SD/ the College ShM ever fee Caufe lo r.in.vc " the Academical Cenfure I he under, orno, or toadinit me tothePr^ edg^Udefire, yet J an, willing ,s ap; r, J=f '^'".'' fi'. "P'nly to^ o™, .„d to humble n.y feli for " ihofc Things I have herein confefs'd."

God hMm,demewJllinj;t9iloanyThini!, that I can do confiactwtth Truth, for the S=te of Peac^ and that ] ni! I not b= a iumbing-block and Offence .« other,. For thi^Eca-[frri^r '''"'f""!'f^'^E"- and give trp what I reiily behc.e,

Iniknces. C*d t,« given me ,!>« Difpofition, that if tbis v-ere .be Cafe, that a Man has done me an !,u«A.d hhrh, ..-d I

,ftho evcrfo mucbprol'oltedtoit) havedorte Him «,, J fecll difp^fed, a.d heartily willing humbly to confcftmyFault to bin" ' TWkI ^."'^"^'^■^"'Siveneftothimi tho' at the fam, ™= he «ion d juftify himfelf in all the Ijijuiieshc baa done me

t.ndftouJd only m.te Uf=oft«y humble Confeffion to bhcte Zl,?'/. V T^^'i^P'"''"" "' ■■" *° onlyPetfo,

fpnttninprivatcioafrtendortwo; and being partly over! fetiard. wiU rcbted te *, Ksite. „d by hi^ exLicd from tny

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Friends J yet, feeing it was divulged and made publick, I wa« willios to canfeSi my i'ault therein publickly.—But I truft.God will plead ipy Caufe. *

[T!ie nextDay he went to Dirhy ; (hen toJbaJtiarjijWhere bl fpent the Sabbath : and fpealcs of fome fpiritual Comfort ; but complains much of UnfixednEfs. and Wandilngs of Mind in Religion.]

Monday, Sipt. 19. In the Afternoon,rode to Siihkhim, and ibcrc preacb'd. Had fome Meafure of Ai!iHance,bulb inl'rayet ;ni) Preaching. I felt ferious, kind and tender towards allMan-iind, atid longed that Holincfa might flouriUi more on Earth.

*f I was witoefs to t!ie veryChtiftianSpirilMr.flrai'nciifcew'd at that Time, bcina then at Nml-Havm, and bciog One that he faw Et lo aTrfiilt on that Occaflon. (This was the (irfiTime that ever 1 badOpportunity of perfonalAcquain-tance with him.) Tiicre truly apptat'd in bioi a great Dt-greeef Calmn.i'sand Humility i witbcut lire lcj(t Ap-pcaranc; of Rifing ot Spirit for any ill Treatment he fup-pofed he bad fulFercd, or the leaft Backwatdncfs to abafe bimfelf before Them who he tboui;lit had wrong'd hira. Whit he did was without any Objcaitin or Appearance of Relufiance, even in private to his friends, that he freely opcn'd bimfelf to. EarncH Application was made on his Behalf to the Authority of the College, that he might have hisDegree then given him i and particdaily by thcRev. Mr. Bmr, of Nuimtk, one of the Correfpondentsof the Hon. Society in 5£j(bW ; He being fent from A^tw-W^y to Niw-limtn, by ihcreftoflhcCommiffioners.forthatEnd; and many Arguments were ufed i but without Succefs. indeed the Govcmours of the College were fo far faitsfiei with the RtSeaions Mr. Braimrd had made on hjmfelf, that they appeared willing to admit him again into Cclkgi i but not to give him hisjO^rw, 'till hefhould have rcmam'd there, at leaft a Twelve-Month, which being contrary to what the Correfpondems, to whom bo was now engaged, had declared to be their IVIind, he did not confent to it. He defjred his Degree, as he thought it would tend lohii being more extcofiTely ufeful i butftlll when he was deny i it, hs manif(fl!d no DifappointsrieBt oi Refentmcst-

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Tucfday, Stpt. so. Had Thoughts of goijig forwariJ on aiyi Journey to my Ittdism i but towards Nfght was tajten wilh a hard Pain in my Teeth, and fiiiirering Coid, and could not poflibly recover a comfortable Degree of Watmth the whole Night followii:g. 1 continued very full of Pain all Night ; and in the MorniniJ had a very hard Fever, and Pains alniott alt over my whale Body. 1 hada Setlfe of the divine Goodjicfs m appointing this 10 be the Place of my Sicknefs, vh, among my. Friends that VFcre very Kind to me. I ftiould probably iiavB p perilhcd, if i had lirtt got Home to iny own Houfe in the Wil-[tlcrr7cr5, where I have none to converfe with but the poor rude ignorant htHam, Here [ faw »a! Mercy in the midft of AiHi£tion. I continued thus^ mofily confined to my Bed^ Mil. Friday-Night ; very full of Fain mo(! of the Time s but thro' divine Gootlocfi not afraid of Death. Then the extream Folly of lliufc nppcar'dlo me, who put off their turnillg to God "till aSick-Std. Surely this is not a Time proper so prepare for Eternity,— Oo Friday-Evening my Pains went off fomelhing fuddenly 1 and I was exceeding weak, and almoff falnlcd i but was very comfortable the Night following. Thofe Words Pfrl, cxviii.r?- I frequently revolved in my Mind ; and thought we were to prir.c the Continuation of Life only on this Account, that wc mzyji,w hnh Gid'i Gntiit/) aadWorh nfGracc.

[From this Time, he gradually rccover'd : And on rhe next Tuefday was fo well as to beabk to go forwarj on his Journey Homewards: But was 'till the Tuefday foilowiog bafore hs rt^dn'i Kaunaumiii. And feems, great Part of this Time, to have had a very deep and lively Senfe of the Vanity and Erapti-nefs of all Things here beiow, and of ihe Reality, Nearntfs and vstt Importance of eternal I'hings. J

Tuefday, O^ofor 4. ThisDay rodcHome to my ownHBufe and* People. The poor hdims appear'd very glad of my Return.,!! Found my Houfe and all Things in Safely. I prcfenily fell oa * my Knees and bleflid God for nay fafe Return, after 3 !ong and tedious Journey, and a Seafon of Sicknefs in feveral Places where I had been, and after I had been fick my felf. God hai renewed his Kindnefs to me, in prefcrving me onejourney more. I have iskea many coafiderable Journeys fince this Time laft Year, and yet God has never luffsred one of my Bones (o be broken, or anydiflrefEng Calamity to befall me, excepting tho 'II Turn [ hid in my laft Journey ; Tiio' I have been often tit-pofed to Cold and Hunger in the Wjldeincfs, whtre ihu Comforts

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forts of Life were not to be had ; have frequently been loft in Ihe Woodaj and foroetimes odlig'd to ride much of the Night i snd once lay out in the Woods all Night. BkJIed be God that has ptcfcrved me.

r In his Diary for the next eleven Days, are great Complaint* of Diitance from God, rpirilull Pride, Corruption, and exceeding Vilenefs. He once fays, hisHeart was fo ptefs'd wilh aSenfo of his Pollution, that he could fcarcely hive the Face and Impudence (as it then appeared to him) to riehrc that God (houW( not damn him forever. And at another Time, ho fayi. He had fo little Senfo of God, or Apprebenfion and Relifh of his Crory and Excclleticy, that it made hitn more difpofed to KiBdne&j and Tcndernefs towartls thofe who are blind and ignorant of God and Things divine and heavenly.]

Lord's-Day, OClih. l6. In the Evening, God was pleafed to give me a leeling Senfe of my own Unworthinefs; but thro' divine Goodncfs fuch as tended to draw, ralher than drive m» from God : [t fill'd me withSolemnity. 1 retired alone (havmg at this Time a Friend with me) and poured out my Soul to God, with much Freedom i and ycl in Anguifh, to fiii.' ray felf fo unfpeafcably finful and nnworlhv before a holy (l.J. Was now much refigned utider God's Difpenfations towards mc,tbo' my Trials had been very great. But thought whftlc. 1 rould be refign'd, if God fhould let the FrmrA/iKiiaM come upon me, and de'prive me of my Life, or carry me away Capiive (iho' I knew of no fpecial Rclfon then to propofc this Trial to myfelf, more than any other) and my Soul feem'd fo far to reft and ac-quiefcc in God, that theSling andTcrror of thefeTbings feem'd iti a great Meafure gone . Prefently after I came to the IiuHant, whom 1 was teaching to ftog Pfalm-Tones that Evening, I received the following Letter from SlsMriigi, by a MelTenger fcnt on the Sabbath on Purpofe, which made it appear of gteatet Importance. ^ i *, jj j

«i Sir, Juft now we received Advices from Uol. Stiddari, " that there is the utmoft Danger of i Rupture wkh Fr^mi. « He has received the fame from hii Excellency ourGovernour, " ordettog bim to give Notice to all the expofed Places, that, <t [hey may fecure ihemfclves the beft tlioy can againft iny " fuddcn Invafion. We thought beft to fend diteflly to Ksa-' I naamni, that you may take the prudcntcft Meafuies for yout •' Safety that dwell ihsre. I a", Sir, »*.

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J thought, upon reading (he Contents, if came in a goodSea-gn } for mj Heart feera'd fomelhit]g fix'd on God, ajid 'heie-: fcre r V,K not much furprked : But this News only made me ' morcfcrious, and taught rac that I muft uat pleafEmv felf with ■ any of the Comforts of Life which I had been preparing for my Support. Blefled be God, thst gave me any Intcafenefs &vA icivuBcy this Evening.

Monday, Oaa. .7. HadfoiTiB.Jihrlg Hopes (bmetimes, ihjt bid-wmldarif, andinviMircymZian fieediiy. My Heart is indeed refrcflied, when I have any prevailing Hopes ol ZiWs f mfpenty. O that I may fee the glorious Day, when Zre^ Qiall become the /„ sf ,l,i ahh Earth I Truly there is noihin" that I greatly value in this lower WorW,

[OnTuefdsy.he rodetoSteiirfo'^f; complainsof heingsnuch diverted, and hiving hut little tife. On Wcdnefday, he ex-preiiesiomefolemn Scnfeof divine Things, and a loneins (o be alvsajs doing for God with a godly Fratne of Spirit.]

Thnrfday, Oetsb. jo. Had but little Senfeof divine Tilings Ihis Day, Alas, that fii much of my preciousTJme is fpen t with ft little of God r Tbofc are tedious Dsjs, wherein I hive ho ipjrituahty, \

Friday, OaA. 21. Reinined home to Kaumamil!: Waa glad to get alone m my littkCottsge.and to cry to that Got! who ieelh in fecrct and is prefent in a Wildernefs,

Saturday, OBti. as. Had but littlefenribleCommilllbn with ^od, ThisWorld is a dark CloudyManfion. Oh.wben will the *M 0/ Rsgkiotifmfi fliinc on my Soul withoutCeflaiton or Inier-mmion.

Lords-Day, Qa.h. 23. In theMorning,had s littleDawnof Coaifortar.fing ftomHopes of feeing gloriousDays in theChurch of God : Was enabled to pray for fuch a gloriousDay withfome Courage and Strength of Hope. In the Futeiioon, treated oil the Glories of Heaven, Wr.— In the Afternoon, on IheMifedes ofHtll, and the Danger of going there. Had fomeFteedom and Waimth, both Parts of she Day. And my People were very Attenlivc. In ibe Evening, two or three came to me under Concern for their Sonls 5 to whom! was enabled to difceurfs Blofely, and with fome Earneftnefs and Dtfiie, O l.^Jt God woirld be mctcifui to their poor Sools.

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[ He feeins, through the whole of this Week, to have been gseatly engaged toiiil up eveiy Inch of Time in the Service of God, and to have been molt dcligently employed inStudy,Prayer and inflrniSting the//lififfffJ i and from Time to Time eiprefies Longings of Soul after God, and the Advancement of his King-dom,and fpiritual Comfort and Ref/elhn^ent.J

Lords-Day, OaA. 30. In the Morning, enjoyed fome Fixed-ncfs of Soul in Prayer, Which was indeed fweet and delirable : Wasenablcd to leavcmyfelf wilhGod, and to acquiefce in him. At Noon, my Soul was refrclli'd with reading Rm. iii. more efpecially (he iilh and iith Verfes. O ra;' Soul lotiged for that blelied Day, when I fliould imtli in ibi Tmpil of GlJ, and go ns mori sui of his immediate Prcfence !

Monday, OfW. ;;i. Rode to KMirhmi, about 15 Miles from my Place. While riding, 1 felt fome divine Swcctiicfs in the Thoughts of being a Pillar in ths Tsm{jU ef Gsd in the upper World, and being no more deprived of his bleflcd Prefence and the Scnfe of fa'r Favtur, which is htUcr than Lift. My Sou! was fo lifted up to God, that I could pour out my DefircE to him, for mote Grace and lurthcrDcgreesof t5an<£lihcation,wilh abundant Freedom. Oh, 1 longed to be more aljuodantly prepared for (hat fllelTednefs, with which I was then in fome Mea-fnre refrefll'd !— Rcturn'd Home in the Evening ; but took isn cxlrearaly bad Cold by riding in the Night.

Tuefday, Novimh. r. Was very much difordered in Body, and fometimes full of Fain in my F-ace and Teeth : Was not able to ftudv much, and had not rauchfpiritual Comfort. Alas,

when God Is withdrawn, all is gone I Had fome fwectTho'ts,

which I could not but write down, on the Difsgn, Nctitri, and Snd of Chriflianity.

Wednefday, iVfiUfm^. 2. Was ftiil more indifpofed in Body, and in much Pain, raoft of the Day : Had not much Comfort } was fcarcely able toftudy at all i and Hill inlirely alone in (he Wilderncfs. But blelTcd bi the Lord, I ben't expofed in the ■pen Air : I have » Houfe, and many of the Comfoid of Life, lofuppoft me. IhavelHrn'd, in a Meafurc, that all goo<J Things, relating both to Time and Eternity, come from God.--In the Evening, had fome Degree of quickening in Prayer ; I think, Gad gave me fome Senfc of his Preftnce.

Thurfday, ^vuimh. 3. Spent this Day in fecrct Fading an4 Prayer, from Morning 'till Night. Early in the Morning, had (I think) feme fiaall De&res of AiSAim«c in Piiyec. After-

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wards, react thi; Story of EHjali ths Prophet,;i Kingi, xvii, xviif^fil and xix Chapters, and alfo j Khgi ii.mdiv.' Chapter!. Mv Soiifi Wis mucli moved, obfervini; ihc Faiib, Zoa! and Power of thaK holy Man i bow he wrdtled with God in Prayer, Jfc. My Soul Iben cried with Ei;j!,a, ffhiri i, till LurdGadofm^ ! Ohjl I Jonged for more Faith ! My Soul breathed after God, anjj pieidirtj with hitn, tbat a daubUPiriiim 0/ that Spirit, which wasil given to £/j,'3A, might r,fl m mi. Anti that which was divinetrl refreftiing and fttengihning to my Soul, was, I faw tbat God it'J (hc/a^i that he was in the Dayi of Elijah, — Was enabled tal wrcflk with God by Prayer, in a more affeaionale, fervent, > humble, inienfc, and importanate Manner, than I have for k many Moniiis pail. Noihing fcem'd loo harti for God to per- • form i nothing too great for me to hope for from Him.— I " had for many Months intirtJy loH all Hopes of being made in-ftrumental of doing any fpecial Service for God in the World.: It has appeared mcirely impofBbk, that one fo black and vile ihnuid be iluis improved for God \ But at this Time God waj -, pleaftd to refive this Hope.—Alterwards read the iiid Chap, of 1 Extii. and on to the xitti, and faw more of the Gkry & Majtjh 1 of Gob difcovered in thofe Cbaptets, than ever [ had fcen be- 1 fore ; ftequently in tile mean Time falling on my Knees and^ crying to God ior she Faith of Msft,, and for 3 Msmifeftation ' of the diiiiti QlsTf. Efpcciall? the iiid & ivth, and Pitt of the | 3iivtfl& xvth Chapters, were uofpeakably fwect to my Soul: My ' £oul bleffed God, (hit he had ihewn himfcif fo gradsu, to iiis Servants of old. The xvth Chapter fcem'd to bcibevery Lati-giiage which mjStiul uiici'd toGod in iheSeafon of my fitft fpiri-lual Comlort,wiicn I had juft got thro' t\xRtdSa,'hy a »'«> that I had no Expcftation of. O how my Soul then rij'iyui in Gid I And now ihi.fc Things came frefh and lively to my Mind j now -my Soul blcfs'dGod sfrefh, ihai he had open'd that enthought oi IFufia deliver nje from ihe Fear of the Egyptian!, when i al-moft dcfpiir'd of Life,--Afterwards read the Slory of Jirahm's Pilgrimage 10 ibc Land of Canaan: My Suul was melted, in . obferVHig his Feiih, how he Ican'd on God ; how he csmaitud WEihGoD, and whit a Strangir he was here in the WorH. Alter that, read the Slory of Ja/,pi\ Sufferings, and God'i Coodoefstohim .■ Blefiid God'for thefe Examples of Failh and Paiience. My Soul was ardent in Fiaver, was enabled to wredleartleiiily for myfeif, forChiifiian Friends, and for the thurchofGod, And lelt more Ddire to fee the Power of God in the Convciligo ol Souls, than I have done for a long

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Seafon. BlefTed be God for this Seafon ofFafiing nnd Prayer. May hi&Goodnefs always abide wiih me,& draw mySoul toHim. Thurfday, Niviml'. 4. Rode to Kindirlmi ; v/ent quite to Hu::fm*t-Rr0ey^ about %o Miles from my Houfc ; performetl fome Buhnefs ; and tcturned Home in the Evening to my own Houfe. I had rather ride hard, and fatigue my felf, to get Home, than to fpend the Evening and Night amongft thofe that have no Regard for God.

[The two next Days, be waa very ill an J full of Pain, prolia-bly through his tiding in tbcNight, after a fatiguini; Day*sJourney onThurfday : But yet fecms to have been diligent inBurineis. ]

Monday, Novemh, 7. This Morning, the Lord afforded me fome fpecial Afliftance in Prayer : My Mind vnaa fclemn, fix'd, af?eft[Onate, and ardent In Dclires aflcr Hoiinefs j and felt full of Tendernefs and Love 5 and tny Affedlions feemed to he diffolved intoKind.nefs and Soflnef!---In the Evening, Enjoyed the fame comfortableASiflance in Prayer, as in thcMorn-inc ■ My Soul lonEcd aflet God, and cripd to him *»h a filial ^', ^ „ 1 n.i i_^/u y-^ .1.... I ...:„!...

Freedom, Reverence and lloldncfs confccrascd and devoted to God.

O that I niiijht be intiiely

[The two next Days, he complains of bodily lllnefs & Pain; but much mote of fijirilualBairennefs and Unptofitiblcncrs,j

Tbiitfiiav, Nm. 10, Spent this Day in Eafling and Prayer alone. In theMorning,was very dull snd lifelefs ; W2S fomething mclasicholv and difcouraged. But after fome Time, reading 2 ffijWJ xix Cbap. my Soul was moved and afFeacd ; efpecially reading Vtrj! 14. and onward. I faw ihere was no other Way for the affliSed Children of God to take, but 10 go io God with all their Sorrows. Htziflah, in bis great Diifrefs, went and fpread his Complaint before the Lord, i was then enabled 10 fee the mighty Power of God, and my cxtreamNeed of ihat I'owcr: Was enabled !0 cry to God affcflionatciy & ardently for his divine Power and Grace to be excrcifcil lowariJs mc.-A(ter-wards, read the Slory of Damd'l Trials, and ubferved tbsCourfe he look under ihero, how be flreiigthDcJ his ironds m God s whereby my Soul was carried out aller Gun, enabled to cry to Him and rely upon Him, and felt /trng h til Lird. Was afterwards refrelll'd, obfcrving the blclTed Temper that was wronght in Dmid by his Trials : All Einerncfs and Defire of " ' N Revenge

Mt. %6.

ras L I F E

Revenge feemed wholly (alcen awav ■ h th,i i. , i

Was enabled to Jilcft Gcd

.his d,vi^ T™p., ,,, „, so.1 ^./T^i;- -7^:;;^-

he was v«y ill a^d funot S , ^ grm Pa,f of the Time UiLaljour, and tra^dlinB; Day and Nirh, ,„ I, ^ r l i^'-"''

.h.. »iu .e ^ ...Vd', :t.:;i:2r,r, t"; L.'?'''-^

^«i.mrm„^ : which m-nv Til '"='*"''*'«^'"rff, ind'

, H.*ip i„ tu f.vel'crLT'o"/;;>r^[:t';:"" "•"'-■.

0/ Mr. David Brainsrd. A D. 174J. 85

of more Reliremtnt.— I lore to live alone in mv own llllle Cctt^^e, where lean fpend much Time iri Piayer, Es**-.

Wediiefday, Nmemh- 30. I'lirfued my Study of Indiav : But was vory weak and difordered in Body, and was troubled ia Mind at the liarrennefs oi the Day, ihat I had done fo little for God. I had foiiie Enlargement In Prayer at Night. Oh, a Barn,or Stable, Hedge, or any other Pkce, is iiiily deCiabIs, if God 18 there I Eonietimes, oflare, my Hoiics of Zicn's Ftof-j-crily are more raifed,(han they were in ihe Summer iiaft. Mr SoLil fccms to CDlilide in God, th.it hi- will }>:ljhtm firlh tii Salvaltsu to hisPeople.aDil make Zim tliey»y tf tin ivIkIi Earth.

0 htis: ixcillml U tbi Lsvini-kinimfs oflhcLtrd ! Myliuul fomo-times inwardly exults al the lively Thoughts of what Clod has already done for his Chu rcb, and what rains Eyei hnvi fun nf lii Si.hatim nf Gai. 'Tis fwell, to hear nothing buT rpiriiual DifcouiCe from God's Children 5 arid 6inti.crs «J"ir% ibi Waf ts Zien, kf^n-4,,lfhaifii:ilt ws ds, lee. O that I may fee more of this bleffed Work,

Tliurfday, J3«r/m{. !. Both Morning and Evening, I enjoyed fome Inienfcnels of Soul in Prayer, and longed for the Kr!tai|cment of L;hrift'sKin(;doni in ibi-Wotld. MySoul fccmj, oi laie, to mj/i «» God for ills BlclEng on Zim, O that Religion might powerfully revive.

Friday, Dfunib. 1. Enjoy'd notfo roueh Health of Body, or Fervour of Mind, as Ycfterday. If the Chariot-VVhcell move wiliiEjfe and Speed at any Time, for a fliort Space ; yet hy and by they drive Jicavily again. O ihst I had tbi li-'ingi of a Divs^tbat

1 mightfi away from Sin & Corruptioti.and \ssiilRt^ h Go]>.

Saturday, Dectmh. 3. R-ode Home, to my Houfe anriPeople. Suffered much with the extreme Cold.— t truft,! ftiall, 'ere long, arrive fafe to niy journey's End, where iny Toils flialS

Lo'rd's-Day, Dicimh. 4.. Had but lilllc Senfc of divine and heaveoty Thiiigs. My Sou! mourns over my Banenncfs. Oh how fad is rpiritual Deidnefs I

Monday, Dicmi. 5. R-ode to SiiMrid^i. V. as aimoft out done with the exlream Cold. Had fome relvcdiinp Mtdilatirais hy the Way ; hut was barren, wandriii|!, ami l.ilclefs, much of the Day. Thus my Days toll away, will) but htlledone for God; and this is ray Burden.

TuLfJny, Dicimb. 6. Was perplexed to fee the Vanity anS

Levity of profelTed Chrifliaos. Spent the Eveni;f with a Chrif-

tiiflpiiend, that was able its finie MeafuieS^fyrapathiac with

N a rae

<5o M'..i6.

Sfe LIFE

Wllh whmn I c<,uh! ccnvcrfe of ,-,,„^rJ f„„i &" '° """^ ™ »■,! r"'"?'''.^"""*' 7- Spentihc Evening in Pcrp!c;iiJ

d.f y«,t An.-4 ,o,-,s. b«n/d n, be ,t an amazing Diliaiice fra Go J : anJ lo.t„;g raunj i„ „,e World, ro fee if .terem, n,fl

UDjects in ilic World, fcsm'd each tg invite my Heart aurl A(J f=aon= i a.d my Soul liem'd ,o be mr^Q^ "ZJZ^3

Ai,p..r.,.„„n-fai„,,,„j i^ .^ A.w„ ij, ,;,i; 'I

j,j^.^^^s;i!n:f]'^-Sr:EStf^^

a v,„|-., „, r„- H •* , ' ""^' iprafcs of hrs being naiced urilill p>ftaw.,. a„d f„ i;:„e.;„t. ffr c ."d «r'""S 'ii"-'TJ"'l

v<-raj,ces of God's C, Ij' " [ ";\'''= ^S^Ci^' and De)i. ]

5/Mr. David BraiBerd. A.D.174J. 91

Holiiicfs ; and alfo of the Unchaogcablenefs of God, that he is Ihe fame as he was wlien lie delivered Ilis Saints of old out of preat Tribulation. My Soul was fuiidrj' Times in Prayer enlarged tor God's Church andl'euplc. O that 'Lisa might become die Jifefibf fHoU Emlh, Tis better to wait upon God with falience, tlian to fiut Coufiience in any Thing in this lower World, My Saul, viait 7hm m Ik Lsrd ; fsr frm him emit ihy Sahsthu. , n r i

r Friday, Dimrii. 33- Felt a little more Courage and Rtfolu-I (ion in Religion, than at forae other Timw.

Saturday, Diciixh. 24. Had tome Ailift,iiii:c, and longing Defires after Sanaificatlon, in Prayer tbitDay ; cljjccially in the Evening : Was i'eiifible of my own Woaltnefs and fpiritual Im-pDtency : Saw plainly,! flioulJ fall into Sin, if God of his abundant Mercy did not aphslJ my Ss.v/, and wilbM mi fram Evil. O that God would tipUd ml k hh fni Spirit, and fav! mt from the Hour of Ttinplaiim,

Lord'5-Day, Dicsmi. i;, I'ny'il iiinch,rn tbEMorning,with a feeling Seilfe i>f my own fpiritual Weaknefs and InfufKcicncy for any Duty. God gave me fonae AfElfancc in Preaching to the Indium ; and efpccially in the Afternoon, when i wai enabled to fpealc vritli uncomlHon Plainnds, Freedom, and iiar-Heftnefi. BleJTcd be God for any AfEHancc granted to one fa unworthy. Afterwards felt fome Than kfitlnefs i bat ftill fcn-fible of Banenncfs.— Spent fome Time in the Evening, with oni or twoPetfons under fpiritual Concern,and exhorting olheira to their Duty, Esf*. .

Monday, Dmiini. 26. Rode down to StoLhr:cl;i. Was very much fatigued with my Journey, wherein I underwent great Hardthip: Was much estpofed and very wet by falhng into a River. Spent: the Day and Evening without much Scnfe of divine and heavenly Tilings ; But felt guilty, griev'd, and per-plea'd with wandring careiefa Thoughts,

TucfdsJ,-D««ra*. 27. Had a fmall Degree of Warmth in fecret Prayer, in the Evening : but, alas, had but little fpiritual Life, and cc-nfequelltly but littleComfoit ! Oh, thcPrcfTuic of a Bxly St Dialh ! *

Wcdnefday, Dicimh- i8. Rude ikout fist Mile.i ta the Ordination of Mr. Bipiini. In the iicaJoii of tire Sskmnity was

" This Day he wrote ih^idLtltir addsdat the End of this ' . fomewhat

of Iht Work of g MM„ne, of Chrift. Aftervvards w., gtievrf to fe. ,ho Van,,,, of <ho Mulmudc. I. ,he livening, fp3 lit k Tirae w,,b fome Cl„ift™ Friend., with f™,. De™ I

£nd but fcwdifpoftd to Cot,verfc„fdi,i,i. a„d h.t>ven)yTh?nEr

iJicft d God foi- Rci,remeii(, and thudlicn't always exDofe? to iheConiiiMy and Convcrfation of th= World. O that I cciul}

I'riday, a,™*. 30. Was in j ftlenin d^out Frarvie in Ihs Everring. Wnnder'd ihn Earth, with ^11 its Cfrarn.s. flwul ever ali.r= mcirKhe 1.3ft Degree, O tl.ati could alw.v / i7 the Being aod Hahack u( Uod ' -

mT-^Th ^^a'™*' ^^ ^°?"/"'" ^'*^*''*' ^-^^ <" =r;

% ° V w f-," '"'" '''="'■ ""^ Calni.biit as Cold as „ct-1 fdtj .t m the World, or near, 1 „a. in prea. Dangsr o( peri W

^^'^;;|if;^Sa:-e ^i^-^'- t^^ct!"^

titiworthy, ,ha. I could not look my People in ,he Face, when 1 carn^to Preach. Oh, my Mea„nc6, toily. IsnoracW " ' jr.wardPojo.or, ...Jn tho E.e„,ng, had a l,„Ie Affiif.nco in Fraver.fo that theDoty «-as delightrome,raiher then burden&m. Refleflcdon the Gaodoefeof God , a me in the pall Year, Uc. Ufa i rutb God has been kind snd gracious to me, tho' he has cattfed rjie to paft thro' rnany Sorro*. ; ire has provided for „« bountifully fo that J have heen enabled, in about ,5 Mon^s pad, to beflow to cliariiableUfes about an HmJr,JpJ!,^J,fj^. iof/oBd Money, thai lean now remember. » Ble/iid he thi

* Whicl! was, [ funpofc, to ,hc value of about an, Huvdni end tnhlyfivi Ftunds in our Bills of the old Tenour aj they now pali.--- \\y this, as well as many olber Things It ismanifell, that his frequent Mclancho'y did not arlfe from the (Jon/iderailon of any DifadvantaTg he was laid under to get a Livir-g in the Weild.by hi, fxpulfion ffoffi Ihe Woliege.

Loid

if Mr. DavM BrailiercJ. A. D. 1 744. 93

Lord, Ihathss fo far ufed me as Ar'j Etncsrd, to diftribute 3 Par-tim tfhis GmA. May 1 always remember, that all I have comes from God. BIcil'ed bs the Lord, that has carried me thro' a!! iho Toils, I^atigues, and Hardftiipsof the Yesr paft, as wt:ll as the fpiritual Sorrows and Conflifls that have attended it. Olhit I could begin 'h'^ Year with Ged, and fpend the whole of it to jSvr Gkry^ cithsf in Life or Ueath,

Monday, Jan, 1. Had fome afFcflijlg Sctlfeof myown [ill-potency and fpiritual Weaknefs.— 'Ti> nothing but (he Power of God that keeps me from all Manner of Wickcdnefs, I fee, 1 am nslbki, and can do nothini; without Help ffom above. Oh, for divine Grace 1 In the Evening, had fame Ardour of Soul in Prayer, and longing Defltes to have God for my Guide snJ Safe-guatd at all Times. |

Tuefdap, Jan. 3. Was employed much of ibeDay inWrit-ing; and fpent fome Time in other ncceilary Employmen!. But my Time paB'es away fo fiviflly, that I am aftoniflied when| Irefleflonit, and fee how little I do in it- My State of Solitude j does not make the Hours hang heavy upon my Hands. O what Reafon ofThankfulneftbave I, on account of thia Retirement I I find, lbatl<?OM'i, and it feenis I mb'(, lead a Ciriy/iau Life, when I am abroad, and can't fpend Time in Devotion, Chrif-, tian Convetfotion, and SciiousMeditatiou,as 1 Should do. Timfe Weeks that I am obliged now to be from horiie, in order to learn thc/WionTongue, are ttioHly r|icnl inPerplexity & Barren. ' ncfs,without much fweeiRelifli uf divineThings ; and [ feel my felf a Slrangsr at theThrone of'Grace.for want of more frequent and continued Retirement. Whetj I return Home, and givs my felfto Meditation, Prayer, and Fafting, a new Scene opens to my Mind, and my Soul longs tor Mortification, Seif-iic:iial, Humility, and Divorcement from all the Things of the Woiid.' This Evening, my Heart was fomewlial warm and fervent in^ Prayer and Mcditai;on,ro that! was loth to indulge Sleep. Continued in thoYe Dulles 'till about Midnight.

Wednefday, 7a^. 4. Was in a rehgned and mortificdTemper of Mind, much of ibe Day. Time appeared a Mtmml, Life a Viiftrir, and all its Enjoymcots as empty Bubbles, and fleeting BliifsofWind.

■f This Diy he wrote the yi Letttr, publiflied at the End oi' this Accvunlof his Liic. y 1C1

ThuffJav,

rire LIFE

Thurrday, Jai, 5. Hml a humbling and prcfling Senfe of myj Unworlhh.cra. My Scnfe of the Eadncfs of my own Heart fill'Cl my Ssiil Willi Bitterncfs and AnguJ/Ii; which was ready (0 fink«* M u.iJct the We/ght of a heavy Burden. And thus fpent th^ tvcnrng, 'tdl laic—V/asfomcwharintcnfeandardtnt iaPrayCTiJ fridaj- J-js. 6. f edingand confidefingmyextteamWeato-f nel:, and Want of Grace, the Pollution of my Soil, andDangffif of J cniptatioES Oil every fide, ] fet apart this Day for FaftiaB.1 audi rayer.neither eating nor drinking fromEvcnini; toEveninE*^ hefMdung God (ohpTeMcrcyoiimc. And my SodinltafeSiS long (I, that the dreadful Spot! and Stains of Sin mioiit be waih'd away (torn it. Saw fomething of the Power and Alfufliciency of God. My Boul fccm'd to reil on his Povrec andGrace; loji^ei . for Rrfignaiioii to his Will.and Morcilication to all Things bm below. My IVIind was greatly fa'd on divine Things ^ My Kcfolutions for a Life of Mortification, continual Watchful-neft, Sdf-dcraa), Eeriouiitcrs, and Devotion toGed.were «rong I and hxd; my Deiircs ardent and lotenfe ; my Confci^nce J tender.aou af,aid of every Appearance nf Evil. My Soul grieved l" w.lh Ihc Relleclion on pait Levity, aiidWant of Rcfolution fod God. i folemnly renewed my Dedication of my felf (0 God|l andlonrcd for Grace to enable me always to keep Covenatir-M with hiin. Time appeared very (hort, jEtetnlly near ; and a ? great Name, cihor in or after Life, loeclhcr with all eK&ly '. Pleafurcj and__Profils, but an empty Bubble, a deluding Dream, L bataroay, fan. 7. Epeot this Day in Ecrioufncfa, wild fied-'l fslt R=P:i!ut,ons for God and 3 Life of Mortification. Studied doftly, '1,1!! felt my bodily Sliennth fail. Pelt fome Degree of KdiBnaijuii to God, with an Acqoirfcencc in hisDifpenfalicns. Wa.> gi,e»cd, that ! could do fo hriie for God hefcrc my bodily birengih faiJ-J.- . in the Evenins;, ilW tired; vet was enabled to contmue inltant in Prayer for (bme Time. Spent the Time in Keadtog Mcditaiion. and Prsvcr, 'till rhe Ivcning was far 4 Ipent : \. n!»ricvcd,lo think that Icould not lua/fiMtcfrowr. I the wlinle Ni^hr.,., But bldfed he God, Heaven is a Place of 1 conliiiuiil and incclTant Devotion, tho" Earth isdull,

[Thcfiic Days following, ho continued in Ifie fame hapov Itsnie of .Mind ; enjoyed the fame Corapol^jre.CsImnefi, lie-hSnarion, uTirn! Defire and fwect Fervency of Spirit in a hioh Degree, everv iJjy, not oncejccepied. Thcrfday, this WefiL tie Itcpi as a Day or fccte! Failing snrj Praj'et,]

e/Afr. David Bfainerd. A.D. 17^4., gj

Salurday, yan. 14. This Morning, enjoyed a mofi folcmn Bcafon in Prayer ; My Soul feem'd enlarged and aiTified to pmrr out it felf to God for Grace, anil for every Bleffing I wanted, foi ray felf, my deaj Chrlftian Friends, and for the Church of God ; and was fo enabled to /« *ini tvhl it iitvSflhle, that my Soul rt/iii apm him for the Performance of eveiy Thing 1 afted agtcable to his Will, It was (hen my Happinefs, to cmhu i<!jlat!t in Prayer, and was eitabled to continue in it for near an Hour. My Soul was theny?"»i; in tii Ltrd and in tbi Pcwir af bitMighl : Long'd exceedingly for anRtlitkHulillefcaiui Purity, and to have all my Thoughts, at all Times, employed in Jivino and heavcoly Things. O how hleffed is an heavenly Temper I O how unfpeakablj blclied it is, to feel a Mcifure of that Rcai-tode, in which we were at firft created !— Felt the fame divine Affiftance in Prayer fundiy Times in the Day. My Soul con-hded in God for m felf, and for his Zion i truRed in divine Power and Grace, thai: he would do glorious Things in his Church, on Earth, for his own Glory.

f The next Day he fpeaks of fome Glimpfca he had of the divine Glories, and of his being enabled to niajntain his RefululioilJ in fome iVIeafure ; but complains, that he Ctiuld not draw near toGod ; Seems to be fill'd with trembling Fears IcH lie thou Id return to a Life of Vanity, to pleafe himfelf wiihfcmcof the Enjoyments of this lower World ; and fpeaks of his being much troubled, and feeling guilty, that he (hould addrefa immortal Souls with no more Ardency and Defite of theit Salvation,— On Monday, hemiiiovato Stmlihridfi, wasdilfrefsM with the cxtteamiiDid ; But notwithftandiog, his Mind was in a dc«out and folemn Frame in his Journey. The four next Days, he was very ill, probably by bis fuifering from the Gold in his Journey ; yet he fays lie fpent the Time in a more folemn Munner than he fear'd. On Friday- Evening, he rode down and vifiied Mr. Htplimi andon Saturday, todc iS Miles mSi!tfiur),vibeie hd kept Sabbath, and enjoyed confiderable Degrcea of God's gracious Piefencc,AffittancB in Duty, and divine Comfort and Rc/reCmient, longing to give himfelf wholly to GoJ, to be his forever.]

Monday, Jan. 23. I think I never felt more tefigncd fo God, nor fo much dead to the World, in every Rilpefl.as now: Was dead to all Defire of Reputalian and Gicalnefs, either in Life or afterDeath ; All I longed for, was to be holy, hainbk, ciucihed to the World &c, _ „

O Tuefday,

gS JEl. zS.

«« LIF E

Tucfday, Jan. 24. Near Noon, rode om fD^aaffj, In tB Evening, was unexpeaedly vifitcd by a conrnlerabie Number « People, Willi whom I was enabled !a coiiverft profirably uf dl vinsTh.nes: Took Pains to defcribc the Difference belwctnl rejular and tusgahzSilf-hvi: The one confifling wiih aSupreaft 1,0™,a Sod, butthe oibernot; The former uniting Gd'ij Glory^jiid rheSonl s Happinefj, Ibat they become one commciJ intereft but the latter diijoyning and feparaling god's Slot? and the Man's Happincfs, feeking the latter with a Neol^a ^ the former. Illuttrated this by that genuine Love that is founl between (bcbexes; which is diverfe ffoiti thSt which is wrouasf lip towards a Perfon only by rational Arguments, or Hope <& ^elf.Intereft. ^ Love is a pkafingl'affion.it afiordsPJca&re to tM Mind where it is ; but yet true genuine Love is not nor can b3 planed upon any Objefl with that Delign of pkafing itfelf with i the fccliiig of It III aMan'soWii Brealf, ]'

[On Wednefday, he rode ta Si,ffi,iJ ; ,!,e next Day, to J'iKiir/a.-i ;Antl on Saturday, hmnc to A-<;^„™m«^, tbo'iheiS ieafoi. WBs Cold and Stormy : Which Joarney was followed with Illneft and Pa,n, It appeara by bia Diary, that he fpenil the liine.while riding, i„ profitable Meditations, aitd in liftinM up h,5 Heart to (Jod ; and he fpeaka of Affiflance, Comfort^? and l^frcfhrnent ; but ftill complains ofBarrennefs, tls^c. HiiJ iPiary.for the fii-encxt Days is full of the moft heavy bitterCom-l plaints I and he ciprefTes himfelfa! full of Shame and Self-loatlj,^ ing for bt: l.felefs Temper of Mind andSlirraininers of Spirit, and* us being in Perplexity and Extremity, and apaesri,,,; to himfelf!' unipeak.biv vile and guilty before God on Account of fomc inward workings o/Corrupiioii be found in hia Heart, M]

Thurftfay F,l. a. Spent this Day in Fafting and Praye, ' fekiiig the Prerence and Affiftaiice of God, that be would em.'4 blemeto overcome all aiy Corruptions and fpiritual Enemies I

I'riday, Fti. 3. Enjoy'd more Freedom and Corafort thani ctlate ; was m icnffly engaged in Meditation upon the different' V\ hilJKrs of the varieusPowers andAfleaions of a pious Mind ■ «ercifcd witii a greatvariety ofDirpcnfatiocs: And could not but j write 35 well at meditate on fo entertaining aSubjea. • I hope '

i find what be wrote no this Head amoDg his Papers, that wtre eft it, mj Hand, and it is here publillicd « ihcEndof li.i:' Accobni (if bis I,!fc. -w ,sr.

tha

*/Mr, Duvid Erainerci. A.D, 1744-. 97

(he Lord caveinefomc true Scnfe of divine Things this Day : But alas, how great and preffing are the Remains of iiidweMug Corruption ! lam now more fenfible than ever, that God alone

every Part of Sanfllfication, and every g™d Wo dWork,or T o'ighr, tot is found in i.e, i^>h« Jft.a -'J- ■'»■""" Grace ; bat wkk.l him 1 can h Njthn, m the f'ria.l. S^nfe; and that forwWs inn: ,> winmiu h.f hu ^m« s,<.i PUafun, and from no other Motive. Oh, how .ir,.7iiig it is that Peojlecan talk fo mnchabout Mcn',I'.™-cr an G™ ,u , when, if God did not hold us back every Moment, e hould be Dvils incarnate! This my bitter Kxperience J^ir ftvera! Days laft pal}, has abundantly .aught ,r,e """'""IS "J j^f'

Saturday, F,h. ^. Enjcy'd fonne Degree oiF.eocm and fpirituaiae'^^ftmen.; was enabled to pray w.ih f^-'^," -f. andlontinR Defires of Zw's FrorpE^ity i »"'' ""y ia'Jl and Hope fe'enfs to ia^ h,ld ,fG,i, lor the P"f--f-f--; wa cabled replead for. KanOificatlon inray '"^'f^ f "''J"" gathoring of God's Elea, was all my Mirc ; and the Hope of its Accomplifhment, all my Joy. «/i-.r...i.,, r,#

J,ords-Day, FA. ;. Wa, enabled in fome Meafue tn red and confide in God, and to ptl«his Prefence --^^^» of the Lieht of his Countenance, above my liec "ly 1 oou. Tho dhtmy fef, after the Seafcn of Weaknefs. leniplatuin, Jimugnt nay leii, ^nc fomcivhal like

and Defertion I endured the lalt wceit, to , .^

Sa„fm when hisLocksbegjntoglowag.in. Wa.enaWcd to preach to my People with more Life and WatHTth, than i h.ie

^toda^'^A^e'-This Moining;,nySoul again was fi.eng.h-nd nGod,a„d found fome fw.et Eepofe in h,p in Pr y r Ion "ii^clpcciallyfor the complea. Mortification of Senfuahiy nd Pnde,'a,id L Refignatio. ,0 God^s m^f^-^ "'»' Times, as thro' Grace I felt it at this Time. I d J not dehri: i live anee from any DKEcully. that attends rny ^-^^ ce , unlefs God was iiHing. O how cornforuble is ^s 1 =m-„er I- Spent mod of the Day in reading God a Word m twi-.inE,'aod Prayer. Enjoyed '=P";=''- /'fl'";',' ,,' ^.n! and Intenfencfs of Soul in Prajer thro' the Day. In ihe tven tng,tent feme Hours in private Conveifalion wuhmy Peupie .

And aftawards, folt feme Warmth in fectet 3;^

Tuefdav Fd 7. Wasmuch cngaped in fome Iwec! MM tatbn oi7'th; FoLrs and Aif.aions of ihe godly ou in t .ir Purfuit of their belovcdObjefii^Wrote fcii-.c!bit.S of ihe^n^^Jiv^^

'^I. 26.

y^s LI F E

Ladguagc of fpirltiial Senfation, in ifs hit and tender VVHipers jl jJtcIsriDg, ibat it now fith and lafli, thai Ihi Lird h grucious j that he is the Supreme C ;i!od, tlit: otilySoul-fatisfj-ing Happinefs j that he is a Compleat, Sufficient,jiiri Almighly Portion : fayinff " ff-bim havi } in Hanini hi Ibi, ? Mil r/jiri h mm j,pi <' Earth list I i,fi,,J;f!ji! this blelTcd Portion, O, 1 feel 'tisj •' Hravcn to pleaft: hira, atld to be juft wbai ire would have r •' !o be .' O tliat my Soul were Half, at lieiiHsly ! Othat it* " were par/ nii<i st CJirift i, pw, ; and^jr/^a, m my Fatbir in ■' H,M^ i, p!,f,a I Tlirft, I feel, are the fweetcft Commsrids " .n(,i.ri's Knofc, comprjfrng al) others. And iliall ] break. " them! Mufl ibreak'i.m I Am I under a Neceflity of it as f ii D-ail live ifl the World ! (J rojSouI, Wo, Wo is me that " ifP-^ Sinnet.becaufc J now necr/Tiril)-grieve and offend this " bitflcd Gr.d, who [S infinite iti Goodncfs and Grace I Ohj •' methinJis, il be woiiid piiniflimc for my Sias, it would not ■■ wound myHeart h deep to ofFend him: But tho' J fin cons' tinually,).ct he continually repeatshisKindoefs tome I Oh, " Melhliiks I coiild bear any fufFering ; but bow can 1 bear to •' gr.CTC and difliunour this bleffed tjod ] How flial! I yield " lw> Hiouf^nd Times niaroHinour to him r What fliall I ■' no to git.rily &wM(hip thisbeftofSdllgi? G that I could •' coiffciatc my leif. Soul and Body, tohi.Seiviceforevcr O " thatl could giveuptny felf to him fb as never more loatteniiit " to be my own, or to have any Will or Afftaions that aic nutpetfeaiycnnloimcd to him. Eut.alaE.alas,] find I can't " be tliujentiielt. derated loCod: I on't live aiid not f,n. ' Lf ye Angili, do ye glorify bim incefTantly ;

and i( poiTibli;,

■ pnftral c you rfdves lowe r before tbe biefled K ins of Heaven '- I long to bear a Part with'you ; and, if it wete puffible, t,

help you. Oh, when wc hare done all that we can, 10 all Kternity, we Bidl not be able to ofTe, the ten Tboufa,idih fart of the fJomaje ibat rije glutlouii God dcferves '" fElifomeibliig fpiiitual, devout, reiiened, a iid mortified to

the Wotid, ,:,uei, of the IJay ; a„d efpecially towMdii aud iu he tvcinns. BkH.d be God, that U enables nie to love hnii

jor himkJf.

WedncElav, FA S. Was in a comfortable Frame of So.i,

jnolt of ihfDay i tbu- fcrfible o( and icfljeft under fpiriw^l U-^,.

rei.rKf!, I find ibst both Mind andBody are quickly tired iviih

intL,;l,ncfsand K^rvour in iheThings of God. Othat I could

fc.i ijiceiiant as *;j.'j IB Dcvetion and fpiritual ftivour.

Thujfdav^,

0/Mr. Ditvii3 Brainerd, A.D, 1744, 99

Thurfifny, FiS. 9. Obferved this Day as aDay of Filling and iVayer, intreattng of God to beftow upon me bis BlelEng and Grace ; cfpecially to enable tne to live a Life of iVIortification |q the-World,as well as of Reiignation and Patience. Enjoy'd fome realising Senfe of diyine Power and Goodnefs in Prayer^ fcverai Times ; and was enabled to roll the Burden of my felf and Friends,and of Zisn, upon theGoodnefs andG^ace of God : Hut, in the general,v!?as more dry and barireti than I have ufuallj? been of late upon fuch Occafions.

Friday, Fib. 10. Was exccedlniily Dpprefi'd, uioft of tha Day,wilhShame,Grief and Fear,under a Senfe ol in/ pallFolly, as well as prefent Barrennefs and Coldncfs. When God fets bi!-forc me my pall Mifcondua, cfpecially any Inftanees of mijiuid-ed 7usai, it finks my Soul into Shame and Confufinn, inakcs tB5 afraid of a fhaking Leaf. My Fear is fuch as the Frophetjjrj-m^ complains of, Jer. kx. jo.— 1 have no Confidence to hold up my Face, even before my Fellow-Worms j but only when my Soul confides tn God,and I find the fweetTemper of Chrift, the Spirit of Humilit)', Solemnity, and Mortification, and Reiignation, alive in mv Soul.— But, in the Evening, was unexpectedly refrelh'd in paitrin^ out my Compiaini Is Gaii : MyShame and Fear was turned into a fweet Compofure and Acquiefcenco in God,

Saturday, Fii. i it. Felt tnucb as Yefletday : enjoyed but little fenfible Communion with God,

Lords-Day, Fib. 11, My Soul feem'd to confide in God,and toiepoie itfelf on him ; and had ont-goiflga of Soul after God in Prayer. Enjoyed (ome divine AffiBance, in the Forenoon, itl Preaching ; but in the Afternoon, was more perplex'd with Shame Wr. Afterwards,found fomeRclicf inPrayer : Lov'd, as a feeble afaifled dcfpircdCrcalnre,to cafl rayfelfonaGod of infinite Grace andGoodncfs,hoping for noHappinefs but from him» Monday, Fii. 13- Was Calm andSedate in Morning-Devotions ; and my Soul feem'd to rely on God.— Rode to Jrac^-triiiit, and enjoy'd fome comfortable Meditations by theWay : Had a more refrefhing Tafleapd Rclilll of heavenly lilclTedncfs, than! have enjoy'd formany Months paft. 1 have irtanyTimes^ of late, felt as ardent Defires of Holinofs aa ever : But not fo much Senfe of the Sweetncfs and unrpeakiblo Pleafure of theEn-joyments and Employments of Heaven, My Soul longeJ to leave Earth, and bear a Part ivith Angels in their caleHiai Ein-ployments. My Saul faid, Lorflj it it goad to hi here ; and it agpeared to me bstter to die, than to lofe tbs Relilh of ih«fc heavfnly Delights. [^

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:. X A Eenfe of dirineThings fecm'd to continue wiih hini,iiiJ| Icfl'erDegree,thro'the ncxtDay. OoWcdnefday he Wiis,bj fo^ Dircoutfe that he heard,caft into a mt:lancholyGlo(im,thatop4 ratrimucli in the fameManncr ashisMelancboIj' bad formtjfll dnnc, whsn he cam; firft toKaunanmii ; TbeEffefls of whiS ftciii'd to continue jn fojne Degree ihc fix following Days.] 1

Wcdncfday, Fd. 22, In the Morning, had as clear a Sclil oftheexcceditig Pollution of my Nalurc,as cverl remember S have had in my Life. I then appcar'd to my fdf inexpreffibl Inatlifoiii, &(JcfiI«I: Sins of Childhood, of early Youth,and fu^H FoJlicsislhadnot thought of for Years together, (as I remenil her) came nowfrefh to my View, as if comniitlcd but Yeftc« day, and appeared in the moit odious Colours : They appeared more in Number than the Hair; of my Head : Yea, they wi3 evtr my Htadas en bmiiy BurJtn.— In the Evening, the Hani ef JaJth fccin'd to boftrengthen'd in God : My Soul feeinei [0 rcftand acijuiefcc in him : VVasfupportedundet myljurdenij !-cadji:g the cxiv. Pfilin : Found that it was fweet and comforl table to lean otrGod. 'f

Tbutfday,/ii. J^, Wss freciucnt in Prayer, and enjoyel fome Affiftance.- Thirs is „ Gad m Hiavin, that over-rules al| ;;Things)or the beft ; and this is theConifort of my Soul ■ I hU fmntedy iinlifi -I had believed a fit thi Gndiajs sf God in IheLandi cf lie Lihinr, notwithflaniling prefent Sorrows,— In liie Even-J Jng, enjoyed lame Freedom in Prayer, for my fclf. Friends, amjl the Church oKJod. /

Fiiday, fei. 34. Was exceeding rcftlcfs and perplex'd urrdefl^ aSciifcof ihcMifimprovcraenlofTinie; Mourn'd tofeeTimo^ ;^rs aivay ; Felt in the gjeateft Hurry ; fccra'd to have every ] Thing to ,!o : Yet ci-uId do Nothing,but only grieve anci groan i under my Ig[ioranee,Unprofiljblencr3, Meannefs, the Fooblh-j ncfs of my Aflionsaod Thoughts, the Pride snd Bltternefs of j m)> part Frai-ncs (at f.ime Times.at Icaflj all which at thisTimel appcat'd to inein lively Colours, and fil['d me with Shame I^L could not conipafe my Mind toany profitable Studies, iiy Rca-'I fonoftliis PrefTuie. And (he Ecafon, I judge, why I am not 9 allowed to Study, a great Fart of my Time, is, becaufelam • endeavouring to lay in fucli aStock ofKnowlcdge, as lliall be a Ecif.Sgfficienc)-.--rknowitto Ijc my indifpcnfable Duty to j-tudy, aaid qualify iny felf ,n thcbeft Manner I can for publick ^■crvice; But this is my Mifcry, I naturally Study and prepare, I'iat 1 rtiiy cm/mi it „psi: my Lujh ol Pride andSelf-CoiifiJence.

[He

»/jUf. David Braiaercl.' A.D.ij''44: xoi

' Me cotltlnued in tnuch the fame Frame ofUneafinefs at the MiliinprDvenienl of Time, and Preffure of Spirit under a Senfe tif Vilcnefs, Unprofitablcnefsiiff, for the fix next following Daya J exempting foine Intervals of Calmnefs and CompofurCj In Rflfigtiation tfjand Coniidence in God.] [ Friday, A/dfri^ 2. Was moftoftheDayemployed inWrit-1 Inn on a divine Subjea. Was frequent in Prayer, and enjoy'J ( fmnc fmall Degree of Affiftance. But in the Evening, God was flcafed to giant me a divine Swectncfs in Prayer i efpceially in Ihe Duty of intcrcclTion. I thinit, I never felt fo much Kind-ntfs and Love to ihofe who 1 have Rcafnn to think arc my Enemies (tlio' at that Time I found fueh a Difpofition to thinic the beft of all', that I fcarce knew how (0 think that any fuck Thing as Enmity and Hatred lodg'd in any Soul ; it feem'd as If all the World mud needs be Friends) and never pray'd with more Freedom and Delight, for ray felf, or deareft Friend, than I did now for my Enemies.

Saturday, yWarcA 3. In the Morning, fpent (I believe ) an Hour in Prayer, with great Intenfenels and Freedom, and witlt ihc moft foft and tender Affcflion towards Mankind. I longed that thafe who I have Rcafon to think owe me 111-Will, might be eternally happy: St feem'd refrcfliing,to think of meeting ihem i(lHcavcn,how much foever they had injured nie ooEarth .■ HaJ lioDirpoIition to infift upon anyConfcfllon hcxii them,in order to kccoBciliation fctheEKcrcife ofLove&Cindnefi to them. O'tis anEmblEm of Heaven it felf, to love all the World with a I.ovc of Kindnefs, Forgivenefs, and Benevolence ; Tofcelour Soyls fcdate, mild and meek i to bo void of all evil Surmirings and Nufpicions, and fcarce able 10 think Evil of any Man upon any Oocafion ; To find ourHearts fimple, open, and free, to thofe that look upon us with a difFercot Eye K— Prayer was fo fweet an Exercife to me, that 1 knew not how tt) ceafe, left I flioultl lofc the Spirit of Prayer. Felt no Difpofition to cat or drinks for the fake of the Pleafure of it', but only to fupport my Nature, and Kt ma for divine Service. Could not be content without a very particular inention of a great Number of dear . Friends at the Throne of t-lrace ; as alfo the patlictilarCirci^rr!" [lances of many, fo far as they wete known.

Lords-Day, N^v, 4. l^ the Morning, enjoyed thefarCEeln-lenfenefs in Prayer asYeflorday-Morning j Iho' not in fo great :i Degree : Felt the fjnie Spirit of Love,univetfai Uenevo^ence lorgi^enefs,Humility,Rtfit^nation, Morrificalicn to ibeWorld i.;d Cottinofure of Mind,ws then. My S'jui rtfiiU in Gofl i sad

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"The LIFE

I fgund, [ wanted no o(bsrS=fuge or Frknd. Whife mv St., MU8 tmfl. .n God. .11 Thing. 4m ,o be .t Pelce w2 m^ tvm ihe Stones of the Earth : But when I c^a-l7„„ZhZ.A ^ confi.. in God, all Thio,. .pp,,, ^^a dIff:™;T(;tS.'' ''

[ Through the faur next Days, he complains of BarrennffJ wan. of holy Ccfidence ir, tod. Stupidity, wf^Zj' Mind ttf,^ a„dfpaak= of Opprcfflco of Min/^nrja sS ol exce=d„,gM«amrcfe. pad KoDies, a= well as prefer WorS of

rS'^^d";"r:.f'"^ f™= -=i!™tl,>an,e thathc c.joy.di

Saturday, Marih ,o. In the Morning, fdt Exceedina de,J «o lh= Wo„d aod all its Enjoyments r I holtfl w a «a i .o w,lhng ,0 g,.. „pLifea.d ,11 .t.Comfon^f asfoon as ell i h^ ■ r"f '"r t"^^^^' ""'^i'Con, for-t of Life a= atooft e™| Ihad. L.lcrtf.lf now appeared but a„ empty fiubtr "h^l

to all I hinjs here below, by the Crsh Jrhrilt M„ c , I

J^^^^.- AndltJ^ought, thailth.i, cnjoved fuch a Heaven Itl

isrd (i -J ^,;;s^ to he ^fr^.wiien thus refref3i*d with divinel^Iftri^/ % bcul ... futl of Love .nd Te.dorncr. in .h .D. ^o? m ": '

godjy Mm,flc:s, of my Acqu^mta^c. fW'd .Slv Z I de.r ChnfJ.ans, .nd for :I,.fe J h.ve Re.f.. Jfe." e ^En !'^ n)S«.. And ™u]d no. I..v. fp.fcen . Word of Biuerreft L '

a^scnreofmyomigreat Urmorthinefs. My Soul feem'd toJ

wo.ld I=^r h,. Cinid.;.n Jove arcl receive mc «. o.c of Sfire-hrcn ..dFdlcw-an..., : A„d wh.n I thought of .heir tr. t

hf.k of ^W "'"^' V??'^'° '^-^ ^' '^^''^'"'^^^ J ^'^'^ ^'"d (hmkofnoWa^ CD exprelnhcSii^ceriiy ^^imp]icit/of m;Love !

ef Mr. David Brainerd. 'A*X%i'd^. \6i

irjrJEfteein of thedij a& being much better thanfu}' felf.— Towards Night, was very forrowful ; Sofim'd lo my feJf the worfi C/eature living ^ and could not pray, nor meditate, nor thinlc of holding up tnyl^ace before (heWot)d.—Was a littJe relieved 111 Prayer, in the Evening ; but longed to get on my Knees, and aii; Foigivcucfs of every Body that ever had feen any Thing amifs in my pafl Conduajcfpecially in my rWrgwajZw}.—Was afterwards much perplei'dj fo that 1 couM iiot Sleep quietly.

Lords-Dayj Mar^h ii. My Soul was in fome Meafure liren^then^dlnGoj>:^ivyk>m\r.^'tyc\-Q\\ox\\ fo tliritl waarelcas'd irom tiembling I'Var and Difircfa.- - Prciiclinid to my Pcuple from the Parable of the A'tfEu^r, Matth. xHi. AnJ cryoyed fomp AlTiftancej both Parts of the Day : Had fome Freedoraj Affec-liot], and Fervency in addrefTing my poor People j long'd that God fhould take hold of their Hearts,and make ihem fpiritually alive. And indeed I had fo much to fay to them, that 1 knew jiot hoMjf to leave off fpeaking, *

Motidavj Miirch la. )n the Morning, was in a devout, ten-dcr, and loving Ftatne of Mind ; and was enabled to cry t* God, I hope, with a Child-like Spirit, wilh Importunity, and Resignation, and Cumpofure of Mind. My Spirit was full of Quietnefsj and Love toMankind ; and longed thatPeace ihouU reign on thtEarth : Was grieved at the very Thoughts of a/sr)-, flWgry and mUmpiraSe %ml Jn Kdlgion j mourn'd over pafi. Follies in thatRegard ; and mySouI coniid«d inGad faiStrength and Grace fuflicient for itty fumre Work and Trials.— Spent the Day mainly in hard Labour,, making Preparation for my intended Journeyi

Tnefday, March 13. Felt my Soul going forlh after God fometimcs j but not wiifa fuch Ardency as I longed for. In the Evening, was efiabkd to continue injiani in Prayer, for fome confideraWe Time together ; and efpecialjy had refpeato the Journey 1 defigned to enter upon > with the Leave of divine Fiovidence, on ihe Morrow, Enjoyed fome Freedom and Fervency, intieating that the divine Prefence might attend me In

* This was rhe lad Sabbath ihat ever be performed publicfc Seivlce at Ka!inaui}seeh.i^t^<^ thcfc ilic l;iit tiprnians that ever he preached there. It appears by his Diary, that whilehe continued with thefe Indians^ he tnofc great Pains with them^and did it vuith much Difcreiion ; Bui the particnjflr Manner, hov/; has been omitted for JJrevity's ^^kz,

P tVfTj

«i04 ^- -aS.

^he LIFE

taery P!mt whtre my Bufinefs might tod me; and hati a psis ticular Reference to the Trials and Temptations that I apprSL ijeijded I might be more eminenlly e]i[pofed lo \n partkulitm Piais!, Was ftrcnglhen'd and cooiforted ; altho' I was hda very weary. Truly the Jay oflhi Lurd is $tragth and Lift.

Wedncfda;', AftsriA j^. Eiijtiy'd fouie Intenfeiicls of Sm. in Prayer, repeating my Petitions for God's Prefence in evcrj Race where 1 espcflcd to be in my Journey. Befought thcLori that I might not te loo much pkaftd and amufed with deal' Friends andAcquaintancc, in oncPlace and another.--- Near ij fet out on my Journey, and near Niglit came fo Stictirhigi.

Thurfday, Marth 15. Rode down to Sbiffiild. Here I ,

aMeffengei from Eeji-Hiapim en IsKg-lfiand ; who, by ihj^ unaninjoua Vote of that hrgc Town, was fent to inrite me tfiii^ ther.in order to fctlle will: that People,where I had been before^ frequently invited. Scem'd more ataLofs what was my Duty^ than before i when I heard of the greaiDifBcnltiesof tlijlPlaci ' I was much contcrned and grieved, and felt fome Deiires 1^ comply with their Requeft ; hut Icnew not what to do : Ka-i, deavoured to commit the Cafe to God.

f The two ncxtDaySjhe went no further than Ja/i/Zory, beinj much bindcr'd by the Rain. When he came there, he wa much indifpofed.-- He fpcaks of comfortable and prolirabli Convetfelion wilhChriftianFriends, on thefeOays.j

Lord's-Day, Marchii. I At Sali/hury, ] Was exceedin weak and faint, fo [bal I could fcarce walJc : JJutGod was pleai ed to afford mo much Ffeedoni, Oearnefs and Fervency i, Preaching: 1 have not had ihe like Affiflance in Preaching ti Sinners for many Months paff. —Hereanother MeflEngcrmel >ne, and informed me of [he Vote of another Congregation give me an Iriritation to come among them upon Probation Settlement. • Vfaa fomelhing exereifcd inMind with aWeigl and Burden of Care, O that God would fmi fcrlh fmtbfui Ivimirtninuhh Harviji.

\ Mt.tt this, he went forxvard on his Journey towards A'cas-Urh aniNmt-Je'frf : in whicli he proceeded ilowly ; performs mg his Journey under great Degrees of hodily ladifpoiitioni

fori

• This Congregation was ihs! at Millhilsn, near Haidnm. ', They were very earr.cfHy dcftrBUS of'hjs coming among j

Haw- '

b/M'. David Braincrd, A,I5,1744.' '■tuc,

However, he pre»ch'dft«ral Times by the Way, Icing urgeil bv Friend' ; in which he had confiderahfe Affiftance. H„ fpeaks of Comfort in Converfation with (Jlitiftiau h riends fro,!, TimetoThitc, and of varrous Things in the Exercfes and Frames ol his Heart, that (hew much 0 a d.vine Influence on his Mind in this Jonrney : But yeic omplains of (fc T<„»f i4„, h,fm'd,vh. a Decline of his fpivilual Life, or Vivacity ,„ E^igion, by Means of his conftant Renroval from Place ,0 Place, and want of Retirement; >nd compl.ms b'tl^'iy "f his Unworthinefs, Deadnefs, W<-.- e came to ^^.J^'fon Wednefday, AfW. 28. And to hh%»hith7m:n'm the balur-day following, where itfeems he wailed 'till the CommiSionitit

"Ttefdtr^?"' 5- Was sgain much exercifed withWeafc. Xnd wilhXinln my Heal. Attended on tbeComnrimo-ners in their Meeting. * Refolved to go onfti 1 wi.h the AJ«, IfFair, if divine Providence permitted ; .Uho' J had he ore fel, feme Inclination to go to Eoft-H,mpim, where I was foliciej

'° fAfta this, ta continued two or ihitw Days in Ihc >r/iy,, verv III i and then returned to W».3>i •, and fron. llinice into Jvi/- £»;flrr.f i and went to his native 1 own of HedjMi: where

hs

them.

» The hii""! at XaMflnmirf being but few mNuiJlher,and Mr. BraMsriihaving now been labouring among thenjabout a Year and having prevailed upon them to be wllhngto leave K,!umum!,i, ind remove to Sudindgi, to live coi,-ftantlyunderMr.SsfjMnt'sMiniftry ; be thought he might now do more Service for Cbriii among the hiiamAk-where ■ And therefore went this Journey to Mivi-prfy to lav the Matter before the Commitllonets ; who met a, Eniahth-Ti'm, on this Occafion, and determined thit he fhould forthwith leave Hmnaamitk, and go to the D,. hiiisn Iftdianiv . , ,

f By the Invitations Mr. nr»in<r<; hid lately received ,t appears, that it was not from Neceirity,tir for want of Opportunities to fettle in the MiniH.y ninorigft the £={7^1 notwithflanding theOifgrace he hnd been laid under atO,;. toe that he was determined to forfake all the outward Colllforts to be enjoyed in the £n^/i/?r SellleiHenls, to go aiid fpend his Life among the btuiift) Sswffl, and endiins

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Msna.iveTow,, n,H i„ ,k ^f'T" ' "''''^h was near

wii^-rc he had J"e ,h„,? ! "^='' '"""g ''''ft Savages,

»"=:= n™ frcih in hi" M-T N '"r'''Sarrow,,„hich Things, hechoft Ml '^="«"">aa„dir,g all chefe

"''-eh greater Dfft^cefro™ ^Tfri".. w.. a. . Bill

e/Afr. David Brainerd. A.D.1744, 107

' J/Gsdkfor w^mh imktigah/^ ui F I went on, confiding ijl God J and fcaritlg nothing fo much as Self-Confidence. In this Frame J \vent to the Houfe of God, and eojojed fome Affiftsnce. Afterwards fdt the Spirit of Love and Meefcnefs io Cotweriation with fome Friends, Then rode Home to my UrotlKr's : And in the Evening, fingirg'Hjmna with Friends, my Saul feem'd to melt: And m Prayer attcrwards,enjayed the Extrcife of F'jilhf:ind wM enabled to be fervent mSpirit : Found more of God's Prefence, than 1 hare tiane BI17 Time in my lalB wearifom Journc). Eternity appcar'J very near : My Nature was very weak, and feem'd ready to be dididved ; The Sun declining, and the Shadows of tbe Evening (frawing on apace. OI locgM to fill up the remaining Moments all forGod ! Tho' my Body was fa fotfcle, and wearied with Preachinp, and much private Converfation, yet I ivanled to fit up all Night to da fomething for God. To Ciod, the Giver of thefe Rcfrcfhnienls, be CJlory forever and ever; Amen.

Wedncfday, ^;rjV l8- Was very wealc, and enjoyed but little fpirimalComfort. Was cxercifed wittOne cavilling againfl Original Sin. May the Lord open his F.yca 10 fee tllo l ountaitl of Sin in hitnfilf.

[ After this, he t^ifited (everal Minifters in ConncSfUtit ; fnd then cravclied towards Ksunsnmsek^ and came to Mr. Sargeani^^ at SisMrligi, Thutfday, Jpril j6. He performed thi) Jouracy in a very v&k State of Body. The Things he fpcaks of in tha raeinTirae, appertaining to the Frames and Exeicifes of his Mind,are at fome Times Deadnefs and a being void of fpiriteal Comfort, at other Timfs reftiiig in God, fpiritual SwcEtncf! in Convcrfalion, Engagednefs in Meditation, on the Road, AfTifl-ancein Preaching, Rejojcing to thinfc that fo much more of his Work was done,and he fo much nearer to the eternal World. And he once and again fpeaks of a Senfe of great ignorance, ^irilual Pollotion £^r.]

Friday and Katurdiyj jlprii 27, and 28. Spent fome Time in vifitingFficDds, and difcourfing wish my People (who were now ntovad dawn from their own Place to Mr.Sar^jflnr's) and found them very glad to fee mc ^cturne(^ Was F^xctcis'd in my Mind with a Scnfe of my own Unworlhincft.

iKird's-Day, j^pril 29. Preacli'd for Mr.S'jrj-rau^.bothParts of the Day, from Rev. jciv. 4. Knjoycd futoe Freedom in Preiciling, iho' not much SpititUjIJty. fn the Evening, my Heirt was in fome Meafute lifted up in Thatikfufcefs to Got! for any AffiAance.

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Mm|d>y, 4>r,/ jfl Rod. toJr«„;,^™,rf,l,ut was eitreamti III DdDottnjoy the Comfort I hopeJ for in my owiHoufii

took,11 mycicth.,B.ok,, &v. ,„j d,rp„fi„f t,;™'"^j£.-

cut for D.kw^r, River : But made it my Way to r.^rn toMrl aanrnm'.- Whi.h I did ,l>is D.y, juft .tNi/hr rX fa" ^" Ho.r.,„ th, R™ thro- the hoJ,4 WidorLr., .1 y , ™,

[ He continued « S/.,«r,-4f,,th= next Day j and on Thtirf-' day rode, l.ltle Way, ,0 Ci,^,/^, u„d„ / ^rea, DcEr.rof Kiitcfs ; but Vf.th Encouragement aiidUicarfdnrfs of Miod m-tier h,s Ht.gue,. On Friday, he rode to SMfiu^, ,nd con-tnued there '.,11 t,fter the S.bbal!,. He fpeafa of hi^Soil's bZ feme P.r of th,= T,„,e ,efrefl,-d in Converfelioo wi.i> S A^her" T I' '^°"" '"'" "«™lyH™"ad theirjourn^y 111 /-u", '"f' "'■rpeat.ofhimfdfaseTceedineri

MDnd,y. be rode to Sh.n, , and fpeafe „f himfejf a. diflref.'d

^ Vj°"''''fJ"'°'' "^ *= Mifimptovement of Time.!

,™ ,1 fl' ' *,./" ""' '™™ **""" in &»„,54(, and travelled about 45 Mdes to a Place called the Fllt-KIL + Q.

^^£r r' ,,^P="'r"^'"'^''T'm=.'vliiieriding,in Prayer, .' that God would go With me to Dilawar,. My Heart femetimcs was ready to i,„Jc with the Thoughts of my WorJc, ZlZl " alone ,0 the W.derneft, Ilcnew not tvbere : But Ml -^Z eomfortabfe to tbiok Uut others of God-.Childten had ^Ar-!^ a,„t « Cbm and Dem of ih, Earib ; and Al^aham, when he was called to go forth, ^m cut n,i knowing uilnlbtr hi went. O that I mi jht follow after God.

rThene^it D,y, he went forward or. his Journey ; crofs'd Hudjm^&rvs,, and went to &/bm in the WghiJd'- and I trave led a-crofs the VVood., Uor^HudJ,.'. Ri4r to D.ill about an loolWiles, through a defolate and hideous Country sbove N,w.J,rf,f ■ ^^.here weteveryfewSeitlements ; In which Joutueyhe fuftered „,uch Fatigue and Hardllnp. He wr„ed

"^ ^■^r'ou"=h''w ',^^""-f"^«-™™™"(=nEafff„^/„'. A/vffj on ih? Weift fide of the Rivtr.

fo!T,e

i

0/Afr. David Braimrc!. A.D.iyi*.' iq^

r .. ;,Jia»! in the Way, + anddifcourfed withthem coiic*m-tcht^ftS y Was cJnflrably Melancholy andDirconfolate. OB acne in a fttange Wilderneft. On Saturday he CMe „ a Settlement of hift. and Dut:!, People.about. ^ M.lea abovs the Forks of Diiitware.'\

I.ordVDay,^.y.3. Rofe eiilj : ?=''very poorly after my

lou. Journey atrd after being «-et ant fatiglted. Was vety

M laucholy i have featcc e»er feetl fucb a glootny Morning ,1

„ , Lfe ■ Tt.«= appeared to be no SMath : to Ch.ldtetl were

1 at Pky ; 1 a Suangcr i.l the WiMetnefs,«-d knew no where

0 »0 ■ and all CircutSilances feemM to CDnfpire to re.idet my

Affair', dark a.d difcouragi.j. Wa= difappo=n.ed -^P= J^y

M«-pret,r, and heard that tiieWwnr were much fatter d,£^f.

Oh 1 nourned after the Prefence of God, and eemM bko »

etc; n" ban,ll.M from his Sight ! Yet he was P'jf ^ '"/"Pf-

Biv fuiking Soul, amidit all my Sorrows ; fo that 1 r.ever enter-

„ed an'y Thought of quitting ^ «-'""^1 "'""■^|^Ji^.":

Indiam; bnt was comforted, to ih.nk, that Death w°" ^ "=

on. fet me free from thefeDiftteffes.- Rode about 30 4 Mtl«

0 the rT* People, where I lounJ Come that appeared ,obe and

c°acern"d abom Religion. My Heart the bepnrtB be a b.tk

e°eou aged : Wen. and preach'd, fittf to .be h./b. and then to

ZlniSn: And in the Evening, was a little coraror.od ; m?

EinrfcmM to reli on God, and take Courasc. O tim the Lotd

''°rirI?//uWa?vTrrbSfv'';;f"m:treff'f; Studies. Fef°,:lut^^loofeImaV,he World All a,pearedf^.it,

']V«l.?l./ Ipi'i'- Scem'd r^mcthins loo.fetn and d fcon^ folato as if l4a5 banifhM from all Manku.Kl,and bereaved of all

t.t ca cd pleafurahle in the World I But appeated .0 my fdf flvde and unwonby, it feem'd fitter for tne .0 be herethan

'"Tu'eBrv' M., IS- Still much enpaged in my Studies; and eniTySe Health, than I have forfcmeTime p.ft : But was ome.hlnTdejeaed in Spir.t with a Senfe oi my Meartneft s fe™'d af.( i could never do any Thing at all to any Bood lut-trrb/R afou of Ignorance audj^olly, O that a Ser.feof ,h.,s Tiiing. might vvork more habitual Hum.l.tjf tn my io.l.

"^"sTwr. E»i«r^-sW.rr.t™. InaLetter .. ^^^ ^'f-^-' at the theEndofhisO,dn.at.on-bcriaou,-''''i'3'y?J-

A

r&LiFE

^_^^|*Iecon!iiiued nmch in the fime Fjame the next Daj.,] '■^^hu.ra.y Af^ ij,. wa, ,i,is I>ayg,e„ly diftreft'd with.

C»rL,- ^""'/f^'i}" '•=' '-^^ 'i^e "V inward PnlJution ,„d Cprruption, fo („ci>aD£gr„, that t dmofl defpaii'd of bein,

rtefe-f^x acceding .0 Appointment. .„d pr.ach<d to thTi^ ani.lterwsrdshad fom= Rditf; a„d Ealarg™wt af Soul i,^

pSai:n Ln';."' '^'="'''"'"'°""'' -'^ I '-s=^ *« 'h»

Rl'fj' '^i' =»„.l'>'"'e='i" r^^'hi^g or the fw«t Spirit 0' ^ Saturday, A/ar in. Was l,,mo p.„t „e ,\ t i3

iZTvZT: rv"^" ''"■""" '^^ Bur,,,:?j-b inXl

Pcopfc, W.= n,uchaSbd;u,h.r, p' ^'"^^'t'<"^''r!/i I I lif" ihe rsft of rhii Week H^ „„. f ' ■

■J ■■ i*ord St

of Mr. David Eralnerd. A.D. t 744: 111

f.nrcl's-Day> ■^(S>f 27- Vifited my hdienf, in theMarnin^, nrul uttcnded uponaJ^'userals.mot\g them: Was affedted tafca rluir btatbenip PfG^hts. O (hat ibey mighc be tarned frsm ifflikntfi fo Light. Afterwards, got a conliderahle Number III dicm together^ and preach*d to them ; and obfetved them 1,-1 Y iiitciitive. After this, preach'd to the White Paopiefrom /J,>'. ir. J. Was enalilcd to fpeak with fome Ktesdoia and r.vi/tr : Several People feem'd much concerned for theirSquls.j Hi)tci&Jly one who had basn educated a Roman CaiholicJs, i:i;:fied be the Lord for any Help.

Monday, Msy 28, Set out from the Ifididtis aliove the I urks of Dekwarg^ on a Journey towards iVizuari in A'aw-Y^iy^y, according to my Orders- Rode thro' the Wilderneft ; \v.i-i much fatigued with the Heat; iodged 4t a Place called /;/^.i-^-.firmer ; was excficdingiy tired Jiiid worn out*

[ On Tuefday, he came to Nswark : The aext Day, went to Blifabeth'Totun : On Thurfday, he wxnf toNno-Tork i and on Friday feturncd to l^lifahlh-Ta-mu. There Days were f|>cnt in fome Perplexity of Mind. He continued at Eiifaheth-!irDtt'3'tiilI''ridayiti the Week following .Waicnliveti'djTefrefh'd and flrengthen'd on the Sabbath at thcLoid'ii''rablc,The cnfuing Da^s of fche Week were fpent chiefly in Studies preparatory to hia Ordination i and on fume of them he reemed to have rnuch of God's gracicins Prcfence, and of the fweet Influences o£ his Spirit; h\it w^s in !■, very weak State of Body. On Saturday, be rode to NgtuaTi."]

Lord's-Day, Juui 10. [at J/etyffr,^ J In the Marning,was mMcb concerned huw I Ihould perform :he Work of the Daj j and ircmbkd at the Thoughts of being left to tny felf*— Enjoyed very coniiderahle Affiftance in all Perts of ihe publick Service- Had an Opportunity again ta attend on the Ordinance of the Lnrd's-Supper, and ih ro' divine G oodnefs waJ refrefh*d ifiit: My Soyl was full of Love and Tenderrefs towards the Children of God, and towards all M^a ; Felt a certain Sweet' n^fs of Difpofitioii towards every Creature. At Night, I enjoyed more Spirituality, ajid fwect Defirc qF Holincfsj than I have ftlt for fome Time : Was afraid of every Thought and every Motion,lefl: therciiy myHearcfhould be drawn away from God. O ih^ I might never Jcave tlie blefTcd God. Lord, ijt iby Prefmit ii Fuintfi &f Je^, O th,e BlcUffdn^fa of living to Godi.

(^ Monday,'

Ml.

Iht Mjr*;;.!

Mondajr, JvRi 11. Tliis Day (IiePr,yJj(,r,. mel tosElhef i Nswark, m order lo my Ordiiiathn. Was very weak igij diforder-J in Body ; ytt endeavoured to repofe my ConfidencS iaGoJ. ipMit moft of the Day alone; efpecially (he Foni noon. At three in the Afternoon preach'd my Probation-SerS mon, frorn Jlf. xxvi, 17 ,S. being , Text eivei, me for tlJ ind. Fcit not well, either jh Body or Mind ; however Ga carried me thro' comfortably. Afterwards, pafs'd an Em™ mlion before the P„!i,„ry. Was much tired, anri my MB hurden'd wjlh the Grealaefs of that Charge, I was in the tl fokmn Manner about to take upon mo : My Mi„d was ■ pteft'd with the Weight of the Work incumbent itpen me th* r couW not fleep (his Nighl, tho' very weary atid in ^rmn^

Taefday, >„ 12. Was this Morning further examinei iefpea,og myixpenmental Acjpaintance with Chrifti^nitv ■ At ten o Clock niy Ordinmi.n was attended : The SerLiJ preach'd by the Rev. Mr. Fc^i^n,,. At this Tinte I w™ feaed wtlh aSenfe of the important Troft commiSi me; yet was Compofet!, and folcmn, without Diftraflionj And I hope I then ( a, many Ti.nes before) gave my felf mj^I God.tobe forh,m and not for another. O that! might alwaS beengaged .--.he Serv.ce of God.and dtdy remember ^hc folen Charge I have reee.ved, ,„ ,he Prefence of God, Anaels a, ,-^en ; Amen : Maylbeaffifled of God for ,Ws F S/ -Towards Night, rode to El'faltth-Timm. ^

t^ ;/ ft ■ '? ' ^S^^' "' '=" Honourable SocieMi 5«//.,i:hatemp[oyedMr. ffr™.rrf,„!,ioh he wioteol

. Mr.i,™rrfpars'dlhro'hi«0,dination-Tri,Js to tlb

• untverf.l Approbation pf the Pr,>y„.. and appTa 1

nneomm^:, qualified for the wjrk o^Mhe Min firfl

and animated w,lh^ noble Zeal to propagate ,he Gofl

10 the Darknefa of Hcatiienifm.

FA ■

c/Mf. David Brainetd. A.D.Ty'44i 11 s

Part VI.

From his Ordination, 'tillhe firfi began t» freach to the Indians at Crolwecklling,

Succefs.

■ iiohom he had his nioji remarkabk

WEdaefday, 70W13. Epe""''"™ conadcrable Time its writinean Accuuntof the Wffl" Aftaira to go to i^J<-UU ; fpent fomc Time in Convcrfition with 1' rjcnds ; But enioy'd not much Swectncfs and Satisfaaion.

Thurfdav, Jmi 14. Received fume [-articular Kindncfs frOBi

Friends ; and wondered, that God llloulJ open the Hearts of

any to Wat me with Kindnefe : Saw my felf to he unwotthy of

any Favour,fram God, or any of my Fellow-Men. Was much

t/ercifed Willi Pain in ray Head ; however delernnned to fet

out on my Journey towards J3iL™™ m the Adcrnoon: But

in theAftemoon myPaio inereafcd exceedingly ; fo that I was ob-

tad to betake my felf to theBed ; and theN.ght following,was

Meatlv diftrefs'd withPain andBickneis: Was fometimes almolt

bereaved of the Exercife of Reafon by the Extremity of Pam.

Continued mucbOiltrefs'd 'till Saturday ; whei.l tj/asromelhms

reliev'd by an Emetick : But was unable to walk abroad till

the Monday toHowing, in the Afternoon s and ftU remain d

very feeble. I often admired the Goodnefs ov Cod, tliat lis

did not fuffer me to proceed on ray Journey from this Place

where 1 was to tenderly ufed,and to he Sick by the Way among

Straneers--God is very gracious to me, both m Health and

Sicknefs, and intermingles mvieh Mercy with all my Affliaions

and Toils. E-njoyed feme Sweetnefs in 1 hmgs uivme, m he

midflof my Pain and Weaktwfs. Oh, that! could pra*'l™

CL*

fOn

but h.J Comfet m h,s SouJ, from Day to Day : And both wl' «ul"K ,W t^r'""'■ '''''™ <3'"'- "l^" Lionel aw,

fn"e;;.rj/^h:tf;°"■™' °*"'^°"'^^'-^^^f

cfh"'"^Z7b:^; ,^^-/™"W.g better In Hoalft ,h„^ P,., ■ J ^ /; ' "* '^1"="'' " '^onr.dcrable Part of fhc Dav W Prayer and dofc S',.,!;..-. Had ™or. Freedom .„d Fa^cJ L

the Adv,r,c.,m:„: of ,te Redeemer's Kmgd™ o Jarth! W°s"i Ib7st"1 r,'^"''f""""^= "^" rhought;a"drobfti^ ienly t1p=: ; '^^ "' "'"^ '^''"='' ° f- - abiding ho^V

Tire^anfa'rc^Tf-, '"!?=M°™i''g.n'r Drf,«feem-di<,

MctS^c?, n ffi'' rh. Language of lhcZ.,i™„,.irf4l ivicrw tS great Djfficlry by Reafon that my internreter wa^ altogether unacquainted with theHufi^efe. H J tho'Twal LS] touraged wit), .(.= extream Difficulty «f,h J Wo4yeJ ^o fuppcrtod me; and cfpedally in th'e E™ „gV ! ve ^3 fwrnRefrefiiorent; [^ i^rayer m/sool was enlarged and W^

V'J/*U. Myi'mh w:,: m.ch (!reiig*sn-ct, by obfervirig rh^

woaderfol

9/ Afr. Divid Brainercl; lt.1

I'S

„„nd=rfalAfflftanM God afforded his Servants MmM* and 7 „ reforming hi= People, and re-eftabUailng li.s ant.ent Ch cl, wTmuch affifti in Prayer for d^^jChnft.an

y ieod and lor others that 1 apprehended to I-^,i"f f • but Is mors efpecialljr concerned for the poor Hea hen. and

Sr^rf^rto^.Si^^:.^^.rw^

AM r=^.nd Grace, that 1 might be mo,e mort.fled to .h.

Cc^ n Ssp^irit of'prayer, that I en^/d lall Night foot, SarT"of=i"'h= Morning!-.- in the Altetnoon to e ev^al Miles to fte if I eonlJ procure any L-.mJa for (he poo l^i^rl, ,h they might hve together, and be under ""'" A^vant g=. fo InftXaion. While I was ridmg, had a deep Scffe of the for inlljiituon ^^^ boul feemed

^o « 1 upotoSS t Succef., in'the diliEeat and faith-tX TuLZ Saw, with grea.eft Cer.alofJ, that ,hAr^ ;?XZi™ftb= r»»W, tor the Help of thefe poor Hca-fh ; if e. ™hey ^.ere delivered from the Bondage of *=Po«r-

liltine up my Heart for Grace and Anitacc.

Thurfday, ?.™^ iS- Ep=« '»« Mornmg, ir rcad.ng feveral

- f:^™a^:ft.s^=;:r^oX; Ldr:^;^!

* ^o pS with hin, for it. Toward. Noon, rode up to the w;L in order to preach to 'cm s anJ while l?>inE. -W «"" wet up To God in Prayer for ■«■.■ : could freely «ll God.He L™X'theCanIe*aar.ot mine, "'J'i'^h I wa. engaged m, tutTt was Ms own Caufc, and it would be for his own Glory <o llllnL fooI M.nA A.d Md be God.l felt no D^.^

of theifCkjnvcrfion.ihat Imighl rcceiveHonour from theWoruJ

[ Th= next paj., b= fycAs of feme ftrious Corcern for tiL Batrennefs, Wandnngi, Inaflivit/, a-f. ] ' -I

;./f ■';; i> Yv^r 3°- My So«I w^ m^ch Sdemm^ed in rea* hoi r H ^"/ ' ' P=''^lly '!« ninth a«p,er of £)«;,;. I ft^ wrft^l'H'l """'.°"'^' Servants to i^rayer, and made tllcrt wrcftlB ».,h hm, w!i=n lie d=fignt;d to beftaw any g„at Me cy en h,. Church And alas, I was afhamed of my felf o AinJC, of myD.In.fs and baflirity.whetl .here r.cn>ed I b. o muchtol dofor tbenpbnddtngofZ™. 01,,l„,vdc=s Z™ lie wafte I r-l Imi, that lilt a,urch of God might be enlarged : Was eia' -^

rJ "',tM A?'"^ f"" '"^'''='''" "^^"1'= '*"'' «"■• Af,er.:j

i/pH '°™=/™=;"«'='P"yer again : Had a Senfcof my greaU

iJJerted be God this lias been a torafotlable Week to me. '

U,ji s-Uiy ^uly ,. In the Morning, was pcrnlex'd with^

wandrtne va,n Tbonghts= Was tnud, gtiev/d. judged and '

iZ^Zf, 7\ " u'°'' ,°'"'- ^"•i O'. l>o«. tnjferablcdil +f=el, becaufe I could not live toGod t At ten, rcdeaw.v with '

t,tZ! f ."l-f '" P'"S '" ■"" '"*-™- Upon the Road. I ' an uT ,f ° ")'"/Heart «God ; but -L infefted with

Lfir?]^ r''r''''''^''''°"'''^"'"''Sh™e and Confn5,n be! fore God X ftc^'d ,o my fdf so b. „.„ i™,,,* ti,„ ,„yMa, .

jnncn as I- !f I attempted to lift up my Heart to God, as I fequently d,d by the Way, on a fttdden,' before I was aw e, my rhoughts were wandring „ tte E^dr cf ,!m Earth : A nd nw boul was fili'd „,th Surprize andAnxiety,%o find it thus Ti^u^ iTuf fenbbly of ,ha, f>reet Reliance oa Gad, that my Sou

H«r. In ,>,n ' ''"' ??f''''' '" "■= '"■'"'" without any orearb J^'^ ?°™'."'=" "'" ''"""'' wl^n I began to

J^noWHQthmg^aadio have nothing Itt (ay to the W,; bttt

footi

c/M*. DaifsdBtainerd. A.t».'i74+- ""7

foon alter, 1 found m my felf a Spirit of Love, and Warmm, and Power to aJdrefs the poor hMans ; and God heiptd me to plead with iheiB to ioro ftcm all th FatiiHii if the Hmthm, !s tbi limi Gad : And I am petfwaded, the Lord toucli'd tbeit Confciences ; for I never faw fuch Attention raifed in thtra before. And when! came away from Ihera, I fpentlbc whole T^nic while I was riding to my LoJginp, thrie Miles diftant, in Prayer and Praife to God. And after I had rode more than two Miles, it came into my Mind to dedicate my ftif to God again s which I did with great Koltninily, and unfpcaitablc Satislaflioij; efpecially gave up my felf to him rcncwcdly irt the Workof ibcMiniftry. Andihlsldid by divine Graci!, i hope, without any Exception or Refeive ; not in thelcalt ibrinWng back from any Difficulties, ihat might attend ihij great and WeBed Work. I feero'd to be moft free, chearfol, and foil in this; Dedication of my felF. My whole Sou! cried, " Lord, 10 thco 1 dedicate my fclf : O accept of me, and let " me be thine forever. Lord,Idclire nothing elfe ; I deiiro «' nothing more. O come, come, I..ord, accept a pcor Worm. " Whim bevi I it Hiavm, but tim ■■, mi thtri is nmi ufm " Earth, thai 1 drfiri hfjdit ibii." After Ibin, wai clKllilcrl to praife God with rny wholo Soul, that lie had enabled mc to devote and confecrate all rayl'owers to him in ibis folcmnMin-ner. My Heart rejoyced in my particiilar Work 3s a Miffit-mry; rejoyced in myNeceiKly of Self-denial in many£cfpetl5 s and liill continued to give up my fell to God, and implore Mercy of him i prayini; incefianlly, every Moment, with fweet Fervency. My Nature being very wcat of late, and much fpent, was now conlider.ibly overcome : My I'ingeis f^iew very feeble, and fomcwhat numb ; fo that I could fcarct y ifretch them out fircigbt : And when I lighted from m^ Htirft , could hardly walk : My Joints faem'd all tobc loofod- But I fdt abundant Slrer£!b in tie inner Muri. Pieach'd to the White People; God helped me much, efpecially in Prayer. Eundiy of my poor htliam were fo moved as to come lo Meeting alfo ; and one appeared much conccrnrd.

Monday, July 2. Had fume Rclilli of the divine Comforts ofYeBerday'; but could not get (hll Warmlhand Excrcilc of Faith, that 1 defired. Had fomctimts il dillreirmgSenfo of my pafb FoIliES, and piefcnt Ignorance and Itarrennefs: And efpecially in the Afternoon, was funic down under a Jjoad of , Sin and Gui!t, in that J had lived fo lltllo to God.aftcr bis abundant Goodnifs to IDE YclSerday. [n liic Evening, iho' veiy

weak.

Mt.z'}'.

^e LIFE

weak, was enabled to pray with Fervency, mi to continue i ftant m Irayw, near an Huur. My Soul mourned over i rower of j,s Corrupt™, „„d longed execEdinglj. to be tc^jj,. nnd f „rf ,^ ., ™,4 /,^j^,^. wa. enabJed to pray for rny d™. abfem i.„ends, Chrift's Minift„.,and hi.Church , aud JhySi ^luchFreedornandiervency, but not (o much Comfort, by^''

my let) for the Follies of the Day. \

TuerdayJW^3. Was ftiU very weak. This Morabs. J was e,,^ ed to pray under a feelin/senfe of my need oTt^f^-f™, Ood,an<f, J truft, had fome Fai<h in Exercife ; and.WelTey be God was embled to plead with God » coiMerable Time, ■iruiy God „ good tome. But my Soul mourned and wai

engaged io, God. Near nine, withdrew again for Prayer ; a«I rt.o d,v,ne(„,oJ„eJ.. I,ad ,l,o ble/lid Spirit of Prayer,' my 6cul loved ,lie JJuty and ior^ed for God in it. O it is fwee to be r/« iW s, to be fenfibly devoted to him ! Wi,at a bfeffei l-orimn ,s God I How glorious, how lovely in himfelf r C my bou long d to in, prove Time wliolly for God I--Spen moft of the Day m iranUaling Prayers into M™,- In tht. i.ve>„ng, was enabled agam to wreHIe with God in Prayer witS F rvency. W,,, enabled to tnaintain a Self-diiSdent and watch-

IrfrflTlH ."'"'a'" l\'^'^'^H^ »"=! was jealous and afraij: Jeit t fhonld admtt Carelefnef! and Self. Confidenee.

r Tlie next Day, he fecms to lisve had fpecial Affiffance andl Fervency mo(f of the Da,.,bot in a lefs Degree than the preceed-l log Ua). Ihmfilay was fpcnl in great budily Wealcnefs ."■• ye teems to have been fpent in continual and exceedingPainful-?: nefe ,nRcl,g,„n ; but in great Eitlernef, of Spirit by Reafon o^-' Jus Vncneis and Cotruption ; he fays thus, 1 limfhl ihtr, wai m( ■■ m Lr.a,urctm,nifi »'V, a, /.• Oh, m, inwari Ptlktim ! Ob J ay G«dt r.nd W™, h,fo„ Gxi /- / knmi mt u,bal uio. Oh,

'^^r,lPM:,t„„ I (Jh, t,. w made like God.or rather to be riade' nttor ^.lod to own. j .^

Fridav, July 6. Awoke this Morning in the Fear of God : ' Soon oj kd f„ Mind my S:„!„crs in the Evening pad ; and (pent my fid. »,k,.g M,ni,te.s in I'rayer. for Sana,5cation, that my Soul migin b. u.(l,M f,™ ,„ exceeding Pollution and Defu/-Aiier 1 irtfe, 1 fpent ffHie TijneinfeadinsGod's Word

and

IJours

nrent.

u/Mr. DavitJ Brainert3,' A.D. 174-4;; 119

■lid Frayer \ I cried to God isndei a Senfe of my great Indigetl-

Py. I aai, of late, molt of all concerned for Minifteria! Qiiali-

(ieations, and the Converfion of the Heathen : Lad: Year, I longed to be prepared for a World of G/irj, and fpcedily to de-|Hit out of this World ; but of late all my Concern almoftis lor the Converfion of the Heathen i and for thatEnd, I long to livei, But HeKid he God, I have leia defitc to live for any of tbePieafuresof (he World, than ever Ihld : 1 long and love to be a Pilgrim; and want Grace to imitate the Life, Labours and Sufferings of St. Pax/ among IhcITtUhcn. And when I lougilor Holincfa nowjit is not fo much fur my felfaj forjiicrly 5 but'lathct thai thereby I may become an aUi Mini/I if ef itt Tillsmmt, efpeciaily to the Healhdn, Spent about two 1 this Morning inReading and Prayer fay Turns ; and was lii a watchful tender Frame, afraid of every Tiling that might rail my Affuflions, and draw away my Heart from God. Wan fomelhing lircnglhen'd in my Studies ; but nor Night was very weak and weary. .

Saturday, ?«/y 7. Was very much difordered thisMorning, and my Vigour all fpent and cxhauflcd : Hut was affedled and lelVcDi'd in'reSding the fwcet Story <ii Kltjah'i Tranllation.anil enjoyed fome AfFeaion and Fervency in Prayer ; longed mucll foi Miniftctial Gifts and Graces, that I might do fumetbing in the Caufe of God. Afterwards was refrefh'd and Invigorated, while teadingMr. ysJiphAlUini'i drftCafe ofConfcience, ycaiKl enabled then to pray with forae Ardour of Soul, and wasafiaiil of Carelefncfi and Self-Confidencc, and longed for Hollnefs.

■Lord's-Day, 7n'l'3. Was ill laft Night, not able to reft quietly. Had fome fmall Degree of Adiftance in preaching to tlie Ind'mm ; and afterwards was enabled to preach to the White People with roiiie Power, efpeciaily in the Clofe of my Difcourlr from Jsr. iii. 2 ;• The Lord alfo aiEtled me in fome Mcafure; in the' fitft l^rajer : BleEed be his Name. NeSf Night, llio' very weary, was enabled (8 read God's Word with fome fweet Reiifh of it, and to pray with AiFeflion, Fervency, and ([ truft) Faith: My Soul was more fcnlibly dependent on Lind, than ufual. Was waicliful, tcniler, and jealous of my own Heart, kit I lliould admit Carelefncfs and vaip Thoulslits, and grieve the bleffed Spirit, fo that he fcould witlldniw his ftveet, kind, and tender Iniluences. Long'd loitfwl •""' I" ■aiitliChrill,mats thanatlny Time of lafe. My Soul was exceedingly united to the Saints of antient Times, as well as ihofe now living 1 efpe- j cially my Soul avslted for the Society of Elijah and Elifia.

Ml. ij.

Tbs LIFE

Was enabled to cry to God with a Child-like Spifit, mi ta eoniinLLE .nitan I iji Prayer for fome Time, W„ much snlareed IJI tht feet Duty of Interceffion : Was enabled to rememW

fi'"., r-''^;;' "^''"' ^''"^^'^ ^^^ pf^^-s soui,. =! wdia

Chnft s Min.Ibrs. CcntinuEd in this Frame. aWd of etert idle Thought, 'nil I ilrop'd aHeep. ,

Monday 7,/j, 9. VVa5„„der tnuch Illnet of Body ftoffi jl (he Day and notable 10 Et up the whole Day. TowardsNiahia m a l,„le better. Then fpen. fomeTinie in reading G^df

ftaou: Was enabled to plead wiihGod for hij Caufe and Kingdom ; And thro' divine Goodnefs, It «-as apparent to me

^^^M 7f""'' V'"*^. P'"''"'' f"'- """' ■"" ■")' o™ = And «-a.-Re uia '° '^'■Eummt with God to anfwer m;-'

Tuefday, >/, 10. Was ,ery ill aud full of Pain, a nd ver. dull and fp„j,lefs.-.- In the Evening, had an afteaiog Senfe d la, fei^rance isSc. and of raj need of God at alt Time., ,a di

1!^ i ,f "° ' *"'' ™>' ^°''' *"= bumbled bflorc God.

Wedncfday.^/^I,. Was fiill c;,ercifed with lllnefa an* i-aio. Had fome Degree of Afteaion and Warmth in Via^

iellowihip m,h God; and felt fome Hefolution to fpend all mS 1 me (OT God, and to tixert my felf with more Fervency i| 1. Service ; tut found my Body wenk end feeble. In tbS Afternoon, (ho very ifl,was enabled to fpend feme coDliderabg TimeinPiayer 1 fpcnt indeed molt of (hcDayio that £sereife A and my boul was diffident, watchful and tender, left I Qwuldl offend my bleffed Friend, in bought ot E.b;viourl iZ\ pe'lwaded my Sonl confided in,and lean'd upon th^- bkffcdGod. Oh.wbat need d,d I fee ray felf to Band in of God at all Times, W affift me and lead me 1- Found a great want of Strength ani Vigour, both in the outward and inner Man. 1

[ TheExereifesandExperiencB.thJthe fpeafa ofin the neiij n,ineDay,,ate verySimiJar to thofeof the preceedingDays.of tbia and the foregoing Week ; aSenfeof hiaown Wesknef^ I»tiS

T'hf^Tf'^^r''' "'." ^"""'•■'■^ ■' lo^bi^g-^dabh^r^rinj fMmLIf i belf-dilHdence ; Senfe of the Greatnef. of his WorM and Ins great need of divipe Help, and the extream Danger o| befi,VTf"'rw '""Sing for Holinefe and Humility, and ft,! C^^fr f^'"yi '""^ toli>'=toGod 1 and longing for iheJ

f SmrdsyJ

0/Mr. David Biainer(3. A,D.i744." 111

Sajurday, JiiJjjr. This Morning, was greatly opprtilod witii Guilt and Shame, from a Senfe of inward Vilenefs and I'olliition. About nine, withdrew to the Woods For Prayer ; hut had not much Comfoft J I appeared to my felf the vileft meiocll Creature upon Earth, and could fcarcely llie with ray felf; fo wean and vile I appeared, thit 1 thought Ifhould never be able to hold up my face in Heaven, if God of his infinite Grace fliould bring me thither. Towards Night my Burden refpefling my Work among thcJWMJW began to increife much i and was aggravated by healing fund ryThlnjr,> that look'ii very (lifcouraging, in particular that they intended 10 incct tOROlhet the next Day for an iMairsui Fmff and Dnnti. Then I began so be in Anguiih : I thought I mull in Confclenco go and endeavour to break them up ; and knew not how to attempt fucll I Thing. However I withdrew for Prayer.hoping forStrength from above. And in Prayer I was exceedingly enlarged, asd my Soul was as much dravjn out as ever ! remember it to have been in my Life, or near. 1 was in fudi Anguiih, and pleadtd with fo [Duch Eitneftnefs and Importunity, that when 1 rofc from my Kneeal felt extreamly weak and oveicome, I coulJ fcarcely walk (Itait, mv Jeinls were loofcd, the Iwciit tan down myFace andBody, &Naturc fecm'd as if it would dilliilvo. Ho farasi could judge, I was wholly (rcc !roa\ fiijijh JSnJl in my fcrventSupplicalion! for the poor Indians. I knov/, they were met together to worfllip Dcvili-, andnotGor*; and this made nie cry carncftly, that God would new appear, and help me itl my Attempts CO break up this idolatrous Meeting. My Soul pleaded long ; and I thought, God would hear, and would |jo with me to vindicate his own Caufe : I fecm'd to confide m God for his Prefence and Affiftanoe. And thus I fpcnt the Evening, praying inceflantly for divine Affiftaoce, and that E might not he Eeif-dcpendent, but Hill have my whole Depen-dance upon C3od. What i pafs'd thro' was remarkable, and indeed inexpreffible. All Things here below vanifh'd ; and thEre appear'd to be nothing of any confiderable Importance to me, hut Holinefs of Heart and Life, and the Convcrfion of the Heathen to God. All my Cares, feari and Delires, which might be (aid to he of a worldly Nature, difappeared ; and were, in my Efteem, of little more Importance than a Puff of Wind, t CKCeeiJingly long'd, that God would s«( " himfllfo Naisi amng ihl Hmlhtit: And I appcal'd 10 him with the greatell Freedom, that he knew I pivfir'ri ■miiaimc mi Aiif Jtj. indeed, IhadnoNolionof JojfrainlhisWorld: 1 carsJ R i not

122 JEi, if.

yfo L T F E

it, ""/""•*'''"" "^"""'■- ' '=™>i'"'^'i ini

j""",/" '■"= Evening anJ Niirlit. While I wa^ aile™

/-;ardVDY,>A„. Whc„l waM.mj, Soul was fore CMIJ g=, out o,' my HeJ ; And as fcr.u x, I wa/drcf M

Jon, .„ F^v^cy as ,h. M Evening , apVdid wi.l, "fp, k'^^ f„. „n S ,^^"'f "S "■'''»"»''««' to t>'«l. for Life or Deali" I badVLor,^^ ^"^ J;to.u,.ge mo frn,„ thi. blcflid Work. «>w», and d„(omin,armll«:,! mrk anioni? the Heaihen AnJ

DaJtf^kFp "''""''^^P^fl'^E. 'h'tGod vvould make tl,i= /*

Preach "Y°rit^"' '""" *" '"■'==== ''P- ^''^J "'"^"'^ ° -' preach!,.5. Yet (hli there appeared nothing of ibe rpecial Pow-

'."eo? anTr T\ i''!"''"' opinio tbetn it, tie ™, R fl 11 / °'''^=[';=<1. A=A<^">-! were n.ore>U- tfcai, before •

wesk and weary, and my Soul born down wjd, Pernk-llTv hT' (empted me to ihc comrary J-/cvij

^«l,™nt of luf, People, ,bu„t ,5 Mil„ "^Th:vVelt:rd 1

0/Mr. Davit! Brainerd A.D. 1741:. |JJ

''firnttny Time in Prayer and Meditation by the Way, Near N ,"h,7F=-l>'drromA/.<*. •>. 3-- God wa.p!^a.d« afford me fome Degree of I'-reedom aid Fervency. Bleffed be God

'''ilt:fTu^\T^T.\u.-^ .jMiie, Wcftward, over ahTd t Motui', toa NotnberofVj.^. . ""J^da" near TO ot 'em : Preach'd to 'era in tho Evening, and lodg d "™th mt.-Wjsweak, and felt fomething dtfconfolale: 1 =. c^l have no Freedom in the Thought of :t„y other C,r-

f,„„ of the H=.tb«n, and all my Hope wa. 1., Cm ■ t^"J ^j""

otfuff« me .0 plcafe or comfort my felt with Flope. of fe.^ ng

l"L„d", tetnrning to my dear Acqnailtancc, ai>d enjoying

"fTL'^nT.;°Sy. he prcach-d to thefe IW/... ^ -^

then returned to the Irilh Setdetnent, and '""= P^"']^^^'°;.

numerous Congrcpation : There was a conftderable Appear

r=o Awakening in theCongregationThurfdayhereturned

Home exceedingly fatigued and fpcill; fitll tn the fame iTame ?S.Sa,Jo'^^l.evlorld.and fblieitou, forthcAdvancetnen

nf Chtift's Kingdom : And „n tin. Day he f,tv. ihn., I havl, " f-lt this Week, moreof(heSp.r,tol!.ft/r"""" ™' « that, perhaps ejer before ; And yet io deftrous to fee i-xm s - P.ofperity, .ha. I was no. fo wiH.ng to leave tbis bcene of .■ Sotrov, 1 1 ufed to be."- The two remaimng Daya 0 he Week, he wa, very ill, and e,te> ou, of Wandr.ngs D^lneS, snd wlnt of fpi.itual Fervency and Sweetneft. On .he Sabbath He was confined by Ilinrfs, not able to go «nt to preach, Afle ibis his Hindi inercifeiJnpen him, and be cotjlinued very ill all ihc Week i * and fays, that " be thought be never before " endured fuch a Scafon of diitrefSllgWeaknefj ; and that hts • «' Nature wa^fofpcnt, that he could ncilber ftand, lit, norlie >■ with any Quiet ; and that he was exercifed with extream

■ ■ Faintnefs.aid Sicknefs at his Stomach; and that bis Mind " was as much difordet'd as Ms Body, fecmmg to be ftupid, " and without all kind of Affeflions towards allOhjsa) j and

■ 1 yet perplex'd, toihink, that he lived for nothing, that preci-

■\ Sec Mr, Bromri'i Narrative it ihc End of his Ordinniim Sirmm, Page 34 , , ...

» This Week, on Tucfday, he wrote (he 4th LH» added at tbcEiidofihisAcMu.il. i. sfc?

124 iSl. 2f.

ra^LIFE

' fom. p=cul«, Temptations.■•- Conceiaing the i,e" 3

Days be wr,t=s:.h», " OnUrdVDay A^, j.^ ^SvErSl

po.. But, tho' very weak. lvifi„ciL%.S'thtf

r'« ""."^ '°^ '^" ftre,.gth=,fd vdilj beyond H

dom and Fervency in ^ddrcffing ,bm , <ho' I had „?|

wlioleUtBe, TowardsNight,was extreamly weak,faint.fioa jnJfdl ofPam. And thus I have continued much !nh"f^ itatetbat I was in laftWeek.tbrough the n,oft of tSs t b^K

unaUe to pray tn .he Family. I am obliged ,o let all d rbaugto and Co^ecrna run atRandom ; for I have „ckS f r^"' '"-J."-<';'«^.o.rray; And this .nuralW-

h rfci^ f ■ \^"'" '" ™/ '■«" "'"= ^ Man that Lf !i " i ,if^ f e'"l^J^-'!»ed ,n o.ie faall Bc«r, unhappily gol,v-adrift downa fwjft Torrent. The poor OwneVfianA en tbeS ore. and l»i., and laments h/Lofe.- B^fl l" my all feem. to be adrift, and I fiand and fee it, I r «

Sr /?,'.'™.'"™'' ">"'=f«-fo diver, ly "4 r .. ' ''''" " "'^ '^"■"'=Time I am afraid, and aftrtl fedas,ilwa.gtnltyc,f,beM,r,mprovementofTme. aSJ

Waf offpendidg T,me, thatlbave no Peare ; tbo'I havS!

O th^tr d ^i''^-°'«°^>' «™P™- .ttobet'tetPurpX-" Olh« God would pu}. my difireJlid Slate. '

The tis:t tliree Weeks after this, bis lllneft w« not fo eit-reme : He wa. ,., foj^e Degree capable of Uuftner,, " b pSb-hck and private ; f ahho he had fonte Turi,s where, bislndif- .

'Trj7:':fji' ^™' ^^^^=^ ■■ ^ »= ^"-^ - •'■' %-.;

StrengthofMmd: He often e^jprdlea great Longings io,Z Enlargement of Chrifl's Kingdom ; efpedallv bv heUl i... of .be Heathen ,0 God r'eefp'eakf ™ h , ^ oMh sa" i

^S'SSan:^h-^:r^c^r:°,ri-s^i

c/Mr. David Bra'ffierd. A.D. 17^4;' iij

God requires, as he, He fpeaks of his feeling more dead than ever to the Enjoyments of the World. He fometimcs mentiosis fpeciaJ Afllftancc that he had in tills Space ofTinie, in preaching to the IndidH!, and of Appearances of religinusConcera among them. He fpeaks alfo ofAflifiance in Prayer for abfentfriends, and cfpccially MinHlers and Candidates for the Mijiiftry ; and of much Comfort he enjoy'J in the Company of fomcMinifters that came !o vifit him. J , , „ ,■ r

Saturday, ^£ff. I. Was fo far ftrengthen'd, after aSeafonof treat Weaknefs, that 1 was able to fpcrd two or llnec Hours in writing on a divine Subjcii Knjoy'd lomcL'omfoit andSweet-nefs in Things divine and facred .• And as my bodily Strength was in fome Meafure teftored, fc my Soul fecm'd to be fomc-what vigorous, and engaged in the Things of God.

Lords-Day, Rlfl. I. Was enabled to fpeakto my poorin^ianj with much Concern and Fervency; and I am perfwaded, God enabled me to exercifeFaitb in him,while [was fpea king totbetn. I perceived, that fome of them wete afraid to hearken to, and cmbtace Chrijliaakj, left they (hould be inchantcd and polfon'd by fome of the Powfwi : But I was enabled to plead with them not to fear thel'e ( and confiding in Gud for 8.ifety andDclu'er-ance, I bid a Chalkage to all thcfc J'siu*" of Durloicp^ lo do ■ their wotft upon mc firfi; I told my People, ! was a ChnJIiim, andafk'd them why the Pswsiui did not Bewitch and Poi foil me I fcarcely ever full more fenfible of my ownUnwonhiners, than in this Aaion .- I faw, that the Honour of God was concerned in the Affair 5 »nd I deflred 10 be preferved, not front fetfifll Views, but for a TeSimony of the d(vine l^ower and Goodncfs, and of theTruth ofChtiftianity, and that God might he glorified. Afterwards, 1 found my Seal rejoice m God for kis afliaing Grace. r- , , j

I [ After this, be went a Journey into Nrw-tnglaitd, and wat

ablent from the Place of bis Abode, at the Forks of Dtlawsre, about three Weeks. He was in a feeble State tbegreater Fart ofiheTimc. But Ifi the laKct Part of the Journey, he found he ealncd much in Health and Strength. And as to Ibc .'llalc of his Mind,and his'religious and rpiritnulKxcrcifcj,it w,;i3much with hiro as bad been before ufual in Journcyl ; fxcepling thaS theFramc ofhisiWind fwaicd moieRcncrilly to be comfortable. Bat yet there are Cemplaintsof fiimc uncomfortable Seafdni, want o( Fervency, anil want o«-Retirements, and Time alone with God. In 'this Journey, be did not farget the Indtml ; bat once aod again fpeiks ot bii losijins for their Convsrfion. ]

W ednafd,^y.

?** I, I F E

WednefJay y,^, ,6. Rode Homc,to theFork. offt/.™,,. What Rcafon have I to bleftGcd, who has preftrired mc ™i

<;fe™ *si W«tei / MyHcalth likewife JB greatly recovcr'd *

?c f;™r:^ ;!=^-.™^ "^ ^"'" «°^ = ^^'^ ■=^" >^^^ r:";fG:rdirt;;hTi:L^" '^^^-^ M,so/.dirco„^

Iridsj-, 4V;K s8. Spent the Day in Prayer, ReadinE am

D H,e.cfthe E„larg™™t of Chtiil'. Kingdom by 'Zv^ ™f«n of,he Heathen, a.d that God would mate L.ciTi

[ The next Day, he fpeafc of the fame Longirgs for the Ad J v.„een,™t of Chr R-s Kingdom, and the Cottverloo of the ^.1

cfh«l,eJo.mey,=.u.fi.i„g hisMicd (rem that De™ of I..nj,ged„efc i.,rve„cy, W„chfuteeft, if,, which be nove^ before. A„^ .!,e lik<= Con.plaim. ate continued <ii. ^extDavH rattl^fot"'' 0.W , Wa. engaged .bi= D.y in malti„g^:yf rat^ot, for nny !n tended Tourney loS./^^^imi : Wi,i,drew ft I

to piead for thrd,„nrfroftnceto go withise to the poorPaMori to v,homi was going to preach ti.e Gofpel. ToJrd7Nlah'i

cett"' n"r^"'^L "•' •"" Mother B,™r.;hota^l come atmylJefi re, tb be toyCompanion inTravd to thci^LT ^

IXZ T "" ""r"/ =""'■ ^ '"'t'God made his C™ erfoion. 1

WorM V '""■ "^'r?"'"' '' ^*'"'^^'' «""= dead ,0 he ]

sndtMs made me look withio my felt, and gave me ama.aff £enfeofmyGuitt,ingratirurfe,i,riMife,y, ='E™t«.I

rndday, OSf*. J, Set out on my Journey, in Con,™n,' w,.h dear Brother A',™,,, and my InLpre.ex^'and r^^TuIt tjT\''T "" ^o"'--'-"''"— Travelled about «Mi el': ™d lodged m one of thelaft Houfes on o«r Road ; after whh-^ th«5Wa=„olh,ng but ahidecui and howling mikr.lfi "^

WeJnefday,

<!/JWr. David BrsJRert],' AD.xf^^, la;

Wediiefday, 0<5j5. 3. We went on our Way into the WiMernefs, and found the molt diflicull and dangerous travelling, by far, that ever any of U3 had feen ; we had fcarce any Thing elfe but lofty Mou ntains, dscpValleys,ahd hideousRocks, 10 make our Way ihro". However, I felt ftme Swcetnefs in diviheThings, part of the Day, and bad my Mind intenfely encaged in Meditation on a divine Subjca, Neat Night, my leafi that I rodo upon, hung one of her Legs in the Rocks, and fell down utldermo; But thro' d ivineGoodneft, 1 was not hurt. However, fhe broke herLeg ; and being in fuch a hideousPlace, and near 30 Miles from any Hoofc, I faw nolhing that could be done to preferve her Life, and fo was obliged to kill her, and to profecute my Journey on Foot. This AccidcDt made me admire thedivineGoodnefa to me, that my Bones were not broken, and the Multitude of 'cm fill'd with ft.<.«B Pain, Juff at Datk, we kindled a Fire,cut up a few Bufhcs, and maflc « Shelter ovei out [leads, to fave as from the Ftolt; which was vety hatd that Night i and comraitting our {elves to God by Prayer, we lay down OB the Ground, and llcpt quietly.

[ The nest Day, they went forward on ihelf Joutney, and at Night toolt op their Lodging in the Woods in like Manner.]

Friday, Oi!f»5. J. We arrived at Sufqunhannsb River, at a Place called Opihslhaupaitg ]- Found there ii ioiiMO Houfes : After 1 had fainted the King in a friendly Manner, 1 told bim my Buftoers, and that my Dcbte was to teach l\ii:mChrifiiimitf.. After foiiie Confultation, the /Wmm gathered, and I pteach'd to 'em. And when 1 had done, I aiked, if they would hear me again. They reply'd, tbat they would conhder of it; and foon after fent me Word, that they would immediately attend, if £ would preach : Which ! did, wiihFreedoni,bolhTimcs. Whetl I alked 'em again, whether they would hear me further, they «plj 'd, they would the next Day. 1 was exceeding renfible at the Impofrsbility of doing any Thing for the poor Heathen with-culfpecial Affiftance from above : And my Soul fecm d to relt oh God, and leave it lo him tt> do as he plcalcd in that which J fiiif was his own Caufe : And indeed, thto' divine Goodnefs, I hid felt foroething of this Frame moll of the Time while I was liavelliog thither s and in fame Mcafuic before I fet out.

2^f L I F E

Iniiam ■ And In ihp Afi. '^^n, preact d again tot

Houfe, and "„Vm tm ""Zc Tt "='" ''^™ ^""'^ ("ng-^pon, 'till Monday. IZ^^J^!*; r lV''!r;";"fi'^

S' '° P'=?''"g<^ ^"d «™eta nv Soil I tf^^

Hoar in recrct KeiiremEnf. „,.! m ^ ' "'"""" <*sd in

fo>. W. for the CSnf r '"' *"/"'■'« »"> -H«r,

Miniftcrs ,™d P^orie andtT^V" T' '2''^"=^--^'^^

Tbough, cncMiS'wl.Wj5rrt™ann°'»H'^.'"^ *';"'''' I

" it is, to have ,he AffeaL."'„,i,l?l™>'/'"".'"'-< Death ■' fott nf Darknefs and r^nZ , ""*" =" God, bvRea-

'• ^''^'K-,., Sfo,; Tf„'r,d°h';^t=^ <^».s.«ia,?„ _

preaco'd twice tn th, ; r ™™ ■ However, he

C*.^,y.„,V^. ]„ ,(,^ J,, t;^^? ^_^>= ^*j.<s,™, ,he7 made .gainfl

""•yet 1.1 at the fe™l tIT .L'lTf ° ^^^^ W^^-G"'*™'/, Monday, o^,i T Vt . u"*'° "i"'^« « O"!-1 ■

=Bai=,il Cbrilfia4; "$;;'^^"™™'" a„feer their Of^.-^iJ left of,b, Arter„/on in jJeaZ/'"! p*"''' ^"'i »"= fpentlhi' Momo-wml very earlv,h,„ "^ri ^!,''^"'' '""""linB to <';.

the iord for ,)i his gXcZ ^ "'^ M=d.ta.:on. Btelftd ,'

commending out felv.„,„t-jT '"""^'!•'"»!== Morning, aniJ

travelW with ^rt-t «., 1 . . u ^'''°'°™^'^''"'^"'« !• aniij

ciear and comforjahV ri ' ^^'^ "^ ^^**^^- -^ ^ad fame?"

fr"t G.d plfft^ved u^; '-^' ^'^''^ *l^eW.IvcB Wwi'd Lund uf

(j/M?-. Di^id Braincrd, A.D,i;44. 129

[ The next Day, they rofe ^earl)', and kt forwaid, and fra-VClIefl that Day, 'tili they came to an Irijb Settlement, where ' Ml'. Bfsimrd wiisacqiiaintedj. and lodged there, lie fpeats of fiiTiieSweetnefs in divineXhingSa andXhankfuliief^ EyGod'for his ^ii:3odnefs fo him in *5iff Journey, that he fek in his Heart iij the Kvening, thn' attended with Sbame A>f his Barrennefs, On riiLirfday, he continued in the fame Flacc» and he and Mr» !'>yram ■^ireached there tt>thfi People,J

i'Viday, Osish, 12^ Rode Home (o my Lodging j where I {i:<ufcd out my Sou] to Gad in fccret Pruyer, and endeavoured 10 b'er& him for his abundantGoodncfi to me in my ]a(cJournty* [ Icaict tver eiijoyed moreHcalih i at lea{t, of lakrYcars ^ And God matvellouJly, and altnoft miraculouJly* fupported me under [heFidgufa of theVVay, and TravcllIngoiiFoot. BlelTed be the Lord, thatconfuiuajly prefervcsme in all J117 Ways.

\ On SaCurdtSy^ ht; went again to the hipi Settlementj to !ir-ii>^ the ^abbatb there^ his Indtsm being gone.]

Lord's Day, 0^i?A. ^4* Was much confuled and perplexed i[. my Thoughts i could not pray ; &nd w&aalinoft difcouiaged, tbinking ! fiiould never bt iUilc to preach any mpjrc. Butafter-wards,^ God was pie a fed to j^ive me'fume Rclii:f frnm thefe ConfufionS : But Hilt I was aHaid, and even trembled before God. I went to the Place oF publitk Worfiiip, lifting up my Heart to God for Ailiflance and Grace, in my great Worl:: And God was gracious to me, and helped me to plead with him for Holinefsjand to nfe the fl'rongeft Arguments with himjd;awit from the Incarnation and Sufterings of Chrlft for this vcf^ End, that Men mlglu be made holy. Afierwards, 1 was much afiiftfid in preaching. ■ I know nut that ever God helped me 10 preach jtiamore clufc and diftinguifbingMann^r for thcTrial of Men's State. Thio' the infinite Goodnefs of God, [ fek v/h^t Ifpake j and God enabled me to treat on divine Truth with uncommon Clearners: And yet I was fo fenfible of myOeie^ts inPreaching, ihat I could not be proud of myFerformanpe, as at fome Tirries; And bleH'ed be the T-ord for ihiii Mercy, in the F-vcning, I Ifltig'd to be entirely alotiC, to blcfs Ciod for Hclfi in a Time o£ Kwreinity ; and longed for threat Ocgrcea of HuliiiLfs, that I might fhiEwmyCratUutle toGud,

[ The next Moining, tie fpttil fome TEme before Suti-tife in

Prayer, in the fame fweet and gra[qFul Frame of Mind, that he

had been in the Evening before : And afterwards went tohia

hkiGni^ and fpent fgxne Time in teaching and ejchottrng them.]

S 2 Tiiefday^

ikiM

th LIFE

Turfday, OM. 16. Felta Spirit of Solemnity and Wairf," Mneft ; was a (raid Ifhou Id „ot live f, aivd a«j„ Go d ■ Loom for more Iiitcnfcnefi and Spirimalily. Spent tiK Day in wfj Jng ; freqirenliy lifting upmyHean to God for more Heaven'

i , n ; '" '''= Erain&Hijoyed fvvce! AffiffanK i„ Pra.« and lUirHtd arid pfcadcd 10 be as holy as the bleffed JmAt Wc<IW M,n,fte„a! Gifts aid Graces, and Kucceft in Wort r Was fweeHy affifed !n th. Dat'y of Intercefflon, ,

a;;dotift.r;;iLt:'r' "■'^^^-"-"^'^ ^^ ^--^^i-'

tw^^™ rajl]" '"" """" °' "= '■^^ ^""- °' ^i-'^. '.,

id "'V'^"''°""=f' i '"•' f'^lt "')' S»ul melt and mourn, thaVk h.d [,„Wa,,Jg™™l avery erncions God, who was Km kind . o me, „otw,thfland,ng all my Unwonhinefs. My Eorjlcn-'i joyed a rwoc, ieafon of bitter Repentance and Sorrow, that"

«con rledtome ,n l„s de.r Son. My Sod was now tenderl

and afraid of that in every Aaion and Thought. *

[ I he four ne:itDays,we.e manifeflly fpent in a moil conte

Teodernefs,Wa,chfol„efi,Diligenee and Self-DiffiJonce But'

he complains ofWandrings of Mind.Languot of Affections y,.

fte^f?r''T^* ''"'*;'*■ ^''" ?^°™' "^^^° »CP=optei ' J'r™ on iarth ; longed much to l:are this gloomy Manfion ■ but yet found the Exercife of Palience and a'fignatioi^ AndaS f retorted home frora the Indian,, fpem il*\.bo)e Time ia!

talon sione in Pr,ytr ; was enabled to cry toGod will, aChild J Meipiti, forthe Space ofnear an Hour: Enjoved a fwcell Freedom in flipplicaling for my fetf. for dearFrieudi,MlniS' I C Irh F T- ', "° l":'P^""E f"'- 'l^'" Work, and for tha]

^tt^^X ''"'" "'= -ii-^y-rre,fn,God-.i

Thurfday, Or(,i. ,;, Was bufy in Wtiting. Was verv;! 1™ ,b c of my abfolLtcDependanee on God in allRefjeas ; iiWf llk'.°n ■ , ""'^H o "'"/^ Aff^'".<l>" 1 havefuffieient naJ

was a facred Text that 1 faw the Truth of. *= ■* ^ ? '(I

Friday^

e/Mr. David Brainerd. A,D. 174+. 131

Friday, OiUk 16. In the Morning, my Soul was meUed with a Senfe of divine Goodncfs and Mercy to fech a lile un-wonhy Worm as I : Delighted to lean upon God.snd place my whole Truft in him : My Soul was exceedingly grieved for Ein, and prized and looged aflerHolinefs i it wounded myHeart deeply, yet fwectly, to think how I had abufed a kind God. I longed to be perfeflly Holy,lhat I might not grieve a gracion! God; mho will continue to love, notwilhftandinEhis Love is abufed : 1 longed for Holinefs more for this End, than 1 did lor my own Happioefs fake ; And yet this was my grcateft Happl-ncfs, never more to dilhuisour, but always 10 glorify the blelTcd God. AfterwardSjtode up to the ladium, in thcAf(ernaoo,£;f:.

[ The four next Days, he was exercifed with much Difordet andPain oi Body,with a Degree of Melancholy andGloominefs of Mind.bicterly compliining of Deadnefs andllnpcofiublencfj, yet mourning and longing after God.J

Wednefday, Oitib. 31. Was fenfible of my Barrenner*, and Decays, in thoThings of God : My Soul fail'd, when I remera-ber'd tlw Fervency I had enjoyed at the Throne of Grace. Oh (I thought) If I could but lie fpiriiual, warm, heavenly-minded, and affcaionately breathing after God, this would be better thanLife to me ! My Soul longed exceedingly fotDeath, to be ioofed from this DuUnefs andBarr<!nners,and made forever aflivc in the Service of God. I feemed to live for nothins, and to do no Good : And Oh, the Burden of fuch a Life ! Oh, Death, Death, ray kind Friend,haBen and deliver rae from dull Mortality, and make mc fpiriiual and vigorous to Eternity. ^

Tiiurfiay, Nnimbtt j. Had but little Sweelneft in divine Things. But afterwards, in the Evening, felt feme Life, and Longings afld^God ^ I longed to be always folemn,devout, and heavenly-minded ; & was affaid to leave off prajing,left I fliould agaio lofe a Senfe of (he fweet Things of God.

Friday, Niji. ^. Was fill'd with Sorrow and Confulinn, in the Morning, and could enjoy no fmcet Senfe of divine Things, nor gel any Relief in Frayer. Saw 1 deicrvcd, that every one of God's Creatures(hould heletlooft upon mc lobe iheExecutio-ners of his Wrath againft me 1 And yet ihcrein r faw I deferved what I did not fear as my Portion. About Noon, rode up to the ItMmi ; and while goiiig, could feel no Deiires for them, •ltd even dreaded So fay any Thing 19 'em ; but God wis plesfed to give me &105 Ftesdoni and £nlargcnieot, atjd luade

Ths LIFE

the Star™ comfortabic torn,. I„ ihcEv5ning,tadEdw»M=nt

fcit for .here ma,y Weeb paff, h.v. been o.ly .r.nfiem & Ihortl andibeEfeaterP.rtofmyTim. fes b™ fiil'd up with D«V mfe, or Struggles w.tli Dcadnefs, and bitter Conflias with Cd^ ruptlon I have founJ mj. fdt cx-ercifed fordy wLth fone partH cular Tiling, thsti itought my ftif moil of all fre=d ftom, 1"^ !bm I have ever found ,r, when J have iho't (hcBatlle wsi overA and he Conquell ga,j,ed, and fo let dawn my Watch, the Eae-J tny haa rircn I. p and done me the greiiclt Ini urv f

Sa(urd.y, Ata. 3. I read the Life andTriah of a godlyMa J and wa= much Ivarm'd by it ; 1 wondered at m). paftbJdnefalB and was m.re convinced of it, ,h>n over. wL enabled of confer, and bwa, my Sm before God, withSelf-abhorrenee. I _ Lord ,.Day, JV™. 4 Had. I ihinfc, fome Exeictfe of Faffhl Jf/T'd'r "T'"^^ i-<'"g'dta be Spiritual. Had eun"^

flderabfeHelp =u preaehu>gto my poor«™ .. Was encou^a.ed-With them. Bad hoped that God deligned Mercy for theia, ''

the M«tn,g ef the Pr^h,m^ (hero ; and waa gene from keml mere thanj I-ortrnght, He feem'd to enter oa this Journey' «.th great Eeluaance i fearing, tha, the Diveifcns of it woulj.f proye a Means of coohng his religiousAfleaions,^ he had found ' W other Journeya. But yef, in thisjourncy he hsd fome fpecijl beafons Kherco heciijoyed cMraordinjry Evidences and Fruitji. Z ,wl T S"=.'«f ■■*""■. He was greally fatigued and eKpofe*-; f™ J°'"r''i ''3'^"" '""I Storm, .. And ».hen he returned'' from h!e^-Y,rktoNtm-J„,,, on Friday, was taken very ill,, atld was detained by his lllncfs fome Time,]

Wetjoefday N«i. 3 r. Rode from Ntwari to -RocMlku! it,. \ the Cold and «as almoll overcome with it. Enjoyed ftmei Swee nefs jn Convetfatior, with dear Mr. >«, „!,^i|^ I J^"? 1 vvithbnn : My Soul Joyc= the People of God, andefpecially" t',^ MmiftersDf JcfusChtift, who fed the fame TrisI, thattdo.

1 hurfday, A.„. 12. Came on ,ny W.y (,™ £,.Wror to: -D,Uw^t River. Waa very much difordered with a CcJd at d A ^n in ray Head. Abent .6 at Night, t loft my Wayln tht

JMd gf tils UT4mmtsn Strmm.

(!/Mr. David Btaincttl. iA.D.i744j Y35

tViMerncfs, and wstidereJ over Rocks and Mounfains, down hideomSteeps, thro' Swamps, and mo(t dreadful and datlBerous Places.- And the Nigh 1 being dark, fo that few Stan could be feen, !_ was greatly expofed : Was much pinch'd with Cold, andidifirefa'd with an exlreaoi Fain in my Head, attended with SioJtnefi at my Stomach ; (o that every Step ! look was difttcf-fifig to me, ! had little Hope for fevoral Hours together but that f mult lie out in the Woods all Niglif, in this diHreffed Cafe.^ But about 9 o'clock, I found a Houfc, thro' theabun-naniGaodnefs of God, and was Itindly cntcriain'd. Thus I have ficquently been expofed, & fomttimcslain out the whole Night ■ but God his hitherto prcferved me s and bleflcd be his Nams^ Such Fatigues and Hardfliipsaa tlicfe ferve to wean me more from the Earth ; and, I iruft, will niaie Heayen the fweetcr. Formerly, when I was thus cxpofcd to Cold, Rain tSi I was ready to pleafe roy fejf with the Thoughts of enjoying a cora-fonabie Houfe, a warm Fire, and other outward Comforts-but now thefe have lefs Place in my Heart ( thro' the Grace of Goci) and my Eye is more to God for Coillfiirf. In this World I expea Tribulation ; and it dcjcj notnow, >s formerly, appear ftrange to me ; I don't in llitli Sealinii of J)h]ieulty natter my felf that II wdl be better hsicifter ; but rjlber think.how much worfeit might be; how much greater Trials others of God's Childrenhaveendurei J and how much greater pre yet por-l«ps reibrved for (lie. tjleill-d be God, 'that he makes the Thoughts of my Journey's End and of my Didbluiioa a great Comfort to me, under my iharpeltXrials ; &fcarce ever lets thefe Ttionghtsbe attended with Terror or Melancholy ; but they are attended frequently with great Jov.

Friday, Nm. 23. Vifited afick Man ; difcouifed and pray'd ■with him. Then vifited another Houfe, where Vis one dead and laid out; look'd on the Corps, and longed that my Titne might come to iipart, that 1 might be rojli Chrijl. Then went home to my Lodgings, about one o'Clock, Felt poorly; but was able to reid, moil of the Aftexauon.

[ Within the Space of the ncsl twelve IJavs, he p,iHi:d under many Changes in the if'raincs and Extrclfea of his IVIind, He had many Seafons of the fpecial /nfluencomf God's ''pirir, animating, invigorating, and comfortitig him in the Ways „f God and Duties of Religion ; but had fome Tunis of great Deieaion and Mclanclioly. lie fpciit muchTlrat, within this Spice, in hard Labour, with othar, tc make for Iiimfsif a little Couage

TAj LIF E

otHat.to live in by himfelf thro' the.Winter. Yet he freqviqctty preached to theMMi,&: Tpcaks ofrpeckl Affittancc he had from Time to Time, in addrcffing hiinfcif to them s And of his (ome-times having confiilerableEncouragcment,from theAttention they gave. But ooTuertlaj'£)«!OT*.4. he was funk intogreatDifcou-ragementj to fee 'cm ( mpft of ^em ) going 'o Company to an idolatrous F^afl and TiajKi, after he had taken abundant Paini ¥?ith tliem to diffwade 'em ftoih thefe Things. ]

Tliorfday, Diiimb. 6. Having now a happy OpportunitJ'ol being retired in a [loilfe ot my own, which f have lately procur.* *d and moved into, and cooftdering that it is now a long Tim« fincelhave been able, either on Account of bodily Weaknefs, or for want of Retirement, or fome other UJfiiculty, to fpenii any Time in fecrct Faftlng and Prayer ; confidering alfo th? greatiiefsofmyWork, and the extream Difficulties that attend it: Ai:d that my poor hdium are now -wurjhipphg Devils, not-withifandingall the trains I have taken with them, which almofl overwhelms my Spirit : Moreover, confidering my extremcBar-reiinefSj fpiritual Deadnefs and Dejedion, of late i as alio thfl Power of fi^rne particular Corniptions j i lat apart fhis Day for fecrct Prayer and Fatting, to implore the BEeiTing of God on my fell, on nay poor People, on my Friends, and on (he Church of God. Atfirft, J felt a great Backwardnefs to the Duties of thff Day, on Accom^t of the fet-mtng Impollibiliry of performing them; Bjt the Lord helped me to break thro'this Difficulty, God was pleafed, by tlie Ufe.of Means, to give me fome clear Conviction of my SJnruineis, and a Dilcovery of tk Piague af my ezva Heart, more affefting than what I have of late had. And efpecially 1 faw my Sinfulnefs in this, that when God ii?,d ■withdrawn himfelf, then, inflead of livingand dying in Furju'n of him, I have been difpofedlto one of thefe two Things j either ( firfl J to yield an unbecoming Refpetil ro fome carthlyOb-je£ls, as if ffappinefs were to be derived from them ; or (2dlyJ to be fecrctly/ratuarj^ and impatient, and unfuitablydefirous of J?w/^, fo that [have fometimes tho't i could not bear to thint my Life mnft btlcngrhen'd out. And that which often drove me to this impatient Defireof Death,was aDefpair of doing any Good in Life ; and f chofe Death, rather than a Life fpent fot Nothing. But now God made me fenfible of my Sin in thefe Things, and enabled mc to cry to him for Forgh^efi. Yet this was not ail L wanted ; for my Sou! appeared exceedingly poilitted, my Heart feetti'd hke a Neil of Vipers, or a Cage of

ttndean

0} Mr. David Biainera; A.D. 174+;

em and hateful Birds : And therefore I wanted (0 be pn-, ilicd Jj tilt Bhed nf Sjirinilins, that dianfilh fram oil Sm. And Iliis, I hopc.l was enabled to ptay for inFaitl), 1 enjoyed much more Inlcnfeners, Fervency, acdSpirituality, than I ejipeaed; Hod was better to roe than my Feats. And towards Night,

I felt my Soul rejoyce, that God is unchangeably happy and florious ; that he will be glorified, whatever becomes of his Uieatules. 1 was enabled to perfevere in Prayer '(ill ibmeTlmc:

II the Evening; At whichTime I faw fo mucliNced of divina Help, in every Refpcdl, that 1 knew not how to leave olF, and iiid forgot that 1 needed Food. This Evening, I was much jlHfted ia meditating on i/af. lii. 3. Bleffed be the Lord for my Help in the paft Day. „ . „ . ,

Friday, Dimni. 7. Spent fome Time in Prayer, in the Mriraing ; enjoyed fome Freedom and Affeaion in the Duty, .lud had longing Defirea of being made fsithful ti ihi Diatb. Spent a little Time in writing on a divine Subjoft; Then •.ifited the hMilnu and preacb'd to 'em. But under inexpreffi^ 'lie Dejeaion: I had no Heart (0 fpeak to them, and could not do it, hut as I forced ni? fell: I knew, ihcy muH hale to heat me, as having but juft 50! Home fiom their idolatrous tXlft andDeS'il-Worflilp.— Inthe Evening, had fome Free-Join in Prayer and Meditation.

Saturday, Deem- 8. Have been uncommonly free this Day from Dcjeflion, and from that diftlciiiog Apprehenfion, that (could do nothing: Was enabled to pray and itudy with fome Comfort; and efpecially was affifted in writing on a divine Subjea. In the Evening, my Soul rejoyced in God ; and Ibkfa'd his Name (or fhining on my Soul. O the fweet and bleil'ed Change J then felt, when God irssihl m ml if Osrknep ifHO his marvelhut Light / ,

Lord's-Day, Df«;ri. 9. Preach'd, both Faits of the Day, -t a Place call'd Greenwich, in Niw-Jcrfe!, about loMiles from my own Houfe. In the firft Difcourfe I had fcaice any Warmth ot afFeflionale Longing forSouls. !n the Intermiffion-Seafon i -ot alone among the Bulhes, and cried to God for Pardon of my beadnefs ; and was in Anguiih and Bitlemcfs, that I cou^ not addtefs Souls with more Compafllon and tender Affeaion t fudged and condemned my felf for want of this divineTemper : I'ho' I faw I could not get it as of ray felf, any more than I lould make a World. In the latter Exercifc, bleffed be the Lord, I had tome Fervency, both in Prayer andPreachlDg ; and efjecially in the Application of my Difcourfe was enabled to ' '' X addrefs

y& LIFE

add/sfs precio^ Souls with A fe Si on. Concern, TmJefaers jod rt^onun.t,. 1 hs Spirit of God, E .hi,k, was there ; a= the i, were apparenr, J ears running down manv Checks i

Monday, £1..™ 10. Near Noon, ! prMch'd^gain : Qoi gavs me fonc Affilbnco, and enaUed mc to be in ftrae De«^ /ar.hM i fo that r hd Peac= i„ my o«,„ Sofl, and a very co^

away fromCr«w;£*,aa<l rodeHorae j attived juft in fbeEvenins By.h<iWay my Son! bfcft'd God for his •CJoodncfsTandll Woy«d, that fomueh of my Work wa=do„e, and 1 fo mlel .™„ my bleffcd Reward/BM,d 6. God'for Gra«r.a

Tuefday, !>,„;„. I r Feft ray poorly in eoJy.beio^ mud* ««dani worn out Ihc !ail-Might.' Was aiSfted i,; &„,! M„al my Brcsit, that had not much Eefolution in my Work, oi, J fcow Ilongfo, thstWorld wh.r,th. ,>>,m-y are atlefl ' And veil thro-the Goodneft of God i don't now feel impatient. ^ } Wed nefday, Dium. 12. Was again very weak - ba fnm^',1 ^hataiilfedin fcc,« Prayer, ..A..t.l2 2T h^l^Z^ Sweetnefs .0 cry C™, £,rrf»r.^ C™,. £,,,^72^3 j»,ri/y MjSoul^^.i/,r5,r;, for ,4, /;«VG,;/ oS ^ebgh.Srl ,t ,s topray nnderTcoh fwee. Influence P Ohwl modi belter is this.thsn one's mcimnFt«>i 1 I had^t thkTf^^f noDifpofitionto^at (tho'iate fn L Morn ng rfo'r'SMyl Food appea. d wholly TaH!o6. O how much \m\rt"^L^A tha„ ff,n,, than tl,Q fweeteli: Wine I— I vifiici „„IJJZ7^^m totbe/w™, in tho Afternoon, but nndf'lch D^ ffi^o^nf Found r^yl,urpr,„r under fomo Concern for hi, SouifXhl w.! (onre Umfort to ma ; and yet fill'd me with r,™ Care 1 1 longed greatly for his Converiion j lifted up ravHeart to Goi 1 ZTJt: ' ™%'"'^'."S .0 him .. C.meHoL,Ld ^ou :d 0^* ^ my Soul to God for h™ : Enjoyed fome Preedora in Prayer | and waseiMbied.I ibmk, to leaveall with God. '"''"' >■

Til'"Hay D,am. 13. Efideavoured to fpend the Day ire Faft.ng and Prayc, ,0 nnplorc the divine BleirLg, rao'e efpct ->ity r,n my poor People; and in particular, IfLht/or con- ' vertmg Grac. or my h„rpr,>,r, and three oj four m re un « I'l fonte Concern for the.r SouU. Iwa, much difordered in ,b" "r"^an^r '?'^=' '■uthavingdeter^inedtofpendtbeD,; '' inth,.Mannor,Urlempted,t. SomeFrcsdora I had in pleadinR forihefe poor concerned Souls, feveral Times i and wL i"! «-.««ltngfo, (hem, t epjoyed grsiitei fwdgm ftgra wanJ.ing

ihlngfomuch as for '"f" J™ "^^ "J,f .^™ ;,,, bad moftS=nte andTheVilenersl then found m^ywyti j ^^^^^^^

of, were FriJo, and /™;'''"5J?°iS^ to think

God. The former of thefe cuifed '"iil^"'" ^^ „, „erf.rniin?

of writing, or ^"^^'X^CZ'^l^f^^^'Z^ ' «'""'' fomeothergre«Work,thattnyK™c"J _, ;„„

be dead. M/,S7'*"="'ASt'rM'ranper. With this, Drfpsir.tt find fomucho l»"™"=" wand line Thoughts, ■ "nd'tbe'other Evil VfT and c^ ready tog - over Hrf^i^S I was ^'I'noa^vcrwheln.d, JJ "= - / ?^,^ ^ „„ad

after aSpi''''"/l?7°"f Vfld ttou^t 1 «>= "><■« *^""/* '*"."

„,^ Ma,: Yet after all ^7 fe""™='f'^ Qood, and taugM

'"^^^r-^^o^r^::^-'-"™'^

knew not what to ff'",' p'^rtoaddrefi theip Confcicnccs,

^Ji: of Tot g" eal De^trit^D^Ut ab'out ever .... or

IHecontinueduttdcr the fame D.]eato.th.ne.t Day.]

ti .« Was fo ovMwhelmed with De-Lotd's-Day, Dtcim. <«• y^^;!" iio„„M forDcatheKced-:eaio..,that I knew not f."'° ^^i, „ ^od ib, Flo.h were ingly ■. My Soul was/.^^ 'f'td, TS'd, *« my Soul was eady to Jr™.™-- 1 wf f" ■""^'^ S my Thoughts f«ed it, Z /kind of Hnrronr : I «";! ""J^^'^.h^nt Fluttering andDi-p,ay«. for the Space °f.™'"^f'^'^j/^ "t j did not live toGod = arakon: IWS«x«ed.na)r.(hanred^^^^^^^ State s but would

I had no diftreffing ^^ff^.T^l ^l,M polBbly know) mto have cheerfully ventured { as fi" '' the'feA'™, IBS'

Bernity, Whiktwas g-B -bto^^.^^^_^^^^^^

Sout was m Anguilh i I W.IS lu o ^^ ^.ts

raj LIF E

And in,I..J I wa. enabled fp= k if ^t" '■^"-^'^' '"f" ■ prauchcd .0 another C™p,ny of (hem Tutlr'"^

tHanccm writing o„ a diWn= Subiea *""* ^*5i

'hcirHc.as. flutaiWr fd r^'^ P " '" """= ''"'■= ' . me tD fpeafc wi,!, Warm h M T, '^"™'=?' ^"dtJod '=elp-<l|

wasonly undc-r Convifl™ „f hi/joftSa^. ?T?„d ™.'''r*-

«wmccd of tl e Ccr ;I o? ,\ ■,""" f'',"-^P'^""! r=™-di ..dca„,oa„aySg;^747^°;^^^^^^^

in Prayer and TbanF^ n,^ ' ".f <)>':»> >mtt of th= Evening

WcdnE'-!,,. 75 ■.""''""""Sf'lw/of dune Grace »« alfo ro bJA hia Nam' or ^J. '^ ?" "''' P""'^ '^''''P'^ i

upan

d/JWr. David Brainerd. A.D. i^f' '39

, I, mv Spirit for tlic Salirition of thofe ptctrfous Souls, and ,h, l/nlafgemciit of the Rcdeetnct's Kingdom among them. My „,1 holied iiiGod for romeSuceefs in my Miniftrr ; And b]eiied I, Ids Name for fo much Hope. .^ , t-l .

rhurfJay, Dmml. %c. Was enabled (o viEt the Throne <i( I ,, a,T Ircqucntly, this Day ; and thio' d.vme Goodnefs ejijoy-

, ail Krccdotn and Fervency, funJry Times: Was much

jliulcd in trying for Meicy for my poor People, and felithear-

I lulnefs and Hope in my Requella for them. [ fpMt much of llic Day in Wiiting i bu! vm enabled to iiiitrmix I rayer with mv Studies. . , r^ I _.

Fiida¥,£'ft™*.2i. Was enabled sga.ntopray wilbl'fcedom, Uhearrolnsfi.and Hope. God *a> pleaftd to m^ke the Dni, comfortable and pleafant to me ; fo thlt I oehghted to pcrfe-verc, and lepcatedly to ens-age in it. Towards Noon, viiited my People, and fpent the whole Time in the Way to them in

' Prayer, longing to/«tfoP™<"/G.^ among tnem. as tnere .ppLMfat^efhingofitthelaftTnefdayi and ! found .1 fiveet 10 reft and hope in God. F«ach'd to them twice, and at two diiHnfl Places : Had confiderablc FrocJoni, cich 1 nilc, and fohidmy/ii(«-/.r«<r. Several of 'cm followed me Iromone Place to the other: And ( thought, there waJ fonic 'l""""'"" llMcnce difcErnable amongft them. Tn the Evcnrng.was affifteli iti Prayer again. BlcEsd, falefftd be Ihe Lord,

r Very much the fame Things are esprefEsd concerning his Inward Frame, Excrcifes, and AiTiftances on Saturday, as on the preceeding Days. He obferves, that this was acomfortahli: Week to him. But then condudcs. Oh ! rhat I hadnsRiifm t, comtliM nf math Barrnmf:. Oh thit Ibirt wen n, vatnTbt ti md ml McSikyu lidging ""■'*'" ""«• ^*' ^'"^ ^'"^' *™ ^l"!^ fir Ibat JVurld, wbtr, thiy rifi ttct Da) mr Nilhljayim, Hsif, liohi, H'h, u Ihi Uri Gti Alm^^hty, &e. On the following Sibbath, he fpeaks of AlTiftancc and Freedom in his pubhck Work, but as having iefs of the fenfible Prefence of God, than fiequcnlly in IheWock plft: Cot yet fays,hisSoul was kcptfrotn linking in Difcouragcmeht. On Monday, again he rccm d to enjoy very much (be fame Libert r and I'crvency. ihro' IheDay, that he enjoyed thro' the gtoatctPart of the prcceeduigWeek.*]

' Th^s Day hi; wrote the fifA mur added at the End of thisHiftory, ,. .e^ Tu*y,

>40 ■lEt.i'!. ,5'-^« LIFE a.D;

TueMsj'.Bmmiis.Enjoyd very little qEictS!™ lafiNwhfc br Rc»C„. .(l,„J,ly WMkucft, and th. dofencft of \ StS

I w.>,<Jd,el,i.Jwicb.l.= divine Glory and Happinei mi,A joyed ihac (;,„l «.=sGod,& ,h=the was uDchingeibi; pcflif.3 Of td,ry ,n<t liWlcdi.ef.. Tho' God h.U ^y 4" »"i1

•BH Wenkners, m continued Meditations on LuhiilAl ■j.SM lb>f> thu. year, 1 com, fidhg Fruu, &c. My Meditations WW w«t > and I wanted to fci before Sintieis tlieir Sin andDang^

[He continued in a very low State, as to his bodily Heallji for fomc Days : Winch feni! to have been a gre« flindrand fohim in liM lelijioui Kmtrtirc. md PuiCuits. But yet fjeeJi liwfltt (jBir llfi!''* i>l di«loc Afnrtancc, from Day to Davl

I mie« (In, Wt.^k (,> I,., hdim, ; and there appeared ftiH fomof Cancm, ,n,ongtt them for rheirSouIs. OnSa.urday, he rodeZ' llie _//■>> bettlcmeni, about 15 Miles from iiis Lodaine^ in orde3 to fpcnd the Sabbath there. ] ^='ogi"&.ui orded

Lord's-Day, £>,„mJ. 30, Difcourred, both Paris of the DavJ Irom Jfflf f viu. 34. IFhofcivir will am aft^ mi, &c. God eaia mc very great Freedom and Cleatnefa, and (it, the AfcerrfooS cfpecially) conCderable Warmth and Fervency. In the Even"! inK iilfo, had very great ClBarnefs while eonvernng wilh Friendal on lijvme Tilings : f don't reraembcr ever to have had raorsj EfarApprcbenfions of Religion in myLife ; But found a Strua-' gle, in (be Evening, with fpititual Pside, I

[On Monday, he prcach'd again in the fame Place withJ JTccdom and Fervency J and rode homo to his Lodging ■ andl arrived in Ibe F-vening, under 11 confiderablc Degree of bodilv i Jllnek, which conllnucd the two nest Days. And he complain* ■ much of fpirimal Empiinefs and Barrennefs on thofe Days,]

Thuf fday Jamofy 3.1744,5, Being fenfihle of the great want oioinnelnfluencfs, and the out pouting of God's^piritjlfpent Ihl. J)ay m Faffing and Prayer, to feck fo great a Mercy for ray icji, aim my poor People in particular, and for the Church of 'jo" inRcncral, In the Morning, was very Lifelefs in Prayer and could gci fcarcc any Senfe of God. Near Noon, enjoyed 'nine Iwcei Freedom to pray that (taWillif. GiilnDght in every

Rcfpsft

if Aff. David Braincrd. AD. 1743. 14*,

Hcfpcfl becoiKe mint: And I am perfwaded, it was fo at that 'Fime in fome good Degree. In the Afternoon, I was exceeding weak, and could not enjoy much Fervency in Prayer ; hut fcK ,igre»t Degree of Dejeitlon; which,! believe, wan very much owing to my bodily Wcaknefs and Dffordcr.

Friday, 'Ian. 4. Rode up to the Iniam, neat Noon ; fpent foiiieTijnetheie under greatDiforder : IWly Soul was/«n:4 ^om« injo fl'M4;^a(8rj,aBd [ was almoft overwhelmed withMelancboly. Saturday, Jan. J. Was able to do foraclbinB atWtuingi but was muchdifoiderctl wilh Pain in my Head. At Night, wan iliKrefs'd with a Senfe of my fpirilual Pollution, and ten Thou-fmJ youthful, yea, and cbildifii Follies, that no Body but my , fdf bad any Thought about 5 all which appeared to me nov/ ,-Irclh, and in a lively View, as if committed Y^fterday,and made inv Soul alliamed before Cgod, and.caufed me to hate my felf.

Lord's-Day, Jan. 6. Was fiill diltrefs'd with vapoury Dif-eiders. Preached to my poor Jna'iflW ; but had little Heart or Life, Towards Nijjht, my Soul was prefs'd under a Senfe of mjUnfailhfulnefs. O she Joy Si Peace that arifes from a Senfe of haimg tila'm'iiMx'cy sfGsi It ii failhfai ! And ()h,lhoMifery andAnguilli that i'pring from an Apprcbciifion of the contrary !

[ His Dejection continued the two next Days ; but not to fo great a Degree on Tuefday, when he enjoyed fome FVeedom and Fervency in preaching to the lnikni.'\

Wednefday, Jan. 9. In the Morning, God was pkas'd to remove that Gloom which has of late opprcfs'd m^ Ildind, and gave me F'rcedorn and Sweetnefs in Prayer. £ was encouraged and flrcngthe'd, and enabled to plead for Grace for my felf, and Mercy for my poor Indiam 5 and was fweclly affillod in my InterceiEons with God for olhers, BIcfl'ed be his holy Narao forever and ever ; Amen, and Amen. Thofe Things that of late have appeat'd moil difKeultand almoil inipoffibie, now appeared not only poffible, but eafy. My Soul fb much delighted to continue inftant in Prayer, at this blelTed Seafon, that 1 had noDefirefor my nittjf^iy Fad: even dreaded leaving cffpriving at ali.lcft I fliould loiethisSiiiritualily.and (his hleilbdThJukf.d-nefs So God which [then felt. I f«l[ now quh((willing (otive, and undergo all Trials ibat might rtmJin forme in a World of Sorrow; but ffill longed for Heaven, ihut ] might glorify God in a pcrfefl IVSanner, O amt. Lard ji/m, cMit jukily. Spent the Day in Reading a little ; and in "fome Divcrlions, which I was neceffitaled to take by Rcaliin of much Weakners and Diforder. In the Evening, enjoyed (broeFnedom and Intehfe-cefs in Pi3)-cr. ' [Tfi^

y^ai- Mt, zf.

y^sLIFE

f The three remaining Days of the Weelr I,- «,-and f=.b,c.,B„dy , but'«ve^,h=J'^onVStd X Z fame coiaforfabJE fwcct Frame of Mind, as i, ev„rS, w il |«fday, O. th. Sabbath, th. S«.eett.e'6 ^H'S aS^

fijfhcf jn my Studies or Devoilon^ ■ And f„ ,k^ J^'tle irceioJ W ],«for „„yThi„a,„ ,„i, W„M Id L- Grace rfi; Jieartft Appruacha ; and even X„! L^ DcalliinUi

. World of Sorrow, a™ „i li,LT T > '"J'"'^ ' ™"' '"

™. owio, ,tfi; to ^odiS;trt^t^^'^;r/DS?,]:J

fcquemly and i=rve„tly thlnu ut a„H „ V° F?."'™

(j/Mr. David Braindfd. A.D.I745' H^'

Ikifiis me to Labour and Study far hira ! He does but ricihi his

I'twiijwhtB I am enabled in anjMeafure to praife hinijlabour for

T klui, anil live to hira. Oh, how coinfortable and fweet it is,

III feel the Affiffance of divine Grace in the Perforoiance of the

IJuiicB (Jod has enjoined as I Bttfi iht Lord, O m> Sm/.

Il I Tlit fame Enlargement of Heart and joyfulFtame of Soul

^V.>atini5cd thro' the nest Day. But on the Day folbwJHg it

ki'jiito decline i which Decay feenu to have continued the

mliulcof the nentWecli; Yet he enjoyed fame ScafolU o£

Iftcisl and fweet AITiHancc.J

Lord's-Day, >s. 27. Had the greatell Degree of inward Anruilh, that alrnoli ever 1 endured : I was perfcflly over-(vl.cImcJ, and fo confufed,th,it after I began to iifcourfe to tha hiiinns, before i could fioiOi a Sentence, ibmetimea I forgot entirely what 1 was aiming at; or if, with moch difficulty, 1 had rccollcfled what I had before defigned, ftill it appeared ftrane=, and like fomething I had long forgoiten, and had now but aii Impetfea Rcmtmbrance of. [ know, it was a Degree of UiHraaion, occafion'd by »a);Dury Difardcrs, Melancholy, fniritual Defertion, and fome other Things that patlicularly frefs'd upon me, this IViotniEg, vvilh an uncommon Weight, the principal of vfhich refpcaed my hdUns. This diftreffing liloom never went ofFlhe whole Day ; but wasfo far removed, that 1 was enabled to fpcak with fome Freedom and Concern to the Indium, at two of their Settlements ; and I think, there was fome Appearance of the Frcfence of God with us, fome Ecrioufnefs, and fcemiog Concern among the JjlAasj, at lealt a few of them. In the Evening, this Gloom continued ftili, till Family-Prayer, » about nine o'Clock, and almol thro' this, until I came near the Ciofe, when i was praying ( as I ufualSy do) for the Illumination andConverfion of my poor People i an4 (hen the Cloud was feattei'd, fo that I enjoy'd Sweetnefs and Freedom, and conceived [lopes, thjl Sod deiigned Mercy for fome of them. Tiie fame I enjoyed afterwards ill fectetl raycr 5

» Tho' Mr. Braiatrd now dwelt by himfclf in the foremen-

■ ■ tiotl'd littleCottage.which he had built for his ownUfe,yet

tliat was near 10 a family of white People with whom he

had lived before, and with whom he ftill attended Fannlj-

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in which prccIousDuty 1 had for a confiderable Time Si ncfs and Frcedcin, and (I hope ) Fairh, in praying for fiiypoor Indiam^ and dear Pritnds and Acquaintance t„ ,.. England ioi elfcwhere, anti far the dcarlnrcteH of zi'jiil general. Bk[! th Ltrd, 0 my Ssal, and fmit ait all Bimfitu

£ He fpenf the reft of this Weefc, or at Jcaft the mod of tU under DcjeSion a.ndMelsncilolj : Which on Friday rofe tof eiitrcani Height ; he being then, as ho bimfelf obferves, nj csercifcd with vapoury Diforders. This exceedingGIoaini tontinued on Saturday, 'lii! the Evcning,when he was igaifl' lievcd in I'amily-Praj-er ; and after it, was refrefli'd in fectit, and fels willing to live, and endure Mardfliips in the Caufe 3 God i and found , his Hopei of the AdMncemcnt of Chrilft Kingdom, as alfo his Hopes to fit ibe Pswir nfGsd among tin poor hdiiuii, confidcrably raifcd. ]

^ Lord's-Day,^ft<. J. In the Morning, 1 was fomcwilat ti> licved of thai Gloom and Confuflon, that my Mind has of lal| heen greatly cxerrifed wilh : Was enabled to pray wi:!i fottti Compofure, and Comfort. But however, went to my /Wfsi* trembling; for my Sou! rintmhidthi Wtrmiasad and the gA ( I might almofl fay the HM) of Friday lafl ; and ! wasgreatf afraid 1 Ihould be obliged agaiji to drink of thatCc/i sfTremUmtl which was inconceivably mere hitter than Death, and made ml long for the Gravi! more, unfpeakably more, (ban for hid Trcii fares, yea, inconceiyably more than the Men of (his World loil| for fitch Trcafurcs. . But God waspleafed to hear my Cties.anl to afford me great Aififtance ; fo that I fcjt Peace in my own Eoul ; and vvas fatisfisd that if not one of the Indians ihould hh proH'led by iny I'reaching.but fliould all be damned, yet 1 ihoulj be accepted and rewarded as faithful j for 1 am perfwaded GoJ enabled me to be fo.— Had fomo good Degree of Help after. Wards, at another Place; and much longed for (ho Conveiiioll, •>{ lllc poor hdhK!. Was fomev.-hat refrcihed, and corafor'able, towards Night, „„d in the Kveniog. O that my Soul mishft praife the Lord for his Coodnefs,--- .EnjoycJ foMcFrsedom ifl the Kveniog, in McdilaJion on Luii xli'i. 14. 1

[In the ihree next Days, he was the Kuhic£l of much Do jeaion ; But the'three remaining Days of the Wcclt ib-m (L have bee.) fpcntH-ith much Conipofure and Comfort. On th? next babbatl), he preach'd at Grimivich in Nau-Jtrfiy. In thr: tvonfUg, be todeeii^ht iMiles to vilir aiicic Man at the Point of Uealh, and fflund bini Sjicjcliltfs and Seiiftlcfs.j

Monday

e/M-. DaviiJ Brainerd: A.D, 174;: MS

Monday, Fib. it. About Ereak-of-Day, (he ficJt Man «cd. IwasafFeaedattheSight: Spent the Morning with the Moornera ; and after Prayer, and fome Difcoutfe With them, I rclurtied to Grtinwkl!,inA preached again iiomPfil. Ixxxix 15. And the Lord gauo me AiTiffance : 1 felt a fweet Love to fouls, and to the Kingdom of Chrifl ; atid longed that poor Snttets might imu. tkjcyfi^t S,mli. Several Fetfons *«e much tfefled. And after Meeling.I was enabled to dlfcourfe, with freedom and Concern, tofome Pcrfonsthat apfititd to me under [pirllual Trouble. Left ihc Place, Twccily c.niiH.fed. anJ^roj c L= to myHonfe about » Uilea didant. Ddcom f,-d rSFj .etfds ,iid inculcated divine Truths upon fome. In the Lvemng, was m the moil folemn Ftame that almoft ever I remember to have rxpctienced: S know not that ever Death appeared more reaf !„ me. or that ever I raw my felf in the Cond.tion of a dead Corpfe, laid out,and drefs'J for aLodging m the fdent Grave, fo evidently as at thisTime. And yel I felt exceeding comfortably . Mv Uii was ccmpofed and calm, and Z)«J* ''ff^'^^,Zt „t a Sti«e. I think, I never felt fucb an un.vetf,.! Mort fica-, on to alf created Objcfts a, now- Oh how gtca. an f,.lcmt, :, Thmg it appeared to die ! Oh, I10W ,t lays the Br;^>'-^lll»» '°"' in the DuKI And Oh, how va.n and tt,an,g d.d the K.ches ,h.lrs,andPleafuresof the World appear ! I ""W "o , I ,larenot, tom«h as think of anyolth™ : iotD^f,D«''b, lolcntn ( Iho' not frightful }C../A appeared "*^ Ooor. Oh, 1 eould fee my felf dpad, and kid out, and mclofed ,n '"yCothn, ,„d put down into the cold Grave, with greateft Salemn,ty,but vihont Terror I I tpent mofi of theEvcnitlg, m convetfing uthaJ=arChrimanF?iend : And.blelTedhcUod ,t«as a cem.

Portable Evening to us both.-^- What ate ^'^^^^^^,^^^1 Comfolls ' What are Sorrows ? What are DiftreiTts i /M W ;-/™rr; It mmks, lb., ibey v,hkhu,..p,b, m iW ihej ■L.,pt

j.Si Amen.-Bleir=d be God for the Comfort, of the

''Tuefdav Fd. t^. Was exceeding weak ; but in a fweet te^etcompotcd Frame, moll of the Day : !■ elt my H.arl

''^^elX^^-""wn.ch.etci.dwi,hvapc^. Diforders; but ftill enabled ta maintain Sokminty.and I th.nK. Spitiwlit)'.. ^ ^ J Tucfi'si',.

p

tiS J^t.2j: rfo LIFE

g!.ij.a: Enjy'd Health, .ndft«Jo„i„ ^,wl,k: Had,

Week m rom= Mwfure ; Wh>E 1 fd, o„ Mcndpy jl PrS"°l'/'" f™\^°"«''"^Ws iiegrce, ever &cj. '■

I.h.d .,.„ . :„e. ScnVe^of ..^.S G.{f/r Gor/d'f S0..I was encouraged, wafm'd a„J quicken'd, and myDc

n«edlo<,g,„lVerand Medi,„bn, imc™;.;„g .V ^I h

from ;, ? T' "r'"'"f '" '"^ '1'^"'='' i-y ^''y 'rhi"s L

from fc, fwcct a„ Ex.K^k. I i„ng,j ,„ ^„^,^;^ , J J' then «.d,i.,=J upo„, ,0 ,b= World of Si/ncr... fo Lw7

jnan mrjt «.c. 11 be Aftanooo, i( picafcd God to lV;,„. , Erea,Fr..d<,m .„d Fervency ;„ nr, Dircou.ftr.nd J w "eli

?,t r A J • ^ "'' fcarce..7er e.iatled to ofFer the fri Grace of 0„d ,„ p=ri(hi„g Si„„er, wirh more Freedom 1

joj'cea, that he was Gij mir all hUffid F.,„„^ . v.\. .11

Jausij, croudcd ii-.!h f^,^ .; "'ffjuriyir ; but was te»il

1 crouaca With L.j.-ni>aj,_r mJ Convctfaiiwi, »ail Jongcif

io/ JVfr. Divid BrainertJ. A.D, 1745, ^y,

(,> Ii: more alone with God. Oh ihit 1 could forever blefs God for the Mercy oi this Day, who m/wirei mi in tk Jiy tf ay

I The reft of this Week feeros to have been fpent under a Decay of lliis Life and Joy, and indjfttefling Confliils with Corruption ; but not vrithout forae Seafans of RefreihmeOE an J Comfort'}

Lotd's-Dsy, i^rf. 14. In the Morning, was much perplex'd : My Inltrprmr being ahfcnf, I kjww not how to piform my Work among the Indiam, Hywcvcr, I rode to the Ind'iaiUf got a Dutch-Man to Interpret for mc, iho' he ivas but poorly qualified for the Bufinefs. Afterwards, 1 came and preach'd to a few white People from Jshnv'h 67. Here the l.ord fcemed to unburden rae in (ome Meafure ; eipecially towards the clofeof my Difcourfe : I felt h'lecdom to open the Leu r/ Chrifl to his own dear Difdplii : When thereft of the World ferjaku him,, and tasfarfahiTi by him, that he cills them no more, he then tnrr.s to his own, and (ays, W'll J' al(' it """""f ■ ' had a Senfe of thefreeGiacoof Chrift to hiisown Pciiple, in fuch Seafons of general Apoftacy, and when Ihcy them felvcs in fame Mca-fure backflide with the World. O the free Grace of Chrift, that hi! feafonably minds his People of their Danger of Bael' fiktiag, and invites them to perfevere in their Adherence to him-fcif! I faw that isi-*/JJ*»^ Souli, who feem'd to be about iojo awiy with tht! World, might return, and welcome, to him tm-midiatilf i without any Thing !o recommend them ; nolwiih-ftatidingall their formerBackflidings. And (bus myDifcourfe'was fui ted .to my own Soul's Cafe ; for,of late, I have found a great, want of this Senfe and Apprehenfwn of dlviiicGiace j and have often been greatly difirefs'd in my own Soul, bccaufe I did not fuiiably apprehend this Fianlain iptn'd In purge amaySin ; and fo have been too much labouring for fpirilua! Life, Peace of Ccn-fcience, and progreffive Holinefs, in my own Strength: But now God (hewed me, in fomc Meafure, iisjfrmof all Strength, and ihs Fauntain ai zW Grace.— In the Evening, I felt fokmn, ri:vout, and fweet, rcHing on free Grace for AfUftaacE, Acceptance, and Peace of Coofcience.

[ Within the Space of the next nine Days, he fiitl frequent refielliing, invigorating Influences of God's Spirit; attended withComplaint of Dalnsfs, aiid withLongings aflsi fpititualLife u.^d holy Ftrrvency.]

fiS' Mt. if:

LIFE

WedntHnj., J^^ftA 6. Spent mofl of the Day in preparift

TL? / "■'\''.' ™« in i'ly Journey. I bok'd t. Go! S' ifZ '^^'"S.^f-ifi'^-l by fom= Friends, ft^e ofl S?cri '^^ r*° "u'j"'^ ^"'"'''^ S™v.d that I w,B .botti

«lkd l?!^-""."" ■" "">■ "'"■ ^''"= '■" Providence w1 ^™thl '•™°f ^« s g™t Comf„„; and'tis GcD th«f

^mSml,andf,Tg,tn3tiiUI4, BiTsifit!, ' ''

[The next Day, he ftt out on his Jonrney; And it wbA .W fve Wceb fcefore h= rcturnej,- The fpecul DcL fl .!n.Ji.„rney,he hinifeif decides sfierw.td=. !„ hisDiatffor-^

Serin l^^'T'rfr'r"' '^'^««"E with a ccL inl Mmifierin Ar™-£»fW. he Cjs thus, C^fr^^J ™(4 i;„ i, J

r,,^ &;l* G«^ tc,//>fW ;,, ,//ir A,V G/,,/ H= firft went into ' ^i™u,Pa„sof A'™.>/,,,andvifi,ed r«er.IMi„ite,s .L" An^ then wen, to A'^-Kri ; .nd fen, thence into N,w-lZ-»,^, going to var.Du, Parts of <;™««;V« : And then returned .

iZl '"f""","'P'''"" „f',«'«. He reems,\r the moH P.rt, fo have been free from Melancholy in thi» Journey ; and n, n^

tion,, :ind h,s preaching fometime^a.tendcdwilh very hopeful-

* In r"^'" ='=,''»,^^ ^'%". by what afterwards appears,

Appearances

ij/il^/-; David Buineri !A.D.i745j ^41^

AiM'f^^rances of a good Efte£^ gh (be Auditory. He alfo h^d niiiiiy Seafotis of fp^cial Comfort and rj7iritua] RefidhmerLrj in (Jmivc r ration witii Miiiiflers and other Chrlflian Pricndsj atli tlJu Jn Medication, and Prayer by himfelf alone.]

f1;if[ird&y, ^j*fi/Tj. Rade Home to my own Houfe at the t . I I . af Dilawate : Was eoabled to rcniGmber the Goocfnefs of ii.r _'.ord,who hasnowpreferved me wliUc riding full 600 Miles in this journey j has kept me that nor|?oriiiy Bones have been koken. Blefled be the Lord, who hnt prc-fcivcc! mc in tin? tdious Journey, and returned me in Siifviy in my own Houfc, Vctily *ciE God ihac has upheld msj and guarded my Goiiigi.

Lord's-Day, ^pril 14. Was diibrdercd in Body wiiFi ttifl ratiguesof my Uiejouiney ; but was ensbied however to preach to a conriderable Airembly of white People, gathered /rem al! Fans roand sboutjwith fome Freedom, from Ezd. xxxuu ir. As 1 live J faith the LoTit God^ &c. had much niore ASHKance ehanl cxpe<!^ed.

[ This Week, he went a Jourtiey to PhUadtiphk^ In order toengap;c the Gi'tJif^Mflwr there to ufL'hiii [ntcrefl: with theChitf Man of the Sin Nurhns,, ( with whom he m^iintaincd a flrlit Frlendflitp)tha; he woulJgivx himLcave to live atSfl/yi/.'/^JWM.^v and inflru£t the IndidTij i\i:n are wfthin their Terriroiies. * In his Wa,y to and from thcncc, he lodged \vhb Mr. Beat}', a young Prefhyterian Minifter. ' He fpeaks of Seafons of fwett fpiritual Relreflitnent, tlrat he enjoyed at his LodgidgsJ

Satufday, j^jOr/^ 20. Rede wiih lAr.B^aiy to Jhingto^, to attend iVlr. Tr^isf's Adminiftration of the Sacramentj actOifditig to the Method of the Church of Smiand^ Whtn we arrivEd, we found Mr.Trist preaching ; Afterwards ] preacb'd aScrmoii from Maiih. v.. 3. Eieffid are the Psttr in Splrht Stc- God was pleafed to give me great Freedom aad Tt^dernefs, both inPfai-crand Seimon ; The Affirnibly wau fwcetly lueUedj and Scores:

* The Indlnfii xiSufquahannaJi are a mJx'dCompany of many Nations, fpcaking various Languages^ and fci^ of 'em pro-pcrivof the ^ix Nation:, Bue yet the Country having formerly been cont|iicred by the Six Nutisnt-, ihej" claim the Land ; and the Sufqushsnjjah-Mknt are a fcind of Vafi'ais to thtra.

fto JEl,,2Sii:

?%''L«FE

WW^If m^Mrs R was, as I ,heB hopEd and wa= afterw,,,, a|TOclintly a.isfied by converfing wiih them, a fl^„rJ ftZ

n.= m.ch cxh.nfted, fo that 1 could fc.xcely fp^fc Id Ve? " could nothejp rejoicing ill God. '<>"". jei

Lords-Daj, ^/nVai, In the Mofning, was calm arl com. poW and h,d fcHK ou.-going=of Sou. .ffe'rGod i„ tJ^

h,s CJl.Hrcn might bs.„,e,-,.,nM with . /V.y? „/- J, nil

Mr 3» . m Iho Seafon of ibcAdmiuiftrarion of theOrdinant Mr. 3Mr, preached to tht MaltErade .brond, who could „ half havscrouded into .he Mecting-Houfc. I, iheSeafon of

t™ Fa^he 'f™T' .t-rO^J. People, wbc.,7hej ftaji „5« In^heA ,c.nc™ J pr«ci,'d abroad ,„,h= „hol= AffeniWyS

p^afcd ,gam ,o g,v. mo very gr/„ Freedom and Clearnefi f not fo much Warmlb a. before. Howcver.lhere vn/ tuofl

'l,d Prl."""*"^"^''^^ '='ift"pn,yH.ar. t.GodSy"'

bJ P;='"'°""'l'=r=. h=rprafeof much bodilc Diferderl bui of fomc Degree, of fpiri.ual Afliihuc. aud Frc'do". j

foS'^r.'^frt M "'."'■=' ™'' = '^^^'l'-" Friend wi.ta ; cry great Oc£r«. Aflcrffards, was ehaBJcd tp pray fer/

venilji

(1/Mr. David Braios^d; A.D. ly+ffi isY,

and to rclv on God fweedy, for sli Thities pirtameg It

::i Gidlmfi. Juil in the Evening, wasvifilcd by a dean

' llinttian Fricud, witb whom [ fpcnt an Hour or two in Con-

1 Mifttion, on ihc very Soul of Religion. There ale many »Ub

«hom t can talkniMi Silis>"i ■ Bi" alas, 1 (ind f™ with wbora

|uutoll:iJ«%"»''/''/' But, blefl'ed bethe Lord, thereare^

(jinc that love to feed on the Kernel, rather Ihan the Shell.

r The next Day, he went (o 'the IriJIi Selllement, often be-lore mentioned, about is Miles diflant i whoro bo fpent tbn llbbatb, and pteacheJ with (oni= coubilcrablc Affittancc. On Moiiday,he teturiied,in 4 very wcakStatc,to his ownLodgings.]

I Tuefday. jfpri! 30. Was fcarce able to walk about, and wai

obliged to betake my felf to the Bed, much of the Day ; anJ

li,cnt away tlsc Time in a very folitary Msatier i being ncithet

Itilc to read, meditate, not pray, and had none to converfe

I witii in that Wildemels. Oh, iiow heavily docs Time pafs

j uray, when I can do nothing to any good Purpofe ; but fcem

I tlitieed tottifle away precious Time ! Hut of late, Ihavcfeen-f

I It my Uuty to divert my felf by all lawful Means, that 1 inir be!

Ilit.atlcaft romefmallPaitof nry Time, to labour for God.

And here is the Diileience between my prcfent Diverfions, and

(liofe I once purfued, when in a natural State. Then I

made a god of Diveitions, delighted in them wilh a Negleft of

Gon, and drew cay liiglitft Satisfaflion from ibeni: Now I ufe

Ihtra as Mmm to help mc in Ihhg » C?oJ ; fixedly delighting

„ Him, and not in them, drawing my bighcft Sai.sfaaion from

I Hitit. Ilicn tliey wcie rov M; now they arc only Means

I iiading to my All. And thofe T^liIngs that ate the greatefl Di-

I veiGon, when puifued wilh this View, don't (end to hinder,but

protiiote my Eijitituslity ; and 1 fee now, mote than ever, that-

ibev are abfolutcly nccellary.

Wednefday, Afoy I. Was not able to fit up more than halt iheDav; and yet had filch Recruits of Strenglb fometimcs, that I was able to write a little on 3 divine iiiibjea. Was grieved that t could no more live to God. In Ihc hvening, lad fome Swectncfs and Intcnfcnefa in (ccict Prayer.

'Thurfday; Msy 2. In the Evening, being a little better in Health,! walk'd inlo the Woods, and enjoyed a fweel Soafon of Meditation and Prayer. MyThougbis run uponP/o/,xv."-'5-llhatl bifatislid, whm I swaii viitb (iy LAhnifi. And it was iQdsdapreciousTKttoms. lloiis'd '» P"''^'^'''" "'.^'^y*'

i^i' j^it is:

'ne LIFE

^^?-' ^r"l'''""''''" ■"'' ^^'^y ■^"* ■"«''» =11 fce mdd »ii^f,nE f"=h precioM diuineTruths.iis J had then aVie«, jl Keljih of. MyThougbrs were exceeding cfear,and rav Sniiid xefreaeJ—Bleffed be .h. Lord, .haf i™ m,tr& pS Wcainefi now for many Days together, my Mind it ™tT my, as at fome other Times. . j « .. iiutg

tfieMarmng: Had fome FrKdon,, Slrengtl,/a„d SweeiDl ^P«yer. Rode ,o .nd fpent feme TirSe with n.y 7W^^ In the Evening, jgam feiiring into the Woods, I criioved fol

Tt„^ !2'^ ''"'" "'*?'']'s wete fpent in much wesknefs of Bad4 Bm y« lieenjojtdfomeAmKance in pnbJidjsnd privateDu.ien and fem= la have rfn.ain'd free fro,^ Melancholy. 1 "'""'=«' Tuefday Afc^ 7- Spoilt'he Day mainly in ™ii^„p,„,-Ktron for a Journey into the Wildernefi. Was Mi wfak a^ concerned howl Should perform fo <iiiEcdta }ou nT^ Spe„J feme T.raom Prayer for ,he divine BIcffing.Dlrea,™ a"/ ^Tefrrn""^ -'e„dcdJonrney , but ^aot/d bodij7s,r"ng: to fpend the Day m f aftjog and Ptaycr. -^ ""cngB

t

jWhls Way thither thro- a hideous Wildernefa ; where aft I having bdg'd one Night in (he open Woods, he wrovertakL With. North^fcaKerly Storm, in which he «. .Imoft dyl^l ptria. Having no Manner of Shelter, and not being abk tab

I Zt"th'?.;: ?"'' "■ ^r' "= '™'^ >■-= "o tSmfo if h^ S; J; .If ''='™""i » 6° forward, in Hope, of rae.tina

live theNight Ihro-: B„, d,eirHorfes bap-ning to have eatMfo

(for want of olherFoodJ at a Place where ,hey k4d the S were obliged to drive 'em before thera.and travel onFoot unii ^ro- iheMercy Of GoJ (j.ft a.Du(k),hey came torB,rI-Hii, I II '^={^'"'KJ''jbatNight. After he cW toSiv/^X "i h^

Sft na TOhi.^ S=" <=™<""= f ^^"h^lan^ -, raw fonie of, o 8 Wn 7"''«;^"J preached todift-ercntNauons. by different' Intepictcts. Hewaa fometimes much difconragLi/and funfc'

'afiKr. DlvidBra!iSfi3', A.D; i J45; r'jjs

'to Chriftlanity. At other Times, he was encouraged by the DIfpofition that fome of thefe People man Ifefled !0 hear, and Willingoefs io be infttuaed. He here met with feme that had ( formeily been his Hearers St X/iumumni, anii had lemoved hl> thcr i who raw and heard him again with great Joy. He fpenc ■ Fortnight among the hdhnt on this River ; and pafa'd ibro cunfiderable Labours and Hardfhip!, frequently lodging on thej (Siound, and fomelimes in the open Air ; And at length he fell t«treme!y 111, as be WM Riding ill the Wlldcrnefi, being feiMl wiih atiAgue, followed wiih a burningl''i:vcr,;inil eslreinePainj In his Head and Bowels, allcnded with n great Kvacualion of Blood i fothathctho'themuftbavepErilhedln IheWlldemefi: But at laft coming to an Mim Trader's Hutt, he got Leave to (lay there juod tho' without Phyfick or Food proper for him, it pleafcd God,after about aWeek's Diftiefs, to relieve him fo far that he was able so ride. He returned hometvatds froin Jm-tauls, an liland far down the River ; where was a eonfiderablB Number of hJumi, who appeared more free fromPrejudices a-aaiiiif Chriftianity,than moft of the other Mian,. He arrived at "lieForkl oWtlimrt on ThurfJay/Wny jo.alter having lode in I Ihisjourncy about 34oMiles. + He caraeHorae in a very weak Stale & underDejeaion of Mind ; which was a greatHiivdrance 10 bim in religious Exercifes. However, on ihe Sabbath, after having pteachM to the Mhn^, he presch'J to the whiU People, with fome Succefs, from JT". liii- >o- »''* U plisjtillhi Lirdlo knifi Mm, i^e. fame being awakened by his preaching. 1 he nejit Day, he was much exercifed for want of fpmtoal Lilo DndFvvency.l , _._ -. ^

Tusfday, Yanf t. Towards Evening, was in Diftreis [or God's Frefencc and a Senfe of divine Things: Withdrei» niy felf to the Woods, and fpent near an Hour in Prayer and Me-iililion; and I think, the Lord had Compaffiotl on me, ant! pvc me fome Seole of divine Things i which was indeed ro-frcfhinB & quick'nmg tome : MySaulenjoyed In'.enfenefs ami Freedom in Prayer, fo that it griev'd me lo leave the Place. _

Wcdnefday, ?»« 5. Felt thirfting Defircs alter God, m the Morning. In the Evenitig,enjoycd a precious beafon ofBc-tjrempDt ■ Was favoured with fome clcaf and fweetMcditatioiis upon a factcd Text; DivincThings open'd with Clearnefs anS

f T!)is Is the Journey which he occafiooally mentions in his

,*s+

p^i^

•Mf.m FE

Certtimy, and bad a- divine Stamp upon tliem :~ My Soul m i alfo EiilarKcd and refrefliMinPrayer i audi delighted toconrinm in the Duty ; and was fwcflly affifkd in prayin|r forFdloiir* CliNHIaiiSjaDdciiJ'dear Brethren in the Miniftry. ElciledbM llie iJcar Lord for fuch Enjoyinciits. O liow fweet & precis it is, to have a ciear Apprchenfioti & teadcrSenfe.orthc A/iS 0/ Gtdlim/i, of true Holiiicrs, & Likencfs to she beft of Beini O what a IJIoffednefs it is, to be as much lilce God, as 'lis r ' Me for a Creature to be like Ins gieat Creator ! Lotd, giv ■mvKof til/Liimif; : 1 ffiall bcfiliijlij, ■whm lawahmil/ii Thurfdaj., Jmi 6, Was cni!agcJ, a confiderabiePartof 1 DaT. in Meditaioti and Study oti divine Subjefls. Enjol fame fpecial Freedom, Clemief!, and Swectncfs ioMeditatil O hovr refiqiliing it is, to lie cnabktl to improve Time well '

[' Tlicncxt Day, he went a Journey of near fifty IWilesJ Xl/hamini, to afllil at i Sacramtnlal Occailon, to be attended? Mr. Srtj/s tVfccting-Houfe ; being invited thither bv hit ' bis Peppk, ] ■•

Saturday, June 8. Waj exceeding weak aud fatigued wi3 Riding in the Heat Ycfterday ; Hut being dcJired, I preacljctj H the Afternoon, to a crouded Audience, from Ifm. xl. i. Cimm ye, Csmfirt yc m! Piapl,, faUh yaiT Gsi. God was pleafed 11 give me great Freedom, in opening she Sorrows of God's Pcm pie, and in fetting before IliemcomfortingConfiderations. Aai\ bicffcd be the Lord, it was a fwcet melting Scafon in the Affegij

Lord's-Day, Jw.g. Felt fome longing Defires of the Prej fence ofGodtnbc withhisPeopleon the folemnOccalion of tH Day. In the Forenoon, Br. Balj preat:hcd ; and there appeatj ed rorac Warmth in the .^ffcmbly. Afterwards, I affifted intS Admniiftratinn of the Lord's Siippet : And towards the clofe fl it, I difctiurfed to the Multitude aliinfsri, with fomeRefetenij tothatfacred PairagcZ/af. hii. ,o. Titit pkaftd tbiLsrd it IrA Htm. Here God gavo me great AdMance in addrefflngSinnwH And the Word was attended ivith amamngPower j manyScotesI if not Hundreds, in that great Af&mbly, confiftiogof three il (tour T houfand, were much affefted ; fo that there was a s.<rf

irmt Msumng, lih if. Msurning cf Hadadrimmon. Ij

Ihc Evening, I could hardly look any Body in the Face, bM MM re of the Impcr/effitins r faw in my Pcr/ormsnccs in .thj Day pafi. • ' ■

tf Mr. David Braiiierc3. A.D'.'» fn,'^. 4£S

■;? ^"^tJllZlthM LiJ;,. Aud bled-ed beGod,there Refrdtant among 6o4'. P«el= I. == .^^ ""i'"' "=^''' =■"* ''TrrS; 7«'"- Spent the Day mainly in Converfation

wi-h dtr Ch-^ft an,Friends.. »P<J m-i^\ ^-^^r"' ^="^1 B,,h dear ^n ., ;■ , ^ j^fl^aile iti*. tn keep Company vt-ifll

,S:^I!Sifd°n^TheWeO,= ..«.».'^W;f,^^^

i:„^'rS.^r/^fM nd', in rlvctll Minifters i/tbofe Part,,] toruble Mate o. ivi.n , s j^^.Bmnmck with a

A- »-7 r/^ towards tht Sea. f n the Afternoon, c.me to a Pla«Called c™^f<rr,, and meeting with a retioua IWit^idcr, n' M^mL I lodged there with him. Had fomci tnl^rgc-^^t^ttnd fL cm in Prajet with a N«mbct of People,

+ Mr. Brained having, when at ^'fi'^^J""'^^"fl^'-l

^ a Friend . h,\,{BA,<m of Fafls '^^^^ing hisLabours w th

the JW««and Reception among "l™' -'"^ 'J^ ^PJ-

of Time between Nov. S- 17«. =""' [•"'. 'f V£'wZ. « View toco;mca his Warr.r/w at the Lnd of M ■ i^™ force's Ordination-Sermon, and b,s J™™; '" C/^ ' y JhonUevel be reprinted) condud« the f™=*™,'™

jkf.V; i Ja ™y firjl yifi t> the Indians =» ^ew-Jtrjey,

™.ri,W, ;ltowr (4a( i hm, ripr,fmlld <n my pt,nUd ■ Journal.

^^^M^^m\

S A R T

igS Mf. 28. ;

na LIFE

Part VIL

From his firft Beginning to preach to thb Indians at Grofweekfung, 'till he reH turfid from his laft Journey to Sufqua4 hannah ill mth the Confumption,whereo} he died.

I VV wherein he had his greateft Sum/,, [n his Labours for gMcl of Souls, and in his particular Bufincis as a Miffionary to the 7w™/. A,i Account of which, if here puh- '

./h d, would doubtieft b<:very entertaining to the Readsr, after he has fee,, by the preceedidg Parts of ,his Account of his Life. Dow great and long-cominired his Delires for the fpiritua! Good ot this bort of People were,how he prayed,laboured,& wrefiltd "11 »j "i"'"''' '"' '*''"'='' ''""''eif and lu/Fered.to this End. After' alJ Mr, iro^fr^'r agonizing in Prayer, and travailing in Birth, ft, theConverfion of hdia,,,, and all she Intorchsngcs of his "i(=d Hopes and Expcaati<,ns,.!.nd then Difappointments and UdMuragemcnts i and after waiting in a Way of perfeveritijT irajer, Labour and Suffering, as It were through a loneMV*;-3t length the Z)^, dawn.: m^phg cmnu«for% Nighl.iui Jc', ' «»<i ,n It, M^rmrg. H, „«( f„,l, „,^;„^^ yj^ .^Jj,

w,li h:m. The defired Ev^nt is hru't to pafs st lafi ; fam at a J ime^ln a Place,and uponSubjeas.that fcsrce e7er enter'd into f '?■ ^f^n Accomn of this would undoubtedly now much ^ritlfy theChnfiian Reader; And it lllould have been here in-erled, as it ftands In his Diary, h,d it not been, that a parties-Jar flccounl of (his glorious and wonderful Succefe was drawn upbi Mr B™B.,^himfeJf, purfuant to the Order of the ho- ■ rourable Socielyin S^k^d, and publiih'd by him in his Life-(jaie; wSich Account ins nji have in their Hands"; andjbein-

fertiog

i/JWr. David Brainerd; A.D.ty4jJ. i^f

ftfting i( here would too much fwcl! this Book, as was fiid before in the Preface. However, 1 look upon the want of thia Account here, a) a real DefeiSl in this Hiftury of Mr. Brahwif^ Lite > which, I would hope, ihofe of my Readers, who are not already poJTefs'd of his publick 7flarw/, will fupply^ by procuring one of thofe Books, that they miyii't be withaut that whicl* in fonic Refpe^ls is the molt remarkable, and to a Chtiftiatl Mind would be the moft pleafantFart of the whoIeStory. That rheReader who is furntlh'd with one of thofe Hot*j£s,may knot* the flufi where the Defcfli of ibii[Iifloty arc to be fu pplied from, thence, 1 ihall either cxprcfly oWcrvc it as ! go aloiij;, or elfe

mafce a dalh or flroke thus Which when the Reader iinda

in this 7th Part of this Hiftary,he is to underfland by it, that in that Place fon^cthing in Mr. Braiairi's />Mry,worth ofiferving, is lift nut, hecanfe the fame for Subilancc was publifiied before in his printed ^citrnaLj

WeJnefdajf yirai rg. 174.;, Rode to the Misnszi Crafwtit-fmg : Found fsw at Homo : Difcourfcd to thsm however ; and obfetved them very fcrious and rirtcntive. At Night 1 was cx-treartily worn out, and fcarcc able to walk or ii[ up. Oh, how tirefome is \L!n\^ 1 flow d uU the Body !

Thuifday, Jsmt 20, Towards Night, preach'd (o the Wr'sw again j and had more Hearers than before. In the Evening, enjoy'd foine Peace and Serenity of Mind, fome Compofureacd (Jofefort in Prayer alone; and was enabled to fift up my Head, With fome Degree of Joy, under an Apprehenfioa tiiatray Redemption draws nigh. Oh, blelTed he God, that there reniaina a Rel^ to his poor weary People f

Friday, Jans 11. Rode toFreihilJ^toicsMr.IVilliafnTfTTninti an:J fpent thi; Day comfortably with him. My finking SpiriiD were a little raifed and encouraged i and I fell my Soul breathing after God, in the midftof Cbriffian Converfation. And irj the Evening,was rcfrefh'd in fecret Prayer : Saw my felf a poor vsprthlefs Creature, without Wifdom :o diredi, or Sei n«th to hejp myfeff. Oh, bleHed be God, that lays me udder a happy, a bleiled NecciTjty of living upon himfelf !

■Saturday, Jujii Z2. About Noon,rode to the h/!jiifts again i and ncarNight,preach'd to 'cm. Found myBody tnuchiirengih-cn'd,aiid was enabled to fpeak with abufidai)tPlaItjnefs& Warmth. And the Power of God evidently attended the Word ; h that fuhdry Perfons were brought under grealConcern for theirSouls» and made 10 (hed many Tears, and 10 wifh ■ (or Chrift 10 fr»a

theni.

ku^^tu^i:

them. My Soul was much refrcOi'd,and qafcion'd in my WotM antfl could not but fpend much Time with them, in order t« open Iioil) (heir Mifery and Rcmcd f. This was indeed a fwect Afternoon io me. WhiJi riding, before I came to the/W/m, my Spirits wcieierrefti'd, and my Soul enabled to cry to Goi almoftfncclliiniiy, for many Milca together. In theEveniile alfo I found the Confolations ofGod were not fmali: I was theft willing 10 live, and in fonie Refpefls defiroos of it, that I migt *o fomething for the dear Kingdom of Chrift ; and yet Dei; appeared pleafam : So that I was in forae Meafure in a S(rt between two.having a defire to depart. I am often weary l, tliis World, and want to leave it on that Account: But Y* delirablc to he drawn, rather thsn driven out of it, '.

f In the four nest Dnya ii nothing remarkable ia his Diari', but what ia in his puUitk Journal, j

Thurrday,5'Mti7.-—MfSouIrejoicedjto'find.HialGod ens-, bled me to be faithful, and that be was pfeafed to awaien Ihefoi poor Indiam by my Means. O how Hearr-reviving, and Soill-lefrefhiiig is it to me to (ire the Fruit of my Labours!

Friday,7aw58, In iheEvening.mySoulwas revived.am

my Heart liftrd up to ISod in Prayer, for my poor hiims, m»' Self and friends, and the dear Church of God. And O how rc-frefting, iiow fweet was this ! Elefs the Lord, O my Soul, and forget not liic Uoodnefs and tender IWercy.

Saturday, Jiitiiig. Prcach'd twice to the W/ani; and could not but wonder at tSeir Serioufnefs, and the Stridtnefs of their Attention.-— BlelTed be God, that has inclined their Hearst to hear. And O how refrefhing it is tome, to ffc Ihera attend with fuch uncommon Diligence and AfFcflion, with Tears in-their Eyes, and Concern in their Hearts ! IntheEvening.couId. not but lift up nny Heart to God in Prayer, while riding to my Lodgings: And blcfii^d be his Name, had Affiffance and I'rce-_^Qni. O how much inlir ihan Lifsn the Prefence of God 1

[ UlsDisrs gives an Account of nothing remarkable on tho, Iwo next Days, befidts what Is in his publicJc Journal ; exceavf inghis Heart's being lifted up with Thantfulnefs, rcioicing i God, tsV.]

Tudday,ya/y 2. Rode from i\iel>idims toBntsfwiiiy near +oi MilcB, and lodged there. Felt my Heart drawn »ut after GottJj in'Praytr, almoft all the forenoon j efpccislly while riding/

And!

ef Afr fikvid Bfaiflerd. AXiA'j^s'. is9

And in the Evening, could not help crying to God for ttofi: poor Mkai; and after I went to Bed, my Heart continued to r.o out to God for them,'till I drop'd aflecp. O blciTed be God thai I may pray I

[ He was fa beat ont by conBant preaching to thefe Mieai, yielding to their carnelt and importunile Dcfires, that he found it neceffary to give himfelf fome Relaxation. He fpent therefore ibouta Week in Niat-yir/ir,iha he left thcfc Mims, vifiting fevcralMiniftets, and performing fome ncctH'ary Hulincfi,before lie wont to the Forks of Dthwar4. And tho' lie was very weak inllody, yet he feems to have been Krong in Spirit. Onh'riday, Julr r z. he arrived at his own Hou fe in theForlts of Dc/awari -, continuing flill free from Melancholy i from Day to Day, cn-loying Freedom, Affiftance and Rcfrefliment in the inner Man. Rut on Wcdnefday, the nextWeek, he feems to have had fomo melancholy Thoughts about his doing fo little fat God ; being io much hindered by wealciicfstif Body.]

Thnrfday, July 18. Longed 10 fpcnd the liiilc Inch of Time 1 have in the World more for God. Kelt a Spirit of Seriouf-nefs, TcndemersjSweetnefs, and Dcmliiia, and wifli'd to fpcnd the whole Night in Prayer and Conimunion with God.

Friday, July 19. In the Evening, walked abroad for Prayer and iClcditatioo, and enjoyed Compofurc and Freedom in thefe fwect Exercifes; efpecially in Meditation on Rev. Hi, Jl. Him tbsi cmrctnieth,will J mais a Pillar h Ihi Templi of mf Gidiic. This was then a delightful Theme to me, and it refrelhed my Soul to dwell upon ir. Oh, when fhall I f« «» inurt tut from the Service and Enjoyment of the dear Lord I Lord, haft* the bleffed Day.

[ Within the Space of the next fa Days, he fpeaks of much inward RefteQiraent and Enlargement, from Time to Time.]

Friday, Jiily 26. In the Evening, God was plcafcd to help me in Prayer, beyond what I have experienced for fome "^''nc ; efpccially my Soul was drawn out tor ibeEnlargementof Cbrift's Kingdom, and for the Converfion of my poor People : and my lioul lelied on God for the Accomplifhment of that great Work. Oh,he« fwect were theTbougbtsof Death m me at ihisl ime ! Oh, how I longed to be with Chrift, to be imploycd in (he glo-lioua Woik of Angels, and with an Angel's iieedom, Vi|ovir Y 3^*

1U LIFE

tf Jlfr. David Btaincrd.

A.D.i74^. -161

and Delight! AnJ yet how wiiling was t (0 Bay a wliiltJ Earth, that I might do fomcihitig, if theLord pleafed, iat\ Inlereftin the World ! My Soul, my very Soul, longed fori Ingathering of the poor Healhsn j and I cried loGodforil moft willingly and heartily ; ar:d yet becaufe I could not but t This «ras a fweetSeafon \ for I had feme livelyTafie of HeM and a Tejupcrof Mind iiiited in fome Meafure to the EmpW oients and Entertainments of it. My Soul wat grieved to la the Place ; hut my Body was weak and worn out, and it 1 near nine o'Cloct. Oh, I longed that the remaining Pat) jnyLife might be filPd up with moreFervcncy and Ailivity inl Things of God ! Oh the inwirdPcace.Compofure, andGod-f Serenity of fticb aFramc I Heaven mull ntedsdiffer from thisfi,_ in Degrec.and notinKind. Ltri,itti>- glvd muhi, Breed if Lin!

£Much of tliii Fi-imc fccin'd to continue the next Diy.l oMl's-Day, Jul) 38. In the Kvenjng, my Soul was melttd, and my Heart broken, with aScnfeof paft Bai-tennefs and Dcat, nefs : And Oh, how I then longed to live to God, and bridj forth much Fruit 10 his Glory \ *

Monday, 7a/j. 19, Was much (KerciCsd with a Senfc of vilenef!, with Guilt and Shame before God.

[ For other Things remarkable, while lie was this Time t| the Forks of Dilawars^lht: Reader mull be refer'd to his publick Jiarnai. As particularly for hisLahours andSuccefs there among the in^atj!.

On Wcdnefday, July ^i. He fet outon his Return to Crtf-iMf*/iii/,and arrived there the nextDay, In hisWay thither,l)| had longingDclircs that he might come to \hsMlms there,in till fuhejss/thi BhJ/iiif sflblGsfpitsfChri/l ; attended with a Sen^ of his own great VVeafencCs, Dependance an^ Worthlefters. ], 1 Friday, Jugujt I. In the Evenit;g, I retired, and my Soli was drawn out in Prayer to God ; cfpecially for my poor Peol pie, to whom [ had fent Word that they might gather togethefl that I might preach to 'em the next Day. I was much enlarge! in Praying for their favingCon-erfion ; and fcarce ever fouii? my De/ircs of any Thing of lliis Nature fo fcnfibly and clearly (to ray own SatisfaSion) difiniercfled, and free from feffiH Views, ir fceniM to me, I Jjad no Care, or hardly any llchst to be the Inftrument of fa glorious a Work, aa I willi'd anil pray'd for among tlw hdkns ■ It the blefftd Work might bo accomplifhcd 10 the fionourof God, and the Enlargement of the dear Redeemer's Kiiigdom, Ihis was all ray Defire and Care ; and for this Mcicy I hoped, but witii Trsmbliog ; for 1

felt

felt what W KiprefTes, Choptirix. 16. My nfinj Hopes, re-rucfling the Conveiiion of the ladim!, have been fo often daOl-cd, that my Spirit is as it were broken, and Courage wafled, tail I hardly dare hope. .

f Concerning his Labours and marvellotis Succefs aBiongtt ths }adm!,hJ the following 16 Days, let the Reader fee his puhhcfc Ymrno/. The Things worthy of Note in his Diary, not there nublifhed, atebis earneft and iropottunatc Prajets for the /s-&w, and the Trmatl cf bh Seel firr them from Day to Day i and his great Refrethment and Joy in brh-lding the wnndcrful Mercy of God, and the glorious Manileilations of his Power and Grace in hi! Work among tbrm; and his ardent rhanlcl-oivinEa to God ; his Heart's fejojciiigin ChiiH, as King ot his Church, and King of hia Soul ; in particular, at the Sacrament of the Lord's Supper, at Mr. MtNi^k's Meeting-Houfe j aSenfeofhis own exceeding Unwortbinefs; which fometimca was attended with Dejcaion and Melancholy.]

Monday, ^iig- 19. Near Noon, I roJc toFnMi, and

preach'd to a conJiderableAflcmbly, iroinAf<.((6. v. 3. It plcafed God to leave mc to be very dry and barren ; fo that 1 dun t rt-niebber to have been fo firaiteu'd for a whole twelve Monih iiaft God is iuft, and he has made my Soul acquiefce in his Wil'l In this Regatd. 'Tis contrary toFliJh ^nd BUto be cut off from all Freedom, in a large Auditory, where their i.xpeila-tioil! are much raifed ; but fo it was with me 1 AndGod lBlp«! me (o fay ^min to it i G«d h <h,mU of th, Urd. In theEven-ing, I felt quiet and compofcd, and had Freedom and Comfort jHfeciet Prayer. r . i-i on

Tucfday Aug- 20. Was compofed and comlortshlc, ItiJl in a refisned Frame. Travelled from Mr. Tmntnt's in FrMi to UliAith-Tcwn. Was refrefii'd to fee Friends, and relait; to them whatUod had done,and was Kill doing among my poor

"""Wednefday, Mg, 11. Spent (he Forenoon in Corrvirfatioti with Mr. Dkimfm, contriving fomethiog for the Settlement of the Indian, together in a Body, that they might be under better Advantages for Inftruaion. In the Afiernoon, fpent 1 ime sareably whh other Friends ; wrote to roy Brothet at College : But was grieved that Time ttirl sway, while I did fo htile for 9odi

y»

FiWifi

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in God. Had j'kS>.^/(„ y. compofed .nd rsfrefill and(ht,Soul-r>,fre9,ingTh,„,?si M feei ?h n •^=^"'™'.

.h.£.i„ig.*'j,r.h:L;;d' s:;a ^"^'"'■" ^"-'-^

h= r«„rn.d JSjlt''™ ""•'■« to&/y„.W.i. before ' ^ the Way „m,ffi£ " j' '''"'"' "«''^»"5'.going round ■ or <ii /W/™ ?wh rt ftr„rr. "''™„'Tj''r '" "'= Chiefs of his «.e<:d;„g Unw™h ' ft ^k/^-"^I' .'"'' ^"■'' ^ ^''-'^

JVedncTJay,

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s^ M-. DaTid Bramerd. A,D. 174-5, iS^

WcJnerday, S^fK. 4. Rode rj Miles to an M/!, Settlcmenl. .ml pieach'd therefrom iois xiv 2J.—..^n^>« »*fi ii iSsjm. 1 :i>d was pleafed to afford mc fomc Tinaerni-rs and Eiilargi;-iiicist ill llic Srft Prayer, and miith Frecdonl,as well asWarmfli, iti Sermon. Tiicre weire many' Tears in the AffcraUy: The I'eopleof God fceined to melt, and olbcrs to be in fomc Mtat fure awakctiM. Blcffed be the Lord, (lut Icti roe fee his Woiii [;of:lg on in one PJace and another. , ...

[ The Ai:coiint far ThurfJay ii'the' (IttiS for Subft»hcirM iii hiipuWick Journal.]

Fridar, Sip'' 6. Enjoyed fome Freedom and intenfejiefs of Mind in Prayer alon e i and longed lohavcmySou! more warm'ij with divine and lieavenl)' Tilings. Was fomewhal melancholy, towards Night, and fongod to die and quit a Scene of Sin and Datknefs; tut was a little fupponed iti Prayer.

[ This Melancholy continued the nextDay.J

LordVDay.Sf^ii. 8. In thc^Evating.GoiJ was pUafed to

enlarge me in Prayer, and give me Freedom at the Throne of Grace : I cried (o God for the Enlargement of his Kingdom in the World, and in particniar among my dear People i was aKo enabled to ptay for many dear Minittcrs of my Acquaintance,' hoth in thcfe Parts, and ia Niw-B«ghirii ; and alfo for other dear Friends in New- Eng/mii. And my Soul was fo engaged and enlarged in that fweet Exercife, that Ifpent near an Hour in it, and knew nothow to leave the Mercy-Scat. Oil, bow 1 delighted to pwj-and cry to God? I faw, God was both abb and willing 10 do all that I defircd, for my felf and Friends, and' his Church in general. I was likcwife much enlarged and affitt-cdip family-Prayer. And afterwards, when I was juft going in- Bed, God helped me to renew myPetitions withArdency and Freedom. Oh,'twastomeablcflidEveningofPrayei .' fllefs thei-otd,0 my Soul.

r The next Day, he fct out from the Forks of Dtlawart fo go to Su/^ailiaiiiali. And on tile fifth Day uf his Journey, he arrived at ihaamdhi^ a large IniSan Tomn on Su/qMhanmb^ River. He pcrfotni'd the Joo'ncy under a confiderable Degree of Melancholy, occafion'd at fitfi by his hearing that the Mara-vim were gone before biro (o^he Sufjiuihmmb-hdhtii.]

Saturday^

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Saturiaj-, :iipi. 14, [ At Sheumiik, 1_ !„ ,1,, £„.„.„"

niySouI was enlarged and fwc=t)y cng4ed inPrayer ; efpcSj, fh..Gop would kt up hi.Kmgdcm i^ fhisPlace.lhcre the S

alK this for God for his Glory, and btcaufc I longed fot ili. En!are™en.ofh,= Kingdom, to the Bono., of hi, lar mZ

ftZ * T ° ^f "f "" 8=-=^"=ftf>=='i™. that be k„^« Jt was *„ dear Caofe, and not my own, that engaged ravHcai-t 1

Gbry ofth,d.cr^.r.iUjr.d Nam.. I could not but hop.,T,r,*£ God would l,™g m there ,nire„ble, wicked M«x: Tho' there appeared lite humanProMilitj. ,f ;t j for ,hey were ihen

^M <^<^'agm,fl H,p., that God wn.Id be glorified, tha God' Name would be glorified by thefc poor M™,. com^ued ong m Prayer and Praife to God ; and tad great Freed0^ En-LlfT'"' T ^l"^f\ ™™bring de,rFriend= in JV™-£.^-1™ lit "A'" ^ri'? ■ "^ ""' ^""8=- Wa. entirely frfe'

_ [m^Dmry from this Time toy.?;. 2i. ( the laft Day of hia Continuance among .bo M,,.- a. *«/j«.to,.i) is not legible , . by Reaftn of ,hc Badneft of the Jok, I, „^, i„;,^i,ly wr[t en'' VHUh the Juice of fonie Berries found in,heWood=, Li^^P-other J„t m that Wddernefs. So .ha, for thi= Spa« of Titno

On Monday &^,, ^3. He left the l„£an,, L order to his. Return to the \ orfa of D.l.^u-,r,, in a very weak Slate of Body D^":,.;. jrt^f ^""' «'.'chco;;tinued ..etwo r."*,

Wedoefday, S,pt. ij. Rode ftill homeward. In the Fore- ' noon enjoj-d Freed™ and Jntenfenef^ of Mind in M.d ta^i". ■■

Thutfijay,,.!

if Mr. David Brainerd. A.D.i;*^?. '163

Thuirdav, SiPt- >6- Was fiill much diforder'd in Body, jni .He to ride but llowly. Continued my Journey however. Unc Ni.ht, arrived at ihc Jri)!> Setlkment, about 15 Miles l.oin mine own Houfe. This Day, while riding, 1 was much txercifed with 1 Senfcof my Barrennefs i and venly thought, iluTcwas no Creatnie that had any true Grace, but what waj ,„„re fpiritual and fruitful than!) I could not think that an? of God's ChlUien made fa poor 5 Hand of living to God asl.

Friday, Stft. 11. Spent confider.bleTime, in the Morning, ,„ F yer and^Praife to^od. My Mmd was f-f «'''''"«"[= in the Doty, and my Heart iix fome Degree warm d W'lh >Senfe „f divino Things: My Soul was melted, to thmk, 'l'=tG.^*«i

inn all my Batrehnefs and Dead nefs. My Soul was alfo .n fome Meafure enlarged in Prayer for the dear People of tny Charge .= well as for ofher dearWends. In 'b'Ater-^^y^'f.'°^J Ohrifiian Friends, and fpent iheTime, I think, profitably 1 My [fcattwas waitn'd, and more engaged '"'i^'things of God. In the Evening, I enjoyed Enlargement Warmth, andLomot in Prayer ■ Mv Soul relied on God for Affiftance and Grace to enable me to do fomething in his t;aufe : My Heart was drawn oat in Thankfulnefs to God for what he had done for his own Glory amongmy poorPeople of ktc : And I dt encouraged to p.oce'ed in bfa Work, being perf^-aded of his Power,and hoping ;;, A« might be further r™«W, for the Enlargment of hi3 d earKingdom : And my Soul r^j^y..^ mh^. -ftht G\p <! G.d n Hope of theAdvinam=nto( his declarative Gloty in.he World, as wril as of enjoying him in a World of Glory. Oh. blclTed be God, the living God, forever 1

r He continued in this comfottaHe, fweet Frame of Mind, the two next Days. Oo tbeDay following, he went to his own Houfe, in the Forks of Ditsmar,, and continued flillm the fame Frame. ThenexlDay, which was Tuefday, he vifiied his /«-j,„„, —Wednefdayhe fpcnt moftly in writing the Meditations he liad had inhislatejourney to So/fUflWa*. On lh«tl-dav he Iclt the Forks of Dihwirt, and travelled towards U.J-Jek'">i. where he arrived on Sa.urday ( Omh. ^) "d cont,-tiued from Day to Day in a comfortableState of Miod. Tbeie is nothing material in his Diary for this Day and lbs nest, but what is in his printed "Jsusrasli

Monday,

ns L:I iF E

Monday, Os.i. 7. Beinp calkd by (he Church and Peopd Bl Kaflhamptman Ung-ljjand,^!. Member of a Council to affifl and advifc in Affairs 0/ Difficulty in ,1,11 Church, I ft, o„( on myjouroey tl:i5 Morning, before it was Weil ljf.ht, a„d „,. yelled to Elijah,ih-T,w^, and ihcre lodged. Enjoyed fonn Lomfort on tJicRoad, in Convcifitioii with Mr. Williamtti ~ irat, who was fciit for on lire fame Builnefs. _ [ He proreei.ied IlisJourney with theoihetMJnifters that wi few fori and did not return rill Oa»S. j+. While he wisi JH:/i-mi7,pim, the Jmporlance of she Bufinefs that the Court? werecoine upon.Iay with fuch Weight on his Mind, and he *j to concerned for the Interett of Religion in that Place, that I Slept Jiuthttle for feveral NighfsfucccJSvely. In his Way «{ and from Es/l-HanpUn, he had fcveral Scafons of fweetRefiefli. ment, wherein his ioul was enlarged and cerafoited with divinu l-onfolations, in fLCrct Retirement s and he had fpecial AJEH-ance m publick minilferial ferfotmanUB in (he Houfe of God., a»d yet, at the lame Time, a Eenfe of extreme Vilenefs and Un-i prcfitab.eneft. He from TinietoTime fpeaks of Soul-refrcflli ment and Comfort in Converfiiion wkh the Minifiers that Ira-, veiled wnh hjm ; and fcejns 10 have little or nothinE of Melan-, tholy, t,l he came t.o U.e Wefl-End of Lc^-ifa^^, in hi, Keturn. After thar.he was oppreflcd wilbDejcdion andGloomi-nef! of Mmd for fcveral Days together.- For an Account of (he f^our firil Days after his return from his Jimrnoy, I refer lb? Kca.ler to his pu bbcli Jmrnni.

Monday OM.iS Had anEvening of fweelRcfrefhins;

my Thoughts were raifcd to a blefled Eternity ; my So!,l wa melted svi.h Dcfitc! of pcttea Holinefi, and perfeai/glorifying

Tuefday, OB,!,. 29. About Noon, rode and view'd tie yrtiteiM Lsnds at Cro,*jrry : Was much dejefled, and prrealv perplcjicd ,n Mind : Knew nolho* 10 fee any liody aaain my Soul was fo funi wiihui me. Oh that thefe Trials might mabe nie more humble and holy. Oh that God would keep me Ufcfufnelr ^^''' '° ""'"' Dejeaion. which may liindcr my _ Wednefday, OiM. 30. My Soul wis refreflted with a View of ihcComiuuanceof God's bleffcd Wort aiaunc the

Thurfday, OOoh. 31. Spent mod of the Day in Wrilioj ■ Enjoyed no! much fprri.ualCcKjfort , but was „(,■& much funt

with Melsnchoiy asac fonjo other Ti

Friday.

0/ Mr. David Braincid. A.15.1743-' ' S?

\:,:i,« Wsii. t. rSeeihepubHcfcys"™'!'-], t d^y ^ J. ^ Spent the Day with ,heM««, .nd wro^ ,,™Thni of Importances and '"S'" " "^^ "°" "L'f,fj ■ r could do in this prcfent feeble and ,mp«fcaState.

1 ffi» ,. &i. r Seethepuhlick7»urr.a(. I xflfdav nX I He left the Iniiam, and i^etlt tha rematn-I . P r S'rhi/weefcin travelling to v-itioujParts oW.w-7<^r/ey, l''«P^'^" * ,S-ffi» for the Ufeof ih.lniim:, and to

I*"""''** TjCt Reftelhmen, a«d K.tlerlainment with

^S fS::^ ^T'hi; S» fleetly jn„,wed, .^^ ' rgcd bi^ Mind clear, his Spirit refreM wtth d,vu,e_I_ruth..

hisHcait's litinf! eu-

.....ed with divine Truths,

;"nd"hi; H<^<t^' I'^rnini whhln hi^Mi'' *' »■«' *? "" ^^'""^

.;^l;^SMotnin,hLinBoa^a^dMind.p.a^^

llie Forenoon from i Gsr.

Preedotn and Fervency in

nr.dfeem'dtohe inilieAilembly: ,.-....-.-_ „„-i,-i

tjooieemuio _ ijifni. ]|, the Aftcfnnon.prcach d

.eborenuon™ ..- ^^ ,^^ Prefence of

reedotn and Fervency 'f my " '•_ ^„ A„, „,„afFeaed.aii.l

Numbtta wcreafFeae<i,aTtil

' f^n in the firit Praver anJ poured out my Soul to

;;^^rSw"fMLd, aAvingG.dalfoam«cd

""r'Ttanc".' D>y, he went to &^-T,wn on i™,-//&»J, t. [ V"'"^ "'/'yj , He fpeaks of fome fweet Medi-

;f.rV:r.:a:f^"=So;,'.beinmuchrefrear-^^ ,.,;.», ,hP Confideration of tbai bhfsful Day. ]

cfofsthcFetry by Reafon of the

with the Confideration c

T^fU^w l^ev K. Could not crt . . ^^ -

ment at the eerry ^ , ^^._^^^^ BweetnefsinMeditaUOn.and

lilting jttho'

And

Violenceoi the Wind e Verry-Hi fnfl wave me fome Satisfaction ^-

^ up 2 Heart to God in the mldlt of Company,

fomrwere drinking and talking profanely,which Was n-

^d,f>feftome yet my Mind was calm andcumpofod.

1

Grace 1 i'w^''"""■ ^ . ",r-A

1 was enabled 10 fpend in the Se^iceof God.

Saturday^

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Saturrlay, A^ffTT. 16. Grofa*^ ^heFerry about t«rt o'Clock 1^-1 ti^ed at Elixdptib-Toioa i;ear Nigiif. Was in a calm coiaOisi Ffameof Mind, and felt an entire Refignation wilh Rcfpfefl'J a LofJ Uiad lately fuftaiDV, In having Ely Horfcftoilcii from I' thc)aRWednef[fayNrght,at NawTimin. Had fomcLoogini Sotll fo/the difar Pccjply of Blizaktb-Ttwn, that Gad wbl. ^>B»'alii ir> Jjljrit upon thenisand revivi hisSf'ori amongfl thk ■ [ Hefpentihefour next'Days at Elii^akih-Tawn i fori nioft Part, in a Free and Camfortfible Stati: of Mind, inten J engaged in the Service of God, and enjoying, Kt fame Tiri^ the fpccial AHiftances of his Spirit, OnTii jrfday,this Wee l« lode ioPrt£hUj3,ni fpent theDay iiRder confiderableDejetaic^ 'Friday,^»i;. 2 4, Rode to Mr. Tmninl's, and frrm ihenci Cfo/wieifm^^ Had littJcFreedom \n Meditation, whilerjj; wliicil wasaGrief and IJiirden to my Saul. Oh that I coniij up all my Time, whether in the fiaufe ct by [he Way, foTGdL. I was enabled, I think, this Day to give up ttiy Soul so GodJ and put over all my Concerns into his Hands ; and found [anjM real Confolatiotl iil the Thought of being entireiy at the diviilj Difpofal, and tiaving no Will or Intercd of my own. I have (j ceived my ai! from @ad ; Oh that 1 could return my all 1 Gnd. Surely God is worthy of my higheftAiftaion, and mj devout Adoration : He i^ Infinjtsly worthy, that I fliould md him my latt End, and live forever to him : Oh that I miil never more, in any one 3tiftance,live to my fclf.

Saturday, NaVr 23. Vifited my People; fpent the Day Mia them : Wi-ote fomc Things .of fmportancc. But was pr^ much dejcflcd, mofl of the Day. ■■

[ There is nothing very material in hlsD/jr/forthefcut^H^ Days, but what is alfo in his puHick ymrnal. ]

Thurfdiy, Niv, 2S I enjoyed feme divine Comfori

and Fervency in the publiek Exercifc, and afterwards. i!t|| white ridit^g to my Lodgings, was favour'd with fotne fw^fl] Meditations on LuL ix. 31. ff/js fpptatd in Ghry, and j^& of his Deuafi, wbiih he Jlisuid acampiijb oi Jerufalem. '|^ Tho*ts ran with Freedotli, 5nd i Jaw and felt what a gloll Subjea the Dioth^ai ChK I s r is for fkri/iad Souls to dwell (| it! theif Converfation. Oh, the Dtiih of Chkist ! Hs^ finitely^rif/jtir /

[ For the three next Days, fee the publicfc Jaarwl.]

Monday, a.v«o. 2. Was much afFefled vvith Grief, ti)att bad not lived mute til God ; and ft]: firong Refolutions lodtlrf bk my Diiigtnce ia mJ Mattel's fervice. ■

r Afia

ef Mr. David Braiiierd. A.D. 1745. 169

[ After this, he went to a Meeting of the FrtHyWf, at a Place \i\NffW-JirJiy^ca\\tiCsnne£iicut-Pa^mj ; which occafion'd hisAbfence from his People the reft of this Week. He (pcata of fame Eeafons of Sweetnefs, Solemnity andrpiiitual Afl'caion ifl his Abfence.

Lord's-Day, Decmi. 8. See his publick yaarM/.]

Monday, Deetm. 9. Spent inoH of the Day in procuring Frovilioni, in Order to my fettitjg up Houfe-iictpinp among the fe'janl. Enjoyed little Satisftilion thio'the Day, being very^niuch out of my Element.

Tuefday, Deamk to. Was cng,i[i;rd in tht! fame Borinels a; Yeftcrday. Towards Night, got into my own Houfc.*

Wcdnefday, Z)«M. IJ. Spent the Fcrcnoou in neceflsry Labour abotrt my Houfc. In the Afternoon, rode out upoa 1 Bnlinets, and fpent the Evening with fume Salisfaflioti among Frieads in Cgnver&tion on a fetions and profitable Subjefl,

[ Thutfdiy, Dicm. i«. See his puUick Jmmall

Fiiday, D(«ra. 13. Spent the Day mainly in Labour about

my Houfe. In the Evening, fpent fome Time in writing 1

I but was very weary, and much out-done vsith the Labuur of

the Day. ,1 1 T t

Saturday, Dmm. 14.. Rofe early,and wrote by Candle-Light fome confiderable Time ; fpent molt of the Day in writing : But was fomewhat dejefled. in the Evening, was excrdfcJ with a Pain in my Head.

[ For She twonextDsySjfec his publictyjiirna/. The remainder of thiaWecfc he fpent chiefly in writing : Some part of the Time undeiaDegrce of Melancholy ; but fome Fattof it wilh a fweet Ardency in Religion.]

Saturday, Dttim. Jl ■ After my Labours with the Is-

mm, I fpent forae Time in writing fome Tilings divine and fokmn i and was much wearied with the Labours of the Day ;

* This is the Mrd Houfe that he built to dwell in byhim-fclf among the Jitdinsi .- The firft at Kauvmmut in the County of Mam ; the fecond at the Forits of Dthwuyt in PaJihmia : And now this at Cnfmdjkng in tlcvi-

^"^^'^' z J found

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174G.

found that inySpirits irere extremeiy fpcnf, and that I coultl L r\a more. I am coafcious to my felf that my Labours aW^ pcK anJ cooftant as my Nature will bear, and that oritini j-ily I [JO (D thcEntent of aiy Strength ; So that t do all 11 Hut ihe Miferv is, 1 don't labour with that heavinty TemtH thajiingk rCyc to [bi-Gittjof God. that I long fur. . ■ [ Lurd's-Osy, Dicim, is. See the publick Jtufnal.] ' Muiidjy, and Tuefday, flmm, 23 Ss 24.. Spent thefe Di ill Writing, with the ulmoH Diligence. Felt in (he mainj fweet Mortification to the World, and a Delitc to live audi— bout only for God ; bitt wanted moreWarmth andSpjikualitff^ a pioie fenfible and affeaionate Regard to the Glory of gSl r WednefJiy, Die. sj. See the pnblicit Journal J Tlviir««y, uid Krltliir, B/«». 16, fc 2j Lahourod hj/i, Bludici, f.. (he iKninll .iliiiyKtreiiglh : And tho' I felta ftea« IJlfiLililiiiH ol IVIjkiI t.i lire to God, and that I bad tiolhingl thil Wr,i|,l to live tor ; yet i did not find that fcnfibleAffcai^ ill ilicSetviceof God,ihitl wanted toBavBi myHeart fton barccn, tho' my Head and Hands were fbll of Labour. [ For the four next Djys, Tee bis publick Jmrnalfil

^ WedneCJay, Jununri i. 1741,6 1 am ihisDay begfffi

li:nga Ncio-Ymr ; and God has cMrled use thro' mimcroii' Ttiils and Labotirain tbs pift. He has amazingly ihppoitji my feeble Frame ; for hmiag sHamid Hilp n/ Gon, 7 uadiniC lithh n„y O ihat I niigbt livenearerto God, this Yesr.thaa I d[il the laft. The Buhners t have been called to, and enabled to go through, f knotf.has been as great as Nature could beair tip under, and what would have hiiili: and overcome me quite Without fpecial Support. But Alas, Alas ! Tho' I have dono ihjtLibogr!, and endured the Trials, with what Sfirit have I done (hooiKi, and horn the other ? How cold has been tho Kriineofniy Heart ofKntirrwj ! And how little hare I fenfibly isyid the Glory of God, in all myDoings andSotteriogs ' / have founti, that 1 could have 00 P.ace wiibiut filling up all my Time with Laiieurs ; and thus Ntcfn, ha, hett hidu/iiii ,.-,1 ; yea, in that Refpca,! have loved to labour: But iheMilerv is. F could not feniibiy labour /ir tJW.as [ would have dont. Majt I for the future be euablcd mote fenShly to make the Glory o( God my nlL '

• On the hrft of thefeQays he wrote the 6ih£rt/fr here pub-iilll'd at the End, o. it's

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«/Afr. Da»i(3 BrainertJ, A,D. 174S. iji

[ For the Space from this Time 'till the nsxt Monday, fee (he publick 75Jfaai3 „,,,,.

Monday, >k. 6 Being very weak in Body. I rode foi my Health. While tiding, my Thoughts were fweetly engaged, for a Time,iipon thiSlmi cxt cut nf IkMumtam mthml Hand:, vihkh trail in Piml ^n before it, aDii-waxidgriat,mititaml I auriat Mi>!atais,i.v.ifilMlhiwhtltEarlli: And 1 longed tin! Iksus ihould tail m himfttf liii gri") l''Wir, and tii^n to Ihi Ends if tht Earth. And Oh, how fwect were the Moments, ivheiein I Icit my Soul w.irra with Ilupertof ihe Enlargement of the Redeemer's Kingdom I ! wanted ilolbiug elle hut that Christ Ihould rtign, to the Glory of his blcll'cd Name.

E The next Day he complains of want of Fervency, ]

WedoefJay, 7u». 8. In the Evening, tnv Heart was drawn out affetGod in fecret: My Soul was refrcih'd and quioken'd ; and I icult. Faith was in Exercife. 1 had great Hopes of the iDcatheringofprcdoai Souls to Cbrift j not only among my own People, but others alfo. I WW fwceily rehgned and com-pofed under my bodily Wcakncfs ; and was willing to liveof die, and defiroas to labour for God to the utmoB: of Jny

'■Thurfday, ^sn, g. Was ftill very weak.ahd much cMrcifed with vapoury Diforders. In the Evening, enjoyed (ome Enlargement and Spirituality in Prayer. Oh that [could always fpend my Time profitably, both in Health and Weaknefs,

Friday 'Jan. lo. My ^oul was in a fwect, calm, compofed Frame, and my Heart fiird with Love to all the World ; and Chriftian Simplicity and Tcnderijefs fecmed then to prevail anJ seiEO within me. NcarNight.Virned a feriousBaplili-Mimflcr. and had fomeagrcableConvetfaliua with himj and found that I could tafte God in Friends.

[ For the font next Days, fee the publick yiitrm!.]

Wednefday, Jati. ij. MySpitits were very law and flat,and I could not but think i was aBurdcn toCJod'-sEarth ; and could fcaicely look any Body in the Face, thro' Shame and Senfe of Barrennefs. God pity a poor mlprofiwble Creature.

f The two next Days, he had forae Comfoit and Reffefe-BiM!. for ths tW9 fatorinE D»y», fee 't^e 9Mi<^^ 7'"™^

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The next Day, he fct out on a Journey to HUfaidh-'Tatiift to confer with tlie CarrtfptniiinU at (heir Meeling dieic ■ |o|a enjtij'cJmuch fuiritaal Refj efliraeiii fum Day to Day thrauod" this Week. Tho Things expreffed m this Space of Time, .in fuch as thefe ; Serenity, Coinpofurs, SwcetEefs and Tendottmi of Sou!; Thankfgiving toGod foi his Succefs among the /Wja* " Deijght m Prayer snd Praife, fweet and profiiablc MeditatioM «(l Hrious divine Subjefls, Longing for more Love, far moj Vigour 10 live to God, for a Life more iotirdy devoted totioJ riiai lie miglit fpend all his Time profitably for Cod, and in U Caufe ; converling on fpiritual Subjefls with AiTeaioa ; aj Lamentation for Itnprofitablcnefs. 1

Lord's-Day, ya«. 26 [ ktCsmtailul'Parms.J Was calB and compofed. Was mido ftiifibloof my utter Inability & preach, without divine Help; and was in rome good MeafutJ willing io leave it iviih God, to give or widi-hold Affiftance, ib he faw would be moif for his own Glory. Was favoured witwl a confiderablc Degree of AiHiiance iti my puWicfc Wort. Afi«| J puhlicic Worihjp, 1 was in a fweet and fotemn Frame of iMiai thanltful to Sod that he had made me iiifomc Mcafme faiihfub in addrelEng precious Sonls.but grieved that I had been iiomorj fervent in my Woil:; and was tenderly alFcaed towards ajj the World, longing that every Sinner might be faved j aad could not have eniertain'd any Eitternels towards the wurirt Sncmy living. In the Evcning.rode (o AVi/^jto/j-Titos ; whila,' Tiding, was almoit conttantly engaged in lifting up my lifari tnj God, left I fhould lofe that fwcet heavenly Eotcmiiily and Com-Jj porute of Soul r then enjoyctj. .-Iftcrwards, was picifed, to] thinic, that God nigneth ; and thought, J could never be un* J eafy wilhanyof hisOifpenfations; hut mulllje entirely Satia-died, whatever Trials he ihould caufemeor hia Church to en-, counter. Never felt inori Eedatenefa, diuine Serenity andConi..| pofure of IWind ; Could freely have left the dearcft eiribly J Fiicnd, for tile Society of Jitgih and Sptrks if juji Mm madiX perftlt: Mv Affefllons foar'd aloft to the bleffed Author of-: every dear Enjoyment : [ view'd the EraplinefiandUiilalislac-tory Nature of the liioft dcfirable earlhly Ohjif/is, any further than God isfeen in them : and looged for aLife ofSplriitiaiity and inward Purity ; without which, I faw, there could he no true Pleafure.

. r He retained a greatDcf fee of thisexcellcntf'rame ofMinJ, ttH: (bur next Days, As to his publiekServicts for and among Ihshdkns, ifii hisSuccefs in thisTiniCjfee thepubiickyaarW.J

tiitarday.

ff/jWf-. David Btaln'erd. A.D. 174G. 173

ttaturday, Feb. T. Towards Night, enjoyed foHie of thedear-' til'rtioughts on a divine Subje^ {iji%. that treated of I Cor, (3,-16.) that ever I remember to have had upon anySub-ihI wliatfoev^r i and fpent two or threeHonts in writing them» I was rdVcBi'd with this Intlnfenefs : My Mind was fo engaged in tlitfe .llcditatioos, I could fcarcely turn it to anv Thing dfc ; ■lid indeed I could not be willing to pat! with fo fwcet an Eai ln'taiiinient. -—^*'—

Lord's-Day j Feb, 2.^-^1—■ After puhlickWorfliip,my btidily ^tiength being much fpent, my Spirits fnillt anU7.1n^ly ; andcf-nccially on hearing that i was lb yeneially taken to be a R.Bmdtt CktfisUd-^ fent by the Papifii to draw the Indiam into an Infur-redion againft the ifnf/;y*, that feme were in Feaf of me, atitl others were for having me taken up by Authority and puniOl'd* Alas, what ^vill itot the Devil do to bring a Slttt and Diigrace on the Work of God I Ob, how holy and circutnfpei^ had X need to be I Thro' divine Goodnefs, I have been enabled ta jr.\Tid ray stfJ7 Bujimfi^ in thefe Fatts, as well as elfewhcre ; and to let ad Men and all Denominations of Men aione, as to theic Parly-Nstioar ; and only prcach'd the plain and ncccfliifyTruths ofChri/iiauity^ neither inviting to nor extluiling from wy mlitkg hny, of any Sort or i'erfwalion whatfocver. Towards Night, the IvOrd gave me Freedom at the Throtie of Grace, in my fitft Prayer before my CaiuhHkai L,tiiut&: And in opening the xlvi. Pfsltn to my People, my Soul confided in God, alttro' the wicked World (bould (lander and perfecute me, or even condemn and execute me as a Traitor to my Kin;f and Country. Truly God is a prifiiil Htip in Time of Trtnbli. [n thsE vening, my KquI was in fome Mcafurc comforted, having fome Hope that one poor Sou] was brought Home to God this Day i thtt* the Cafe did by no Means appear clear. Oh that 1 could fill up every iWomcnt of Time, during my Abode here below, in the ijervice of my God and King.

Monday, Fib. 3. My Spirits were Sill much funk with what I heard the Day before, of my being fufpefled to be engaged in ihe /■rtfrjja'.-r'r Intereft: It gricv'd me, that after there bad been fo muclj Evidence of a glorious Iftrk if Gran among thefe poot ladinni, as that the moft'carnal Men could not but talce Notice of tlie ^ts^lCbaftgs made among them, fo many poorSoulsfhonld ftill fufpea the whole to be only a Ptpifll Plot, and fo c:H an awful Reproach on this-blelTed Work of the divine EPIEIT ; and at the fame Time wholly exclude thcmfelves from receiving any Beucfiiby this divine influence. This pat ms upon fearch-

& LIF E

iBgwhertier Ibad ever dropM any Thing inaJvcrfetitly, th might give &m/m 10 any !o fufpcfl slat I was Hiriing op.J /niA'flB. againftthe .ffnj/,;^: And could think of Nolhing*,'? Jefs it was my attenipiiog fomctinies to vindicate ihs Rightifi the Indian!, and complainijig of the' horrid Ptaflicc of maisl* (he laSans drunk, and ihcn cheating ih em Dut of thei rLantts -.., otherPropcrtiCs : And once, 1 remcmbred, i had done this wiiji (00 niuch Waimth of Spirit. And this much diflrefs'd ma thinking that this might poflibJy prejudice thcro igainft m Woik of Grace, to Iheir ererlafiing Dcflruflion. God, I U licve, did nne good by ihis Trial i wbich fervcd to humbJe m^ and (liew me the Neceffity of Walcbfuloefa, and of being uiib ai a Strpml, is vicW 3S hermhfs at a Dim. This Exercife Jed me often to the Throne of Grace i and there [ found fome Sup-port : Tho' 1 riiuld not^et the Hurdcn wholij removed. Wai affiftcd in I'rayer, cJiiccially in the Evening,

I He remained ftilt under aDegree of Excrcife of Mind about., rtis Affair ; which continued tohave the fame Effea upon himj" to ciufe him to reflcii upon, and humble hirafcif, and frequenti' the Throne of Grace: But ftion found himfelfmucii more rn-tj iievcd and fupponed. He was, this Weet, in an extremely weak Slate, a nd obliged (as fee exprefe it } (o conftimi cmjiiira' hit Tmi itt Dhtrften, fit Ms Hnilh.

For Saturday, Fib. y. And the Sabbath following, fee nil publick jfournal.

The Monday after, he fet out on a Journey to the Folks (. Dehusri, to fifit the hiiaw there. He peifortn cd the Jour ncy undergrcafWeaknefs, and fomeiimes was eicrcifed witl mucb Pain ; but fays nothing of Dcjeftion and Melancholy., Hssrrivcd at his own Houfe at thi forh, on Friday. Thtt! Things appcriaiuiiig to his inward Frames and Exerclfci, ex3 prefs'd within thisWeek, are fweclCompofurc ofMiiid,Thank-; fulncfs to God f(.r his Mercies to him and others, Rclignatiotl lothedivijieVViiljComfottinPraycrand religious ConvcrfationJ his Heart drawn out after God, jiid affeded wifh a Eeufsl of his own Eajrctmefs, as well ai the Fulncfs and Frecntfs SB divine Grace. 1

Lord's-Day, Fti. i6.. In the Evening, was in afwiel

compofEd Frame of Mind, ft was exceeding refiefhing andl cpoilortabie, to thitit, ihitGod bad been with me, affording me fcme £0i,d Mtifoie of Affiftjnce. I then found Freedom aiidl

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ef Mr. ViM Bmneri', A.D.1746. 175

llwccftiefsinPraycrand Tbankfgiving toGod ; and found mf [Kiilil fwcetly engaged and enlarged in Prayer for dear FrieniJs llnd Acquaintance. Blcfied be the Name of the Lord, that ever || am enabfed to do aojThing for his dear Interelt and Kingdom. F filcffed be God who enables me to be faithful. Enjoyed more Itcrolution and Courage for God, and more Refrefhment of Spirit, than 1 have been favoured with for many Weeks paft.

I Monday, Fib. ij I was refreflietl and encouraged:

IKouttd a Spirit of Prayer, in the Evening, Btld cottieft Longings f bt the UlurBination and Coiivcrfion of ihefc poor Indimu.

[jTnefday Fii. l8. Sec the publick Jiurnsll

Wednefday,frf. 19. My Heart was comforted and re-

f cfii'd, and my Soul iili'd with Longings for the Converfion of llie Intliani here. , , .. ,

Thurfday Fib. 20. God was plesfed to fupport and

tefrelh my Spiritb, by affording me Afliffance, this Day, and lo hopeful aProfpea of Succefs; and I returned home rejoycing, and bleffing the Natiic of the Lord s and found Freedom and Swcetncft afterwards in fecret Prayer, and had my Soul drawn out tot dearFriends. Oh, how blelTed a Tiring n it,lo labour for God faithfully, and with Encouragement of Sueccfs ! Blefled Ik the Lord forever and ever, for the AfSdance and Comfort

oranted this Day. , „ ,, , f , j

Friday Fib.%\. My Soul was refreih'd and comforted,

and I could not but blef5God,who had enabled mo in fome good Meafure to be faithful in the Day palf. Oh, how fweet it is tobefpcutaiid wornoutforGod I

Saturday, Fib. i%. • My Spirits were much fupporte!,

tho' my bodily Strength was much v?afted. ^ Oh that ijod would be gracious (o the Souls of thefe poor Wiom.

God has been very graclousto me this Week: He fe^fSf^Wed me to preach every Day i and has given l«e fome Affliance, and encouragingProfpca of Succefs.in almoft every Sermon. B elkd he his Name. Divers of the white People have been awaken d this Week, and fundry of the hiimi much cured of ibm Pre-udicesandJeslour.es they had conceived agjtiift Chrifttaiiity, and tome teem to be really awaken'd.

r Lord's-Day, Fit. 13- Sec the publick ^ssr^l The next Day, he left the Forks of B.;<r.«fi«, to f tit;'" *a

'j^e ^v„2 8;

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keal^vM there ; bai preach'd by (he Way cvefy Day, ncenH ' JflS-One ; and was fcjcralTimes greatly affiiied ; ard'iia,! nii'rl, inward Comfort, and earnefl Longingj to filj up all I , T. . Willi ihe Service of God. He urtcrs fuch Exftcffions after Preaching ! 0« ttat imm b, insiltd it fl,ad li, ■Gtd faittifutty, te mi Jywg Mimmt. Oh how /hint it u.iB tij0l!iwi<ifilfKhtily fsT Gtd, and in his Caufc, and t, ahu ^rsmjel/ijh Mstivs! in my Lahan }

; For Saturday and Lord's-Day, March i & j. Seethe pi lick yiurnal. The four next Days were fpcnt in greaf b Weaknefs i but he fpeats of fomeSeafon! of confidcrablc iiiwan Comfort.J Thurfday, Mante. 1 walked alone in (he Eveniii

m

lair^

ami

of late enjoyed : Mj Snlll rrjuyccd in wy Piigrimage-Stat!, anl I was delighted with the Thoughts of labouring and mo'ariJ mrJmfi for God : Felt foine longing Defires (o preach tid Gcfpei ro dear immorlai Souls ; and confided in God, that j would he with mi in my Wotk, and that he xivir wauMUavis, fir foil mf, td (he End of my Race. Oh, may I thtain Mira , Gsdm hefaiihfal, to my dying Moroent.

Friday, Marih 7. In thi; Afternoon, went on in my Wojfl witltireedom and Chcarfglnefs, God affifting me j andeniov^ Comfort in the Erening. '^

[ For the twoeext Days, fee the publick>«™o;,]

Monday, March lo My Soul was refreCi'd withFrei

_domandEnUrgcm<;nt,and (I hope ) Ihe livelyExHcife of Faid ifl lecfet Fraycr, this Night ; iWy Will was fweelly reflgacd % the divme Will, and my Hopes tefpcftiog the EnlargetnestiS the dear Krngdom of Chrift foniewhatiaifed, and could comn ' .itw 1 Caufc to God as his own.

■ [P"/^"'''^'?'' ^° 'i"^"'''» "^ ''=""! Sweefnefs anil Spiritualil IB LtiiiftianConverration, On Wedocfday, complains (hatffl enjoyed not much Comfort and Satisfaaion, thro' the Daf becaufehe did but little ior God. On Thuifday, fpentcoti aetable 1 ime in Company, on a fpecial Occalion ; but in pS piMity, bccaufe without flvoury religious Converfation. JTiday bjiurday and I.^rd's-Day, fee the publick Jiunuil. , fa the forniM Part of the Wccic following he was very ilj aad alio ttnder great DejeSion j beir,g, as he apprehendJ

«JldetT

c/J54-, David Brainerd. A.D i;46, 1^7

rendered urferviceableby hisTIlnefs, and fearing Ihat he fhould iirver be Serviceable any mare ; and therefore txcefidingly long*-.J [or Death. 'Bot afterwards was more encouraged, and f.ife i|i|!eared more defirable ; becaufe ( as he favs ) he had a little \iiwmif Hppt, ihnthiimght httij^ful inihtWsr'd,, In the latter Part nf the Week, he was in fome Meafure relieved of his III-ftcfs, in the Ufe of Means prefctibed by a Pliyfician:

ForSatutday, andLotd's-Day, Arfdrch 12, and 23. Sec his publick yaurimL]

Monday, Marck 24.. Aftet the ImUms were gnni fo

Ihcir Wotk.to clear their I-ands, I got alone and poured out my Saul to God, that he would fmile upon thefe feeh'e beginnings, ind that he would fettle an /wjaifln Town, that might he rt.-I^^JUfl* tslti of Balinifi \ and found my Soul much refreflied,in tbefe K'titions, and much enlarged for Zfj'j's Interei^, and for Num-btrsofdear Friends in particular. My linking Spirits were revived and raifed, and I feit animated in the Service God lias calied me to. This was thqdeatell Hour I have cnjuyed for tiiany Days, if not Weeks. I found an encouraging Hjpe, that fomcthing would be done for God, and that Gad would life and help me in his Work. And Oh, how fweel were the Thoughts of labouring for God, when 1 fcltraySpirit andCourage, jiid had any (lope that ever 1 fhould be fnccccded !

[The next Day, his Sihial-Msfler was taken Sick with a Pleurify i and he fpent great Fart of theRemainder of thisWeek in tending htm: which in his weak State was almoft art over-bearingBnrien to him; he being obliged conltantly to waif upon , him, all Day, from Day toDiy,and to lie on the Floor at Night. His Spirits funk in a confidctableDegree,with his bodily Sti cngth, under this Burden.

For Saturday, and Lord's-Day, March 2p, & 30. Seethe publtck JewnaL

Monday, A&rii 31. Towards Night, enjoyed tome fwcet Meditations on thofe Words, /(li gtsd fir mi U dravi mar la Gsd. My Soul,! think, had fonic fweet Setife of what is iis-tcnded in thofe Words.

[ The next Day ,he was extremely bufy in tending the School-Mafier, and in fome othet necefl'ary Affairs.that greatly diverted him from what he looked upon as his proper BuGnefs : But yet fpeaks Bf-Conifort and RcfrEfhmetit, at fume Times of the

A a 3 Wednefday.

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Rm.

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W=d„efJ,r4,„;, WasfDmcwhateMrcifd with a fpirlttr Jefs Frame of MiijJ. Was , li.tle ,elie«d and rrfr.ih'd io ||i,' EvtnmE wilh Med.tatjon alone in (he Woods. . Bi!l ilas, ,ii». Days p«rs away as the C/m// 'Tis but little I do, or can il, tliat [urnstoao)'Account ; and 'tis my conftant Mifety andBuf,' den, that I am fu fninlcft in the VineyaKl of the Lord. Oh t'~ 1 vmSpint, that IinigfitbeadiiveforGon. This f I thiiL morchananvTIinigdrc, makes me long, that thi, corm!^ m\f\il fill an Jiuiirr«ptiim,an6 this marlalput sa hnmtrtality, delirerine Irora Uogs, Feltcrs.ajid a BsJ, i/Dtalh, tbstimpd my Service fur him. "

[ The ncut Day, he complains bitterly of forae Exerdfes ' LiiauptiDt) lie found Jnhiiewn Heart,]

FtidayJ Af-lli.. (;,,„,t Mi„((„f ,|.e D.iy in «rritit,,T on . XXII. 17, Aal wlufimtr will, &c. Enjtjycd fame Freedom Etlcour.igcraent in my WorJ: ; and found fomc Cotnfcrt Com pol Lire in Prayer.

SaluKtay, j{pril 5 After pubiick WorOlip.

of my dear Chudian Indkm ama to my Houfe;'with wl J fdt a fweet Union of Soul : My Heart was iiiit to them ■ Ican'lfay, nisvcfcllfuchafweetand fervent Lmilotbi Ihr,^ fur fome Time pjft: And 1 faiv iti them Appearatu (he Tame l,uvc, This gave me foniething of a View of the u vc[>ly Siate i and panknlaily that Part of the Hjppinefi of B Vfii, which con/ifts in the Cammumn cf Saintt : and this ^eifling tome.

. r For the two ntxt Days, fea the pubiick 7™™/. On Tiief.lay,he went to «M«tinf ol the Prefbyterv appointeil >t khf,l,ilh1,u,„. li, his Way thither, he enjoyed fom= fwee Mcdraluns: I!ut afltr he came tburc, hs was (as he cxprefiij It) ':i:\'! ■oupar, a«im,imchs>f, a^;i mjir ai awful C !em thai' opprefl'ed his Mind. And ihis conriniied Mil Satuiday-Evenine when he bissn to hive fp,i.,e Relicl and Encouragement. fB fpcm the Sab!wth at iVoto.///«j ; where he preach'd to ;\flemblyof DuUh and l'.ngr,p,, and enjoyed coofiderable 1 (7c(hnlC0tan;i Camfcit, boih in piiblicfe and private. In Evening, he returned 10 F.h'ffiisth-Tsjvs.l

MonJay, ^W/ [4. My jpiri,, tliis Oav were raifed and reJ frefii'J, anJ my Mind compoftd, (a ihat I was in a comforlabla fffamcof Boul, jnolt o! the IJay. i,j ,be Evening, m)' Head wai

B/Jkfc. David Erainerd. AiD.iyi*. 'I^J

r,lrjr, my Mind ferene! I enjoyed Sweettiefs in fecretPrayei-.ind ' M™itationonP/i/. Ixxiii.iS. Oh, how free.how conifortablc, , liceiful, and yet folemn do I fcel when i am in a good Meafuro lircd fromtbofe Baoips and melancholy Glooms, that lolten , LlMur undet! And bleffed be the Lord, 1 find mj fclfro-Uicved in this Refpca. , .

^ Tuefday, April IS- My SouUonjeA for more SpiHtuality , find it was my Burden, that I codd dpnomore for God. Oh, Imy Bartennefais my daily Affliaionand hcivy Load ! Oh, how IptecioMisTime: and how it pain, me, to fee It Hideaway lUile I do fo very little 10 any gotid Putiwlu ! Ul. lh»tt.od would

llnake me more fruitful aniKpiritual

I [ The next Day, he fpeaks of his being almoft overwhdmeJ

I with vapoury Difatders s but yet not fo as wholly to deftroy the

1 Compofnic of his Mind,] -

I Thutfday, ^pril .7. -fenjoyed fome Comfort tn P;»y=r. fo"'«

Freedom in Modi.ation. and Compotute m my Studies. Spent

feme Time in writing, in the Fetenoon. In the Afternoon.

Tnt ome Time in Convetfation with fevcral de.r Minlftets.

' the Evening, preach'd from P/nl Ixxin. *S. Bu.u „ ^,.J

L ™. ,c ir^rftar u G„l. Oed helped me to feel the Truth

t of my Text, both in the iirft P«yet and in beinann. I was

enabled to pour ont my SonI to God, with great h reedora, i er-

I vency, and AfFeflion : And, blelTed be the Lord, .t was a cotn-

forub e Sealoi, to me. I was enabled to fpeak with Tendernef^,

and yet with Faithfuloefs; And divine Truths feemed to fall

wUh^Weight and Influeoce upon the Hearers. My Heart wa,

Sted for the dear AHimbly, and 1 loved every Body in it; and

eatce ever felt more Love to itrrmortal Souls m my Life , my

Soul cried, OI>thcatb, itar CrmWis mght m j^id! Oh that

'^firfat^^ht'iettt'tverycomfo.tableFrameofMind

*LoTdVD:,°Tri3-. J. Enjoyed f„meFrecdom,.nd I hope E>«rctfeof Fattlfin Prayer, in the Mormog , fP^'^'V «l>e» 1 came to pray for 7Jm. I was free from that gloomyDifcour-Lement, .hai\o often opprefles my Mind ; an mySoul rejoyc-1 ed in A Hopes of Z/w". Profpeiiiy, anJ the En argemem of .!k I dea^KinEdom of the great Redc^er. Oh that hts Kingdom might come.

X This Day he cntet'd into the zgrAYeai "^ >>'» ^|^'|,„^,y,^

Ihe LIFE

Monday, ^^H/ii. Wa, cojiipotd and comfortabb ijiMli moft af IheD.j.; Was mercifully ir«d f,o« ,hofc glcpmyD/ai Jhaci am frequently exerdfed with: Had iWoin and cSi '7'=" ^,"y«' f=*s«' Times ; efpecially had fbm= rifina H,Z

were iheft Hopes to my Sou] r Oh that th. K.ngdomof C dear Lord m.ght c™t. Oh th.t ,hs poor /aJ™^ might quia ly fie gathered in, in great Numbers. '"'b^it quiij

TucfJay, ^'I-'Vm. My Mind was remarkably free, thisDll fijmraeUcholy Damps and Glooma, .nd animal d 7 '

^r /r- /'"'k""k-'"'="' ^'S""^ andRefclulion in th=^ vtce of OacN thai the Mountun, feem'd to becoiiie a W„m H

and fer™iRefal„tirai„ my Lortl'. Work ! In ths EvenjrA niy Soul was refreih'J in feerct Prayer, and my Heart dram oul for dtv.nc iildlmgs ; c(p«i,lly for Ihe Church of S.d, and i, J Imereii among b,™„ p,„pje, ,„d for dear Friends in r™ J

brghtlS^^tirr'^"'"'"^'"'' ^' ^"""^ ^™'=

[IntbisconifortablcreiveiitFramcofMindheremain'd tb iwo next Uavs. ^

lJ?'"n ^'""■.■^7' T"' '"ll™;"^ »''^. Friday, Saturday

lUldVDay, and Monday, f« his publicl; ymrmL ,0%

Tuerdayhewentto£;f/ito-j;™, ,0 attend the meeting ofl ^e ft-,jS>r,rj, there : And feem'd to fpend thz Time, whij? atfent from hts People oa ibis Oecafion, in 4 free .nd comfore able State of Mind. ]

Saturday, Jl/ay 3. Rode from BUfaheth-TowT, home (0 mJ feople, atorne»rCr^™i,rr,i whither they are now removed,! and where 1 hope, God will fcttlft tb™ as a Chriftian Coosre'f Kal.Dn. Was refrejh'd in l.fiing up my Heart to God, whiii lidmg; and enjoyed a.hankfulFrime of Spirit, for div ne Ka-I vours ,ec«v'd the Week paft. Wa, fomewbat Itneafy an? dqeaed,m,he£ven.ngi having no Houfe t,f my owQ io r3 imo in this PlacL-: But God was my Support. ^

f For Lotd's-Day and Mondsy.See thepublickyso/w/. ]

Tuefday, M,, b. Eojoy'd foms Spirl'=.^<i Courage in my'l Woik ; way,, a good IWeafure fr.e from Melancholy : BlefleJ ce God lor f reed Dm ffom this ZJmj*. '

Wednefday,

0/iWr. David Brsiaerd.' A,D.I746. iti

Wednefday, Mn^ 7> Spent mofl of the Day in writing, as lllfual. Enjoyed (ome Freedom in my Work. Was favoured 'with fome comfortable Meditations, this Day. In theEvening, [ was in a fweet compofed Frame of Mind : Was pleafed and delighted to leave all with God, telptaingmy fclf, for Time and [ tiernity, and rcfpefling the People of ray Charge, and deat I friends : Had no Doobl but thai God would lake Care of me, I ind of his own Intereff amotig my People : And was enabled to I ufc Freedom in Prayer, as a Child witb a tender Father, Oh, I how tweet is fnch a Frame !

I ThutfJay, Msy 3. In (hc'Evening, wa! liimcwlwt refrcfli'd [with divine Things, and enjoyed a tender melting Frame in fe-1 cret Prayer, wheiein my Sou! was drawn out for the Jntcreft of Zim, and comforted with the lively Hope of the appearing of I the Kingdom of the great Redeemer. Thefe were fweet Moments ; 1 felt almoft loth to go to Bed, and grieved that Sleep was necelTary. However, 1 lay down witb a tender reverential Fear of God, fenfible that hii Fmioui h Lift, and liis Smiles better than all that Earth can boaft of, infinitely better tbiB Life it felf.

[ Friday, Miy 9. Sec the publick jBOrM/. J

Saturday, May 10. Rode 10 Allm'i-Titiin, to afTift in theAJ-miniftrationof theLord's-Supper. In the Afternoon, preach'd from Til. ii. 14. Whi ga^e hiviftif fv m, &c. God was pleafed to carry me thro' with fomc Competency of Freedom ; and yet (o deny me that Enlargement and Power 1 long'd for. In Ihe Evening, my Soul mournM ,a,jd could not but mourn, that J had treated fo excellent a Bubjea in fo dcfeilive aWannerjthatl had born fo broken a Tefiimony for fo worthy and glorious a Redeemer. And if myDifcourfe had met with the ullnoftApplanfe from all the World ( as I accidentally heard it applauded by fom» Pel funs of Judgment ) it would not have given me any Satis-faaion ; Oh, i, griEVed me, to think, that I had had no more hoij Warm,hand Fervency, that 1 had been no more melted in difcDurfiiig of Chtift's Death, and the End and Dcflgn of it 1 Afterwards, enjoyed fome Freedom and Fervency in fe-ctet and Family-Prayer, and longed much (or the Prefencs of God to attend his VVord and Ordinances the next Day.

Loril's-Diy, May ! I. AffiHed in the Adminiftraiion of the Lord's-Supper ; but enjoyed little Enlargement ; Was grieved and funk with fame Things I thought untlefnable, bfi. In the Afternoon, went to the Houfe of Qad weak and Tick in Soul,

nt LIFE

as Vf'iM as feeHe in E0J7 : And longed, (hat (he People i ^ erikrtafii'd atiti edified wilh divine Truths, and tlist aniL fcrvejit Teltimony might be bnrn for God ; but knew ittSil it was puflibiefor me to do any Thingof that Kind, toanjjio! Purpofc. Yet God, who is rich in Mercy, was pleafed to ^ me Affiflance, both in Prayer and Preaching ; GoJ helpeWf to wreflle for his Prcfence, in Prayer, and to tell him, thai had proniifed. If tin twn or tint are mtt tsgithir m Mi AwL thire he wmM hi in iht midfl nf thim ; and that we were, at lei fome of us, fo met ; and pleaded, ;bat for his Truth's fako f would be with us. And bjeilcd he God, it was fweet (0 m Soul, Ihtis ro plead, and rdy on God's Promifei. DtfcaurfjJ upon Lui! i?r. 30, 31. And liWd,thiri talhd viith Mm tivaMd aihieh mrt Mufes and Eliat ( win appisniin Glary, andj^ nf his Dictajt, which htjhiiiid aamplifl «(Jemfalem. EDjoya fpciialFrcciluai, fj om [bcUeginnIng to the £nd of inyDifcounj' without Interruption. Things pertinent to the Subjea vm »bur.danliy prefented to my View, aird fuch a Fulncfa of m3 (er, ihat I (carcc knew how to difmifs the various Heads 4 Parliculars I had Occafion to touch upotl. And, bleffed bit lord, il was favoured with fonie Fervency and ."ower, as weff _ Freedom ; fo ihar the Word of God feem'd to awalien (heAi lention of a fiupid Audience, to a conilderaWe Degree. Iwjl inwardly refrefll'd wilh the Confolationj of God ; and CDirlJ with my whole Heai t fay, Thu' ihirt hi ns Frail In the F'mt,h\ yit vtiH 1 ffpyu in ibe l.crd. After publick Service, waa rcfi wirh ihe fweet Convcifation of fome Chtjfiian Frieiida.

[ The four ntxt Days feem (0 have been molliy fpent S fpiritual Comfort and Frofir. j

Friday, jWy 16. Near Night, enjoyed fome apceable fivcet Conveifaiinn with a dear Minifter, which, I truft blcfs'tltoraySoul : My Heart was warmed, ami my Soul erf gaged to live to God ; fo that 1 longed to ejicrt my felf witB more Vigour, than ever J had done, inhisCaufe: And (hoH Words Kerequtctiiingtomc,a«;au»Bj Fatherglctifiid^ thi }ilrit:gftrlhmsch trsit. Oh, my Soul longed, and iviit'd,arl jjray'd, to be enabled to live to God with utmoil Conftancf afl Ardour! In the Evening, God was pleafed to flrine upon me It fccret Prayer, and draw out my Soul after himfelf ; and 1 ha Freedom in Supplication for my felf, but much more in Inte^ teEiiii for oihei!: So that 1 was fwectlj CDnftraia'dtofaj.ijr/iS

o/Jtfr. David Bralnerd. A.D. 1746. iBj

|t/> mt aj then vlilt ; A os thm will with me: E^i Oh, pn-flKli IhinceviaOuifi. Zian is thim; Oh ■ai/il Ihim Herittgt ; \ Ob lit ibl Kiaidlm cimc ; Oh lit thy iliffid htereff il sdmmid \b till H''rl<'- When I attempted to look to God, refpefl-I (lie my worldly Citcnmfiances, and his providenlial Deal-"UnM wilhmc, inRcgsrd of my fettling down in my Congregatl-L which feems to be neceflarv, and yet very difficult, and |IIon'.-ary tomyfa'dlntcBtionfar Yean patt, as well as my t Difpofition, which has been, and Hill i., at Tiroes cfpecially, to I ,0 forih, and fpend my Life in prenchinR thebrifpel Irom PJice io Place, and gathering Soul, o/o'./10 JliStls the peat Re-ilcemer s when I art^pred to look to God with Regard to ihefe Things, and hisDefigns concerning me, I could onl] ijy. .ThiWili cfthilori tedm: "fit ™. sMmh" /tr-me. Ibc I firae Frame of Mind I felt with Rcfpefl to another iraportart 1 Affair 1 have lately had fome ferious Thot's of: I could lay, with urmoft Calmnefs and Compofurc, LtrJ, if stit 'p'JI f'r Ih, Ghr,, lit tr^i prcceed in it; biit if thm fie/f that ,t wll tnj.l!y Jifl hinder m Ujef^H' "'*/ '^"'f'' °'' t^1"'t'"yf"''"^'"l-I fLll I wJ,, i,fp.{lini Ms mrtd,i,f<sth C„«^ll.,n„t^t 1 m\ hiR mpadlali mi tt de Silvia f>r G,i ,« Ibl ff^'"'' ^"^ hleffed be God, I enjoyed Liberty in Prayer for my dear Hock, I ,nd was enabled to pour out my Sou! into theBofom of a tender Father ; My Heart within me was melted, when I came to plead for n:/ dear People, and for the Kingdom o tbriH .n Lnerai. Oh, how fweet was .his Even ing to rn, Sou 1 [ knew not how to go to Bed ; and when got to Bed, longed lor fome Way 10 improve Time for God, (0 fome excellent Fuipofe. Bliji the Lord, O my SiuL ,.,

Saturday, Ms, sp Walk'd ■.>^' =■> the Morning and felf much of the fame Frame I enjoyed the Evenmg before .Had my Heart enlarged in praying for the Advancement pt the Sgn^omof Chrift, and foimd ut«oft Freedom m leaving all my Concerns with God. ,„ „„

IiindI5,/™r.fm«(tobeai. e«eed>ng ■»■"*";«'' ^? fplritual Fervency and AtFefiion : Buc when God enab me (enSbly to find that I have done fomethinB fir «"■ ' ' ^: frefhes and animates me, fc that 1 could break ihto all Hard ibip! undergo any Labours.and nothing fecm= roo much either rdoettoflffer.' But Oh, «^^'^ ^c^tlnt is, .o«.rve,.nd^ ftrlve ■ to be always io a Osrn, and yel do N^thsng, or at leaffi , nothing V God 1 Alas. ,^las, th»t Time files away, and i do i fo little for God! ^^ Lgrd'a-Day.

riita

ns LIFE

Lord's-Day, May 18. I felt my own uHor Infufficiencji (01 my Work : God maiJc me to fee, that I waa ^Cbiiel j ytajiiijl I was a FfsL 1 difCiJurfed, buth Psrts of thr Day, frotn Hnfm iii. to. Bfhoi4i J /IfiJid &t tht Dour, and kjiocA, God gav^M PreedDin and Power in the latter Part of my (Forenoon's) f' CDUrfe \ ahho', in the formef Part ai it, f felfpeeviih and [ vqked with the uninanncrly Bchaviotir of the whiti People,1 ctouded in between my People and me ; which proved a gS Temptation (0 me. But bleflid be Got), I got thcfe Shacl? off before the middle of my Difcourfe, and was favoured 1 a fweet Framcof Spirit in the latterPart of th. E:iercife ; full of Love, Warmth, and Tendetnefs, in addrefling my d'gl

People tn the rntermiffion-Scafon, could not but dif.

courfc to my People on the Kindntfi and Patience of Chriftiii

flending and kmdhg at till Dasr, &c In (he Evening, J

was grieved, that I liad done fa little forCiod. Oh thai I cou,*" be a Flomi ef Fire in the Hcrvice of my God,

[ Monday, May 19. See the publicJc Jmrnsl. , On Tuofday he coiaplains ofWam of Freedom aniiCojnfoi tut had (ome Retii* of ihcfe on WecJnefday. ]

Thurfflay, May 12. In the Evening, was in aFraiae fom^ what remarkable : Had apptehended for fevcral Days beforoj that it wasihcDefignof Providence I ihouH/sH/, among ray People here ; and had in my own Mind begun to make Pfo^ vifion for it, anti to contrive Means 10 hattcn it ; and founj my Heart fontcthing engaged in it, hoping I might then enjoy more agrcableCircuroftanccs of Life, in feueral Rcfocas; And yet was never fully ilctermined, never quite pleafcd with the Thougilts of being fettled and confin'd to one Place. Nevci-thelefs J feetn'd to have fome Freedom in that Relpeci.becaufe the Ccngregalion I thought of fettling with, was one that God had enabled me to gather from amongfi Fagant. For I never fiiiceI bejan to preach, could feel any I'teedom to tnur ;«. tlhir Mia'i Lahiirs,and fettle down in the Miniftry where the Ctffelwaipriachcdttfiri ; 1 never could malte that appear to be my Province : When I felt any Difpofilioii to confult my Eafc and worldly Comfort, God has never given me anyLibcr-ly in that Rcfpea, either fince, or for Years before 1 began to preach. But God hivii^g fucceeded my Labours, and made me inftruraental of gathering a Church for him among lliefe hi'ans, 1 was ready to thini;, it might be hisDeSgir to giveaie

of Mr. Bavid Bralnerf. A.D. 1746; "»»S

, nulet Settkment anda ftatetl Home of tny own. And this.

™M rlnahe late frequent Sinkingand Failure oftny Spirt.s, h Need! ft«<i inof fomeagreablc Sooety, and my great Dcfie of enjoying Convenienc:i=s and Opportuntttes or p ofi-"ble Sludiei,was not altogether difagreable to me ; A tho

ffill wanted to go about far and wide, in order 10 fpr ad the lSd"Go?p.l among benighted Souh, ^J''«-'=„'^>^ ,',rfi had been fo willi-ig 10 fettle n "r.i'"'=,^ 'i ■ ? 'Xk But

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«= even to Death it felf, if it be but tn 'hyi,""^-^' »"■' ° ^ even >" " , ,', , j ( the (ameTime 1 hid as quick

«< mote thy Kingdom. '^°; "'''J^^h, Comfort., as ever I

S nTfi^ , whiTrtho^ght I might be likel, to e^jny ,n C=n

Mt. ag;

Tfo LIFE

fiiiimi

Life appeared valiiabls and de.r to me, yes I did furrendef reflgn my fcif. Soul and fioiJy, to tb= Ssr.ice of God and motion cf Cfitift'a Kingdom ; tho' it (houJd lie it] til, I m™ all. And I couW not (Jo any uther, becaiife 1 (. w.]/ or chufe any otiier. I was conftrained, and ,,« d. Jay, BuTiKiU, Ftimds and tarthtf Camfms,thi diarel! -fill,', ail, lb, v,ry dimfl, ifih, U,d aill, fir is ; MiK, Jduu ; n jpnimj Uf,^ 13 my jatiji Mtmtnis, in Cavej and Dm. Jianh, ,/tbi Km[dii,i ,f Chriji m^y ibeuby hi sdvantci- . ejlraordsnary Frtfdoni at tills Time m pourinp our my Si.ul a Ood, for his Caufe ; a„,l efptcially tliat his K.ngdom r e= CMcnded aiiiQBg the YsAW, far remote ; and ! had a and ftrong Hope, thaiGod would do it. [ cuti tiniietf me&Ws With God in Prayer for m.y dear litlle f'Vi ck here ; and mc Blpecially for ths /oi/imj clfuwherc j la well m for dcarFritnJ* in OHE Place and another; 'dlt it was lid-Time, and I fear'J Ifliould hinder (he Family, ^c. But Ob, with wiijtReJai!. 4 tsncy d.d i find my felf obliged io conCume Time in Steep I ilongedtobeasfl F/aMf,/-F;r,, continually glowing in lb divine Service, preaching and building up Chtifl's Kingdonh to rny lateft, my dying Moment.

Iriday, Msf 33. In the Morning, was in the fame Frauui, ol IMind.as in the iCvening before. TheGlory of Chrift'sKina- k dom fo much out-ftooe the Pieafere of earthly Accojnmodsll- f Offi and Enjoyments, that they appeared comparativelyNothing, i tho' in therrifeli'ca good and defirablc. My Soul wasmeltsj^ in fecret Mediwiion and Prayer, and I found my felf divorcci ' from any Part in Ibis World ; io that in tl.ofe Affairs ibatfeem'j ■' of the greatelU mpoi tar.ce to me, in refjica of the prefcnlLife, ' and Ibofe wbetcm the tender Poivets of the Mind arc moft ' ftnfibly loMch'd.Icoeldonlyfay, lb, mutf thi Lsrdhdmt. ■, But juft ihe fame Tilings that 1 felt (he Evening before, f fell-now ; and found ibo fame Krectiom in I'rayer for the Pcopl*.! of my Charge, for the Propagation of the Gofpd among the-Jsaaai, and ior the Enlargement and fpiritual Welfate of Zki in general, and my ilear I'riends in particular, now, as 1 did then ; and longed to burn out in one continued J'kme for Go4, Reiain'd much of the fame frame through the Day. In th» Ivering, wasvidted by my Brother Jtkn Braina-d: The firfl Vifit I have ever received from any near Relative, fince i havj ieena MiiTmnary, Felt the fame Frame of Spirit In the Evening, as in the .Vlorning ; and found \\iU il wai gaid far mi U draw 7,m If Gicl, and leave all my Commn and Burdens ttfjtli

him.

ef Mr. David Brainerd.

dim. Was enlarged and refrelh^d in pouring out my Soul for ihr Propagation of the Gofpel of the Redeemer amt>ng the diftant Tribes ol Jndians, BlclTed hs God. 11 ever I fill'd up a I )ay with Studies and Devotion, I was enabled Co to ^11 up this liay.

fisturday, May 24.. ■— Enjoyed this Day fomething of

the fame Frame ol Mind as 1 fell the Day before.

[ LordVDay, Mif 3J. Sec the publick Jiurnal.

Tfrts Week, at Icaft tho former Part of il, Iw was in a veijr weak Stare : but yet feems to htvc been free rromMclincholy, which often had attended the failing of his bodily Strength. Ho from Time 10 Titne fpealcs of Comfort and inward RelteBi-ment, this Week.

Lord'i-Dajr jfiiw I. See the publick /mrnii;.]

Monday, Jiai 2. In the Evetiiirg, enjoy'd (bme Ftesdora in fecret Prayer and Meditation.

Tuefday, Juni 3. My Soul rejoyced, early in the Morning, [0 think, thatall Things were atUod'sOifpofal. Oh, it plejfcd me, to leave *ein there ! Ftit afterwards much as I did, on Thurfday Eirening, j(/oy II. lafti and continued in this Frame for feveral Hours. Walked out into tlic Wildernefs, and en-jiyed Freedom, Fervency,andComfort, in Prayer : And again enjoyed the fame in theEveniDg.

Wednefday, 5'on< 4, Spetst the Day il! Wtidog, and enjoyed fome Comfort, Satislaaion, and Freedom in my Work. In the Evening, I was favoured with a fwcct rcfrelhing Frame of Soul in fecret Prayer and Meditation. Prayer was now wholly turned into Praife ; and I could da little elfe but try to adore and blefs the living ©od: The Wonders of his Grace difplay'd in gathering to himfelf a Chuich among the poor Ja-dim! herc,wcre the Subjeft-Matter of my Meditation, and the Occafionof eliciting my Soul fo praife and bicfa his Name. MySoul was fcafccever more difpofed ro inquire, WAai 1 /hmld nndiT tt Gsdfir all bit Bimjili, than at tllis Time. Oh, I was braughtinloaSirait,afweet and happy Strait, (0 know what to do! Hanged to rnake fome Returns 10 God ; but found I had nothing to return : I could only rejoyce,that Gon had done the Work himfelf ; and that none in Heaven or Eaith might pretend to {hare the Honour of it with him j [could only be glad, that God's declarative Glory was advanced by theCoa-veilion of thcfe Stiuls, and that it was to the Enlargement of

LIFE

his Kingdom in (he World : Bui faw I was fo poor, i i had BQihing to ofFer lo him. My Soul and BodvMhro' Grja I couid ciiEarfully furrender to him : But it appear'd ffim^l Iha was ralher a Cllmljer, than a Gift: And isothing could 1 d* 10 glorify hjs dear and blcffcd Name. Yet I was glad as Healtll-Ihat he was unchsoeeably poflided of Glory and Bleffcdneft; Oh that be might be adored and praifed Ijy ail his intelliseni Crealiires, to the uimofl of their Powers and Capacities. Mj Soul would have rejoyccd to fee others uraiC: hitn, tho' J coul (lotiolhingtowardiiimy fclf. 1

f The naxt Day, he fpeaks of liis being fuhjca to fomeDe. grce of Melancholy; ijut of bcitig fomeiliing relieved in t ' Evening.

rridfl)-, 'jsailj. Sec the publlcjt Jiaami. ]

Saturday, yoor 7 Eode to Fruhtli, to affift Mr. T/u*'

m«in the Adminiftration of the Lord's Supper. In the A? ternoon, preach'd from Pfst. Ijtxiii, 28. God gave me fbn(l Freedom and Warmth in ray Difcourfe ; and I triift, hit Pre. fence was in the AHimbly. Was comfoitably conipofed, and enjoyed a thankfuU'rame of Spirit i and my Soul was grieved, Ibat Icould not lender fomething toGad fothisBencfils bellowed. Oh that 1 could be fwallowed up iti hia Praifc I

Lord's Day, Jvni 8. Spent much Time, in the Morning, in fecret Duties ; but between flope and Fear, refpeaino tlic Enjoyment of God irr the Buiinefs of ths Day then before as. Was agreeably entcrlatn'd.iti theForerMon,hy aOifcourfe from Mr. Tismnr, and felt fcmcwhat melted and refrefii'd. In the Seafcn of Communion, enjoyed fomc Comfort; and efpccially infervingonc of the Tables, Blelied he the Lord, it was a "nm if Ri/rijlihi to me, and [ IruiV, to many others. A Number of my dear People fat down by themfelvcs at (he laft Table ; at which Time God feem'd to be in the midH of

(hem. And the Thoughts of what God had done amon

thetn were rcfreOiing & melline to me. In iheAfternoon.G enabled me to preach wiib uncommon Freedom, from 2 Ccr. 10. Thro' the great Goodnefs of God, I was favoured with confiant Flow of pertinent Matter.aiid propcrExprcffions,fro„ the Beginning to the End of my Difcourfe. In the EvetS mg, I could noibut rejoice in God,and blefs him fonhe Mani fcftalions of his Grace in the Day pafl. Oh, it was a fweet anu; foisnin Day and Eveuing I A Seafcn of Comfort to ihe Godly,

c/ Mr. David Brainerd, A.D. 1743- 189

,ndof AwakningSofome Souls. Oh that I could ptaife tto

''''MoEday,7»«9.EnioyM fomeSweetnefe infecrelDutks,—-; Preach'd .1 ecottcludiig Sermon from G^. V. M- ^"^Eb?cI' ^"Myj,bG,d,l.c. 'God gave pre Enlargement and barney inmvDifooutCe; fo.hat l«s enabled ^ fp"!' "f

^:^'^^:^^^^^^^^

wherein I h^^"= f"""'' Affiftance in add.efIinBOlhers,atidi.wect-. nelsininy owiiSoul.

rOnTuefday.he foitnd htrnfelfrpent, and tls Spirils exhsnft-tdby h-^ late Z;bou„ ; and on Wednetday, compla.ni of va-pouryDiforders, and Dejeffion of Spirit, and of enjoymg but little Comfort or Spintualrty. ]

Thurfday, J«m XI. In Ihe EvenioB, enjoyed Freedoro ot Mind, nd fcme Sweetneft in fecret Prayer : It was a debtaH. 'Teafot^ to me ; my Soul was enlarged in Prayw fo. my own Peop", and f^r the Enlargement of Cbr>rsK,ngdo^.>i .loeciallyfol the Propagation of (heGofpe! among 'he /«rf.^^r. back in the Wrlderneft. Was refrefh'd in Prayer f^r doar |>ends nW™-£.^;^"rf, ^nd elfewhcre : I found .t fweet to prT'> 'W= Time ; and could with all my Heart fay, h u g.oi ^^X'TJu^^Icameaway from the Meetmg of the ;S;.^th's Uay, rejoycing and bliffing God for h,s Grace

B'.£ in h idmlnilfration o( the Lord's Supper. 1" *e Af-f .loo nreach'd i but almoll fainted in the Pulp.t 1 Yet God fi enXu'd mewhen I wasjuftgone, and enabled me to peak b rWor with freedo.^. Fervency andApplicat.on t.. theCon-f ence Ind praifed be theLord ; 0«« ./-"«<«/' i «' "^f

r L I enioved folne Sweetnefs, in and after puMickWorQnp, Cwa e" r/amly "red. Oh. how nrany are the Merces of the

Lord . ■?rZ iL-'/— i^k'". b^lncr,a{.ttS<ruf.

nrd'/oiv 7^15- Wasinadej=a=d fp.r.tlets Franre,

.hatTcouHlVt-Lld u7™y Head, no! look any Body .n the

?SiLIFE

Jace, Adminiftred tlie Lbrd*3-Siipper at Mr. ft^aht's Defifl And found my felf in a good IWeafurc unbuiden'd and reltiBVL of my fire^ng Load, when ! came to alk a BleJHng on thflBlf irents : Here God gave me Enlargement, and a tender aftea lioiiaie Senfe of rpJrittialThings i fo that it was aSeafon ofCoift _ fort, iafomeMeafurCjtQ me, and I iluft.raorcfo to others. ]|l~ the Afternoon, prcach'd to a vaft Multitude, from fon. xxii^ 17. Jnd whsfiltiir viiU, kz, God'hdped me tooifera Tefttt inooy for himfelf, and to leave Sinners ineJtcufable in negledlijr his Grace. 1 was enabled to fpeak wiih fuch Freedooi, Fiuesi cy, af.ii Clearnefs, as commanded the Attention oi the Gie»|] Waj extreamly tired, in the Evening, but enjoyed Compoforj and Sweetnefs.

Monday, Jmc 16. Preach'd agfin s anrf God helped 1 amazingly, fo (hat this was afweet rdrefhing Scafan to mySoi and others. Oh, forever bleil^i be God for Help afforded this Time, when my Body was fo weak, and wiiile there wa«: ib large an AiTembEy to hear. Spent the Afternoon in a CiH fi^fttahle agreable Manner.

f The next Day was fpent comfortably.

On Wciinefday, he went to a meeting of Minifters al

Thurfday, Jam 19. See his publick Jsarml." ■ On Friday and Saturday, he was very much amifs; but yet preachM ro his People on Saturday. His Illnefs continued on iheSabharlij but he pieach'd, notwithfianding, to his People, boih Pans of ihe Day ; And alter the publick Worfliip waa rnded, he endeavoured to apply divine Truljjs to tbeConfcien* ces of fome, and addrcfs'd rhfim perfonally for that End : Several were in Tears, and feme appeared much afFeiled. Bnl he was twremely wearied with the Services of the Day, am was fo ill at Night, thathe could have no bodily Reft; but rev ^aiks, rhat God luai his Svppsrt^ and that hi luai tint left defii'^A iutc ef CsTTiforl in hint. On Monday, he continued very 111; bul fpcaks of his Mind's being calm and compofed, refigned to (h^] divine Drfpenfations, and conlcnr wilh his feeble State. , And^ by the Account be gives ofhjmfelf, the remaining Part of rhis Week, he continued very fceble,and for theaioit Part dcjcdlcd

* The publick Journal that has been fo often relti'd to, concludes with (he AccountofthisDay,

ID

«/Jl?;', David Brainerd,' A.D.iy'45. igi

I cd in Mind, and enjoy'd no great Freedom nor Sweernefs in fnirirnal Things ; excepting that for fome very flrort Spaces of Time he had Rcfrefliment and Encouragement, which engaged his Heart on divine Things 1 and ibmetimca his Heart was melted with fpiritual Affeaion. ]

I.,ord's-Day, Jmii 29. Freacb'd, both Farts of the Day,from *J3h.ttlv, lEf. Tet a littte whiU, titid the IVnrld futhtjiena mau^ &c. God was pleafcd 10 affiffl me, to affotd me boih Freeiom aLd Power i efpecially towarda the clofe niiny nifroiirfeSjbnrll Forenoon, and Afternoon. God's Power appeai'il in the Af-fenibly, in both Exercifes. Numbers of God's People were refrcih'd and melted with divine Things j ono or two comforted, who had been long under Diflrefs : Conviflions, in divers [ufiiinces, powcrfidly revived ; and one Man in Years much awaktti'd, who had not long frequented our Meeting, and appeared before as fiupid assStocfc. God amazingly renewed and knglhen'd out jny Strength. I was fo fpent at Noon, that 1 couldfcarcewalk, and all'my Joints trembled i fo ihat 1 could not fit, nor fo much ai hold my Hand ttill; And yet God firengthned me to preach with Power in the Afternoon ; alllio' 1 h^d givsn out Word to myFeople, that I did not expcfl to be able to do it. Spent foBlc Time afterwards in converling, particularly, with feveral Perfons, about their fpirit'Ja! Elate ; 5[id had fome SatisfaHion concerning otic or two. Praj'd afterwards with a lick Child, and gave a Word of Exhortalion. Was affifted in all my Work. Bleiled be God. Rciurned heme with more Health, than I went out with ; althn tny Lin-nen was wringing wet upon me, from a little after icn in ihc Morning, 'till paft five in ihe Ailernoon- My Spirits alfo were qonlidetably rcfreih'd ; and my Soul rejoiced in Hope, that i had through Grace done fomcthing for God. In thcEvcning, ■walked out, and enjoyed a ftveet Seafou in ftcref Prayer ani Praife. But Oh, I found the Truth of the Pfalmill's Words, JHy Gminifi tsundiih ml Is This' 1 could not make any Re^ turns to God ; I longed to live my to Him,and to be in Tune for his Praife and Service forever. Oh, for SpirKuality and holy Fervency, that I might fptml aiti bifpmt [or God, to my lalett Pi/lomcnt !

Monday, yam 30. Spent the Day in writing i but under much Weakncfe and Diforder. Felt the Labours of the prc-cecding Day ; allho' my Spirits were fo rcfrcth'd the Evening hclorc, that I was not not then fenfible of my being fpent.

C c Tuefday,

7^-^ LIF E

Tuefdayj Juiy r. In the Afternoon, vifitedj and pTeacli'4| jny PeopJc^ irom ii'c^. Ix. 27. on Occasion df fome Perfoflj ]ying sE [he Point of Deaths in irj" Congregadon. God-giv' ms f^me AiBftance ; and his Word made fome ImpKfRcfns 0 (he Audience* in general. This was an agreable and'cO] fortable Evening to my Soul : My Spirits were fumcwhat t

frefli'd » vt'itli a (znaW Degree of Freedom and He3p enjoyed-! my Work.

[ On Wcdnefday, he wetitto Nizvatif to a Meeting of \ Prfjhyiay : Complains of lownefs of Spirits i and greatly ■] mcnts Ilia rpcnding his Time fo unfruitfully. The remainia Fart of the Week he fpent there, and at Eif/tihih-Tewn; fpeaks of Cormfort and divine AfTiftiince, from Day to Day'l But yet greatly cuniplaiiiii for want of more Spirituality. ] <

Lort^'s-Day, July 6. [ At EUfoheth-Tswn ] Enjoyed forn* Cnmpfifure and Herenily of Mind, in the Morning; HeardMa • Dicksnf^n prcachi in the Forenoon, and was refrefh'd with hu Dirtourfe ; was in a meltiuj^ Frame , fome Paft of ihe Tim« of Sermon; Partook of the Lord VS[;ppcr', and enjoyed foma. Senfe of divine Things in that Ordinance. Jn lire Afternoon, Xj preached from E^sh. xxxlii. 11. j^i i live, fattb ibs Lord Gcd^ * &c. Gad favour'd me with FreetJomandFervency ; and lielp-ed me to plead his Caufe, beyond my own Power.

Monday, ^uly 7. My Spiiics were coniiderabJy refrcflj'v ^nd raifed, in ihe MornJng. There is no Cornfort, I hnd, in any E^joymunr, without enjoying God and being engaged in h[3 Service. In the Evening, had the moft agrecabia Converfaiif thstevcr ! rcajember in &IL my Life* upon God's being oU fl^/, and all Enjoyments being jufl: f,&fl^ tons which Go I? makfi thcm^ and nonrore. 'Tl? good to begin and end wish Gofli Oh, how does a fweet Solemnity lay a Foundation for irufl fJeafme and Happinei^s ! ,

Tuefday* yn/y S. lloda hotnc, anil eujoyed fomcpgrecabf Meditatjonsby the Wa.y. ^^

Wydnefday, ftdy g. Spent the Day in writing,et^jo^ecIfomS Comfort ancJ Refrcflinifntof Spirit in my £vening-Reti;cmenti

Thurfday^ Ju^y to. tipcnt mofl ofiheDay in wriuug. Ta wards Nigti^, rode to Mr. TsPm^nt's i enjoyed fome agrceat Convcrfation : Went hnmc^ in the Evening, in afolemii fwe Frame of Aliiid ; w:;s refrcfh'd in fecret Dmies, longed tcJiv wholly and ciily fQi Guu, and fiw plainly, theie W3s nothing ir

0/Afr. David Brainerd: A.D, "iy^^, 193

0,e World worthy of my Affeaion , fo that mv Heart was dead t"all below ', yet not thfo^ Dejeaion as, at .fomc Ttmes, but from ViewsofabeTier Inheritance. .

Fridav Jubii. Was in a calm compofcd trame, m the Mornin^,'efpedaliy in the Seafon of my fccret Retirement l I S I w.s well plLfed with theWill of G.d,^hat.vtr tt was, X0.IA h., in all Refpea. 1 had the. any Thought of, ntend-Ltoadminftor the Lord VSupper the n.xtLord'sDay 1 look d to God fothi.Prefence and Affithncc upor. that Occaho..; b.

the to give me Amitnn.c, or not. Spent '^'1';^': l""l^'\ ", "

CmS.tion with them; thinking it not belt to preach, by R i^afon that many of them were abfcnt.

erV mrCo„y»a.ion, == f'^P^'^'"'V " ">= ^^"»™f' J d fc™rM, bo,bPa»so[!h=Dav, torn Rm.«. ^S-ft'^'' JXJ^rd hrmrOpwi:, &c. God gave m= fome Affia^ncc'n

VVord I fruha. .hi.^.»ll "grrolMe S»r,u,. Afc.wMd^kd

,:on of !l,=nifc;vK .o God. TWs ™a= a bcafon both of bokmm ty .nd S»>.ewd=, and God ft=m'd lo b« „ '*'™* f "'p^f^; iLnad 10 my Lodging, in thctvenrng. m :. comforubletrami:

''Tor°dtD.y, 7.;, 13- In ibe Forcnoo., difcourfd on tbe ii^iV 1m, Li ih. vi. 35. God s,v=o,e rcmcAffitoc. f "m of ny DKcourfe cfp«,.lly ; .nd ibcrc .-PP"!, °™=

ray Sod alfo wasfomtwliM rcfrelli'd. Adffl.nLftred the i-=c«-SLt cf the Lord'. Suppe. to thiny-oite Fcrfcns of (he Mmnu Sf™>d.ob.pref'nt io thijOHjn^nce. 'h^C™--.■«ots were fmcllymeltEd and refrelh'd, moil of them. Uli how th mel d,e™ when theEkatent. werefltll ttnecv^rf ! Thetrwarrcareelv adry Eye amongft ttetii, wbet, 1 took off th C^^/^dS«ed^h/,« th¥SrmbcbofCH.„.r's*«^^^^^ M.^^ Having teEed a little, after the Adtr....flm>on of rkot^em, Irftedthe Cotnmunic.n,, atxl fonnti tletu generally ia a fweet loving F,.™e ; not unhke wh.t ^ppear <I Long tb™ on thefortnet SactamentalOcea ton. on ^?r, .y-r.be Afternoon, difcootfed upon .,™mf f. H^^r^'fXVSn B.firASMol thote who do fo, trom the fa^,e.f,r/a mf Jed on b the Forenoon. Thia w»s bkc-vifef" »£'«»^1<^ S'^f^^^'j^^

'i94 ^'- 2g.'

Ibe ■LIFE'

SeafofiofmuchTeiitooefs, AffcaionandEniargement in d^l v^paScrvicc: And God, I ara p.rfcaded.crown'd ourAffemW J With his ,iin„e Frcfence. r rcmimed horns much fpent, vet igoicmg in tbe Gooiincfs of God. '

Mondaj., >/^ 14. Went to tay People, and difcourfcd ID them UoxaPfal. c.x.x 106. 1 haiiifrntrn^nd 1 willpirfcrmisMtk QbfH«d. ,. Th.tallGod'= ■J.^i^enuc, Cominaiidt^eati WYf""-"- 1- Tint God's People have/K,^™ to fe» tllctn | and Ihisihsydoefpecially at lh= J.ord's Table. There appear'J .0 be a powerfiil divine Infliieoce on the Affembly, and coni dc;Ahlei„p,lling under the Word. Afterwards, i led them^ a Beiicwal of their Corenanl: before God ( that they wota ytjjch OTcr thcrofelves aod one another, left tlicy fhould 3 into Sin, ind Jiflionoor the Natni: of Chtlft 1 Julias 1 dkioi, Moi,d4y ^pril 18. Thi. Trinfiiilion was attended with ^reat fcolemmty: /;„d Cod feni'd to ot^n itby^citing in themi J-car and Jcjluufy of thcmfelvES, left they fliouid Sin a^aij God ; f.. that the Prefence of God feem'd to be amongft us this t-onciulion of the Sacramental Solemnlly.

[ The next Day, he fct out on a Journey towards Phlkdu fhja ; from whence he did not return 'till Saturday. He -xan^ ihis Journey, and fpatt the Week, under a great Degree of' lllneli of Body, and D<!Jcaion of Mind.] 1

Lord's-Day, 7«,> 20. Preach'd tn.ice to nsy People, fron ' >4. j:vii.24. Falb,y,}v,mthatth,,B>fiwhm thouhM givim me, i, mil, mi, wh„; I am, thai tity ,„„, hlM mf Ghry, whicA ihm b.J} fmm «,. Was helped to difcoinfe with great Clear-?, ncfs 3iid I iainiiefi in ,!)c ForconB. In the Aftt^noon, cnjoy'd-l fa™ rsnderriefs, and fpake will, fome Influence. Divers weW-10 1 ears i and (onie, to Appearance, in DiHrefs. .

Monday 7«/r 41. Pftach'd to the/»A™, chiefly for thS' Cke of /omc A'«»f..7. Then prnpofed my Defeu of rating a>i/ Journey fpeedily loSuJqm!«!,!«ab : Eifiorted my Peopb to prap' (or me lh,t God woutj be w.ih mc in tbaljourney, &c. Thci' '■ ohof.divcs Perfonsof (he Congregation .0 Iravd with me. After^rd... ffcnl 7 ,n,e in dtfcgarfiug 10 tie i5™f,„,and was fonrewb,, ei.coi.rngcd with .hem. TooJc Care of my People's War Dufiuefe. and w.s not a l,(lle exercifed with it Ha* - '"'^ D=gree of ^.onrpofure and Conrfortin fecret Retirement. _^Tuef;„,;., J,„, ,.2. Was in a dejefled Frame, moft of the Wy ; ^^ :.":e.; I., wear out Life,and have it at auEnd ; i.„t had ra"Vr,,; i"-'■."T'-^'^,°"'»'"' "-winsout LikfcrMa, O!;

cf Mr'. David Btaineri!. A.D.17+fi. 11^

1 I The ne^ttDay, he went to EUfaklh-Tcvin, to a Meeting of ,1, ' AWy : ani fpent this, and Thurfday, and ti« orrncr :,i.,f Friday nnde' a vety great Degree of MeUnchdy, and ,. .xTdingGloominefs of Mind j not through any Fear of futaie ; iniment.hutas being diftrt!(r=d with a Ecnfeletneis of all , r. that the whole World appcar'd e,r.pty and gi^-^J " k„„, Girt, in the lattetPartof Friday, he was greatly lel.ev d uiJ comfoirted.j

U^ntena'I^e^^ Heart were „0. fad .. in '"f'P-S/j.^W 1 lome Sweemefs in lifting up my Heart toGod. R" le U. mc to „,^P™le and was in a comfortaUc pleafant FratEC by the V»Ti^ySp",it5»ere much relieved of thdr Bu.ien, and I iclt free to go throagh all Diffieulties and Labours m my Ma-

"°Lo^ VDay. July 27. Difcourfed to my People.in theFore-

r God helped mein the latter Part ot my Difcourfe, and ,;i Power of God a„pearM in tho Affeml.Jy. In the Afternoon. Mcoui^d from £.fexiii. .J. Here alfo I enjoye Tome AM-■ce and the Spirit of God feemed to attend what was fpoken. (', that there was a great Solemnity, and foras Teat! among !n.

" Montyt'yS .8. Was very weak, and fearce .able to perform any Bu5ne& at all ; but enjoyed Sweetnef^ and Cornlornn t^ctjboth Morning and Evening ! «nd «= «7°f=^/"J comfo«ablethro' the Day t My M.nd was mten e . J rny ll=.,rt ferrent, at leaft in fome Degree, m fecret Duties , anU

TuefdavfV/y^g. My Mind was ohearful and free frot. ,K-.tc melincholy Damps, that I am often eKrcfed with , Had f-«iont in looking up to God, a. fundry 1'™' '^ *£ J^\^ I., •beEvcnins,! enjoyed a comfottablc Sesfon in fee etP ayer, ta ev' °P!-J""h God for n,y own dear People, thath. w ,uld carry oUis own blcffedWo, k among them ; was afTrftetl „"h in praying for the divinePrefence toattendmem my mtend-//^i uVyto B./,..4™.A i was alfo helped .o-mmb" rica Brethren andVricnds in T^,.,-England;. fcarce icn w how to leave the Throne of Grace, and it grieved tne that! was obliged to go to Bed ; I longed to do teething for God, but knei not h.w. Bkffed be God Icr Ibi. >Kriom from Do-i'^-'^si' Wedacfday,

ris LIFE

Wednrfduj', ^sfy 30. Was nncommonlji comfortable.^ in Bociy 3nd Mind j in ihc Forenoon efpecially : My Mind I folcniii, Iwas affifJed in my Wort, and God /eemM to be mi (D nic ; fo (hat ihc Day was as eomforcable as moil I have en , joyed for fome Time. In (lie Eveniog, was favoured \d Affifiance in feere( Frajer, and felt mucli as 1 did llie EvenM btfore. Blcflid be God for that Frceilom I then cnjoveii at^ Throne of Grace, for mf felf, my f eoplo and my dear Friciii Il"S"''f'r mete draw nmr It Gcil. "

[Herecmsto have continued very much in ihc fame fi comiortabk State of Mind ilie next Day.]

^ Friday, jSasuJI i. In Ihc Eicning, gnjoyeii a {west Seafo? in ftcrct Prayer; Clonda of JJirkjiefi and perplexing Cat» wcrcfivcetly tLiiiitr'd, aiid u'bthing anxious rcmain'd. OJi how ft-renc was my Mind at this Seafon ! How free from thai'. Mraaing Concern I iiave often felt [ Th Wilt he dent, was Petition fweet to my Soul ; and if CJod iiad bidden me cbnl for my felf ,n any Affair ; I (},ould have chofen rather to fiavi leier d ihe Choice to bin, ; for t faw he was infinitely wifcj,. andcouidnotdoanyTiingaiiiifi, as I wan in Danger of doinjIS Was aflifted ID Prayer, for my dear FJocJc,that God would pto-S mote his own Work among them, and that God would go with' ' me m my mtendcd Journey to Sufsuuhsrmub ; was belpcj to retxiembet dear Priends in N,w-Engtani, and my dear lirethrel la tbo Mmittry, I found enough in the fwcct Duty of Prayer U havcengjgcd me to continue i„ it the whole Night, would mi bod. y State have admitted of it. Oh, how fweet it is, tobi enabled hcaridy to fay, Lori,mt my Will, iul thine hi ditu I

Saturd.,y, Jug. I. Near Niglit, preach'd Ua^MMh, xi. iA W as,coiihdcrably helped; ,in-l tile Frcfence of Godfeem'dl befomewhat remarkally inihe Aircmbly ; divine Truths mad] Iiowerful Iinprcffioiis, both upon Saints and Sinners. BlelTd Be bod for fuch a Revival aijiong us. in the Evenini^ very weary, but found my Spirits fupported and refreft'dr Lord's Day, Aug. 3. Dircoutfod to my People, in the F noon, from Chf. iii. 4. Obferved, that Lhrin is the Believer'! U[,, God helped me, and gave me his Prefence in this Dif' courfe ; and it ivas a Seafon of confiderahle Power in thcAffcm-tly. In the Afternoon, preach'd from ioitxix 4.1, 42, ■? en-Joyed fome Affilfance; tho'notfo much as in the Forenoon. In iJie Evening, I enjoyed Freedom aisd Swcelnefs in fecre*.

Prayer ;,

fdivct ■ God enlarged my Heart, freed me from melancholir Itiunpsi and gave me Satisfaflion in drawing neat to himfelf. I Oil that my Soul could magnify the Lord, for thefe SEafons ni UroporureandRefignatioiitohisWill. ^^ ^

Monday, A^. 4- Sfent the J)ay,n writing; enjoyed much freedom and AiTiftatJce in my Work : Was in a compofcd an* ; omfortableFranie.mtjftof the Day ; and m theEvenmg et>joy-'ed fome Sweetnefsin F"y«. Elelled be (aod,tnySpr,ts wese ,et up, and [ was free from finkin.; DaiT.l>. ; as 1 hft'";been m general ever fince 1 came from AVi/.toi-'/™- l.ft. Oh what , letcy is this I , , I 1

Friday Af. 5- Towards Night, pre,ich'd at the b untttal none of my Chriftian,, from IJuh Ivii. 2. Was oppfelled with he nervous Head^Ach, anJ confiderably deieBed : However. Ind a httle Freedom, fome Part of the Time Iwasdifcouriing. Was cxiteamly weary in the Evening 5 but notwithlianding cnioved fome Liberty and Chearfulnefs of Mind in Prayer , and (oiind iheDejeaionthat lfeaicd,much removed, and mySpirita conliderabiy tcfteill'd.

r He continued in a very comfortable chearful Frame of MfSd the neJitDay, with liii Heart enlarged itl the btrvice of

Thutfday Aug. 7. Rode to my Houfe.where I fpent the laft Winter, in order to bring fome Things i needed for my Sufqm-ham<,h Journey : Was refrefli'd to fee that Place.which God fo maivellouayvifited with the Showers of his Grace, Oh how amaangly did ihe P'""' 'f ^od often appear there ! BU{> Ihi Lvi, O my SmI, fl"<i foTS'l «" «" *" Emtjili.

r The next Day, he fpeaks of Liberty, Enlargement, and Sweetnefs ot Mmd, in Frayerand religious Cooverfation.]

Saturdav, A«g. q. In the Afternoon, vifited iny People; feC their Aff^iirs in Order, as much as pcfKble, and contii.ed for them thcManagementof thcrwerldl, BufinefsJ D.fcourW to tbemi.afolemo Manner, and concluded with Prayer. Was coniporcd, and comfortable in the Evening, and foinewhat fer-ve-it in feciet Prayer : Had fame Senfe and View of the eternal V/orld,a.id found a Serenity of Mind. Oh that f could magnify the Lord f.ir any Freedom he affords me in Prayer. ' I ordVDay Au>. 15. Difcoutfed to my People, holh Parts 1,1- ,he Day, Irom Jm iii. t;. In difeomfu.e ol li.f>«tm„.m^

'i^S jiV, 29;

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£hj? Forenoon,God helped me, fo that my Difcourfs wss fcatcji^ ing, fome were in Tears, both of (he Itidiant and white People 2 and the Word of God was attended with fotne Power, in iJh In'trtniJUton-Seaibn, I was engaged in difcouriiitg ta fome in tifi tier in their B^ptifm ; aa well as with Otie wht> had thenlatnii met with iortiti CaraforE, after fpiritual Trouble and Difirefs. 1|' the Afternoon, was fomewhit affifted again, tho' weak ai weary. Afterwarda iaptiiiid6 Perfons; 3 Adults, and j CI dten. Was in a coinfortaMe Frame in Ihe Evening," and JQlxd ibm« Satisfadion in fecret Prayer. I fcarce ever in Life felt ray felt fo fall of Tenderncfs, as this Day.

MaMiy^ Jug. 11^ BeingahotiE to fet out on a Journej? SufiuabanJiiih Ibcnext Day, with Leave of Providence, 1 fpi fpme Time this Djji in Pmyei' with my People, thatGod wp^ blelii andfucceedrayilltendcdjourncy, that he would fend fbn bis hfclltd Sipiiit with Ills VVord,^aiiJ fcEuphia Kingdom amoni the poor Jtsdittm in tbe Wildernefs. While I was opening alj applying Part of the CXih & iidi7a/nrr,the Pawer pfGtilkem' 10 defcend on the AfietnMj in foirie Meafure ; and while I w making the (irft Prayer, Numbers were mEltcd, and I foai„ (bme iilTeaibnateEnlargementof Soul my felf. Preach'J iroEiJii^ iv. jj. God btlpeJ me, and my Interpreter alfo : There was i Uiafciiig and melting among us; and divers, I doubt^ot,lvcre in; (brae Meafure///si* with ihi Hitf Ghsfl, Afterwards, Mr. McKnighl pray'd ; I then opcn'd the two laft Stanza's of ihs Ixxlid F/alm ; at which Time God was prefent with us ; cfpcn ■ cially v.hile I infilled up™ thePromifo of nilNalhm Ueffmg thg great REriEltMEs: My Soul was refrcih'd, to thini, that this Day, this hleil'ed glorious Seafon, fhould furcly come ( and I truft. Numbers ol my dear People were alforcfrelii'd. Afterwards pray'd 1 hnd fonie Ifreedom.but was almoft Spent:Theft walk'd cut, and left my People to carry on leligious Exercifej among themlcLves ; They pray'd repeatedly,and fung, while I rcfted and tcfrefli'd my felf. Afterwards, went to thcMectingi pray'd with, and difmlfs'd the Affembly. Blffl'ed be God, tfi[s has been a Day of Grace. There were ilnany Tears and: aff*£tlDDate Sobs among tis this Day. in the Eveninj?, my Soul was refrcOl'd In Prayer : Enjoyed Liberty at the Tlirons of Grace, in praying for my People and Friends and thcChutch cf God in general, Blifi Ibi Lsrd, Oay Sua!.

f The next Day, he fet out on his Jourtiey towards Sufpa-imnnh, and fix of his Chjiitian hdiani withhim, whom hehaij

• choCaj

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» t V.-. rnni-reaation.aa thofe that he j aigei moft fit ,l,„l,,„ out o ta6^°''S he was EoinE upon, He took h« „, jilift him in theBufinefs lie *»= S"'nE P Sufa^h<mn:j!'

,,,,,,, fard„wnalong.wh re bVthe ^^^.^j^,. ^„j f„ „a.ei klow the Country mh^o im J| ,. ■ . -^^ jUho' this wis

,|, the River to the ^"*'"' "'^"'"?|,j the hugeMountains. j,,,,fu,.herabou^yeEtaehyh;,vo.d^

i„d hideousWildernefs.that ™" " , (,„nily riifficukand ,h,h in Time Pf_^';=,.^^^lXVL araV/,/L«, . Pl.e=

:7p^raVj^;^ored^=^^--^^

' = j.v Au> 16. [ At c;«ri/?s™ ] It being ^ Day kept Satufday, ^H- '<Vi, >• . I nf,™ was. as pjcpatatory to h, thePeople o( the Place „^f'= J °™ T „ied ; heard Mr. I Celebration of the ^^^^J^f^^^H Qod gave me lome Trtflipteich ; »"i*'="l"" „a VTl„ed me to difcootfe with pod begtee of Freedom. - h^lp^^^^e Je- Afterwards. Warmth, and ^Ppl ="'°" f ';= ,V°^ „j f ,„tlhe Evct.-

nsfaaion. ^;hSf-"pf "r?: rFrS a; well as lor my ioraewhil enlarg'd m P"J" Jed Mr. TrMi's Preaching, par-.. felf. l"'l'=/°'=^""' ffive of my People alfo corSmunt-' took of the Lord's-Supper, hve ot my f |„ m=nt

I earing in this ^o J "'^ "^ion. In LAftetnoon.p^ach'd .udO«t-goiog of Soul '"'^'f "";";t fo „„ch fenhbleAiRftance UamEzik. wxiit. ir- tnjoyeo »"' to fotne Fervency m

L the D^y trfo'= =,^™7"'X olwh t co^ounded in'the addrefEng '^'""f ^"l';^^ h.d d™" ''"'"^ "' ^'b'"?'" Evening, ''"^"'if fc"!M,eftment oi Spirit in Chrifi.an

:&trSpS=--fiS''-"^''^^""'"^'

fomething -newed hef«e^ ^^my Way towards P..n.,^^^ that 1 hid little Comfoit.

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6j Mfn David Bramcrd- A.D. 174*.

3Si

Tuerday^ Jug, 19.-Rodeforward ftilJ ; and a* Njglitlodl by iheSidc of SufquehanrtMb* Was west and difordei'd^ h^ this) and the prcceedipg JJJiyjajid faund my Spirits confidcriM damp'dj meetifig with none thai I thought godly People.

WedneliJay, At4^, 20- Having lain in a cold fweat a!]Ni|_^ I coughM rrnnjh blood)' Matter this Morningj gnd was uttdi great DIforder of Body, and not a little Melancholy ; b)| what gave mc fome Encauragement, was, 1 had a fecret Hoi that I might fpeedily get a Difmiffion from Earth snd all S ToiJs and Sorrows. RoJe this Day to one Chamhrs'%^ ug B}jfquiihan*icsb^ and there lodged. Was much afflidted. Evening,wiih an ungodly Crew, drinking, fwearitig, &c, vhata iieli it WQuld b?, to be numbered with the Un^s/ii Enjoycil fuiiic Sfntciiblo Convcrfiitian with a Travelle fnniM to hav'D fumo RcH/h of true Rchglon.

Thuifihy^^/f/ig. M. Kudcif^ the Ri^qr about j^MilesjSifl ihefclodj^'dj in a Family that appeared quite deftitute of GojjJ Laboured to tJifcourfe with the Man about theLjfc of E.eligioiij|' but; found him very attful in. evading fuch Ccnverfaiiotj, OhjWfiat a Death it is to fame, to hear of ihg Thingi efQoD \ Was out of my Element ; but was not fo dejected aa at foinflf Times.

Friday, Ju^, 22. Continued my Couifeup the River ; nvf People now being with me» who before were parted from met Travelled abuvu all (he EngUJ)} Settlements j at Night, Icd^^i;d in the open Woods ; and flept with more Comforf^than wbilo among ati ungodly Company of white Feople, Jiiiijoyed fonio Liberty in fcctet Prayer, this Evening \ and was helped to rc-merabjir dear briendsjas well as my dear Flockjsnd theChurcii of God in general.

Saturdays j^tfj. 23, Arrived at tJie /Wian TowDa c;'.!!ed ShaumGk'm^^ ncnr Night. Was not fo dtjti^ed as forir.:- 'v j btityet foincwhat exercifcd. Felt fomcwhat carnpofcd i;i ihu Evening j enjoyed fotneFrecdom in leaving mv Ml v/it.hQi'D : Thro' the great Goodncrs of Gcd, i ef^joyed feme LihtiLj of Mind 5 Was nat dIflrcfL.'d wUh a Dfrfpondency, ss frequently tcretOfore.

Lord's-0ayj*yfa^. 24. To wards Noon, vifitcd fumecf the Vikvjans^ and difcouifed with them about QjriKiani!7- /ii file Afterncv^n, difcourfed to the /tifffjand others^ upon divine ThitJgs I who feem'd difpofed to hear. Sp^nt moft of the Day ill thefo Exercifss, In the Evening, enjoyed feme Ccxnfori andjSiHuffldtion j afid efiiecially had foinc Sv-Tetnefs in fecret

f [Vaver ■ This Duty was made fo ag^^^ble to n:e, that 1 bvci ^ Sabroad..d'r.peatedly.ns.geinIt. Oh. how comfot-

*^'i'. '^ h' ''^1?'7 Vpen^'cit or the D.y in writing. Sent ^'" P^' vLt were wiiLc, to talk with the hdim,z^^

bk Number cf Udm^ .; ^^i™ b^'H ■"= .Jfomc W.mih

and Powei. i M UMcourie l,' ,i,t TiiiDRs now af-

„«de them appear very f'="'="=V 'JT&,, A^ ihc Tim.

of my firft Vifit tothore i-^'^J Vi c -d out my l-'eo-(>.,, wK» wore .ben pKrcnt,<^B«<=^ „f,en,M i

God ; which ,h.y did. ,'™"^' -^S!, Ki.p.domhere 4

Head and Ntck, and conld have "° ^ ; 5 gathEring,

Kmoak was ftill the fame; ''"''""'^^'S^ ,ny long Time: r could n.Uber Uvc xvitbin Dnors "»'J' '^^ ',^^='a;, Abroad,

to'do any Thing to .ny F-P^f-p^^^,,^^^^ „,, „„aer gr^t Thurfday, A|. f- I"Xrk Was .ifiied by fomc who ConceinofMindatantmyWn'K. J th(! Afwr-

dcSred toh«r mc preach i "i'ff" '^ '^ ,0 Dcrlwade '«n to „™n, «"l>'"»f r77^;"trntr eil'i^^ n. of Cl^rifi.

rarElffi-:

cnly fpesk to dry Esim^ but could gfve thtfm no Senfe of nr]ja( ilfaid. My Eyes were up to Goo/or Help : I could hi^ 'the //^flf i was Ais i and if done* the G/sr/ would he hit.

Friclay, yfti^. j^. Fdt the fame Concern of Mini), as llw Day before* Enjoyed fojrte Freedom lo Prayer, and a Satlt* ftdtiou to leave all with God. Travelled to the Dilawiru, found few at home: Felt poorly, but was able to fpend fomi Time alone In teadingGod'sWord & inPrayer,&enjoyrd fon Eweetncfs in thcfe Exercifes. In the Evening, was afTtfted j peatedly in Prayer, and found fomc Comfort in coming to | Throne of Grace.

Saturday, Jfg-^o. Spent theForenoon in vifitiogaTrflt^ifl that came dowti the River y?fjf j who appeared as ignorant J any Isiian. In the Afternoon, fpcnt fotneTime in WritJE ' Reading and Fraver-

Lord's Day, Af. 31, Spent much Tirae,m tbeMorninjii in fecret Duties: Fouod a Weight upon my Spirits, and eolll not hti\ cry to (jod with Concern and Engagement of Soti Spent fome Time alfo in reading and expounding God's Wort to iiiy dear Family, that was with me.as well as in Sitigingam' Prayer with lliem. Afterwards, fpaie the Word of God, «l fomc few ot the Hufquahnnnfih'lndiaas. In the Afternoon, fe[? very weak and feeble. Near Night, was fomething refrefll'f in Mind, with fome Views of Tilings relating to my gres Work, Ob, how heavy is my Work, when Fnith can't (alg hold of an Mniihly Jra, far the Performance of it f Manj Times have 1 been ready tn fink in this Cafe. Bleileii be God,! that I may repair to a full Fautiiiiitt. \

Monday, Siplimlir t. Set out on a Journey towards a Plaeoi called Thi grist l/lmd, about 50 MileEdiftaotfromWjfliimsiM^,| in ibe North-weaern Branch of Supjaahmmh. Travelled rotnei Part of the Way, and at Night lodg'd in the WooJs. Wail exceeding feeble,IhisDay.and fweat much the Night followingJ

Toelday, Sipl. 2. Rode forward ; but no faficr than myi People went on Foot. Was very weak, on this, as well as the] prececdingDajs : Was fo feeble and fair)t,that I fcar'd it wouuj killmeto lie out in the open Air ; And fome of onrCortipanj;! being parted fiolftus, fo that we had now no Ax with us, lila^ r.s> Way but to climb into a young Pine-Trec, and with ray. Knife tu lop the I!ranches,and'fo made a Shelter from IhcDew.,! Hut the Evening bEing cloudy and very likely for Rain, I vrm (liU usidcr i'cars of being extremely expofed ; Sweat mucfeirt, ffcs ^figllt, fo that my' Linen was almoft wfinging wet all^

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MInht I fcarce ever was more weak and weary, llian this K ng, when 1 wa. able to fit up a. all, Tb,. was a molan-Civ Si uation I W-.S in ; but I endeavoured to qu.et my fe f ;:.,,bConfidcrations of .be Fofflbiiity of m J bemg ,0 much WOtfc L'iicumftances.amongaEnemies, Es'i-

w"nefilay S,pt. I Rode to the Or ™.r<-Town ; found .livers drinking and drunker.. Difcourfed w,th fome of the r^l about Chriffianity; obfexved my/-./.-?"''-much en-g ged and affifted in his 'work : Some f«W Perfon. feetn d m h=!r with great Earuennefe and l,nB>R.ment of Sou . Mou Noon,todetoafuiaUTown of m.™««, »™''«^™" diftan ■ fpMl an Hour or two (here, and returned to theDrfa-tirr-Tnwn, and lodged there. Was fcarce ever more con-rndTdwi"haSe«fe'ofmy awnUnfr.itfulneft -,J Unfimer, fo, niy Work, than now. Oh, wbatadead.hear .efs,barr n unproEtabie Wretch did I now fee my felf to be ! My Spir t, were fo low, and my bodily Strength fo wafted, that I could rnoThing'at alL^Ar dngth, '-B -^^ ^L iStgh.'' down on ; BM,-StU ; but fweat much, the whole Wight.

Thurfday, V. +• DifconrfuJ with the Www, n the

Morning, IboutChrifHanily ; my hurf,,,,,, afterwards,cat-

^rng on the Difcourfe, to a confideraHc Length : Some few

ISredwell-difpored.and fomewhat afteaed. Left th.sPlace,

a returrd tow^ards Shmm,ti«g ; and a, Night lodged ,n the

Plsc where 1 lodged the MondaJ^Nighl before t Was in very

uncomf'««W« Circumffances in th<= Evening,my People being

he.a d, and not coming to me 'till paft .0 " N.ghn Jo th,

J hd no Fire to drefs any ViBuals, or to keep me Warm, or

keep off wild Beafts ; and I .m fcarce ever more weak and

worn out in all my Life. However, I lay down and llept be-

Tore my People came up, expefling Nothing elfe b.t to fpend

the whole Night alone and without Fire ,j r „„.

Friday, *f°. S- Was exceeding weak.fo that! could fcarce-

,y fl e ^ t f em'd fonre.imes as i f I muft fall off frotn myHorfe

and he in the open Woods: However, got to SiW.y,

owllds Night 1 Felt fomething of a Spirit "'Thaf Mnels

that God had fo far relurn'd me : Was refren, d, to fee one

of my Cbriftians. whotn I left here in my latP Lxcurfion.

Sainrdav Sat. 6. Spent the Day in a very weak Stale ; CouXng^nd fpitting Blood, and having little Appel.te to any Si hid wit'h me: Was able to do very little, e.ce t difcourfe a white of divine Things to iriy own People, and ,0 f ..ne few I m« with- Had. by Hiis Tme, very httle L^feo

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Heart (o fpeak for God, t6ro' Fceblsncfa of Body, and Flalncl bfSpii-ics. Wai fcarcely ever more afliamed and confouiiJcil inmyfdf, than now- I was fenfible, tiiat thcie wereNum-hers of God's People, vihakncwl was tfien out upon a Deli|iii (or at lelfl the Pretcnci:) of doing foraoihing for God, and in his Caufe, among the poor hdlsns ; and they were ready 10 fuppofi;, that I was firvM in Spirit : But Oh, the hcartkli Frame of Mind that I felt, h[l'd in; with Confufion ! Oil CfmElhouglit) if God's People knew me, as God knows, lliej; Jwould not think fo highlj' of my Zeal and Rofolution fo« God, as perhaps now they do 1 I could not but delite ihi^-flioiild fee how heartlefs and irrefbluls I was, (hat thoy migfit 1 be undeceived, and nptlhpii'sf mt absvt what ths^ cw^ht A^ ihini. And yet I thought, if they faw the mmoft of myflarfj nefs and Unfailhruiner!, tlieSinallncIs of my Courage andR=-, follitioii for God, they would he ready to Olutme out of theitf Doors,as unworthy of theCompany ort'rscndfliip of ChnftL'aftj,J Lord's-Day, S<jw. •j. Was much in the (inle weak State (jf Body, and affliflcd Frame of Mind, as in the preceedingDayi My Soul was grieved, and tnourn'd, that i could do nothing for God. Read and expounded fome Part of God's Word id VBy own dear Family, and fpent fome Time in Prayer with them J difcDurfed alfo a little to the PojaKj: But fpeat the Babbath with little Comfort.

Monday, Sept. 8. Spent the Forenon among the hiiuti-n ; in the Afternoon, left Skaumokwg^ and returned dow.i the River, a few Miles. Had propofed to have tarried a confiJe-rtiblc Time longer among the innhni upon Safquahimntib, but \vashindred from purfuinj; my Purpofe by the Sicknefs that prevaijcd there, the weakly, Circamltances of my own People -that were with me, & efpecially my own ejrtraordinaiyWeak-jllefs, having been exerdfed with great no£furnaI Sweats, and] a coughing up of Blood, in ,'tlinolt the whole of the Jouroey ; and was a great Part of the 'Fime fo feeble and faint, that it; feeni'tl as :ho' 1 never flKuild he able (e reach home ; and at i , the fiuncTJme verydeilitnie of theComfortsSf evenNecciiaries'i oILifc -, at leaft,what was nccefiary for one in to weak aState. ' [n this Journey 1 fometinies was enabled to fpeak the Word of God with fome Power, jind divine Truths made fome Imprcf-jfinns on divers that heard me ; -fo that feveral, both Men and 'Women, old and young, fccm'd to ck&vi in wr, and he well dlfpofcd towards Cbri/tinniiy j but Dthen tftcchd and flouted, Vi'JaichdampMthofe who before fcetu'd friendly, at kaftfome

d/ Mf. bavitl Eralnert]. A.D. 174S.' Soj

of them- Yet God, at Times, was evidently prefent, aflilSing inc my Interpreter, and Other dear Friends who were wltlt me '■ God gave, fometimes, a goadDegree of Freedom inPray-t for the ingathering of Souls there ; and I could not buten-IcrtiioaftrongHope, that the Journey fliould not be wholly (ruitlefs Whether the Iffue of it would be the fettitlgupChrift s Kin-'dom thtri, bt only the dtawing of fome few Perfons down 10 iny Congregation in Niw-Jirfiy ; or whether they were' now only preparing for fome further Atlcmptl, (hat might bt made atnong them,[ did not determine : B.it 1 was pcrfwadcdi the Journey would rot be bK. lUeilcd be God, that I had anr Encouragctocnt and Hope.

Tuefday, Sept. g- Rode down the River, tiear 30 MdcJ. Was extreme weak, much fatigued, and wet with aThunder-Stotm. Diftonrfed with fome Warmth and Clofenefs to fome poor igtioraot Soiils, on the Li/i aitd Piasr of Siliiim ; what were and what were not the Ew:lmc,! of it. They fecm'd much attonifh'd, when they faw my InJwns aik a Eleffingand Eive Thanks at Dinner; concluding tfota very hightvidence ofGraceintliomi But were aftonidied, when I mfilled that' neitherthat, nor yet iceret 1'ri.yer, was any fore tvidcnccof Grace. Oh the Ignorance of Iho World ' How are fome empty outward Farm, that may all he inlirely/,)/>», mlliaken for true Religion, infallible Evidences of it! The Lord pity a deluded World. ; .

Wednefday, Apt. 10. Rode near twenty Miles homeward. Was much folicilcd to preach, hut waa utterly unable, thro' bodily Weaknefs. Was extremely overdone with the Heat and Showers thlsDay, and coughed up confiderable Blood.

Thurfday, ,S!;>r. n- Rode homeward ; but was very wealt, and fomelimes fcarce able to ride. Had a very importunateln-vita'ion to preach at ai«cetlng-i^oure ! came by, thePeople ber iuEthen gathering ; but could not.byReafon ofWeaknefs. Was refened and compofed under my Weaknefs ; but was much esercifed with Concern for my Uompanionsin Travel, whom I'had left with much Regret, fome lame, and fome fick.

Friday, ,Si(!. 12- Rode about fifty Miles i andcamejuftat NiRbtloa ChriftianFriend'sIloufe, about 25 MilesWeftward from PhihMfh:a, Was courlcoufly received, and Jtindly en-lertaln'd, and found my felt Riucij rcfrcih'd m the midfl of my Weaknefs andFatiguss.

Saturday,

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SatuTday, Sept. 13. Was fiill agreably entertain**} wit] Chriftian Friend£hfp,and allTijings iieccITary for my weakCir cumftances ; In the Afcernoon, heard Mr. Treat preach £j snd wa^ refrefh'ii in Ccnverfation with hinij in the Eveningi

Lord's-Diyf Sipl. 14. At the Defiie of Mr. Treat and rt People, I preach'd buth farla of the Day ( but fliOTt) frOI Lu^.'Xiv. 23. Ged gave me fame Freedom and Warmth^ my DifcQurfe ; and J truft, helped me in fome Meafute to b hour mjinglmefx of Heart. Was much tired in the Eveninj but was cofnforted with the moft tender Treatment I ever with in my Life. My Mind^ thro' the whole i>f this Daj was exceeding calm ; and 1 could aflt for nothing in Pfflyd with any Encouragement of Soul, but ihat the W%U of Gi Tnlgbthsdmi-, -<

Mnnday, i"^/p^ 1^. Spent ihe^wholc Day, in Concert wfi Mr. ^^'■(^■^ it* iiiidtavours (o compofc a Dift'erenccj fubfiftifij between certain Pcrfons in ihc Congregation where we noV were .- There feeui'd to be a Blefiing on our Endeavours. Ij thcEvcning,baptized aChild ; Was in a calm compofedFrajin and enjoyed ( | truflr ) a fpiritual Senfe of divine Things, whili admlniftring the Ordinance, Afterwards, fpent the Time i religious Corjverfation, 'till late in the Night. This was indet a plcafant ^greablc Eveoing.

Tuefday^ Stpi. 16. Continuedflill at my Friend*s Houfej about 25 Miles Weftward of Philaddphia. Was very weakj vmrthle to perform any Bulinels, and fcarcely able to fit up.

Wednesday, Sept- 17. Rode ioto Philadelphia, SuH veryj; weak, and my Cough and fpitting of Blood continued. Enjoy- : ed fome agreable Convefraiion with Friends, but wanted morei Spiritual it J'/

Thurfday^ Sept, 18. Went from Philadelphia loMr. TrmtU Was figfeabiy entertained on the Road ; and was in a fwe< campnfcd P'ramcj in the Evening.

Friday^ S^pi- iq- Rode from Mr. TV^ai'a to Mr. Steckfon'A at Frincs-Tcivn '. Waa extre;:m weak, but kindly received and enlertain'd. Spent the Eycning with fome Degree of Satia-faci^ion.

Sai:urdayj S(pt' 2o. Arrived among my own People, juflat Night 1 Found 'cm praying together; Went inland gave them foiac Account ot God's Dealings with me and my ComiJanions in thejourney i which I'eem'd afFe^ling to them. 1 then pray'd wiih tlicm, and thought the divine Prefence was amoitgfi: ua ; iljvcfs were malted into TeaiSj and feem'd to hive a Senfe of

Divine

A.D.I 746. 207, I T% • *rT m^nt I was oblised foon to re-

Lir to my Lodgings, aM '=" " p . ^^^ pgjiij of ano-frhus God hi, "^f If'lr'^rmd re.u nedme again i. Safety,

t .Loti fuppoited me Bodet Ihem ail.

Part VIII.

Lf/,r his Return from his lafi Journey to ■ ■^Sufqua]iannah,^^«ftV to Death.

I 0. 5 „T/d y, Wi.b very littl. ln<c-L^pl»n :

I Eut henceforward h.sauyisjv ^^ j™, as either

I Illnrf. ; """"='''"fiLr 0° no. wTr.ble to be». the Bur-I not tobo capable of wr. .n|, « ™'*4, ,;, ,e.oll»a, ««? I aei of a Care fo ^™»^"''.fZ o^'^^^d digeft i<. '"^ '=' <'»''"

I was not who Ir f gl'Xic. in it 0 the mofl mMcrial Things I ;rSr;i?'ht DcTttn^h. Re.det.n. fee a—.^;]

. Mr. «*.p-f,,"^^''/?,^£?;&i'rv:';i^

■ Cfl/i fjys as follows. " 1 have i^tw ™« ^^^

./wife, ."d godly put npon *= ^^^'JJ^K-^nge hin.-

« felf into an.^"?'' •/ ^'Sf, / "'L 'nlrv of his hourly .. in<heTin.eofhi=He»khtom keaD.flJ ^J_

" Me, an^ finding much Bentfit by it. v. ^^.^^^^

;o3 X(. SS'

«i LIFE

I/jrdVDay , Sipt. l\- 1746. I was fo weak I could pieich, nor [■retciid to ride over to mj' People in sheForeiiDOlJ )n the Aflcrmion, rode out; lit in my Chair, atitl diC^iirlil tu inyPcople frnmSom. xiv, 7,8. I v.a:ftrtngthcn'd and tielpld in my Difcourfc : Aiid thclc acptru'd ftuncthing agreaMfl^ tliK AfVflmblv. i returned to my Loi^ginga cstremtly tir«(l but thanlihjl, that 1 had been enabled to fpeak a Word to poor Heo|;>Ie 1 bad been fo long abfent fiotn. Wae ablc'-^^ ilccp very little (his Night, tbro' Wesrinsfs ard Fain. 01^ how bleiled fiiould I be, if tbe little 1 do were all done wjj ligiitView's 1 Oh tli^t whtthf* 1 fivij mij^ht Uvi is ihiJLord^

Saturday, Sipt, 27. Spent Ibis Day, as well as tbe wis. Wceic pail, gndev« great Oegfee of bodily Weiknefs, exjj t\[cA with a v^olciH CpURhi Btitl » conHdcrable Fever; badf Appetite to unyKbid ijf I"o^itl ; and Irctjuently brought upv I «■!, .11 luijn ^h"i 4t WAA ii.j\7n s^and oftentimes had little Blid in Itiy Betl, by Keafcjn of fains in niy iJrcalt and Back : able, however, to ride over to my People, about two Mil( every Day, and take feme Care of thofe »dfc were then B" Work upon a fill all Houfe for me to lefiJe in Hingft the/»^j-fiflj. * 1 was fotnetimes fcarce able to vralfc, and never ablu to lit up the whole Day,thro* thelVeek. Was calm and cojii* poled, and but little ejtercifed with melancholy Damps, as in former Seafoiis of wtakticfs: Whether I ihould ever recover, or no, fecm'd very doubtful ; but this wasraany times a Corn. fort fn me,thatLi7£ dvi^Diath did not depend npan w^ Choice, i was pleafed, to.liiink, that be who is infinitely wife, had the

** fcience prefs'd» by the Power and Dcluiiion of S^itm^ *^ to-make and take the fatne daily Survey of his Life in

* "■ theTime of K\i $Uknifs'. By Means of which be fpent " his enfeebled f^'pirits, caJi on Fuel to fire his Sicknefs.

* * flad not a friend of b [s eonvinccd him of hts erronecm '' Confcience mi fielding him at thatTuae,fec bad murder'd *' hisBQUyjOutofCoiifciencetofavehisfiouland toprefeivB ^^ his CJraee. And do you think ii//e were theMotions of ** Ood'sSpiritjVi^hich likethofe£?£i/7j,i?s-v.iK- 9, 10. Had *' FSces I'lksM^fi, but had Tails like ^f!?r^;eflj,and litiiigi *' in their Tails r^*

* This was tbe f^tjrifj Houfe be built for his Refidcnce a-mong tbe hilhi!!. Be/ides that at KaitnauTneek, and that nt tbe Fork? of Dskujme^ and another at CraJtueskJitTigf hi built one ijow at Crctnbsrr^. DtfCerrninatioii

0/iWr. David Brainerd. A.15.1741;, JOj

Oetcrminatton of this Mattel s and that I had no TruuWc, to confidcr and weigljThinBS upon all Sidcs,in order 10 m=ke the Choice whether I would live or die. Thus my 1 ime was Confumud ; I had little Strength to pray .none to write or read and fcarce auv to meditate ; But tliro' divineGoodncfs,! eou d with iTtDat Conipofuro look Di«th in the tace, and ircqneiitly ii-ith fenfihle Joy. Oh, how bleiled il is, to lie ImUluahjpr,-f,«.,i for Death ! Tbe Lord grant, llutl iniiy beotfuiiff ^M-

'' Lor'd's-Day, Stpr i8. Roile td my Pfiplo } nnJ tlio' under mueb Wcikneft, attempted i.> prcneh.lfom 1 tti.xin. v IJif-courfed abJuthaUan Hour; at which btafori divine FoW« fecm-d to attend the Word : Bat beinf; extreme weak, I was obllaed to defift ; and aiter aTurn of Sfaintnofs, with much Difficulty, rede to my Lodgings; where befaknigniy fclf to CElvBed.IIay in a burning'Fever, and alm.S ichrmn, for feirial Hours; 'till towards Morning, my bever went oBr with a violent Sweat. I have often hten fevenfli, and unable to relt quietly after Preaching ■, but this wa, ihe moft fevers dhtrclTmETutn, that ever Preachinp brought upon me. Yet S Mt perfeaiy at Kelt in my own Mind, beeaufe I had iriade jr,y utmoit Attempts to fpcak for God, and knew I could do

""Tu^fday. SM. 30. YoKerday. and to Day, was in tbe ,'rmcweak State, or rather weaker than in Days paK ; was fc.:rce able to fit up half tbe Day. W.as m a cornpofed Franio of Mind, remarkably free from Dejeaioa and melancholy ■l^mns ; as God has been pleafed, in great Meafore.Jo deh-v.-r nie from tbcfe unhappy Glooms, in the general Lourfe of ,uy prefent weaknefs hitherto, and alfo from a peevift froward Sp r t: And Oh, haw great a Mercy is this I Oh th« I m.gb .Iways be perfeflly qukt in Seafons of greateftWeaknefs.ahho Sre Ihoidd Jk and fail. Oh that I i^^V ' «7= ';=. '^ = with ntmoft Sincerity to by, Lo^P. »« t«r «-«, *"' '*'"' J„„, / This, thro' Grace. I can fay a. prefent, w,,h Eeftard 0 Life or Death 1 Til Lcrdio ^ilh mt m fuim gsiil ,1 btt bifhi , that whether lliveor die, 1 may j/m/y Aim, who is ii.-.rK, ., rtcihc B/</K«, "i Ham, aid Dmmim f>riv,r. Ami

laturda?, tot. +■ Spent the forme, l^ar. oi H-^cefc un-der a sreai Degree of Infirmisv and Diford,r, as I nad done feveral Weeks before : Was able howcve.;^tD Iide a httic every Day, altho'unable to fit up half the Day ■tdnhnrlday. Took fome Care daily of fumePerfoni at vi'oikiipm rajHuufe. E e a ^'^

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■i/ Mr. David Efainerd. A.D. 1746.

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On Friday, after Noon.fuunJ my felf wonderfuljjr tevivcd imj ftrcngihcji'd; and having forae Time before given Notice to my People, and tbofe of 'em at the Forks 0/ Delaware in parlii cular, that 1 defigoed with Leave of ProvidEnce, lo iidiniaiilsf ths Sacrament ol Ihc Lord's Supper upon the firft Sabhath in O^ehtr^ ihe Sabhath nowappraaching^ on ^>iday-Afie:nooaI preacii'a, preparatory to theiactsment, front 2 Cor. xiii. », Finifting what! had propofed to oiFer upon the Subjcft ^ Ejbbath before. Tiic Sermon was bicfs'd of God to the ftirrktt up religious Affeaion, ami a Spirit of DcTOtion, in the PSK pis of God ; and to tlic greatlv affefling one who had idS. /ii^An from God, which csofed him to judge and condcSl ^limfeif. I was furpriiingly flrcngthncd in my Work, while t was fpeafcing : But was obliged immediately after lo repair ta Bed, bcin.i now n-movcii into^nij own Floufe among the bt-iiam ; which ga»c me fuch fpeciiy Relief and Refrcflimeal-asr could not well have lii-'d without. Spent fcme Time of Fjid.iv-Night in convcrfing with myPeopIc about divineThinB, as Hay npon my Bed ; and found my Soul refiefliM, <ho' m» Body was weak. Tins being Saturday, I difconrfed patticu-Iirly with divers of the CoiHmunicinU ; and tllia Afternoon prejch'd from Z«i. lii. lo. There feem'd lo be a tender Meltmg, and lieartjr mourning for Sin, inNumbers in liieCon-gregation. My Soul was in a comfortable Frame, and I en-joy'd Freedom andAffiftance in publick Scryicc : Was my fel/, as well as moftof the Congregation, much affcfled with iha humble Coufeinon, and apparent Brotcu-hcartcdirefs of tha forementloncd BaciJFJer ; and t:ould not hut reioyce, thlfr God had given him fuch a Sei.fe of his Sin and UnworthiiJef ^ Was extremely sired in the Evening; but iay on my Bed, at oifcourfed to my People.

Lord'.-Day, Ojili. J. Was dill very weak; and in tl Morning, confiderably afraid I flroLrid nor be able to go (hri the Work of (he Day ; having nmch lo do, both in piivalc ahl pubhck. Difcourfed hefore rhe Adminifttalion of the Sacrament, from Jj*. i. ag. BfhMike Lsmh ofGsd, that Mkdh "MJflj lb, l,m sftti IfatU. Where 1 cjnftdered, I. In what Rc-(pcasCtoiii is called theZffwi efGed ; and obfcrved that he is fo called, (^ ! ) From the Parjy and hnxmcy of his Nature. (j ) Siam'eKMeeiififi-l.niPmim!! under Sufferings. ( 3 ) Fr.ini bis being ihat Almement, which was pointed out in she SacriRu « Lsniba, and in pHticular by the^a/i.J^JLamb. II. ConK-«ercd tow ana its what S tnfe he ^aktt awgy Ike Sin ofilufVsrtd .■

And

, If J rh,t the Means and Manners in and by which

^""r"''"trin'% rr. S."ntf' ecfr: .11 the world to take away the Sin of '«/^"^"'' (,„ ^im, bat becaufe, i ,1«11 .Buclb ^ift'^'f^T.Ti.ol^^^^ for the Sins of thl He ha.doneand ^'^^"^^!fX^S^L\ He .R^/ly doe= World, and foto redeein "'', ™°;T.- '^nj HI- Confidered ,.ke away the S-,;^.^= ^^fdeTiStvc our Sint taken away. bowwearetof.Mh.m,.nordet» Sy imghi^ W-"

fiderably melted ^''^^Tfl"\\P'ZoB«t<>r,e>Uo Com-

i>erf,ns.Thenad,ja,n,fttedh^^^^^^^^

municants, of the i»tor, bdides fli ^^^

v^hitePeople. Iif«md<oheahclon o ^^^

G.atjeiandNumbersfeemd torjyc ^^^1

fceet Union and Hatmonyjhen ' Pf ""S™ , J, ^,;,X of l,,„p,e I My 9»"lwas '^<'^^'f^ Sraml.could fcarcely the whilcPeople, with me. ^i " <"= jo^ods but was fop-„et home, Ibo' it was not ™°« 7,°/° „ ° Jed ; where } ;„t,ed and led h, -V'm^fn the E 'ing ; a'nd then w.s abit hry in Pain '(ill fomeTime m "l^/''^" . ^' ,;,i,D,y fp^nt

to Bt np and difconrfe "''^Fnend,. Oh,how ^>t y^ P^^^

si::^o:e!;:*=^?srisr ^soiwLefr...,

tho' my Body wis weak.

[™sVVeek,h=wentfinav.ylowS,a.e^^^^^^^^^^^

tt, E!ifikth.T.^«, '°f"fi''^^Z:J,«,-r.ri. He cOB-

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nr. I ,, Towards Nieht waa feizsd with ati

Satarday, OM-^}- 7"'"' '.h Fever and confiderabls

Ague , which w-f°"™^^^;^ ',Vin nt&, and wa« alhamedto

the LIFE

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2ii ^t, agl

1 ot Bufincis to Jetcrmine whether T fliotild live or die. J IWife felt peculiarly fatisfial, while under this uncomrtibn greeof DifurtJer; being now fully coov'jficed of my being rca weakj asid unable to perform ray Work; whereas at ctlirr Times my Miiidtt'is iverplcx*d with Fears, (bat I was aMiC. improver of Tim,-!, by conceiting I wasfick, when I was ll»r in Reality fo. Objhow prcdotis is Time f And how guilty li I jnakes me /eel, when I think ! have t] iflcd away and mifi: proTcd itj or neglcflcd to fill up each Par! of it with Dutv. the utmoit ofmy Ability and Capacity !

Lord's-Day, Ocfo*. 12. Was fcarcc ahle to fit up, ii^ Forenoon .- In the Aliernoon, attended publick Worlhip, Was m a compoffid and gomfortable FraiHe. LordVDay, Oi-O*. 19. Was fcarccly'able to doanyTfijS ■ at all in (he Week paft, excerpt tliat oji Thurfday I rode ojj: about lour Miles ; at which Tims i took Cold. Asl *3:a ' " to dolittleor nothing, fo I enjoyed not much Spirituajity, liiely religious Affeilion i tho' at fonse Times I longed m:" to be more fruitful and full of heavenly AtFcdtion ; and grieved to fee the Hours Aide away, while I could do nothiii]

for God. Was able, this Day, to attend publick Wo]

fliip. Was compofed and comfortable, vrilling either to die jHve \ but found it hard (0 tie leconeijcd to the T'tro'ts of livil TJfikfi. Oh that! might never live to be a Burden to Goi Creation J but iliit I might be allowed to repair Hmr, whi my/y'diif/;/??^ Work is done.

[ This Week, he went back to his Indians at Cmnbirrj, L, fake fame Care of their fpiritual and temporal Concerns : Aiv3 was much fpeni wiihrUing ; tho' he rode but a little Wav iffl a Day.] ■" »

Thurfday, Octib. 23. Want to my own Houfe, and f^i Thing,! in Order. Was very weal;-, and fomcivhat rnelarfl choly; Jjaboured tudofomcthioK, but had no Sttcnglh ; wan forced to lie down on raj Bed, very (blitary.

Friday, Ociil, 24.. Spent the Day in overfeeing and dircfl,^ ingmy People, about mending their Fence, and fecuring (htffl Wheat. Found, thatall tlieif Concerns of a fccularNatu^

.depended upon me ^-Was famewbat refrcili'd in tb|

Evening, having been able to do romcthin^ valuable in itil

I Day-Time. Ob, bow it pains rac, to fee Time pifs aws^J when i can do noihiiig to any Purpofe ! 1

0/ Mr. David Btaiuerd;

I S.rlurday, O^t^J-'5- ™ted feme of my People i fpent LneTm,; ir, wtiting,and felt much better rnBody.tbanurua "vtenit was ne.r Night, £ felt fo well, that I had Tho IS „t rapoundinE : But in iheLvenuig was mucli d.fordcred agam, ,n; 4nt llie"Nipht in Coughing, and Ipnting of Blood,

1 ord's-Dav, Oclii. id. !n the Morning, was eMeeding ,r'- ■ Spent the Day, •till near Night.in Pain to fee my pool ■ .Ui,' wandring a! Sbaf tilt htwing a Sb,phi<-d, wart|t)g ai^d [ • ■ to fee me able to preach to (hem before Night : It not but dilirefs me, to fee 'em in this Cafe, and to And ,„v i.lf unable to attenipt any Thing fot their fp.rltua Benefit. Hut towatdsNigbt, finding my fclfahttle better, I call d .hern „,ether to my Honfe, and fat down and read and e-poonded ;J|„i V J -—16. ThisDifccnrfe, tho'delivered in much VVeaknefs was attended with Power to many of the Hearers ; ifrecisllv what was fpoken upon the laft of thofeVerfes ; where uf.Hedon the infinite Wrong done to Reiigion, bv ba.mg \^ Lkt become D»r^"</i. m.^i 0! I!n.«g i'/'-f^"-. *= m ny n the Congregation were now deeply afFefled with a fe of their Deficiency, in Regard of a fpmtual Converfatr-e„ that roififct reeommend Religion to others, and as a bpitit of Concern and Watchfulnefs feem'd to be excited m them ; k there was one, in particular, that had fallen mlo the bm of Dtunkennefs,fome Time before, who was now JfP^ ■;<;»-, vincedothisSin, and the great Difhononr done t<=R=l^£'°"' hv h^s Mifcotldna, and difcovcred a great Degree o( Griel and CoGcernon that Account. My Soul was refrefh d to fee Z. And tho' I had no Strength to fpeak fo rnueh as I would have done, but was obliged to lie down on the 13cd: ^t et I le-iovced tofeefuchanhumbleMellingintheConsregation 3 and That divine Truihs, tho' faintly delivered, were attended with fo much EiBcacy upon the Auditory.

Monday, oLi ^7. i-p^"' <b' D^y I? "'"^''"f ,lt dlreaing ibe M;«.r, about meBdlngtheience round ttor Wheat ■ Was able to walk with them, and eonttive their Bu-f.nefs all the Forenoon. In the Afternoon, was vifited by two dear Friends.and fpent fomeTime in Ccnverfstroh with th=m lowards Night, wa. able to walk out, and take Care ot the, JW/.« again. In the Evening,enjoyed a very ?»«'" '''^,^^'^'

Tuefday, 0:t'.i. 28. Rode to Pns«-T™-,, in a iery_-^eaK Etare: H^d fucb a vio!=n,Feve,,by tlteWay, that ! was forced to alight at a Friend's Houfe ; and iic down (or fom. 1 .me. NcitNight.was vifited bjMr.5r™<, Mr.fcty,«pdh,. Wt^.

■His life

and another Friend : Ms" Eplj-ifs were refrelh'd, (0 fee them i but 1 was fufprized, and even afhamed, that they had taken 1 I muchPairs as to ride^o or ifoMiles (0 fee me I Was able.tq i up moli of the Evening ; and fpeni the Time in a very cqtn Portable Manner with my Friends. ^

Wednefday, Odd, 2g. Rode about 10 Miles, with nir* Fiiendi (bat cjnic Yefterday fo fee me} and then parted witli (hem, all hut one, who ftay'd or; Purpofe to keep roc Company, and cheer my Spirits. Was extreme weak, and very feveria, efpcciiUy towards Nighl ; but enjoyed Comfort aai Satisfaflion.

Thurfdiy, O^jf. 30, Rode 3 or 4 Miles,tu vifit Mr./Ts/tH Spent fomeTknejsn an agreablcManner.in Convetfaiion ; and tho* extreme weak, enjoyed a comfortahje compofed Frame of Mind.

Friday, OtM, 3 r. Spent (lie Day amongFriends, in a comfortable Frame ol Mind, tho' exceeding vpeak, and under a confiderabje Fever.

Saturday, .Nimmhr i. Took Leave of Friends, aftM having fpent the Forenoon with them, and returned Home to my DwnHoufc. Was much .difonJcrcd in the Evening, and cpprefs'd with my Cough t which has now been conftant for a long Time, with a hard Pain in my Eteaft, and Fever.

Lord'f-Day, JVsi/, 2. Was unable to preach, and fcarccif . able to fit up, the whole Day. Was grieved, and almoii funl<, to fee my poor People deiiilute of the Means of Grace ; cfpe-cially confidering they could not read, and Co were under great Ditadvanlages for fpending theSabbath corofoitablr. Oh, me-((bought, I could he contented to be (ick, jf my poor Floci had a faithful Faftor to feed them with fplritual Knowledge. J A View of their Want of this was more afflifiive (0 me, ihati all my bodily lilnefs.

Monday, Niv, 3.- Being now in fo weak and low a State, that I was utterly uncapable of performing my Work, and having liiile Hope of Recovery, unlefs by much Riditjg, f thoiigh! it inyDuty to take a lengthy Journey IntaiV(i!;-£u^i!ni,and to divert my felf among myFricnds,whom 1 had not now ken for a jlong Time, And accordingly took Leave of my Congregat ion this Day.—-—Befotc I kit my People, 1 vifited thero all in their rcfpe(aiveHQufeE,and difcourfcd to each one, as J thought mtjft proper and fuitabje for their Citcumfiances, and found Igieat Freedom and AHiftance in fo doing : I fcarcely left one Houfe bu t feme were inTesisi and many were not only ifiiaed

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of Mr. David BrainrrU: 'A,D. IT+Sf ITS

with my being about (o Umi them, but with the fc^emn Jii rXl made them upon divine Things; for I was helped to, tet™»ir-'rS?;r,7.whaeIdifcourred lothem. When had

thuigone through my Congregut.on ( wl>f ^2 KhIT 1 left thoDav 1 and had taken leave of them, and of the School, 1 left H m a ,d rode about two Mile., to the Houfe where lived

„.heS„,u,.,« paft, and there lodg'd, Was 'f'^"> d th,s Fveninsr.in that I had loft mjCongrcgatlon fo well dlfpofed and aftcaed, and that I had b<.,u fo much affift-.-! .1. »«kina my ^r^i-fvvel-Addrefias to them. . , , ,, - ,.

Tuefday, «"• 4- ^«^' '" "^'*"*'' »"'' '"^K'' *"* Mr. Phrfm ; continuing ftiH in » vety weak Slate. Wednefda^, N:^. 5- »"<!='" ElifabHh-T.ron; .nlen .,|,

;.sfoon as poffible,to profccuta myjourney intpAr™-£«i/Md .

B.Twas, in anHouror two after myArrtvaI,tak.nmuch worfe. After this, for near a Week, was eonSned to tny Chamber.

..d mott of the Time to my Bed ; And then fo fjr rev.vcd as

^obraUe to walk about the Houfe ; but was fliU confined

™fi?h?Snini:of (his extraordinaryTutn of DiforJer.affer „y comin? ™"i/«to*-?-«n,., I w.„ enabled thro' Mercy to MitSra^calmcLpofed and patient Spirit, as ! had heeu So 0 from the Beeinning of my Weak«eft. After 1 had bee.^ L £;*to*-5™. about a Fortnight, and had o fat recovered hat I was able to walk about Houfe, upon a Day of Tbaukf-riving kept in this Place, 1 was enabled to rccail ""d recour.t nirthe Mercies of God, infuch a Manlier as greatly afieflci TandM°dme [I think ) with Thankfulnefs and Praife to

?m„ng tl^^i '-'^'"^'^^'-'"Sen>entof bis dearKingd^^^^ Mv Soel blefs'dGod for what he is in himfelf, aad adored h,m, S he ever would difplay himfelf to Creaiu.es ; rejoyccd,| ;S he was God. and longed that all fiiould know tt and fee^^ Ind r^^yce in it. Uri, i^fy ^^J 'V' ,«"' '^^'^''.'t *"*

Crv ofmv Soul. Oh that MF,cfk mtgbt love a,id ptaife the

bleffed God : That he might have all pollible Honour and

f^iorv'rom the inielhgcnt World. *

Alio; ?ht comfortsbleThankfgiving.Scafon. ^'p'^f^^f^^.

ioyed Freedom and Enlargement and Lngsgednefs of boul la

About liiis Time he wrote the 7th£.Wr, publiihcJ at (he End of t-Bis Accoutit of hii Ldc- J ■.f« ^^^^^^^

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ni LIFE

Prayeri and was enabled io intercede with Goil for my cfear ebitgregatioHj very often for evciy Family, and every Ferfon^ in particuJar ; and it t^jis often a great Comfort to me, ibn! I could pray hcarfj^toGod Tor [liofe,to whom I could nut t'ptui:^ aoJ wiioml was not allowed tp Tee. But at ofhet Times, my Spirits were fo flat antl low» and my bodily Vigour fo naucb wafled, that I had jfcarce any AiFcdllGns at alL

Id DtK^mler^ I had revived fo far as to be able ta walk atnoacj,, and vifit Frienris, s^nj feem'rl to be o" the gaining Hand with Regard to myHealthj Irithe maintUntil Lord's-Day Deiimh,%% At whichTime I went to the piiblkk WotfhJp ; and it being Sacrament. Day, I laboured mticb, at the Lord's-Table, W bring forih a certain Corrupllon, and have \\Jlain^ as being ^n Enffity to God and my own Soul | and could not but hDpi:,ibiit i iiad gain'd ff>nic .S(trnp;ih npainft lliJs, aa wcllas oshet Cmruii-tloDs ; and felt ftinit; IjHik(;i]in:l'B uf I.lcartfor my Sin. ' ■ After this, having perliap; takeii fomc Cold, I began to decline as to bodily Health ; and coMinued to do lb, 'till the Jattrr £iid of JanucTff 1746,7. And having a vioient Ccugh, a coK" Sderable Fever, acid afthmatick DifordeJ-, and no Appetite for any Manner of Fond, nor any Power of DigEftiouj ! wai: rerv duced to fo low a State, tbatmy Friends (I believe ) gtucialjy,' defpaiied of my Life j. and fame of them, for fume Time togC' thcrtthougbtlcouidfcarccllveaDay to an End. In this Tio^e, I could ihinlt Df nothing with any Application of Mind, and * ftenn^d to be in ^^reat Eyleafurc voidflf sll AfFeS[on» and was exeicifed wiihgrsitTemptationsi bji yet was not, ordiiijsriJy, afraid of Dea.th>

On Lard'4-Day, Fah, g. Tho'in avery we3k;ind lowKtafe, ' 3 Enjoyed a cor<ficiei;ibledeal of Conifoit and Swt^etfiefs in tl vine Things s and was enabled to ple^d and ufe Argunicnis wiih God in Ftaycrj I *bink,with a Cbild-lifce Spirits That Pj:I;a-B of Scripture occi^r'd loiiiy Mind, and gave megreatAffiO: iict> j/jef being Evil, imiij }mM to fi-UB g$ssi Giftj t» pur UAhhcnt ibffv/ much mors willyojif hsavtniy Faihar give, the hoiy Spirit ts ; tbf!7t thill ttfh him ? This Text 1 was' helpM to plead^ and iF:fift tjp&n I and fdW the divineFaiihfulirefs engaged for dealing ^vjth j^e better than any eaiihly Parent cdii do vviih his Child. This Seafon To relrefh'd aiy Soutj that my Body fecm'd alfo to bt a Qaiflcr by it. And from ;lnETims, I bijgan gradually to amend. Ard ai i recovered Ibins Sim^gchj Vigour and Spirit, I found ■ IE Timca foiiQC FreflQom and LXit in the Eicerchss of Devotions ana ['*uw Longings arierSpiiiiuality and aLifeof Ufefulflefs ta

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(/ Mr. D"''- Brainerd. A.D. 17.17-, u . Pi.ilMmcr ■ AUhci'at °thEr Times, 1

w.s »fal y bMren .« 'f^= ' „,„„ „ „y out, Oi ri-.* l-hing. of God i '"X i.T^^ ' OMtat Cod Ud «km mo ,, ^«««f "'"='" ^;''Kte&, with >fud<icn ftrcks, .h« I miglie not Iu<'e bcsn unier " "^""^ f J g, much pe-Di Jrlion=! Oh .b.t I h=J -™ j"ti Jro lit* PutFofc ! .

( having b=eu ""^■'^^"'t " iirlVwi-T™". M/

ownCongrejatio. i ^"^''""f;''f^T C k, ^1 e"'^"]. Thi=rcfaih>dn:y SouU 17^""7 X a ,.al, thankful

y=,«.»(Itiuft) tW='dofG"<l^° ™ \„j „ore concerns t,te.pbothHc>rt>nd L.f.pur«^.«d^^^ ^^^^ ^^^^ ^ ^^.^ cured me to rrfka on my pm iJ ^.^^^ ^^,; ^„„„, ,hy

I had not ma.nt^.u'd mo = ^'"™";^ ^ , g ;,;„ „£r= oftci eS:?,"rS^C"^;et;iXlta'e,toofw. ™adc t,

fhipi which W8! the fvrflTuiiel «=»"»'= God tarry nte (too'

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ftortd (0 ihe Miiiifterial Wori : Felf, I think, foiae ^pli)

and Life, to rpeak forUnd.

WtJirefday, Manh 1S. Roilc out wilh i Dcflirn tn vifil

People : And the Jicxt Day arrived among tiKOX : Was tini

great Deje6bion in my Journey.

On Friday.Morning, 1 rofe early, walk'd about among People, end inquired into their State and Concerns i and foufl

m additional Weight and Burden on my Spirits, upon heaii^ fome Things difai^rccabler I eodcavonr'd to go to God i my Diflrcfles, and maJe ftime kind of lamentable Complai and in a broken Manner fpread my DilEculties before Gi but notwithftanding, ir.yMind continued very gloomy. All ten o'clock, 1 calI'd my People together, and after liaviog pliin'ii and funj; n Ffalm, Iprny'd with tlicm.- There ' confiilcrahle deal of Afic/linn iiinnny ihcni ; I doubt no fyriic infl-ijiccvi, tliat wliich was more than mccrly natural

f This ivaa the l^/i InUrvisvij that he ever had with L»^ People. About 11 o'clock the fame Day, lie left 'cm ; and' the next Dap, came to EiiJaitlb-To-am i his Melancholy remaining (iifl; And heconrinued for a conlidelable Tinse under a great Degree of Dejeflion thro' vapoury Difortlers. J

EalurJay, Mmbi^. Was taken this Morning with violeni griping Pains, Thefc Pains were extreme, and conffant, for fevetal Hours ; fo that it feein'd impoiiiWe for me, vritilout a Miracle, to jive 24 Hours in fuch DiRfefs. i lay confined to my JJd.the whole Day, and in tiiftrefnng Pain, a!l the tormcrPartof it: Bat it pleafcd God to blcfs Means (or tijc abatement of my Diftrefs. Was exceedingly wcaicen'd by this Pain, and continued fo for feveial Days following ; faeing i-x-ercifed with a Fefcr, Con(;il, and noflurnal Sweats, in rliis (liftrelled Cafe, folong as my lieail was free of vapoury Con-fuftins, Dmi// appeared agrecahle to me ; [lont'don it as [65 Jiiud of Toils, and aa Entrance ;n[o a Place whire ibe ii-mrf artalrtO ; and, I (hinfc, Ihii fomeRehni of the Zntcrtaiu-incnts of the heavenly .Siitc ; fo that by thefe I was allured 6;,J (JratVD,as well as driven bv tJiebatigucs of Life. "Olijioti'itai-r =■' it is, to bedraivn by Defires of a Slate of pcrfefl Holinefs ! '' » Saturday,/ffr;;4. Was funk and dcitQed, very refflcfs anii utieafy, by Rcafon of tin; MiHmproveiiient of Time 5 a::d 3 :f knew not what to do r i hinged to fpend Time in Faftuiga'tiJ fVayerj ihjtl rafgti be dtliytrcd from Ipdplcfice and Crfdni-fi

0/M-: David Bfaitietti: A.D. ij^^) aij

I in the Things of God ; but alas, I had not bodil, Slrcnp.th I "rthefeExercifes! Ob. how bleffed a Thing.! .t, to cnjoy T I'eaee ot Confcience ! But how dreadful is a Want of inward Peace and Coiapofuri: of Soul ! 'Tis impoffinle, [find, toen-t joy this Happinefs without ridiimhi Tim, and maintaining a |fpifiiuai Frame of Mind.

t LordVDay, April S- If gntvcd mc, (n find my Wf fo io-conceivably barren. My Soul ihirlW furl.tace : Hut alas haw far was I from oblaining what I Taw fo e,ceedii,E ''("ll^nt Iwasreadvtodefpairof tvcr bein[;» holy Creiituie s anil ytt mvSnul wasder,.tousof/.J/»u.;«g l,^fi "'*':'"'"• !"" "'T I d^d I fee my ftlf & fat from «»ainf ep^rihmdcd, «r bmf. alriad) W,S, as at this Time. The Lord's Suppot l'\f}^". »»? ' Siniftred, 1 attended the Ordinance : And tho'Ifaw m my felf a dreadful Emptinefs, and want of Grace, and faw my felf a, it were at an infiuile Diftance fforn that Purity, which .a h,comin(r the Gofpet t yet in the Selfon of Communion, efjie-c ay in'he Time of'th'^ UiUtibutionof the Bread, I <njoy,d foute Warmth of Airetlion. and fell » trnder Urn tcih.nr.-Z« ; a..d, I ti^ik.« ihofilorious Hcdernitr .hi= hrjl-hm amouE them. I endeavoured then to !,r.«gf>rlh mine >nd*ii EmmU>,<n,iii,ythmhfmh;m; and found great !■ reedom in beaai UK Deliverance from this fpiritual Death, as well as m a fking divine Favours for my Friends, and Congregation, and the Church of Chrift in general,

Tuefday, ^/r;; 7. In (he Afferaoon, rode to JV^wi, in order to marry the feev. Mr. DUhfn f ; and "^^^^f^p'^S, performed that Work. Afterwards, rode home to El<fM', SiBu,, in =1 pleafaiit Frame, fi^ll of Compofurc and S^ctnefs.

+ Thelste learned and very excellent Mr. Jon a th ah ^ DtcKi«so.», PaftorofaChurch in EBfrlM-T>um^^<^-Cdent of the College of Wm-7..>y,_and oneol.heCorref-Indents of the honourable Society in SM for propa-paLsamftiaii Knowledge t Who had a great Efteem for Mr. Brsintrd, and had kindly entertam'd him in hia %1 during hi/sickuefs In the Winter palf; and who after a fhurt lllncfs, died in the next enfiung Qaikr, twa pays aftej Mr. Bfnimd.

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Ttorfdiy, April 9. AtKiiiicd ihc OrJiiiaCon of Mr Tiultn anS aftciwards the Exijhii:,ition of Mr. Smith ■ Was in antml fortable Frame of Mind this Day. and felt ray Hnn Ithlnkl foractime! in i fpiritual Frame. f

Friday, 4!r,7,o. Spent the Forenoon in Prifiytm^/^^d ^e&: I,, tlie Afternoon, rode to Eli/.htt-liu,/. found .Blii BrMher/»4, th«e ; i Spent fome Time in C^velfation v!usil Wm ; but was cvtreme mat and ont-done, my Spirit, cociiV . derabjy funic, and my JVJinddejcaed. '-'''' '■"""1' |

Monday, 4,r//13. Affifted in examining my iJwfer. tne ttentng, was in a foltmn devout Frame ; but was muB orerdone and opprefs'd with a violcnl Head-acb.

Tucfday, vf/,!Vi^. Wiis able (otta little ornolhino; ■ SneS fomc Tinio wiib Mi. Spam and other Friends. This my fintflrr went III my iVi^ple,

Wcdneid.,y, 4W/,5. iiound fonte Fr«doni at (HeThronJ of Gtaee.reveral Times tfj.5 Day. In,the Afternoon, was veri weak, and fpent the Time to vejy little Purpofe; and yet* Ihe tvemng, had (I thought ) fome religious Warmth and fpS. Jitual Defiles in Prayer: MySoul feem'd lo go forth afieiGod 1 and lake Complacence .n his divine Perfeaions, But alas"3 nfterwatds awfully letdown my Watch, and grev? careleft ani

Thurfday, April 16. Was in hitter Anguifh o[ Sotil. in thU Morning, fucli as 1 have fcarce ever felt, with a Senfe of girel an4.Gujlt, I continued in Dilirefs the whole Day, attemptine

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« A worthy pious young Genilerann ; wiio lived in (hcMiJ inffry but a very flioitTime: He died at SlralfiM it/ Cm,ficliM,th<:Diimlir following hisOrdination 5 bcioff i, Jittle while aftorMr, Bralt^d'e Dmbit Nmiar^itigi He was tatea ill on a Joiiriiey,returning from aVilit 10 hial ^ h fiends at m/lia ( in the MaffacbvfKti J which, as I taka] It, was his native 2\K^,mAHaTv,itd-C,Um the Place of hisi Jlducation. i

i This Brother of his had been (ent for by t!Ri:C!rri!tmdmis\ to take Care of.aad inHiufl Mr. Srmu!d\ CongreKationl of Minm ; he being obliged by bis lUnefs to be abfentl irom ihem. And he cojititiutd. (o take Care of them "tilb' Mr. Bratmr^i Death : and fincehls Death, has been 01-darned hiiS^cJtr in his Miffion, and to iheChatse of his . s-ongrcgation i which continues niuciitofioiijifliiindsc.. his pafiofal Caie.

^/Jkfr. DavidErainsM; A.B.i'!4^, sn

3 ntay whete-ever I went; 8= indeed could not help fo doinj; ut loak'd upon ray fclf fo vile, I dated not look any Body in iho

fl'ace ( and was even grieved, that any Body fliould fliew mc

f „iy Refpefl, er at leait, that they flwuld be fo deceived as to.

1 ibinkl defevved it.

Friday, ^j)r;; 17. In the Evening, Could not but think,that (led Iie)pc6 inc to draw icar is tht Thrmi cfGran, iho' mott unworthy, and gave roe a Senfe of hii Favour; which gave me iTisxpreffiblcSupport andEncouragcracnt ( ihn' \ fcaicely dated to hope the Mercy was real, it ainwtii'd fu %\<M: Yet could not but rejoycc, that ever Ciod Ihoiilil difeovor liii rocnntllcd [I'ace to fuch a vile Sinner. l>hamc and Conrudoil. at 'i1niM# cover'dme; and then Hope and Joy and Admiration of divino Goodnefs gain'd the Afcendant. Sometimes f could not but

! admire the divine Cjoodncfa, that the Lotd had not let me fall intoaillhegroReftvileft Aaa of Sin and open Scandal, that could be thought of; and felt my felf fo ncccflitated to praife God, that this was ready for a little while to fwailow up my Shame andPrcffure of Spirit on Account of my bins.

[ After this, his Dejcainn and Prcfl'itre of Splril returned ; and he remained undcf it the two next Days. J

Monday, April io- Was in a vetydiforderedState.and kept my Bed moft of the Day- I enjoyed a little mote Com fort, than in feveral of the prcceeding Days, This Day I arrived at ihe Age of 39 Years.

Tuefday, April 11. I fet out on mvjourney for Nm-Erig-hnd, in order [ if it might he the Will of God ) to rceovct my Health by lidiiiu: Tiavdlcd to NcwYiri, and there lodged.

[ This proved Viis final Depatturc horn Niw-Jttfiy ^—:

He travelled (lowly, and arrived among bis Friendj at Jisii-HaMam, about the beginning of Msy. There ii very little Ac-Count in his Diarf, of the Time that pjfs'd f'lm his felting out on tbis Joutncy 10 May 10. He fpcaks of his fometilines finding his Ikaitrejoicing in iheglorioua PeTftflions of fjod, and lonffingto livcio him ; but ciimplatns of the Ui.hKednefa of hisl'ho'tSj and their beingcafily diverted fiolg divine Subjeft?, andcricsoutof hisLeanceft, as lelUfjingagainfl him, in the londclt Manner. And concerning thofb Divir/nm be was oh-liited SO uit for his Health, be fays, that he fometimes found he

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couri vie Diverfiam whhJr:gUii/i nf Bmri, aiming at n Ciory of Gcd ; but itjlf lie alfo found there was a NecoJHB of great Care and W(itchfuJnc&, left be flioulil bfe dm fplrii taal Temper of ftjmtl in. his Divcihons, md lett they fliouil degenerate into *hM was meetly fclfifli, withoal any fopKff Aim at.dn: Glory of God in tSjeoi. J ■-*

-^rd's-^Day, Mafio, f At Hai-Limi) I could not t feel remeMcafure of Gratitude to God at thisTiros (whcieii wasmuch cxeicifcd ) that he had always difpofcd me, in mvl iii%,to infift en the great Doarincs of Rsgmtratim, ihi Ni^ Criasuri, Fanhtn Oinfl, pmgrifftve S<i<!ctifit&hn, fuprimi U ti Gsd, bvni miircly ti the 6k<-) ff Gii, khg mt our cwn, mm the hke: God hu helped nic to fee, in the fureft M^'ime!/ from 1 in: 8 10 Time, iliai ihcfi-, and the likeDoariiie3,neccira-rrly LoniitaeJ wjiji ihaji, arc them/;. Fimdathn of Safety and Salvation for perithiug Sinners; and that thofs divine Oif-jcri-tions, which are confonant hereto, are that miMfi, !i;^:hsm jJ>uh as ManJhMfa th L,r4 : The ExCTcife of tlKfcGsd -hk*' reraper!, mhcie.n theSouIaflsin a kind of Concert with God, and would be aad do every Thing that is pleafing to God i 1 his, i faw, would (land by the Soul in a dying Hour ; Fot Gcd intift, 1 think, i/fflj Hiinfdf, if he cafeaway his ewn 2,mn, ^ven the boul ihat is one in Cefircs with himrdf. ■

Lord's.Day, Mk, ly, (At MUl!„il,n ) Spent the Forenoon at Hcme.bcing unable ro attend the puWict Worfhip. At ib;s 1 ime, God gave mc foaie alftaing Senfc of my own Vile-Mfs, aad tbe tsceeding Sirinlnefs of my Heart; that thita feem d to be Notlung hut Sin and Corruption within roe. Z™-■mtUbkk,v!h:,al,sf,'d!!„ab^t; my want of Spiritualilv and holy living, my negkaof God.and living to rav KA— AV the Abonimaiions of my Heart and Life feem'd to'be open to'mv View; and 1 had nolhioE to fay, bill, God *, mirciMioit ?.'"'f.■■■.—— ^ '^wardtNoon, I faw.that theGrice of God in (.hri(tiiii:finircly free towards Sinncrj, and fufh Sinners a- I was; laifoCiiv, ibatGnd is the fuprcam Good, that in hij Piderce IS Liic ; and J began |o long to d,e, that 1 ini^ht ki ''•'!» M"i, in a (late of Piecdom from all Sin. Oh, howa foial Oiimprt- t,J liis Eficelieney rcficUi'd niy Sovil I Oh hotv WDrthymh. bitpd God to beloved,adored, and delighted in, (or himff I!, fur bis own divine ExcellcuclK.

TI,o> I fdt much Dulnefs, and want of a Spirit of Prayer, Ibis Week : let r bS ion,,: Gliinpfcs of the Excellency of

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e/Afr. DavidBrainerd. A.D.iyj^>j, aaj

dWint Things ; flnd erpccially oneMorningj infecret Medjtii-tion and l^rayer, the Excellency and Beauty of Holinefs, as a Likenefs JO the glorjausGml, v/is Co difcovercd lo mc, that 1 began (o long earnefily to be in that World wlicrc Holincrs dwells in Perfedicn : And I fccm'd to long for this pcrfedl I Holinefs, not fo much for ihc falcpof my own Happitiefi Calibo* J {&\v chsvly tliat this -ivus tbc^rcalcti, nn^thc only Plappincff oFth(rSouIj as that I iiii^liC plealb Cjgcl, livi: intircly m hiaii and glorify him to the iiliiiolt Isltctdi uf my uiioiul Powcri and Capa[:ities.

Locd'&-Day, May'2,\, (At Lmg-Mtadtw in Spri/ff^fiiU) Could Jtot but thJnJ;^, as I have oflcn rcniiirkM lo oiiijcis, tliBC much more of true RrJighn cojiGfis xtidup IJa'fiilily, HrskiHfiiJi cf Hearty and an clafmg Ssnfe ef BuTrenn^fi end want ef (Jraa ajid Holineff^ ihaa mo)J xvlio are called Chri/Iim!, imagine ;; cfpEcially thofe who have been cftccuieJ the Converts of the ]:.>ig Day ; ijiahy of whrm fcem to kmsiw of n&oihtr Religion liiit elevated Jsys and J^eSisms^ arifing only from fomo Kliphw of J meg inai ha yor Tome Siigggjiian rnndn tn l|icirMind» tifCkri/i*A lining ibsir\'iQad^s ievin^ihtrriy iiiiiJ tlic Lkc.'

[ On Thurfday, JJ/ay aS. He came froin Lor^' AUadatv ii* 2^efthampion i appearing vaP.ly better liian, by hia Actumit, he bad been in tlie Winter ; iEnfeatJ fo well, iliat lie WTi:i able in* riJe 25 Miles in a Di^y^and to walk half a Mile ; and apjicareJ chearful, and free fron^ Melancholy : But yet undoubtedly, at that Time, in a cotifirmtdj incurable Confumpiion-

1 had had much Opportunity, before thifl^of particular Inlof-mation concerning him, from many that wcrt well actjiiiiinted wttii bitn ; and had my felf once anOpportonity uf canbdcrable Converfatlnn and {bme Acquaintance with h\m,^tNiw-Hii'i>is, risar trtqc Years beror<;, in the Time of the Csinm^M^/mcNt v/hen ^e offered that Confcffion lu the Rcdtor of the College, that has been already mention'd in this Hiftory ; I hcing one he wai pkafed tlien fevcralTimes to confulton that AlViiir : But now Ihad C^pportnnity for a more full Acquaintance with him. I found him remarkably foclablCjpkafant, and cnicrtaininj^ in his Con^^erfation ; yet folid, fayouryj fpiritualjanJ very pioiii^ble ; appearino; meek, modefi, and hujnLile, far from any Stiffuefs, Morofenefs, fupcrffitious Dcrtiurf^nefs, or afl'irded Singiularicy in Speech orBfihaviourjaiid fecmJngto naufcatcall fuch Things. We enjoyed nOL only the Benefit of hia Converfation, biit had the Comfott ati>i Advantage of hearing him pray ia theFatJiily, : G e froan

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frwn Time to Time. His Manner of praying'was very agrc-^ ' itSe ; mnft becoming a Worm of the Duft, anJ a Difciple ti^, ": Cbritt, addreffing to an infinitefy ^real and holy Godj and Fii-thcrof Mercies; not with flL-rid Exprcfiions^ or a fiudy^d Elu' qiicnfie ; net wiih any iniemperate Vehemence^ or indecent IJoldncfs i at ihc grcaiefl DiJUnce from any Api^earance of Ofientatioji, anti ffoin every 7"i]ingthat might look as tho' hi meant to recommend hirafelf to ihoftf that were about huj3,orfs6 himfelfoftto their Acceptance i free too from vginRcpetitioni*. without iiupertinentExciirfiQnSjOrneetilersmuliJpIyiiig&fWordJi HeexprcfTcd himfetf with tiie llriitefl: f ropriely, with Weight,' and Pungeiicy j, and yet what his Lips uttered feem'd to floflf from ^tfulmjt i>fhis Jiisrt^ as deepljn; imprciTed with a greUt. andfdcinn Scnfo olour NeccITities, UnwortJiinefs, and DepetM" tinner, *nd or Oad"* infiiiiic (Jrciliicfs, Excellency ariJ SufiiJ ebiicyi rMthtr tlwii iiiLtrly from a warm and fruit/u] Brain(l pouring out gfwd LxpreiUont. AnJ I know not, ihat cverf h^ard ijim To much asafk a BleiTitiJor return Thanks at T,ib]e but there was fomcthing remarkabJe, to be obferved both in thS Matter and Manner of the Pcrrormance. Jn his Prayers, hft infiftcd much on the Piofperit^ of Zwh, ihc AdvanccmcriE ofl Chrift's ECingdora in liie Worldi, and the t'louri/hlng and Pro? pagatioij oi Religion among ihe Indiam, And he generaiJj^ made it one Feliiiaii in his Pra}cr,^iaf ws ffur^Ai hj/ cut-I'tve oia

Lord's-Day, ^sy 31. f At NsribampUn^} I hadJittle inwaf3 Swectnefa in Religion, mofl oi the Week paft ; not rcsJifin^ and beholding fpirjiually thcfj/jrj cfQcii^and i/je hhJfedUedeirner^ fiom whence always arife my ComfarU and Jsp in Keligion, iH^ ] have any at all; And ii I can't fb behold the ExccJIencies aiij Perfettions of God, :is ^0 caufd ma to rcjoyce in f)lm fcr whiL he is in bimfslf^ I have no foUdFoundattoti for Joy. To rejcyceiSL only becauCe I/apprehcrnl Unvp an Interc/iia Cbnji^ and fhttlffl bg fifi&jly favefl, is a poor mean Bufincfsindtcd.

[ This Weefc^ he confullcd Dr. A4athir^ at my F^ouTe, confl ccrnin^his IlEnefs i who plainly fold him, that there v/eregrea3 Kii'ic^enffis of his beJnc; in a cr>iifirmed Confumpiien^ and thata hccouid ^ive him no Eiicouragtment, (hat he flmuld ever re-fl <fi■v^v. Hut it (c^^med not to occafion the ieaft Difrompofura irS HiiTij jior to m^l^eany Manner of Akeraticn as to [heChear-^y "fflliicfsand .Scre.-jnof hia Mind* or the Freedom Of Fieafinl^ licfaofhifi Coijvcrfdiion.j

of Ur. t>avid Brainerd: A. B. xjlf' a^5 v.,i»^ nap ^uTii Tr Uv Attention wasgreatly engaged*

:j„,.ft Jv=rc.mc n,y Body, in iny w=»k S a,e Ha». h" . u= IJrare is exceeding precbus iiidsca ; that it is very lars , ai^a ta lb r" b ^= very foall Dcg..= of ieeveo where .he

e:.ccedmgpt«ioui tome •. ''>=J '=™ \ ,^' ,f , r„ ,be Prc-

K=^« rw ready ia /,//.? r., /:/.W «.W 7^ ; and conclude S/u ■/fW', cLi k L ilar Li pnmus I, hm, h, will pr,m,

, ,1 .1. which was fo agreshle to his own will ; iho Ihc r He wi>.jdviWbyPhjficUns ftill lo coiuime Riding, as

3.d be hclpM !0 him lnhbwe.k and b» St.ie. ]

divers Mbiftcrs on the Road. conMcrnble Tim=

fliaio™. if God raw fl< .bus <?,f ^X-. r'Day, fon^™''=' <^-

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Lord'i-Day, yaMi4. 1 enjoyeilfame EnJargcinehe XSweeSi nefs in Family-fraycr, as well as in fecrcf Exercifa ; God an* pear d excellcat, hh Ways full of Pleafute anil Peace, and St I wanted was a Spirit of lioly Fervency, to live to him. 3

Wcdnefday, yew 17. This, and the two preceding Davi.j I rpene mainly in vifiling the Miniftcrs of the Town, and wa treated wilfi great Eefpefl by them.

On Thi.rrday,yn»f iS. I was taken cxcccJing ill.and bro't.M the Gates of Death, by the breaking of fuiallUlcere in myLunssi as my PJiyfician foppofcd. fn ihis exlrcmc weak State f contf lined for feveral Weeks, and was fremiently reduced fu low m to be ultetly Spcechlefs, and not able fo much as to whifper* Word; and even after I had fo far revived, as to walk aboul! Houfe, and to fie,, out of Doors, Pwas cxercifed every Dip Wllba faint Turn, which continued ufually four or fivcHoa at which Time!!, Ili-.M was not uLlcrly Spcechlefs, fo but thai J could fay lis or A/f, yet f could not converfe at all, nor rocaS one Sentence without mailing Stops for Breath; and divEtii 1 imes m this Seafoii, my Friends gathered round my Sed m^ fee me breathe niy laft, which they Joot'd for every Moment ' asfmy felf alfodid. ' '

How I was, the firlj Day or two of my Illnefs.withRegard ID. the Fxercife of Ab/m, J fbarcely know j hut I believe f was, fometbiOg fhstrer-d with iho Violence of she fever, atTimca ^ fJut the ihitd Day of my Dlncfs, and confiantly afterwards, la, four or fivo Weeks together, f enjoyed 3: much Serenity Mind.andCfeanicfsof Thought, as perhaps 1 ever did in t Life; andlibink, ray Mind never penetrated wilhfo macll Aife and freedom in [o divine Things, as at ihis Time ; and ^never felt f(, capable of demoiiftrating the Truth of many ' ' IjSorlant Deft, ims of the Gofpel as now. And as I faw eleai

Tin ™','Lr'"'■■■ S'""^"^''""''- "l-'^'' =r=iu(11yftiledtlia DOCTRINES of GRAC£; fof fawwith no lefs QearneftI that ihe Effiau of RiUgim canfiffcd in the Soul's Cs«f^mlt il OoD ar.riaaing.boveallfeffifl, Views, for to GAry, loiirinl tiibe/iri,,,,. iolii.ef5W«, and pleafe and honour tim in A Ihings ; and ib.s from a clear View of his inKnite E:!cell4uc« andVVnrih.ncfw,,/,,>/,//, ,0 he loved, adored, worfhipped.aj ferved by all „,„,|,j,s„; Creature,. Thus I faw.that when aSoul ;.wrGnd «„h a fapreme f.ove, he therein a& /* (ho hklTel'H !-.od himiirlf, who moltiulUy loves himfeif in that Manner s3

.if.T- 1' ^ , f f"'"'* ""' '"' ""= ''™'n= °"^' ^"^ he Jong*' lh,tGod(hoddbi.^i,.,yF./, ,„i ,,J„j.c„ ,„,hirk thai he ll

unchangeably

e/Mf. David Braiead. A.n,i747. 117

undKupably polTefs'J of the hiftbell Gbry .nJ f^leiledntf., heicinallb he ads niLW/miHy toGodtIn likcManner,whe„ iho Sold is fully rrjiiiiid », and rells fatisfted and contciiled vMh the divine Will, bcie il is alfowJi/oraisJ 10 God. . , „ ,

I faw further, ihat as this divine Temper, whereby lh= to exalts God, and Heads Self In the UuH, is wrought in the Soul by God's difcovering his own glorious Ferfcatoua mlhi^ici Jj./u, Cbrifl to it, fay the fpecial IilDuences of.he hoiy Spirir, L he cannot but have R^ard I, it, as his own Work ; and as if, his Image in (he Soul, he cannnl but lake D</^f*" tn it. Then 1 law aEaiu, that if (iod fliould IligiU and Kjett hi, own moral J»ioj,, be muft needs J«y hmf.lfi which he cannot do. And thus 1 raw the StMiity and Mallikhif of ibis RehEmn.aml that Ihofe who are truly pofi.fsM of it, have the moll colnpkat and fatlsfyine £^7V.K! of their being mie.eM mail the Benefits of Chriifs Redemption, having their Hearts r^ArmrJrt him ; and that thefe and thrfeonly arc qualified for ihe tmploy-menl! andEntertainments of God'sKingdom of Glory ; as none hut thefe have any Relilh fur the Buhnef. o Heaven, which is toafctibeGlory to God, and not to ihenifelves; and hat Gorl Ctho'l would ipeak it with i;icat llcvercncc of Im Name and Perfeaions) cannot, without dcnyius himfelf, finally caft fucft

"The ncJit Thing [had then to do, w.,s to enquire, v:h=.hcr Ibis was ^,y Religion : And iicte God was flcafed ■" help ir.e t<^ themofteafy Remembrance and eri.ic.l R«,ew f what nad pafsM in Courfe. of a religious Nature,' "«'. fc--'"-'' "^ ^^J^'-tet Years oi my Llfu : And allho' I conld dilcover much Cor^ ruplion attending my bcft Duties, many felhlh Vtew, .nd c r-nal Ends, much fpiiitual Pride and Self-Exahal.on, and in-mmerable other Evils which conipafs'd me about 1 1 Ciy,altho ] now difccrned the Bins of my holy Things, as v.el! as olhe Aaions,yet God was plofed, as I wk ieviewmg,<iuick y to pu thy,Qs^LnoMXotDot.K byfbewingme.thatthad, from Timeto Time, aded above the utmofl influsnce of meet bell-Love; .hat! had louKed to pleafe »nd glorify h.m,i,s my highrft Happioefs, t£fr. And this Review was thro Grace allended withaprefeotFeeliuK ol the fame divine Temper oM.nd; I Teltno* plcafed, to lldnk of the Glory of God, and longed or Heaven, as a State wherein I might glorify God [•"fealy, » ther thanaPlaceofHwinersformyfelft And this l;eel."g°' the Love of God in my Heart, which [ Ifull t he bp.r.tof l^"" excitri ia me afrdh, was fufScicnt to g-vc: me full batisraft'""^

Mt.

ne LIFE

ef Mr. David Brainetd. A.D. 1747.

itq

and makfi me IaDg,3S I had manyTimes before done,fo Uc wifN Chrift . I did not now wan( any of i\iz[iiMen ^tigge/tioni^vt\w\ many are fo plcafed Willi,War Ciri// apio' k'u Bintfiu ariM 1 m. , ?"*i3/ Gadlpaei Me, E^'i-. (:i or^fer 10 give me Satla'aflioii abuin my State : Ko, my Sou] nowabhRr'd IhcfeDeJufions cf i'tjrfifl,, ivliich arc thought to be the immediatiWknifi sftht Spitil,vimt t^erc is nothing but an empty Suggiffim of !izen2.\nVsi\,vihha^ any fjraciotis Difcovery of the timW G^ry, or of the Sji;V;Vi Wriili tbeirowoHearts: I faw the awfuIDehjiion of this Kir ' of Conftdences, as wclj as of the w'holt- of that Rcligien, tvhic ihcy ufualiy fptingfrom, cr at leaft are the Attendants of; 1!" falfi Religion of the ]ate Day f [ho* a. Day of wondiousGraiS the hmgimiimij and litipreffions made only on the anitji Affiaions, liigether witfl lltlt fuddtn Snggcftions, made ihe Mind by Satnn^ Iranj/orMri inia on Aji^ei of Li^hl, of o lain I'.idlj not rcvt-iikd in Sctipturc : Thefc, and iiianv liJc, Things, 1 fear, have made up the gream Part of the teiigiotil /ippearances in many i-'Jaces.

Thefe Things [ faw with great Ciearnefs, when I was tho', to be dying. And God gave tiie great Concern for liis Ciiurd 2nd tnlerelt in iheVVorld.tat this Timi! : Not fn much bccani^ llie late remarkable Inllucncc upon the Minds of Fooplew»4 abated, a-,d almolt wholly gone, as becaufe that falfc Religion^ ibofe Heats of Imagination, and wild and felfifli Coitimotion^ of the anitnal Affcilions, which attended the Wotk of Grac^ had prevailed fo far. Thit U'as that wldcb my Mind dwelt up^ on, almoft Day and Night: And this, to nrte, was the darilcffi Appearance, refpeaing Religion, in the Land ; for 'twas i chiefly, that bad prejudiced the World againft inward Religion^ And 1 faw, the great Mifcryofall was, thatfo few (^t, anyMaiiJ Iter of Diffirmci between thofe fexercifcs that were fpiiitual an|^ holy, and thotl which have Stlf-Livi only for their Beginninij' Center, and End.

As God waspleafed to afilird me Clearncfs of Thought, and] Compofure of Mind, almoll continually, for feveral VVeefc^ togcthor,undermy grfatWcatncfa i fohecnabkd lae, in fomas McafurK, to improve my Time { as \ hope ) to valuable Fur-L pofcs. 1 was enabled 10 wiiii; a Number of impprtant LitliriM to Friends in jcmole Haces »; And fometimes I tvrole whei<v1

» Among tbcfc arc the eighth, ninth) and tenth Ltltcrs, at j

the End of ibis H.aory

if,- 3??.

m

I „■•„ Srfechlefs ■ i e unable to maintain Converfation with , Boi; ■ lo- ;e',baps [wa= able .0 fpeak . Word or two o a/to be heard.-At this Seafon al o. f''= ' «!= ""^""^i^; K,/!.:,, I read with Care and Attenlton fome P^P'" ° f ^ ™ i,4w-s, lately cotne to Ligbt, and "l^Gf ^-^J"'' " ^ J^V And as i was defired, .ttd greatly urEed,roade f™=^;' ™°"'. where the Se„re was left '>''^'«>''^V \Z °h.ZlZ Kefides this, 1 had man, Fi^Mfr/t; W"'',;:^™' ™R.d„ir ab'etoft^eak I always ccnveiftd ot the Things of Religton . d^ras'pecoliaiTy di[pof.l and a«cd in ^l^^^^l^^^^^ the tr.. and /.///Religion of the'l nnes : } hc« w . f a ce any

:^iS:::;sr:?rS:tte?5^S^

which ia neceffary in order to a l^tving F'f, ""f'^'J^™' DMcukr of being brought to this, and the great Danger the e ;; ^ktfon> taking up with ro<ozS-!f-r!sl>l"uapp«'ranc, o! I. Tb X" ' I ;W= i cflKdally dwelt iipon, e ngperftvadd t^^^^^

Mutolndes perifl, in thisbidde,. Way ; and 1===-^=/" ''" ^^ faid front tnoft Pulpits to difcover any Danger h=r ■ So 'ta FetfoosbeiiiE never eiFeaitaily brought to d.e m ihemfebes are neeiuly united to Chrifi and fo pcrifh. I alfo difcoatfed m c , on Mbafl take to be the EfTcnce of true ^'^'^^''f'l vouring plainly .0 defcribe that God-l.k= Tetnp« and Di(p tiencfSoui, and that hcl, Canvetfat-on and t!eh»v»or 1 « may juftly claim the ri.nuur of h>«"g f.od or ,. O .gu,al ZlAtJi. And 1 havcReafonto hjpeGud Weff.dmy Way ifdiSingl diffingnilhuig. .»f-,^. ^-^ Minlfters and People; folbat my Tune was not wholly W..

[ lie was much vlfitcd, while in Bfn bf ""-"y P^'P^"; "^ CO liderabkNoto and ligure. and o the beft Charate ana^y

fonte of ,h. firft Rank: Who (hewed h.n, >^""'""^;^"^X^ ..nd appeared highly plcafed and enicrtamed with hisConverrtiop.

And b'ftdes hisleing honoured with '^^ C^-pany ud R J|,c t of Miniftets of the Town, he was v.fed ^f /-"^ ^^^ niflers from various Pa.ts of the Contttry. An » ^ a^ all Oppottunides to.d!rcourfoof,h= j-"'-,^ { ^l^J^^^ to ■ „.>;OiiitT Ch-raaers of true Epititual a,id vit.il l^cligiuo, -t^"

Thi LIFE

confifiing iii,or ariiiiig from Fmpreffians on 11ieImapnafion,ainl fiiiiin and fuppofcd immediate Suggeffions of 'i'raehs, not conujncd in tlleScripture, and (halFailii which confiBs primatily ■ in n Peifoifa iiliivhi tim/Ciri/i diid far bm in patticulsr.ht:. ' So what ho faid was for ihe mod Part heard with uncDinmoil^ AlleniioD and Regard; and his Difcouffes and Reafonings ap-' pearcd manifcfiiy to have great Weight and Jnfl[ience, witjS many (hat hfreonverM with, both JSJiniflers atid others.* 'f Aifo the Honourable CoaunhTioners in Biflen, of the inco^ porateil Society in Liniim for propagating tlie Gofpel it! Mtf £n^raiKrand Farts adjaccnt,having newly hid committed to 'em;-' a Legacy of the late Ret. and famous Dr. Danid Jnilhas o( ' ZmAs, for the Support of (jw MlffmatUt to the Heathen, wefij plcifcd, while he win In BilJtH, to confult him about a Miffifiii 10 thtife Wmhi cnllni the fiix Nalims, particularly about fho Qualilitatiuiiwnpiiliie ill ;, Miilinniry tu tliofe ladisni; ajiS were lb CitisfiL-J with his Sentiments on this Head, and ha;) that Confidence in his l-aiihfuliiefs and his Jtidgmert and Dif-crction in TiHnf! of tiiis Nature, that they dciired him 10 undet-taketohndand lecomtiicnd a couple of Perfon! fit to be einpbyed in this Uulincfs ; and very much left she i\faHer with Ijlm.

Likcwife ceitfun pious and gEnerouHf difpofcd Gentlemen in BtftiBi, btjiig rao«J by the wonderful Narratifeof hiiLabo^jts and Succiifs among (he ItuiM/,,, in Ntw-J^fc,, and more efpcci-nlty hy thcif Conveifjlion with him on the fatne Subjeia, toolc Opporfuriiiy 10 cnoiiire m.irc paiticuiarly into the State and Nr.«ffincs of h-s l-gngrcjation, and the School among the /n-AW, wilhacharitibls Imeniion of contributinn fomethioff of their Subftaot-E to promote the (xccllent Defign of the Advance--' mem of the luttjfffs of Chriflianity among the Indiims ■ andj

uiideiHandiiH>iliat there was a want of Bibles for ihcSchool'thrCBi Dozen oi H:l>:f! wrie immediately procured, and 14,/. in Bi]J,f (of theold 'Jcnour ) given over and ahovc, btlides niore lar£ft Benefaaiont mjJc afterwflrt!?, which I iial] have Occafion tS meniion in thctr proper Phte.

• I have had Advanta<!f for the mors full Information of his Cotldua andConveiialion, the Entertainment hemetwilh, ■ •nd what pafs'd relaiingto hiinwhile in Bsp„ ; as he was confttnlly attended, during bis Continuance there, by ono o/ray Cbildicn, inoidsr to hisAffiftanceinhi! I'lbefs. .

Mr.

«/Afr. David Bwmerd. A.D. 1747- »3i"

. n ■ J., B,ttnration ftcm his cxtreamly low State in

^'•f'"? .0 abroad "gl and ,0 u.vel, w« very un»-

JJ.yi-w fo as«» |"J''™^^^^^^^^ My Daughter who Waa ^ithhitr.,

pedted tohimandhis f iieu" • [^ /"j^^jyim n- " '

^^H.esthu.conce,mngh™ Letter d^J^,^_^^^^

« OuThuTfday,he was very m w „.,;]„„,. So be

" ^''^ ■'" d''rKt:tE ni-g whS^ b= % «-

<« remained "" ™"" ^;r^ v„„ii' was ui> with h m 'tillono

« tJt two o'clock, expttMgf^VE J HenJ ^vas hitler,

.. Sabbaih Day he was »J^^^-'y/^'f,,,, „ i,;, li.eaft, much ., but very full of Pam^tldc-e^^^^ h, wa« better nput. al!

" Accounts. L^" _N^ ^^l^p ,,,„ fty,,he has noHopM " ''f^Tifernor'does ho think it likdy he ™ill "« ™ms ;; :lt of" chamber ■, ±^' ■« fays, he may b. able .0 cotn.

In another Letter j p,i„^,orfevcr, finco I laft wrote,

•' as btfoie : Yet M e«i i ^^ , ,,„ ,^,

.< faint, expeaing every Da, w. be tu't.^^y^^^^^

« ^,fM.fir .^ «'«^ Ar » '^ ^f^^^ „, Morning int,

.< ToWB, ^n^™"^'"' h'^' "m"uvei for he lay twoHouts, .< ne«t«ipeaedltouW.ecrimtaave, ^j^^^j^^_.

" ^ <hey thought dymS>On=™.d^r^ ^^ y ^^^ ^^

.. he was ahve, or not, ne wa» ^^^^^

» Time : But now is much a. he was heto e ^^^.^_^^

.. thinks, be «mJrop 7?'" t'^J'Jh LD,/.fa.;«, =^ .. fays, he """fjl'="^3^'!h,"ever had anjConcep.iot, .. what he felt to Day ^'J'^lf^^^Xb. alLvi, and yet f« <. weak as he is from D y 0 Day ^^J^ ^^ ^^ ,;,^

. in| „o diRteiEng Feat,, ";;'„'"";;,,,„ Kf,, when h=

His Phyftcian, the ^"-;,;Xi/fc^ ", "<'il-<=^ W^''"*'-virned him in htse^tiream Ilkie^ in « /'^, ^^^ ^^^^^

ingfo fuddenly -';>„!„^'^f>,"'h7been' longga.herins

2^2 M,l. 3P',

TkLlPS.

lion'fi Pjiliigc in his Diary) and ihirs ilifehargmgand diffliiTnij (heir purulent Matter , wiiici?^ wliile Nature was iaboarina end (tmggling to ihtow ufF (that couM be done no Dthttwifc, than by a gradual ftraining of it Ihro' ths fmall VpITcIs of thofo vital Parts ) This nccsScJn'd an high Fever, and vioIcntCough-ing, and threw the while Frame of Nature into the utmofl Diforder, and brought it near to a Diiloiution, But fuppofed, if the Strength of Naiuri; held 'till the I.uiigs had this Way ara-dfcally cleared ihemfelvesof this put id Matter, he might revive, and cotllinue better, 'till new Ulcers gathered and broke ; bit then would furcly fink again ; and that there was no Hope of his Rc!:overy ; but ( as he exijrcITed hiinfelf to onir of myNeigSl-hours, who at that Time faw him \Tr-Siiflon) he waaas certamlf a dead IVIan, 38 if he was fl]ot through the Heart.

Hut Ci it wai orrlered in ilivinc I'rovidoncc, that the Strength, of Nature h^td iiot lIitous.'li this great Conflifl, Jb as iufl to cfcapc tbc Grave at that Turn ; and then he revived, to the Aftonifhment of all that knew his Cafe.

After he began to revive, be was vifiled by his youngeffi Brother, Mr. Ifrad BmiterJ, a Student at Tali-Cdlqi; who having heard of his extreme I llnefs, went from thence to Sc/?5ii, in order to fee him, if he might find hira alive, which he but little expedled. ►

This Viflt was attended with a miiture of Joy and Sorrow to Mr. Brainird. He greatly rejoyccd to fee his Brother, efpecially bBcaufe Fie bad detired an Opportunity of fome religiousUonver-ration with tiim before he died. But this meeting was altendtd With Sorrow, as hi^ Brother broughc tohim the fottowfulTidinga pf his Sifter Sptacfr'sDezih at Hadiiami 3 Sil!er,between whom and him had long fubfiited a peculiarly dear AfFeaion.and muctt Inlimacy in fpiritual Matters, and whofe Houfe heufed to maia his Hume, when he went to /foiifom, his native Place. Ha had heard notliing of her Siclcncfa 'ijll this Report of heiDeatli. But he bad tbefe Comforts, togolher with the Tidings, viz, » Confidence of her bsinggonc to Heaven, andanExpeaatiooof his foon meeting her there,— flis Brother continued with tim 'till he left the Town, and came with hira from thence to

Concerning tbe laB Sabbath Mr. Bminird IftnX in B,)yfw, he writes in his Diary as follows,]

Isold's-Day, .Jk/j, Ig, I wasjuUablctoattetid publicltWcr-Clip, being carried to the Houfo of Ood in a Chaife. Heartl Ur.SdW/preach, in the J''oieriooii; Partook of the Lord's-

Supper '

r/Mr. David Brainerd. A,D. t74>;. 133

"Supper at this Time. In this vSaeraraent, 1 faw aftoniniiiigdi-vine /F/fl>m difplay'd ; fuch VViffiom as I faw required the Tongues of Angels and glorified Saints to cciebiats : It feera'd tome, I never fhould do anyThingat adoring the infinite Wif-dim of God difcovered it) theConlrivance of Man's Redemption i until 1 arrived at a World of Ferfeamn ; yet I could not hdp flrivins to call iipm my Sod and nil vjillm m lo ikfi the Nami if

Cud — In the Afternoon.heard Mt, Pimi preach,-- I faw

nioreof God in iaeWifdm difcovered in the Plan of Man's Redemption, ihanl faw of anyothct of his l-'crlcflionJ.ibrough llie whuk Day.

f He Sefi Biflm the jiextDay, But before ho came away, he had Occafion to bear a very full plain and ofcnJi/lmtnf againit that Opinion, that the Efia^i of faving FtM lies in tif^'ig thBt&nJi dlti fsr mi in parlkalar,ind tliat this i! tbe/r/i'Aa ot Faith ma true Believer'a clofing with Chrift. He did it in a lonlConferencehe bad with aGenlleman, that has very pub-Sickly and flrenucully appear'd to defend that Tenot. He had thisDifcourfc with him in the Prefence of a Number of coiili-derahle Fcifons, who came to viiit Ivir, ilrsrmfJ before he left the Town, and to take their Leave ofhini. In which Debate, he made this plain Declaration (at the fame Time confiimmg Khathefaid, bv many ArgumeiUs) That the £J,^r<of feymg Failb was whoUf left out of that Difimma of faving tauh which that Gentleman hat publifbed ; and that the faith which he had AfiMd, had nothing of Gob in it, nothing above Na-tuie, nor indeed above the Power of the Devils ; and that all feh as had thu Faith, and bad ii. hll,y, tho' they might have Ibis to tievet b high a Degree, would furslv perifh. And be declar'J alfo, that he never had areatef J/Jarnil of the taljl-„,[> of the Principles of thofe that maintained /m4 a ts'tli-^™ ol their daneeious and deftruaive 'Fendeiicy, or a more atitit-ingSenfe of the great Delufion and Mifery of thofe that depended on getting to Heaven by/xrA a Faith (wbiie they^had ™ Ltoltban he lately had when he was fuppofed to be atthePo.n! to<ft't,and expeacd evetyMinutcfopatimto£w.;iij.-~-—*"■ Bramrri's Difcoutfe at ihis Time, and the fotceabkReajomngs. b, which he confirmed what he alierted, appear'd to b^ g'«t'y 10 the Satisfaaion of thofe ptefent ; as (cveral of them toostUa-eafiiinexpreay tomanitefttshini, before they took ^'■^1'= oE him.

H h 2

When

SJ+ Ml. so'.

fht LIFE

or NIQIf

. InrU

Whan tills Cooverfation was eiideJ, hiving bid an jffefllii. Sale Furewel (o his Friendi, he fet .lui in the Cool of (he AT-tcrooOD, on hij Journey liNmthampUn, altendcd by hitBioilni , and my Daughter that went with him to Sc/lm; andwuulJ have been accompanied out of the Town by a Number ofCit-n-tlem.en, befides that hoiiourable Perfon who gave bim his Com • piny for feme Miles on that Occafion, as a TeHimony of ilioii Efteem and Refpcflihaci not his Averfitm !o anyXhingof I'Dmi and Shew prevented it. ]

Saturday, 7ir/|r 15. 1 arrived here at Narthamptm ; hi fct out from Bsjimi on Monday, about 4 o'Clodt P. M, Journey, I rode about 16 Miles a Day, one Day with aiiothjf, was fometimes cjrtfEracly tited and faint on the Road, fo tliU itfeera'd impifliblc for me to procce.) any further: At oilit( Times I uvaj confidctaWy better, and felt ramc FreetJom bold of Body and Mind. «

Lord'a-Day, J<ily %&. This Day, 1 faw clearly, that I (honrA never be happy -, yea, that God binsfelf could not make me hsB*^^ py, unlefs ] could be in a Capacity to pliafi anii glarifi him t0 ivir: Take away ibh, and admit me into all the fine Himi»t that can be conceived of by Men or Angels, and i fliouH fHII be mtferabh forever.

[ Ttio' he had fo far revived, as to be able (0 travel thut, far, yethemanifefted ijo Expcftation of Recovery: Ha iun- ' pofed, ashisPbyficiandid, that hij beini; brought fo near (0,1 Death jt Se/?m, was owing to the brciifeing of Ulcers in hij.' Lung, : He told me, that he liad had fcveral fuch ill Turns be-T fore, only not to fo high a Degree, but as he fuppofcd, owing'^ to ihefameCaiEfe, w'». the breaking of Ulcers; and that ha was brouglit lower and lower, evsfy Time ■ and it apjieare:! , (ohiln, that in his lajt Sicitncfs (in Bcjari] he was brought aj -Sow as it was poiiihie and yet live ; and (hat he had not ths . leaftExpeiaalion offurvivinj; the nextRelurn of this breaking ot»' lllcers: Bud fiiil appeared per/cdtly calm in theProfpea ofDcaih, '■ On Wednerday-Morniiig, IheWeek after he came taNcrlh- . dmp/ou, he look Leave of his Brother//ra;/, as never expcainj ' to fee him again in this World ; he now felting out frora hcnct on hts Journey (0 Niui-Ha^sn,

When Mr. Srojefrrfcitnehilhcri he hsj fomuch Slrcngtb IS9 !o be able, from Day to Day, to ride out two or ihreeMiles, ■ snd to return j and foHielimct !o pray in thehamily ; hut from ' ': this 1 ims he gradually, Nt fcnft!)!;, tlresvsd. is K-came weak- -• sr and weaker,

e/JWr. David Brainerd, A.D, 1747.' IJ5

While he V(as here, his Converfalion from fi.« to laR wm ,„„ch on (be fame Subjeas as it had been when in B./ffl ; U. w mucbinfpeakingif theNatuteot ,r„. B,/,^.™ of Heatt ^u'praaiee, as diftinguilhed from it's various t,VW«« ™-rffnghi great Concern, that the la.terd.dfomuchpteva, " m ny Flacel He often tnanifened h s great Abhoirence of

loured of. and had any ( tho- but . re.1,0 e ) 1 endency ,0^^ ZmiaJm ; of all fuch Notion., a. feem'd to dnnnnflrtheNe-X of HSi;ner»of fJfe,t.rtoaba,cMen> R.K.r 'jj ';»Conn-n,andsofGod,an<l a Itria dtlifcnt n..J unlvclLl ' "^ » « Vertne and Piety, nnder a Pretence of deprec.atn.g our Wnrfcl. and ■Magnifying (Sod's free Grace. He fpake often, w>il.n>uch DeteftaSn! of fuch E.p.ru.m and ptetend.d 2J;/r.r.re,« and 7» a have nothing of the Nature oi Sa.a.ftta,.,„ .n thetn, /nTC't ;"d toStriinefs, Tendcrnefs, and Dihgence ,nRe t-Ln, and Meeknefs and Benevolence towards Manktnd and f, Humble Behaviour : And he alfo declared, th.t he looked on "ch pSiended HaMin a. worthy of no Regat , <l«' ™;°' i^anifefled by M,d,ny of Cndua and Ornvvfalm. He fp^ks o^ten, with Abhorr/nce, of the Spirit and 1 ra .Ue *■; •'I'l "'• amoOE the greater Part of Sf/iaraJr/Zr at Ih.s Uay m the f.and, TrSarly! thofe in the eaLn Parts of C».rfl,r.( , ,n thetr condemning andfei>arating fromthe/<..di.fM.n,ltty &Uurchas, 'heir c"yn|down L,.--«-»^ & a U.rnd Minift-y, •I'^'^N^"™ Ll at^ iLXuCailx^ (heWork of theMinittry,and theFotward-„. s oTil%« to fee up (hetrtfelves as puWick Teachers H= h d been much convetfant in the Eaftern Par. o( C™,«..<hu, native Place being near to it) jvhen the fame Prtncpks, Noti-""aud Spiti. began to operate, which have f.ncc P«v, ed (0 a heater Height ; and had Acquaintance Vfllh fotne of thofe Pet-fon who ate become Heads Li Leaders of the Sj^of' i he So been converfant wi.hPerfons "f'"f f'"'^?^ f,"^: ' Ld Iheatd bin, fay. once and again, he knew by hts Acqu tn-fance with this Sort of People, that what was cbicfly and molt TneraUy ioRepute ^ong (*<™ as tl.ei'.«.<r »/C»'«""/''^''=,^" S"ly V-«' Thing from that true vita I .ety reconrm^^^eJ

nifefted , grestDiilike of a Difpofitien in Perfons to much Ncjt ::?;/,: In Rehgion,andaffeaing.obeabu„^an.,nprocla.^^^

ingandpubhfhing their "" ■^'/''"""'-^°;ft ans fnea"-Thnebadid not CDndemn. but approved "f ^httll.ans fpeak ,[ tbait oisa E.petietice6.p»r»»« 0«afians.»nd (« fom=P«-

foDS.-withdueModeByandDifcredon. Bn Mmfcif {amtWnm Willie at ray Houfq, fpakcofiiis own Experiences ; But ifwll aiways wilji apparent Rijirve, and in the Exercife of Care qit Judgment with Rrfpefl toOccafiDns,PcrfDns, and Cifcumn«[» ces. He mentiori'd fome remarJcabie Things of his own relirf cus Experience to two yqungGentJctnen, Candidates for tQ MinifitT, who watched with him ( each at a diffcren! Tim* when he was vety low and not far from his End ; Euthedcliri both of them noi to fpeafc of what he liad told them 'till flrtJ kh Desib, J

Tlic Tiling! which were the Subjefl of tfeit Debate I itiej!. (ioned before, that he had wilii 1 certain Gc"ntlemaii, the Day be left Bsftm, feem'd to lie with much Weight on his Mini), after he came hither j and he began to write a Littir to dm , Gentleman ; tsprc(Iin|t hij Scnlinicnta ciincerninf; the dange-'-' loua Tendency of foiiii; of the Tenets he had exprelTed in Cgo-verfation, and in the Writings he had publifhed ; witiltheCon-rideralioLi! by which the exceeding hattful Nature ofthofeNg^i tiotis is evident; hm he had not Strength to finUh his Letter, ,t

After he came hither, as long as he lived, he was much IB,' (ipeating of that futute Profpetity of Z;«5, that is fa often fote-told atid promife<i in the Scripture : It was a Theme he delight-, ed to dwell upon ; and his Mind fecrn'd to he cairied forth/ withearneftConcofn about it, and iotenfc Dcfires, Ihar keli-j-gion might fpeedify and abundantly revive and fl.,uriih ; iho' ha,, had n!)t the lead Kspeaation of Recovery ; yea, the nearer' Death advanced, and themot«.tbe Symptoms of it's Approach, " jncreafed, liill the more did hisMind feem to be talccn up witfi^.. this Subject. Hetoliiaie, wlieji near his End, that " he tie-j *' vet in all his Life bad his Mind fo led forth in Dcfires and,, I" earnelH'raycra for the fl..uri(hing of Christ's Kingdimvii-' " Earth, ashncehe was brought fo exceeding low at iJg/?jii."i He feera'd much to wonder, that (here appcar'd no more of a!.., Difpofilion in M [niters and People to ptay for the flomifllingf of Religion thro' the World ; that fo little a Part of theitPray-■ errvtas generally taken up about it, in their Families, and elfe-wS-.ere ; and particularly, he feveral Times expreffed bis Wonder, that there appeat'd no mote Forwardncft to comply \yith Sib PnfaJ'nl lately made, in 3 Memotial from a Number ofMi-•niliersin Stolisnd^isii fent over intoA«riVtf, for asi([i/<i:rraor-F diaary Pnitr, among Chrili's Minifters a^id People, for the I (om'ni tf GliriJI's Jimilm: And hs ftnt it as his dying Aifeice

t9

d/ Mr. David Bfa'mertl. A.D, 174 7, aj;

(0 W mn Cmgregaiiia, that they Choald praaife agttablj to tliat Fropofal. f

Tho'he was conftantly exceeding weak, yet there appear d in him a continual Care well to improve Tim(,and fill it up with fomethinn; that might be pioStable,aiid in fome Refpedt for the GloiyofiJodor the Good of Men i cither profitible Convcr-fation.or writing LctteiB to abfent I'ticndi, or notingfomethins in his Diary, or looking over hii fotmct Wiitmgs, cotreiamg Ihcra, and ptepaiing them to be left in (Ivclhndi of otlnew M his Death, or giving foine DircdliiinlcuncorninK "iutlire Coil-ilsaing and Management of Sria I'onpir, ur I'iuipluymtnt 111 iicict Devotions, He feem'd never to be cafy, however HI, K) h: was not doing fomething for God, or in Ills bcrvioe.

After he came hither, he wrote a Priface to a Dinry of the famous Mr. Shipaii's ( in thofe^ Papers beforc-raenlion'd.lalely found) having been much urged IQ it by thofs Gentlemen in BiHsn who had the Care of the Publication : Which Diafjf, Willi his Prifaci, has lince been pnbliJIicd. J ^

In his Diary for Lord's-D>y, A»g«li 9. He fpcaks orionjins Dcfires after Diaib, thto' a Scnfc of the Enccllency uf > Siaio

of PtrfeSkl, „ , , , ,.

Ill his Diary for Lord's-Diy Aug. 1 0, tie fpcakj of ins having fo much Refreniraent of S«bI in the Houfe of UoJ, that it feem'd alfo to refrefii his Bsij. And this is not only noted in his Diaty.but was very obferviblE to others i it was very apparent, not only, that his MnJ was exhileraled with inwartl Conrdation, but aifo that his uii^W Spirits and Uiiij Strength feemed to be remarkably reliored, as iho' he had forgot hii

Illncfs But this was the kit Time thai ever he attclldeJ

publick Warfliip on the Sabbath.

f His Congregation,fince (his,have with great Chearfulnefs | and Unanimity fallen in with this Advice, and have praiti-fed agreibly to the Propofil from Salkad; and have at Time,?, appeared with miconmioil Kngagcdnefs and her-j vency of Spiilt in their Meetings and united Devotions, purfuantto that Propofal: Alfo the L'relbylerlej of Niw Tirk, and Neiu-Brunfwid, finee thi<, have with one Uon^ j I'tiu, fallen in with the Propofal, ai lilteivifc fome others of G' ,'3 People in ihofe Farts. ;!- ■ lit of this/■rc/ucj is iiifcrtd in the /IfpivilUto thia

■'"'!"'" " ■ ■ Oh

23'3 -^t' 30*

neLlFK

of Mr. DavidBramefd;

OnTucftJgy-Morning that Week (I beiog abfent on a JoUM flcy) he prayed with my Family ; but not without niuc|| I>iffiCLiIty, for want of bodily iJtrength : And this wa& the IjW Family-Pxayer that ever he made.

He had been wont, '(ill now* frequently to ride out, two of thre« Miles j Hut this Weelc^ on ThuiMay, wis the hftTimt be ever did i<s,^ '

Lord's-Day, jfug* 33. Thi5 Morning, I was confiiIcrabf)» fcfrelh'd wilh the Thought, yea, the Hope and Expectation Qf [the Enlargeminiof Christ's Kingdom ;^ and 1 could not bill :hope, the Time was at Hand^when^fl^yM the great would/dl^, and rijt no murt : This led me to fomc rpiritu^l Meditatiom, that were very refrefliihg Id me. I Mvas vtiahle to attend ptih^ lick Worfhip, cither Partol iln: Dsiy ; but God was pleafed ta affuril nic I'ixcdiitfa and Katisreitwn m divine Thoughrs. No-* ihinj; To lefteHie^ my Soul, as when I can ^^/a God, yea, ti God tf!j ixcuMng Joy. When he is fo, fenfibly, to my Soul, Oh, how unfpeakably delightfLl is thii !

In the Week paft, I had divers Turns of inward Rcfrefhing; [ tho'my Bciciy was iiicxpsefltbly weak, followed coniinually with Agues and Fcveia. Sometimes my Sflul eenter'd in GoDp as my onlyPsrtifio j and [ felt thatlfliould be forever unhappy,; if he did not rti^n : \ faw the Sweetneis andHappinefs gf being ^hli PubjcS, at hh Difpol'al : This made all my Difiicultie* (quickly vanilh,

From thisLord's-Day,^;^. Aug,\'^l was troubled very much with vapoury DifordcfS, and could neither write nor read, and could fcarcely live j altho' through Mercy, was not fo mucli opprcfs'd with heavy Melaocboly and GJoominefe, as ac many other Times*

[ 'Till this Week he had been wont to lodge in a Room above Stairs; but he now grew fo weak, (bathe was iio loiiger able to go up Stairs and down; P'riday jfj^^. 28. was the laif-TJme he ever went above Staire, henceforward he herook hlra-felf 10 a lower Room. '

On WcfJiicfday* Sepimhir j» Being the Day of our publicfe I I^ifiurcjhe fcem'd to be refrefh'd with feeing thcNeighbouring Minifterathat came hi [her to the Leaure,and exprcfa'd a great Defire once more tn go to thcHoufc of God on thaiDay : And accordingly rode tothe Meeting, ifid attended divine Service, while theRev. Mr, ^psitrfn/f^tif ii?fl/;&^pre&cl3*d, He fignified

filial

ibat he fuppofed it «o t'l-d Hicpublick WoilhJp i\yc [.lit Time O.T the

be the iaft Time that ever he fliould iit-,

it proved. And indeed it was

Time that ever he went out at our oa

iiliVC

sl'turlv".Evening ncjct following, he was un.xpca-

S:x-r^i»::-^^^^^^

I^ Brother br.u,h. him I...0. h. .--..Wr..u,v^ 1 -^ ;/.r>^ ^ud particularly his Diary thai he had Upt Iw nmnjr

T,.rd's-D.y, S.pub. I began to ,e.d f™a of n,,-pnvat.

Uv rcfrcfli'd wiih what I mci wicli in ilicm. -IWondav Si? . 7- I proceeded f.= ili« in («; iiig mj "M P""

lt%'.^hi.hwithout W,u,„,h.c=nc.uuc^

Th^s EvtiiisiE.when 1 Was iji great IJiltjiH ol o«'yi '"?,

thing for ^°^' ^'tll; E™.W. havin, now ^it. mnoh D='.bera.icn c^nfider-

j

yjf LI r E

honouriblo CooiuiiJtionere in Btjliia, of thtCorporatftjn m: Aufor (he PropagaiioD of the Gofpel in Nnu-EvglemI Farts aJjacent, ma. [he fixing uprai and recommending Iwu feifbris properta bei improved as Miffionarics to ihejw Niu[ (Mill, he about (his Timr wfote a Letter, rmommendlng IWH young Genllemen of his Acqujintance to tliofe UonmiiffionHlJ viz. Ml. Elihx Spesiir of Eafi-Badiam, and Mr. Jaf StrM of NsrIbsMptsn. The Coramiflionei! on the Keceipt of tliisLoS .ter, clicerfully and tinanimouHj'agreed lo accept of and etnplffl J tbePerfons he hii reconimnided : Who accordingly have fill waited on the Cominiffioncrs to receive their Inflruaions ; V— fiuffuant (o iheif Iniiruaions, have ipplied ihEmfeives to a im paration for the Bufinefs of tbtir Miflion, in the Manner n which they direfled them; and one of them, mis. Mr, Spmitr, hia been (i.icnin])' orilriiiicrl to Ijiai Work, byfcveraiof thelWi-Eificts u( llijhu, ill tl« I'rcfcncc of an licclefiaftical Couticij convcnc.l for tliatf cirpofe ; and is now gone forth to the Nation ' cf ihe Omdaes^ about 170 Miles beyond jllitBaf.

He alfothis Weeli, ws. on Weinefday, Sipiimi, 16. Wfofs , a Letter to a particular Gentleman in ksflux { one of tbofa charitable I'erfons forementionM, who appcar'd fo forward to coniribule of t'leir Bubffaiice for ibc promoting Chrifflanity a- ■ laofig lile Indians ) relating to tbeGromh of tbe /tiJriinSchoo!, and the Need of another Schaol-Maftet or ftmc Ferfon to afliS the School-Maftcr in iBftruaing the AA'as Children. Theft Gclitlemen, on iiie Receipt of this Letter, had a iWeetin?,and' agreed with greatChearfulncfs to give 200 Pounifs ( in Bills, of (he old Tenor ) for the Support of another School-Mailer; and defired tiie Rfv. Mr. Pemkrtiu of Mmr-nri ( who was then at Bs/im, and wasalfo, at tiicir Defire, prefent at their Meet-itlgj as foon as pofTible to procure a fuitable Perfoo for thatScr-vice ;^ and alfo agreed to allow JS i'ounds to defray fome fpsr cialCharjes, that were retjuifite to encourage the Mifiion to the Six Nmims (bcfiites the Salary allowed by the Commiffia-ners ) whicli was alfo done on fome Intimations given by JVlr, Bn insfd.

Mr. Braiatrd fpenl himfelf much in writing (hofe Letters, being exceeding weak : But it feem'd to be much to his Satis-faflion, that be had been enabled to doit ; hoping ibat it was fomctbingdone for Goo, and wiiich might be for the advancement of Christ's JCtngdom and Glory. In writin» the lali of ihefe Letters, be was oblijrcd to life tlie Hmd of "another, not being atiie to vfrite himfelf.

. On

c/JWr. David Brainerf; A, R ly*?' *^

•..thcTburfdayoE to Week {i^puf- ^V) ™^= "'|'"^J

...hat ever he went out of his Lodeins Room, i l-at

..Cbe ™:;a!l°^.eJ by his Bother ^"';^-^j^ ;^" ^

Z)r>.r / Atld^ftomTime '"Time,-t.l>= l=v^'jSt,p '.nd new S,.,{,pto=n. of the fenbble APP™'" 0 J "f ; ^ t ' Uat-f„ far from beiog funk "'■'^l'"''f' ' ''"Ij" ', „ ApP-^^ance. eJ, and made morecliearful; as 1^^' ''|''™;,t, .,j; „,, v^lien

...d minutely givin, Dj^f ™;™X , w Jead. And

knfol}, t,di, i and 'P''''^'" " leave the Body, only 1° B« "<1 '■iraS;V"rro';.oHTrr:4:o;^'«-Jutan'd Advance-

a lit.le.myTho't. turned tb.s ; Hm »>' f/™ ^^j '„ „„ Gcd, andh,.af« hm I Up""Jj^;' J "To wUray'^hole

Soul i»-=f« ?;£;/u t-l^ch it was fuffiett^^ ag»in Csd,!i!a!iyM""'"'f!'-"' ' H„.unaninlfanty appwr'd

the blefied Robe, of '^"■''^'■^f'f'''>fZTnfi tcExcellency

of God, and my »onl «"' ,,-,.„;,,,,_ Heaven ; but in-

aantly theTho't returned, 'Z^'' f "™ ''hoVl'oneed,thac,

Godfhouldbe i;'""fi5'i°"f°s ,1 5i,^,Vfl;„rIc3Eed not Eternity,i(Godmi6htb= glonfi I BMyJm, ^ ^^^^

for: Tho'lwasthcn '"'^'^''^''^l'/,!:,! nilefe, as long as' willing .0 ,l.if,ff i" '^»' Sta e ''^^'^^^^':^,,,i retny he pleafed I (bould eont.nue m it, J lie t. If ^^^^^

ni LIFE

fw*et, and I longed to lod^c my weary Bones mit: But C that God might be glsrjjttd I tliis was the J3uriien of a][ liiyC Oh, ] kii::w, I (hould be a^ht as flii Angel, in Heaven j _ that J flinuld hi ftrip'd of my fillhyGarmsait / So that there w;l(

TiO Objedtion — But Oh, to Itt^t -iuiprmfe Ged more, ttl

ffha/e him for ever I This jiiy Ijoal panted after, atld even nawl pants for while I write. Ob. thai Co^niight be ^/mjfi-J in tht whole Earth. Lard, In thy Khgdtm amt. I longed for a Spi-lit oi Fnaihingia dercend.atjtj relt onj^iBi/^^rj,that they might addrefs tire Cojifcieiices of Men with Clofeircfs and Power. | faw, God had the rffidui cf thp ipirit j and my Soul Jtjiiged it {hotiMhtpoured frsm ankigb. 1 could not but plead with Goil for my dear CsTtgnj^atm, (hat he wDuhl prefei vc it, and not tuStr.hiigrtctlNami to lole il's Ciliirv in that Worfcj MySoul ftillionginij, that fc'orfniij^ht bt gturifiiii,

[ The extraordinary Frame, that he tvas in, that Evr!ning, could not be hid; hi; Aditiih fpaii tut nf iht Mimiamc of htt ^iffTfr, cXprcfling in 3 very affei^ing Manner much the fam* Things as arc written in his Diary: And among very many other (XlraotdinaryExpreJIions, which be then uttered, were fuch as ihefe; " My Biavnt is lo phafi God, sniglsrifyb'u::, *' at^d give all to him, anti to be whoiiy devoted to his Glory ; " that is the Heaven E long for ; that is my Riiishn, and <f that is roy /?a;S^i'M/r ; and always was ever ftnce J fuppofe " I had any true ficligion ; and all ihofe that ate of ihiit Kc-

" liginn, (iall meet mi in Heaven ■ [ don't go to Heaven

I " to be advanced,but to give Honour toGod. 'Tis noMattep ," where Iftail be (htion'd in Heaven, whether I have a high I" or a low Seat rherc ; but. to love and ploafe and glorify Goil ■' is ;d I : Had I a Thufsytd Sauh, if £hey were wortir aiiy ■' Thinu, 1 would give 'email ro God ; but 1 have noiijing ** to give, when all is done. -— U IshnpuiTible for anv ralinnaf " Creature to he ij^;.y without ailing all/or Gsa'.' God hirrt-

'* ftif could i^et make hinj happy any other Way, 1 long

*^ to be in Hearen, prar/rng and ^/Dft^Vuir Goo with the holy

'* Angels : All my D..-fire is ro sl"lfy Gob. ~ My Heart ■

(" g"e< out to the Suryii:g Finn ; ii feems to me a ili/smili ** Place : but Oh to ^hrify GoD ; that is it ; that is abovs

«> all 'Tis a peal Comfort tome, lo think, that I have

,'' dotie a littlc/jr God in the World : Oh ! 'tis but a turj '• /mall Matter] ytjt I hmf done a little; af.d ! lament it, ,?' that I have not iJoiie ipsri forliiin.-^—Thcje it nothing

,i in the World worth living for, but Mr,^ G.id, :.^i frnMr-lS .< G,<r, tr^'i, doing theWork that Cir;/; d,d I fee nothing " elfeinlheWorld, that can yield any Satisfaaion, befiie. " IMm is God, */«>? kirn, and d^ing Ins whoIilVM.--—-. » Mvieatettjoy and Comfort t.r i«., to do fomethmg or <. pro-noting thdmerefl of Religion and theSouls of part.cu at .' Perfons ; And ««r, in my lUnefe, while 1 am full of Pa.n .. and Diiheft, from Day <o Day, all the Comfort have, is " nbdng able to do foote littlo Ch.,, [ o, fmal Piece o. « Work] for God ; either by^ fomething that t fay, ol by *' writimr or ftmit: utbflr Way,"

H i "fr'niingled with thefc and other like E«prelKonvnany mtheltcal Co.M, to Ihofe that wete abont htm ; parttcilatly. i my Ct^ildren and Servants. He applied htmrdl to fome of myyLnger Children a. this Titne ; ca hng them to htm and foLtin.to 'em one by one V fetting before them, in 1 very pi n Manner, the N.ture and Effence of true Piety and its Cat Importance and Necellily ; ■^^'"'< I? ^"■''"g'f','" f' ^o reS in any Thin^ (hort of that trne and thorough Change of Heart and a Life devoted toCiod , """''^■"-E *™ »"day "act in the great Bufinefs of Religion,nor in the Icaft to delay " enf„rci,?g his Counfd* with this that his Words were ,h. Words of a d,«gAia^ : Said U, " Hhall d^ here.aud here I. " (han b= bu'ried, and here yon will fee "7 Grave^nd o jou j .. remeBiber what I have faid to you. -"" f-°""'f'f'"''l: " And'tisfweetto me to think of ttermly ; the Endiefocfe « of it makes it fweeti But Oh, wbatfhall I fay to theLtet-" nitvofthefflcWi' 1 can't mention it,iior think of it. llie .. Tl ought is too dreadful. When you f=e triy Grave, then " remember what I faid loyoiJ while I was ahve i then think .. with vour felf, how ihativlan, that lies in that Grave, couil-" feli'd ind watncd me to picpare for Death. .

Zb^, f«»^d to bo marvellouily "'"gthen'd, hrough the i wa dVigour aodRefrefhment of h sMtti ; fo •h^'.^l'h"'' before be waffo weak that he co«ld hardly titter a Santennc y now he contimrcd his moft affeain^ and profitableDifcourfc 0 us for more than an Hour, wi.h fcarcc »"/I"''™f ^^ and faid of it, when he had done, .< «,« Ih. laji Sirman that

""TCs^rtrliTdr:ty Frame of Mind cominurf tli. nextDay :

of which he fays in his Dit'i a» follows,] f„„i,,,

Lord's-D.y S./-*. M. Wa, iliU ma weet and comfortab^

Frame; a ad was again mdti^d •«^^ Def,;e= that Gcd might

,^

2t4 S^' so-

ire; LIFE

f be ghrifiidfiai wi(h Loggings to lore and live to him. Longi for the Influsnces of the difine Spirit to defcend onMm/Jiri, 9 fpecial Manner, And Oli, I longed to be with God, to *»■ iM ill Glory, and to bow in his Prcfcnce !

[ It appears by what is noted in his Dkrf, both of thisDaj-, and (Ik Evening piececding, (Ijat his Mind at this Time wai raucb imprEfs'd with 3 SiDfe of the Importmce of tfic Work ol the M'al/Irf,a,6 the NeciJ nfthe Grace of Ciod, and his fiiccia! fpsritual Affittancc in this Work : And ft alfo appeat'd in what iic exprtfTcd in Comeriilion ; particulaily iii his IJifcoutfc K his Brother J/rai/, wllo mas (lira a Memijer of raU-CsUigt al NtK'Ha^£Ji, and had been jirofecuting his Studies and acade--

j mical Excrcifes there, to that End, (hat he raight he fitted fop the Work of the Minittry, and was now with htm.» He now, •nd from Time to Time, in this hii dyins State, tecoEn mended to his Jtrothcr, a Life of Sell -denial, of VVcaiicdncfs from the World, and Ueiotedntfs 10 God, and an earnctt Endeavour to obtain much of the Grace of God's Spirit, and God's gracltus InfiuEnces on his Heart ; reprefsnting the great Need which Minifters ftind in of them, and the unfpcakahle Benefit of theitl from his own Experience, Among many other Expref-fions, he raid thus i " Wlien Miniitm feel thefe fpccial 01a-« ciouB Influences on their Hearts, it wonderfully afTirts than " to come at the Confcicnces of Men,and as it ifete to hmi]z " thcra withHands i whereas, without them,whateverRcafen " and Oratory we make ufc of,We do but make ufe aSSiuiKM, '* inflead of Hands.*'}

; Monday,. ff</li. at, i hegan to correfl a llflie Volume of

■ my private VVritings : God, i believe, reniarjcably helped me in it; my Strength was furprralngly lenglben'd out, and my

jThoiif his tjuick anil lively, and my Soul Jefrefli'd, hoping it might be a Work ibr Uon. Oh, how good, how fwcct it'ls,

■ to labour for GoK I

' This yonng Gentleman was an ingcnious,ferious,fiudioU3 and hopefully truly pious ferton : There appeared in him many (iualities giving Hope of his being a great BIcffing inhis Day. But it has pleafed God, flncc the Death of hll Bnibir, to take tim away alfo. He died that Winter, at NiwHaiiin, on Jan. 6. 1747,3, of a nervous Fever, after about a fortiiight's lUneft.

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c/JW)-. David BraititttJ. A.t).i7+7, iq

Tuefday, Sspt. ii. Was again etBpIoycd in reading ani coneaing, and bad the fame Succefs, as the Day before. I was exceeding weak; but it feejn'd to refreih my Soul, thus to

'^VednTfiay, Sept. 13. I fioidi'd my Correaions of the littlo Kecc foremention'd.and felt uncommonly peaceful ; It fecm d as if I had now done all my Work in tliis World ,and flood ready for my Call to a better. As long as I fee any Thing to be done for God, Life is worth having : But Oh,how vamand unwor-l

thy 'tis, to hve for any lower End I Th,» Day t ini.ted

a Letter, I think, of great Importance, to the Rev. Mr. B,ram in Niw-ltrki ■- Oh that God would blefs and fuccecd IhatLet-ter which vias written for theBtnefic of hisCburch I * Ol) that, God would tvih ll" ^»"'"/ Levi, that his Glory may be ad-

^,a^ccd I This Night, I endured a dreadfol Turn, wherein

inv Life was expetted Scarce an Hour or Minute together. But Lilefled be God, 1 have enjoyed confiderable Sweetnefs Jn divnic Things, this Week, both by Night and Day,

Thurfday, Sm. 24. My Strength began to fail exceedingly i which look'd further as if I had done all my Work : However 1 had Strength to fold and fuperfcribe my Letter. About two I went (0 Bed, being weak and much difordered, and lay in a burning Fever 'till tSTight, without any proper Reft. In the Fveuiog, I KOt up,baving lain down mfooie ofmyCIoallls; but was inthegreateftBiftrefsJhat ever I endured, having an utl-common Kind of Hiccough ; which either ftraogled me, or threw me into aSliaining to vomit; and at the fame Time was dilhefe'd with griping fains. .Oh,!he Diftreft of tbisEvening I 1 had htileEspeaation of my living tlic Night through, nor ) indeed had any about me : and 1 longed lor the fcA'Jif Mo-

,„„, I I was obliged to repair to.Bed by 6 o Clock ;

and thio' i^lercytlijoyedromeRcft; but was gnevoully dif-

ItelVJ at Turns with the HIceough -. Mj Saul breath d

after God, while the Watcher wss with me:~mmpall I ami to G,i, asm U Gcd, ray txlltding JsfF Oh fir ki U'Jf!4

' Friday, Sipi. 25. This Day, I was unfpcakably weak, and, lillle better than bpeechlcfs all the Djy : Howe-er, I was able

It was concerning tbeQiialificatipns of Mimflin, and Ihe Examination and Licenl'mg of Caniidsm for ibe Woik of the Miniilry.

3JeLlFE

10 write a Irttls, and fdf comfoita!)!)' in foine Part oF (be Dty, Of], it refrcflictl roy Soul, !o tliiiit of former Tilings, oiDcfitit to gbriii God, of the Pleafurea of living to iiim I Oh my it/iA

J Gff?, 7 flm fpiidily amiTig is theSj 1 hspe ! Ha/icn ihe Day^ OLor^A 7/it ii tbs ilefftHt'ill; Oh tcmi. Lord Jifiil, etmt quickly. Arntn- *

Saturday, Sipt, :zS. Ifelt the Sweetnefs of divine Tliiogt tiiis Forenoon; and had ttie Confolation of a Coilfcioufilcra thr Iwas doing fomElhing for God-

,' Lord's-IJay, Sipl. 27, Tiiis was a very comfortable ] to nij Soul i I think, i imKi! will' Gid, I was enabled to tii up my Seal la God, eaily ttiis Morning ; and wbilo I bad littT bodily Strength, 1 found Freedom to lift up my Heart to Ga,

jfor my fclf and others. Afterwards,w»s pleafed with (beThuugbS ofrpeedily cntring into the unfern World.

[ tirlyrhit Moriiiiifr, as iNicof the family canic into (is Room, be cufrcfs'J liiirlfelf llius : 1 kave had man Pleafurc Ml,

lAlsrnia^, thun all tin Dnttk^xis in Ihs WerU enjey, if it witl-

/ill txtrailid I "— £0 much did he efleein tiie J^ sf Failih

above Ibc Pltofttrti of Si:i.

He fslr, that Morning, an unofaa! Appetite to Food ; with, which his Mind fecm'd to be txiilaralid, as looking on it aSign tit (be very near Approach of Benth ; and fuid upon it, / U'^i hrn HI a Sabbatb-Day ; and 1 bavi Riofan is thijji i vmi ntw-. hum m aSabbath-Day j iff 1 htpi IJ&all die on l*ir Sabbath-Day ; IJbsuld ksi upaa it m aFasisur, if it muf ti tin Wilt of Gad that it fimid icfi ; J /stj^ far thi TImr. Ob, why is his Chariot To long in coining ? Why («rry the Wheels of h is Chariots > J am viry uuitiijig to part ■with all : 1 am ■millifi^ ta part with my dear

'iifBlAfrJohii, find niti^r ia fee him again, ts go la it farivtfwith thi]LoTd, t Oh, when j^olhtre, bmivitl Gad's iiar Church on Earth hi u^on my Mind I

* This was [he IsK ihat ever he wrote in his Diary wiih his own Hand : The' it is continued a little farther, in a broken MaiiiiL-i ; wrkttn by his Brother Ifratl, but icdiiej ^i^i bis Mouth in this bis weak and dying State.

\ Hehadjbefoiethis.sxprefs'd a Dcfirc, ifilmigbtbe the Will of Gad, to live 'tih his Brother returned from litw-Jtrfey: Who,wben he went away,intended,if pofTibie.la perform bis Journey and return in a Fortnight ; hoping once more to meet bis Brother in the Land of the Living. Tlie Fortnight was now near expired, it etiding the next Bay, Aftsrwatds

c/Mf. David BrainertJ." A.D.1747; a+f

Aftcrwds, the fame Mornine, being .fed, howhedidho

fZ )iZTfJh .llr^yFrlindt r '^11 it,l^-orUi,nolhi„,

m??l„.f!andperfca glorifying JnJ enjoying Gnd,mjnilcfted ofHobnrbanapenc S ' l^ ^.^ j (;^j,^j,„rM«/ iht

T"Tn'.f7nitrD.,>f 7«kntm, kadi 10.1 ^'-"to-Pay 4 Diatb, miti'i "^'1 J ^i , Time fpakc of his

"". , lTL.f sLp. lw„skdt,ltyfor iUp^r<'>e out of

nous Advancement of Chtdii.ng j, ^ ^„ a, Qii-

"""Ttl^t^fZl'd ilzl-riL Ti.. .ftU Ch.,tk,

,,, *.„.ti, »i.^" -"^^'^f ( 'p/;^J ?,;, Xt he Giould,

i„ H/ctv,. ('=<= ,Ir\:^f,L,ais i And .he Confideration of

M, alio ttill dwelt much on the gteatlmportance once ,

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had.fame Acquaintance with, and whofe fincere Fticndfiilp lit was cODfitlent of, that he might convctfe freely with them OS ihat Subjeft, before he died. And i( fo happened, thathohiij Opportunity with feme of them, accoiding io his Defirc.

Another,Thing that lay tnuch on hisHeart, and that he fpalcj of, from Time to Time, in, thcfe neat Approaches of Death) was the fpiritual Profperity of bij own Congregation ofChrifliia hdia!u\a i^iw-Jirfij/: and when he fjMkeofthem.it was with ^ pei:u!jar Tcnderncfs ; fo lisat his Speech would be piefenllj interrupted and drowned with Teats*

He alfo exprelTed much Satiafaflion in the Difpofals of Pia^ viiJencc, with Regard to the CircumftanMs of his Death ; pai-ticularly that God had before hi; Death given him the Opportunity he had had in Btfim, with fa many conriderablePerfont, (Miniflera ami oihern, to give in Im Ti/limny for God, and Hjailill (alfc Rtlipon, and many MiHaJtes that lead 10 it, atiit pioniotc it ; and there to lay before pions and charitable Gentlemen, the State of the/srfBjj, and theitNeceflities, to fo good Kifefl; and that God had fince given him Opponiinity m write to them further concerning thefc Affairs; and to write other LcLters of Importance, that he hoped might he of gooi Influence with Regard to the State of Religion among the Indi-mi, and elfewhere, after his Death. Heexprefs'd greaiThank-fubeft to God for his Mercy in tbcfo Things. Healfo mentioned it as what he accounted a merciful Circumftance of hia 'Death, that he ihould die hen \ , And ipeaJrmg of thefa Things,he (iiii,Gsd!iaiigrmudhim aSibhDefiri; and figniiitd, ihatnow he could with the greater Alacrity leave the World. ]

J The Editor takes Leave to makethe Remark, thai when, Mr. Bmincrd was at S'JIm, ficfc nigh unto Dtath, ' it was with Reludlauce he thought of dying in a I'lace, Ithcrc Fmsra/s are often attended with a Patnp & Siaui,, which [ efpeelally on Occafioli of his own ) he was very, . avcrfe to any Appearance of : And tho' it was with faniej • Difficulty he got his Mind jccondled to the Profpefl thw before him, yet at laft he was bro't to acqutefce in the; Divine Will, with Refpefl to tliis Circumftance of hiit Departure, However, it plea fed God to ordsr tbirEvent foil to gratify his /Jf/?.?, which he had exprefs'ii,, of. jgettrng back to Na'ticimptm,with 3 View particularly to; ■ ■ !rin(!ite Kent and privaie BurM, ;

Monday,

e/Mr. DSvid Btaroerf. A.D. 1747: s+Si

Monday, Sipt. Jg. I was able to lead, arid mske fotne few CotteaionlinmyprivateWritingSi but fo,,T.d I C"^'^ ""f write, as I had done; I found my telf fenhh y Jechned m all Eefoeas. llhas been only ftom a little while befote Noon. Sout one or two o'Clock, that I have been able to do any Thins, for ibiBe Tintopaft : Yet this relreth'J m, "«">. 'hat, , could do any Thine, "'l"" P''^«"^'= "' P'""'' "'" ' ^^' *'t Tte Ev-enlng, he was fuppo^'d to be dyin, : He tho'.^.. hiifelf, andwastho't !b by thofe «>>» »f "''™"^™r..,^ fe^'d glad Jt the Appearance of the near Approach of Death. HewasamoftSpeeehlef,,but his Lips appeat'd to move ; and rneTha. fat very'near him,beard h^nt.et Tuch Expreffions^

tbefe, c,», i..rjj.fuu ^';-*',7;;;i°''; ^,*Lmtd

SS i^'r'Si'nVh::^»::;. fot'g'ne. And'in eKpreffi^ 'Xthe foundTnthoFrameofhis Mit.d at .ha.T.me heM r .t „ <™,„J ,n inpinreffiblv ftveetLove to ihofc that he looit-l

made with hitn; bckW, n,, hhia^d ,ver, tf'rd <,nd M y

(hat eoirfH^nrdrmh'dill Htarl. r,„,„t m

On the EveniuE of the next Day, ««• Tuefd4y, Siptemb-n-

leede ' wi'H fome Freedom of Speech, togive htsdy.nECouti-fJstoiofe two youngGentlemen fore.,net>tioi.ed, re atmg to Ih i F«parafonL.\t.dFrorecu,iot. of that .P"'^-'! "' heSry they weU deftsned for ; and u, P>rt.cular arneftly re-iommended to 'em freqttent fecret Fafl,.e '"^.^'Z^^f^l ,„f™=d his Couniel with Regard ,0 'l^.'/™ ^ '7r^ftt-, I «„ of the great Comfort and Seneht oftt ; '"''.'f « ™ ""^^^ fe^Uld notLnliao, were it not thitl am a^;«J ?"&«• ^^

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after he had iiniflied Jiis Counf^I, he made a Prayer, in the AuJ fdicnce of uaall j wherein, belides praying for this Family, I his Uretiiren, and thofe Candidates tor the Miiiiftry, and foi^ liiiowLi Congregaiton, Jie carneftly prayed fof the reviving an4j fiourifbing of Religion in the WorJd,

'Till now, he had every Day fat tip Part of the Day ; after thi^, he nevet rofe from his BeJ. J

Wcdncfday, Sept* 30, 1 was obliged to keep my Bed ihi

whole Day,thro'Wcalcncfa. Howeverifcdecm'd a littleTiiT

and With the HeJp of my Brother, read and correiSed ab.

Do^en Pages in my M.S.givfng an Accounc of niy Converfioig;

Thurfday, Olisb. i. I endeavoured again to do fomeihing iy

Way of writing, but foon found my Powers of Body and Mind.

utterly faij. Felt not fu fwectty, as when I was able to ^tt

'fomething that J linped w^iilcJ do fume Good. In the Evenings

wan (Hfcon^ptifcd and whoily delirious $ but it was not long ht^

fore God was pleafed to give me fomeSieep, and fully compofed.

my Mind, f Oh, bleflcd be God for his great Goodnefa rome,

fines I was fo low at Mr. Brom^fld's, on Thurfday Jane xS Jaft

P&rt. He has, except tbofe few Minutes, given me theclear

. £;cercife oF myRcafon, and enabled me to labour much for hiva^^

'in Tilings both of a ptiblick and private Nature j and perhap

lo do more Good, thafi! fhould have done if I had been wel^j

befides the comfortable Irifiuences of his bleffed Spirit, witt^

Vifhich lie has been pkafed to refrefii my Soul- Ma^ hit Namffl

have aEI the Glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Friday, O^s^. i. My Soul was this Day, at Turns, {weetlyA fetonGcD : 1 longed to be vjkh bim, that I might bsb6lii hitj,^ Glsry. 1 felt fweedy difpofed tocortimit all tu hfm, even my deareft Fiieiids, my deareft Flqck, and my abfent Bforher, and all mv Coticerna for Time and Eternity, Qh that hiiKhgdam might come ir> the World ; that they might all fove andgloiii"^ Jiim, for wh^the isin himfilf ^ aiid that the hlcfled Redeerr>ef might/« $f thf Travaii ef hit Seui, and h£ fdfiijxtd^ Ola, cotm, JL^fdysfus^ corns quickly. Amen. *

f From ihiaTimEforward^ be had the freeUfe ofbisRea- ■ fon *til| the D^y before hJsDeath j excepting thatat fome- [ times be appeared a Hrtls Joft for a Moment,at firH waking OUT of Sltcp.

** Here ends bis Dkr^ : Tbefe are the /d/? Wcrds^ that ara written in it, cither by bis own Han^> or hy any other

e/M". DsVtdBrainerd. A.D. 1747. »^*'

[ JheP«tS^enmg ^^ j^^^^^^^, ^ Wcck after tb.T.mB 7.^. from ^7-^;/ It^ „rrjh7n he w.nt a^a^. And .h.'

«r<,r(™(l *«.- I^mwiltme lo tort w,lh all m, h,>n,l, . I .umZJlart wM r,y dmr B»Ii<r John ; M>' J hv, h<« ,

away ihi= my de.r Chiltl b, Dcj.h, on ths i+>.f Fiy-xji. !,Bt touting i if<« » "sort Illntft of five Days; ... iU=

'he b.ne Spirit with Mr. i!.™r</. f \'» , "„ W.1', tikt., Ure of,and tended hin, 10 h.lb.cltn. ..(« "}^'f'

beciufeflislaolt'd onhin. « »n cm. net be.vant... > fuTchrift. 1" tl,i.Tin,., he h.d much ConvcrfaUMn wi I. her on Things of Rdig.»n; and in h« dy.nst.«=, often .'paft'd .. S=,heTP.r.nts,hi. grc«S..isf.6^.o..concernuT h'r.rue Pitty, .nd his Co.rfdence that ,= n..uU m. h n Heaven , and hk high Opi,.io„ ,;fl>er. ...t o.. y . ,rue Cht,Ili.n, bt=, a very nnine.U b.,., 1 «"<;;" = Koulwai. uncotiimonly fed snd enter.....'d «"" J .""S ,h«appataintathe moK fpi"'"»''^''1'"''"'";''^-l'; nKuifhinsP-cs of Migion l ...H one «i...by helsmpet „f he M.nd «>= fitted to deny her fdl for C.od,.nd to do Good, beyond, any pnng Woman wh.ifoever (l^..t hsi

vpKd tn Gud, in Ihc totitfc of htrL.fe, m>ny ^'"''fo ^

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Bible in hsrHandjhe iexprefs'd hirhfelf thus ; Gh^hat dt&rBki thai hv/ly Bosk ! 1 /baiipan fu it fpen'ii ! The Myfitrits rAtfH are in it, and thi Myfleries of God's Prsvidince^ wiUheaiiuh-foldti f

Hh Diftemper now very apparently prey'don his Vitals maft^ cxiraordinaryMatinei i Not hy afudden b^eatiDg of i7/((f* in his Lungs,asat£fi'/?flWjbutby a conftantDifchargeofpuruIentlMEattcrfc, in greaiQu ant [ties : So that what he bro't up by ExpttSof ation fccm'd to be as it were Mouthfuls of almoft clear Fvj ; whid was attetitJed with very greai inward Pain and Uiftrers,

On Thurfday, OSJob. 6. Helay,for aconHdetable Time,a» if he were dying. At which Time, he waa heard to utter, in broken WhifperSi fiich Expieifioni bb thefe j Hg tt/ili csme^ hi ivUl not tarry,— (JhaHft^n i# inGkev,~' 1 /ball[saa gkrifyGsd withtiii An^itf,^— But ;ificr ftjine "I'imc he revived.

The next iJay, Tfr';E. Wedncf(lay,0^,)A. 7. Hia Brother yu.6» arrived, being rcturjieil tram ^ew-ysrfsy j where he ha^f been detained much longer than he intended, by a mortal Sicknefa prevailing among theChriftian iW/jJftjjand by fome atlierThings in their Circiimitancea that made his Stay wiih ihcm nccefTary. Mi-. Erninerd was affeiSed and refrefhM with feeinj; him, and apps^arcd fully faiisRed with the Rcafons of hla Delay ^ feeing the Intercft of Religion and of the Eoula of \\\t Peaplc required it.

The next Day, Thurfday,Q*f?j*. 8. He was in great Diflcefs and Agonies of Body ; and for the bigger Part of the Day, wag muchdifordered as to the Esercife of his Keafon. In theEven-jiig^ he was more cortipofcd, and had the Ufe of his Reafon Well i but the Fain of his Body continued and incrcafed. He told rac, it was impoflible for any to conceive of the Dillref;; he felt In his BreaQ. He manifefted much Concern left ho fbou^d diftjouontCaod hy ImpaiJcrce,under htR extremeAgony 5, which Was fuch, that he faid^tha Thought of enduring it one Minute longer was almoft infuppoctahlc. He dcfircd,ihat others would he much in lifting up their Hearts cnntinuglly to God for him, ihat God would fupporC him^ and i^ivc him Patience. He iig-

foreSicr Death; and faid on her Deatti-'Ued, t^iat Jbehsd mtftin ont Minuis far ftviral Ttar^f whirein p}t difirsi io fivi one Minute hnger^ far thi Jiiki f>f arif other Good in l.\fct hut (ioJis Goed^ living t9 Golf end dmg what tnigbt hi ^sf hit Gh^'jf-

cf Mr. David Br&inBidr A.P. 174,7.'' 'fjj

■fi ^ (Kat hEesnefted to die that Night ; but fctm'd (o faar rf:!; DcUy :^^^^^^^^^^^ ^'^H-on of hi. Mind .ith K.,«.. to Death appeared fiiU the f-mfi that it haa b«n alUIon^ MA nniw t&6 his bodily Agonies. y« the Imereft . /..«lay S^irwiZreat Weight on hi. Mind j as appeared by ^.n.c cnn-^2= DIfcomfe he h.d that Kvcnitig with the Rev. Mr, Sf cJoi the n.ir>^ouring MInlftcr, (who was then ^t, S ^oncernitig th. great Imparlance uf tho Work o^ the^l -I ^ Frf. And afterwards, when it WM very l«o m ihcN ifeht, hfh'^d rn^ch Je" r-'-^^^^'- l>H.;^"Mfo with h.«

Brother >.t c^^fce^nh^ hi. Con,re,.|ion '» ^-jW'/v:,; Ihe Intereft of Religion amoi)^ the Ind,af,f. la Hie !»»•' ^"J of the NiRht, his bodily Diltrefs fcemeJ to rife i^ » g «LDf HdilthaLver , andhef.id to thofe then .bout l'|-. «'>.t.»

Mi to mean that they wsre not awire vthit. bsdilypvn mann

rh,mint!!drbklbaEniptoymc.it=an(ll.njoyniun<.

M^hRfiKa wa. ftew .«hi. Memory" I", -^.r-*r-.^f „tol tf :r,h. Monday fon™m«, 'f'" f "^l".,';';*''

oi People.

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'Sme further REMAINS of the Re^ Mr. David Brainerd,

[I.] A ScBSME of a Diihgue between the variousPoEifi and j^fiSjsBj of the Mind, as they are found aJtq nattly whifpcringin iht godly Soul. [Mcntion'd in I' Dwry, Feb. 3. i;,j.4. ]

'• 'TT^HE Vni!r/landing introduced, (t) As di'fcovering it'a, I own Escelkncy, and Capacity of enjoying thenwft ■~ iiiblime Pleafure and Happinefs. (2) As oblirving Jt^s DcEre equal 10 it's Capacity, and incapable of ijcing fstisfi-ea With ailyTi)i(ig ihat Will not fill it in (heLimoflExtcnt 0/ ic's Exeicife. ( 3 ) As finding it felf 1 dependeot Thing, cot Self-fufficient i and confe^uently unable to fpin Happincfs ( as the Spider fpini ii's VVtb) ouc of it's own Bowels. This Sclf-fuffi-cicncy obfemd to be the Propeily ana i'retogitive of GOD alone, and not bslonging 10 any created Being. (4 J As in vain (celling fublime Picafure, Salisfaftion.and Happincfs ideqtiateta il's Nature, amoiigft created Ucings. The Search and Knuw-Itdge of ttie Tiuth in the natuii! Woild allowed indesd to be re-ftethillg to ibe Mind ; but (iill failing 10 afford compleat H;™-pinefs. (5) Asdifcovering ihc Excellency and Glory 0/ GOl), that he is the Fountain ot Goodnefs, and Well-Spring of Happincfs, and every Way fit to aufwer the enlarged Dehres andCrav-Ingsof our immortal Souls,

I. The Will inligduceii, as necelTarilv, yet freely cliufing ihiaCiOD for it's fupienic Happincfs and only Portion, ft;l.f camplyingwithitieUiidetftandinft'sDiaateSjacijuiefciogiiiGOD a.5the bdl Good, Iris Will a, ii,t beft Kuij for intelliper.i Creatures, and rejoicing thai GOD is in every Refpeft juft wbathc is j and withal chufiDg and delighting to be a dependent Crei-lure, alwajsfubjeatothisGOD.nol afpiiing afcerSelf-foaici-ency and Supretnacy, Iju ( gcquicffjc^ in ihc i:oilt»ry.

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3. Ariltnt iawor Difirt introduced, as paffionately lonsinR to pleafeind glorily the Divine Being, to be in every Kcfpedt conformed to him, and in that Way to enjoy liini. This I^ovo or Defire reprefented as molf genuine ; not induced by mean and mercenary Views; not primarily fpringing from felfilh Hopes of SaWalioli.whcreliy the divine Glories would he Sacrificed to the Idol Self ; not arifing from a n«vi(h Fear of Diviiio AngeiinCafeof Ncgkdt, nor yet liom Wopmof feeling ibc Eweetnefs of that tender and plcafanl Pafftnn of l.ovc in nnc'. ownBresft; but from ajultKiicem o( the briniteciui.( >lijr(l liolov-sd. This i.i/f further rcprcfcnlcd, J«; atlnido.l with vehement Longings after the Enjoymentof il'» Objeft, but uinblo toHlltl

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4. T\KVaiirfianditsi, again introduced,asinforining(i.)ilow God might have been enjoyed,yea.how he muft necefTarily have been enjoyed, had not Man fin'd againS him ; that as there waj Kmrahigi,Likeni!s,mi.Ij>wfa there mttfl needi beEnjoyraent, while there was no Impediment. (2,) How he may he ei.-itjved in fome Meafore Dovf. urK. by the fjmr kmwMi' 1"" Vettine Lika.h and i«/, which will be atifwet'd With Kolurn. of £cM. and the Smiles ol tJod'. Counteiuiiice, wllleh ltd belter than Life. ( 3. ) How God may lie prrletlly eil-joyed KK. by the Soul's pertedl hrcedimi front Sin. Hll. perfta Freedom never obtain'd 'till Death ; and thciv n..l by any unaccountable Means, or in any unhoard-of Manner ; hut the fame by which it has obiain'd fonioLilconcIs toandbruition of God in thisWorid, mx. a dear ManifeUalion of him.

e Hity Difin appears, and eiiqviitci why llle Soul iniy nut bepcrfeaiy holy ; and fo iie.ltdt in IheJCiijoynient oKJo.l heir j and estprefles molt infatiableThirdingi alter lutih a 1cm per,in J fuch Fruition, and moH confumtnate lileliediwts. .

6. n«dtr/lamiiiig again appears, and informB, that LiOd defigns that thofe whom he fanaifies in Part here, a''^'"""''^' for immortslGlory,fliall rarry a while in this prclent evil World, that Ihcir own Experience of Templationa Uf. may teath eltl how great the Deliverance is, which God hal wrouuhl for cm, that they maybe fwallowcd up in 1"hinlc(ulncf> and Adniira-lion toEsernity ; as alfo that they may be iiiitfuineilial ol doing Good to their Fellow-Men. Now if they were perfeSly holy Wi. a World of Sin would net be « fit Ihibltntion for them ■ and further,ruch M anifeKiilio!" of ti ud as are nectflary compieatly to fanaify the SonI, wuuld be iiirupportablc to the Body, fo that we can't fii Gii mi livi,

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7 Jjfcly Iffipaiiffiif ism'Kl introduced,compUining of ificfill ssn-J Sorrows of Life, and aimoft repining at the Diftancc of-.Stale of Perfedtionj Lneafi'to fee and feel the Hours hanp, dul] and hesvy, and almoit concluding that the Temptatloini Hard^hipE^ Difappoincmentsjniperfeiaion-^, and (ediousEmpIoy-rnenis of Life will ntvcr come lo a happy i'eriod.

8. TtTidir Cunjcitnci comes in, an^ meekly reproves tho Compiainta of 7m^i3nVnfe j urging how careful and watchful wa nughi (D he^ Irft wc iliould offend the divine Being with Com* plaints i alledgirig alfo ihe Fitnefs of tjur waiting pacienily upaa God for all we want, and that in a Way of doing and I'ufferingi and at tlip fameTime mentioning the Barrennefsof the Soul, how much precious Time it mifimproVcd, and how little it hai enjoyed of God, compared with what it might have done ; ai shu fuggtfiiii^ Iinw JrcijucjillK impatient Complaints fpring Jtom nothing better ihnn ^ctf-love, want of Refignatlonj and Q greater Reverence of she Divine LJeing.

g, Jjufsmmt or/$afid Mind ntTit a^ii^ats^ End duly weigbS' the Complaints of Jr/ipfjli/nce, and the gcntls Admoniliana o| Under C^rtfdiTice, and impanially dctetmincs between 'em. On the ctfie hand, ft conciudes^ ihat we may always ht impatient wiifi Sin ; and fuppofe^, that we may alfoivith fuch Sprrow, Pair* and DifcGuragcmert, as hinder our Furfuji of Holluefs, tho' they arlfe from [he wcalcnefsof Nature, It allows ns to be impatient of the Diftance at which Wfi itand from a State of PerfeSic^n and BIcirednefs. It further indulge* Imppiience at the Delay of Time, when we dcfire the Period of it for no other End than that we may with Angels he employed itj the nioft lively fpiritual A^s of Devotion, and in giving all pofHble Glory ro him th^t lives forever. Tenspiations and finfullm-per/ei^ions, it thinks we may jultly be uneafy with j and Dif-isppcintments, at Icaft shufe that relate to our Hopes of Communion will? God, artd growing Conformity to him. And as to the tedious Employments and Hardfiiips of Life, it fuppofes fome Longing for the End of *cm not intonfiftent with a vSpiric of Eaithfulnefs, and a cliearful Difpofition to perform the one and endure tht otiier : It fuppofcs, that ^ faithful Servant, who fully dcfigns to do all he poiTibly can* may iiilt juftly Jong for the Evening; ar;d that noriitionalMan would blame hrs kind and lender Spoufejf he perceived her longing to be with him,while jetFaithftilncfs &Duty to him might ftill induce her to } jeidjfor the prefents to remain at a painful Difiance from him.— On the other Handjit 3pprovt;3 yf theQaution, Care and Waichful

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T\iUoi ttndif Cinfdit!ce,\t^ thcDivinc Bemgfbould he ofFcnded with hnpatient Complaints : \i acknowledges the Fitnefs of one Tvsitjttgupsn Gady in a Way of patient dojng and fufFsring ; But fuDpoffls this very confiftenr with ardent Defires tu f/^p/irt andia he with ChriJ> [towns it fit thsi we fhculd always jt:mcmbeE ouroWd Barrennefs,aiid thinks alfo th:it we fhould be lmp.if!i:nt of it, and confsquently long tor a Stare of Fictdom fiom it ; End this, not fo much that we may feci the Hiippincfii of it, bnt that God may have the Glury. It granti, (hut impattciit Com-phinta often fpring from Self-love, imdWjni of Refii'.naliiniand Humility. Such as ihcfc it difapprrji^cB i and ilclctniiriti, w« iliould be impatient only of Abfcncc (romGoil,,^: Ilin.intAfroiii that State and Temper wherein we may moHglorlly him.

TO. Gufily Seff^BW introduced^ as makii^gher fad Moan, not fo much that fbe is kept from the free i^ofleiEon and fuli Enjoyment of Happiiicfs, but that God mtifV he difhonoured ; ihfl Saul being {till in a World of Siu, and ilfcif imperfetS. She hercj with Grief, counts ov^rpalt Faults,prcfcni'J'cmptatiDnE, and Fears for the future.

ji, Hope or h/y Ccn^-^^wfit appears, and fccmii pPtfwaLlof) that uothing /hall xvcr ftparati tbi Houi fern tht i.ivt tf OU iii Cbrijf Jefus. It cxpeiiits divine Afliftanct: and Grace hiflicicnt far all the doing and fuffering-Work of Time, and that J)eath wilt ere long put a happy Period to all Sin and Sorrow i and ib takes Occafion to tejoyce.

11. Godlf Ftar^nx holy Jealaufy here ftcps in, and fuggcfls fome timorous Apprchenfions of the D.ingtr of Occ«?plion ; nientiona the DeCfiitfuinefs of thu Hearty tlicgrca* Influence of irregular Self Love in a fallen CreaiuTO ; enquires wlicthtr it fetf is not likely to have fallen 'v\ with Delufion, lince the Mind is fo dark, and folitrle of GODttppears to the Soul j and queries whether all it's Hopes of peilevering Grace mayn*tbePre-fumption, and whether it'& confident Expectations of nieeting Death as a Friend, mayn*t iffuo in Difappointment.

13. Hereupon, ^{7??(f7i(!n appears, and minds ihc PcrfoD of his paft Experiences j as to thu preparaiory Work of Coiividii-on and Humiliation ; TheVittwhclluen hat! of the ImpufTiljility of Salvation,from hjmfetf, or atty creaicdArm : ThcManifeffa-tion he has liJcewife had of the Glory oi GOD in Jifm Ch7iJ} : How he then admired that Glory, &nd chofc that (jOD forhk only Portion, becaufe of the IS-^xcclloncy and Amiablenefs hedif-covered in him ; not from flavifh Fear of being dJimned, if he did not, nor from bjfr and mercenai y Hopes of faving hlmfelf; I. i a bnt

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but from a j uft Eftecm of that bcautcoHS and glorious Objc£l \ As alfo how he had ftum Time toTime rejoyced and acoTiiefccJ jn GOD, for what he is in hinifelf j being delighledj th,it he it infinite in Holiiiefsj Jurtice* Power^ Sovereignty, as well aa in Mercy, Goodnefs and Lave : How be has likewife , Scores of Times, felt his SoulmouEii for Sin, for this very Rcafon^becaufo it is contrary and grievous to GOI3 ; yea,how he has mourheJ over one vain and impertinent Thought^ when he haj been fa far from Fegrof iJie divine vindnSive Wrath for it, that on tha cutttr^ry he hasenjdjed the higheft AfTurance dI the divine eve^l Jafting Love ; How heliss, from Time to Time j delighted .in (he Commands af Godj for their own Purity and Perfeftion, and longed exceedingly to br conformed to 'em,and even lo.b? holy at GOD ithtiy ; and counted it prefent Heaven, to be of a heavenly Temper : Huw hclws frequently rejoyced^to ihinJc of being for ever fubJcfS to, & dcpcj^ident tin GOD i account-, jug it iofinitciy greater Happijiefs to glorify God in a State q£ Subjaflion lOj and DepeDdence on him, than to be a g^^^^ hini^ hlf i and how Heaven it felf would be no Heaven to hinijif h<i could 113C there be evcryThJng thacGOD would have him he. i'4. Upon this, Spiritual Stnjathn being awaked^ coreies in^ and declares that She now fetis & iajhs that iheLord is ^rachuii that he is the only fuprcme Good, the only Soul-faij^lyiiig Hap-pintis ; th^t he is aconiplcat, felf-fuffident, and almighty Por-ttfin. She whjfpers, Whsmhave lin Hesven but this GOD^ this dear and blelTedPorcion j and then I'j nsae upen Earth I defire belides iiim. Oh,'ti^Heaven^to pleafe him and to hejiift what lie would have me be ! O that mySoKl vitir^hily^enGidh holy : O Eha! ir was pure, as Chrijf if pure i and pirfiS? as my Father m Hcavsn ispsffiil. Thefc are the fweeteft Coniniajids in Clod's. Kook, comprif.ing -kW others j and fliali I break 'cm F Muft I break 'ein ? Am 1 under a faiaJ Neceffity of it, as long as i livis inthisW^rld? Oh aiy Soul! Wo, Wo is me, that \ am a; Sinner ! Becaufe I now neceflkriJy grieve and dFetld this Welled (:?OD, who is jnli/iitcin Goodnefs and Grace. Oh,nnethinks, ftiouJd he punifi) mc for myfiins, it wuuld nOt wound mylieart io deep to offend him ; Bat, tho' I fin continually, he continu-. ally repeats his Kifldnefg towards me I Oh* meihinksl could: bear any Suffjring; butliovvcan I.bcar to grieve and dilhanour. this bIciTed God [ Htjw fhali 1 give ten Thoufand Times more Honour to hijii ? What fhali 1 do, to glorify and worlhip thia bef^pf Rcings? O that i coujd conlecratemy Tdf^SouI andBody, to his Service for ever. O liiat I cuuld give up my kU m him,.

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fo as never more to aftempl tube m^ own, oc fo have anyWill or Alfeftjons (hat are not perfEflly conformed tohii. But Oh, Alas, Alas I 1 can'!, I feel I can'l, be thus etltirriy devoted to GOD : I can't live and fin not. O yeAji/j.do ye glorify hint^ jnccffanlly : If poffibfe,eJrcrt your felves ftill more, itimorehvo-ly and ardent Devotion : If poffible, proftrate your fdves ftili lowtr before the Throne of the bielTed King of HeaMn ; I loog to bear a Part with you, and if it were pofflhle, to help you. Yut when wc have done, we (hall rot be able to offer the (etl ThoufaniJth Part of the Homage he is wofthy of. While fpirl-tua! Siafatim whifpered ihefe Things, Fmr and Jielmfy weie sreatly overcome ; and the Soul replied, iievi !iiiiw,and am ef/hrtJ, kc. and again it welcom'd Death as a Friend, faying, b Dtalhtwiirththy Sthg,Sa.':. , , ,,

jc. Unaliy, H'k JJi/i/nn™ concludes the Difcourfe, fixedly determining \i Mlrai MrdiifiirCOB,ini continually 10 putfue a Life of Conformity to him, And the better to purCue thiF,jn-ioining it on (be Soul always lo remember, IbalCjOD is the only fource of Happinefs, that his Will ,s the only Rule of Riai-tiitm an intelligent Creature, that Ear lb has nothing in it drftable foi it felf.oi any further than UOD is feeti in il ; and that the Knowledge of God in Chriff, begetting and maintain-incLove, and mortifying fenfual and Eefhiy Appeiites, is the Way to be holy on Earth,; and fo to be altempeted Io the com-pieat Holinefs of the heavenly World.

ril 1 Some i^wffly and iefponiing Thougbts of a Sou! ' under Comiaims if SiUt and Concern for it^a eternal Salvation.

I I Believe, my Cafe is>^ulai-, that none ever had fo many i ftrange and diffstent Thoughls and Feelings as I. 2 I have been concein'd Hiuch Isigtr than many «/j(rr, that I havt known or tcad of, who have been favingly imtrnd, and

vet I am left. . , , _ j

3- I have loiii/lMii the Power of CsOTrflisw s longTmc.antI

th£tcforeIfear,Iftiallbefinallyle(tofOoD.

4. 1 never Jhallbeconvclted, wilhout/7«ifffr Convittions,

and rrMKi-Tirrsi-J of Confcience. rri.- rj .r,J

''- ■ ■--^- atihcG/tryofGoDmanj-Tbingliio, and

5, I don't aim ikctefore I can'l hope for Meri;y.

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6, idon'i TcetJie Evil Nature o!Sin, nor the Sin of myiM* ' ijurt i and tlierefof e 1 am diicouraged,

7. Tile laorel^rim, the moreWJmJ aod iardmy Han ii, and the worfc I grow cominualJ}'.

S- I fear, -God never fliew^d Mtrcy to one fo ttV/ as f. 9. I fear, I am not ihltltl, and therefore muft perijh. 10* I fear, the Day of Grace IE ^(^ with mr. 11.1 fear, 1 havF committed the uitpardmahk Sin, j

12. J am an sld Sinner \ and if God had defigned Mercy fei? ine, be would have called me Hottie to himfelf haigts. now.

[ III. ] Soim Signs of Csdiincfs.

The diftinguKhing Marks oU traeChriHian, taken k,^, one of tny old Manufcripta ; vrhere I wrote as ,. fth and ixpirismed, and not from any confiderable Degree of doi^rinal Knowledge, or Acquaintancai' with the Sentimetits of others Iti this Point. ""

H ^ '"' ""^'^ -SiMtt/jjf^i of the Glory snd Excelknty oi '■■^ Gob, that he is moft worthy to beloved and plajW for his own divine Perfeaions. f/s/, CXLV. 3.

2. God ii his Psrihn. Ffal. LXXIH. G/»r>, hie great Concern. Maith. VI. 2j.

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3. Htlinifi is his Deligbl; nothing he fo much longs for,asta 'A be holy, as God i: holy, Phil. III. g, i-^.

4. S/o is his greateft Emmy. This be hates, for it's own; Nature, for what it lain itfcif, being contrary to a holy GOD. >f. II. I. And cojifcquently he bates all Sin. Rm. VII. 24.,,

I >4. III. 9. *;;

5. The iaiKj of GOD alfoaie his Delight. P/oACXrX.97. Rim, Vli. 22. Thefeheobferves, not outof ConRraint, from,;

fl fcrvile Fear of Hell ; but ihey arehisChoice. P/af.CXlX. jo,: i_, Tbc Hria Obfetvance of them is not his Bondage, but his great- * efl X-lbeily. V!r. 45, ^<

OV.J I^T.TERS,

ef'M'- David Brainerd,

[ [V. ] LETTERS, written by Mr. Braiseri » his Friends.

ADVERTISEMENT.

MR. Brakird had a largcAcquaintancc ami Corrcfpondance, efpecially in the lalier I'arl ofhiaLife, and ho did much at writing ijHifj to hisahrcnlh'riendl 1 hulthe imrfl id hii Acquaintance living at a great Diltiiicc (toni me, 1 have not heen able to obtain CopiM of many that be Vl'rotc: However, the greater Part of ihofe which i have feco,are fuch as appear to [DO of profitable Tendency', and worthy of the publick View : I have rhtreiorc here added a few of his Lettin.

N. B. Several of ibefe which follow, are not publiDied at large, bccaufe forae Parts of them were concerning parlicular Affairs of i private Nature.

No. I. To bis Brother 'jshn, then a Student at rsk-CllSlil in Niw-Havin.

KamaUBtiii, April 30. 1743. Dfiar Brother,

ISilould rell you, I hug Ufa ys", but that my ownExpcricnce has taught me, there is 00 Happinefs, J: plenarySatisfaiSion to be enjoyed, in iarlhls\FrimiH tho' ever fo near and i!ear, or in Jny other Enjoymenri that is not Gon himfell. Therofore, if iheCotit/oWGroff KVoulJ heplcafed gracioudl' to ijforil us each hh Prcfina and Graci, that we may perform the Work, and eniitite the Trials be calls us to, in a moft diftrefTing tire-fonie WilJerneis, 'till we arrive at our Journey's Hod ; the local Diftance, at which wcarc hcU from each other at the present, is % Matter of no great Momccitor Importance to either of

m, But Ala! I The Pretence of God is whasi vrant.

1 liveio the moft lonely melancholylJe/;'-;, about iS Miles from Aiimy (for it was not thought bell that Ilhould go to Dikvieri-Eivef, as I believe I hinted to you in 1 Letter from Nim-Ynri,) 1 board with a poor Stiuh-Mun : His Witecan tallcfcarceaoy Bnilijh. My Dill coohfcmoftly ol Fdalty-Pui!ding,boil'dCorn, and Bread baked in ihe Allies, and fjmclimea a lillle Meat and Butler. My ijj^rw^ is a little Heap of Straw, laid upon fome Boards, a little Way from the Grguiid : I'or it is a Log-Room,

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withoDi any Floor, that I lodge in. My Wari is exceeiiio|! haid.and difficult: I travel on Foot a Miie and l]alt, the w(irn of WaVj ainioE daily, and Ijack again j for 1 live fo far fromj

my h{jhm, ■ I have not fecn an Englijh Peifon thlsMonth.-

Thf^fe, and many otherCircumftances, as uncomfortable,atlcivd|| me i and yet mj ffirhnolCetifiiils and Difirtjfei fo/ar MwiJall thefe, (liat I fcarce think of ihcnj, or hardly mind but that I ainentertain'd in the moft fumptuous Manner. Tile LorL grant Ihatl may learn to ad!iriHsrihijl,ai<i(ssiSiM!r t/jEaUl Christ. As to my Kvcctfihias^ I can^t fay much as yetJ The Wioni fecni gepieraliy kind, and well difpofcd towards ms* and are moftly verji alteBlivc to my Inftrudiions, and fseill willing to be taught further: _Two or three,"! hope, are undet iome Convi^inni i But there feema to he lilrleof the fpecial Workings of ihc di^-iiic Spirit auicjn(^ them yet ; which giveir momany al!r!iiL liiikiiig Unur. Sometimes I hope, God hsa abundant JBIeflinj^s in Siere for (hem and rtie ; but at other, Times I am fo over-whclnu-il willj Diftrefs, that I can't tic how' bis Dealings tvuh me are cordiftent with Covenant-Luve and ' Faithfulnefs, and I !ay, Sursly bij Urtder Mirciis art tkajjgsne

fur rnir __But Imwever, 1 fee, I ntiJid all this Cbcftijtmist

already: 'Tii^tfodfirjim^iiM I have endured Ihefe Trials, and have hitherto titrle or no apparentSuccefs. Don't be difcou-raged by my Diffreffes : I was under great Diflrefs, at l\lr. Fepirofs, when 1 [^w yon lall; but Gsd bus lien ivith mi sf a Truih, fince rbat : tie helped me fomettmea fweetly at iW-J(lami, and ellewhere. l^utlerus alwais remember, that we mufi thrsugh muih 'irlhiikiiai enter into God's eternal fCrn^doLii of Refl and Peace. The Righteous arc fiarctly bid : Tis an infinite Wonder, ilisl m-bsve well-grounded Hopes of being fsvttlat all. For my Part, 1"feel the moll m/^ of any Creature living ; and I am lure fometimes, there is not fuch ahotlier ck-

ifting on this Side IJil'. Now, all you can do for me,is, (o

pray inceilantly, :hst God would make trie humble, holy, rc-

iigneJ, and hciveniv-iiiinded, by all my Trials Bijlrmr

in ibt Lcid, c:r.dlti ihs PoivEr of hh Mi^bt. Let Us run, vjrejUe and/^ir, ihat ive may win the PrjKc, and obtain thai compicat Happinefi, robe Htii as Gsdis Hoiy, So, wlDiingand praying that yon may advance in Learning and Grace, and be i\i fuf fpecial Service for God, I remain

Your affedlionalc Brother.

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t} Mr. David BraineriJ.' VJj

No. 3. Tt> his Brother Jebn^ at YfiU-Collegt in Ntw-llavm, Kaunaumcfclr., Z>j«w^rfr 17, J743-Diar Brother,

I Long to fee you, and know how you fare in your Journey thro* a World of inexpreflible Sorrow, where we arc cnm-pafs'd about with^jnitj, ConfujiotiaiK\ t^tnatian af Sjilril. lam more weary of Idfe, 1 think,than ever 1 was. The whole fVorld appeal! to me like a huge Faiuuia, n vaft empty Space, whence nothing defirable,or at lealt falisfnflory,can pofiihly be derived ; and I long, n'fljVy to dii more and more tn it \ even tlio' I obtain not that Comfort from fpirftual Tliinfiff, which I earneWly defirc. IVcrlily Plealures, fuch as flow from tJrcalners.RifhcJ, Honours, & fenrualGratii]cations,are infinitely worfe than noiie-May the Lord deliver us more and more from thefe FanitUi. I have fpen t moll of the Fall and Winter hitherto in a very weak State of Body i and fometimes under preiling inward Triali and fpiritual Conllifls : but itavh^ ohinin'd Uelfy /rem God, 1 isulmi to this Dny ; and am now fnmething belter in Health, than! was fometime ago. f find nothing more conducive ta a Life of C4rr>?jairi()i, than a diligent, indufliioui and faithful Improvement of precious Timt. Let us then fiithCully pot-form that Buhnefs,which is allotted to us by diviucPloviileiWB, to the utmoft of our bodily Strength, and menlalVigour. Why fhould we fink,and grow difcouraged,with any particularTrials, and Perplexities, we are called to enconntcr in the World ? Dtsth and Etimitf are juft before us ; a few lolling Hiilowa more will waft us into the World of Spirits, and we hope (thro' infiniteGraoe ) intoendlf^fs Pleafures, and nnintcrrnpted Reft snd Peace. Let us then run wUh Pitsititlc Shi Raci fit tirftti sii. Heb. Kii. 1,2. And Oh that we could depend more upon the JriiiV GOD, and lefs upon onr own Wifdom and Strength. -—^ Dear Brother, may thcGoD cf all Gmu comfort your He^art, and fucceed your Studies,and maie you an infirument ofGood to his People in your Day, This is the conflant Prayer of Your affcftionate Brother:

David Brslntrdn

No. 3. Tr> his Brother IJrsi!, at HaiMam.

Kautiaumcekyon. Ji. i743i4 My Dear Brother,

, 'THere is but aiM Thing, that dcfervcl our higheffi

■•- Care and raoft ardent Dcfires \ and (hatis, that

(temay SDfvirathe grcatjEnrfjfor which ffe were uiaiie > fia-'o

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"urwir, laic Weed slut jou fiith/ully j,ey!om the £«>w} you have ,0 dc m the World, from a Regard to the C.wA 5" "JUIJ ; and not from an ambitious dcfirc of being dicemcd I *e(i« than oiher,-. Wdfliould alwajs look upsn cur ftlvsa a

j/ar,/, (batGan, who has given us ourBeinss and all ourCow forts, and do all il,= Gwrf, we pofTibly can, lo our Fill^.JHim Wh,I=we h./e =n .he World : And veriiv Life ij not wotth lh«Sa .having, .f u be not imprevtd for ibi. noble End and PurpofeUT Yet, ahs, how htlle J:, this thsught of among Matikind I Mod > Men (ecih 10 Am ts tbmfclw!, wilboul: much Regard to tha Clory of God, or the Good of their Fellow-Creatujes i lh«y ' wrneftlj. defire,and eageri)- purfue after theRich^.theHonourJ, and the Heafiire! ofI,ife,as if shcy really fuppofed, thatWealth. '' or uttatneft, or Mcrriiiient, could ta,ke their immortal Sou)!' ^'^T: >■;'' "'"' "'"" '="'= "'"' ''''»rive Drtam: are thefe ) And hDwMiferable will Ibofe ere long be, woo are not a™^ft( out of them, ID fee, that all their Happinefs confifli in i\m«, t, OOB, and becoming hd, a! hi is hily ! Oh, may you .:ever fjH , into theIcmpcr. «nd Va„i,ic3, ,|,c Scnfuality and Folly of th> ' pjefen. Wor d. Yo.r a,e, by divine Protidence, left as it were B/«-.nawide VVotld, to aS for your felf : Be fure then tg leinember, tis a World of Tmflalii„. You have no carthlf P^unl, to he the Means of forming ,our Youth to Piety atiS Venue, by the.r pious Examples, anti feafonableCounfels ; Let lb.s then excite you with greater Diligence and Fervency lo Jookup to tht I'atbir ifMinm for Grace andAffillance Jgainft a!1 the Vaniues of theWo,!,!. And if you would glorify God, atlfwer his jufl Expeaationsfromjou, and make vour owa Soul hsppy ,n ihis and the coining World, obfcrve ibcfe feW p,r,£),m i tho' not from a Father, jel from a Brother wh» « touch d wuh.» tender Concern for your prcfent and future Happinefs. A[,d^

7-/'fi "^°'''° "P™* '"'^ ^'''y ^nJ^avour to' praaife a I-I)e 01 hmsufrifs and flrifl Sabriity. The wife Man will tell

your felf.

-4™ be careful (0 make a good Imprcvmal of prtciouj iTr ^f""J™«^fc f'"'" labour, fill npyour Time in Rtatfjilg Medilanon, & Prayer t And while your Hands a,c la '

touring, 1« your Heart he emplDjcd, as much w poUble-, in divine 1 hijughts.

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GOD'S Servants, placed in GOD's World, lo ilo his Worle 1 and accordingly labout faithfully for kita ; not with a Defign to grow rich and gtem,bilt to glotifjGOD.aud do all thcGood (ve poffibly can. ,, . r , ,

Again, Never expeft any SMssfaUmn or Hnppwijs from the Iferld. If you hope for Happliiefi fn the World, hope for it from God, and not frmi the World. Don't think you flvlll be more hafpy, if you live to fucli or fucll a St.ile of Life, if you live to be for your fclf, to be fettled in the World, or if youflmtiid gain unEftate in it: hut Ini.k upon it that yoii (Iwll then betoiSfy, whenyoucjn he confl>nlly cniploy'd fotCOl), and not for your felf i and defire to live in Ihi! World, only to da and hffif what GOIl allots to you. W'ben you c.in be of the Spirit and Temper of An^ds, who are willing to come down into this lower World, to peiEorm whir God comnianilsj Ihcm, llio' their Dehres arc hiaviitly, and nut in theicaft fet on) jorrHy Tbitigs, then you vpill be of that Temper that youl ought to have. Csf. 111. I ,,,-,„,

Ones miri, Never think that you eiin live to GUDby js/rr tttiTi Power ot Strength ; but always look to, ami rely on him for AITiKance, yea, lor all SlrcllglhindGiiicc. 'I'liercii no greater Tralh, than this, Tiat wi cm tlimlbing, nf tur fthis i Job. Kv. J. and 2 Cor. iii. 5. Yet nothing hut our own i'.v/n-rimci can eiFeaually teach it to us. Indeed we are a long Timeinlearning.that uU ouiSttcnjth and Salvation is inGOD, This iia Life, that I thick naancsmitrUi Man can pofEbly live; and yet it is aLife that every ^oiffy Soul it preffing alter, in fome good Meafure. Let it then be your grsat Concern,thus to devote year (elf and your all to tjOD. ,

I long to fee you, that 1 may fay niucii more to you than I now can, for yonr Benern and Welfare ; but 1 delirc to com; niit you to, and leave you with the F^iihir af AMiiti, a^d GsJef ailGraii; priying that you maybe direaed Wilj tjjro' an <iiif Wsrid, to GOD's htavtaly Kingdom, '

1 ani your afftaionate loving Brother,

David firiiiritnl,

No. 4.. To a rpecial FrientJ.

The Forks of Dilnwvi, July 31. 1744.

("^■"'"'1' the greatell, the Dobleit I'leafure of intelligent

^ Crcatuies muff refult from theirActjuaintanee witbliio

MeiTed GOD, and with their own rational and immortalSoulii.

M m a An!

StiJ^lFE.

Aud Oh, how divinely fiveet and cnterfainingis li, to look lii« to our awn Sou!s, whet) we can fj[id al} our Powers andFnfliorii united add engage*? in Purfuit after GOD, otir whole Smili longing and paflionately breatiiing after a Conformity to him, and the fallEnjoymentof him ! Verily ihete *ic no Hours pafl away with Co much divine Pleafure, as tiiofc that arc fpcnt in Communing wilhGOD and onr own Hearts. Oh, how fwci) is a Spirit of Devotion, a Spirit of Serioufnefs and diviiieSolcm" nity, a Spirit of Gofpcl-Simplicity, Love, Tendcrnrii I Ohg, liow deiirablcand how profitable to the Chriitian Life,is aSpi* rit of liolj Watchfuincrs.fcgodljjealoufy over ourfelvcs; when out Souls are afraid of nothing fo much as that we ftall grieva and oiFcnd the HeBcdGOD,whom at ftchTimes we apprehend, or alleafl hope, to be a Faliir mil Frtind; whom we thch love and long to plmfi, I'albcr than to be happy our lelve?, oi iti Icaft wc ileliglit to derive our Hjppinefs frcm plcafing and gitj-riffiiig him ! Surely this is a pious Temper, worthy of thtt^J highcJl Ambition and clofcfJ Furfuir of intdligen) CrcaturiB ^ and holy Chriftians. Oh, how vaftly fuperiour is thePieafure, ' Peace, and Satisfaflion derived from tbefe divine Frames, ta^ that which wc ( alas _) fomelimes puifucin Things impertinent and trifling ! Our own bitter ExperittiM teaches us, that in tie mii/1 if fiah Lmghttr the Hiart i; firroKful, antf there is no tracSatisfaaion but inGOD. Buf.alas ! How (hall wi ob-yj tain and retain this fweet Spirit of Religion atid Devorion 3i' Let us follow the Apoflle's Direiftion, Phil, ii, 12, and labour" upon the Encoursgenient he there mentions vt/-. 13. For 'tis GOD only can afSird us this favour t and he willbe/oK^*( /s, and 'tis fir we fimuld wait upon him for fo rich a Mercy, Oil, msy the GO IJ of allGraecafFjrd us the Grace and influences ot his divine Spirit J and help us that we may from our Hearts eltcem it our greatefi Liberty andHappinefs, tbatioij-, ih^ lijg Um^ iH! may iim u ibs LORD^ or itthaher wt die^ w* \ may JU Is iht LORD ; ihn'm Li/ianiDmlh wsmiyhshi!.

I am in a very poor State of Health; I ihinlt, fcarce ever J poorer : Bur, thro' divine Goodnc^ ; [ am not difcontented under my Weaktiefs, «nd (j'onhnemenl to this Wildeiiiefs ; I J blefsGOO for this Retirement: I never was more thankful for any Thing, than I have been of lite for IheNecclEty 1 an(. itnder of Self denial in many Refpefts : I love to be a Pilirm and Slraaftr in this VVilderneft : It fccm! molt fit for fucha poor igniiranr, worthiefs, dcfptfed Creature as I. 1 vvould not tbanj^ my piefent Mijjlm for any olhef Bufinefs in the whole.

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World. I may (ell you freely, without Vanity and Oflenti' tion, GOD has of late given me great Fiecdom and Fervent;/ in Prayer, when 1 have been fo wcat and feeble, ray Nature fcem'd as if it would fpeedily diffolve. ! feel as if my all was, loft, and 1 was undone for this World, if the poor HMlhm mayn't be converted. 1 feel, in general, difFe.rent from what I did, when 1 faw you lift ; it leall luore crucijiiil 10 all theEn-joyments of Life. It would be very rcfrcfhing to me.to fee you here in thisDcfcrt i efpccially in my weak dilllonfolate Hours: iJur, I think, I could be content never to fee you, 01 any of my Friends agaiti in this World, if (iOl) would blefunyL*-bou rs here to iho Convethon of the puor hiiam,

I have much that 1 could willingly comniunklte to yt)11, which 1 muft omit, 'till Providence gives us Leave to fee each athcr. In the mean Time, I reft

Your obliged Friend and Servant,

David Braimrd^

No. 5. To a fpecial Friend, jMinifterof theGofiicl in

The Forks of Z)</imiarj,Dccenib. 14. 1744.

Rev. and dear Brother,

J Have little to fay to you, about fpiritiial Jap, and thofc 1 MtRsiRtfriJhmenIt, & divine CM/s/arimj, with which I have heen much favsut'd inTimespaft; But this lean tell you, that if I gainExperience in no other Foint,yet I am fure I do in this, OK. That thefr</«i( Wiild has nothing in it la Jaihly an immortal Soul ; and hence.that it is not to be ilipidfer il frlf, but only becaufe GOD may be/fM & [ttvid'm it : Andl wifll (could be more patient & willing to live in it foi <A;i£W,than Icanufually find my felf tohe. 'Tis no Vcrtut, 1 know, to defire Death, only tp be freed from the Miferies of Life : But J want that divine HOPE, which you obfcrved, when I faw you laft, was the very Sinnew! of vital Religion. Earth can ds us m Gjoi/, and if there be no HOPEof our lijtof GxidmEarth, how can we delire to live in it ? And yet we ought to delire,or at leaft to berelign'd, to tarry in it i bucaufe 'ris rhe Will of our alwife Sovereign. But perhaps thefe Thoughts will appear mdancholy and gloomy, and confequently will be very unde-firable to you ■ and therefore I forbear to add. 1 wilh, you mayn't read them in the fame Circuraftanccs in which I writo (htn!. I have: aliitle more to A and /afir in a darkdifconfolata

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WofW s and Iheti I hope to be as happy as you ire " f '

fiiould a{k you to pray fop me^ were I worth your Concern* May ihe Lord enable us both Xoendure Hardntfs as gs&d Salditrt fl/"Jj'3Us Christ i and may we ^btsin Mtny sf God u bi pUhJal, to thaDeath, m the Difcharge of our refpeaiveTrufii* 1 am your very unworthy Brothcij,

aati huffible Servant^

Dav. Brainirdi.

No, 6, To his Brother Jshn, at College.

Crofiveikfutig, in NiW'^Jirftyy Decern, 28- 1745.

Very dear Brother,

-T T Am in one continued, ptrpetual, and uninterrupted'

■■■ Hurry j and diiriuc F'rovidciict throws fo much upon mc,that I don't Tec it will evci beotherwife. May I ehieinMtrtf.. p/GOD to h fmtbfb!,ta ihe Death. I can't kyji am weary of./*: my Hurry j 1 only want Strength and Grace to do mare iotf^ OOD, than I h^ve ever yet done.

My dear Brother, ^he LORD of Tftavsn, that hai caTiled me ihro'many Tria!s, bh/synu i blefsyoufor Time^andEicf-HJtyj :ind fit yo\i to do Service far him in inls Church bclow» and to enjoy hig blifsfnlPrefence in hisChurch triumphant. My Broihcr, /helimiispert ; Oh, Ici us fill ii up for GOD: Let wtsunttf>£ Su^erhgi of this pn/ent Time as nolhing, itwecan -but run Pttr Ract^ and fitiljh our Courfe with J^y, Oh, let US^ flrivctolive toGOD- I blefs the Lord, I have nothing todo" with Earih^ but only to labour hnntftly in i; for GOD, 'rill I iHial] Qccsmplifh as an Hireling my Day, 1 ihinkj 1 don't defire. (olive one Mjnme tor ai:y Thing that £arib canafFjrd. Ob," that 1 could live for rone but GOD, ■'till my dying Moment, 1 am your afFefllonate Brother,

D. Brattttri,

No. 7, To his Brother IfmeU then a Student at Tale'ColksfT' in ^iw Haven,

IiUJahtih-Ti)Wt!^Niii}''j£rJty^o\^ 2^^ I746».-Dear Brother^ r.

THad dcsermined to make you and my other Friends ir* ^faH- + j| EnfgJaid 3. Vifit, this Fall; pardy from an earncH Dcfirel had to ffeypu and thcm^ and ipartly with a View to the Recovery of itiy Health j which has, for more than three Months, p^ft, been much impair'd^ And In Order to profecuie this Pe-

ef Mr, OavitJBfimerdJ

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fi^n, I fet oUC from my own People about three Weeks ago, and canie 35 faf as tothisFJacei wberc^ ray Diforder greatly iHcreaiing, I hive been obli[jed to keep Houfe ever fine?,until the Day before Ycft^rd^y ; at whichTime^ ] was able to ride about half a Mile, but found my Telf much tired with thcjour-Tjfjy. I have now no Hopes of profecuting my Journey inta A*". E':^laadth\& Winter, tuppoiinj* my prefent State of Health will by no Means admit of it; Aliho' J fini lhrt>' divine Good-nefs ttjuchbetler than 1 was fomcDays ago* yet! han'tStrength liow to ride mure than (en Miles a Day, if the ^cafon were v;^arm,£i fitfor me to travel in. MyDifordcr has been attended with feveral Symptoms of ^ Ccf>/iimpiic?i; and I have been ac Time? apprehenfivej that my great Ghangt was at Hand ; Yet bleiTcd be GOD, 1 have never been eff'righui-^ bjt on (he conirarvj at fomt; Times much ^(rW^-^/ifif with a View of it'i Approach. Oh, the Biefiednefs of being delivered from the Clogs of Flefh and Seiifc, from a Bsdy ^f Sift and fpirimal Desth f Oh, the unfpe^kable ^wectnefs of bcin^ tranflated into a State of compleat Purity and Perfection \ Believe me, mff Brother, a \\vs\y View and Hope of ihefeThings will m'rileethc

King of 'I'irron hJmfelf appear agreable. Dear Brother,

Jet me inireat you, to I;ee[> Eternity in jour View, and behave ycjurfelf as becomes one that mnft fhortly^/w dn,^^fi»w)Tf e/ail Tififigi dstie in the Bsdy^ That GOD may be yoar GOD, a«d prepare you for his Service here, and his Kingdom ot Glory liereaftcr, ts the Defire and daily Prayer of

Your affeiSionate Joving Brother,

D. Bralnerd.

No. 8. To his Brother Ifresl, at College ; written in thp Time of hJ3 extreme iJiiiefe in Bijiin^ a few Month before hia Death. .

Bn/iotii June 39. I747. My dear Brother, TT is ironi ihc tides of Eternity I jiow addrefs you- I am hear-'* lily forryl thit I h-ive fo little Strength to write what I long 'o much to communicate to you- But let me tellyoii^ my brother, E-tirnitf is another Thing than we ordinarily take it to be in a healthful State. Ohj how vaft ajid boundlefs I Ob, how fis'd and unalterable I Ob^ of what infinite Import^incc ts it, that we be prepared for Eurntty ! I have been juft a djing, now for more than a Week j and all around ntehave thought mt fa : Cut in this Titnc I have hsd c!car Views of Elernity ;

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have feen iTie ElenUnefs of the Gsdly^ in feme Mcafure ; anJ h^veltnig'ti ro ftiare liieic happy States as well as been copi-fprtali; (rtifficd, that through Grace, I Ihall dofo : But Oh, . what Aiiguiih is raifed jn my Mind^ to thinkof an Et'ermiy for thufe who arG ChriphfSi for ihofe who are iiiiiHakeij, and who biing their falfe H^-pes to ihe Grave wiih ihem ! The Sight Vas fo dreadful, 1 crjLitd by 410 Means bear it ; My Thoughts recoiled,and 1 faiJ { but under a muie affei^iingSenfe than ever be/ore ) Pf^ha tan iwfU taiih evtrla/iivg Eurmjigi / Oh, mc-thoughtj that J coii!d now fee my FrieRtfj, ih&t J might Wiirij them J id fee to It, they Jay their Foundation for £i£rfiiiy fure. And you, my dear Brother, I have been particularly concerned for i and have wandered, 1 fo muchDegledted convetJing with you about your Jpiritual State at tjur laHMcering, Ohjntj'Bro'* thcr,lct mc then hrfrcch jou jiuw to examine,whether you ar« indeed a niivCf£iti tire? Whetheryou haveevcr aSed above Jf,//? "Wheiher the G/sry of God has ever been the fweeteft higheft Concern with you ? Whether you have ever been reconciled ED ah the Perfections of God ; in a Word, whether God hai been your Porticnt am! a holy Conformity to hinj your chief Delifchc ? ff you cam't anTwer positively,confidcr fefiouJly the frequent Breathings of yourSowl: But don't however put your felf off with a flight Anfwer. If you have Reafon to think you aifi GrsciUpi Ob give yourfelf and the Throne of Grace no Reft^ 'liHGoD arife and fave. But if the Cafe fiiOuld he othcF-wife, blcis Cyf'ii for his Grace^ sJid prels after Holii^efs. *

My Soul longs, tl:i.it ycu ihould befitted forj and in tlucTlmc go jnio the Work of the Adinj/hy. 1 can't bear to think of your going into any other Buli^efs in Life. Don*t be difcouraged^ becaufe you fee your clderBroihere in th#Miniftry die early, onz after another: I declare, now I aiB dyiug, 1 wouid not have fpent my Life cshtrwife ion the whole'VorJd. But I mLil leave this with God.

If this Line fiiould cc.mt^ to your HanJs fooD after the Date, I fliould be almuff dtliroua you fliouid fet out on a Journey to me ; \i may be, you may fee me alive ; which I fhoold much rejoyce injf But if you can't come, 1 mufl; commit you to the Grace.of Gyt", where: yuu are. Miiy he be your Guide and Ctiunfeiler, your Sandlifier and eternal Portion.

' Mr. Bf'ij/jTjrt/aftervirardshad greater Satisfaftian concerning the State of hjs Brother's Sou}> by much Oppor (unity cf Coiivejfation with him Jicforehis Dc^ttb. Ohy

Ohj my deaf Brothers flcefiefhly Lufftt find the inchanUtij Amufementi, as well as corrupt DsJiritut uf the ^(ctufii Day j and ftrivc 10 iivs ts GOD. Tate this as the in/i Line from

Your aiFc£tionate dying Erotherj

i>i Btaintrd.

No. g. To a young Gentleman, ^CandidaufoTilno Woffc oi the Aditti/iryj for whom he had a fpccinl Friendfttlp i ilfa written at the fame Time of bii great Bliicfi and tiCAnicfd ta Death In Bsjfort,

firy diar Sify

HOvf amaiing 'tis, thaf the Living, who inow 'ihtf mu/f die, fhould riotwithftanding pat far away the evil Z>iiyj in a Seafan of Health and Profperisy ; and live a( fuch an awful Diftancc from a Familiarity with the Grave, and the great Concerns beyond it 1 And cfpccially it may juttly fiil ua with Surprize, thai any whoftM indu have b«n d ivincly ^nU^hl" ftiii, to behold the importsnt ThinjP:! of Etanity ni ihry urc, I fay, that fuchlbould live in ihia Manner. And yet Kir,how frequently is this the Cafe? Haw rare arc the [nttancei of thofcwho live and aft, from Day alo Day, aa on the Verge of Mttrnity ; ftriving to fill up all their remaining Moment^ in the Service, and 10 the Honour of their great Majhr ? We infcnfibly trifle away TVjtj/, vi^hile we fecm to have enough of ii; and are fo flrangely amufcd, aa in a great Mcafure in lofe^ Senfeof the Hfl/wtf/j and blclled Qualifications nci^crlliiry ti* prepare us to he Inhabitants of the heavenly Paradift. But Oh, dear Sir,, a dying Bed^ if we enjoy our Rcafon clearly, wil! give another View of Things. 1 have now, for mope tharr three Weeks, lain under the greatsfiDegree of Weaknefs j the greater Part of the Time, expeaing daily and hourly to enter into the eternal World : fometimes have been fo far gone, aa to be wholly ^pecchlcfs, for foinc Houra toi^cihcr. And Oh, ■ of what vaft Importance has a holy fpiriiual Lift appcftrM to mc 10 be in this Ecafon ! I have longed to Call upon allmyFritnds* to make it their Bufinefs to live 19 GOD s and cfiu-tiaiiv all that are defigtied for, or engaged in the Service of i)\cS^n£fciafy. O dear Sir, don^t think it ctioujtb,tii live at ihcRftle of ccmmoa ChnjHam, Alas, tohow little Purpnfe do they often cmv^rfe^ when ihey meet together ! The Vijiti, cvtn of (hofe who are called Chfiftians iudecdj are frcquqully extrEips barren: And

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Confcisnce can't "but condemn us fat tke Mifimpfoveiiftlil o/Time, whJIcwe have beencooveifant with them. But lli Way to enjoy the divine Prcfence.and be fitted for diftinguini-iii|Servicc forGOD.isto live aLJfc o! grailDnjiliit & cmjltmt Siif-Didiealka to him j obfemng the Motions and Difpoliti-onsof our own Hearts, whence we may learn the Cortuptiont that-lodge there, and our eonftant Need of Help from GOD (or the Performance of the teaft Duty. And Oh, dear Si t, let me befeech you frequetniy to attend the great and preciousDni lies of Jma Fa/ihg and Praytr. '

I liave a fccret Thought, from fume Things I have obreiveJj 'u w ™^ perhaps defign you for fome nngular Service in (he World. Oh then labour to be prepared and qualified tl> do much for GOD. Read Mr. EdwarAS Piece on the Jf. fmim, again mi again ; and lahour to diflingmfl, clearly upon Expericnccs&AffeilionslnEeligionithatfou may make aOiffe-fence between theGo/af& the ihiningDrj/;-) I fay, labour here aa ever yon would he an ufi^.,1 Mirnjir aiChM : For nothilie! has put f«h a Stop to the Work of GOD in the hie Day m the falle Rehgioo, the wildAfteaions.thit attended it. Suffer me theielore, finally, to intreatyou earneftly toji'w mr filf to Prayer, to Reading and Medilstion on divioeXtuths : Strive to penetrate to the floitom of them, and never be content with' a fuptrficial Knowledge. By this Means, yourThoughts will gradually grow weighty and judicious; and you hereby will be' polTeircd ofa valuable Tri^fur,, out of which vsu may pioducq' Tims! aiw and M^ to the Glory of GOD. i "

AriA hov: 1 ammnd yoii It thi Grate af GOD i carneKl/! deflriiig, that a plentiful Portion of the divine ^firjV may reft'J upon you i that you may/im (j COD in .wrj. Capacity of/ Life, and do abundant Service for him iji a puUici, if it lie hia^ Will i and that yon may be richly qualified for the h/jeiilanef tflbi SattiUii, Liibt.

Ifciiteexpeftto fee your Face any more in the Body; mi therefore intrcat you to accept this as ihe laft Tclcea of i-ave, from

Yout fincerely afieflionate dying Friend,

Diriiid Qrahtrd,

P. S. r am now, at (he dating of this Letter, ccnfideraWjr recovered from what I was when I wrote it ; it having lain by raeiumc rime, for want of an Oppottiuiity oi Conrej'mice i

it

it mi written in J«>'. ■ 1 ^m now able to ride a little

:*n™ am removed'into the Country : But I have no mo,c T-meflationof recovering, than when 1 wrote, iho am a IXfrrrorthe ptcfet,'.. and thetefcre I flill f^b c.be p.y

'="> D. B.

■ No. 10. To his Brother 7(ia, at BriS;!, the Town of Cb,IffianM.-„inWu,-7<r/«; written "'=7'=^' ^'>;; when he was there on the Brink of the Grave, m the bummer before his Death.

Dear Brother, , _.

T Am now iuft on the Verge of Eurmly, ei.pea,ng very I fceedilyto^ppear in the unfeen World. "«1 ""^ f^'J no more an Inhabitant of £..r*,and fomet.Be. earneftly long to impart ^d h ^ith Cbrift. I bleft God.he has lor fome Y.an Given nie an abiding Conviaion, that it is tmpoflible fo at^y m onalCrearure to enjoy ttoeH.?;™./, without bnng ent.re y divmduHm. Undet the Influence of this Conv.a.on I have irfome Sure aBed : Oh that I had done more fo ! 1 fsw b"ot'rb' E^c^UrncT^ Neceffityof ™,W.in LHe ; bu, „^^^^

in fuch a Manner as now.when I am juft l>'«"g^' ° ^f '='°" of the Grave. Oh, mj Brother, purfue after abnijs , prels "owa dsZhleiled'Mark ; and !e, your thirlly Soul contmu-

AlCherehaa been a great deal of Mffif '".^JS^' of which lam alhamed. and for which my bou! '= t""^'>'!°^^= e eTvV=w= Yet, bleffed be God, 1 find 1 have really had, fir the mofl patt. fuch a Concern for hh Ghr,, and the Ad-lancemTnt Jbk Ki^id,^ in the WotlJ, that it ,s a Sa.isfaa.or, to me to leflea upon ibifi ^"'"'

And now, my dear Brother, as I muft prefi you to purfue

youtHeslthwill allow, .nd to hve above the Rate o c.«m.n lhri/l,an> : fol muft in-reat yov. folemnly to attend to jou f„W,V4Work; Labour to diBinsoilh between rr<,< and Mi Religion: And to that End, watch the Mot.otjs oi Gods ?;;l upon your own Heart , look to W. for Help ; and m^-partiallv compare your Experiences wuhhia f^'/j ^'f f^i Lw»riionthe ^pnhn^, where the Efle.K. and foul o Ke N n a iiyiJ"

ligion'is cUarly dlflingnifti'd from felfe Affeflions. « Valiw wligious ysj, according to the SuhjiS-MntUr of them ■ Thcro are many tbatrejoycc in tlieir fuppofcd 7„fi:fitatm: butwhat do thelejoys argue, but only that they tcvi tbtmMvn ? Whereas In

»/ra/;^i bleffc! God for his Holjnefs, SoMreigMy, Power FanhMneft, and ali hi. P«feaio„s; /dore, God. thatT' { what he ,i, that he is imchangtaUy pofTeft'd of infinite Glory, and Happinefs Now, when Men thus rejoyce in ,h= PirfJr «i»*s/ ffsi and ,n the infinite Excdlency of the [f„ ,f L ^au,n h, Chr.Jl^ai i„ ,^, |,„iy C™^,„J,of God, Which ar, a Tranfcnp. of his holy Nature, ih.fi ]oy, are divine and d ritual. Our Joys will ttsnd hy ut at the Hour of DmH if L em be then fatisfied, that we have thuj adcd zhave fil/, a„d

• I had at fiift fully intended, in publifhing this and the foregQingLetlers.to have fupprtfi'd thefePafflgcs whereia my JVams ,s racntion'J, and my Difiiurfi ct r,/,>,-,„, ^f. /;A««recommL-,.ded : And am fennble.that by rayduiuE ctherwife, [ ftall bring upon rae the Reproach of fome! But hsw much faevcrJniiy be pleafcd Wiih theCommen-dation of any Performance of mine ( and I con/eli, I tHeetn the Judgment and Approbation of fuch a Perfon ra Mr. Br^,„ril, worthy lo be valued, and loot on my felf ?3 highly honoured by it ) Yet I can truly fay, tbeThings Ihat goirerncd me in allcnng my foremen tioa'd Determination wilh Refpcfl to thefe PalTagH, were thefe two. [10 What Mr.BrafflWhcrefaysof Ihat Difcoutfe, flicws •very fully and parricularly what fiil Nolkm were of experimental Religion, and the Nature of irnc Piety, and how far hi was from placing it in Irapteflions on the Ima-ginalion,or any enthufiaflicaUmpuIfc, and how cfTenlral II) Religion he eftceiri'd holy Praflicc, (gc. Ut. For all that have read that Oifcourfe, know what Sentiments are there exprefsM concerning (hefe Things. ^ ^ j Jj^jg^j^ that the jippriiatim of fo apparent and eminent a Pripnd and Example of inmrd vilal Religion, and eranidical Pielymihe Height of it, would probably tend to^maltj thatBcri more Serviceable ; cfpecially among fome Kinds ni jealous Perfuns, wbofe Benefit was efpecialiy aim'd pi in ihe Book; fome of which are prejudiced againlS It as written in too kga! a Strain, and oppofing feme ihmgs wherein tile Height of Chriftian Experience con-».H> 'W seffiJing %a build Men up on Ihpir ownWori?.

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in a (lifinterefted Manner ( if I may fo expiefs it) rejoyced in

the Ghry of the bleffed God 1 fear, you are not fuf-

ficiently aware how mut;h Mfi Religion there is in She World : Many ferious Cbtiftians and valuable Minilicrs are too eaflly impofedupon by thisfalfeJSVsat. Hifcewife fear.you are not fen-fible of the driaifal EfflCl! & Cm/(}Brt«> of this falfeRell|ioii. Let me tell you,'tis tiieDivi/ tramfsrmid inlr on -iis" '' "I'" '? ■tin a Brat of Hell, that always fpnngs up wilh every Revival of Rdigion, andilabs and murdeis the Caufe of God, while it pafl-es Current with Multitudes of well-meaning People for the Height of Religion' Set yourfelf, my Brother, (o cruDi ail Appearances of this Nature, among the Wiam, and never encourage any Degrees of Heat without Light. Charge my People in the Name of iheir dyaif: Miii/ler, vca, in the Name of Him mhiwa! iiaiandis a/rec.to live aoil walk as becomes the Gofpcl. Tell them, how great the Expeftattons of God ami Ins People are from them, and how awfully they will wound God's Caufe,if they fall into Vice ; as well as fatally prejudice olhcr poor Jniiww. Always infift, that iheir Experiences are renin, that their Joys are iihftni, iltho' ihey may have been rapt up into the Ihird Htavmt in their own Conceit by them, unlefs the main Tenour of their Li-oa be fpiritual, watchful, and holy. In preffing tbefcTbings, ThmJhaU htih fmt thj jAf,

sni Ml thai hear thsi ? ■ , ,. ,

GOD knows,[ was heartily willing tohaveferved him/oijftr in the Work of the Miniltty, altho' it had flill been attended with all the Lahmn and Hardfiipi of paft Years, if he had feen iit that it (hould be fo : but as his Willnowappears tithciwife, 1 am fully content,and can with utmoftFrccdom fay, Tbi SVill cf ihiLsrd h dm. ItafFeasrae, to think of leaving you m a World of Sin; IWy Heait pities you, that thofe Storms ano Teropefts are yet before you, which, 1 truft, through Grace I amalmoff delivered from. But Gid Uva, andhkpdbl myReci : Heis the fame almightyFriend i and wili,I tmff, be your&uide and Helper, ae he has been mine.

And now, my dear Brother, 2 ammnJ ym « God ar.d m ihe Ward tf BIS Griici,hihich it aUi In htiildym up, aidlii.-iyiii MiiitMU amr:g ell thm that arijmmfild. May you enjoy the divineFrefence,hoth in private ani) publick ; and jniLy litJrmi tfymr Hmit ii modiftrmg, by ll" 'k^t Hand ti ibi mighty Gsi aHacob. Which arc the paflionale Dcfires and Prayeis of Your affeaion»te, dyins Brother, _ '

Dsmi Srmnird. 4PPB}IPIX.

2;6 ^ Eefleflions B»iJ GbfeiVations

Ott tie precitcling Memoirs.

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APPENDIX.

Co/itaining fame REFLECTIONS am OBSERVATIONS on the Memoirs of Mr. Brainerd

I- TT 7 E hive here Opportuniej', as I spprebcnd. In a Ptry

W lively Itijhtiii, to fee tlic Nslurt of trut Reii^iem ;

and tie Msnisir of it's Optralim, mhm exttnplified

irt a tigli Di/^rii indpezL'irfjU Jixiid/i. Particulady il may

be worthy to be obferved :

I. How greatly Mr. Brmnird's Rdigioti difirii from that Bffonie PretendEfs to ihe Eiperinice of a ciiar fFsri of failing Cenverfian wru^t oo tlieir Hearts ; who depending ai:d iiving nn tlial,fettle in a cild,t!irilefi ii carnal Frame of Mind;and in a Tfegleft of thorough, eartiefl Religion, in the ftated Fraaice of it, Ahirto' his ConvifHens an^ Coitverfion were in all Ref-peils exceeding clear, and very remarkahje i yet how far was he from ading as tho' hs lliought he had lal drsugh his Wtrk, whet! once he had obtained Comfort, and Satisfaflion of bia Intereft in Chrift, and Title to Hearen. On the contlarj', thatVVurt on his Heart, by which he was brought to this, was with him evidently but the Blgming r/ iii Wsrk^ his £tft entiing on the great Buhnefs of Religion and the Service of : GOD, his iiril felting out in his Race. His obtaining Reft of Soul inChrifi, after earneftflriving ID enter in at the ftiaitGale, and being violent to take the Kingdorn of Heaven, he did hoc look upon aSiputting an End to any fuitherOccafton for ftriv-ing and Violence in Religion ; but ihcfe were continued ftill, and maintained conflanlly, through all Changes, to the very ■ End of Life. Hifi Work was not finifhed,nor litsRace ended, *tiiIUfcwas ended tagreeable to ([cqucntSiripiurs-Rg/frt/tntali^m of the Chrif^ian Life. He continued prcfling forward iii a conffint Manner, forgetting the Things that were behin*3,anil rsichiilg forth towards tho Things that were before. HisPaint acd Esrneftnefs iti the ISnfinefs of Retigion were rather increaf-

eJ,

•d (ban diminifhed, after he had received Cotnfort and Salis-faaion concerning the fafety of bis Stale. Thofe "i'vinePtm-cjples which after this he was aauatcd by, of Love to (jUU, and Longings and Thirftings after Holineft, feem to be more effiaual to engage him to Fains and Adtivity in Religion,than fear of Hdl had been before. ,,.„,, t

And as his ConvciCon was not the End of h,s Werk^ Of ot thcCouifeofhis Diligence and Strivings in Religion ; fo neither was it Ihe End of the Wiri cf ibi Sflrit of GOD M ha Heart: But on the contrary, the Beginning of tbatWorJc; tbs Beginning of his fpiritual Difcovcries,8nd holy Views ; the fitftDawningof theLiglit,which tbencefoiwatd inctcafed more and more ■; the Beginning of his holjAlfeaions, hisSorrow for Sin, bis Love to GOD, his Rcjoycing in Chrift Jcfus, his Longings after Hoiincfs. And the powerful Opeiations of ths SpiritolGod in ihefe Things, wete carried on, from the Day of his Converfion, in a continued Conrfe, to his dying Day. His religious Experiences, his Admiration, his Joy and Praife, and flowing Affediions, did not only hold up to a confiJcrable Height for a tew Dais, Weeks ot Months, at fiifl, whilcHopc and Comfort were new Things with him ; and then gradually dwindle and die away,''till they came toalaiofl nothing, anil fo leave him without any fenfible or vemaikable Expetience of fpitiiual DifcovctiES, or holy and divine Affeflions, for Months togeiher ; as it is with many,who after thcNewncfs of Things is over, foot! come to that pafi, that it is again with 'cm very much as it is tiled to be before their fuppofedConveifion, with Refpea to any ptcfentViews [)fO;OD'sGloiy,olChrilPsExceI-lency, or of the Pcauty of divine Things ; and with RcTpedl to any prefent Thirftings for GOD, or ardcntOut-goings of their Souls after divine Objrfls ; But only noiv and thtn they have a cocifortabk-Rcflcaiori onThings Ihey have met with InTimes pan, and are fomething affefled with them ; "and fo tell cafy, lislnking allThings are well 5 they have had a good rfcor War*, and their State is fafc, and they doubt not but ihc-y (Ksll go to Heaven when they die. How fa» olhcrwife was itwilh Mr. SrofmrJ, than it is with fucb Pcrfons ! His Expeticnres, ia-licad of dying away, were evidently of an incresfing Naiuic, His fitft Love anO ttber holy A(&i3ions,even at Ihe Heginning were very great ^ but after Monliis and Years, became much greatei, and more remarkable ; and the Spiritual Exi-icifes of his Mind coniintied exceeding great (tho' not equally fo at all Timct.yct ufually fo) withoirl indulged Reniifncli and without

lisbilual

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■m

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tiabitual di&indjing & dying away,even 'till hijDeceare. They began ina Timi: of gcneralDeadnefs allovcr thcLaiidjUnd were -*■ greatly ijicieared in a Time ol general Reviving of Religion. And wlien Keiigiun decayed agaitl, and a genera] De:idnefa reforned, his Experiences were flill iept up in tlidr Height, 3nd ills holy Exerciies maiiilaijied in their Life and Vigour c i and focDdtinued to be, in a gcneial CoutfeiWhetever be ivaSj^^ and whalevet liis Circumflances were, aniooe Engiijb and /07 dhm, in Company and alone, in Towns and Cities atldin thS l)owlingWildetiii:li,lnSicli.nefi and inHeallli, living an ddjingj Tbis is agteablc toScripiurcDcfctiplitms of itue and nghtRSi ligion, and of lIicCbtiflianLile. TheCbange, ibat was wtongKf in him at his Convetfionj was agreable to Sctipture-Reprefeoi tatiotis o^ that (.hange which is wrought in tice Converiion i agrcat Change, and an abiding Change, reodringbin a new Man, a ncwCieatiiic: Not only a Change as to Hope and^ CojJifort, and an Apprebetifian of his own good Eflate ; and ^■ tranficntCbaiige,coni;iii»ginhighFlight!,ot paJiingAffeaions ;! but a Cliangeof Nsluri^ a Change of the abiding Habit and' ' Temper of bis Mind. Noi'a partial Change, meerly in Poinc of Opinion, or outward Reformation j nioch lefs a Change from one Error to another, or from one Sin to another ; but. an univerfal Chiinge, both internal and external ; as from corrupt and dangerous Piinciples in Religion, unto the Belief of the Truth, fo ffOtn both the Habi ts and Ways of Sin, unto univerfal f^olinefs of [leart and Praflice 1 from the Fewer and, Service of Satant «tnto God.

2. Hii Religion did apiiarently and greatly Hffir from that of many high Pretenders 10 Religion, who are Iretjiiently actuated hyvthtmmt Enacicm of Mind, and are carried on ina ■ Courfe 0^ jkddtn aniSJmtie Imfr/ffimi, and foppofed high lllii-miaatims and mmciiiiili Diftmtriis, and al the fame Time are Perfons of a vfritfeEit Ztat, net nccojdhg to Knowledge.

His Convlciionj, preceedinghis Ccnveriion, did not arife ftom any frightful ItnfTiJfms m tm Imnginslkn, or any cJClcinal Images and Ideas of Kire and Brimftotio, a Sword of Vengeanct; drawn, a darJt Pit open, Devils in terrible Shapes, Uc. ftrongiy fix'd in hisMind. [dis Sight of bis own Sinfulnefs dtil not con-lift in ar.;, Iraiigination of a bcapof loathfomejmaierial Fikhincfs witbinhim; cor did his Sciifc of the Hardoefs of his Heart confirt in any bodily feeling in his Breaft fomeihing hard and heavy like a Stcne, nut in Enj loiaginauons whatever of (iicb a Nature.

11

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On ih frecieikg MemoifS.'

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Hia firft Difcovery of God or Chrift, at his CoiiverGon, wja not any ftronii Id^a of any tuternal Glory or Brightncfi, oi' Maicffysnd Beauty of Countenance, or pleafant Voice ; not was it any fuppofed immediate Manifefiation of God's Love 10 Im in particular; not any Imagination of Cbrift's fmiliug Face Arm! open, or Words immediately fpokcn to hira, as by Name, levealiDg Chtifl's Love to him; eiiher Words of Ecripctirc, or any other ; But a Manifeftation of God's Glory, aisd the Beauty of his Nature, as fupreoiely excellent in it felf; powerfully dfawinB,and fweetly captivating hisHeart; bringing him to a hearty Defire to enalt God, fet hira on the Tijrone, and give him fupremt Honour and Glory, as the King ami Sovereign of Iha Univerfe ; and alfo a ncwSenfe of the infinite Wifdoai, Suitableneft and Excellcni:y of the Way of Salvation by Chrift ; powerfully engaging his whole Soul fo embrace 'this Way of Sabatioji, and to delight iu it. His firflba]ih did not confift in believing that Chrift loved him, and died for him, in particular. Hit fi.fl: Comfort was not from any fccrct Sug-aefti«ti of God's Eternal Love to him, or that GoJ was reconciled to him, or intended great Mercy for him i by any fuel) Texts as thofe, Sm, U tfgsiiChiar, tin Shtau firiivuithut Ptar mly 1 am thy God, &c. ot in any fuch Way. On the cotitrsty, when GOD'S Glory wasiiift difcovered to him, il: was without anyTbouKhtof Salvstioaas bis own. His fitil Experience of the fanaftving U comfotting Power of GOD'S Spirit did not begin in fome bodily Sinfatiun, any pleafant . warmFeeling in his Ereaft, that he ( as fotjie others J called the Feeling the Love of Chrift in hira, and being full of the Spirit. -How exceeding far were his Expetiences at Ills fiift Conveiiion ■' from Things ef fuch a Nature I

And it we look thro' the whole Series of his Expctienct!, frora his Converfion to his Death, we (hall find none of this Kind. 1 have had Occafion to read his Oiory over and over, and very particularly andctilically to review eve ryPaJage in its and! findnooneliiltance of a ftrong Impteffion on hislina-gination, through his whole Life : No Inttance of a Brongl)r imptefii'd Idea of any external Glory and Btightnefa, of any bodily Form or Shape, any beauliftll IMajeftick Countenance -, No imaginary Sight of Chrift hanging on ibeCtofs, with his Blood ilreaming from his Wounds; or feated in Heaven on 3 bri"ht Throne.with Angels and Saints bowingbefore him ; or with a Countenance fmiiing on him ; or Arms opcc to embrace hiia: Na Sight ut Huaven, in his Imaginatioi), with Gates of ■ - i O 0 ViiA,

sSo

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Pear), and Golden Streets, and vail Multitudes of glorious h habitants, with (billing Garments; No Sight of tlie BookL Life opened, with his Name written in it : No hearing of llil r*e« Mufick made by the Songs of iicavcnly HoHs; No hcaf ingGador Clirift imrnediatcly fpealciugto him ; nor any fud-den Suggeftions of Words or Sentences, either Words of Scripture, or any other, as then immediately fpolcen or font to him: No new objeiiive Revelations,no fudden ftrong Sug-geflions of fecrctFadis, Not do I find any one Inftance in all iheRecords he has left of his own Life,from Beginning loEnd, of Joy excited from a fuppcifed iTriTnii/wtiVfhatfsol iheiipirijtj cr inward immediate Suggetiion, that his State was furejy good, that God loved him with an overlaftingLovt, that Chlift died for him in particular, and that Heaven was his ; eiihcr with or without a Text of Scriphlie ; No Inliance ofComfort b^ a fudden hearing in ujjon hisIWind, as ibo' at that very Time dtreflcd by God to hira in particular, any fuch kind of Texts as thofe i Fear ml, lam mith ihei i—liis ,mr talha's .xi Fliajm te give jsa ttc Kingdcm ; — Tm have ml Ma mt, hut I havt thsfm yiii ; — } ham callii live hy thy Nami, thm

eft m'wi i Btfift thsu wsji ftrmii m tht Btlly, I hem

lhti,hc. No fuppofedCommunion & L'onverfation with GOD carried on in thisWay ; no fuch fuppoftd Tafting of the Love ofChrift. But the Way he was fatisfied of his own goodEflate, even to the entire aboliftiing of Fear, was fay Feeling within hjmfelf the lively adlings of a holy Temper and heavenly Djf-pofiiioi!, the vigorous Enercifts of that dlviiicLove,which cafii , out fear : This was the Way he had full Satisfa.aionfoon af-I ter his Converfion ( fee his Disry on Oclib, lS& 19. 17+0.) And we find no other Way of Satiifaaicn through l:is whole Life aftcrwaidt ; And this he abundantly declared to be the Way, the only Way, that he had complete Satisfaflion, when he looked Death in the Face, in it's near Approaches.

Some of the Pretenders to an iirimeiiiaie Witnefs by Huggefli-on, and Defenders of it, vjith an afl'amitif ConhJence, would bear us in Hand, that there is no full AlTurance without it ; and that the Way of being fatisfied by Signs, and arguing at] Interifi in Chrift from Sandlification, if it will keep Men quiet in Life and Health, yci will never do when they come 10 llil: Then f they fay ) Men nnrfi have immidMi Wituefs, or clfc be In a dreadful Uncertainly. But Mr, BrmWa'sEspeti-ence is a Confutation of this ; for in him we have an Inftancc of one that poifefi'd sa conSiiiuaBd unlhateg an Affuiance,

thro'

Da fhe frscteMng Memoirs'

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tihro' tba Courfe of his Life, after Converfion, as perhaps can be prodaced in this Age i which yet he ubcain'd and enjoy'd without an}r fuch Sort of Ti/iimonf, and without all Manner of Appearance ofit,orPrctence to it ; yea,while utterly difciaim-ing any fuch Thing, and declaring againft it: And one whofe Afl~uiaiice,we need notfctupLe to 3JKrni> has 33 fa,iraC]fiim,3nd as juS a Pr^tenfion to Truth and Genuinencfs^ as any that the Prctca'^ef* ta immedisle t^itnf/s can produce: And not only an Inftance of one that had fuch AfTuranee in Life, but had it in acoijftant Manner in his laft IlhiufB ; and p>irti^:uIaTiy in ths latter Stages of it, [lirnugh thofc hli Moiitlit uf hit Life, wherein Death was mure fenfihly approacliing, witViout the teaft Hope of Life : And had it !oo in it's Fulmfs, and in the Hdght of it's Exercife, under thofc repeated Trials, that he had in this Space of Time ; when brought from Time toTime to the very Bt'wk of the Grave, expe^^ing in a fewMinutes to bein Eteniiiy. He bad i/^e full jjfurancc of Hspii unia the Mad. When on the Verge of Eternity, he then declares h\% AfVuranee to be fuch 3s perfefllji fecluded all Fear i and; not only fo, but it manifeftly fill'd his Sou! with exceeding Joy : He declaring at the fame Time, that this his Coiifolation and good [-lopc thro* Grace arofe wholly from the Evldinct he haJ of his good E^ltate, by what he found of his San^S-ificatiofi, or theExercife of a holy heavenlyTcmper of Mind^fupreme Love to God, td^c and not in ihe leail from any immsdiute Witnefa by Suggeftion : Yea, he declares that at thefe very Times he faw the awful Ddufion of that Confidence which is built on fuch a Faund.Ttion, as wcU aa of the whole of that Religion v/hich it ufually fpringj from, or at Icafl is the Attendant of ; and that his Soul abhoi*d thofe Delufions : And be continued in this MindjOfien exprefling it with much SoIemiiiiy,eveii 'till Death.

Mr. S^^'fl^J'd's Religion was not/^/^ and mefc^nafi : Hi* Love to God was primarily and ptiticlpally for the fupreme Excellency of his diub ^d(arf^and iiotbmjt on a preconceived Notion that God loved Aim, had received him into Favouijarid had done greatThinga fur ^rm,or promifcd grcatThings to him : Sohisjoy was Joy in God^and not in himself. We fee hy hia DlaT} howj from Time to Time, through the Courfe of hi* Life, his Soul was fill'd with Jneft'able Swcetnefs and Comfort. But what was the Spring of thi^ ftrong and abiding Conib-Ution ? Not fo much the Coiifideration of the furc Grounds bs had to think tliat bi& State was good,that God had dcliveretl G o a hiiii

RefleaioEis and Obfervationt

Oh ihs preciidlng Memoirs;

him from Hell, and ihit Heavin was bii; or any Thotighfi,' concer^iing his own diftinguiflle^i happy and exalmd Circum-ftanccs, as a high Favourite of Heaven; Bat the iwee; Medi-^. tatJ&ns and entertaining View's he had of divine Thiogs withui 1 himfdf-f the affecliiig CDnfiJcratjoris and livdj Idt^as of God'3^!| infinite Gtory, bis uncllarjgeiibJe Bleiledneis, his Sovereignty, ' 2nd universal Dominion ; togcllier with the fiVtet Kxercifes 0^ ■ Love to GOD, giving bimfeif" up to him, abafing hitnfelf be-iJ fore hini,denying himCelf forhlin, dependiog upon him, a£ling;;3 fofhis Glozy, diligently fcrving him i tind the pleafingProf-^ petts or Hopes iie had of a fiacure Advancement of the King

dom of Chrift, £5^f.

It appears plainly and abimdantif all along,from hisConver-l fion tn his Death, that that Beauty, that Sisrt of Good, whiclr was the great Olijcifl of the new Acf\(c of his Mind, the nens ReliOi and Appciiic pjven him in Convcrfion, and thencefoi'^ ward inaintJtjn^d and increafcd in hia Heart, was HOLINESS^! Conformity to God, iiving toGod,and giorifying Him. This 3 was what drew hisHijaft J this vitas the CenterofhisSoul ; ihiai" was the Ocean to which all the Streams of his religions AiFee-i tipns tended ; This was the Objeiil that engaged his eagerr thLfft^ngDefiles and eaxncft Purfuits : He knew no true Excel-: lency or Happioefs, but this : This was what he longed for,., niott vchemcjllly and cooflantly ott Eafth ; and this was with .: him the Re&uty at^d Blefi'ednefs of Hsmten ; which made him {o^;: much and {^^ often to long for that World of Glory ; it was (O^J be petffiSl]y holy, and petfe^ly txercifed in the holy Entploy--nicnts of tilijaven ; thus to glorifyGod and enjoy him forever.

His religious lllumiuatioiiS, AfFedtions and Comfort feem'dy to a great Degree,to bs^ttendcd •^I'^EvangtUial RumltiaUm ^ conflliing in a Senfe of his o«in nller lE!foSiciency,Defpicab]e-nefs andOdioufnefs ^ with an anfwerableDifpolition atldFrame #f Hf art. How deeply riffL'dtcd was he almoft continually with his greatDeleifh in Religion; with his vatt Diftance from that Spijitujliiy and holy Krame of Mind that becami: him 5 with Ills Ignoiance, Pride, Deadnefs, Uofteadinefs, Bairennefs ? He was not only afFcftcd with the Rememhrance of his former S^nfolnel's, before his Converfion, but with the Senfc of hia jircfcnt Vilcnef and Po'Iutran. He was not only difpofed to thinli: meanly of himfelf as bifori God, and in Cornparifotl of him J hut QfTistj^li Mtft, and as compared with them : He was a;jiio EhinfcotherEair. Is better tlian hej yea, to look on himfelf as ttt ajcjneli and iciit of Sjinis; yesj very of(ci», as the

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vileK Slid worft of Mankind. And notwithftandtng his ereit fnyThTnglhathe is tnore frequently affedcd and abafed with ^^tl^:n^'dK;-,fobeofa...and..^SplH.

m Love was not meetly a Fondnefs and Zeal or a Fatty, hu^ anuiiivetfal Benevolence; very often txcrctfcd in he molt fenrSTd ardent Love to hi, grealeit Oppofers »nd tncmie . ffi Lov:"and Mectnefs were not a meet l-retence ^; onward Proleffion and Shew ; but they were ^tf'""'JS: ntanifofted in expenfive and painlul Deeds o( Love and Ki.d-Tf"; and in a tneekBehavioor.; '^^ilr-"'^«i"S J""'""f" "be Eteateff Trials, and hiimbling lnn.fdf ""en at the Feet of Tol ft™ whom hefnppofed he had fuffered moS ; a^d from Time to Time, very frequently praying for his Enemies, ab-horTtnglheTbonghts of Bitternefs or Refentment towards rr I fcatcely know where to look for a,>y parallel Inftanee S-denial, i/.l^efe Refpea., in .he prefent A^e- H= was sPerfonofgteatZeal; but how dtd he ahh-r a bitter /c,tl, La U=nt it where he faw it ! And tl,o' he was once drawn Lto fcme Degrees of it, by the Force of ptevailing U^tam de. S it were in bis Childhood ; yet how did be B^ "^o"' «'* ^ Heart brnifed and broken in Pieces for it all hiaLi e after !

Of how>/( and tmdir a Spirit was he 1 How far were hia Ex"erien«s,'Hopes,andJo,s from a Tendency fi"^"j '-""?'-fy and harden him, to lefTen Convia^ns ,nd Tendcrnefs of Conlcience, to caufehim tobelefsaffeaedwnhprerent and i;ftS,n=,andlcfs.onfcienUons with Rcfpefl ,0 future Stns. Lre eafy in the NegleS of Duties .hat are ."""Wf "•= a"* . inconvenient, more (low and partial in complying with dilBcu t Commands, left apt to be alarmed at the Appearance of hi. awn Defeas andTranrgrcitos, mereeafily induced to a Compliance with carnal Appetites! On the contrary, ''<'«"=j''^= wasbisConfclence ! How apt was his Heart to fmltc Imn ! How eafily and greatly was he alarmed at *=. APP"™'^^^ °! moral Evil I How great and conftant washis Jealoufy over te wnHeart! How ftria his Care and Wa.chfulnefs agamft L ! How deep and fenSble were the Wounds that Sin made in hi. Confcience I Thofe Evils that are generally ace»mted fmall, were almoli an infupporiable Burden ^h™! ^^fj bis inwaidDeficiencies.hi. bavingno more Jjovc.toGOD.bjd-

KtBi&MasiKii ObftrvadoBs

jrg witliin hjmfelf any JlacknEfs or Julnefs in Religion, any Unfflcadinefe, or wmdriBg Frame of Mind, &c. How did (be ConMsration of fuch Things as thefc opprefs and abafe him, and fill him with inward Shame and Confufion ! HisLove mil Hcpc, iho' ihey were fuch as eaft out a fcrvile Fear of Hell, yet they were fuch as were attended with.and abundantly chc-rifti'd and promoted a teverential filial Fear of God, a Dread ofSinandof God's holy Difplcafara. His Joy feem'd truly to be a rsjoicing with Trembling, Hii AITurance and Com-foit difered greatly from a falfe enlhufiaftick Confidence and Joy, in that it promoted and niiineained Mourning for Sin-:' holy mourning, with him, was not only the Wotkofan Hont or a Day, at his fitft Convttfion,; but Sorrow for Sin was likS a Woond conflantiy running: He was aiWourner for Sin allhiS Days. He did not, iflcr he received Comfort and full Satia-fattion of the t'oigivenefs of all his Sins, and ihe Safety of hia Stale, forget liis pafi Sins, the Sins of his Youth, that wem commuted belote his Convctlion ; but the Remembrance of them, from Time to Time, reviv'd in his Heart, with renewed Grief. That in Ezet xvi. 63. was evidently fulfil'd in him, Thai tfisa msffirmi'niir, saJiian/iiaatitl, Mdnmimpin thyMsMhovy mm, bitauft if thy Sbami ; when lam pacified tiward tha fir sU that thm hsji dm. And how laftingly did the Sms that hccommilted alter his Converfion, affeftanil break his Heart ! If he did any Thing whereby he thought be had in any Refpeadinianoured God, and wounded thelntercffi of Religion, he had never done with calling it to Mind with Sorrow and Bitternefs: Th»' he was alTured that Goo hail forgiven It, yet he never forgave him&If : His part SoirowB and,! ears made 00 Satisfaflion, with him ; but Bill the Wound renews and bleeds afrelh, again and again. And his prcfent Sins, that he daily found in hirnfelf, were an Occafion of daily fcnfiblc and deep Sorrow of Heart.

His Religion did not confili in unaccountable Fllghsi and vcUsnml Pangs ; fuddcnly rifmg, arid fuddenly falling i at fome Turns eaalted almoft to the ihird Heavens, and then at other Turns negligent, vaiii,oarnal, and fwallowed up with the World i lot Days and Wcefts, if not Months together. His Religion was not like a blaiingMeleorjOr like a flaraiogComet, ( (ora waniiringStar,as the Apoftleyo* calls it, vet. 13. ) Hying ^tiiro' theFirmaraent with a brightTrain s & then quickly going out m perlcaDarknefs: But more like the fteadyLights olHea-venj that are conBant Pjinciples of Light, tho' fonictimes hia

witi]

0»' ths prsceding Metnoit*.

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>»Ith Clouds. Nor like a Land-Flood, which flows far and wide, with a rapid Stream, bearing down all afore it, and then dried up j but more like a Stream fed by livingSprings ; which*! tho'fometimfSincreafed by Showers, and at other Times di-' miiiiihcd by L^rought, yet 15 a iofjjittnl Stream.

Hi5 religious AiFedtions and Joys were not like Ihofc of fome, who have Rapture and migliiy Eniotioni from Time to. Time in Csiw^iatyr i i^ut have very little AHeflion in Rttjrementi and fecret Places. Tho' he was of a very fociabJoTemper, and loved thcCnmpany ofSaints,and dcliphlcd vzty nuich in religious Convetfation and in ftjcial Worlliip j yet his warmelt Af-fedlions and, (heir greateft KfFedU on animal Nature, and hia fwectei^Joys, were in his Clofc£-Dev&tions,and folitaryTranf-aitJons between God and his own Soul ; as is very obfervabla thro* his whole Courfe, from his Convctlion to his Death. He deligbted greatly infacrcdRetirements j and loved to get quite away fromall the World, to converfe wiihGoD alone,in fecret Duties. .

Mr. Braincrd'i Experiences and Contfofts were very far from being like ihofe of fttmc Pcrloii!^, which are attended with a fpiritual 5fltw/y, and put an End to their religious Dclircs and Longings, at leafi to the Edge and Ardency of them ; rcfting fatisfied in their own Attainments and Comforls, as having obtained their chief End, which is to extinguiih Iheir Fears of Hell, and give'em Confidence of the Favour of GOD. Efow far were hESteligiflusAf^"<;i^ions,Refre£hments, & Satisfafhons, from fuch an Operation and Influence as this ! On the contrary, how were they always attended with Longings and Thirrt-ings after greater Degrees of Cwtfcrmily vn^OTj ] And the gteater anri fweeler his Comforts were, the ttiore vehement were his Deiircs after/J^iiac/r. For'sis to be ohrerved, tint hisLongings were notfo much after joyful Difcoveries of God's Love and clear Views of his Title to future Advancement and etetnal Honours in Heaven \ a& after more ofprelent Holinels, greater Spirituality, an Heart more engaged for GOD, to love and exalt and depend on him, an Ability better 10 ferve him, to do more for his Glory, and to do ail that he did with more of a Regatd io Chrift as his Righteouiitefs and Strength i and after the Enlargement and Advancement of Chrilt's Kingdom in the Eatth. And hi* Deities were not idle wifliings and wouldingE, but fuch as were powerJul and efi-eflual, to animate him to the earneft, eager purfuit of thcfe Things, with uttnoft Diligence and uniaintiiig Labour and ijslf-denial. His

ComfutSa

Reflexions esi Obfervations

Oh the frccseimg Memoifs,"

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Comforts never pot an End to his fccking after GOD, and iirEving to obrain his Grace ; but on the eontraryj greatly eij-. £agcd and ejilargtd him therein.

His Religion did not cojrfili only ini'jK^^fWffW, with out ^rai-ike. All his inward illutninatiuns, Affedions and Comforts iteal'd to have atiireil IVitdency toFraaicc, and to iHuc in it: And (his, not meetly a Prafiice fl/^fl/rVj;/)'good, free front grofs ASs of Irrcligicn and Immorality ; But a Praflicc fsfit lively Holy and Chriftian, in a feHous, devout, litrtTible, meek, merciful, charijable, and beneficent Conveifalicn j nt^king (he Service of GOD, and our Lord Jefus tjhrift, the greatBU-linefs of Life, which lie was devoted to, and purfued with the greatoft Earnelinefi and Diligence to the End of Ills Day), thro' all Trials. In bint vtas to bo fern the right Way of being Hill! hi Ritipim : His Liviliiiiji in Religion did not confift meerly o[ mriiniy in his Ijciog lively with tiicTongae, but in, 13riJ ; not in being forward in ProfefEoo and outward Shetv, and abundant in declaring his own Experiences; but chiefly in being ailiveand abundant in thcLsbonrs^^l Duties of Religion ; naf ^ihfuiiti Bnfmifij h\itfervKl in spirit, ferving tij£ Lsrd^ and /living hii GiniTalion, nccsrtliti^ tu the Py til s_f Gad.

By ihefc Things, many high Pretenders to Religion,andPro-fefl'orSDl extraordinary fpiTlmal Experience, may be feofible, that Mr. Brainiri did greatly condemn iJdVkindof Religion; and liiat nor only in Word,but byE!tani|jle,bi.th living and dying ; as the whole Series of his Lhriftian Experience andPrac-tice, from bis Couvetfion to his Death,appears a conflanlCcn-demnation of it.

It can't be Dbjc[5fed,that theSeafon V!\iy he To much dlllLked the Religion of thefePretendeis, and why his own fo mocb differed from it, was, that his Experitncei weronot clifir. There h no Room to fay, they were otherwife, in any Refpe^t, 01 which ClearnefH of Experience has been wont to be infifted on; whether it be the Ckarnefs of their >nrwrff, or of their 0-iier, inA the Method his Sou! was at firft brought toReff ai-.d Com-forr in his Convcrfion. 1 am Ur Truro thinking ( and fo was he) rhatCltatncfsof I he OrAr of Experience is, in any Mca-furc, of equal Importance with the Ciearnefs of their hlalurs : I have fufficiently declaretl in my Difcourfe on Reii^istii^^clli^ *w f tvhich he exprefly aj>proved of and ret^ommendcd ) liiat I don't fnppolc,a (enChle DiffinSnefs of the Sfijiof the Spirii's Oporation jnd Method of fuccefTive Convidfionsand Iliiimira-ticns, isineceffiiry RetjuifHc toferfons teing received in full

Chstity,

Charity, as true Saints j provided the JVafirff of (be Thinjt they protefs, be right, and their Praaice ajieoable. Nsverlht-lefs 'tis obfeivable, ( which cuts ofFallObjc^ion from fuch as <" ; would be mofl anreafonably difpoied to objoit and cavil in (he I prefentCafe ) So it was, that Mr.SVffiwf^'sExperiences were not only clear in ihelaltcr Refpcif, but rcniarksbly fo !u tile former : So that there is nut perhaps one Inftance iniiveHun-dred [ rue Converts, that on this Accoujit can be parallerd ^ith him.

It can't be pretended , that the Rtafon why he fo much ah-bor'd and condcmtied ibe Nofioit! and KxpeiicnCei of thufe 'whofejff;? i'jr'rt conlifis in believing that ChiKHi/*«>/, and that Chrift died fur ibem ; without any previous I'xpericiice of Union of Heart to him, for his Excellency, as he is in himWf, and not for his fuppofod Love to them ; and who j udge of their Intereft in Chrift, their Juffilication, aiid GOD's Love to

ilbem not by their SanSification and the Exercifes and Eruits ofGrace, but by a fuppufcd imm^iplt Witnefs of the Spirit, by ' inward Euggeftion ; 1 fay, it can't be pretended, that (llcRca-fon why he fo much detefted and condemned fuch Opinions and Experiences, was, that he was of a too ll^o/Spirit i cither that he never was dead to the Law, never experienced i thoro' Work of Conviftion.was never fully bronght off from his own EighteoufnefE,and wean'd from the eld Ctyveuant^hy a thorough iigal Humiliation ; or that afterwards, be bad no great Degree of tvangiliial Humiliation, not living in a deep Senfe of his own Emptinefs, VVretchcdnefs, Poverty, and abfolule Do-pendance on the meer Grace of GOD through Chiifi. For hisConviaions of Sin.preceeding his iirftConfolatit^ns inChria, were exceeding tieepand thorough ; his Trouble and Exercife of Wind, by a Senfe of Sin and Mifery, very great and long continued ; U tbeLight let into hisMind at hisConveiliotl ani in progtefivc Sanaification, appears to have had its genuine humbling Inflaence upon him, to have kept him low in bi« DWnEyCE,not confiding in himfelf, but in Chril!, limtg h the ■^ ]:aiAsfthi SansfGOD,mil»kMS fit tbs Mircisf thi Lard

f Jijm » iltraat Lift.

Nor can it be pretended, that thcRcafon why he condernnsiJ tbofe, and other Things, which this Sort of People call the very Height of vital Religion and the Power of Godliucfs, was.thac he was a dead Ciri/lisin, and lived ia till Dark (as they exprefs ' thcmfelves ) that his Expericucei, tho' they might be true,

were not grest i thit he liid not live neat to GODj hatl but a p p fmalJ

fmall Acquaintanw with him, and had bm .dim Eight of ftf* nuial Thim;, If a„y, after they have r«d the p,ec«dins Aceomv.or ivl , i(™,rf! Life.will venture to pretend thu.! Aejwill only mew ,hat th,, tUmf.lm, are in the Dar*, atlj do indeed ^m Darks,/, frr Lighi, ami Lig/Ufsr Barhe/i

Tiacomillon with lh;i Sort of People, if there i/any one Whom they can't deny so exhibit goodEvidencoa of true God-linefs.whci yet appears to dinike theirNotionii,Js condemn ihofe Thizigi wherein ,hcy plate theHeight of ReJigtDn.toitifinuate,-that Ikiy^r, a/,md sftb, Ct,fi, and haue a Mind a ctirry Pa-', ■<i^r,mtbth,mdd, and the lite. Bm I prefirme, ihi. wirf no, he pretended concerning Mr. £r«WJ, by any one Perfon that has read the preceeding Account of hisLife. It muft needs appear aTh:ng notoriouitofuch.thst he was an extraordinarr and almoft linparallei'd Inftanee ( in thefe Times and theft Farlio/ihe World) of the contrary Difporuion: and iiaf whether we confider what he has recorded of his inward Ex-pintutt, from Time to Time; or his Pi-eil!ci,haw he in Fafl took up ana embraced the Cr,/s, and bore it conflantly, i„ his great iel -Denials, Labours, and Sufferings for the Name ofjefusjand went on wilhout fainting, without repmtins. ^ rep.ning, to his dying lUneft , How he dii not only, from riioeto Time relinquia and renounce the WlirW ficretly, in h.s ISeart, with the fgll and fetventConfentof all ihePowerl o his Sojjl ; but openly and aflually forfook the WarM, with It s Poflvllions, Delights, and common Comforts, to dwel! as itwere ^v,rlj wild Beafls, in a howlingWiidernefs ; wilh con-ftaniCbcarla^nef., complying with the numeious Hardfhip.

Jfktf 7f'""^^T}:"'"'- '"P'^ol' >heKingdoL cfh^d.ar Redeemer.. And befides, it appear, by the proceeding Hiftory, that he never did more condemn iho Things fore-msntion d, rem hsd a greater Senfe of their Delufion, pernicious Nature, and ill Tendency, and never was more full of Pity 10 inole that are led away with ,h™, than in hi. lad I!bors.andaiTimeswhen be had the nejreftl'rofpea of Death. fupp3fed himfelfto be on the very Brink of Elernity.atid locked

ThinLt '™" "'"'<' ^i "S^' he never fhoVld have any Thing moro to do with. Sorely he did not condemn thofe

.Im- , "!! ■ ' '?'" ^^'""^y "'"='' "' Mr.i(™«rfs Sen-

we have hi deliberate and felcmn Tho't, on this Subjeflfftir-llMzppesringb; his/.„/,„ ,„ Uu Shf^d; Dmy, before

On the preeadstt^ Memoirs*

En^Qtioned ; wbich, when he mote if, lie foppofeJ To be ( ai itproved) one of the/fl/?Th[ng» he fhouM ever write. I (hill bere infert a Fart of that Pnfact, as follows.

*< Haw much Strefs is kid by many upon fomc Things as «' being Effefla andEvidcncea of exalted Degrees of Rtligion> ** when they are fo far from being of any Impnrtanctj in it, <s that they are really irreligioui^ a Mixture ciSiSf'Lsvt,Itni3' ** giijBtknyJinA fp'ititmlPritJff, or perhaps ihe Inflticrice of ** ^fliflBtransformed into anAngcl oiLight i 1 Tiy,how much '' Strefs is laid on thefeThings by m^iny.I Hiiill nut ilf^tcriiiini;: -«* ButMismuch to befear'd, that while GOD wiicarrying <* oti a glorloua Work of Grace, and utidoiibtcc^ly paihuiing «* a Harveft of Souls to himfetf (which we fh.: uW iJways rc-** member withThajikfuljiefs)Numbers oforhera ii^vt ^t the "' Hime Time be«n. fatally deiudcd by theDevjeea of iheDtvi?, " aiidth*;ir own corrupt Hearta. Ii is to be ifur'ti^ that the " Cttivsr/tsm Kii foffie have no bctcer Foundation than this j '^* wa-That after ihcy have been under fume Cunccrn for '' their Souk for a whilCj and it may bemanlfeftcd fome a very great and ut^commun Diftrcfs and Agonies, ihcy «' have on a fudden ivsas'mid ihfyp-KCnB.iiT,in fDmePofiuic s' or other i perhaps on theCrofej hlcedirg and dying (or thtir »' Sins 5 or it may be, fmilirigon them, and thereby fignify-*=' ing his Love to them : And that ihefc and the I ike Things, *' iho'fflcer Imaginations, which have nothing Spiritual in f' them, have inftantly removed all tlieir Fears and DiftreJTefi, ** fill'd them with Rapturci of Joy, and made them imagine^ *= that Ihcy loved Chrlft with all their Hearts j whetj thcBot-" torn ofall was Nothing but Sdf-Uve. For when they ima-" gined thatChrifth^d been fogood to them as to fave them, *' and as it were to Tingle ihcn^ out of all the Wofld, they *== could not but feel fome kirtd of natural Gratitude to him ; ^* altho' they never had any fpiritual View of hia divineGIory, " Excellency andEeanty, at^d cotifcquently never had any <« Love to him for himfelf. Or that inftead of having fome *' fpch imaginary View of Chrifk ai has been roention'J, in «* order to remove their Diflrcia an<i giv? them Joy, fome ** having had J Paflflge, or perhaps many PafTauta of Scripittrt *' brought to their Mindi with Fawtr (ni they cxprefa it ) " fucb fiS that, Jea, ht cf gasd Cbtsr^thy Sins art forghen thee^ ■s and the like, they have immediately applied thefe PafTages s' to tbmffhiit fuppofing thai God hcieby mamfefted bt» «« p»£uliar Fay^r W H?ftni « If mention'd by Name : Never F p 3 Gonfidcringi

Reflections aad Obfervatiohi

'= eonfiJering, that ihcjf ars now giving Hted to new Rew^ " lations i there being iio fuch Thing rcvcil'ti in the Word '•^ fjfGad.ag that ^.&rj or ?6j/ particular Petfan has, or ever " (hall have hji Sins forgiven ; not yet rEmcmbfing, that Srs-*« /jra can, with a great deal of feeming Pertinency (anti per-" baps alfu with confiderable Power} bring Scripture to the •' Minds ofMen,ashediii to Cbrift himfelf. And thus thefe " rejojce upon having forae Scripture faddeoiy fuggcHeii tti-" them, orlmprefe'd upon their Minds, fuppoling they atc" " now the Children ofGod, juft as did (he oiher upon tbeit " imaginary Views of Chrift. Ani! 'tis faid, that ftnie Cpeal' ' ' of feeicg a greatii^if, which fiil'd all the Place where thq " were, and difpel'd all their Darknefs, Fears and OiftrcfTe!, " and almoft ravilliM their Sdali. While others have had ii " warmlf fujigcftedto Ibcir Miniis, not by any Paffage oS '* Scripture, hiit as it wtre by a fVhifper or Voice from Hea-•' ven, Ihiil GsA kvis thm, that Cbrifl is than, &c. which " grouiicllef! Imaginations and Suggellions of ifafan have had " the fame EStifl upon them, that the Delufions before men-

" »i»o'[thad on the others And as is the Coiwetflon

" of this Sort of Pcrfons, fo are their jifUr-Bupirhaai ; the •' whole being built uponTiiiagioation,lJrongimpreinons,and " fuddcn SuggcHiona msdetij their Minds: Whence they *' are uftjally extreme confident (as if immediately infermed " from God) not only of the Goodncfs of their own State, " but <if iheir infallible Knoivledgc, and abfolute Certainty,of *' ihe Truth of every Thing they pretend ttr, Hoderthe No-'^ tion of Religion ; and thus allReafoningwilll fome of them '* is utterly excluded^

,1 ." But 'lis reisarkablcof ihefe, that liiey are txirmel) hfi~ i' lunt in Regard of true Poverty of Spirit, Senfe of exceeding " Vilenefs in thcmfelves, fuch as frequently makes truly gri-'' cious Souls to ^raan^ hein^ bur^in'd'^ as aifo in Regard of " Mctfciicfs, Love and Gentlenefs towards Mankind, Ten-*' dernef^ oFConfcieisce in tbeir ordinary Affairs and Dealing! *' in the World. And 'tis rare to fee 'em deeply concerned " about the Principles and Ends of their Aflions, and under " Fears left they fliouM not eye the Glory of God chiefly, •■< butliveto Ihcrnfelves; or this at leafl is the Cafe in their .'-^.'ordinary Conduof, whether civil or religious. But if any !')' one of their panicuIarA'ariaai,which iilctrZeal hasefpoufed, "' bcattlck'd,thcyarc then fo confcientious, they muff hum, " if call'd ts it, fui i!:e Defence of It. Yet, at the fameTime,

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.. whBn they are fo «trffl«Jy ^'pl"' >" Eegard ot J=r<i F«-■. nus m'L T.mf,r, which have been mention d tbey ate .. uf^allyfull of 7^al, Concern and Fervency "> ^^Jh^ = " Of Re i-ion, and often iifcmfi of 'he-T. w.hmachWarmrb .. and EiW^"': A„d,othore.vhodonlknow,ordo,tt .. confldcrt wherein the £#«« of trueM.g.on =™<*= '^«-" in beiJ »»f>rmd t, tl,tlmai,^fChr,/i, trot m Point of .. Zealand Fervency only, b.t in »"-^'^^^T™P"V;f, « Praaicesi 1 fay, to thofe who don't duly obferveand dll .< lioguidr, they often appear like the Bell ot Men, •Tis common with this Sott of People to ^y, i^f ^"'''

Se luccefs they have, ir, the gr.atAlFcaions that are ft.rred up in G.d's People fsV. but to inlinuatc, on the eont ary that hiU^'twilhthmOppmmH; and particuLirlv, that <^0!l W'

it u lh, WiUofG,d thai lh,jlh>M l„p<.l .f™-. <^',l» I'l' Pi,pk IhiM hrfakB 'm ; and that m w»« Sucsip l< l'''i' fJid to attivi th,irAimmflr,thm.- But where can they find an Infhnce, among all their ,noft ilamiojr r^fl"''"^'^^''}^^^? fealed with fo unconteftiblcand mnd.rful Succefs of h s i.a bours,asMr. J3«;«.^, not only in qmckenrng and comfortinS God's Children, but alfo in a Work of Con«aion and Con verfion { which they own has in a great ^eaf"'^ ="r=^ for a long Time among themfelves ) with a nsoft vil.ble a»d afto nifhing Manifeftalion of God's Power, on Subjeas fo u p e pared, and that had been brought up and lived, fo™=°f'J'™ loold Age, in the deepefl Prejudices againftlhoveryfirftPrm ciples of Chriflianity ; the divine Power accotnpanyjng Wa Labours, producing the mod remarltable and abiding Change, turningthcWildernefs into a fruitful Jield, ^""i "''S'.fi that whichtas aDefart indeed to bud and bloflom as tbeRofe? An* (his allbo' he was not only otie of their greatelt OfpjniT.tnn their Errors; but alfo one of ihofe they cal the (?.ri^«I A^ «f/fry i firft esamined and liccnfed to preach by /uJ> '^"""'"' and fent forth among the Heathen by /«i MmM: 1 and « letwarus otdained by fuch MM/lir,; always (lirea=d by tn.m, and united with them in theitConaftories.andAdmmift-ations. and even abhorting thePraaice of thofe who give out,H.t« im ought to be renounced and fcparatcd from, and thjlt 1 eacu"* may be ordjincd by Ljj-Mcn.

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It cannot be pretended by thsfe Men, ihit Mr. BramriX eondemned llieir Religion, only becaafc he wa mtatq^i„ui ' Vnth tbrn, and had not Opportunity for fall ObfsfvitJonuf (he ' Naturc,Opetation& Tendtncy of .heit£*^„;„f„ : rot he had abundant and peculiar Opportuniticj of fuch Obfervation and Acquaintance ; He lived througk ihs latt exlraordinify Time of rehgious Commotion, and hw the Beginning and End, ihs Good and she Bad of it: He had Opponuniiy to fee the various Operations and Effefls, that were wrought in this Seafon, more <rf«/W>, than any Perfon i iinow of : His native Place was about the middle of Cmnimm; and he wai much con-verfantin all Parts of that Cvlony : Ho was converfant in the tafttrnPartsof ir, after [he Religion, which he condemned, began much to prevad ihere : He wai convcrfant with the Ecaious People oniw^- IfanAJrmi oncEad of the Ifland to the Ether i andidfo,nA'„„ y,,/^,, tr^i P,„„fiha„ia; will, Peo-pic of vanmiJ Nations : He had fsroe fpecial Opportunities in fome Places in (his Prorince ( M„Jach,.r„„_Ba,) where has been very much of this Sort of Religion, and at a Time when Itgrcally prevailed ; He had comerfed fedifpult-d with Abun- ' daticE of this Kind of People in various Fart,, as he told me ■ and alfo informed me, that he had (sen fomethiiis of (hefime Appearance, in lome of the lid'iani, whom he had preached lo, and hifl Opportunity lo fee the beginning and End of them. And bcfidts. Mi. BrsiKrd could fpeak mare feelingiv and un-dcfttandingly concerning th=fe Tbirgs, beCBufe ilieie was once a Time when he was drawn away into an Eaeem of lhcm,and for a ftort Seafon had unilcd himfelf to this Kind of People, and parlook, hi fome Refpedls, of their Spiiit and Behaviour.

But f proceed to another Obfcrralion on the foreaoinK Memoirs. ' • a a.

II. This Hlfloryof Mr. BraiWrVs may help us lo tnalte U!/lit:aunt among (he high religious j^,a™irj,and remarJcable Imprrffum made nn the Minds of Perfons, in a Time of great Arvj*,r.rJr»,a!id Rivhahf RiUgim ; and may convince us, that tiiSrearenot only Diffiniabns in TSwrf, invented to fave the Ctedin.f ptetentled Revivals of Religion, and what is called Ihi Exf,r,,„„ „f ih, Opiralimi tf th, Spirit; but Difiinaions Ibatdoaauall, tulre Place In the Courfe of £sijj|(j, and hav{ 3 real Hnd evident Foundation in Fc^.

Many Jami ii/i//confound Things, blend al! (ogether, and fay, 'TzialUiiit i'ti; all if thijami Strt, So there are many

■hat

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Ofl ihs prittidiKg Memoirs,

iiiat fay concerning the Religion moS generally prevailinij among the ^s/isrur;/?!, and the Affeflion! they manilcft, Tjj ihi jam that woj M mir tic Lmijivm Tiari fl^J- And fome that have read iVfr. Brainfir^'s Journal,giving an Account of the extraordinary Things that have coma to pafi among Ihchdiam in Niw-Jirfiy, fay, 'Til niidattis tht fami Thins '*"' 'ppt^'i^ is mm; Piacii araonj/S tMnglifh, vahiA tm new previd naught, ftd ami l» that whish ii wcrfi than xnthing. And all the Reafort they have thus to determine all to be tht/nmt Ifcri, and ihi fim Spirit, is,that (he one manilefted hiBhAITcaions.and fo do the other 1 the great Affeflions ol the one had foine influence on theit Bodies, and fo have ihe other; the one ufe (heTernia ConmEiiaVfConvtrftuns Uumlititisn^Camn^ to Chr'i/I^DiJtamfiiti Bxpirimns, Sjc. and fo do the other ; the Impreliions on the one arc attended with a great deal of Zeal, and fo it is with ihe other ; the AfFeflions of the one difpofe *eni to fpealt much about Things of Religion, and fo do the other i the one delight much in religious Meetings, and fo do theother.—. The Agreement, that appears in thefe, and fuch like Things, make 'cm conclude, (hatfurelyall is alike,all is the fame Work. Whsrca3,on a doferlnfpeaion &c-ilicalEicamination,it would appear, that notwithllandina an Agreement in fuch Circuni-flanccs, yet indeed there is a valt Difference, both in Jijjmct and FruitI, A confiderable Part of (be religious Operations, th at were fix or fcvt n Years ago,efpccial ly towards the latlerPart of that extraordinary Seafon, was doubtlefs of the fame Sort wilh the Religion of the S(;.ar<«iy/i ; but not all : There were many, whofe Experiences were, like Mr. Braiiiir^t,in. ajudg-ment of Charily, genuine and inconteflible.

Not only do tiitOppofers of all Religion conflRlng in powerful Operations and AiJiaions, thus confound Things ; hut msnyof ihsPrittnilin la fuch Relii^ton do lb. They Ihat have been theSubjcas of fome fort of vehement,but vain Operations on their Mind, when the,! hear the Relarion of tfic Expe'i-cnces of fome real and eminent ClbrilHans, they fay,Tbcii llx- . periences are of the fame fort i So they fay, they arc jult like the Experiences of eminentChriSians in former Times,which we have printed Acceunts of. So, 1 doubt not, but there art! many deluded People, If they fliould rcaii Ihepreceedinj Ac-countof Mr. Br«WJ's Life, who reading wiihoutmuchUn-dcrftanding, or carefulObfervation, woulJ fay, without Heli-taiion, that fomcThings which Ihcy have met with, are of the Tsry fiiHt Kind witSs what ke cxprefles: When the Agreement

Eei!e6:ions md Ohfetvauons

is only infomegeneralCircumRanccSjOi' fomeparticularThjn;^ th^ are fuperficial, and bebnging as it were to the ProfeSioj ind OtJt-fide of RcligBO ; buc the inward Temper of Mind and ttie Fruits in Praftlce^ ^re as oppofuc and diflant a^ Eaft and Weft.

Many hoKsff gssd^ta^As alfo, and /rirs Chri/iiam, don't ve/y well know how lo make a Difference. The glH^eritig Appearance and glaring L^tjow ol falfc HcJigion dazzles tbeir Eye& ^, and ihcy fna^eEimes are To d<:iud<.'d by it, that tha^ look on fonic of thefe lmi]rcfliuns, which H}'pDcri'[t:s tell ofj as th9; bnghtefl ExpeEieiiccs. And thu' ihcy bsve Experienced nO liichXhings ihtiii/t;lvi:Bjthey think, it is becaufethey are vaftljr lowef in Attainments, and but Babes, in Comparifon af jheta fflatning Chrifiians- Yea, fpmetimCa frcm their di£feiing w much from (bofe whn make fu [>reiit a Show, they doubt whe-. ther they iiavc any Cr.itc at a]!. And it is a hard Thing, !? bring many well-meariing People to make proper Diftinftioits in this Cafe ; and efpccially to maintain and fiand by 'cm ^ through a certain Wcsknefi ihey unhapply ]abcut o/j whereby they are liable to be overcome whh the Glare of cutward Appe^ranc^s^ 7'hu5, if in a fcdaie Hour ihcy ate by Reafonin^ broughito alli^w ftichand fuch Diftin^tlons, yet the next Time they come in the Way of the great Show of falfe ReligioPj the dazzling Appearance fwallows them up, and they are carried away. Thus'the Devi], by his cunning Artifices, eafily dazzles ihe feeble Sight of Men, and puts 'em teyond a Capacity of a proper f^xcicife of Confider^iticOj or hearkning to iheDidYaics of calmThought h cool Underihnd-ing. When they perceive the great AfFcdUon, earneit Talk, firong Voice, aflured Looks., val± ConfidencCiandbnidAiTcitr cns'j of thefe empty afTuming Pretenders, they are over-bojn, iofe ihe Pofreflion of iheir Judgm^ntj and fay, Sursly theft JHfn art in theRight^ God is zvifb 'em of a Truth .- Bnd ib they are carried a'v^'ay, not with Light and Redfan, but ( like Children) as it were with a firong; Wi[jd,

This cDvifoiinding all Thinj^s together,that have a fair Shew, is hut afting the P&rtof aChild, that goj/ig into a Shop,where a variety of Wares are expafed tuSalc (:iU of a fblning Appearance ; fomeVcfiels of Gdd and f-ilver,and fomeDiamands and other precious Stonts ; and other Things that are Toys of littleValue ; uhich are of fume bafc Metal gili,orGlafspo-lilhed, and painted with cijrj'ousCo]Qurs,orcot likeDiamondsJ f^iould efl:£i;in all aljkf ^ Zi'A give as gic^t a Piicc for ihe vile as

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ibl the precious : Oi'tis like tlic Condua of tome unfkilful ia(b Fctfon, who finJinp himfilf deceived by foine of ihe Wares he tiad l>ouglitai that Shop, flionld at once condudc, a)l be there faw was of noValcc ; and purfuant to fuch aConciuJion, when afterwaids he has true Gold and Diamiiods cfFercd him, enough to entich bim and enable biin So live lite a Pfiacc all his Da) b, he (hould throw it all into ths Sea.

Em we mtifl get into another Way. Tlie want of tJiftin-guifning in Tilings that appertain to cxperinicnla! Religion, i« one of the chief Miferics of the profeffing World. 'Tis attended with very many inofi difmai Coofequenccs; Multitudes of Souls are fatally deluded about ihrinfelvcs, and their own State} and fo are eternally undone ; Hypocrites are confirmed in their Dciuaons, and e^iceedingly poffed up witll Pride : Many fnicere Ciiriftians are drcadfally pcTplexed, darkened, tempted, and drawn afide from the Way of Duty ; and fomctimes fadly tainted with falfe Religion, to the great Diflionout ot Chriiiianity,and Hurt of tiieir own Souls : fome of the moft dmgerotis and perniciousEiicmics ofReligion in the World ( tho' called bright Chriilians ) aro encouraged mi honoured; who ought to be difcountenanced and fhun'd by every Body : And Prejudices are begotten and confirmed in vaft Multitudes, agaiiift every Thing v?herein the Power and Effcnce of Godliiiefs confilfs; and in llieEnd Udlm.& Atheifen. are promoted.

]II, The foregoing Account of Mr. Bfswtri's Life may agord Matter of Conviflion, that there is indeed fuch aThing as ((ue apsrimmtal Riligic!,, ariiing from immediate diuiae Infiueticcs,rupcinaturally snlightniog and convincingthcMind, ani powerfully imprcfrmg, qniciteniiig, failflifying, and go-vetnin!! theHeart ; which Religion is indeed an amiable 1 hing, of happy Tendency, and of no hurtful Confequence to human Sscitiy i notwilhaanding theie having been fo manyi'retenccs end Appearances of what is called experimental vital Ke-ligion, that have proved to be nothing but vain, ptmraous Jintbufsafm. ,. i /- r

!£ any infift, that Mr. Brm„iri-t Religion was EnlhMm, and nothinc iut a flrange Heat and blind Fervour of Mind, I arifing from the flrong Fancies and Dreams of a notiooal whimfical Brain ; I wouid aflt, if it be fo, that fuch Things aa thcfe are the Fruits of Enlhuriafm, vix. a great Degfeeof HMcfty and Kinflieity/mcere and earneft Dcdfcs andEndea-

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Rcfiedions ajtJ Obferrations

voTira, to know and d* Vfhatevcr is right, and to avciicJ «very , Thing that is wrong ; an high Degree of Love to God, De-lightinthc Perfeftians of his Nature, placingibe Happineft of Life \n him j not only In contenipUling him, but m being sftive m pleafirg and rervinghimi a. £rm iiad undoubting Ed]«f iji th.^ Mijfiih^ as the Kavioiirof the World, ibe great Prophet of Godj and King of God's Church j together with great Love 10 him, Delight and Complacence in the Way of Salvation by him, and lodging for ihcEnUig«iiicnt of hisKing-dom ; earncft Defirea that God may he glorified and the Jt/^^dA'fi Kingdom advanced, whatever Inftrumenta are madj^ ufe of; uncommon Refignation to the Will of God» and tha^T under vafl Trials ; great and univerfal EeBevoIeiice (o f^anTM kiiid, tes-chijigallSortB of Pcrraoswithout Oiltinttionj maiii-rS feftfld in Swectiicfs of Speech and Jichaviour.kind Treatinent,. Mercy, Ijiberality, and esrncli leeking (he Good of the Souls;" and Bodies of Men 5 attended with extraordinKry Humility* MeeknelsiForgivenafs of Injuries,and Love to EtiemJes i and.^ a greatAbhurreflce Qf a contrary Spirit andPra£tice ; not onlj^^ as appearing in others, but wbereinfocver if had appeared mv^ himfelf; cauting the moft bitter Repentance* and BrokenneftM ol Hejrt on Account of any paftliiftances of fuch a CondmStiv A modeltj difcreet & decentDeportinent, among Superiours, Jfiferjours and Equals; a mof^ diligent Improvement ofTfm?, and earneftCats to lot no Part of it ; grcas Watchfulnef*. ' againft all Sorts of Sin, oftleart. Speech, and Ad:ion : And^ this Eftampleand theft Eade^vours attended with laofl Iiappjr Fruits^ and bleiTedEftetSj on otherSj in humanizing, civitizing^ and wonderfully reforming and trflnsfoimicig (bmeof the nioft brytifh Savages ; Jd!e, Immoral, Drunkards, Murdereis.grofs , Idolaters, and Wizards ; bripging them to permanentSobriety^ Uiligeneej Devotion,Honefty, Coorcientioufnefij andCharrty ; And the foregoing; amiable Virtues ^rni fticcef^fii! Labours &U ending: a( laft in amarvellou3PcacejUBmoveab]eStauility,Ca]m- ' nefs, and Rcfiifnsiioq, in the fenfiblu Approaches of Dca;tb ; with Longing foj-thcHeaveniyStaie; not only for (heHnnoacs and cirCymJ! .mini Ad^'^ntageiof it,but above al! for ihemur^i Perfeiftinn, and holy aod bJelTedEmployments of it: And thefe Tilings \x\ :^ Pcrfon irtdifputably of good Uoderftandiij^; and Ju'gnient: Ifay* if all ihef.: Thiols are the ^xmt% oi Ertihu-fiafm, why fiioiild not Enlbi/fiiifm be thought a deniable Hndg excellent Thing ? For what <5af> true Religion, whiLt can the tell Philgfophy do ini?re ? U Va^ontsand Whimfy Wii! luring . ■ ■ Men

On iU pncssding Memoirs.' ^5^

M«.totl.cmoffi thorough Vjrt'^^ .^tf t*^''"^^ ^^^^^^^^ fmitfulMoralltv i and will mamtam it throKgh aCouxfe a Life /mnded with many Trials ) without Affeaat.on or belf Exj.

It would perhaps be .Prcj«d« wuh f°m=,»E" "" T^rof ofMr, B™Lr^'sMigbn, ifUhid begun m <1" ^ ™' °*

ir; ht"^:;.':'vr^ror ,e;.a. D«d..M^ h.

,0 deteirainc that ihers is notbmg m 3 1 ibe Ta,k ab»"t ta,|

rhrii Aic becsufe manv that pielcnii to thcic i Bings, ^"^ ft tush b others tohlv. b Jntb= Suhje* of '™.n"™ff

of i ■;„ .biding Kt.at Change, a fi«..™n 'Z^* ^^^^ ; ''(* w I nf GOD- ihsFrutsof f^=h ExpeilwCK through

JJ^bleftid lilue and Event of it iu Uio a„d Dealll.

IV.. Th. p,.c=ed!nsHift.ry 5™'» "f^-f'^f ^^n^tl

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Os tie picli™^ Menaoits,

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that JbcTC is Trmh, Su^itance, or Value in the main of Mr. £raigtrd's Relinicn, it will undoubtedly follow,tlia( thoft Doc-ttiuea iiredivias ; Since 'tis evident, that ihc wlwle of it, from ^ Bejinning to End, i> according to thai Scliemc of Things 5 awA built Bii thofe AppreiietiiionSi Notions, and Views, tliat are^f produced arid cftubiiflied in the Mind by thofe Do£irines, Ha , was brought by Doi^ritieaof this Kind, to his Atyakenitig, atid j de^p Concern about Thing!i of a fpiritual and »letnal Nature}, 1 and by thefeDoflrines his Convictions were maintained antT^ carried an ; and hitCimverfion was cvidenti}' altogether agreed able to this Scheme, but by no Means agreeing with ihe con>P trjrv ; and utterly incoufilfent with the jdj-inrnjan Notion of CtmverJton or Repentance. HisConveifion was plainly founds-cd in a clear ftrong ConviSiotl, and undoubting Perfwafian . of the TtBth of thofe Tliinpis appertaining to tliefe Dofltines, j which Artnlnmni moii objcii againfi, aiid which his own Min4 had contended moti about. And his Converfion was no COrtf firmiiig and perfciiing of moral Principles and Habits, by Ufc and Praflicc; and his own Labour in an induftrions (iifciplin-inghimfelf, togcllier tvitl) the con curriog Suggeftions and conspiring Alia of GOD'S Spirit ; But entirely a fupcrtiatural Woflc, at once turning biro fromOaricners tu marvcllousLight, and from (he Power of Sin to theDominion of divine and holy Principles ; an EfFcfl, in no Regard produced by hit Strength or Labour, or obtained by 4u Vertue i and not acconiplifh'tl 'tilihc wasfirH brouglit to a full Conviflion that all his owa Venue, Sirength, Labours, and Endeavours could never avail any Thing to the producing or procuring ibis EifetS,

Avery little while before, his Mind was full of the fame Cavils again ft thi;J>.aiinei of LiOfJ's Sovereign Grace, which are made by Jrinimons ; And his Heart full even of a raging Oppofition to 'cm. AndCJOD was pleafed to perform this good Work in bimjuit after a fulliind had been put to this Cavilling aodOppofition; after hcivascniirely convinced,that he was dead in Si 11, and was in die Hands of UOD, S3 the abfolulely fove-leign, unobligeJ, fole Difpofer and Author of true fjolincis. GOD'S fliewiiig himiVIercy at fuch a Tinni.is a Confiimation, ' that this was al'reparitionforMttcyi&confequenlis,that thefo ; Things which he was convinced of, were true ; While heop-pofed lliefs ThiiiKS, he was ihe Suhita of no fueh Mercy; tho' he fo eamefllv fiughi it, and prayed for it wiill fo much Painfulnefs, Cj,c and Srrii'.iiiei! in Religion : But when once his Opporiiion is fuliy fubdusd; and he is bwught to fdboiii to

iho

the Tiaths, which he before had oppofed,with full C<inv,au)„, hen the Mercy hefougbtforis granted, w.th abundant Light L^ atEvidettcf and exceeding Joy, and he teaps the fwee.Fr„,t ^il,\\ bk Li^e after.St in the Valley of the Shadow of Death, "'a his ConvrKothe was brought to fee the Glory of that Way o Salvation by Chtift, that is taught ,n wha.ateca ed

Jovand Gontplacenctr, to embrace and acquiefce tn 'h»t Way of Salvation. He was in his Converfion, it, all ^^^f^^'^'" ' ^o. ofe V?ews, and lh« State o( Mind, which ihefeDoanne, ftew to be neo ffaty. And if his Coi.verliun wa, auy rcalCon-Son° or any Th ng belides a meet Whim, and if the R h-g „ of'his Lit? was a^y Thing elfe buta belles oi reaks o a IhimacalMind, then this one grand I'tincpe, "^f^it, nend! the whole Difference bctwean CahmxIH and Armm, rundei1>hle,«^. That the Grace or Vertue of 'rulygoodT Mei° not ooyd.ffersfrom the Vertueof others ,™l>«r^^.buti f^en i" W.t«.. aU KM. If ever Mr. B™«rJ was t uly . , ,rfr„,„ Sin to GOD al all, or ever became truly Rellgt-::on:can'relnaWydo.b,'bu.thatl.sC.,verr,o„«

the Time when he fuppofed it to be : The Changs he thui

rcps'd under, and he was then apparently fi.ft brought to hjKind of Rehgion. that ren,arkable "™^>!^;,r;J[;-r otM.nd, which he held al his ^'^^ l^'f J^\^r,l'-Z.^ [hews it to be different, in Nat^" urJ Kmd from all <n^'^■'"=^' news It to " nf before. It vfas ev dently wrought at

vir.cin^ II in .Temper: For it was fooo atler bis

a^'Th" bee rcLakabl foil o%lafphemy, and a vehement Ccifoenr,;X™?tagainftGo^nd great Op

,&^:c:l^Si:t^::^:^^?Si B:;:^^as«;^Sr::^:^^r::;r^f £

i^^yi;t:^;i^^^--^='"^S

'^c^able'ofjudgfng : he l.i Opp«tun.,y »k—^H^^f^f,

Reflefcioni sHd Obfsrvatiofis

praflifeJ a great deal of Religion before, was exceeding ftri^ and eonfc[ciitiou5, and had continued fo for a long Time j had various religious Aiudtioiis, with which he often flattered tiitnfelf, and tbmetimes pleafcd himfelf as being aavf in a good Eflate; And after he had thofe new Experietices, that began in his Converfion^ they were conlinueti to the End oi hisLife; long enough for him thoroughly to obferve their Nature^ and compare 'cm with what had been before, Deubtiefs he was {Oinpsi tutniii J and was at leaft one of fo good an Undeilfand-ing and Judgtneots as to be pretty wcl] capabk of difcerninj and comparing the Things that paiTed in hia own Mind.

*Tis further obfervable, that hi j Religion all along operated in fiich aManner as tended to confirm hisMind In thcDodrines' of God's abfolute Sovereignty, Man'fl univctfaland intite ISC'-pendance on CJod'fl Power and Grace, ^c. The more his Re-fcgion prevailed in his fieart, a[^d the fuller he was of divine Love,and of clear and de'ightfulViewsof fpiritual Things,and the more his f-ieart was engaged in God's Service ; the more fenfible be was of the Certainty and {beE>:celIency and Importance of thefe Truths, and the more he Vi^as aftedted with thern and rejoyced in them. And he declares particularly, that when he lay for a long while on theVeige of tiie eternal World, often eNpc£tingto be io that World in a fewMinules.yet at the fame Time enjoying great Serenity of Mind, and Clearnefs of Thoyght, and being itiofl apparently in a peCLtliar Manner at a Diifance fi^om an enthuflatiical Frame, he <si thai Thne/avj tharly ibeTiJilh fl/ ihofe grtatDoiJrinii ofthsQofpii^iuhUh dfeju^lf IJiUd the Doi^rlncs of Grace, sndmvsr feh himjtlf f& iopiiiiit if' J/7«!)ti/?rfltfn^ tbi Truth ofihtm.

So that '[is very evidejtt,Mr.5rfliBtfrJ's Religion was wholly correfpotident to what is called the Calvinijlkal Sihstne^ and VV35 the Efled of thofe DotSrincs applied to his Heart: And certainly it cannot be denied, that the EfF^fft was good, unicfs

we tLiin Acheifls, or Deifts I would all;, whether there

beany ftich Thing, in Reality, as Chrifisart Devstisnf — If there be, what is it } VthiK is its Ni^iure ? And what its juflMeafore? Should it not bein a great Degree ? We read abundantly in Scripture, of loving G&d with aU the Hearty vjith all the Ssulf iviih all theMiitd^arid vikb ail the Elrtagih, of Ds-r lighting in Gcd^ o[ Rtji^cing in tht Lardt Rijoycing Tvitlt "Jiif siafpifiiiihU and full >if Gkn^tbi SouPi Magni/pig ibeLerd^ nir/ling far God, Utrngriag and Thirfliat aftir Rigblm'frifi, tkt Sigti irmiing far tbi Ungini it bath is Gui'i Ju^zmtUt

Pre^iis

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0» ihe frtcet^itg Msitioi

301

Praw' H G'd wilh Grminis that romM h, ultirii, Mmrmf r,r Si^mithairikM Heart avd to^trk. Spirit, &c. How f„ 1 i, the Book of ffalBis, and other Farts of Scripture, of foci. Things astbtfe ! Now wbereirl do thefe Tbtnss, a! exprefs'd

f,r

by and apn'!ariilg m

Mr. flrdjnu'-i',either thcTbings thim&ives.

rtheirEffeasand Fruits, differ from tjic Scnpture-Repre-ient»t'.insF Thefe Things he was brought to by that ftrange and wonderful Transfonnalion of the Man, tvhich he ca led his (knvirfia^ And don't this well agree with what IS fo often laid in Old Teffameot and New, concerning the gimnz sf fl^/w Hiort, trmliH " "f*' «P''"''' " ^""^ r"'™"'" '*' %-ril,f th M!nJ. I, bii-l funaifad thrmglxitit, buommi a ma, Crislmt &c >. Now where is there to be found an jSrmntaK . Converfion orRepentsi)Ce,conliiting in fo great and admirable | a Chanac ' Can iiieArmiriintn produce an lolfance, witlnn this A.e audVo, plainly, within our Reach and View of fuch a Reformation, f„ch a Trausfotmation of a Man, to Scnpturat Devotion Heavenly-Mindedneft, and trucChriftian Moraljty, in one that befeie lived without thefe Things, on A,:tt,t,t of (fefrPrtnoiples.and through the lofluence of the.rDodlrlnes

And here, is worthy to be confidcrcd not only ihetffea of Cal!,;i,/!i!al Doa,\na {IS they are called) on Mr. Urat'^ril himi'elf, butaifothcEfreaof the fame Doatincs, as taught and inculcated by him, on «fe». 'Tis abundanlly pretended and alfaled of late, that thefe Doarines tend to uoderm.ne ll.ever, Foondations of all Religion and Morality, andtoen-C'vale and vacate all reafonable Motives to the Exercife and rr.a,^c of them, and lay invincible Stumbhng-Biocki be-tore IrSM to hinder their embracing Chrtllianity 1 and that She onirary Doarines are the ftuitfulPrincipl!! of Virtue ard Goodiiefs, fet Religion on it's right Bafts, repiefcnt Jr man antiab.e Light, jii.e it's Motives their full force, =•"!/commend It 10 the Reafon and common Senfe of Mankind.-- But w^ere can Ihev find an Inftance of fo great and hgnal an ttedl, tjf Their Di^arir,es, in bringing hfiMi, who B-ere at iich a D,[i»nce from all that is Civil, Hunaan.SobSr, Rational, and Corifdan, and fo full of inveterate Prejudices aEa.nfl thefe Thintts, to fuch a Degree of Hainaoity, Civility,^Kterci eof Reafon, Self-denial, and ChrlHian Venue .' .f™.««w place Reli£lonin^™/rf/; Let them bring an nffance of the, Doarines producing fuch aTraosformalion of aPeople .nlointl cimr.aJ. 'Tis ffrauge, if tb^ Alw.ifc God fo orders i hiep in his Frovideiicc, that isafoaable and .propa Mat,!, and btt

ReBeffians and Obfervations

Cs the preees^iHi Meraoinl

goj

cwn Mmos, which hehimrelfSiasappoinfEdjflioulJ in noj:nows rcmarJcablc Inrtaiice be i]:tftr>jnK-iif3l (o produce fp good an Ef-f«£t ; ^nEflidJ ia agreable lo his owciWord & iViind, and that VCTjiiFeft far wbicb he appointed thefe cxcelkntMeans i that I they Ihould Jiot be foSuccefsfuljas thofeMeaiis which are.nsi his owii» buE very conurary to'em» and of ^contrary Tendency; Means tbst src in then^feives very abruitij and tend to rool all Religion and Virtue cut of the World, to .prtimote and efia-

ibliib Infideiit^',3iid to lay an infiiperableStumbling Block he--iojc Pagain, to iiii:der their embracing the G^sfptI; I fay, if this be the trite State of the Cafe, \is certainly pretty w&n^ derful, and an Event waithy of feme AtEeutiun.

I knoVF, tliai many will be ready to fay, /( h tw fisn fit, % f^hry in ibff^ork^lhdt kai in^Hwm'tamntigMr.Biamem'sInGmnti 'Tis btii Is ivBtt end Jtt iht fittal Evmt \ Itmay h, all wilUsmt U mlhing by ftrj by i To VTbiel) J anfrt'er (not to tnfjft, that it will not /0II0W5 acccrdii;g to Jrminiati Principles, they are not 'nowtrueCbrifiians»rea!Iyp!ous& godly,tho' ihey /JW^faliaway at]dcome to nothing) that 1 never fuppcfed, evcty one of thol^ J/Ti/wflf,whoinProfeiJion rcriounced their Heathcniftn fc vihbly etnbraced Cbriftianily, and have had feme Appearance of Piety, wili finally prove mie Converts : If two thirds, or indeed one half of 'em ( as f teat a Proportion as there ia in the Parablcof the SVjjfiV^i'mjftculdperfcvere ; it will be fuffici-ent to fliev^ ihe Work, wrought among ihem, to have been ttuly admitsbie fltid glorions, Bui fo muchof Permanence of their Religion has already appearcdj as iHews it to he fomething elfe behdes art/ati/isn Humour (if good Mood, orany tranfienE Effcdi in the Conceits,Notions, and Affedlions of ihefc ignO' rantPeople, excited at a particular Turn, by artful Manage-mertt. For 'tia now more than ihrtt ]^eflrjago,lhal thisWojk t began aninng llitjn^,anil a remarkabkChange appeared in many of ihcni ; tince wlii£:li Time the Number oi vifible Converts lias greatly increaftd ; And by repeated Accounts, from feve-lal Hands, they fiil! generally pcrfevere iiuliiigent Religion and i!ri£t Vcftue. 1 ihinjc worthy to be here inferEed,ai^!rcr from ayonng Gcntl(;nian,a Candidate for theMiniltry, one ofthofe before mentioned, appointed by the hotloutableComniinionets in^c/lcti,-i& ^^iI^!0^arics to thcBeatbenof ihs Sipi N^litins, fo called J vho, by their Order, dwelt with Mr. yaknBraimr^, «mong Ihefe Cl-nlliian /nJrflrj, in order to their being prepared for ihe Bnfincfs .F their MilEon. The Letter was tvritien ffcm rhtnce.to hJs Parefltsheiein A^i?r;*£?ffr^it!Vj& is as follow?,

BitM,

Btlhd, in Mm-Jirfiy, Jan. I4- I74-J.*-Hononted and dear Parents, u b ^ .

« » Ftei a long and uncomfortable Journey, by Realon ot A " bad Weather, 1 arrived at Mr. Brainird'a, the 6th -< of this Mam i where 1 delign to Kay this Winter :Antl " asvet, Hpin many Accounts, am well fatisfied with tiiy <. coming hither. The State and Circumftances of the/»-« aVMj, fpirltujland temporal,much exceed what Icxpeaed, .. I have clideavbured to acquaint my felf wtth the State of " (iiehdiam in general, with particular Perfons, and with .< the School; as much as the fliort Time I have been hero " wotjld admit of. And notwithftanding my EKpeflations « were very much raifed, from Mr. Dnid BromPd s jour-" nil, and from paiticulai Informations from bim 5 yet 1, >■ muft tonfels, that in many Refpefls, itey arc not equal to >' that which now appearsm me to be true, concerning tlrel .< eloiious Work of divine Grace atnongft the hdia>,!. _

<> The Evening after 1 came to Town, 1 had Opportunity <= to fee the hdian^ together, wbilft theRev.Mr^r(/«r " nieach'd to them 1 At which Time there appeared tl very « Lneral and uncommon Serioufnefs and Solemnity m the .' CengiegaMn: And this appcar'd to me ttj be the Eftea .. of an inward Senfe of the Importance of d.v.ne Truths. <i and notbecaufe they were hearing 1 Stranger: Which was .< abundantly confirmed to me the »ea babbath, when there .< was the fame devout Attendance on divme bervice, and a .< farpiizing Solemnity appealing in the Performance of each .. Part of divine Worfhip. And fome, who are hopefully true . = Chriftians.appear 10 have been at thatX.me much enliven' d " and comforted ; not from any obfervahleCommotions then, .< but from Converfation afterwards: And olheis feem d to " be under prefiing Concern for their Souls. I have endea-« voured to acquaint my felf with particular Perfons i many " of whom feem to be very hiimbk and growing Chriftians_; " altho- fomeofthem ( as 1 am informed) vjete befote their <I ConverfionmoflmonffrounyWicked.

« Religious Convcrfation feems to be very pleafing and « deliahtful to many, and efpecially that; which relates to .. the Exercifss of the Heart. And many h=re don t feem " to be real Chiiilians only, but growing Chitflians a»0 ; <. as weU in doflrinal, as experimental Knowledge. Behdffi " mvConvev ration with patticularPcrfons,! have had Uppor-«. [unity K attend upon one of Mr, Breiwrri's caieohet.cat

Refieflions and Obftfvations

,"

*' Le£t«res; where I was furprizcd at ihcir Readinefa in '* aniwering Qiieftioiis which they had nut been ufcd to ; «f Aldio' Mr.iJrffJniri/complained tnuch of their uncommon i *' Deficiency. It is furprizing, to fed ihjs People, who not «' bog fince were led Captive by Satan at his Will, and liv-" ing in ibe Fradiice of all manner of Abominations, wiih-**' nut the leaft Senfe even of moral Honeftyj yet nowJivingi] *' foberly and regularly, and not f«eki:ig every Man his own,' ** but every Man, in fame Seiife, hia Neighbour's Good ; " and to fee ihefe, who but a little while pafl'^ knew nothing^j ** of the true GOD, now v/orfiiipping Him in a folen^n anij ** devout Manner ; not only in publick^ but in their Famt-'-** lies and in Secret i whkh is manifeltly the Cafe ; it beini^_ *" a difficult Thing to walk out in the Woods in the Morn" f' ing, without diiturhlng Pcrfona at their fecret Devotion* .** And it fpcnis wuiuicirful, tliat this {hould he the Cafe, not »' only with adyjc Perfonsj but with Children alfb- It is ob-«' fervable here, that many Children ( if not the Children ; «* in general) retire into fecrel Places to pray. And, as fair «* as a: preft;nt I can judge, this is not ihe Efecl of Cufiom " and Fafhlon, but oi real ficrioufnefa and TboughtfuJiiefa ^** about their Souis.

*' I hsve frequently gone inio the Schawl, and have fpcnt *« confiderable Time there amongfi the Children ; and Bevc '« been Tiirprized to feei not only their diligent A (ten J^ncs •* upon thcBafinefs ef theSchoQl,biit alfo the Proficiency they " have made ii3 it, in Reading and Writing, and in thsir Ca-*^ techifma of divers Sans- It fecir.s to be as pleafing and as [ ** na^uralito thefe Chiidren,to have their Bs^ks in theirHsnd*, *f as it does for njany othera to he at P/cyr 1 have gone into s' an Houfe where there has been a Number of ChTldren ac-«' ci den tally gathered together i and obfcrvci, that every cr<e ** had his Book in fj;s Hand, and wts dilii^ently ftiidying of *' it. There is to ihe Number of about thirty of shefe Children, who can anfv^er to all the Queftinns in the Jfcm-** liy's Caiiibifm ; and [he bigger Fart of them are able to do *< it wiih the jprop/j, to the fourth Cominandment, I wiflj ** there ivere many fuch Schools : I confefs* that I never v/as ** acquainted with fuch 2k one, in many Refiieds. Oh that *' what God has done here, may prove to be the Beginning *' flfa far mare gloriyus and c^tesifis';: Wotk of Grace Ernong '= the Heathen. i am yyut obsdicntaniJ dutiful Son,

« P. S. Since

I

1

OnlispmeeJingMsmoin. 305

" P S. Since tilt: DateofthiEi I have had Opsjoriumty to <. attendcponanolherDfMr.S«;«Ws cilcchcticalLcauics:' '< and irulyJ was convinced, that Mr. BtakirdMnatmm-" okin before qf his People's Defeas in ariweriiig toQucai-, <■ on5ptop(>fed,'w:thoutResron:Foi althc' ihs.r A;a.«T " at that Time exceeded my Expeaations very much j vet^ "their Performances at this Leaurs very much emed«l

Since this, we have had Accounts from Tune to 1 me,an<i toe very late, which (hew ihat Religion (till contmuts rn profperous and mod dcfirabie Circirmftanccs among Ihe.e

' V. Is there noS much in (he preceetiiiigMemoirs ofMr. Bwi-. nirdla (each.and excite toDaty,UB who are called to th'Work of ihsMimjlry, and all that iKCaniidaU! for that great Work! What a deep Sent did he feent to have of the Orealntft and ll^portanceof Ihat Work, and with what We-gh dul rt he on his Mind I How ferihble was he of his own I.,fuific.er.cy for this Work i and how gteit was hii Dependanceon God a SiifSciency • How foiicitous, that be might be fu.ed for it And to t4 End, how much Time did he fpend m Prayer and Faftmg, as «ell as Reading and Meditalien i j-,v.»^ hmfij ti,lh,(cThl«it ! How did he dedicate hiS whole L.fe, all his Powers and Talents to God s and forfake and renetmce the %Varld, with all it's pleafingand enfnaring EnjormEnts, that he might be wholly arUberly, to ferve Chr.ft in this Woik ; and to ?toA him ih, h.i Mm tin, « U a^ S./i.r, under *. CmJ 'fcurSahMml With what Solicited., holemnlty, and Diligence did he de.o.e himfelf to Godonr Ssv.our and feekhis PrefenceandBkffiag in fecrer, at .he Time of his Or£n<„k« ! And how did his whole Heart =p=" .'l^""""-ftanlly engaged, his whole Time emplojed, and his whole " ren«h fpent inthe Bufoefs he then foleinely undtrtcok and v^a pebUckly fet apart .0 ! ~ And his Hiftory fhews ns the "ght Way Zsm^fi in the Werk ef the M.mary, He o.gh ,f a= a refolute Soldier feeks Vidory, ma Siege or Batt e ; or as a Man that runs a Race, for a great Fr«e. A»imat d w h Love to Chrift and Souls, how did he Ifon. .Iwp.fr'.^.tl,, not only in Word and Dofliine, in pubhck and privale.but inWJ<" Day and Night, ^r.Jilhi u,ilh G.dmkcrct, and ™.,-% in fl.X*, whb onuttetable Groans and Agonies, rr»-i; Ch4 «'r. finnd in the Hesits of the People ^o

'Jflfi

Eefleaions Md Obfervatiohs

Wemdixi MemoijB.

J07

wham hs was fent I How did hcthitft foraEleaing on his Miniftry i and walihfir Scull, u cm that noli givi Ammt ! Jioir dii hi t'f'rth if !h! Slrmgili 0/ ihi Lord Gad; fcekmg and dependiDg on a fpecial influence of the Spirit to aflift anl fucceedhim! And what was the happy Fruit at laft, though aflcc long wailing, and many dark and dlfcouraging Appeaf-anMB I Like a tlue Son of 7a«*, he peifeVEldd in wreftUng, tliiaugh all theDarknefs of theNight, until the breaking of the

And his E:iample of labourlngjpfayinE.dEnyinghimfelf.ani endudn;: Haidnefs, with nnfaintingRefoliition and Patience,' and his faithful, vigilenc,and prudent Condua in many other Eefpeas (which it would be too long now particularly to I6-. 'cite ) may afford Inftrvaion to Mip^nria in patticukr.

Vi. The ftircguiiiE Account of Mr. BraasrJ'! Life may aP.ird Inftruaion to ChrilKam in gmtral; as it (hews,in many Kcfpefts, the light Way of ?MiSr/i»f Religion, in order to oblainln^ the fijiiJiof it, and rccciring the DMtpi of it; or how Chriffians (liould rta the Rati, Jit bifft thm, if they would not run h vain, or ran as tititcrtainly, but would ho-jiour God in the Woild, adorn Iheir Profeftton, be Serviceable to Mankind, have the Comforts of Religion while they live, be free from dilquteting Doubis and dark Apprehcnfions about (he State of their Souls; enjoy Peace in the Approaches

of Death, and fii:ip> ihiir Cmrjiimlh 7»J In get^eral, he

reach recommended, for this Purpofe, the RtimplianifTnni, great miiiinn in the BuSntft of the Chriilian Life, mtchful-mfs, &c. And ho very remarkably excraplify'd ihefeThings.

Bur particularly, his Example and Succefs withRegard So one Duty in fpecial, may be of great Ufe to bothMinifters and ' private ChriHians ; [ mean, the Duty i>i fltrclFa/ltBg. The Reader has fceo, how much Mr. Urainird recommends this Duty, and hov/ frtsjucntif he exercifed himfelfiniti Nor can "it well have efcap'd Obfcrvation.ho* much he wasown'd and blefs'd in it, and of what great Benefit itevidently was to his Soul Among all the many Days be fpent infectetFaiting and Prayer, that he gives an Account of in his J)Mry, (here i) ifcarec an inftance oFone,but what was eichcr attended or toon followed wiih apparent Succefs, and a remarkable Blefllng, in fpecial Incomes and Confolacions of Clod's Spirit; and

very often, b= fore ih= Day was ended But it iBuft be

iibfetvcd, that when be let about this Duty, lie did it in good

pjtn?!!}

Ea,n«ftM/"*r;Kho( the Spirit of >.*, «ho

Vll. There is rntich '^'^;^'^^^^%:^'::tT^S-and encourage God's People to earnettt-raK __j ,

vours for .he ^^----'^f B;.STt - an e.ce/en, Ex-

''"V" IhifRet a ■ He ug t the Profperit, of Zj™ wrih ample in this KBipett. ne 6 ^ i,is chief Joy.

„11 his Might ■ He prefer d J»'J'™ ■ , ^nd how

How did his Soul long ft; ";^7/ji ^'c^ ^for it ! A»d how earnefily and often du he wrehle wltn f^^„ ,„ be carried

. t^i^^:;^=?J^SE5-":3r'

■em, to be much ,n i-fj'^l^J^Z Revival ofReligion. pouring of the Spirit of L-od.and «ilenn. ^^ ^^^

\ eonf^fs, 't-''God's g.ving a mur:!, °f a ^p ^^^ .^

this Mercy to fo eminent Servan o ^ ^^^^^^^^ ^ foextraordinary a Manner. "Owtn ^^ Tlme.thro-

of Bool, •°=E°"i^=;"F"?"7Th;g, among others, v,hieh theCourfe of ,'V*';''tL GodhasaDef.gnof acconrplifhing gives me great Hope, ^^^'^""Xtereft of his Church before fomething very glorious for ';='"{';, ives motoEn-long. One fuclj l"ft=f «;= '^' '„ c'," formal Prayers o! couragement, than *= ""'.^^^^'.fi"f nd Prayers for the Thoufanis, AS Mr. £r«.«^ = M-^ ^^^ i,,,,rdi.^rr.' comingofChrrft'sKmgdolD,werev,ry;p ^^_^ ^^.

fo, I think, we may reafo b y "0 ' ^^^^ ^.^^ ,„„,.

cited tbofe DeSres and Prayets, mil an .^^j^^ ^j^„,,_

do I think it worthy to be taKennos! r ,] ^„i beyond

.hat he had his Heart {as he dec! r d ^nu ^^"f^ ? ,„

what had been before, drawn out '"^'"B ^ j,^„ ^ewas inl

rteFlourifhingofChrift's ^'"f ™ ™ .f^"^-,'d;i„g Breath he

, .„, Approaches of f "'V.itloar"ng Soul nto the Bofom of rfidasit were breathe out hrdepar..ngbo_^^^g^^„,.

^(.Redeemer, in P-?^" ^^a ^loon btjin .0 be ful-

eaipiiinsm a ^"^e^'^T'V^Jl wbicfe he in his dying Bt=te fled. And!wiihitbs-t(teThoisv,Wcanen '^^,^1^^

jjjg RcSedions mid Obftrvationa

txpteffed of tbal 5xp)icitAgresineiit,an(I viiibleUnion ofGod's People, in extiaoidinary Prayci for a general Revival of Religion, lately propofed in a Meinoriil from Satlini, which has ieen difpcrfEd amojig us, may be vel\ confHeied by thofcthat

hitherto have nolfcen fit (o fall in with that Fropofal. But

J forbear to fay any more on this Head, having already largely publilhcd niy Thoughts upon it, in a Difcourfe written onPar-pofe to proroofc that Affair ; which, I conle6,I wiil) (hat every one of BiyReadcnmight be fupplied wiili ; not that liiyHotiour, but that this excellent Defign might be promoted.

As there is much in Mr. Bmirmd't Life to encourage Chri-ffians (o fcek the Advancement of Chrift's Kingdom, in general ; fo there ii, in particular,!o pray for the Converfion of (he

' Itidlum on Shis Continent, and to exert Ihemfclvcs in the Ufe of proper Mcana for U'a AMompliftiment. For it appear), that he in hia nmitter.iblc f.utigings and Wrefllings of Soul fsr the FlourJIhiiig of Keligion, had his Mind peculiarly inleol 00 ihe Converfion and Salvation of thcfc People, and his Heart more erpccially engaged in Prayer for them. And if we cojifi-dcr the Degree and Manner in which he from Time toTime, fought and hoped foranextcnflveWorkof Grace among them, 1 thill k, we have Reafon lo hope, that the wonderful Things, whichGod wrought among thera by him,are hut aForc-runner of fcmcthin^^ yet mlEch more glorious and extcnfivc of that Kind i and°(his may juflly bean Encouragement, lo well-difpofed charitable Terfons, to hsnsur thi Uri iiiith their &ub-flancc, by contributing, as they are able, to promote the fprcad-inj of theGofpelamonglhem i and this alfo may incite and encourage Gentlemen who arc Incorporated, and intrufted with theCarcandDifpofoloflhoftiibcialBcnefaaions, which have already been mtde by piousPeifoos, to that End ; andlikewife the MiiTionariesthimfelves, that are or may be employed s and it may be of Diteaion unto bol!i,as to the propctCJualifications ofMifTmnaries, and the proper Mcafures to be talcen in order to their Succefs.

One Thing in particular, I would take OccaEon from the foregoing Htffory to mentiimand propofe to the Confideration

lof fnch as have l!ie Care of providing and fending MJpcmriis amoDgSavages J viz. Whether it would not ordinarily be hefl

I to fend (tuo together ? 1[ is pretty manifeff, that Mr. Brnimri's going, as bcdid, alone into the howling Wildernefs, was one great Occsfion of fsich a prevailing of Melancholy cnhisMInd; Which was bis Eri.aicftD;faJvsiitage. He was much in fpeak-

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ine of it hinifc!r,whenhe was here in his tlyingSute s and ex-, crelTcd htmfelf, to this Pnipofe, thai core could conceive of the mfadvantage i MifKonary in fuch Cireumftances was utl-der, by heio^ alone; efpccially as it ei^P/'J Jiin to D-fcou-ra^ement i.nd (viclanchol, ; And fpokeof theWtfdom ofChnfi: in°fending forth his Difciples by Two and Two ; and left it as his dying Ad vice 10 his Btolher, never lo go to SuM«mh, , to travel about in rhat remote Wildsrnefs, to preach to the j hJiam there, as hs had often done, without the Compinv of a Feliiai-Milfimafr. , - i, tr j

VIII. One Thing more may not be unprofitably obfctvcil in thsprececding Account of Mr. Braintrd; and that is the /sms/and rimariabk Difpijsl cf divine Providence, with llc-oard to the Cirmmllencis of his lad Hcknefi mi Dialh.

Tho' he had been long infirm, his Conftitutioti being mnctl broken by his Fatigues and Hatdfhips ; and tho' he was often btousht very hv, by IHncfs, before he left KaunMmid, and alfo While he lived at the Fo,h »/ Dilam^u : Yet his Life was prcferved, 'till he bad fecn that which he had fo long and greatly defiicd and fought, a glorious Work of Grac= among the M/™r, and had received the wiflred ot BlefTingof God on his Labours. Tho' as it were i» Uwlij f/(, yet he lived to bcliold the happy Fruits of the long continued Travail of hi! Soul and Uhourof his Body, in the wonderful Coiiver-fion of many of the Heathen, mi the happy E&a of it m the great Change of their Converfation, with many Cltcumlbnces whichafFordeda fair Profpefl of the Ooniniuance of (jod a BlefEng upon them i as may appear by what I fhallprerently

further obfeive Thus he did not difarl, idl bis Bfl>

had fun Gud'i Sahatim. , „ „ u ,.i.,„

Tho- it was the Fleafureof God, that hefhould be taken

off from his Labours among that Feopie whom God bad made

him 1 fpirltual Father to. who were fo dsar to him.and whole

fpirituil Welfare he was fo gieatlyconceioed for i yet this was

not befotethey were Vftll initiated and inlifuaed in the Cbtll-

tiar. Reliaion. thoroughly weaned from Ihcii old hcalhenilh

aod brutiih Notions and Praflices, and all I heir Prejiidice? and

Jeakffllies, which tended to keep their Minds unfettlcd, were

■ fully removed ; and they were confirmed and fiRod 10 ine

ChriftianFaiih and Manners, were forraedmtn a Lln.rch ImO

cccler«fticalOrdhiances ard Ditcipline introduced & ioitlea ,

were brought iato a good V/ay with Rf^fpea to the Lducation

of Childico, bid a School-MaSdr ftn: to thMnm I'rov.tknce,

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cxcdkBtly cualifted for the Buflneft, and h.d a^School fetuj. 'S IfabllfteJ, i" f"'! OiAt., among then, ; Md been wd br«S'fffrom.fa.^^ fo™» Idle, ft"ll»E> ^''"■'^y'f ?' !,"„,■. had removed ttom ihdr fcrmtr tatteied unccrtMn

f™d Piece cf L.„d of (heir o>vn 5 were mtroduceJ .nto he WW living bvH.fb.ndry, and began ,0 e^peneirce the Benefits of itfw/. Thrfc Thiags were bnt )ull bjaught to nrhv h-^ iptletaisablc Application .nd C«e, and ihei. ho ws. fatn'offfroi b/work b', Illneft. If '1-^= h.d been bu a^ nule fooncr, they wonld by no Means have been fo well pre-B id for fuch aDifpenfation ; and it probably would h»ve bocn' S"fpoaka% «-e .'c.,!,. Hurt of their fpiritual Intereft, and of the Caufe of Chrifljanity Btnong ihcm. ,

TbrTims and Cirrumflanccs of hi. lllnefe were fo ordered ihrhc h.J j.a Opportunity to linifh hl. 7.»™^A and deied, innl nc ^ ij Account of the marvellous

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Thing of gte" Confe,uen«, and there ore urged upon h,rn A he C.r4.«A«/;, wh. have honout'd h.= Journal w,th a Priace tL world being particularly and juftly .nfortrred „ ta kair by Mr. ErM, before l,i=Dca,b, a F™"d^"°n was htr.b, hid for a Conc-m in Mrs for that Caufe, and proper c/re and Meaf..re» to be taken for '"e ma,nta,r.y,g tt ThIrnU Death, As it has »auatl7 proved to be of gteatlnfla-^ne sndBeuefit in ihisRefpea ; it having elated and engaged X in thofc Pat.=, .nd alfo more dittapt Part, of ^w«J, to Ser l«.r'l«= fj the upholding and prcmotmg fo good and eloriou. a Work, remarkably cronins the.r Heart, and Hands I, that End : And pot only in A^mia, bu tn trM( Sr,tc,«. there that J.urn.l { ^.bi.h i, thefame that have earn.ft , re-

romn^ende/to my Readers ''' V'^t^Ttl L\ tl beenanOcofionof fome largo Benefaa.om. "'flf^^' nromotinH the InleriftofChtiHianlty among the J""""'--:" ^r »™Wribad been ,aken lllbu.a li.t o fooner, he had no L; able to compleat thi.hi= Journal, and prepare a Copy for

"hJ^; no. t^ken off fron, the Workof '^-^'"'y^^^^, hi. EeoDle. 'till his Xr«t,r was in a tapacity and Lircum ll^Xflli fcnn in hisCe of them : Wh^ "-=f^™ in the llko Spirit, nJ unc'cr whofc prudent and '^.thful t_a^= Ills Congreg.tion bis fiouiiOiEd, jnd been very h.ppy, imce he

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J i„i,lj could not have been fo well provided I=ft thf 5 '1'^ ^7Mr'Z-«"/h.d been difabled fooner hi.

S:r;e?;TLf.ra. b': r sr.ithh. .^aiconr^p-

Thn'ti, that Winter (hth= ay M ^^ ^^/^^^^,

£/,>*<(6-r.™,h= continued for a tons 1 ^^ ^^^ ^.^

loJstate fo that h- W « J^™« P ^, ,,„„,j

S,„e was f";-'™^;/':^J,f ^ ;'L"e wa. fparod a while longer , ivE aDaytoan b.na > 7" ' - ii^.J„f,f, being com=

l,e lived .0 fee bs f'J^'; " '^, .^ ^,t, .fjil, himfelf had tofucceed hrrn "'"^^^^^Examinatran and Introdrraion intt, Opportunity to airft '^^^^^ ^ ^oudua of his dear People hi, Bufinefti r'J°iil°„'^™andoooUputConfide.,cein,and ,0 One whom bewll knew, Inflruajons and

"cha^;:frdrde;"wScare h'.could leave hisCongtega-tior, with great Chearfulner.j^^y^ Info ordering of The Providence tJt '^°, " , j ,,vj j Tourney into A'sra-„, that before his Death he a™" «>== i^J^^/Refpe^, of £„j/.„^,and f»J" f^ "nf;,lceto.heln.ereil ol Religion, very great and happy >-o.o'eH J g ,his Means, aa

, Jefpecially among ^ "^/^ Pf„„ Acquaintance with

has been o''f«"^VT .r^^d IniSuence, Minifters and others, manyPetfons of Note and Muen^^,^^^ Part, of the Ccun-belocgmg both ."the o«r^ ^^^ ^^ Advantages .0 bear ay i and had Opportunj ^^^ ^ ^ ,^^f, f,,rg

aTeftintonyfo C^odandu e b^ ^^^ p,,nicious to th= Appearances of it that wve V ^ J ,^5 p,oy,.

denccof God i=Pf"™';'' , fo, true Religion ; su^- ThaS „f ,be Teitimony ^e *^"='';; ^e g""'. and'contrnued for fa he ilrerew.sbroughtfo nea tt.el,« . ^^^^ from Tin»e

„,g a Time on the v 'r^^^^^^ ^^ ,„„k'd on by other., a. ,oTime,)oDk'don himielt, an ^^ ci.curoftances

jdf leaving the Word 5 '"^'^'^"^ ^3.,!,,^ ;„ hi^Tho'ts iefhouldhefopart.cular!yd.ett=U ^^^^ ^^^^ ^^^

,„d V,e..sof Rd.g.on> <» f-S;'^,y,,„ . ,^ that after the falfc, wrlb fuob '-'^f "'i^/ j furnriv/insly reftoied and .his b. Ihould be ""'^f; [^;°„ „ Jerfe fTeely ; and have ftrensihned, fofat « "J^V, occafions V> dsclaie t^e benti-fuchOpportunity, and (pecia^^Jt.*.""" ^^i^

merits he had in thefe, whici) were, to haman Apprelieufiou, Z,iymf, CitcumftancK ; anJ to b«r bb Tcffiraony concem-L the Nature of tme RcligiGn, ar,J c™«rn,n| the rai <:fc«-Vo.sTeideoLyoI it's moft prevalent Corrnlerta. ar^l falfe ZpearariK!; as Tilings he had a fpeci»l,dear d.fttnaV.ew ri at !h"t T.n=e, wher! ho cxpafled !a a few Mrrt.tc. to b= in Eternity; and the CertaiDtj & Impoiunce of which were then, in a pKuli»r Maiuier, imptofsM on his Mind,

AmpnE .he happy Cortftquence. of his gomg to ^f ""'7" thofeTberalBeneraaio-s ih.t h«e be=n '"'^""™'^'-^^^^'a wL made by pious difpof.d Ferforr,, for the ma,„<a,nmg and promoting the int«.ft of Religion among h.s People And Bifo the ro=etii,e of a Number of Gentlemen in W'-,f No<e and Abimy. tocorrfnlt upon Meafutc for (h« Furpofe ; who ZtT^^Mi by their Acqiraiirtsnce and Converfat.m w.th Mr B™W.-n' byrhcAceoent of the greatThings God hai wrooabt by his Minifiry. to unito themrdves, that by ihm ;oint EBdeavours and Contributions they miehl promotB ths fensdom of Clrrift, and the fpititual Good of their Fellow-Creatures, among the hdiam in N,v,-Jerf,f,mi^\Sewym.

It was alfo rcmarksblr, (hat Mr. ariinird fliould go to tifltn, at tbm Tina ; aftsK (he h.noutablc Commiffioiiars thtrc, of the Corporation ia LinJm for propagaimg the Gofpel iQW™-£wlai.J and Parti adjactnt, liad rscdved Dr. frU-tim't L.fi8(;y for tlie maintaining of two MifKonaries among theHeaihep ; and at a Time when they having toncludciS on a Miffion to the IruSims of the Six-li^tlons { fo called ) w«b lookinE out for fit Perfons to be iraploycd in that Important SeivicJ. This proved w Occafion of their coramitting to h.m the Affair of finding and recommeodinE fuitable 1 erioiis ; Which has proved a fusccffol Means of two F«rons being found mi afltially appointed to that Bufinefs ; who fern la be weU qualified for it, and to have iheirHearts greatly engaged in it: One of which 1»! been folemniy ordain'd to thatWork in SoJIon, and is now gone forth to one of thofe Tribes, who have appeared weUdifpofcd ro hisRcception : It beins judged not convenient for tho other to go'till the nexl Spring, by Reafon of his bodily Infirmity. * Thefa

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«1. would have been prevented - ^«,^^; Qr if af.e. &as brought fo ne« ■" "ea h in W™ 7 / y_^^,^ ^^ ^ ^^^

S.M at aTime when not on y *=;°^"'^^ ^^ but jutt afterr wete reeking MilEonartes »'^^=/;;,*f hi 1 abours and Suc-

hts >»rn.i, '""'^S e'7LTh«n re ived and fpr.ad inS*- : cefsamong (he AdMiir.hadoetn (i,^ M.nds of faious

Whereby hi, Name «' ^"™'';,,', ,Vy, Perfon, and the

P^pk were well prepared to ''"'"^ • ^hemfelves far

TTftim«nyhe .here gave '« ^^V, , ^ol Religion in his

the upholding ""■'/'"""'ftStTjil-,. eir.«here°-, a.d to

Congregation, ''"V^leorninrtbe %-'ifa'i™= "' ^"^^^ tegardhis Judgment coneon.ig ^ ^^^ j,^ t,ad

naries, f^'- "^=^f,f "/wr^ y ito Ne«-En,l.,i, but

intended tohatre '^'',''=,^'%J Xc^eufeof his Ulnefs) ttw^'ld „as prevented by a fuddengrc^anct. ^^^^^^ ^^^^ ^^

not have been JAcly to have been in "' X ^ ^, jetained m "Effea 1 And alfo =' "^^''^^;,°\^r,:y Hou.e, \l intended t^ Boftm; For when ^%,^„'l™ Sit divine Providence by „^ke but a -">,»?:* ^'Xrcdetain-d hint long .thereby bis being brought '"'™'rjifs own gracious Defig.>s-to make Way for ^''^ ^^'X.markable in fo ordering, that The Providence of God was rein ^^^^ ,(

aUho' he -^^re^'^^Sdh wcoTd ever come alive out was not in the leaft f t"^" ,™f„.i„ „vi^ed, and was prc-Tf his Chamber ■, yet he ^"'^^"'X. he had OpP»'t""''y <° ferved feveral Mcntl,s »S" V^° ti' oungerBr'fe^^ before

lent aDeflgn ; brfidcs '^e B="««^'^ ^^ Chearlulnefs have

of Perrons «^f*;„tTe"rr-i^i'"''-'^^t,-' rnr'/;;4«H.l°—aUnftderab. Fat.of h.

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State, and might leave with h;m fuch Inftruaions and DiretjJ ijona 39 were rcquifue in order to their rplritua] Wdfare^ and to fend to ;h&m his dying Charges and Coniifels. Ar\d he had alfu OppottunUy, by Means of thla Sufpenfioji of hi* D<:ailij to find and recommend g Couple of Perfons fit to be emfFloyed tuMiJien^rui to the Sin Nalions, as had beendefired of him.

Thus, altho' it was the PJpafure of a foverdgn God, that he fliotih! be ukep away from hie Congregaiiorij the People that he had begrjtten through thcGofpel. who were fo deal to him i yet it was grnmed to him, chit before he died he fhoTild fee them well prtwUgd for^ every Way : He faw them provided for With One to inftrya them,and takeCareoF theic Sods \ hia own Brother, whrun ht: cuiiJti confide in ; He faw a good FoufiJ^ilion I;*ici for ihc Support of the School among ihciii; thofe Things that before were wanting in order to it, b^ing fuppli&d ; And be had the Profpctt of a chaTJtahk Sajtiy being cltafahfiied^ of ab'e sand well-difiiofed Peifcns, who feem go make (be fpiritual Iiuercft of bis Congregation their own ; whireby he had a comfortable View of _thejr being weliBpro-■vidcd fnr, for the future : And he had alfo Opportunity to leave a,Il his dying Charges wiih bis SucccHbr in the L'aiioral Care of his People, and by him to fend his dying Coiinfels (a ihem. Thus God granied him to fee all Things happily fettled, or ill ahopefi:! VVay of bein(* f^i before his Deaih, with Re-fpci^t IP Illy liear Pcop!e— And wiiereaa not only i:j's ownCon-gregationj but (he SquIs of tijc It^d^^m in Narih-jdm^rtca in geoeialj were very deartohimj and he had greatly fet his Heait o!i the propagating and exceiidiisg the Kingdom of Chrilt among'etti; God was pJeafiid to granrto him (however it was hjji Wi!l, that he fiiaiild be taken away, 3nd To Jhould not be {be tmuiedjate Inftrunit^it of their iuftrutflion and Con-verfion, yet ) ihat before his Death, iiefhould (tc unexpe£ted cKtrJort^inary I'iovilirn siiade for tins alfo. And 'tis remarkable, that God not oniy ailuwed him to fccfuch Provifioninadc for ihe mainramlng tht Intereff of Religion among his own PeopJCjand tbel-'ropagfUiuii of ii vlfcwhere j but honoured him by tnaking him the Means or Ot:czfion nf it. Su ihat il iq very probable, huwevei Mr. Brainsrd, during the lail four Months

(of his Li(e, Wa5 kirdinarily ifi .an cT^tremdy weak and lowKuEC, very oficji fcirc^Iy able to Tjieali ; yet that he was made tha Jniliujijitnt or Means of t^iizh niQio Quod jti ilm Space uf

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^T' , TWm<, wherEin appwrs the tnercifal UifpoM of , Anothei Thing, wn^E n H ^ |j^ jy ^^

"' t""/:^rCc m. 1 veXf a™ for ,he Benefit of ,

p«s, and (or reviewing ihe '^"^ ' ™" ^^ ^„„ f^pprcfs'd ; ho weld .r Uft We ordered *=™ '^ "^^.^ I, ^^^ of Bal after Ihis. he the more roiHuy y e'"i ^

bis Fri=nd., »nd ^.3 billing .0 leave *™ "'G^-fGlory : be difprfcdof. .bey .h..eHt 7g^^;Xl 1 ?hllac»r,L By which Mean., *< fe,^ *«.^'. ^''{f^^' " ' .. Whereby it

:f^l^;::;er^:^;f.;:;t{flrr;=^^J*^^-of

be accomplifli'd after his Death.

If „efe Ci.cn.ffa„c. of ^r.J.i«r^;. Da.* b= d^Jy conSdereJ.ldoubr not hu! tHey Will be ™"*'™'= p j u. Sl= I„ft.„eeof God'. F.,herlj C"=. - ^ovenan -Fa. („l„eft towards them that are devoted to >='"> .^";'"^^^^^ fcrve him While ih=y iive ; whereby fe «" r ' -' f^J'

'lo^D 1 and both in Life .ndD«,h they .re own ij^^^^^

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nas much rn taking Notice ( when neir his Enil) of (he mer-"' /dfu! eircumitaiicei of his Death; aadfaid, ftom Time to TiBie.lhai Gtd had panted him all bit Difiri.

And I would not cotcIuJc myObfeivations on (he merciful • Cirtamttaticcs of Mr. Bramtnfs Death without acknowleiig-ing withTdanJcfuIners, the graciousDifpenfalion of Pmvidence to ine and my Family, in fo ordering, that he (tho' the oidi-nary Place of his Abode was more than 200 i^iles diftant ) iCmuId be caft hither, to my Houfc, in his lat! Sidtnefs, and fhoold die here: So that we had Opportunity fof much Acquaintance and Converfation with him, aod to Ihew himKind-nefs in inch Circumiianees, artd to fes his dying Eehaviaur, so liear his dying Speeches, to receive his dying Counfela, nnd to have the Benefit of his dyingPrayerSr May God in infinite Mercy grunt, iliat we may ever retain a properRcttlera-branceofthefe Things, and make a due Improvement of the Advantages we hafc hsd, in thefe Refpefls ! The Lord grant alfo, that the foregoit^g Account of Mt, Brainird's Life and Death may be for the great fpirilual Benefit of all that Ihal! read it, and prove a happy Means of promoting the Revival of true Religion in (htfe Facta of the World. A M I H.

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JiOOKS printid for and foldly D. Henchman <tt his Shpovlr agoinfi the Old Brick Metting-Hmfi ill CornhiU.

QT^ii^ri', Safety of.appearii!g in thcRiihleoufaefa of Cbiift,

O .- His Guide to ehrifl.

Shtpfffi Siticere Convert. -'- Sound Believer.

jStihm-^ Wifdom of GOD inlheRedemption t>f fallenMai., ..- Difcourfes from fi™. viu. i+. Setting forth the cleareft and (utell Marks of our being fo led by the Spltti f of (job - as to dcmonllrate that wo are tho Children oi God.

Pmhirm'> Praflical Difcotirfes, 1. The Dignity & Glory

of M^tSinritive S<ate. 11. The Nature ar>d N'ecefflty of

• limrfm. IJI. ThcReafonah)et.er.offtrrV,ngloobtamSat-

vaX, IV. The Method of "ivlne Gtace m Uonvetflon.

V The Nature and Obligation of R,ccmns Cbfrft by Farth.

VI The Duty of imitaUng the Exjriiple of tasisT, Vli, The Folly of Icfmg.the Smi for the Ga.n of iheSPlrtf.

Dr. ^sfi's Guide to Prayer.

An Account of the Life and Ddith of Mt>, Elii»m Eur}.

The Marrow of Modern Divinitr. Touching the Cove-Bant of Works, and the Covenant ot Grace In a Da-. Lue between a Miniiterof the Gofpel-a Legahft - ar> Antinomian — au'i a young Cbriilian.

Dr. aimms Difcouifcs on the Itsoomptehen&blBnefs oE. GOD.

Spiritual Songs-Or Songs oi Praife, with Pe.ite.tiat Cries to Mmgky GOD upon feveral OccafLU,. Togrthec with the EoKG of Songs wUieh is Solomons.

' Hichi's Doubting Ciripm drawn so Gheist.

lirhf. Nature ani Neceffitj of the ^'■^-^'"'^^^^^^.^

BOOKS Sold hy Di Henchman;

Edwardi*^ Humble Attempt to promote explicit Agreement aiJQ vifibJe Union of God^s People iji exiraonimiiry Prayer for the Rivival of Religion &<::.

Bn/mgs's Good GDvernment of Chriflisn Famiiiea recommended. With a DifcQurfe of fecret Prayer,

f^risht's Treatife of bcirg born agaij), wUhout vvliich ISO Man can be favcd.

Jikine*i Alarm to the Unconverted*

F:ix on Time and the ^nd of Time^

£ri£ei*s Seven Sermon^.

Mssiiy {"Jofhua) Fraflica! Difcourfc concerning ihe Benefit Q*^ Communion with GOD in Jiia Houfe.

Mather's Apology for the Liberty of the Chuiches ■ ill l^ewBfigiand. To which is prefiji'd a Dlfcoujfe concerning CoPgregntional Churches.

SsrHnrd's. Sermons on feveral SubjeHs> vh. A Confirma-tion of the Truth of (he Chriftian Religion. Compel ihem tQ come iiu The Chriftian Heio, or the Saints Vidlory and Reward.

Willjsmi (Sslomm) CHuraT the King and Witnefs of TkutHj anJ the Nature EKCclleticy and Extent of his iiingdom as founded in TatiTHand only pioracted by it»

Some Remartable PafTages in the Life of the Hob. CoJ, Jamg» Gardner, who was Bh'm&t, Prsjsti-Pefii, With a Sermon by P. Dodkidge,D. D*

Meditations on fcvera] diyinfiSubjeSsr I. The Humanity of C^rKiBT- II. TheExttJifivenefs of God's good Defigft in ielllng Jsfeph into Egypi. III. Chkjist the Kin^ fitTJng at his Table, IV, Of the Love of CHRisT and faving Knowledge of it. With a Letter tp a Friend,

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